Chapter 19 Chapter 19: About Regret, About Love

I have only seen the interaction between Shen Qinyan and Gu Chijun on the set before. At that time, they only talked about topics related to the movie, such as the lines.I never once saw a private exchange that I thought they were strangers. Although I promised Xu Zhen to attend her daughter's birthday party, I didn't know until the next week that I made a mistake.I was temporarily sent on a business trip for a week to my alma mater.During this business trip, I discussed a major issue of the WNSP protocol with my mentor, and got the opportunity to use the Star supercomputer. I have encountered many problems in the actual operation of the WNSP agreement, and it will be difficult to solve it for a while, so I especially need to ask the teacher for help. Although the WNSP agreement is my idea, there are several details that I wrote under the guidance of my mentor.

But I was still worried about my elder brother. When I was at the airport, I informed my elder brother that I was going abroad, and asked him and Yao Yao about the situation.My eldest brother said that they had reconciled, so I was relieved. When I was abroad, I didn't have much contact with China, so my time was extremely precious.I stayed in the computer lab every day, racing against time to test, and finally returned home two days early.I basically didn't sleep, but I had a full sleep on the return plane. Shen Qinyan came to pick me up at the airport, and I was sleeping all the way, not even knowing when I would get home—but when I woke up, it was already the next morning, and I was in the guest room of Shen Qinyan’s house, still dressed in yesterday’s clothes, wrinkled. Baba, with messy hair like a chicken coop, and it smells like the air conditioner on the plane.

This is really ugly, I don't know if he will dislike me.I glared at him, "Why didn't you wake me up last night?" "Seeing that you are so tired," Shen Qin said very calmly, "This is not the first time I see you sleeping." I froze for a second and found out that he was teasing me about what happened when we first met, wishing I could hit him with a pillow. He reached out and rubbed my hair, "Go home and change, then come over for breakfast, and then we'll go to Xu Zhen's house." After getting in the car, I found an exquisite gift box the size of two palms on the back seat of the car, "Is it a gift for Gu Zhu?"

I have been away from home because of a business trip, and the gift was prepared by him. "yes." "What is it? It doesn't look like a puppet..." "Kids computer." I burst out laughing. Shen Qinyan explained: "They are going back to Switzerland. The puppet is too big and it is inconvenient to carry it. I thought about it, and your suggestion is better." I said proudly: "Of course!" Gu Chijun and his wife live in an old four-story apartment in the city. The outer walls are covered with ivy. The environment is good, but the corridors are very narrow and there is no elevator. Fortunately, they live on the first floor.

"They live here?" "Yes, they live abroad all year round, and they only live here occasionally when they return to China." I remembered what my elder brother said about Gu Chijun's termination of the contract with the film company, and I immediately felt relieved. Shen Qinyan was very familiar with this place, so he stopped in front of an iron gate and knocked on it.The house here is very old, and the door locks are a little rusty.The door opened, and the person who opened it was Xu Zhen wearing an apron. She smiled at us, "You are here, please come in."

This house is a little old, and the furniture is also old, but no matter how you look at it, it is filled with a strong atmosphere of home.The living room is unusually large, and in the center of the living room stands a building block castle about 70% complete, about six to seventy centimeters high; the castle is surrounded by a wall surrounded by colorful Lego blocks, forming a side length of about A two-meter cube with Lego bricks scattered all over the floor. However, the person playing with building blocks was not there at this time, and the room seemed a little empty. I looked around, obviously we were the first guests today, Xu Zhen greeted us to sit down on the sofa in the living room, I handed over the computer in my hand, Xu Zhen smiled, "Xiaozhu and her father are going out together I will probably be back soon. I will accept it for her first, thank you."

"You're welcome," I waved my hand, "I just don't know if Xiaozhu likes it or not." "Of course I like it. There is no child who doesn't like computers." Xu Zhen smiled, as if I had said some unbelievable joke, "Thank you for being so thoughtful." I pursed my lips and laughed, "It's Shen Qinyan's suggestion." Xu Zhen raised his eyebrows and looked at Shen Qinyan.He smiled, "Xiao Zhu went out with Dad, what about the twins?" "The twins were picked up by my mother to play in the villa. They stayed there for a full week. Until today, they are still reluctant to leave and say they don't want to go home." Xu Zhen rubbed his temples, and the smile on his face faded, "But today is my sister's. Birthday, they are coming back anyway, Gu Chijun is going to pick them up. Xiao Zhu is like her father’s tail, she is also clamoring to pick up her two older brothers. My place is much cleaner, and I can finally do it with peace of mind. Do some housework."

Shen Qinyan comforted her, "Grandmother always dotes on the children, no wonder they don't want to come back." "It's a matter of doting," Xu Zhen sighed, "playing lawlessly for a whole week, I'm afraid that the one-year education of Gu Chijun and I will be wasted." "They're all children, so it doesn't matter if you relax a little bit," Shen Qinyan said sincerely, "Besides, you hardly ever return to China these years, it's only human that Director Liang will miss the twins very much." Xu Zhen smiled and asked us: "Oh, I was so busy talking, I forgot to ask you, do you want coffee or tea?"

"It's all gone." There was a strong aroma wafting from the kitchen, Shen Qinyan turned his head and asked Xu Zhen: "Are you cooking?" "yes." Shen Qinyan lowered his head and began to roll up his sleeves, "I'll help you prepare together." Before Xu Zhen could speak, I quickly said, "I want to help too." She looked at the two of us and smiled slightly, "That's good, anyway, there is no one else at home, so why not talk to me in the kitchen." As it turned out, I couldn't be of much help. Xu Zhen took out an apron from the cupboard, and Shen Qinyan tied it on when he was washing his hands. After that, he hardly did anything else—fortunately, the kitchen in Xu Zhen’s house is very big, so I always leaned against the sink, talk to them.

Xu Zhen is extremely skilled in housework, and the vegetables, meat, melons and fruits she prepared are all over the table. But it wasn't this that surprised me. She is a mother of three and should have been trained to be a good housekeeper.What surprised me was the tacit understanding between Shen Qinyan and her.After getting today's lunch menu, the two cooperated tacitly whether it was cutting vegetables or side dishes.For example, when the dishes are going to be put into the pot, Shen Qinyan will pass over the prepared plate; for example, when the sauce needs to be poured, Shen Qinyan will pass over the prepared sauce.

"Actually, every time I see Qin Yan cooking, I feel amazing, but today I saw double portions," I said enviously, "I basically don't understand." Xu Zhen smiled while busy, "I knew it." "What's wrong?" "When I heard An Lu say that you are a very good programmer, I was thinking that maybe you are not good at housework." Xu Zhen didn't stop chopping vegetables at all, "Shen Qinyan chased you, I'm afraid I didn't lose much food Work on it." My face became hot, "Sister Xu Zhen, how do you know?" "I'm just guessing. Although I don't know you very well, I still know Shen Qinyan very well." "Ah, what a shame." "The ruler is short and the inch is long. How can you be ashamed if you are not good at housework? When I was your age, I couldn't even cook noodles well. Gu Chijun did all the housework. But later I got married and had children. In the end, you have to do everything yourself, step by step day by day, and you will do it without knowing it, and it can be regarded as tempered by life." "Then maybe I can be as capable as Sister Xu Zhen in the future." Xu Zhen patted the back of my hand, "You are much more capable than me now." The way she smiled made me understand why Gu Chijun was willing to give up his career for her back then. Suddenly there was a commotion outside the house, and with the sound of opening and closing the door, the voices of several children rang out at the door. The quiet room suddenly became lively, and I heard the voices of two boys one after another, "Mom, we are back!" Xu Zhen wiped her hands to welcome her out, and Shen Qinyan and I followed behind her. Two little boys about seven or eight years old rushed over and almost knocked Xu Zhen down. They looked exactly the same. Xu Zhen patted their heads, "Do you still remember coming back? I thought you guys forgot me." The boy on the left held up an oversized model airplane and said, "Mom, grandma gave us the model!" The boy on the right holds a box and adds: "And rockets!" "Did you cause grandma any trouble this week?" "Of course not! Grandma likes us very much," the twins said in unison, "Mom, grandma told you to go to the villa at night and said that she would celebrate my sister's birthday." Shen Qinyan had told me before that one of the twins was named Gu Mingjin and the other was named Gu Shiwei, but the two children were so similar that I hadn't matched their faces and names yet. Suddenly, I noticed that behind the two little boys, there was a figure I was quite familiar with—children Lin Yue.He still looks proud looking at the sky with his eyes, but he is holding a four or five-year-old girl with his left hand.The little girl held a brand new doll in her hand.The little girl was astonishingly beautiful, with her waist-length curly hair and a pink top and skirt, she looked much cuter than the doll she was holding.Looking at her eyebrows and eyes that are very similar to Xu Zhen, I know that this is the little princess whose birthday is today. Lin Yue was a little surprised when he saw me, "Du Li, why are you here?" "The master invited me, so I am here." "Oh," Lin Yue frowned, "Are you also here to celebrate Xiaozhu's birthday?" "right." Gu Zhu hugged the doll, brought it to Xu Zhen like a treasure, and said in a sweet voice, "Mom, brother Lin Yue gave me a doll! He said that I am as cute as this doll." Xu Zhen smiled, knelt down, took the doll and played with it, and said softly, "Yes, it's very cute. Have you thanked brother Lin Yue?" "Thanks!" Xu Zhen turned to look at Lin Yue, "Thank you, Ah Yue." Lin Yue pursed his lips and snorted, "It's not worth anything, what can I thank you for?!" Xu Zhen smiled and shook his head, stood up, clapped his hands, and pointed at Shen Qinyan and me, "These two are Uncle Shen and Aunt Du. They are here to celebrate Xiaozhu's birthday today. Say hello." The three children—the twins and Xiaozhu, excluding Lin Yue of course—said in unison, "Hello, Uncle Shen, Auntie Du!" I have to say that the three children of the Gu family have completely inherited the advantages of their parents. They are so cute, and I am very happy to see them.But before Shen Qinyan and I expressed any emotion, one of the twins said, "Mom, can we go play?" "Go." The twins rushed towards the center of the living room holding the airplane model, their little sister rushed over not to be outdone, and Lin Yue followed Gu Zhu leisurely, looking like a flower protector. Gu Chijun was the last one to enter the room.He entered the room alone with big bags and small bags, and he breathed a sigh of relief after putting all kinds of bags in the entrance. He looked up at Shen Qinyan and me, and then smiled. Shen Qinyan and I greeted him, "Mr. Gu." Gu Chijun smiled at me, "Miss Du, I see you again. I always wanted to find a chance to express my thanks, but I didn't see you on the set. Today is a coincidence, please have a good time." "You're welcome, Mr. Gu." I said, "I'm sorry to bother you." Gu Chijun laughed, walked over to Xu Zhen and said, "The day Xiaozhu got sick, I rushed back from the island in a hurry, so I took a ride with Miss Du." Xu Zhen suddenly realized, and said with a smile: "It turns out that the little girl Chi Jun told me is you, it seems that there is really a fate." Shen Qinyan smiled and answered for me, "It is indeed." Gu Chijun looked at Shen Qinyan, his eyes stayed on his apron for a moment, and then he smiled happily: "Shen Qinyan, I'm sorry to trouble you to help in the kitchen. I'll take care of the next thing." Shen Qinyan nodded, said "Yeah", took off the apron and handed it to Gu Chijun. I have only seen the interaction between Shen Qinyan and Gu Chijun on the set before. At that time, they only talked about topics related to the movie, such as the lines. As for the private communication, I have never seen it once, so I thought they were strangers.I'm just a little puzzled-the two have completely different temperaments, but they both seem to be very good at housework. The two parents are preparing lunch, while Shen Qinyan and I are sitting in the living room watching the four children playing. Probably because I have a dumpling face, I am always very popular with children, and when I gather with relatives during the New Year, I am often sent to take care of the children—but fortunately, my cousins He listened to me very much. When I said east, no one dared to go west. But I was obviously treated as a transparent person in the living room of Gu's family. Four children, no one paid attention to me, so I was having fun. The twins are inseparable and jump around wherever they go.In order to grab the model, the two of them first had a life-and-death struggle, fighting from the sofa to the coffee table, and from the coffee table to the balcony, almost breaking the TV, which left me dumbfounded. After a while, the twins finally calmed down, putting their heads together and putting together models.They asked Gu Zhu to play with them, but Gu Zhu waved his hand and glanced at them out of the corner of his eye, "I don't want it!" As for Lin Yue, the twins completely ignored him. Lin Yue, who always kept his eyes above the ceiling, accompanied Gu Zhu into the toy castle in the living room, and continued to build the castle. I looked interesting and asked her, "Do you want Auntie to play with you?" "No, I can do it myself." I pursed my lips, thinking that not every child needs help from adults, so I nodded and said, "Okay." She concentrated on adding blocks to the right side of the castle, with a serious face like an architect. Shen Qinyan and I sat on the sofa and watched these children play, and I whispered: "The three children of the Gu family are so beautiful." Shen Qinyan nodded, "Just look at their parents." I sighed, "I don't know how Sister Xu Zhen can bring so many children. Back then, my mother was a full-time housewife and took me and my brother, and she was often dizzy with anger." Lin Yue gave Gu Zhu an idea, "You made a mistake! Put this piece!" Gu Zhu pouted, "I can fight myself, don't talk about it anymore!" Lin Yue insisted: "But you made a mistake!" The twins were busy fighting rockets, but they still made a face at Lin Yue, "If you point fingers, my sister will hate you!" Lin Yue was robbed, and his face immediately sank. I thought his temper was about to explode, but I didn't expect him to be silent for a long time, and finally he just cast an angry look at the twins, turned his face, and walked towards me come over. I said, "Xiao Yue, I didn't expect to see you today." "I didn't expect you to come either," Lin Yue said angrily, "Papa asked you to come, saying that today is Gu Zhu's birthday." I tried hard to think about the relationship between "Lin Yue's father" and "Gu's family", but I couldn't figure out why, so I couldn't help but look at Shen Qinyan. Shen Qinyan met my gaze and hesitated for a moment, "Lin Yue's grandfather and Xu Zhen's mother are husband and wife." This relationship is so tortuous, I thought hard for a while, and looked at Lin Yue dumbfounded, "So, Xu is really your aunt?" "No, I only have an uncle, not an aunt. They are not real brothers and sisters." Shen Qinyan gave a "hmm" and added, "They're stepbrothers and sisters, there's no blood relationship at all." "It's okay." I breathed a sigh of relief. Lin Yue jumped to the sofa beside me and sat down, "What's so good?" "If the relationship is too complicated, my brain will not be enough, and I have no idea about interpersonal relationships." I sincerely said to Lin Yue, "I don't know why, but the people I met recently are all familiar. I wonder, is this world too small?" "My father said that the world is big, but once you enter a certain circle, the world becomes very small." Lin Yue said with a mature look, "There are limited people in the circle, and what you see when you go around is related. people." Shen Qinyan smiled, "That makes sense." Lin Yue became proud, "Of course, this is what my father said." Shen Qinyan raised his eyebrows, "Then you still say your father is a tyrant?" His complexion was complicated for a moment, and then he whispered: "This is not contradictory." I patted his head, if I usually do this action he would jump up and object, but not today.He just raised his eyes and quietly looked at the twins and Gu Zhu who were having fun.I think, if Lin Yue also had many brothers and sisters, maybe he would not be so lonely. After a long while, Gu Zhu clapped his hands, stood up from the building block castle, and waved to Lin Yue, "Brother Lin Yue, come and see, I've done it!" Lin Yue's whole face was shining, he jumped up from the sofa, and ran towards Gu Zhu with big strides. It was obvious that he was very happy, but when he stood beside Gu Zhu, he raised his head and said proudly: "Let me take a look... well, it's not bad..." Gu Zhu happily pulled his sleeve and said, "Thank you brother Lin Yue." He didn't mind his proud expression. Shen Qinyan looked at the two children for a long time, thoughtfully.I couldn't help staring at him, seeing surprise, emotion, and... I was about to ask him, when suddenly the doorbell rang, and another guest came. This time it was An Lu who came in, she stepped through the door, first picked up Gu Zhu, and kissed her.Gu Zhu liked her very much, and happily called: "Aunt An!" An Lu came this time and gave each of the three children a set of clothes.There were not many guests at the birthday party at noon today. Apart from us, there were a few men and women I didn't know.Shen Qinyan knew them well and told me that they were all former friends of Gu Chijun and Xu Zhen. Thanks to the hospitable hosts, we had a great time at this birthday party.But An Lu had other things to do, so she retreated after eating.As a housewife, Xu Zhen has to work hard to clean up the mess. Xu Zhen said, "Du Li, can you clean up the kitchen for me?" "No problem at all!" "Sorry, let you clean up with me." "It doesn't matter. When I was at home, Shen Qinyan was also responsible for cooking and washing dishes." Xu Zhen smiled and looked at me, "I feel very happy seeing you and Shen Qinyan today. Seeing you together reminds me of when I was young. I was really happy at that time, because I was young and I could do anything." "Sister Xu Zhen, you are not old." "There are a lot of children, and the ambitions and ambitions of the past have all been smoothed out, so I don't always do anything." She smiled appreciatively, and pointed to the fine wrinkles in the corners of her eyes, "Du Li, there is a saying that I don't know Shouldn't it be said. Maybe it's because I'm old, no matter what, I worry a lot, nagging, and annoying." "Tell me, sister Xu Zhen. I don't think you are annoying." Xu Zhen breathed out lightly, "I heard from An Lu that your family is very good, right?" I hesitated for a moment, "It should be... not bad." "Then, does your family know about you and Shen Qinyan?" "I don't know yet." I said, "My parents are traveling abroad, and my eldest brother has recently broken his heart about his girlfriend, so I plan to tell them later." "Well——" Xu Zhen wiped his hands, "Will they object to the matter between you and Shen Qinyan? For a family like yours, it's one thing to like celebrities, but it's completely different if your daughter's boyfriend is a celebrity." Another matter." "...I really haven't thought about this issue." I was stunned, racking my brains to think about the reaction my parents would have when they found out about this. "My parents should not object. My mother always It's a joke that I will only be married to a computer for the rest of my life. Shen Qinyan treats me so well, they will definitely not object. " "That's good, I'm just afraid that something might happen," Xu Zhen stopped talking, and sighed softly, "Anyway, please forgive my talk. I suddenly mentioned this matter because I think we are very similar. We all fell in love with stars when we were young. Maybe the problems we face in the future are the same." Whether a person is sincere or not can be seen. I held my breath and listened to her words intently.She is passing on all her experience to me. She put one hand on the countertop, bowed her head and said: "When I was with Gu Chijun, it was not smooth. I encountered many things, and the first thing that bore the brunt was my mother's opposition. Not to mention a family like yours, even my family , My mother herself and the director both opposed me and Gu Chijun for a while. Although we didn’t break up in the end, he sacrificed everything as an actor. If it wasn’t for me, he would still shine on the stage.” I tentatively said, "Are you referring to Mr. Gu's disappearance?" "It's one of them. When Gu Chijun and I hurriedly left Jinghai for Switzerland, we faced a lot of difficulties," she said. "We were both very proud and refused to ask my mother for help. Fortunately, Gu Chijun's family members Very good, supporting us all the way through. Over the years, I can’t say I’m not happy, but sometimes I dream back at midnight and think of everything Gu Chijun has done for me, and I still feel that it would have been better if I had been more cautious back then.” Xu Zhen didn't go into details, but I think that the complicated struggle in her heart has lasted for more than ten years, and there must be times when it was very painful.In the news comments I read, Gu Chijun gave up his career for love as a "legend", but such a thing as a legend, like a person who knows how warm or cold the drinking water is, only the person involved knows what it feels like. I also remembered what my elder brother said about "Gu Chijun leaving the house without leaving the house"—money is definitely a pain when you don't have it.Gu Chijun was very prosperous back then, and his assets were by no means less than Shen Qinyan's now, but he gave up all of them.If I think about it differently from Xu Zhen, I absolutely cannot accept it. "Are you sorry?" I looked at her. "No regrets, but there are always regrets." I said, "However, hasn't Mr. Gu come back to act?" Xu Zhen glanced at me and shook his head, "He only made a guest appearance in this one, because this one has a different meaning to him. The final cut version of the movie will be released soon, after watching it next week, we will go home." I was surprised, "Go back so early..." "The twins are starting school too, and time is limited, so I want to talk to you before I go back." Xu Zhen paused, then reached out to stroke the broken hair on his forehead, "You and Shen Qinyan will definitely meet each other in the future. There are many difficulties and setbacks, I really hope that no matter what you encounter, you will not give up on Shen Qinyan, you must trust him. He is a very good man. " With a warm heart, I said gratefully: "I like him, and I will not give up on him." She smiled and nodded, "Shen Qinyan and I have known each other for many years. Over the years, his essence has never changed. Although he always has a low expression, it is not because he is indifferent, but because he is too kind. Know how to express your feelings." "Ok, I know." Xu Zhen looked at me and smiled slightly, "You don't seem to know much about the world, but you can make up your own mind, which is much better than me. Shen Qinyan is really lucky to know you." I seriously shook my head, "No, sister Xu Zhen, I think it's my luck to know him."