Chapter 17 Chapter Seventeen

His face is a little blurry.That's when I realized that I was actually crying.I haven't cried in many years.I used to think that the door of this world was open to me, and nothing could stop me, but now I am actually crying. After my elder brother left, I just sat down in front of the computer when I received a call.Shen Qinyan called me: "Ali, if you haven't slept yet, please come to my house. You have the key, just come in by yourself." It's already twelve o'clock, and he must have something urgent to call me over at this time.I threw the keyboard away, changed my clothes and rushed downstairs, trotting to the next door.There was a Mercedes parked in the front yard of Shen's house, and I recognized it as An Lu's car at a glance. I searched all the way, and saw that the living room on the first floor, the hallway and the corridor on the second floor were all lit.

Because I helped Shen Qinyan update the security system, I have been to every house in his house. Although I have not visited on purpose, I know the structure of the second floor very well. The light is on now is Shen Qinyan's bedroom, and there is a faint voice From the house. "...I didn't expect that I would end up in this situation..." The woman's hoarse voice startled me, so I slowed down, tiptoed to the door, and quietly peeped inside. The bedroom is brightly lit, and every detail can be seen at a glance.Shen Qinyan's bedroom is huge.I saw a delicate women's satchel and two high-heeled shoes thrown on the ground—one was thrown by the door, and the other was lying on the carpet in the bedroom.An Lu sat on the single sofa, buried her face in her knees, and said softly, "Shen Qinyan, marry me."

--what?Marry, marry her? Shen Qinyan didn't make a sound, just walked over and gently stroked her hair. An Lu raised her exhausted face, and stared at Shen Qinyan with sleepwalking eyes, "Back then, before I went abroad, senior sister entrusted me to take care of you. But I didn't expect that it was you who took care of me for more than ten years. Men just take care of me. Advantage, you have not changed a bit in the past ten years, but I am old." Shen Qinyan took the water glass on the coffee table and handed it to her, and said gently: "You really drink too much wine."

An Lu was stunned for a long time, her face was pale under the light, and she no longer had the brilliance on TV.She was silent for a while, then took the glass and raised her head, drank the water as if drinking wine, "I knew that I should have listened to my senior sister... Why did I miss a good man like you... " Shen Qinyan sighed, "Stop talking stupid things." "It's been so many years and I've paid so much, but I've gotten nothing. Do you think there are people who are stupider than me? Now you're leaving me because of Du Li, aren't you?"

Shen Qinyan sighed softly, "You don't have to think too much, I won't leave you." I felt hot blood rushing to the top of my head, but my body was cold, and I was frozen at the door of the bedroom and could not move. I lost my sense of time, and couldn't tell whether it was seconds or minutes before two people in the room noticed me. When An Lu raised her face from her knees, she saw me, and before she could say anything, she covered her mouth and went straight into the bathroom.Shen Qinyan followed her gaze and looked at me, his expression suddenly changed. I couldn't find any words to describe my mood at this time, I was stunned, and turned around numbly to leave.Shen Qinyan strode over and grabbed me, his arms were like iron hoops, holding me tightly in his arms.The moment he hugged me, I felt that I had never been so wronged in my life. The bitterness was like well water, flooding from my heart and rushing directly to the tip of my throat and nose.

I wasn't afraid of dogs to begin with. When I was very young, my family had a Samoyed dog named "White Lion". It was snow-white and very cute, like a fur ball.I followed my mother and took care of it very carefully until it grew from 20 centimeters to 50 centimeters, from cute to vigorous and heroic.It has always liked me, always circled around me, and rubbed my legs very intimately.In winter, let me hug its warm body to keep warm.But one day, it was just me and it at home, I forgot to sleep and eat in front of the computer, forgot to feed it, let alone take it out for a walk.It walked around me for a while, then suddenly changed its face, and took a big bite at my calf, tearing off half a palm-sized piece of flesh.My legs were bleeding profusely.

I was only nine years old at the time, and the pain made my eyes go black, and I kept screaming.After the white lion bit me, he ran downstairs as fast as the wind, leaving me sitting on the ground with blood on my hands, crying and calling my mother. It was quickly sent away by mom and dad.Since then, I haven't had any pets in my house, not even goldfish.It is said that dogs are the most loyal pets, and once they recognize the owner, they will never change it for life.My harrowing first-hand experience tells me that this is all wishful thinking. I was so kind to it, but it betrayed me as soon as it turned around, without blinking an eye.

"I'm sorry, don't go, I can explain." Shen Qinyan's strength was astonishing. No matter how I struggled, he remained motionless, as if his feet had taken root and grown on the ground, "Ten seconds, give me ten seconds." I feel a little blurry in front of my eyes, I don't want to hear an explanation. Shen Qinyan let go of his arm, stretched out his hand to caress my face, and said word by word: "Du Li, I love you." I don't want to hear his confession when my face is full of tears. Shen Qinyan reached out to wipe away my tears and said: "An Lu is my best friend, and I have not had any misunderstandings with her for so many years. She has recently encountered some personal troubles. She was drunk tonight and was in a bad mood. I let You came here just to ask you to help persuade her. I'm sorry."

I looked up at his face, his face was a little blurry.That's when I realized that I was actually crying.I haven't cried in many years.I used to think that the door of this world was open to me, and nothing could stop me, but now I am actually crying. "I told you that I don't like lying, even though I'm in a profession that requires a lot of lies to cover up. But I Shen Qinyan, I never lied to you. After An Lu comes out of the bathroom, you can ask her. " His hands rested on my face, and his forehead rested lightly on mine. "I'm sorry. Ali, I'm sorry."

He hugged me for an unknown amount of time, when suddenly there was the sound of something heavy falling to the ground in the bathroom, and Shen Qinyan's voice stopped abruptly.He changed his face, grabbed my hand and pressed me on the sofa, "Wait for me for a minute." He strode towards the bathroom, I hesitated for a second, and hesitantly followed, only to see An Lu slumped against the wall with her bare feet, one hand resting on the floor tiles, trying her best not to let herself completely collapse on the ground.She was unbelievably emaciated, her shoulders were shaking from crying, and she looked like a rag doll that had been torn apart and sewn together.The bathroom was full of alcohol, which made me suffocate.

Without saying a word, Shen Qinyan bowed down and raised her arm to put it on his shoulder, and hugged her shoulder to help her stand up.An Lu stood up and saw me standing at the door of the bathroom in a stupid way. She lowered her head and gave a wry smile. She put her hand on her forehead and covered her face in embarrassment. I reacted belatedly, and quickly went around to the other side, trying to help her up.For the first time, I knew that a drunk person could be so heavy, not only heavy, but also seemed to have no bones, and all the weight was pressed towards me.I staggered, and I couldn't bear it. With our concerted efforts, Shen Qinyan helped her into the bedroom and settled her down on the sofa just now. An Lu is much calmer now, completely different from the vulnerable look in the bathroom just now, a smile appeared on her pale and blue face, "Ali, can you do me a favor?" I felt like I couldn't keep up with her train of thought, "What?" "Do you have anything a little bigger? A sweatshirt or something that fits me." People who often go on camera are usually very thin, and An Lu is no exception. She is slightly taller than me, but the degree of fat and thin is almost the same.I don't have much else, but I have several cabinets for clothes. "Oh... yes." "If it's convenient, can you bring me a set?" She smiled bitterly, pointing to the wrinkled and wet suit on her body, "I'll go home after I change clothes." I was so confused by the changes in front of me that I went home in a daze, and came back with two sets of clothes.An Lu had just finished taking a shower, wrapped her hair in a towel and dried her hair; I knocked on the door, sent the clothes into the bathroom, and waited for her to change and come out. Shen Qinyan stood by the window and waited for me. I walked towards him. He gently held my hand and said carefully, "Ali, I'm sorry about what happened just now. I don't want you to cry. What you saw This scene may be very ambiguous, I'm sorry." I said blankly: "I, I don't know why I was crying, but I was really sad just now..." Shen Qinyan hugged me and said, "I know." He paused, kissed my forehead lightly, and repeated, "I know." The bathroom door opened, and An Lu came out wearing my sweatshirt.She was toweling her hair as she walked towards me and finally sat down on the couch. Shen Qinyan said softly: "If you are sober, please do me this favor and explain to A Li." She finally rubbed her hair, threw the towel on the armrest of the sofa, and patted the other sofa, "Ali, I owe you a favor today. You have the right to know the truth." After taking a bath, her complexion was much better than before. Although her face was still pale and blue, her eyes were no longer confused. I hesitated and walked over to her and sat down. An Lu turned her face to me, she was obviously drunk just now, but at this moment she had a calm expression as she read the news while sitting in front of the camera, "Yes, Shen Qinyan didn't lie to you, we are indeed not boyfriend and girlfriend .We never even held hands. That's because, I never liked men." I was dumbfounded. Being struck by lightning in the middle of the night should be exactly how I feel. "People like me in society have always been 'don't ask, don't tell'. The profession I am engaged in is very sensitive to sexual orientation. At the same time, my family does not allow me to exist as a heterogeneous person, so I need an article that shows me It's 'normal' news." An Lu said in an exceptionally calm tone, "I've been looking for Ah Chen a lot lately. There are two things. One is that a friend of mine wrote a script and wanted him to act in it. I've been lobbying for it. He; Second, my one may have an affair." My IQ has always been sufficient, but since I met Shen Qinyan, my IQ has been declining, and now it is almost negative.I found it difficult to breathe, and asked word by word: "Don't... like...men? What, what does this mean?" An Lu sighed, and put her arms around my shoulders, "In other words, I like you more than Shen Qinyan, even though he has a very good appearance and a pretty good character. So, do you understand? " Her confession made me dumbfounded and speechless. An Lu rested her head on one hand and looked at me expressionlessly, "Okay, now you know my secret too. What are you going to do?" My high IQ finally played a role at this critical moment. I jumped up and shook my head again and again. "Sister An Lu, I, I won't say anything about you!" Although An Lu was so tired, she still smiled when she heard the words, patted my hand, and then looked at Shen Qinyan, "My head is still dizzy, please take me home. I can't be under the same roof anymore. Tomorrow I was caught by the reporter and there is news to write, you know we are breaking up." In fact, I have already lived there.This thought swirled in my mind, but I didn't say it out of my mouth.After tonight's battle, I feel that my emotional intelligence has greatly improved.An Lu asked to go home because she was worried about me being here.Although she has explained clearly, I know she is just expressing her opinion to me, and she really has nothing to do with Shen Qinyan in that respect. Shen Qinyan nodded slightly, his exhaustion under the light was not hidden at all.I looked at my watch, it was already past twelve o'clock, and everyone was so tired, driving was very tiring. "Sister An Lu, if you don't mind, go to my house to sleep." Probably because I didn't expect me to make such a suggestion, the two of them looked at me together, and Shen Qin said, "That's fine." An Lu looked at me for a long while, showing a pale smile, "Okay, then I'll bother you." I put Anlu in the guest room of my house.Everything in my house is complete, bedding, toiletries, and even underwear are brand new, which can definitely make An Lu feel like a hotel. Her hair wasn't completely dry yet, so I found her a dry towel to dry her hair, and adjusted the room temperature to a suitable temperature. "You are very thoughtful." "It's my mother who is thoughtful. In the past, my family often had guests visiting, and sometimes they would stay here, so I had a spare for everything." "Your house is very warm." "Huh?" I don't understand. "I mean, even though Mom and Dad aren't home, everything is in order in this big house, and it still looks like a very perfect family." That's true, but I don't understand why she feels that way. An Lu smiled softly, "You really saw the worst side of me today, and I won't have the face to act like a big sister in front of you in the future." "No, people are always sad." My elder brother's sad expression just now flashed in my mind, and I subconsciously paused, "Sister An Lu, I won't look down on you because of this. Seriously, I On the contrary, I think you look like a real person. You used to always sit behind the screen, you were smart and noble, and you looked like a perfect match with Shen Qinyan, and you were not from the same country as me at all." "Thank you for your compliment. In fact, it's just a glamorous appearance." She smiled and walked to the deck chair on the balcony to sit down. I was worried about her and followed her out.The night wind brushed against our cheeks like the lingering breath of night. She leaned on the cushion of the recliner, "What does your family do?" "Uh, my family has a small accounting firm." "Which one?" "Sheng Xuan, maybe you didn't listen, Sister An Lu..." She laughed softly and interrupted me, "Sheng Xuan is still a 'small' firm? I heard that the CEO changed a while ago, what does it have to do with you?" I said honestly, "It's my elder brother." She nodded and said "Yes", "As far as I know, Sheng Xuan's work style is very stable, and he is also very talented. He has a good reputation in the industry." "I'm not sure," she stared at me with a smile, and I quickly added, "The person in charge was my father before, but now it's my elder brother. With them here, I don't have to worry about it." "So, it's normal for Shen Qinyan to be attracted to you." I wasn't sure about the logic behind what she said, so I stopped talking altogether. She said, "I heard you're pretty good at computers, can you do me a favor?" "Sister An Lu, tell me." She took out her mobile phone, turned to a number, and handed it to me, "I want to monitor the text messages and call records of this mobile number, can you do it?" I looked at the screen, the owner of the number was called "Wen Qing", a pretty name, and probably he was also pretty.Does An Lu want me to bug her cell phone?I looked at the phone number and then at her. "Can't do it?" she said. "It should be easy, right?" "Yes, it's really simple..." I said hesitantly, "But, Sister An Lu, this is not good." "Why, don't you want to help me?" I said sincerely: "Sister An Lu, I have seen many privacy violations, and they all ended badly." She looked at me with a smile and sighed, "You, that fellow Shen Qinyan is really from the same country, and he has a weird sense of morality in this kind of thing." I shook my head, "Sister An Lu, in my line of work, you must have a sense of morality and responsibility." The average person usually doesn't think about how fragile the computer security field is today, and most people don't think about it at all.Although there are not many security consultants at my level in the world, there are always a group of people who enjoy sabotage.If everyone uses their own abilities to destroy the order of the online world as they please, I don't know how big a mess it will be. "In my opinion, moral sense is more like an excuse," An Lu said, "There are so many things in the world, how can there be so many reasons. If you care about it, you will be chaotic. I am not a computer, and it is impossible to maintain rationality anytime, anywhere. thinking. I want to know the truth, no matter how bad the method.” "If you want to know the truth, can't you just ask her?" I was a little puzzled. An Lu smiled slightly, "Do you think people's privacy is so easy to touch?" She didn't need my answer, she let out a long sigh, "Life is very different from doing a talk show. I want my guests to tell the truth, and I have done a lot of background checks for this, because the shows that tell the truth are the best. But at the end of the day I don't care about them. So what if they tell lies? The show is good enough. "It's not easy to ask questions to someone you care about. When you feel that the other person is absent-minded, you want to know everything about the other person. Whether you ask directly or indirectly, the effect is annoying and angering... Yes This is especially true for those who have secrets. "Even if the other party answers, how can you guarantee that the answer you heard is true? What if the other party is a liar and makes up perfect stories one after another? "Because of various concerns, many people don't know how to ask. Once they really ask, will they be considered suspicious, will they be hated by the other party, will it be irreversible... because I cared too much, had to look forward and backward, hesitated, and even hated myself." Her sad smile reminded me of Yao Yao's fierce questioning of her elder brother tonight.That's right, these words are also fully applicable to elder brother and Yao Yao.After all, people are not computers. Input commands and they will give answers.Then I thought of the scene of Shen Qinyan stroking her hair to comfort her... Even though I had learned the truth, my heart still felt sore when I thought of that scene. I was blankly thinking about my own affairs, and couldn't think of suitable words to comfort her at all.It turns out that feelings can make people so painful and helpless, and no one can comfort them. "I wanted to say, I don't know if you can understand this kind of mood." An Lu looked at my face, "Now it seems that you have understood a little bit." I nod. She let out a soft breath, "Ali, I sincerely hope that you will never understand this feeling in your life." An Lu's cell phone on the small table rang, and I glimpsed that the caller was "Wen Qing". An Lu stared at the two words for a few seconds, then picked up the phone, turned it off decisively, and the screen went completely black. "Du Li, since you don't agree, I won't force it." An Lu rubbed her shoulders and smiled at me, "Okay, go to sleep, I'll sleep when my hair is dry. Thank you today." I stood up and walked to the door, only to be stopped by An Lu again.She leaned back on the deck chair and didn't turn her head, but her voice slowly floated up, lingering gently in the night sky on Baisha Road. "For Shen Qinyan, you can use the first method. No matter what you want to know about him, you can ask him directly. He will answer every question you have, and you can trust his words."