Chapter 14 fourth quarter

"No, this mask never belonged to you. It used to be mine, it is mine now, and it will be mine in the future." I said without a doubt. "It's not like you. You have never been so stingy. It's just a small mask. Could it be that I have been loyal to you for so many years, can't I get such a small mask?" "No, this mask is very important to me!" "It's important to me too!" "I'll buy you another one." "I can buy you another one too." "Don't argue with me, okay?" I raised my head and looked at Wang Jun with sad eyes.My sorrow is for me and for Wang Jun.I knew that what I was about to say to Wang Jun would hurt him, and I couldn't bear it, but I still couldn't make up my mind to get straight to the point, so I wanted to unravel the doubts that had been in my heart for a long time. "Didn't you say that the mask can't be found? Why is it in your dormitory?"

Wang Jun said: "In fact, I haven't lost it all the time. After our competition, I picked it up from the stage and kept it with me. I knew you didn't want to give it to me, so I just kept it from you." "You lied to me so hard, I thought I would never find it again. Wang Jun, find a good girl to be your girlfriend." I didn't dare to look into Wang Jun's eyes, lest seeing his sadness would shake me and I continued. Determination. "You can find a girl who is gentle and beautiful." "You mean you want to break up with me?" Wang Jun's voice trembled, "Why? I lied to you because of the mask?"

"Don't say that. This mask is very important to me, but it is definitely not because of this that I broke up with you. In fact, we can't call it a breakup at all. We never started. How could there be a breakup? I told you a long time ago, We may be good friends for a lifetime, but we will never be lovers. Now, as a good friend, I remind you that we spend all day together, which is not good for you or me. Others will mistakenly think that we are in love, that is It delayed your finding a good girlfriend, and it also affected me..." "No, not at all! This is just your excuse. You told me not to want to eat swan meat, but you also gave me some hints. Otherwise, why are you always with me, shopping together, Eat together? You should feel it, and don't deny it, I have always done for you what only a boyfriend can do to a girlfriend!"

"You are wrong, let you accompany me, I just think you are a good friend worthy of my trust, the relationship between us has never surpassed that of a good friend, the hint you said is just your illusion; maybe I am wrong , It’s because I didn’t grasp the proper measure of communication between good friends and gave you the illusion, I’m sorry.” "Don't say I'm sorry, it's not enough to kick me away from you. You said you were afraid of delaying me, but you were actually afraid of affecting yourself. You have moved on, it must be Li Yi, yes, it is that Kid! You're obsessed with him."

"Don't talk about Li Yi. I have nothing to do with Li Yi. Wang Jun, please don't insist anymore. What's so good about me? I'm neither beautiful nor outstanding. I hope we will still be good friends in the future, and we will always just be good friends. friend!" "It must be Li Yi's fault, it must be. You tell me, can't you? Why don't you dare to look at me, you look into my eyes and tell me, yes or no." Wang Jun suddenly grabbed my hand, Tightly, his hands trembled slightly, and the palms were sweaty. I seem to be showing signs of being softened. I told myself that I must persevere. Cutting the mess quickly will benefit everyone.I turned my head bravely and looked into Wang Jun's eyes. I saw pain, despair, and a trace of unwillingness. Then I saw myself, in his pupils, a little dazed, a little hesitant, and even more so. More is a kind of decision.

"It's not because of Li Yi." I said, "It's not because of anyone. We never started, so we don't need to end. Again, we are just good friends. The past, present and future will not change." Wang Jun hung his head decadently, some hot liquid dripped onto my hand, and he cried.I gently took my hand out of his, knowing that he needed reassurance badly, but I had to go.I didn't underestimate Wang Jun because of his crying, I just felt sad for my helplessness.I passed by the sycamore tree that had lost its leaves, and patted the rough trunk. Only it can stand alone all the time, never feel lonely, and never need so-and-so comfort.

I suddenly wanted to put on a skull mask and show off in the street; I wanted to wear it to meet Li Yi and let him guess who I was.It's been a month, for a whole month, Li Yi and I completely lost contact. Without Wang Jun's help, I moved my daily necessities to the rental house.Practice has proved that some things are not as tiring as imagined. Although a little tired, there is a joy full of practicality and satisfaction.It seems that too much dependence on others can only cultivate laziness, and the result of laziness is more dependence. When I was tidying up the room, I tried not to think about Wang Jun and Li Yi.One of them is real and the other is imaginary. Wang Jun is real, within reach, but not what I want; naturally, Li Yi is imaginary, making me elusive, something I want but can't get.So no matter which one of them, they are two straight lines parallel to me, and there is no possibility of intersecting.After figuring this out, I gained a rare good mood in the past month.

I put the skull mask and plastic flowers that Li Yi gave me in an inconspicuous corner, so that I can see them occasionally instead of often.Some contradictions in my heart were deliberately ignored by me. After tidying up the room, it was already one o'clock in the afternoon.Unexpectedly, tidying up the room is also a kind of fun. I didn't find the fun before. When I tidy up the mess in the room, I also sort out the mess in my heart. Cleanliness is in my eyes, and comfort is in my heart. I felt a little hungry, and remembering that there were unfinished instant noodles in the kitchen during the rehearsal, I went into the kitchen.Relatively speaking, the kitchen is very strange to me. I am best at cooking instant noodles, which is the only cooking skill I am proficient in.When Wang Jun and I were rehearsing dances here, it was he who came into the kitchen to fry a few eggs or boil a few packets of instant noodles for our supper.So I inevitably found traces left by Wang Jun in the kitchen.

A piece of ham sausage that was half-eaten and discarded lay pitifully on the operating table, presumably Wang Jun's masterpiece.After a month of no one caring about it, the ham sausage has dried up there, just like the relationship between me and Wang Jun, it has lost its freshness and only a musty smell remains.I was convinced again that my decision was right.But I still can't help but worry about Wang Jun. I don't know how he is doing now, what he is doing now, and what he is thinking.I hope he's not as sad as I thought.