Chapter 14 Chapter Fourteen Love "Fake Gold"

I miss Shi Sen, really, I miss him. In fact, he is not a very close friend. The total number of words we have spoken together does not exceed 100 sentences.However, he once proposed to me. A man who once proposed to me is always a bit unusual, isn't it? So, in the south, on the New Year's Eve of the new year of the century, between the feasting and feasting, I miss him. It was two years ago that I met Shi Sen, and it was also before the Spring Festival. I had already booked a flight ticket to the south, but signed up for a computer training class half a month before the trip. The reason is actually very simple. Although it is voluntary to apply to be a karaoke lady, after all, I don't want to really lose the brand of a graduate of the Lu Xun Academy of Fine Arts.After all, the nightclub is not my long-term place to stay, I just want to use it to escape for a while.Escape from Dalian, escape from injury, escape from stepmother's cynicism and irony.If you have a skill, it might be easier to find a job, right?

So, I became Shisen's hardest-working student. I was the first to arrive at class every day, and the last to leave. Before I left, I would always ask the teacher: "What time will I have classes tomorrow? Can I use the computer for a while?" When Shi Sen knew that I planned to complete the training in only half a month, he couldn't help being surprised: "Impossible, the training is just an introductory training, half a month, and I can't learn anything by scanning the pictures." I lowered my head, gritted my teeth for a while, and said, "So, I would like to ask the teacher to give me more time on the computer."

"Why are you working so hard? You seem to have something on your mind, and it's hard to hide it?" he asked. I am embarrassed, since I know it is an unspeakable secret, why do I need to ask again and again.Disappointed, tears streaming down his face, he hurriedly said: "I won't ask any more, that's all right, I'll give you a class schedule, and you can come to observe and practice whenever there are my classes in the future." In this way, my time on the machine was more than three times more. In less than a week, I had completed the training of scanning and color correction, and started to learn special effects production.That day, I mastered the production of metal characters, colored light characters, embroidery characters, and perforated characters in a row, and was trying the most difficult crystal characters. Suddenly, Shi Mori patted me on the shoulder, pointed to the watch and said, "It's already 7 o'clock. Well, today is Valentine's Day, let's go back early."

Walking side by side in the cold night wind, we saw couples of lovers embracing and walking slowly passing by us from time to time, and several little girls came up to sell large bouquets of roses.He bought one, handed it to me, and said gently: "Happy holidays." I thanked me and took it, my heart fluttered a little. At the age of 21, this was the first time in my life that I received roses on Valentine's Day. Just as I was thinking, I heard him say, "In 23 years, this is the first time I have given roses to a girl on Valentine's Day." My face turned red, I felt that he had read what was on my mind, I hurriedly said "thank you", and couldn't help walking two steps faster to the bus stop, pointing to the stop sign and saying, "I'm here, goodbye."

He hesitated for a moment, then nodded, "Goodbye." He turned and left.I felt a little lost in my heart. Half a month passed so quickly.From a computer blind who can't even turn on the computer, I have quickly become an expert who can use drawing software for graphic design.On the eve of leaving Dalian, I told my father that I wanted to go out for a walk, and then I came to the computer classroom again with roast chicken and red wine.As soon as the class was over, there were one or two hard-working students staying in the classroom to discuss with Shi Sen the most suitable four-color ratio of fake gold. I walked up and said, "Y100M50C40 or Y100M40C30, depending on the paper quality."

Shi Sen was taken aback for a moment, seeing that it was me, he couldn't help laughing: "A high-achieving student, he's graduated." The two students probably misunderstood my identity, winked at each other, and disappeared within five seconds, making Shi Sen burst out laughing. I lit up the roasted chicken and red wine in front of him: "Thank you for the teacher's feast, will you show me face?" That day, we drank a lot and talked a lot in Shisen's rented hut.I didn't hide any more, and told my whole life experience: my mother died young, my father remarried last year, my stepmother was not the old-fashioned old-fashioned stepmother in the play, but young, beautiful, generous and capable, earning more money than my father, angry Naturally, she is also thicker than her father. She has been competitive all her life, and she has passed her youth unconsciously. It is indeed a bit wronged to marry her father who is ten years older than her, especially when facing a daughter who is ten years younger than her, so she always fights with me It's difficult, but Dad always turns a blind eye and closes one eye, and most of his heart is too busy for me.I don't want to stay in Dalian anymore and face the embarrassment that my father is not like my parents and my mother. I would rather go away and let them see me again...

I said, unconsciously bursting into tears.Shi Sen kept passing tissues for me. After a long silence, he suddenly said, "Your parents don't like you, so you shouldn't let yourself down. You left Dalian just to find another place to live. Why don't we get married?" , you build another home, don’t leave.” My tears stopped abruptly like a faucet being tightened, I raised my head and stared at him incredulously: "What did you say?" "Let's get married." Shi Senshi repeated in shock, "Let's get married, I know you don't want to go to the south, don't want to be a waiter, then don't go, I will support you, and give you another home."

I looked at Shi Sen, and suddenly felt flustered.I want to say that I am very grateful to him, regardless of whether his marriage proposal is true or not, but at this moment I feel that it is inappropriate to say anything, no matter whether I accept or reject it.In the end, I said something with no atmosphere: "It's very late, I have to go back." The next day, I took a flight to the south and became a goose flying south. In the "Jiahua Nian" nightclub in Guangzhou, I became a doorman with a smile on my face, repeating the same line every day: "Good evening! Who are you, please? In the lobby or in the private room? Do you want to go to the sauna? Do you want to visit?" and so on.

I'm not active, and I don't always earn much from tips, but I am very serious. In the words of the boss, "being a nightclub lady is a bit too serious."In such a peaceful way, the internship period passed without knowing it, and he became a full-time employee of "Carnival".I also cried a few times. When the guests talked nonsense, or the manager was critical, the only thing that accompanied me to comfort me was Shi Sen's letter. Shi Sen's letters were not regular, sometimes one in two or three weeks, sometimes one in the morning and another in the afternoon, the letters were always curious about my current situation and told some interesting anecdotes from the computer class.It was a world very far away from me, a world under the sun.There, people's smiles are pure and healthy, teachers are tireless, students make progress every day, everyone has clear goals and directions, and there is a schedule to regulate their behavior.And me, what I saw, teasing, haggling, cheating, teasing, and quarreling and fighting, is nothing more than the words "drinking, sex, wealth, and anger".I sigh, I am not worthy of Shi Sen.I never wrote back to him. What can a waitress at a nightclub say to a computer teacher?

However, a teacher in a sunny world once proposed to me. Maybe he was sincere, maybe he just sympathized with me or was impulsive, but after all, a marriage proposal is a man’s greatest respect and commitment to a woman, and I am forever grateful for it. I miss Shi Sen and those days when I lived in the sun. Finally, the opportunity came. That day, a middle-aged man who looked like a boss walked in with a few guests who were arguing about something. I went up to greet him as usual, but the boss’ eyes suddenly lit up, and he took the brochure in my hand and said to the guests: “You Look, wouldn’t it be nice to just print it in this color? Why do you have to bronz it? It’s expensive and expensive.”

The guest also stopped, hesitating while studying the brochure: "This gold is also quite similar, but the gray is not impressive enough..." I interrupted and said: "There is black in this golden color, so it looks dark. If the black is reduced to zero, the yellow is increased to 100, and the red and blue are swapped, the fake golden color will be much more correct. Give enough ink, it is OK Printed with a bronzing effect." The boss was taken aback: "Do you know fake gold?" "I have studied computer graphic design." I replied with a smile, and suddenly felt my heart beat faster, and I knew that my chance had come. "Fake Gold" became an important turning point in my career.That boss Liu is the general manager of the "Jiale" computer plate-making company. He invited me to his company for a computer test the next day. Overjoyed, I made a long-distance call to Shi Sen at the first time, and told him excitedly: "Fake gold, teacher, it is the fake gold that saved me, and the fake gold you taught me gave me a chance." "Okay, remember to owe me a meal, and you must invite me back to Dalian." He responded happily. After that day, I started writing to him, one letter a day, without interruption.It's just that those letters left more and sent less.I regard writing letters as a diary, and I confide to him day and night, and Shi Sen has gradually become the most important person in my life. I think, when I make some achievements, I will definitely go back to Dalian, treat Shi Sen to dinner, and ask him: "Is your marriage proposal true? Does it still count?" For Shisen, I worked very hard, stayed in the company for food and lodging, gave more than twice as much time and energy as others, and soon became a top expert in the technical department.I found that the special effects I learned in the computer class were quite brilliant skills even in a large-scale computer company, but there were not many special effects that could be used in daily work, and the most important thing was the basic skills such as color correction and image editing.A plate-making company is not a design company, all it needs is a skilled worker, and I have done it to the end. When can a skilled worker start his career?I thought of my stepmother, that imposing woman, and I vowed to be better than her.After weighing carefully, I went to apply to my boss to be transferred to the business department.I decided to challenge myself the most uncomfortable socially. Maybe the underdogs must win. A year later, I was promoted to the manager of the Zhongshan branch and started to stand alone. Zhongshan is a small city. When I first arrived, in order to get familiar with the environment, I never took a bus or took a taxi. I just used my feet to measure every street and alley in this strange city, and knocked on the doors of companies and stores to promote computer plate making to them. With the design, exchange business cards, for business.Within three months, I made friends with half of the bosses and managers in Zhongshan, and established cooperation intentions. The business of the branch is growing day by day, and I am more familiar with the terrain of Zhongshan than a taxi driver.After another half a year, the head office provided me with a special car, and I obtained a driver's license to drive by myself. The scope of work expanded to Shunde and other surrounding small cities, and my monthly salary also jumped from 2,000 yuan to over 10,000 yuan.In the stressful work, I miss Shisen as the only tenderness in my heart. He represents my hometown and is my spiritual home. One day I will go back, treat him to dinner, and accept his marriage proposal.All efforts are just for that day. In the blink of an eye, on New Year's Eve, I was having a "side-fire" with a few clients at the hotel. No one at the table knew anyone's details. It was just that the boss, Manager Li, wanted to pretend to be prosperous on the surface, but he socialized impeccably.It's no wonder that the same lonely people in the end of the world, although they are proud of the spring breeze, they all leave their hometowns. Who doesn't have a hard-to-recite scripture?When he was half-drunk, a Mr. Chen raised his glass and said: "It's meaningless to talk too much about horses. Today is New Year's Eve. Let's tell the truth after drinking. Everyone tells the most regrettable thing in their life. My son, the answer I want to know the most." Without waiting for others to vote, he opened his mouth first: "Let me say that the most sorry thing in my life is my wife. Everyone knows about my affairs outside, and I think my wife knows too. , but she never asked. I feel sorry for her. Every time I go home, I give her a lot of money. She has always been so kind to me. I don't care about Pink, is it because I love me or because I love money..." Such a secret grievance was spoken out so frankly, and everyone couldn't help being moved by it, and several other bosses began to tell their hearts.When it was my turn, everyone laughed and encouraged: "You are the youngest among us, and it is also the hardest. Tell me about your regrets, and see if the older brothers and sisters can help you." Taking advantage of the drink, I held the hand of the "red vest" sister Chen, who was nicknamed "the pink killer" sitting next to me, and said: "What I regret the most is that when I was in Dalian, a boy proposed to me. A boy who proposed to me, but I was scared away before I could figure out whether he was real or not. It was not romantic at all. I always wanted to ask him if he really liked me, and if so, I will marry him!" "Hey, little girl is thinking about spring!" Sister Chen laughed loudly, and everyone else laughed too. I laughed too, but I felt a coolness on my cheeks, and I even shed tears.Oh Ishimori, I miss you! When I got back to the dormitory, I only felt that the longing in my heart was like a turbulent wave, and it was hard to stop after a while.Finally, I made up my mind, asked my assistant to take good care of the company, and made a long-distance trip to Guangzhou to ask the headquarters to book a flight back to the company. When I saw Shi Sen again, I felt that everything was unreal, I missed it for too long, and the reunion turned out to be like a dream. At the western restaurant of the Kyushu Hotel, Shi Sen was dressed in a suit and leather shoes, so solemn that he was a bit soft, but after a few words, he returned to his prodigal nature, took my handbag and said that he wanted a "temporary inspection".I was taken aback for a moment: "Check what?" "See if you're on drugs or something," he joked.I was slightly displeased, forced a smile and said, "When I've lost my footing?" I wasn't used to his overly intimacy in my heart.At this moment, I found that we are actually strangers. Having nothing to say, I thanked him again, about graphic design, and fake gold, that big turnaround in my career. He said enviously: "You are so lucky. Hey, in your company, can someone like me earn two thousand yuan a month?" "2000?" This number is far away from me. I have to set a certain number to think about it objectively. For a skilled worker, the number of work times in the early stage of "Jia Le" is actually less than 1,000.With Shi Sen's technology, there should be 2000 in about two or three months, but it is still seven or eight levels away from me.For the first time, I found that I had surpassed him too much. I reminded myself in my heart that one should not judge a person by his salary, but by his character, demeanor, temperament, and self-cultivation.But... I glanced at Shi Sen, who was clumsily cutting the steak. My god-like computer teacher, he specially changed into a new shirt for this date, but forgot to iron it, and the creases were as straight as a blade.I sigh, Shi Sen and I are like a tortoise and a hare, either I am too slow or he is too lazy, in short there is a distance.He is a good man, but he can't be my lover.We cannot reach the end at the same time. Shi Sen was still enthusiastically asking me about the food and weather in Guangzhou, saying that many of his friends were planning to travel to the south, and asked: "Is it true that women are more popular than men in the south? You are the best example, you Do you think being a woman is easier?" Every time he asked, my heart sank.Maybe he didn't mean that, maybe he shouldn't be demanding, this is not at the negotiating table in the business field, he doesn't know how to care about the propriety and propriety of speaking, Shi Sen and I have always lived in two worlds.I think of the piles of unsent love letters that have been dusty in my drawer. They have been with me for so long. Without those fantasies and hopes about love, without Shi Sen's encouragement and comfort, I might not have survived the loneliness and pressure.There is no need to ask him if he really liked me back then, even if there is no love, I have already obtained the most precious friendship in the world.This is enough. I looked at Shi Sen and said sincerely: "Teacher, I owe you a favor, how should I repay you?" "You really want to repay me?" Shi Sen looked at me with bright eyes. I panicked for a while, afraid that he would make a joke like "promise with your body", but he just said, "Can you introduce me to Guangzhou to find a job with a higher salary." "Okay, of course!" I replied hastily.His most important help to me is that he gave me a chance, and giving him a chance is undoubtedly my greatest hope.I thought for a while, and said embarrassedly: "However, I have to wrong the teacher to be my subordinate." If he enters "Jia Le", it will take him at least two or three months before he can get ahead, but in Zhongshan, I have the final say on the salary.Although my tortoise ran two years earlier, the rabbit might catch up later.I asked him: "The starting salary is 2,000 yuan, and the excess is calculated separately, is that okay?" Shi Sen smiled, and imitated my tone and said: "Okay, of course! Don't call me teacher anymore, I should call you boss. Come on, cheers!" "Okay, cheers!" I paused, and added, "For... fake gold!"