Chapter 33 Chapter Thirty-Three

"From the moment I said we broke up, I knew I lost you." There was a faint mist in his eyes, as if he could only see my vague shadow through a deep valley. "I didn't expect that I could survive, so I survived, but I didn't know what to do, and I was at a loss. I had a taste of what life is better than death at that time. I became that weird, I I can't even accept it... how can I make you accept it. " "Jiang Yang..." "Do you know what it looks like? You don't know at all." He unbuttoned the collars of his shirts one by one, and his body was covered with shocking wounds.So many years have passed, and the best compound drugs and treatments have been used, why are there still such shocking scars?

My fingers gently caressed those bumpy scars, and my heart felt like a knife had been cut across. "It's actually more terrifying than this. But, Luo Xin, don't cry for me." He wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes with his fingers: "I just don't want to see you cry for me, so I said such cruel things." "I'm sorry." I held onto the corner of his clothes tightly, and tears rolled down my face: "Jiang Yang, I'm the one who's sorry for you." "I never thanked my uncle for bringing me back to life. I hated him and stabbed him with a fruit knife." He smiled and said, "In the end, the knife stabbed my third brother, and he still has the scar on his stomach from that time." If it wasn't for the third brother, I might have disappeared, and there would be no Du Zeshan, and it would be impossible for me to see you again. It was because I saw you again..." He looked at the photos on the shelves, and the room was full of my photos .

He said: "Because of you, I have the courage to live." "But why didn't you come to me...why..." "I have no choice. I can't even protect Zheng Kaiyue, let alone you." He lowered his head and said very low, "I can only... I can only watch her being killed by the car... what am I Can't do it either." The Jiang Yang I knew, it was the first time he shed tears in front of me. "Luo Xin, we can't go back." He held my hand, and my whole body was shaking: "When I was at the police station just now, I saw Zheng Kaiwen, the way he looked at you told me that he loved you. And You... must love him too." He gently brushed the broken hair on my forehead, and said, "Luo Xin, I don't know why you came back to me, but we can never go back .”

After listening to these words quietly, I suddenly felt something stuck in my throat. "Listen to me." I held his hand calmly: "Although I don't feel the pain you mentioned, my pain always weighs on me like a giant mountain." I know, I'm already crying. "That's right, I fell in love with Zheng Kaiwen. Because of his appearance, I regained the courage to love. He gave me a new life, and I thought I could start over with him. But...but...now I know , we are impossible. Regardless of whether he really loves me or not, no matter why he gave up on me, he chose his family. We really have no possibility."

He looked at me with a slight ripple between his brows. "When you appeared as Du Zeshan for the first time, I felt terrified. I don't know why I was so afraid of seeing you. I felt that you would see through my heart just by looking into my eyes. I always Run away because I'm scared. Remember? You used to say that I'm a very vigilant person. But that time I fell asleep in your office, and I was really scared. I don't know why I was so scared of a Strangers lose their guard like this, but I..." I lowered my eyelashes, eyes gushing like springs. He raised his fingers to gently wipe away my tears, and said softly: "Luo Xin, don't cry. I hope you are happy, I should hope that you and Zheng Kaiwen are together, but I'm actually jealous." He smiled and said: " You know, I saw you with Zheng Kaiwen, and I was so jealous. But I have become like this, I can't accept what happened, I have no reason to ask you to accept it. "

I stopped him from saying: "No matter what you become, I love you." "No matter what I become... Heh... Even, I will no longer love you?" "Why did you lie to me?" I said angrily, "Kaiwen Zheng lied to me, and you lied to me too. Why do you all lie to me!" "I didn't lie to you, this is something that even I can't control." He said, "I will... maybe from now on, I won't love you anymore, Luo Xin." He looked at the photos all over the room Say, "Do you know why there are so many photos, DVs, CDs here? It's actually because... I've started to forget, and I have to rely on these to remember. Remembering you, remembering our past, remembering I love you."

He looked at me and said slowly: "Liang Luoxin, don't you understand? The memories in my mind have been gradually erased, and the blood clot is pressing on my brain nerves, like an eraser, erasing my brain. memory. I will not know you in the future, I will not know who you are, let alone that I loved you, maybe even I will not recognize myself. We will become two real strangers, at least I am, then you ..." He stopped, and asked me solemnly like a marriage oath: "Are you still telling me what you just said?" At that moment, I don't know if I hesitated, I just looked at him, and suddenly and truly felt that I was losing him.

He bowed his head in pain: "The doctor said that if an operation is performed, some of the destroyed cells will be removed directly, but he does not guarantee that any part of my memory will be removed, that is to say, after the operation, I may no longer be able to recognize You. And now, at least I can rely on these DVs and photos to remember your appearance and our past. But it’s useless, I will eventually forget you and everything.” I picked up that DV, it was cold and blunt, but it was able to play such warm and soft sounds and pictures. "Since you know it's useless, why do you still do it..."

"Because I don't want to forget you." He raised his hand to cover his eyes, but I still saw the flickering light in his eyes. "But I can't control myself. In the police station just now, I really didn't recognize you all of a sudden... I'm afraid that when I wake up one morning, I won't remember anything. Luo Xin, let's go again It can't be like before..." I hugged him and hugged him with all my strength. Jiang Yang, this is my Jiang Yang, maybe he will really become a stranger as he said. However, I am his Liang Luoxin, and this will not change.

"Jiang Yang, we really can't go back." Although he couldn't see it, I still smiled and said, "Maybe I can no longer love you like I used to, but I will love you more than before." "Luo Xin..." "Do you know? You are the dearest and most beloved person in this world except the parents who gave birth to me and raised me. In the future, when all my loved ones leave me, when I am no longer beautiful or young, you will still be with me By my side, even if you don’t recognize me.” I let go of my hand, looked at him and said, “But I love you, I will always love you, forever, forever, sick and healthy, I want you to be by my side, I only you."

I held his hands tightly, put them on my heart and said, "So, Jiang Yang, I can never lose you again." I said: "Because I am like you, even though I know you will not love me, I still don't want to give up on you." I felt something cold on the back of my hand, and he finally embraced me with those familiar hands. The warm sunlight coming in from the window was so dazzling that I couldn't keep my eyes open.The sky showed an unprecedented light blue, like a pool of crystal clear water.Blossoming white clouds float on the water like veils, and the sun is like fog on the water. "I love you." I said. "Even if I no longer remember you, don't know you, don't love you, or even hurt you...do you still love me?" "I love you." He asked me, "Even if I'm a bad guy?" "I love you." "Even if I can't protect you at all...do you still love me?" "I still love you." "Then..." He let go of his hand and looked at me, and said with a slight smile, "Will I become bald?" "What should I do?" I said in embarrassment, "I still love you." He hugged me tighter, and I hugged him harder, and I said, "So, don't leave me again. ,Okay?" "it is good." "Don't say goodbye again, okay?" "it is good." "I will love you twice as hard, promise me, don't push me away, okay?" "it is good." "I owe you happiness, let me make it up to you, okay?" "it is good." I let go, pressed my forehead against his forehead, and said, "Whether you are Jiang Yang, Du Zeshan, or Meng Jiangyang... I love you." He smiled, and I saw myself in his pupils. It turns out that my face is already so thin, and it turns out that I am no longer the little girl in the photo or in the DV.Thin teardrops condensed under my eyelashes, and he gently wiped them away, then he smiled and said, "Liang Luoxin, let me record what you said just now." He picked up the DV and said, "Liang Luoxin, It’s too late for you to regret it.” I shook my head. "Then," he turned on the camera and said, "don't ever want to leave me now, even if I don't know you, you can't abandon me, even if I don't remember, you can't give up." I smiled and said: "From now on, I can only love you alone, spoil you, and don't lie to you. I will do everything I promise you; every word I tell you is the truth. Don't be angry with you, don't scold you, believe you. If someone bullies you, I will come out to help you as soon as possible. When you are happy, I will accompany you to be happy; if you are unhappy, I will also make you happy. Forever, Everyone thinks you are the most handsome; in my dreams, I can only dream of you; in my heart, there is only you." He frowned and said dissatisfied, "Apart from these?" "It's not enough...then besides these, no matter where you are, whether you know me or not, I will try my best to find you, make you fall in love with me, and only me." I put my arms around his Neck, breath entangled together: "Even if it is the next life, the next life, the next life... I will find you, love you, and make you fall in love with me." "Don't lie to me." "No, because I owe you happiness." I said, "But, Meng Jiangyang, you can never get rid of me." "It's really... the little devil is hard to deal with." It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter. As long as I can continue to love you. It is impossible to love you as much as before, but I will love you more than before.