Chapter 17 Extra Story

In a person's life, there are always a few days that will change a person's life. It is the same even for today's emperor. The first change in his life was when he was four years old.His mother took his hand and walked through the long passage in the palace to visit his newborn brother. Among the two high palace walls, his mother hugged him and walked slowly step by step.This is a place where the sun cannot shine. He and his mother walked in the dark red corner for a long time, as if fearing the darkness here, he hugged his mother's neck tightly and buried his face in hers. on the shoulders.

It wasn't until his eyes lit up and the sun shone all over their bodies that he felt that the whole world was instantly presented in front of him. In front of him was an extremely tall and majestic palace, and when he came out of that narrow place, his eyes suddenly lit up, making the palace seem to suddenly emerge from the ground, filling his field of vision suddenly. On the vast flat land of hundreds of feet, the three-story White Jade Hall is built on top of each other. The steps are as wide as dozens of people, and there are envoys and maids in colorful clothes standing on it.On the high platform between the fence and the white jade steps, there is a tall palace. Under the bright April sunshine at this time, there are faint laughter inside, and it is almost another world with him and his mother.

At that time, the young Shang Jie held his mother's hand, looked at the palace, and thought to himself, is this the place where the legendary immortals live? What would it be like to live in this palace? His mother took him to wait for the call. After a long time, the emissary who went in to report came out slowly and signaled that they could go in. He followed behind his mother, walked through layers of corridors, passed through numerous palace doors, and finally came to the top of the main hall. His father was holding a newborn baby and was sitting at the highest place. His first memory of his father was here. He hugged the newly born Shang Xun, looked at him with joy, and kept saying to the people around him: "Like me, this child really looks like me... "

It wasn't until his mother brought him to kneel on the ground that he finally remembered that he had already had a child, his eyes fell on his first child, he hesitated slightly, and asked, "What's the name of this child? " His mother hurriedly said, "Your Majesty, he hasn't given a name yet." His mother was originally a maid in Concubine Yi's palace. One time when the emperor came to see Concubine Yi, he happened to meet her when she was drunk, and doted on her in a daze. When he sobered up, he himself forgot this matter.Who knows that he blindly favors Concubine Yi Gui, but Concubine Yi has never been pregnant, but this time she has a child.

Concubine Yi Gui naturally hated this lowly court lady deeply. The emperor had long forgotten about this child, but because there was indeed a record in the imperial court, so he had no choice but to give her a low rank. Even this child did not go to visit. Let their mother and son fend for themselves in the court. But today, it was the day when the woman he liked gave birth to a child for him, so he didn't mind the child he hated. He heard that he didn't have a name yet, so he said casually: "How about it, Prince Mingxun, this Let the child be named Commandment." That was a day that Shang Jie would always remember, because he had his own name since then, although his name was given to him by the way of his younger brother.

However, at that time, he didn't know how to feel sorry for himself.At the age of four, he just looked at his younger brother in his father's arms, saw him open his big round clear eyes, and looked at the world, while his father, with a gentle and joyful expression, looked at this little child dotingly, loving If treasure. At that time, he also thought, when will his father be able to look at himself with such eyes? Later, when he thinks about this day, he also secretly thinks in his heart—maybe, his hatred for Shang Xun started from that day. From the first day he was sensible, he buried a deep resentment towards this person who took away many things from him.

However, some things are not taken away by Shang Xun, but no one can keep them, for example, his mother's death. In the autumn when he was nine years old, his mother, with tears in her eyes because of depression and depression, finally said only one word to him. I'm sorry for you. He stood by his mother's bed, looked at her breathless mother, and it took a long time before he suddenly realized that his mother was dead, and from then on, he was the only one left, living alone in this world. Fear and sadness occupied his heart. He cried out loudly and ran outside. Among the rustling dead trees around him, the moon was shining brightly in the sky, the stars were shining brightly, and the autumn wind was as cold as a knife.

He ran towards his father's palace, but was stopped at the door. He cried hurriedly and shouted inside: "Father, mother has passed away...she is dead!" His small voice faded into silence in the silent night.After a long time, someone came out from inside and said: "The emperor asked the young man to tell His Highness, I understand, it's getting late, let's talk about it tomorrow." Yes, his mother's death was like a flower falling lightly, not even worth disturbing the emperor's dream for her. Only Shang Jie, when he was dragged away from the bedroom by the palace people, he struggled, looked back at the unusually gorgeous palace under the stars, in the silent palace, faint lights came out, the whole palace was like The transparent Linglong Pavilion on Penglai Xiandao, in the night, is like ice jade, so beautiful and unpopular.

Because his mother and concubine passed away, he was quickly moved out of the palace and lived in his own palace. It is said to be a palace, but it is actually just a courtyard with three entrances. He lived in it alone and spent the first winter after his mother passed away. At that time, he had a Wang Fu to discipline him in place of his mother. He was a depressed scholar in the palace. When he couldn't study, the most common words he said were: "Your Highness, the prince is not yet seven years old. , but you have already memorized the four books, what can you tell the old minister to say? You have to learn the thousand-character prose from the beginning?"

But his mother was illiterate, who could teach him how to read when he was seven years old? So he often skipped classes, and it was not uncommon for him to play with the guards, and no one cared about him, even if he danced with them and cut himself with a sword, no one cared about him. When spring was coming, Concubine Yi Gui passed away. He went to the palace to offer incense, but he didn't see his father in the mourning hall. He heard that he passed out because of his grief.And the one sitting next to him to keep watch is his younger brother Shang Xun, who is under seven years old.

Shang Xun, like his beautiful mother, has a pair of beautiful big eyes. He is still young and doesn't know much about world affairs. We can only meet each other at some time, so we are not familiar with each other.But even so, he seems to know who is his flesh-and-blood relatives. He looked at Shang Jie with hot and moist eyes like a young animal, and called him timidly: "Brother, they say I don't have a mother anymore." His hands were soft and warm. Although Shang Jie had always disliked him, at this moment, he suddenly felt his heart soften.He knelt down, hugged his younger brother's small body, and said in a low voice: "It's okay, my brother has no mother anymore, and I'm still living well now." Shang Xun nodded and said, "Father said that the Empress will be my mother in the future, so who is my brother's mother now?" Shang Jie did not adopt anyone, because Concubine Yi Gui obviously hated him, so no one in the harem had such thoughts, even the queen was unwilling to cause this trouble. So Shang Jie let go of his younger brother and said flatly: "My brother has grown up and doesn't need a mother anymore." However, only he himself knows that his life is actually full of holes. What he needs in growing up, mother, father, family, education, and happiness are all missing. But so what, he still grew up, and the court still did not forget him. When he was thirteen years old, he finally became a useful person, and he finally met his father during the off-year festival. At that time, the ten-year-old Shang Xun had already become quiet. He stood beside his father, looking at his brother quietly. When he smiled, his dimples were very cute. The father gave them a pair of nine-dragon pendants and said, "Shang Xun, Shang Jie, remember that it is a royal fortune for brothers to meet each other." He was only thirteen years old at the time, and was moved to tears by his father's extraordinary favor. He held the jade pendant, looked at his younger brother, and suddenly forgot that his mother was Concubine Yi. Then, he was appointed as an envoy to Anxi, sent to Mengdi, and lived there for a long time—if there was no need for hypocrisy to conceal, he was actually sent as a hostage to an enemy country and became a hostage of another country. He stayed there for nearly two years. In fact, Monty's life, like the fresh sunshine, made his life begin to see new hope.He is just a hostage, not a prisoner, so he is free to move.He grew taller quickly, learned to drink the strongest wine, ride the wildest horse, and cross the grasslands, even the warriors of Monty admired him. Even sometimes, when he wakes up in a daze in the morning, he will think for a moment that he is a fierce nation on the grassland, and will live his whole life in the grassland until he dies of old age. However, in the winter of that year, his father passed away. Before his father died, he didn't remember his son, so no one came to pick him up.He didn't want to admit this fact, and asked the mourning messenger, he said in embarrassment: "I only heard that your majesty ordered the new emperor to love the people and asked Concubine Yi to be buried in the mountain tomb. I didn't think of it for a while..." At that time, the new emperor had already ascended the throne, and the construction of the mountain mausoleum had already started.But Shang Jie was not reconciled, after he went back, he asked the people around him to pack up their things immediately, and Kui Ye came out of Mengdu and ran towards his homeland. Monty's pursuers soon caught up, and some of the people around him were lost or died. During the more than 20 days and nights of desperation, there were 126 people, and only 18 people remained in the end. After bathing in blood and light, he followed him across the border of Mengdi and set foot on his homeland. Deserts and grasslands were gradually replaced by mountains. Nineteen of them galloped on the mountain road under the night sky. He looked at the stars in front of him. In fact, they were the same as those on the grassland, but they were the stars of his homeland. Because of this thought, something burned his whole body like sparks, and he looked up at the great rivers and mountains around him, stretching for thousands of miles to the farthest distance that his eyes could not reach, submerged in the darkness of the night sky.The sound of the wind whistling by my ear disappeared in the far end. The world is boundless, there is no end, and there is no direction to see. It was like the first time he stood in front of the palace where only emperors could live, looking up, at a loss as to what he wanted. He brought 18 people to Beijing to pay homage to the White Tiger Hall, and he tried his best to force the Ministry of Rites to restructure the layout of the mountain mausoleum so that his mother and Concubine Yi would be buried next to the late emperor. Everyone in the world loves legends, he became a legend in the world, and he also became an important prince in the court, because that cowardly and simple emperor relied on his strong brother, and the ministers who wanted to fight against the regent had better The only one I can rely on is him.So he seemed to become the leader of the new emperor's faction and began to take root in the court. At that time, Shang Xun was only eleven years old. Under the tutelage of the tutors, he was well-behaved and smart. When he went to court, he sat upright; Without saying a word, he watched his uncle and brother quarreling.But in his little heart, he knew that his brother was on his side, so when Shang Jie was at a disadvantage, he would carefully tug at Shang Jie's sleeve and whisper, "Brother, I am hungry." Well, why don't you talk about it tomorrow, I want to retreat first." At that time, they were fledgling, and the only way to fight against their political opponents was to procrastinate.Moreover, as Shang Xun grew up, this method could not be used later. After five years of suffering, they finally found a chance to kill their uncle when he entered the palace. At that time, the regent's blood was splashed on the desk in front of them, and a few drops stained their cheeks. Shang Xun's face was pale, he touched the warm blood on his face, and looked up at him. He helped Shang Xun wipe it off lightly, and said, "It's no big deal, everything is going well in our life now." After the regent's death, the emperor contracted a serious illness because of fright, and didn't care about the affairs of the court at all, so he almost let the court change and blood stained the capital. After Shang Jie took care of Xiang Yuanfei and his son, the foundation of the Regent's reign had been shaken.Shang Xun has just started to go to court, but he was originally a person who obeyed the regent in everything, but now he is just a different person, letting Shang Jie decide everything, and his life is still carefree, doing his own incompetence and leisurely the emperor. Just the day before Xiang Konghuan and his son were going to leave the capital, he heard that Xiang Konghuan was going to go hunting in the suburbs at this time, and he was curious, so he went to have a look. Under the heavy rain, under the peach blossoms, in the Temple of Flowers, it was like a catastrophe doomed by heaven, he met Sheng Yan. He made a bet with that arrogant Xiang Konghuan, the moment he shot down the peach blossoms at her temples, her black hair fell messily in the heavy rain, and she was in a panic. At that time, he suddenly felt a little pity in his heart, which made his chest fluctuate. It was as if, in his thin, only good childhood memories, his mother had her hair loose, walking in the yard holding his hand, counting the flowers on the tree, petal by petal.The season is beautiful, and the world is infinitely prosperous, but at that time, he could only spend the best time in his life with this. It was strange why he had never noticed before that he was so lonely. At that time, he suddenly thought that she would change his life. However, he never imagined how she would affect his life. It's not what he thought wholeheartedly, that they will be together forever, but that a one-step difference is irreversible. She became his younger brother's side person, but when he rushed to stop him, she only saw the sycamore flowers blooming in the Tongyin Palace, like a large piece of snow floating in the night sky.The stars are shining brightly, and a round of full moon on a spring night is extremely complete, and the sky is full of brilliance.The candlelight behind the Chenxiang screen is faint and flickering. At this moment, he suddenly felt that he no longer had the courage to explore.He stood at the door, listening to the wind around him slowly flowing through his ears, throwing himself to the far side, never looking back. He finally turned his head and left. Under the sky of stars and moon, he looked up and vaguely remembered that the night his mother died was also the same. The bright moon was in the sky, and the scenery was infinite. Also, on the night when he fled back to his homeland, he looked up and saw the starry sky, reflecting the whole world, vast and boundless. Life changes in an instant, and every time it changes, what he should have will be taken away. The distant and happy childhood, the thousands of miles of mountains and rivers that are close at hand, and the insignificant woman who made his heart move for the first time. In his heart, he knew clearly that his best choice was to forget everything. But, it's always difficult.It was as if there was an obsession tightly strangling his throat, making him restless.He has lost a lot in the past, and now it is irretrievable, only this one, he is still within his reach—maybe not purely because of love, but actually a kind of paranoid, unwilling, and obsessive emotions that cannot be let go, just like four-year-old When I was young, I was sensible for the first time, saw my younger brother for the first time, and had my own hatred for the first time. Until, she gave him a heavy blow, while fleeing with Tie Fei, under the gradually brightening sky, he knew that she should be the person he hated the most, but, at the darkest moment before dawn, the mountains and fields ahead were boundless... Boundless, can never go out.Galloping on the horse under the night sky, he looked at the stars in front of him, and suddenly felt that his eyes were dark, and he almost fell off the horse. In that heavy rain, her hair fell loose, like his only good memory when he was young—however, he did not expect that the rippling water dyed in the corners of her eyes, and the delicate peach blossom-like color on her face, all became part of the scam. The world is changing, and people's hearts are impermanent. The wound on his chest was torn apart during the gallop, the pain was so uncontrollable, his trembling hands could barely hold the reins, and he almost fell down, in the wilderness, under the stars, and disappeared from the world forever. At that moment, with the pain in his heart, he repeated his oath again and again in his heart - Concubine Sheng De, if there is an afterlife, I will never make the same mistake again. However, people always heal their scars and forget the pain, and so does he. In Xiang Konghuan's hands, when he snatched her again, he looked down and saw her nestled in his arms, her color was bleak and her expression was flustered, just like the panicked expression she had in the heavy rain when they met for the first time. Hit his heart, impartial, exact. At that time, he secretly thought in his heart that he might never be able to get rid of this person's spell in his whole life. Because, it's so strange, in this instant, he forgot that she once murdered him together with her younger brother, forgot the oath he made when she came to see him off in prison, and forgot that when he fled in a hurry that night, he tore his heart apart under the starry sky Lung pain, the rest, only delusions about the future, just like an innocent and ignorant child. However, he will no longer give her any more chances. Even when he led his troops south to chase after Xiang Konghuan, he knew clearly in his heart that he was not doing it to obey her wish, but because she wanted to... Taking advantage of himself and Xiang Konghuan are both losers, so he wants to see how she looks like after her conspiracy goes bankrupt, then she will definitely not lose to his previous pain. Only sometimes, after the war, he would step on the blood-stained land and look at the sunset from a distance.All the flowers in the south of the Yangtze River bloom extremely brightly, in the afterglow like residual blood, like a world stained red with blood. As long as he is a little careless, just a small accident, he will become a member of the blood-red world, exhausting his body and blood, leaving only his soul to return to his hometown. However, he still went all the way south. When he received the spy's secret security, when he paid attention to the court's plan, and when he explored her secret actions, he still faithfully passed on the good news to the court, but in his heart, he was actually very urgent. I want to go back, I want to see that when she thought she could put him to death, he suddenly appeared in front of her. At that time, will she show the pitiful, cute and hasty expression when they first met again? Woolen cloth? So he carefully played the sympathetic role in the dark—in fact, he didn't have to play it at all, and all the joy he had when thinking of her was actually true. He also once wrote a letter to Sheng Yan after the bloody battle because of the sudden emptiness and inexplicable sadness in his heart.In fact, since he was a child, no one has carefully taught him rhetoric, so it was very difficult for him to write, and he didn't know how to express his feelings, but in the end, he found that what he wrote was all he wanted to whisper in her ear. Talk lightly. In April in the south of the Yangtze River, the flowers on Moshang bloom like brocades thousands of miles away, charming the eyes.After the war, wearing blood to watch the setting sun, the sky and the earth are blood red, and thousands of flowers fade away.I feel that the past and the present are fleeting, life and death are impermanent, only when I miss you can I suddenly realize where I am. After thinking for a long time, he added a sentence at the end - everything is fine, and we will meet again in autumn. After he finished writing, he looked at the last sentence and thought to himself, she must be busy with autumn work again... So he was looking forward to the moment when he appeared in front of her. He thought of her again and again, thinking of their reunion, and he was in a happy mood. Quenching his excitement, he was like a teenager who tasted love for the first time, he couldn't help reaching out and holding her hair nostalgicly, unable to put it down. At that time, he was really satisfied. He seems to have fulfilled all his dreams overnight.The magnificent palace he once looked up to when he was a child, the thousands of miles of rivers and mountains he stared at from his horse, and the person he fell in love with for the first time are all held in his hands. However, it is only a moment to change fate. At this moment, he personally pushed her into the abyss. But in fact, every step he took was to pave the way for the last moment between her and himself. Maybe it is a moment that changes life, maybe the whole life is just for the arrival of that moment. Many years later, in that gorgeous palace, he held the queen's hand and sent her away.At that time, their child opened the small box she had always carried with her, and there was only one letter in it. In April in the south of the Yangtze River, the flowers on Moshang bloom like brocades thousands of miles away, charming the eyes.After the war, wearing blood to watch the setting sun, the sky and the earth are blood red, and thousands of flowers fade away.I feel that the past and the present are fleeting, life and death are impermanent, only when I miss you can I suddenly realize where I am. The letter written decades ago has grayish yellow edges, but the handwriting is still clear, and the accompanying piece of mugwort leaf is still in the letter, but it is gray and damaged, which is why she often takes it out to read. He looked at her treasured letters, sat in the deep hall, stroked the white hair on her temples, and thought about many years ago, when he was still young, when he held her hair, he felt full of joy . However, that was many years ago. It is only a moment that changes your life, and there is nothing worth remembering about the rest.