Chapter 20 Chapter 20 Sudden Changes

I didn't understand what he meant for a while, "What?" Wulanghamu whispered in my ear evilly and charmingly: "Don't you understand? It's between a man and a woman..." Before he finished speaking, I suddenly remembered something, and my face turned red. I covered my ears and said loudly, "I don't listen, I don't listen." Ulanghamu straightened up again, smiling complacently. He turned around, "Let's go. Don't disturb other people's good things." I once saw Ulang Hammo read "The Art of War" with so much concentration that he didn't even notice when I walked up to him.

So I pulled a handful of grass from the grass and sprinkled it on his book one after another. He looked up in surprise, found it was me, and smiled at me. "I can't train with you today. My leg is hurt." "Oh? How did you get hurt?" I asked curiously, with a bit of schadenfreude. He sighed, closed the book and said, "You women here are troublesome." I chuckled and said, "You must not be talking about me." He also smiled, "So confident. Indeed, it's not you. You should describe it as tricky." I didn't answer his words, I just found a clean grass and sat down, and asked, "Do you also read "The Art of War by Sun Tzu?"

"The red tape of your Han people is annoying, but this art of war is worth a look." I tilted my head and asked him seriously, "Do you want to be a Khan?" He obviously didn't expect me to ask this question so bluntly. He was taken aback for a moment, then nodded seriously, "Yes. I want to be the future Huihe Khan." He continued: "I will become the most wise khan in Huihe. I will build a powerful country... I will not trust villains like my father, who only knows how to have fun with women every day... I will work hard, Let my people live a good life in peace and contentment..."

I looked at the man in front of me who clenched his fists and spoke impassionedly about his ideals, and secretly felt a little admiration. But I also have some pity for him. After all, he is thousands of miles away from his hometown now... and I heard that the current Khan of Huihe is very fond of the youngest son born to his favorite concubine. I said softly: "Then, you should work hard." He whistled once, and joked, "Oh, did this come from Miss Nuxi?" I looked at him bitterly, "You're really not serious." He smiled, showing his white teeth, "I will remember Miss Nuxi's words in my heart. Thank you."

I was a little embarrassed by his look, and hurriedly got up, "I'm leaving." After I had walked many steps, he yelled loudly, "Nuxi, you are a good woman. If you are more gentle, I will marry you!" I stopped and stared back at him. He didn't feel ashamed at all, instead he smiled. I came to Yuegui Palace to visit Ming Jieyu, just as her personal maid Linglong came out with a finished medicine bowl. She saw me kneel and say hello to me, and I nodded slightly. I walked a few steps, and suddenly remembered something, and called her back. Looking at the thin layer of brown-black concoction remaining in the medicine bowl, I picked up the medicine bowl and put it in front of my nose to smell it.

I calmed down, narrowed my eyes and stared at Linglong and asked, "Is this what your master drank?" Linglong replied softly and respectfully: "Yes. The master just finished drinking it." At the end Linglong asked nervously, "Miss Nuxi, is there any problem?" I put the bowl back on the tray as if nothing had happened, and said without a tone: "Is there anything you servants should worry about for the master? I don't know anything. It's just that the taste is bitter, and some sweetness should be added." yes." Linglong nodded obediently, "Your servant has made a note."

"You go to work." She saluted me again before leaving. I opened the door and entered, and saw Ming Jieyu was lazily leaning on the low table eating candied fruit. When she saw me, she immediately straightened her body and said with a smile, "Oh, I didn't expect you to see such a disrespectful appearance." I smiled and sat next to her, and put on a casual gesture, saying: "Why do you treat me so differently. Just lean in." After listening to my words, she relaxed again and leaned back. I carefully observed her face and asked, "Is your body better?"

Her face was a little gloomy, she sighed, and said, "It's still not the same." I said in a joking tone, "You don't need to drink this medicine. Maybe it will get better in the end." The clever Ming Jieyu suddenly heard something from my words, she straightened up and said in surprise: "You mean..." Immediately afterwards, she shook her head again, "Impossible... Although the imperial physician Master Zhou who treated me is still young, he has a good character and will never do such despicable things. How could he harm me?" What she said about Zhou Zhongdao, Mr. Zhou has a very good reputation in the palace, but that person is really a bit proud.

"So did someone tamper with the decoction?" I asked. Ming Jieyu replied: "I have also considered this point, so I specially handed over this matter to Linglong." "Why does Jieyu believe that Linglong is not a manipulator?" Ming Jieyu shook her head again, "I brought Linglong here from her natal family... She has served me since she was a child, and she will never betray me." I smiled, "Why is Jieyu confused now? There are too many variables in the palace, who can guarantee that she will be consistent? Jieyu should be careful." Because very few people in the palace know that I know medicine, it is inconvenient for me to talk to her deeply.She is so smart, she must be more careful in the future.

She nodded thoughtfully, then feigned anger and said, "Just now you said I was cheating on you, and you kept calling me 'Jieyu', isn't it a big cheating? Didn't you agree to call each other's names last time? " I apologized to her with a smile, and called "Sister Jingshu". Only then did she turn her anger into joy, and said to me: "The previous family entrusted someone to bring me some things, and my mother even made some snacks and brought them to me. You will definitely like them too." I covered my mouth and smiled, "If I don't call you sister today, you might not be willing to give it to me."

Ming Jieyu smiled triumphantly, and said: "Of course, today you recognized a good sister." Then she called out: "Yun'er, bring the snacks." After a while, the door was pushed open, but it was not Yun'er who came in, but a strange maid. The maid brought the snacks in front of us, knelt down and said, "Servant Xiao'e is waiting on you. Why did the master forget, sister Yun'er was transferred to Huanqing Palace yesterday?" Ming Jieyu was also a little surprised at the beginning, but suddenly came to her senses after hearing her words, she waved her hand and said, "I forgot about it for a while. You step back." I asked in surprise: "Why, Yun'er was asked to leave by the concubine of Huanqing Palace?" "Yesterday I met Tian Meiren in the garden. Seeing that Yun'er was smart, she liked her very much, so she changed Xiao'e by her side with me." I frowned secretly when I heard this, what did Wan Xia do this for?I'm afraid she was just trying to show off her status to Ming Jieyu and satisfy the most useless vanity. Guan Chongyuan would not do such a stupid act, Liu Jieyu would not do it, and Jiao Jieyu would not do it, but you are a beauty with short-sightedness and do not know the heights of the sky and the earth. Concubines in the harem are most taboo to change servants at will. If Yun'er misses the old master and becomes a spy, I'm afraid you won't even be able to sleep peacefully. I said calmly: "I have some friendship with Tianmei from Huanqing Palace. I will ask her to send Yun'er back tomorrow." On the contrary, Ming Jieyu smiled indifferently and said: "Don't bother me so much, lest outsiders think I'm stingy. It's just that after being together for such a long time, I also have some feelings, and I'm not used to it for a while. But my place is deserted. It doesn't take so many people, it's a good thing that Yun'er doesn't have to suffer with me anymore..." After hearing what she said, I couldn't say anything more.After sitting for a while, I told her to take good care of her body before leaving. When I came to Huanqing Palace, Wanxia received me happily. I watched her busy ordering to serve me tea and water, and thought that although Wan Xia was selfish and petty, she was really good to me. After a while, the tea came up. I looked up and saw that it was Gong'e named Yun'er. "Are you still used to it here?" I asked briefly. Yun'er lowered her head and replied: "The new master is very kind to the slaves." I took a sip of tea and said, "Since I have changed my master, I have to serve you wholeheartedly. This is also the duty of a slave. If you do it well, the beauty will naturally reward you well; if you do something wrong, I'm afraid your old master will also do you wrong." There's no light on your face." "The maidservant respectfully obeys Miss' instruction." I nodded and told her to step back and do her own thing. I greeted Wanxia and asked, "How is the beauty?" Wan Xia looked around, so the busy palace people put down their work and retreated tactfully. She revealed a mournful expression, and said: "In this month, the emperor summoned me only twice, Liu Jieyu four times, Wan Chongyuan four times, and Jiao Jieyu six times." I shook my head helplessly when I heard that, Jiao Jieyu has always been on good terms with you, so why are you competing with her to be jealous? Seeing that I was silent, Wan Xia moved closer to me and asked, "Miss, how can you be more favored than Jiao Jieyu? I know you must have a way." But I didn't answer her question directly, I just stared at the rose hairpin on her head and said: "The emperor said that roses are frivolous and less self-cultivating, you should change them, the emperor doesn't like it." After listening to my words, Wanxia just turned her head and took off the rose hairpin in confusion, but she didn't understand my deep meaning after all. (twelve princes) If I win, I will tell Nuxi to let her marry me. But when I saw Nu Xi proudly galloping in front of me, I felt a little dazed for a moment. Nuxi, apart from not being able to embroider, is there anything else in this world that can embarrass you? She turned around, reined in in front of me, and jumped off the horse. She smiled and said to me: "Twelve princes, I won." I cleared my throat, "Nuxi, you really don't want me to bark like a puppy, do you?" "A gentleman must keep his word." Nu Xi said deliberately serious. She stared straight at me, and I knew I couldn't go back, so I cleared my throat again, trying to make a "woof" sound in my throat, but I couldn't make a sound. I looked up at her in embarrassment. She laughed haha ​​when she saw me, "Prince Twelve, you are blushing." I said awkwardly: "I really can't scream." She covered her mouth for a long time before she stopped laughing, got on the horse by herself, and called back to me: "Prince Twelve, if you can catch up with me, I won't ask you to bark like a puppy." By the time I realized it, Nu Xi had already run a long way.I mounted my black steed, whipped the whip, and the horse galloped away. Nu Xi, Nu Xi, I shouted silently in my heart.After a while, I got closer and closer to Nuxi. She looked back at me from time to time, whipping her whip and running faster and faster. I smiled, and I followed the quickened pace, rushing to her at once. Before she could react, I grabbed her waist and carried her to my horse. She let out a surprised "Yeah" and looked back at me. "I've caught up." Without waiting for her to struggle after finishing speaking, he held her tightly in his arms and galloped against the black wind. Neither of us spoke, at this moment there was only the whistling wind in our ears. In my arms, she looks very obedient, and I can even smell the faint fragrance of orchids in her hair. Nuxi, Nuxi, can you hear the powerful beating of my heart...you are my treasure. We walked silently side by side on the pasture, with the black and white horses trailing behind us. Nuxi lowered her head and stepped on small steps, looking at the green grass under her feet. Suddenly the horse behind neighed, and we all turned our heads to see that they had already become intimate with each other. I said: "Look, he likes her." Nuxi, you should understand. She lowered her head again, and replied in a low voice, "Yes." However, I couldn't figure out what she meant from this sentence, and I couldn't see her lowered expression. The atmosphere of getting along today was a bit dull, so I took my leave early when I brought back Ma Nuxi. I sighed, only to find that the fan pheasant was already standing nearby. I was a little surprised, "Shanzhi, when did you come?" Could it be that she saw the scene just now? But she answered irrelevantly and said: "I also really want to ride a horse...Twelve princes, can you take me for a ride too?" I was about to refuse, but I heard her add another sentence, "Just like you took Nuxi just now..." It turned out that she had seen it after all.I shook my head and said apologetically, "I can't. Fanzhi, I'm sorry." She trembled all over, raised her head and asked plaintively, "Why?" I turned my head away, not wanting to see her hurt expression, "You are not her." Her eye circles were a little red, and there was even a cry in her tone, "Why? What's so good about her?" "Shanzhi, you are also a good girl, but..." She interrupted me and shouted loudly: "What good is she! Such a defiant person..." I was stunned, never thought that Shan Zhi, who is always gentle, would say such resentful words. Yes, what do I like about Nuxi? Is it her peerless beauty?Not like that, even if she gets ugly, I want her. What I like is her whole person, like her every frown and smile, like her aggressiveness and even her selfishness...I like everything about her. "Shanzhi, I hope you will be happy, but that person is not me, you should go find where your true happiness belongs..." I said to her seriously. Shan Pheasant laughed, a bit miserably. "My happiness? My happiness... I found my true happiness six years ago, but you broke it..." I said sorry again guiltily. She didn't answer, she turned and left silently. (slave) I'm not sure how I feel about the Twelfth Prince, I only know that we have been together since childhood. Of course, I didn't have time to think carefully about the relationship with the twelve princes, because King Quan Yu is coming back. Even though I feel that time is so difficult, I am moving forward after all. When King Quanyu's third letter arrived, he told me that he would arrive in the capital in five days. So there seemed to be thousands of flowers growing in my heart, which would bloom from time to time. Live like years.I can finally understand the meaning of this sentence deeply.But today is the last day, and he will be back tomorrow. I was fidgeting all day, nervous and anticipating. I was afraid that I would not be able to sleep all night, but luckily the Queen Mother held a small banquet tonight to divert my attention a little. I still behaved decently at the banquet, but in reality I was absent-minded. I don't know when I suddenly heard the Empress Dowager laughing on the top and said: "Shan Pheasant should have reached the age of marriage. But do you have someone in mind? Aijia will make decisions for you." I looked at the Empress Dowager in surprise, and then at my sister again, with her shy look in my eyes. She lowered her head and said in a low voice, "The Empress Dowager made fun of Shan Pheasant." The Empress Dowager laughed again, "It's a common thing in the world for a man to marry a woman. Ai's family means that you married the first emperor at your age. You don't have to be shy all the time, tell me if you have The Ai family will definitely prepare a dowry for you for the prince and grandson you like." The elder sister still had a shy expression, but her eyes unconsciously glanced at the twelve princes. I sneered in my heart, sure enough.However, the twelve princes didn't look sideways and just drank silently. Later I heard my sister say: "Shan Zhi has admired King Quan Yu for a long time, and I hope the Queen Mother will make it happen." I opened my eyes wide and looked at her in disbelief. What?What did she just say? The queen mother seemed a little surprised, and asked her sister who was already kneeling below: "Shan Zhi, do you want to marry King Quan Yu?" My sister lowered her eyebrows and replied, "Yes." The queen mother pondered for a while, "The fourth emperor's grandson, Yunwen Yunwu, is handsome and suave, and is indeed easy to attract girls. You are also a good match. It's just that he already has a concubine. If you marry Shan Zhi, I'm afraid you will have to be young. are you willing?" The elder sister said softly: "Shan Zhi is willing. I heard that Prince Quan Yu has not accepted any concubine in the past six months, and sleeps alone every night. Shan Zhi hopes to marry him and comfort him in the pain of losing his mother." The queen mother understood, and nodded again and again, "What a good boy, Aijia didn't love you for nothing. Based on your kindness, Aijia accepted you here today. The fourth child will come back tomorrow, and give him a good marriage , to make him happy..." The elder sister kowtowed deeply to the Queen Mother, and said in a calm tone: "Thank you Queen Mother for making it happen." When the crowd dispersed, I stopped my sister. "Why?" I asked, staring into her eyes. She smiled and snorted, "Why? You ask me why?" "You obviously..." "Yes", my sister interrupted me, "You stole my sweetheart first, didn't you? If you stole mine, I will also snatch yours..." My body shook, and then I put on a nonchalant expression, "What's mine? I'm afraid you're thinking wrong..." Elder sister smiled triumphantly, "I saw it. The fourth prince held your hand that day, but you didn't refuse...Do you still dare to say it's nothing?" I was so shocked that I couldn't speak again, I forgot that day, my sister would look back for the twelve princes, I forgot... The elder sister continued to sarcastically say: "You didn't expect it? If you don't want to be discovered by others, then don't show that silly expression in front of men... Just kidding, you can also like people? Are you worthy?" I bit my lips tightly for a long time before letting go, "Just for this? Just to make me suffer for a while, you marry yourself to a man you don't love?" The elder sister's eyes suddenly became cold, and she said fiercely: "No, it will make you suffer for the rest of your life. I understand you, slave. You will be in pain for the rest of your life. Do you think that the queen mother will marry me to Queen Quan Yu? You?" My sister laughed wantonly when she saw my pale face. It was the first time I heard her make such a sharp voice, which made me shudder. She approached me and said bitterly, "You forced me. Even if you want to go to hell, I will drag you to hell with me!" She smiled and walked away with vengeful pleasure, but I froze and couldn't move. My sister who has always been taciturn hates me so much. I was deceived by her reticence. I actually forgot that she was my elder sister, and half of her blood was as murderous as mine... I covered my face, which was distorted in pain. what should I do. I waited for him for half a year, but when he came back, he became someone else's man. I was still waiting for him so obsessively just a moment ago. A moment ago I was ecstatic. And now... It hurts. "Miss, Prince Quan Yu said he wants to see you outside..." Shan Shan said. I stared blankly at the flying butterflies embroidered on the snow-white gauze curtain, and didn't speak for a long time. "Miss..." Shanshan asked again tentatively. "Let him go..." I said weakly. Shanshan tried to say something again, but she didn't say it after all, and stepped back with a sigh. But after a while, there was the sound of footsteps, and then the strong and subtle scent of Chinan. he came. "Why don't you see me?" I am silent. His tone became a little anxious, "Nuxi, don't you know that I have been driving non-stop for so many days just to see you earlier? But at this moment you don't want to see me. Nuxi, tell me, what's wrong with you?" I still didn't speak, but a tear fell from my eye socket. He walked to the edge of the bed and sat down, gently took me into his arms, leaned my head on his shoulder, and said in a tender and loving tone, "Tell me, do you miss me?" I nodded on his shoulder and sobbed softly. "You belong to someone else...you are going to marry someone else...you don't want me anymore..." He sighed, hugged me even tighter and said, "Silly slave. I don't want anyone but you." "But isn't the Queen Mother already..." "I won't marry her. Tonight, my father is going to clean up the dust for me. I will invite my grandmother to the dinner. Nu Xi, you believe me..." What I looked up and saw was his firm eyes, and a surge of strength suddenly surged in my heart.Yes, in fact, that's just my sister's wishful thinking, isn't it?King Quan Yu would not marry her. He looked at me and smiled, "Look at your swollen eyes, go and wash up, come out and see what gift I brought back for you." I lowered my head again, grabbed his robe tightly, and murmured, "I don't want anything, I just want you..." "You can't abandon me, you can't leave me, you must always be by my side..." I looked up into his eyes to ascertain his intentions, his eyes were full of tenderness like water. He gently covered my eyes with one hand. My eyes suddenly became dark, but my sense of hearing became sharp, and I could even hear his slight breathing beside me. "Nuxi, did you hear that?" He put my hand on his chest, and I could feel his heart beating, "It says it loves you. It says it will never leave you forever." I was moved, "Is it a lifetime?" "It's a lifetime." We have been together all afternoon. He played a game called "picture in picture" with me. "Picture-in-picture" is a game in which two or more people complete a picture scroll. One person paints the big background, while the rest paint the details in the background.This kind of game is not only novel and interesting, but also tasteful and elegant, so it has become very popular in the palace recently. He unfolded a slender scroll, and first painted a small pavilion with ink. I drew a guzheng in the center of the pavilion. He looked at me, we smiled at each other knowingly, and he extended a narrow path from the pavilion. I lowered my head and thought for a while, and drew a lost embroidered shoe in the middle of the path. He was taken aback for a moment, then stretched out his hand and gently scratched his nose, saying, "Naughty." He drew many lush trees on both sides of the road, and I interspersed a few blooming flowers among them. At the end of the road, he drew a piece of sparkling lake, and I added half a piece of beautiful clear water hibiscus. He smiled and floated a canoe on the lake. I drew a girl sitting on the side of the boat and fetching water barefoot on his boat. He smiled and asked me, "Where is that shoe?" I covered my mouth and smiled, and replied, "You just paint." After thinking about it, he drew a pair of loving mandarin ducks cuddling each other on the water, and then stared at me. I knew what he meant, blushed slightly, picked up a pen and drew another embroidered shoe on top of the mandarin duck. At this moment, he yelled like a child, "Why did she break up the mandarin ducks with her shoes?" I put on a dissatisfied tone and said seriously: "She was so happy to date her sweetheart, but she was so eager that she even lost a shoe on the way. But she felt wronged after waiting for her sweetheart to come. Very disappointed, seeing the happy and loving mandarin ducks on the lake again, I felt jealous, so I simply used another shoe to drive them away..." He showed a clear expression, so he drew a handsome man playing a jade flute on the bank. He explained to me: "Actually, the man had already arrived and waited for her. It's just that he didn't have a boat, so he had to wait for his beloved woman by the lake. When he saw his beloved woman, he played the jade flute, hoping that she would listen to it." to his heart." I felt shy under his burning gaze and turned my head away. His big hand covered my cheek, and my heart skipped a beat. "Look at me, Nuxi..." he said. I looked back at him anxiously, his eyes seemed to melt me. He held my hand tighter, and slowly, slowly approached me... His lips touched mine lightly. Soft and moist. My eyes widened and my mind went blank. I can feel his breath, hot and strong. He asked me softly, "What did you eat?" I couldn't think, so I just stammered and replied, "Han, Han Xiangyuan." He chuckled, "It's delicious." After he finished speaking, he took me into his arms and kissed harder. I was infatuated at first, but then I instinctively closed my eyes. It seems that there is a choking floral fragrance, which makes my brain dizzy. My hand on his chest trembled slightly, but there was an indescribable joy and sweetness in my heart. Is this happiness... I don't want to let go. In the evening, I deliberately dressed up. It took a lot of time to comb into a delicate and gorgeous butterfly bun, and a few seasonal jasmine hairpins were inserted; pearls were wrapped around the hair and the white jade in the middle was dropped on the forehead; purple shell pendants and jade bracelets were worn on the wrists. Jewelry , The action collides with each other and makes a crisp and pleasant jingle sound; wearing a Yuqing blue dress, from the hem to the top, there are white jasmine flowers.The waist ring is a pearl belt, and the rest of the end hangs down naturally, which adds color to the brocade garment. After everything was dressed up, I got up from the vanity mirror. At this time, even the palace servants who were used to seeing me couldn't help but let out a low sound of admiration. Tingyi knelt down and adjusted the pleats of my skirt for me, and praised: "Miss is as beautiful as a fairy, no one can match." When I came to Changle Hall, King Quan Yu was slightly startled when he saw me, and then showed admiration. We were all seated, and he looked at me and nodded at me. I knew he was going to ask the Queen Mother to refuse the marriage with Shan Zhi. He was just about to get up for the meeting, but at this moment he heard the empress greeted with a smile: "This sister has already settled down, and after a while my sister should also talk about marriage." The queen mother nodded on it and said: "Yes, the children have grown up. Queen, go back and see which minister's son is suitable for Nuxi, and find a good wife for her..." The son of the minister's family, it is only natural for the queen mother to say so. The queen was just about to nod her head in agreement, when the emperor said from above: "What is the son of a minister's family, our slave will marry the emperor in the future." Although he said it with a smile, his tone was serious. The faces of all the people present did not change. So can you also say the same thing as the emperor, the person who marries me will also be the emperor of the ninety-fifth degree? My face turned pale in an instant, because I knew what this sentence meant. King Quan Yu can't say he wants to marry me...not just him, everyone can't say marry me, otherwise it will be a sign of wanting to be the throne. This sentence entrusts me with supreme glory and wealth, but it determines my destiny to wait for the appearance of the future emperor and then marry myself to him. What an irony. I looked at King Quan Yu, his face was pale that couldn't be concealed. I bit my lip, feeling bursts of despair in my heart. He looked at me but slowly calmed down. He nodded slightly at me, and the expression in his eyes was a kind of firm strength. He still attended the center of the kneeling hall, and said in a clear voice: "Grandmother, my grandson has been upset since the death of his concubine mother. I don't want to talk about marriage for the time being. I hope Grandmother will take it back." The queen mother was a little dissatisfied with what the emperor said just now, but now she heard that King Quan Yu wanted to refuse the marriage, and now she changed her face, and said displeasedly: "So the fourth grandson is not satisfied with the marriage that the Ai family has prepared for you?" King Quan Yu made a look of sincerity and fear, and replied: "Grandson dare not. Grandmother's love for grandson is always in my heart, but my grandson is stupid and I am afraid that I can't give Miss Shan Zhi happiness. There are so many things, it is inevitable that she has been wronged. I hope that the emperor's grandmother will find another lover for Miss Shanzhi..." The queen mother still had an expression of refusal to give up, and she reprimanded: "Since Aijia has already agreed to Shan Zhi, how can he go back on his word? Is King Quanyu deliberately wanting to let Aijia lose his promise?" The Empress Dowager specially called "King Quan Yu", obviously exerting a kind of pressure. King Quan Yu wanted to defend himself, but the queen mother was getting impatient, and waved to him to signal him to back down. King Quan Yu was struggling to advance and retreat, but he had no intention of retreating. I looked at him and shook my head again and again, signaling him not to say anything, and going on would only be bad for him. But I saw a big man like him kneeling upright in the center of the hall, motionless. Surrounded by the whispers of speculation, there are all kinds of gloating eyes. I suddenly felt sad for a while, but I suppressed the tears vividly. At this time, I can't do anything, all I can do is watch him silently at the table. I can't even show any sad face, it will hurt him. I can only be expressionless. I don't know how long this stalemate lasted, the emperor sighed on top. I suddenly had a glimmer of hope that the emperor would intercede with the queen mother for him. Unexpectedly, at this time, my sister suddenly attended and knelt down beside King Quan Yu and said, "Shan Zhi doesn't want to embarrass the Queen Mother and Prince Quan Yu, so Shan Zhi has the guts to ask the Queen Mother to dissolve this marriage as King Quan Yu wishes." The queen mother was slightly startled, and asked, "Shan Zhi, is this the happiness of your life? You should think about it." The elder sister's tone was a bit sad, she said: "The Empress Dowager Xie loves Shan Zhi so much. But Shan Zhi's desire to get married is ultimately a matter of your love and my wish, and Shan Zhi doesn't want to force others to make things difficult..." A touch of emotion flashed in the Queen Mother's eyes, she sighed, and said in a tone of regret: "You all get up. That's all, that's all... King Quan Yu, you have to thank Shan Zhi, it's all because of her being reasonable, you Not marrying her is your loss." King Quan Yu and his sister got up one after another, saying goodbye.King Quan Yu also expressed his apology and gratitude to his sister as the queen mother said. I secretly breathed a sigh of relief, but when my sister passed by my seat, the corners of her mouth curled up slightly imperceptibly. My heart suddenly sank again, how could she be smiling? But soon, that night, she gave me the answer. The news in the palace always spread quickly. The palace people of Xiaoyazhai welcomed me into the room with joy, congratulating Miss in voices, their faces were all filled with a look of glory. Yes, my position represents their interests. I will be the future mistress of this vast harem, and they will also become the masters of the slaves, and the objects of courteous curry favor. I sat in front of the vanity mirror and took off the pearl hairpins expressionlessly. When the last hairpin was removed, Heishun's hair immediately fell down like a waterfall. I stared at the person in the bronze mirror, his hair was as black as ink, but his face was pale. At this time, Jingming walked in with a smile, knelt down and said flatteringly, "Miss Congratulations." I was still staring at the bronze mirror, and said in a flat tone, "Why do you say congratulations?" Jing Ming replied very seriously: "Only marrying the emperor will not waste Miss's peerless beauty and intelligence." I raised my eyebrows, "Oh? Then who is that person according to what you said?" That's what I'm really eager to know. Jingming murmured, "This slave is not sure. The eldest son of the emperor, King Nanying, King Quanyu, who has military merits, King Qingling, who is extremely smart, and the twelve princes who are favored by his mother and concubine, are all possible. It's very big. They each have their own advantages and disadvantages, and I'm afraid we can't make a conclusion for a while..." I smiled coldly, I don't know this kind of situation, but what I want to know is the final answer. "However..." Jing Ming's voice lowered, "As for who will be crowned the Great Treasure in the end, it all depends on Miss." My heart moved slightly, but I said, "How can I decide the position of god?" Jing Ming smiled treacherously, and said word by word: "Miss can't decide who gets the god position, but miss can decide who won't get the god position." I narrowed my eyes to look at Jingming who was kneeling below, maybe he was right.It may be difficult to promote someone, but it is much easier to discredit someone. I casually grabbed an ivory hairpin inlaid with gold from the dressing table, hit him, and shouted: "Presumptuous! Don't say such treasonous things in the future!" Jingming calmly picked up the hairpin that fell to his side, held it in his hand respectfully, and bowed to me. "Thank you, Miss, for your kindness." Just as I fell asleep, Shanshan suddenly rushed in and said nervously: "Miss, go and have a look, Miss is going to commit suicide!" I froze for a moment, sister, suicide? I couldn't help but think too much, I hastily tidied up my robes and rushed to my sister's Xiaoxun Xuan. There are already several female relatives in the house. The queen mother sighed with half blame and half pity: "Silly boy, how do you do such a foolish thing?" I saw my sister with long hair, wearing a white robe, and holding a three-foot white silk.She had been crying for a long time, and replied intermittently: "Shan Zhi didn't want to disturb everyone, I didn't expect...even disturbed the Queen Mother, Shan Zhi felt ashamed. Please stop worrying about Shan Zhi, the Queen Mother, Shan Zhi is not worth it..." After hearing this, the queen mother felt even more pity, "You were raised by the Ai family, and you have always been a sensible and good boy. Your father died for the country, and you lost your father when you were young. Who does the Ai family not love you?" I love you. Tell Aijia, what wronged you, Aijia will make decisions for you..." My sister was still sobbing, she just kept persuading the queen mother to go back to sleep, otherwise she would feel uneasy, but she didn't mention the reason. But the Queen Mother still guessed something, and asked: "But today's resignation made you feel depressed?" The elder sister's expression changed, and she immediately replied no. But such a reaction clearly shows that she cares about this very matter. At this time, my sister's personal maid knelt down and said cautiously: "I don't know if I should say something. This servant has served Miss for many years, and this servant has guessed something about Miss's thoughts..." The Queen Mother asked her to continue talking. The maid said: "Miss usually reads "Girls" and other books, and she is often full of praise for the chaste women in it. She also restrains herself according to that model. Today, the man divorced the engagement, not to mention being like a lady. Women who pay attention to fame and integrity, even rural aunts in the folk, are deeply ashamed when they encounter such a situation. As the saying goes: "One woman does not serve two husbands". After this incident, I am afraid that the young lady will not be able to marry other young masters... The young lady has always been kind, so maybe she can't bear to embarrass the empress dowager and the prince, so she wants to die..." 这时姊打断侍女说：“万儿，你不要再说了……” 太后听完这话已心中有数，温柔地拍了拍姊的后背，带有几分愧疚说：“这件事是哀家当初失言，哀家竟未想到这一层。” 姊摇了摇头，“扇雉是不想让亲王为难，也不想让太后难做……” 太后感慨般地说：“老四若是能娶到你真是他的福分。这样好的女子他不要还想要谁呢？哀家在这儿就给你一个承诺，明天便让钦天监卜算吉日让你们完婚。” 姊露出一副惊恐的表情，“扇雉这样反复，亲王会瞧不起扇雉的。还望太后收回成命……” 太后用一种不容置疑的语气说：“这不关你的事，当初哀家就不赞成他退婚。哀家回头会和老四说的，但凡他有些孝心，也不该再违背哀家的旨意。” 姊又推托了几次，但见太后态度坚定才点头应承下来。 她背着太后看我，我看见了她眼中尚未褪去的泪水，但是她却对我笑了。 和宴会上一样的笑容。 我的脸色苍白。 我终于明白了她的笑意味着什么——是得逞的得意。 而我，在太后面前却束手无策。 她冲我说：“奴兮，你怎么了，脸色那么差。你不为我祝福吗？” 太后和众人回头看我。 我愣愣的，在众人逼视的目光中甚至不知道自己是如何将那句话一字一顿说出口的：“恭，恭喜姊……” 姊光明正大地笑了，说：“谢谢你。你真是个好妹妹。” 末了她又加了句，“我也替权禹王谢谢你的祝福。” 三日后，权禹王和姊完婚。 这是钦天监算出的最近唯一会有的好日子。 那是一个喜气的日子，和晴肜帝姬出嫁时一样放眼望去宫中到处是一片喜庆的红。 太后选我亲自为姊执衣摆。 我走在姊的后面为她提起宽大火红的婚袍，眼睁睁地看着她和权禹王拜天地。 他们对拜，姊低下了头，我透过她看见了在对面拜堂的权禹王。 他象征性的弯身可是眼睛却死死地盯着站在姊后面的我。 那眼神太过复杂，有愧疚，有痛楚，有绝望。 我互相看着彼此。 但是姊又抬头直身，我便再也看不到他的视线。 我和他两情相悦，本来站在前面的应该是我啊。 我只是想和心爱的人在一起，难道对我来说这也是天高的奢望吗…… 难道就像姊所说，我不配吗？ 他们拜完堂后，我找了借口就匆匆地离去。 我疯也似地跑向小雅斋，路中磕绊到了不知多少次，可是我连衣裳的尘土尚来不及拭去，便站起来接着跑下去。 我不知道我在跑什么。 只是感到心中一直在流血。 我极其狼狈地跑回小雅斋，发饰掉了，头发乱了，衣裙被刮破了。 宫人们看见我都呆了。 我来到梳妆镜前，将上面的饰品挥手悉数全都甩倒在地上。 还有铜镜。 我狠狠地将铜镜砸下，铜镜发出了一种绝望的咣当声。 上面的夜明珠滚滚而落，蹦到跪倒一片的宫人之间。 宫人们战战兢兢地唤了一声：“小姐……” 我凄楚地笑了，女为悦己者容，我现在要这些还有什么用？ 我恨，我恨，他穿着红袍如此仪表非凡，可是却不是为我而穿…… 我突然又想起了什么。 我手脚忙乱地猛打开各个抽屉，善善在一旁看得心惊，小心地问：“小小姐要找什么？奴婢帮您找……” 我却只是一味疯狂地搜寻，终于在书案上一摞宣纸的夹层中找到了那幅画。 我呆呆地看着那幅画，大滴大滴的眼泪终于止不住滴落下来，殷湿了墨迹。 竟是如此不吉。 到最后还是他在岸边，我守水上，我们相隔两地，终究有缘无份。 宫人们早已在善善的命令下悄悄地退下。 我浑身瘫软坐在地上，泪水再也控制不住地簇簇而下。 我一直流泪，不知道自己哭了多久，只是最后累得躺在冰冷的地上枕着那幅画昏睡过去。 睡梦中仿佛听到了滚滚的雷声和暴雨冲刷屋檐的声音。 又仿佛听到笛子悠扬哀婉的声音，断人心肠。 似远又近。 我又梦见我在哭泣，原来人在梦中也能哭泣。 早上被一股阴冷而潮湿的雨气惊醒。 我撑起身体，发现身下的那幅画早已蒙上了斑斑泪痕，有好多地方已经模糊不清。 我望向窗外，才发现好多昨日开得正好的花儿都凋零了，各色的花瓣漂浮在水洼上。 善善这时捧着一件新衣进来，她走到我面前，说：“小小姐更衣吧。” 她什么都没有问我，只是像平常那样跪下为我穿衣。 我木然地任由她忙上忙下，最后还是问道：“昨夜下雨了吗？” 善善“嗯”了一声，然后一顿，又接着说：“昨晚有人吹了一夜的笛子。声音哀伤悲戚，让人听了忍不住落泪……” 我沉默，心中却有说不上来的滋味。 早上去给太后请安时看到了那一对儿新人。 姊她装扮得依然很喜庆漂亮，身着大红的裙子，温婉地站在权禹王身边。 权禹王身着一身墨色衣袍，目光深沉，看不出喜怒。 太后略略有些不满，但也不好说什么，于是只是和姊、柳婕妤等说笑了几句。 太后对权禹王说：“你以后可要好好待扇稚。这样贤德的女子你不要辜负她……” 权禹王向太后一拜，沉声说：“是。” 姊拿挑衅的眼光看着我。我别过头去。 我们向太后告辞后，在外廊上权禹王竟大步走到了我身旁，借着宽大的袖子在下面紧紧地握住了我的手。 他语调有些模糊地唤了我一声，“奴兮……” 我一时竟有些发急，他疯了么？这儿这么多人。 我伸出手用力地推开了他，没想到他竟随之倒了下去。 我看着倒在地上的权禹王，一时反应不过来。 再看他面色潮红，呼吸不稳的样子，才知道他是感染了风寒。 我慌忙地想扶起他，可是姊一个箭步冲到我前面，叫着：“王爷，王爷……” 然后她吩咐自己身边的宫人将他搀扶起来，带着他离开。 我愣愣地看着权禹王离去的背影，却完全没有我可以插手的地方。 傍晚时我去了怡景宫。 姊被太后请去一起用晚膳，暂时不会回来。 我走进那间被装扮得喜气的房间，心中却感觉到阵阵的悲凉。 他躺在床榻上，呼吸平稳，除却眉宇间的那份凝重，脸色却好了许多。 他的睡觉时便是这样的么。 少了平时的淡漠和沉稳，现在平和安宁得倒有几分像个孩子。 我就这样看着他，良久。 我走到他的床榻边，跪坐在下面，把头枕在床沿上。 床上有他温暖的气息。 屋里静静的。 这样的一刻。 那一刻，我的心柔软无比。 请让我静静地陶醉这一瞬间。 以后可能再也没有这样的机会了。 为了我逝去的爱情…… 之后的两天我再也没有看见权禹王。 后来他走了，当然还带走他新婚的小妻子。 他没有再来找我，甚至连道别都没有和我说。 但是他离开一个月后，我依然收到了他的信。 那封信干净的什么也没有，只是一张白纸。 我知道这不是“此处无声胜有声”的意境，是因为他已经给不起我任何承诺了。 他只是在告诉我他没有忘了我。 我手中拿着那张白纸，仿佛有千斤重。 我一点点将它撕成碎片，抛向天空。 我爱他，我依然爱他。 但是却有什么已经改变了，永远无法挽回。