Chapter 24 Chapter Twenty-Four

Once my cousin sent me a letter saying that she sent me a set of clothes, which was a quietly popular style in Kyoto. I heard that it was worn by the empress dowager. Han and Tang clothes. I unfolded the new clothes I brought, the tight light yellow clothes with green leaf patterns on the inside, and the loose moon white gauze clothes embroidered with camellias on the outside, the two complement each other perfectly.After I put it on, the maid next to me couldn't help admiring it. I told them to be quiet, and when the prince came in the evening I would wear this dress to meet him. Because the Han and Tang clothes were obviously different from the usual styles, the prince noticed it at a glance. He was taken aback for a moment and asked, "This is it?"

I purposely turned around to show him, in fact, this is not the rule, but I like to be more casual in front of him, and then replied: "This is the Han and Tang Dynasty clothes that are popular in the capital recently, do you think it looks good, my lord?" "Han and Tang clothes?" The prince thoughtfully, stared at me for a long time, and then said, "It's very beautiful." His straightforward praise made me a little ashamed, but I haven't seen him for a long time.I secretly looked up and found that he was still staring blankly, no, no, he didn't seem to be looking at me, he stared at my clothes as if he was looking far, far away.

"My lord?" I asked cautiously. He was awakened with a start, his gaze was drawn back, and he fixed on me. "Don't wear this dress, it doesn't suit you." The prince was silent for a while, then said calmly. I froze for a moment, he was afraid of hurting my self-esteem, and added a word of forgiveness, "You are still young, this dress is too dignified." With mixed feelings, I nodded slightly. But this night the prince was so eager, as if there was nowhere to vent his emotions, which made me panting in his arms. Although he forbade me to wear that kind of clothes again, I vaguely felt that I was wearing the right clothes. Since then, I seem to have gained a little more weight in his heart.

Before I knew it, it was the first day of the new year. I heard that this year the prince came to Beijing again, and this time it was the new emperor.Because the first tribute made a deep impression on me, I always felt that he was going to that distant place again not long after. This time he still didn't stay in Beijing for long, but when he came back, he brought back a person, Dayin's direct relative and princess—Emperor Ji Duoyi. The Prince sent someone to notify him when he was on his way back, about half a month away from Zhongzhou. There was a panic in the mansion upon receiving the notice.

As a prince, he would not do such a rash thing. Before he left, he didn't mention this matter to the backyard. Everyone couldn't understand this matter, and I only recollected it later. Everyone heard that Emperor Ji Duoyi was spoiled by the Empress Dowager's side since she was a child, and her status was extremely noble. Even Concubine Yun, who had been managing the backyard of the palace for many years, messed up her hands and feet, which shows the importance of this matter. After finally waiting for Di Ji to arrive, Shang Xia finally tidied up the palace, Di Ji's residence was also arranged in the largest hall in the backyard, Jifu Hall, and everyone in the backyard waited in front of the backyard gate to welcome her.

The ostentation of Di Ji's entourage has long been dazzling. When Di Ji got off the sedan chair, I couldn't help but sneak a look up at her in the crowd. Di Ji's attire was naturally exquisite and gorgeous, and her appearance was the best among the female relatives present, with a unique temperament, fresh and refined, but these were also expected.I just don't know why, I always feel that she has known each other, although this is really our first meeting. When Diji first came to the mansion, she was happy to walk around and ask about the customs of Zhongzhou, but after a while, she became irritable and haggard, and everyone could see that she was starting to miss home.She got angry and said that the food made by the royal chef she brought was not the taste of the palace in the past, and she was not used to it.Only when the prince is by her side, she will be at peace, clinging to him pitifully like a helpless child.

After Di Ji came over, the prince would come to the backyard every night, as early as possible. That day Di Ji got angry again in the Jiba Temple, smashed a lot of things around her, and then said that she would go out to the front yard to find the prince.The people in the backyard panicked and rushed to the gate that separated the front and back yards to persuade them. Concubine Yu and Concubine Yun rushed over when they got the news and said good things. Diji had never put anyone in the palace before, and it was impossible to show face to the two concubines at this time, and said angrily: "Go away! I'm bored to death staying here, do you know that!"

Seeing everyone's earnestness and panic, I thought for a while, stepped forward to Di Ji's side and bowed down and said, "Your Highness, you can go wherever you want. It's just that there are other men in the front yard who show their faces in front of people." , the concubines are afraid of abruptly revealing the identity of the emperor." No matter how noble the Diji is, she is still a girl after all. Once she heard what I said, she dared not speak anymore, feeling embarrassed and discouraged. Everyone glanced at me indiscriminately, and Concubine Yun gave me a glance of gratitude and approval.

When Emperor Ji returned to the Jifu Hall, the prince also got the news that he had come from the front yard. At this time, the Jibat Hall had not yet had time to clean up, and it was in a mess. Everyone stood up when they saw the prince, and even Di Ji stood up involuntarily, with her hands hanging forward and her head slightly lowered, probably knowing that she had made a mistake. The prince looked around for a week, then walked steadily to the top and sat down.Di Ji stood beside him with her head down, waiting for his instructions. "Oh, in this way, I'm not afraid of being laughed at by others."

The prince said, with an extremely gentle and calm tone, Di Ji looked up at him somewhat unexpectedly.His words sounded like reproach and comfort. Di Ji blushed with shame, and the prince told her to sit down.After sitting down, Di Ji took the initiative to explain, "I'm really bored and uncomfortable. Brother Huang, don't blame me..." The prince smiled, then turned to tell Eunuch Pei, "Pei Qing, bring me my withered wood dragon chanting qin." I heard that the prince got a piece of the Tang Dynasty's peerless Qin withered wood dragon song, such a solemn matter... My heart couldn't stop beating, maybe it will be.I have been married into the palace for three or four years, and I have never had the chance to hear the prince play the piano.I heard that even Concubine Yu and Concubine Yun only listened to it once or twice, once when Concubine Yu was seriously ill, once when Concubine Yun gave birth to Young Master Ye at the full moon, and once when the prince was happy to play it on his birthday.

I stared blankly at Eunuch Pei carefully presenting the guqin, the prince put the piano under his hand, adjusted the tuning slightly, then looked at Diji and said softly, "Listen carefully, it depends on your understanding." Prince Zheng plucked the strings with a bang, his expression was so calm, his slender and clean fingers were so skillful, the sound of the piano was slow and orderly, fast but not chaotic, slow and continuous.I have never seen the prince practice this piece for so many years, but he played it so beautifully and smoothly, I finally understood what it means to be natural, and this piece truly and completely belongs to him. Only then did everyone understand that the prince brought Diji here to teach her how to learn the song. Many people couldn't understand why the prince didn't pass such an important song to his only son, but to his imperial sister.Some people say that the prince followed the last order of the late emperor Mu Zong, while others said that the teaching of music is about bosom friend and fate. Everyone sympathized with Mr. Ye in this matter.Speaking of Mr. Ye, I happened to catch up with him when I went to Yunyun Hall to pay my mother's greetings, so I met him a few times.He looks like a prince and concubine Yun, he is a handsome young man, very knowledgeable and reasonable.The prince was naturally very caring about his only son, and specially invited everyone with knowledge in the capital to be the teacher of Mr. Ye. The prince did what a qualified father should do.However, everyone said that the prince loved his son but did not favor him, so Mr. Ye lacked many of the bad habits of the children of the aristocratic family.But for this matter, no matter how sensible Mr. Ye is, he can't hide the regret in his heart. I went back to Peilan Hall, thought about it, and wrote a letter asking my mother to bring me those picture albums I had collected before.I used to be pampered at home, so I was able to control Di Ji's thoughts. At that time, everyone in the backyard was afraid of offending Di Ji, so I was the first one to get close to her.I showed her the picture albums I used to like, not to mention that I am very curious about the life in Kyoto, and there is a lot to talk about when we come and go.After all, Di Ji was used to being the only one in the past, and sometimes she couldn't take my feelings into consideration when she spoke. Hong'er told me in private why there is no need to ask for trouble, but I faintly felt that it was good for me. Sure enough, one day the prince came to my palace early, and the sky had just turned dark at that time, which is rarely seen in normal times.I was flattered to greet him, the prince seemed to be in a good mood, and ordered to go down and make some delicious snacks. While no one else was around, he grabbed my hand, the warmth in his eyes seemed to be specially reserved for me from Di Ji. "I heard from Duo Yi that you often go to accompany her, it's really hard work for you." He said sincerely. Duo Yi Di Ji would miss me, and Di Ji's somewhat arrogant but innocent face appeared in my mind.I smiled slightly, "There's no such thing as hard work. I always feel," I don't know why I would say the following words naturally, "Di Ji is qualified to be pampered." The prince smiled, doting and complacent. I have been with Di Ji for a long time, and I found that apart from being a bit headstrong, she is quite kind-hearted.She likes small animals and has raised many birds, cats and dogs. She is very patient with them and feeds them herself every day.She raised a snow-white Persian cat with blue eyes. Once she was accidentally scratched by it, and she panicked, but she just frowned. She gradually calmed down in the palace, no one should teach her anything, but she became more reasonable.One day, the maid she brought out from the palace came to look for her, and it seemed that she had just had some conflict with the maid of Yunyun Palace.I thought Yunyun Palace was in big trouble this time, so Diji thought about it, and then said: "If I was in the palace on weekdays, I would have gone to help you out. But now we are guests in the palace, and the guests follow the master." Then, you should abide by the rules in the palace and not take the initiative to cause trouble, it is still too late for you to apologize in the past." Di Ji's expression was so focused and serious when she practiced the piano, as if she was a different person.She is really very talented, and she is better than me who has been studying for several years after only a few months of random dialing.Thanks to Di Ji, since she came, the prince has come to the backyard every night, and every time he passes by the Jiba Temple, he can hear the sound of piano practice from inside.During that time I really heard more than anyone else has ever heard in a lifetime. That period of time was also the most beautiful time for me as a woman.The Prince began to really dote on me, and he began to come to me more often than the Yunyun Palace.He said that I am sometimes gentle, sometimes willful, sometimes sensible, and sometimes stubborn, all of which he likes.After so many years in the palace, my mind has long been polished and matured, but I have not lost my innocent heart, which is why I can still talk to Di Ji. After more than a year, I was canonized as a child by the prince and became a side concubine on an equal footing with Concubine Yun.I started to be called Ni Fei, not the previous Han Yuren.I deliberately asked the prince to allow my mother and my brother to come to my magnificent new residence, Xiagong Palace. My mother cried when she saw me, and my brother said that he was proud of me. At this time, my brother has become a rare official young counselor in the palace.That's right, back then I was a willful and ignorant little girl, and I insisted on marrying the prince, which made my mother and elder brother worry so much. No one would have thought that I could get to this point. The backyard of Prince Duanyu's Mansion is a bit strange. The people the prince asked for were very gentle and not good at talking. This is why my mother told me that the prince likes gentle and virtuous women.It is said that the prince hates troublesome and jealous women very much, and because he has Concubine Yun as the housekeeper, there is very little dispute in the backyard, and the prince does not favor one person over another in the backyard.Some time ago, a concubine passed away due to illness. The prince asked someone to have her buried, held a funeral ceremony for her, and gave her family something to comfort her family. This made other people in the backyard very heart-warming. field.If there is really any difference, I am probably the most ostentatious person in the backyard, but I am not displeased with some of my petty princes, and tolerate me with a smile. I always feel that I am a little different in his heart, maybe it started from the messy embroidery, maybe it started from patting him on the shoulder from behind, maybe it started from trying on Han and Tang clothes, he actually likes me in his heart True temperament.The servants I treat in the backyard are not bad, but for the other ladies in the backyard, no matter how well-meaning they are, I can't get close to them, and sometimes I consciously want to show that I am different from them. Compared with my gradual favor, Concubine Yun was the hardest hit. Of course she felt lonely, but sometimes she would show inexplicable sympathy when she saw my happy expression. Once she said very softly: "Actually, the prince treats us all the same." I don't understand what she means, and I don't understand whether her words are used to suppress my pride, or to comfort my frustration.But I don't agree with this sentence, how could there be no difference, now everyone knows that the prince treats me closer. Not long after I was named a child, one day I enjoyed the picture album with Duo Yi Di Ji in Jifu Hall as usual.Di Ji sat casually, tilting her head and looked at her with great interest. I saw her from this angle, her eyelashes are really thick and long, and her lowered eyes are really beautiful, when she grows up She must be a beauty, but until now I still haven't found out why I feel familiar with her. Di Ji noticed that I was looking at her, raised her head to look at me, and smiled at me, then suddenly asked: "I heard that Sister Ni is willing to marry Brother Huang on her own initiative?" I panicked for a moment, not knowing what Di Ji meant by asking this question. Di Ji stared at me and said word by word: "I think you're doing the right thing." I was stunned for a moment, Diji smiled and said, "A man like Brother Huang deserves what a woman would do. If I wasn't his sister, I would do the same." Hearing Diji's humorous tone, I couldn't help laughing. Maybe... I'm really so happy.Although the prince is extremely gentle to Di Ji, I have nothing to envy. After all, she can't stay with the prince forever, but I can. In the evening, when the prince came to Xiagong Palace, I waited for him to undress and we went to bed. He leaned down and kissed me gently, and I responded to him with the same tenderness and obedience.Suddenly I caught sight of the wafting fragrance from the bronze incense burner outside the bed, and said, "My lord, why don't I give birth to a child for you." The prince stopped, looked at me in surprise and said, "Why do you suddenly think so?" I weighed my words and said, "My lord only has one child, isn't he lonely? Which palace is not full of noisy children." He lay down next to him, and replied sullenly: "It is not enough to have one child who inherits the title and worships the ancestral temple. Having more children is always a troublesome thing." I was afraid of making him unhappy, so I carefully teased him and said, "Trouble? Are you afraid that the prince will not be able to support the child?" The prince smiled, waved his hands and said, "That's not the problem." I didn't want to give up this rare opportunity, so I continued to test and said: "If the prince is afraid that the boy will cause trouble, we will have a daughter? The prince does not have a daughter yet, and the daughter of the prince must be good-looking. The young man who proposes marriage will step through the threshold of the palace when he grows up." .” This time the prince stopped smiling. Seeing his silence, I was a little worried that I might have said something wrong.After a while, the prince turned his head. His eyes were so bright and energetic. Those were the eyes that moved me the first time I saw him. He stretched out his hand to touch my cheek, and said with guilt in his tone, "Do you want a baby?" I nodded with difficulty, "Yes." He exhaled heavily, and then said, "Let's talk about this later." Listening to his tone, I have faint disappointment, but also have secret expectations.I love him, that's why I'm so looking forward to having a child for him, and wanting to be a good mother to his child. Letters from the palace urging Emperor Ji to go back would be sent every year, and in the fourth year, hearing that something had happened around the Empress Dowager, Emperor Ji had no choice but to go back. Although Di Ji was indeed a headache when she first came, but after so many years, under the influence of the prince, she has become more polite and polite, and she is very smart, so she has become more like Di Ji. .Besides, during the few years she was here, the palace really looked like a home. The prince came to the backyard every night, and Di Ji often invited all the wives to have dinner together.There are few children in the palace, and Concubine Yu and Concubine Yun treat her like their half daughters, so when they heard that she was leaving, everyone was a little bit reluctant. I think the prince is even more reluctant, I think his eyes are already a little lonely.At dusk that day, I went to the Jifu Hall, and I picked some gifts for Di Ji. As I approached the main hall, I gradually heard the sound of the piano. I thought Di Ji was practicing the piano again. Quiet, no one serving around. I walked lightly to the gate of the hall, unexpectedly the prince was there at this time, he and Di Ji were playing a piano together. I thought it was inconvenient for me to disturb you at this time, so I stood outside the palace gate and listened quietly.The sound of the piano is so sad that it makes me feel sad when I listen to it. Suddenly the sound of the zither stopped abruptly, Di Ji left the qin, threw herself into the arms of the prince, wrapped her arms around his neck tightly and wept tremblingly. The prince hugged Di Ji, patted her on the back and coaxed her. I was shocked by that look, and only then did I know what the prince's real gentleness is. Compared with this, he can only be regarded as polite gentleness to us . I stayed there, that kind of intimacy made me have a strange thought, could it be that he is to Di Ji... But how is it possible, Di Ji is his sister who is related by blood. I discerned it carefully, and the warmth didn't seem to be the love between men and women with desire.Looking into his eyes, I suddenly realized why I fell in love with Di Ji at first sight, how similar their eyes are! For a moment a thought flashed to me, but I quickly dismissed it.No... If Di Ji was the Prince's daughter, then according to the relationship between the Empress Dowager and the Prince, she would not have prevented the Prince from taking the throne.I heard that the prince and Emperor Mu Zong look very similar, so it is not surprising that the emperor and the prince are similar. I shook my head and suddenly felt amused by my thoughts just now. The Prince accompanied Di Ji back to Beijing, it was the first day of the year again, this time he stayed there for a long time. Every time the prince comes back from the capital, there will be something different, and this time is the same. When he comes back, there is more worry and sadness on his brows. I don't know what in the capital can cause him to change every time. The Prince got really busy.Everyone has known for a long time that the emperor is gone, and it is impossible for the prince to come to the backyard every day as usual. Sometimes, when I pass by the Jifu Hall with several other wives, I can still hear the faint sound of the piano inside. When I heard it, I couldn't help sighing when I thought of the laughter and laughter in the past. I was very disappointed that the prince had long forgotten about the birth, but I dared not disturb him.The prince is busy, I didn't expect my brother to be so busy, and he didn't have time to visit me. I faintly felt that this was unusual. The Prince didn't inform us when he brought Di Ji back, but he chose to let us know about that important event. On a night in autumn, he called all the concubines and concubines from the backyard, and he said slowly, "Tomorrow I will send troops." Everyone couldn't react for a while, but soon realized what the prince meant, because his identity was there.One word came to my mind at the first time - rebellion. The prince must have his own reasons, and he will definitely tell the world a reason, but no matter what the reason is, overthrowing the existing regime is treason. "I think you have the right to know about this matter. I don't want to drag you down. So you can choose whether to go or stay. If you want to leave, I will send someone to prepare the money and send you to leave safely." The prince said gently . The dozen or so people in the hall fell silent. "The prince is the proud son of heaven, and everyone expects it. Even Emperor Mu Zong often said 'the twelve princes are the most like me' when he was in power. The prince cares about the people, and the tax burden is the lightest in the fiefs under his jurisdiction. It is obvious to all, but the current emperor is harsh and strict. Only our lord is worthy of the great job. The concubine is not going anywhere, and the concubine is waiting here for the good news from the lord." Princess Yu said loudly standing in front. We looked at the princess in amazement. I have never heard her say so many words so loudly, so forcefully, as if she was not the hostess who kept her head down and twiddled the prayer beads without caring about worldly affairs. "The concubine will not leave either." I blurted out, I didn't even think about whether to stay or not, my only thought was that I would not leave the prince.The first time I saw him, I followed him, where else could I go besides him? The other people also looked at each other and said, "The concubine will not leave", "The concubine will not leave the prince", "The prince will definitely win the battle". Everyone decided to stay, but unexpectedly, Concubine Yun never spoke to her.Concubine Yun's face was extremely pale, she didn't say anything, she just said softly to the prince: "My lord, can this concubine talk to you alone." Concubine Yun and the prince talked alone for a long time, and I heard that she cried all night that night, but she didn't leave either. I will stand by the Prince's side in everything he does, but I'm a little confused, he doesn't look like such a power-hungry person.But my mother told me that this is not surprising, there is no man in the world who does not love power.Maybe some people love power itself, and some people love the things behind power, who knows if the prince wants to change to a spacious palace, who knows if the prince just wants to return to the capital. The people of Zhongzhou love the prince very much, and there are many people like my elder brother who swear to be loyal to the prince.That was the first time as women we paid so much attention to the outside situation. At that time, my brother was so busy that I couldn't see him, so I tried my best to piece together the few words I heard, and told the general situation to Princess Yu and other female relatives.Whenever we hear which city the prince captured and which battle he won, we are all elated. We have never been so caring and united. Only Concubine Yun lost weight quickly, and even after hearing that the prince had won many battles, her expression was still sad. For this reason, everyone despised her very much, saying that it was a waste of the prince to treat her so well, and some people said it was because she was the only one who had a son. She is more worried about her son's safety. But I feel that Concubine Yun seems to have other concerns, otherwise she can choose to leave, and according to the current situation, the prince is beneficial, if the prince becomes the emperor, it will not be harmful to her.I came to Yunyun Palace on purpose, Concubine Yun seems to have not cleaned the house for a long time, Yunyun Palace is not as warm as when I first came here.I sat down and talked to Concubine Yun while paying attention to her expression, "Shang'er came here to tell my sister that the prince has captured Xinhe again, so you will be happy to tell me." "Oh." Concubine Yun replied lightly, lowering her head. I thought for a while and said: "Some people say that my sister doesn't care about the prince, but I don't believe it. My sister has been with the prince for so many years. I believe that my sister has a lot more feelings for the prince than we do, but my sister seems to be troubled by some worries...you Can you talk about it, maybe we can think of a way together.” Concubine Yun didn't even think about it, she just shook her head, "It's nothing." Then she raised her head and happened to meet my inquisitive expression. She was stunned for a moment, then sighed for a long time and said, "Nishang, you are very smart, but you are not that smart yet." That felt like telling the prince that my trick is very simple. resemblance. "Then sister, tell me..." "What we need to do is to pray for the prince to win the battle every day. What else can we change if we know about it?" Concubine Yun is unwilling to say it, as if she is keeping a secret, even if it is painful, she still feels that this is a matter between her and the prince, and has nothing to do with an outsider like me. But Concubine Yun is right, no matter what other stories are in it, the only thing I have to do now is to pray for the prince to win the battle every day, in such an anxious mood, I wish I could turn into a man right away, so that I can charge forward on the battlefield for him , to keep him safe. It was winter in a blink of an eye, and suddenly a bad news came from outside. The prince was unable to attack Qincheng several times on the way to the north. This news made people very worried.After waiting for a while, there was still no satisfactory news. Instead, I heard that the southwestern reinforcements sent by the emperor had arrived and destroyed Huzhou, which was originally occupied by King Gongqing. After that, the situation took a turn for the worse, the prince's army switched from attack to defense, while the emperor's army began to regain lost ground and counterattacked south. The backyard became panic. They all thought I knew better, and asked me what the situation would be like with sustenance.But I don't understand either, but I firmly told them that the prince will definitely not lose, that the prince is lucky and will be blessed by heaven.At this time, Concubine Yun also forgot about her previous low mood, and she was more concerned about the situation than anyone else. But then things did not develop as we expected. After the first day, news came out that the emperor had personally conquered. This is encouraging to some people, but it is very disturbing to us. news. More than a month later, it was rumored that King Gongqing was captured, and the prince was still holding on to the war of resistance. Later, the news became intermittent. When the news that the prince was defeated and captured was finally heard, the officers and soldiers had already rushed into the palace to arrest people. It was not as panicked as expected, because the people in the palace stayed voluntarily, but everyone's face was pale and sad, and several female relatives were already sobbing. I was followed behind Concubine Yun with my hands bound, I didn't want to look like a lost dog, so I held my head high, but the tears couldn't stop streaming down the sides of my cheeks.I just thought of the prince's mood at this time from the situation in front of me, and my heart was cut like a knife. We were escorted to Kyoto as convicts of treason, and what awaited us there would be the punishment of the emperor.I have always been curious about things in Kyoto. I never thought that I would really go to Kyoto once in this life, but it was under such circumstances.Although it was already spring at that time, the spring was cold, the wind was blowing constantly, and the road was bumpy and hard. After a few days, we all lost our energy, and we didn't even have the strength to cry.There are several wives and concubines who are usually physically weak, and their spirits have been depressed all the time. They talked about the prince and the prince and went directly on the road. I and Princess Yu, Concubine Yun and others often hugged each other and cried together. When we arrived in Kyoto, we were locked in a side room in the Duanyu Palace in the east of Kyoto. Food was delivered on time every day, but there were many soldiers guarding the door, so we could not go out.I heard that the prince was also imprisoned in his palace, but we were not allowed to see him. No longer wandering, when we were locked in this dark room and had nothing to do but wait, the sad and sad mood inevitably resurfaced, and the depressive atmosphere enveloped everyone again.Sometimes Princess Yu would shake her head and sigh, while Princess Yun was always in a daze, and the other women often sobbed. But we are not all sad for ourselves. As women, we have always been small. Since we have chosen to follow our husband, we are not afraid of today's results. "Brother guard, can you let us see the prince?" Concubine Yun rushed over with a sad expression, begging with her sobs choked. "No! No one can see you without the emperor's order!" The guard guarding the gate refused without any discussion. "Brother, please do me a favor, take a look at this..." Concubine Yun pulled out the golden hairpin from her bun and handed it over. "That won't work! Unless we don't want to die!" Concubine Yun shed tears, thinking of the prince sadly, and then she asked without giving up: "Then can I go and see my son..." Mr. Ye was imprisoned in another room. "You can't see anyone! You just can't go out!" The gate guard said impatiently. The people outside were just a small guard, and it was useless for Concubine Yun to beg him in a low voice. I felt sad for a while. Soon the decree was issued, and five days later, the prince, son, concubine, side concubine, concubines and concubines will all be sentenced to death, and the servants who serve him will be executed together, and the rest of the servants will be exiled to the frontier. Hearing the news, everyone didn't react, they were extraordinarily calm, and the room fell into silence. On the night before the execution, Princess Yu's half-closed eyes suddenly opened, she looked around for a week, and suddenly asked, "Do you regret it?" In the shadow of the candlelight, everyone froze for a moment, then shook their heads. "Me too, and I don't regret it either." Princess Yu smiled slightly, "I have never regretted it since I married the prince. It's just that I have been envious of Yun Nu since I married into the mansion, and the prince spoiled you at that time." .” Concubine Yun shook her head feebly, "My lord treats us no differently. I'm not that enviable, really." Concubine Yu only took Concubine Yun's words to comfort her, and smiled. "I love him." Princess Yu suddenly said bluntly. I looked up in panic, and Princess Yu, who was in her forties, suddenly said such a sentence, with a rare girlish look on her face that did not match her age. Then she slowly took out a brown porcelain bottle from her sleeve, opened the rubber stopper, and drank it without fear. We didn't have time to stop all this from happening. When we surrounded her, Princess Yu was silently twitching on the table, her pupils gradually dilated. Although tomorrow morning is the execution time, there will be a white silk gift from the palace, Princess Yu deliberately did this to show the prince that she has no regrets and will remain loyal to him until death. We all shed tears, and Aunt Zhang picked up the brown bottle on the table with trembling hands, and drank the rest in one gulp. Two people passed away in such a short time, and grief spread throughout the room. Some people pulled out the gold hairpins from their buns and inserted them into their abdominal cavity, and then fell down with a muffled sound. At this moment, I saw Concubine Yun take out a porcelain bottle from her sleeve in a daze, and I was surprised that she had prepared this too.After all, I am shallow in my work, and I didn't think of this level. I hurried forward to cover her bottle, but actually I didn't know what to do. Concubine Yun took my hand away and looked to the south. I thought maybe it was because the prince was detained in that direction. Her eyes were full of reluctance, and two lines of tears flowed from her eyes. She cried out sadly: "My lord, you are not worth it..." Then she looked down at the porcelain bottle in her hand and drank it with infinite regret. I think her dying words mean something else, but I've been kept out of the truth. It's just that her words reminded me of what I said before, whether it's worth it or not is up to me. Looking at the several warm corpses laying across the room, they were all people who used to meet each other in the backyard of the palace, talking and laughing.I silently arranged them all, carefully arranged their clothes, and then pulled out my own hairpin beside them. In my mind, I played back the details of living with the prince from the time I met him. His politeness and gentleness warmed my heart bit by bit.I don't regret it, I never regret it, to be such a man's woman. In this life we ​​can't stay together until the end of life, then in the next life I will get to know you and stay together again, but I extravagantly hope to be with you as a childhood sweetheart since childhood and love for a lifetime. Thinking of this, I suddenly withdrew my hairpin. Tomorrow morning... I will wait until tomorrow morning to accompany the prince on the road, and to be reborn as my childhood sweetheart in the next life. I calmly walked to the door, knocked on the door, the door opened a crack, I said softly: "Please bury them properly." The guards who came in were startled when they saw the corpses in the room, they took another look at me, then called for someone to carry the corpses away and immediately notified the palace. I just waited in this room all night in despair, until the sky was bright and the morning birds were chirping, but I couldn't wait for the white silk given by the palace. I was surprised that I was so restless that I was not dead or alive, but suddenly the door opened, and the sunlight outside made me feel dazzled and dazed for a moment. The leader of the several guards who came in glanced at me, and said bluntly, "You can go." What?can i gowhere to? "You don't have to die, the empress dowager has pardoned you." I listened in disbelief, and then asked excitedly: "So, what about the prince?" "He is no longer a prince, he has been demoted to a commoner." The guard replied coldly. I don't care, I don't care, "So where is he now?" "He's gone." I rushed out like crazy, and no one stopped me. The prince was nowhere to be seen in the palace, and they told me that he was indeed not here anymore. I just want him to live, I think how painful he must be, I want to find him. But I'm not familiar with the capital, so I looked around in a daze when I left the palace, not knowing where he was. Like a lunatic, I searched for him in the capital for three days and nights without eating or sleeping. I felt like I was about to collapse, but that belief kept me going on, searching tirelessly. Then on the fourth day I passed him on a street full of pedestrians. I almost couldn't recognize him, but he was my beloved man, how could I not feel him? But he didn't recognize me, his expression was so empty, he stared straight ahead. 我只顿了顿，开口想呼唤出什么，他佝偻的背影却已经消失在茫茫人海中。 耳边一时间的静寂，然后街道喧闹的声音又涌了过来。 他看不到我，我知道，我叫不回来他了。 我神色木然，踉跄地慢慢往回走，眼泪止不住地流了下来。 我花了一个多月回到中州，路途上我变卖了身上所有的首饰，到最后也曾向路上的人讨口饭吃。 虽然已经是春天，可是中州的天气还是延续着冬日的寒气，街上冷冷清清，每个百姓都低着头匆匆走路，脸上不见一丝笑容，间或有人走着走着就哭出声来，我想也许有她的父兄子侄战死在这场战争中。偶尔有一小队持剑的士兵带着警惕和目光迎面而过。 我来到我以前的家，已经旧了的大门被贴上了封条。 可这是我的家，我知道该怎么进去。我进到了府里，府里静悄悄的一个人也没有，我娘在听到哥哥的死讯时也早去了，这府里的花似乎都已经枯死了。 我推门来到熟悉的房间，那是娘的房间，随着吱的一声开门阳光斜射进屋子，里面不值钱的物件横横斜斜地倒着，上面皆是灰尘。 那扇屏风倒在墙面，上面还有脚印的污迹和一个穿破的窟窿，破败不堪。 我走过去将那屏风立好，立在当初的位置。我躲在屏风后面，像从前那样些微探出身去。 也曾有这样一个阳光明媚的下午，屋子里一大堆的人，娘、哥哥和亲王都在这个屋子里，不时传来大家的谈笑声。亲王那清风朗朗的声音打动了一个少女的芳心，引得她微微探头一视。 我将脸贴在地上，终于疲惫地闭上了眼睛。