Chapter 17 Chapter 17 It turns out that I am not omnipotent!

After being surprised, I sneered and said, "Is it possible to forgive all sins if you become a monk? Nun, don't you know Concubine Shu's sinister heart in this matter? Can the Buddhist family take in such a person?" The chastity nun stared at me and asked, "Is it really her sinister heart?" She looked at me with a guilty conscience, "What do you mean by that? Everyone knows that she wanted to kill the Fourth Prince and frame Ai's family. Isn't that sinister enough?" "Do you still remember when the poor nun met you for the first time, the poor nun once said that you are not like a person who worships Buddha, because your eyes reveal too many complicated schemes...and your sister is obviously not you The opponent. Poor nun has met her several times, and her eyes reveal a kind of confusion and pain. Poor nun is not here to bring justice to her, let alone know whether she is innocent in this matter, but she Because of the predestined relationship with the Buddha, the poor nun just wants to save a miserable woman."

I thought to myself, King Quan Yu and Master Zhencun are worthy of being siblings, and they have similar ideas about some things.Seeing that I was silent, the nun continued: "When two tigers fight, one must be injured. Concubine Shu is the one who loses. What is there to worry about as a monk? She is no longer a threat, she is just dying. .” I was silent for a while, then sighed, and said: "The nuns have already talked to this point, what else can Aijia say? Aijia will suggest to the emperor, but it has nothing to do with Aijia's decision. Speak out You may not believe it, even if you don't come, Concubine Shu can still save her life."

Zhenzhu nun stood up, clasped his palms together and said, "The queen mother is still a reasonable person, and the poor nun didn't make a trip in vain. The Buddhists say that saving a life is better than building a seven-level pagoda. This is a meritorious thing." I smiled wryly, "Then it can be considered the merit of the nun. Aijia's crimes are so serious that even the Buddha will not forgive him." "Since I know, why do I still do that?" I looked into the eyes of the nun, and realized that what she was talking about was not about my sister, but about me and King Quanyu.

She understands the relationship between me and King Quan Yu before, and she probably guesses what is going on between me and King Quan Yu now.That's why she pleaded for her sister, because she felt that her sister was the victim of this evil relationship. "Aijia privately thinks that becoming a monk is to escape the status quo, and chanting Buddha is to practice in the afterlife. Is this also a kind of selfishness? And Aijia wants this life." The Zhencun nun looked at me in shock and was speechless for a long time. After the Zhencun nun left, I sighed to Ruyi: "Sister will not die. It seems that no one can do whatever he wants, no matter how high the person is."

"Wouldn't that leave future troubles..." Ruyi said cautiously. "No...she just left her life, since the Zhencun nun promised so much. She is the emperor's sister, I can't ignore what she said. Besides...Ruyi, you have been with me for so long, if you think It would be too stupid for me to kill my sister. A happy death is a kind of relief, which is a reward for my sister, and a painful life is a kind of torture. Also, Shan’s body is getting worse and worse. I can't help worrying about her mood..." I pleaded with King Quanyu as my sister, and once again showed him my tolerance and generosity.In addition, the queen also persuaded her from the sidelines that although she was gradually dissatisfied with her elder sister, after all, the previous relationship was still there, and it was because of her underage son's face, so her elder sister was spared death and stayed in the cold palace as a nun, deposed The title of Concubine Jing Shu was reduced to that of a commoner.Her family members—the aunt and Dan Chengsi were confiscated and driven out of the capital, and the aunt heard that her sister had lost her hair and died of a serious illness before she could leave the capital.

Hearing this news, I felt my whole body relax. There is nothing, nothing that can disturb my heart, and everything will go well in the future. "The empress dowager seems to be very radiant today, maybe some happy event has happened." The maid who combed my hair said, wanting to please me. I looked left and right in the bronze mirror and said, "From now on, it should be like this every day..." "That's natural." The maid said with a smile. At this time, I saw Shanshan walk in from the mirror. Her face was not very good-looking, and she looked a little depressed.Shanshan, who is no longer young, has a body full of blessings, and his face has long been wrinkled, and his complexion is yellow. Although he has been supplemented with good decoctions, his blood deficiency symptoms have not improved.I winked at the two maids beside me, and they hurried up to help Shanshan to sit down.

Shanshan waved his hand to stop them, and kept saying: "No, no, no." But it took a lot of effort to sit down, and he couldn't help panting. Seeing her like this, I felt distressed and a little annoyed, and I couldn't help but say in a bitter tone: "Look at you, you are still making fun of yourself after a long time. Did you go to see my sister just now? She has always been like this, never Will accept the kindness of others." Shanshan couldn't help wiping away two tears, and said with emotion: "Oh, what can I blame her for? It was a very good time, but she cut her hair. It's really sad."

I think Shanshan felt sorry for my father when she saw her sister like that.There was also the matter that she quietly gave Dan Chengsi some property, so I just turned a blind eye.The young and old Shanshan, the concept of right and wrong is becoming more and more blurred, and she is always judged by her feelings. I can't bear to accuse her of anything, but I don't understand why she has no feelings for that man after so many years faded, and even darkened.I heard that she and my father were only married for one night. I walked up to Shanshan and held her hand, which was no longer smooth and delicate.I said to her like coaxing a child: "Shan, she did such a thing, she is lucky to be alive now, and it is for your sake, you are already worthy of her. Don't think about it anymore, Okay? You should find those palace people to accompany you and have some fun, so I can rest assured."

Shanshan controlled her emotions, nodded, and replied: "I'm sorry, Miss, I made you worry, this old slave has been really sentimental recently." I shook my head, persuaded her for a while, and then ordered someone to take Shanshan down to rest. I found that I really have to hate my sister, even though she is a monk who has no desires or desires.Even though she hates me, she even wants to cut me into pieces, but for Shanshan, who left with kindness at such an age, why would she treat her with such an attitude and make her sad?Maybe she was trying to make me miserable. I haven't seen my sister since that incident, so I said to the palace man, "We should visit that monk."

The cold palace must be depressed and dilapidated, no matter how gorgeous the flowers in the imperial garden are, it has nothing to do with this place, it is a completely different world.And my sister's nunnery in the cold palace is even more incomparable with the Zhuqing nunnery of Zhenzhu nuns. There is not even a decent bamboo in front of the door, only weeds are overgrown. Because it is the body to be punished and the status of a monk, so there is not even a girl to serve.Nian Huan went to knock on the door, and it was my sister who opened the door. I saw her shoulder-length short hair at a glance.

My sister was taken aback when she saw it was us, and slammed the door almost at the same time. None of the accompanying people expected this to happen, they looked at each other, but I was not surprised by my sister's behavior, I just said coldly and loudly: "Does Master Zhenjing want Ai's family to ask someone to kick the door open? "Zhenjing is the Dharma title given to her by the nun Zhenyun when she haircut her sister. There was silence for a while, and after a while my sister opened the door again with a pale face. I think she must not want me to see her downcast appearance, so she bowed her body and lowered her head.Originally, our sisters were about the same height, but when I walked up to her, I felt that I was looking down at her, and I said in a sarcastic tone: "Can the disciples of the Buddhist family keep the outsiders out?" The series of incidents may have caused my sister's spirit to collapse. She fell down and sat on the threshold, covered her face and cried, "Why are you here? At this time, everyone around quietly backed away. For some reason, seeing my sister in this state, I didn't feel any pity at all, but I didn't have the kind of carefree mood I imagined either.Today should be the final ending of our sisters' relationship for so long. The process was painful, and the victory came easily. From now on, my hatred will have no sustenance. I feel a little bit disappointed about this result. I said quietly: "Sister, why are you so stupid? You are as stupid as your mother, and you still want to exchange the flowers I rewarded, but what's the use? Zhou Yu of Soochow once said, "Ji Sheng Yu He Sheng Liang" I don’t understand, I am far ahead of you in terms of appearance, knowledge and intelligence, why did my father give birth to you and love you so much?” At this time, my sister hadn't recovered from her sad emotions, so she replied with tears: "Because I'm his only daughter...he never recognized you. Now you have framed me like this, father in heaven Ling will never forgive you..." My sister's words angered me, I stretched out my hand and pulled her hair fiercely, maybe that's what I always wanted to do.She looked up at me with her whole face, and there were still tears in the corners of her eyes, but she said stubbornly with a smile: "Is what I said wrong? You are just a child born to one of my father's many concubines. Your humble mother will never appear in Dan's genealogy... If it wasn't for your mother, father would not have died so early, and he would have lived a loving life with my mother; without you, I am still living the life of a lady, and I will marry the one I love, instead of being in such pain now..." Hearing her say that, I couldn't help laughing, "Is this what you have always said in your heart? My mother and I caused your misfortune? Then who will give us justice!" Elder sister gradually came out of self-pity, she resumed her usual demeanor, and her tone became sharp, "You and your mother are just willing to steal other people's things... The Twelfth Prince was kind to me before, but you wanted to take it away." I don't want him, and now I'm climbing into King Quan Yu's bed..." "Shut up!" I slapped my sister, my voice was very clear and clear, "It's not up to you, a woman who is not favored by her husband and is a widow every day, to say anything!" "Then I am also the concubine appointed by the queen mother to marry King Quan Yu... What about you? It looks very beautiful on the surface, but in fact it is sneaky every night! Although I have never seen your ugly deeds, if you don't betray your lust, Quan Yu The king will not return the power of the queen mother to you!" Who said that my sister is introverted and gentle?She stared at me viciously in front of me, and every word of her vicious words scratched my heart.I breathe smoothly, and if I can't be irritated by her, she will be able to take advantage of this quickness. "Sister, do you think you can still stimulate me like before? But you are the one who really failed now. No matter what method I use, it will always be better than what you are now. Oh, monks can say like before Vicious words? Won't it rot off the corner of your mouth or go to hell?" The elder sister was choked, she stood up, patted the dust on her khaki sweater, and said in a tired tone: "Please go back! The hatred between us sisters can never be changed, no! I have never been you It's my younger sister. You came here just to see me down and laugh at me, but it's a pity that I tell you that you can't do it, because I have no feelings for King Quan Yu at all! I don't care about the glory and wealth, but now everything is fine .You continue to be your queen mother, but I'm afraid you won't be able to kill me. It's hard to say who will have the last laugh!" "You mean, do you still pin your hopes on your son? Aijia came here to tell you not to attack the fourth prince! No matter what happens, Ge Min will have no hope. If the fourth prince has a Three good and two bad, the Ai family will take him to be buried with him!" My sister was shocked, and she said nervously: "What do you want to do to Min'er? He's just a child, you can't be so inhumane! I never mentioned to him that you framed me, he doesn't know anything... ..." "What do you mean the Ai family framed you? To save your son's life, you dared to talk to the Ai family like that just now. Stay here honestly, maybe your son can escape death, otherwise the Ai family doesn't know what they will do thing." After venting, my sister realized that her son was still under my control, and she became depressed all of a sudden. "If you still have the slightest conscience, you shouldn't involve Min'er in our grievances, not to mention that he is usually so close to you..." "The Ai family just said that it depends on you. If Shan Shan comes to see you again in the future, don't act resentful. You and your son are not allowed to see each other in private. Don't try to make any moves, otherwise don't blame the Ai family. polite." At this time, my sister could only nod her head helplessly, tears of humiliation flowed out again. I took one last look at my sister. She had shoulder-length short hair, a plain t-shirt, and a pale complexion. She was unfamiliar to me, and she would never appear in my life from now on, nor would I. Never allow her to appear in my life again. "This is the final ending... sister." I said. That night just fell, candles were lit in the palace, Qinzheng Hall was brightly lit, and the warmth dispelled the chill of the autumn night. With my eyes half lowered, I walked slowly into the Hall of Qinzheng, wearing the most plain white dress and red dress of a concubine, and with a simple bun. At this time, King Quan Yu was sitting at the top of the hall, leaning over his desk to review the memorial. This is also a place I am very familiar with. I used to sit here too, frowning on those endless national affairs.Now this man has established himself here, and I walked in here as a woman, feeling relaxed. I took out the small yellow-glazed dragon-patterned cup from the serving plate and put it in his hand, and said softly, "Your Majesty, the tea is ready." At this moment, King Quan Yu was writing notes at the end of the memorial. He didn't recognize my voice, and said without raising his head, "Wang Quan? Call Wang Quan and send out these approved notes." I didn't reply, instead I walked around behind him, lightly pressed my hand on his left shoulder, touched his face again, and said softly: "Eunuch Wang Quan asked his concubine to serve the emperor." King Quan Yu froze at this moment, grabbed my hand back with great strength, and said angrily: "Presumptuous." When he turned his head and took a closer look, he recognized me, and he was both surprised and happy. "Nuxi, why is it you? You little thing!" He sat on the dragon chair and held me in his arms slightly reproachfully. "I asked Wang Quan to bring me in." I smiled slightly, feeling happy after a prank. "I never thought you would come here like this..." King Quan Yu looked me up and down again, and then said: "It looks good, just like the little palace daughter who just entered the palace, if there is a draft, she will definitely be the first to be selected. " I giggled and said, "Then I'm not that old. You've been too busy recently, and today I didn't ask Wang Quan to tell you what to say, so I came up with an idea and came to see you." "Okay, okay, but you gave me a shock just now, I was still wondering which palace official would dare to be so bold. It's almost winter, and there is a big stall for the court's grain reserves, charcoal purchases, garrison grain, grass, and cotton clothes. At this moment, I wish I could grow a head and a pair of hands." So King Quan Yu babbled to me about the recent events for a while, I thought about it, and told him about my previous actions, some of which were very affirmed by him. King Quan Yu just hugged me and talked for a while, then thought for a while and asked: "We just met yesterday, and today you came here to find me on purpose, is there anything important you want to tell me?" I was a little shy and embarrassed to look at him, so I just whispered a few words in his ear. King Quan Yu didn't hear clearly and asked me something. "Let's have another child..." I looked at him and said clearly this time. King Quan Yu didn't expect me to talk about this matter, because I rejected it when I was pregnant for the first time, and he confirmed with a little joy: "Slave, are you serious?" "A child is too lonely, Wu'er always needs a companion." The existence of Gemin makes me uneasy. I am always afraid that something will happen to Wu'er. For his or my safety, it is best to have another child to consolidate the current situation.I am emotional today, it must be a very good opportunity to conceive. "Li Zhi, who was still the King of Jin in the Tang Dynasty, had an affair with Wu Zetian in the locker room, and today we are not inferior to the ancients." King Quan Yu joked, while stroking me with his hand to arouse my lust. "Take me to the side hall over there... This is the place where government affairs are handled..." My remaining consciousness reminded me in a murmur. "I'm doing business..." King Quan Yu replied in a low voice.At this time he put me on the dragon case, I could feel his rushing desire, his still strong body was tensely accumulating strength, he said a little rudely: "I will do these papers, and I will also be here This dragon case will deal with you, a national event of multiplying the blood of the royal family..." His intentionally belittling and contemptuous words made me feel strange, and I looked at this man with blurred eyes, actively pandering to and teasing his equally rough and brutal violation.When that moment came, we all sighed, and King Quan Yu said wildly: "We are like this here, we must be like no one before, no one to come after..." He also said: "Slave you, I am so happy... I can't live without you." "Slave, give birth to a dozen or twenty more children for me..." The Palace of Qinzheng, which has always been majestic and empty, was once shrouded in the atmosphere of male and female desires for one night, and the slight sound of rustling wooden chairs spread to every corner.The fallen memorials were mixed with teacups, shawls, and dragon-patterned belts, and maybe my hair was also dropped on the way to the side room... That happiness is the most charming time of being a woman in my memory. There are only the two of us in this huge hall, and no one dares to enter. No one will bother us in the future, and there will only be the two of us in this harem from now on. The man and the woman will stay together and know each other until they grow old. Time flies, and the time flies by.Time passes unconsciously, what changes is that I grow old with King Quan Yu and Wu'er grows up day by day, what never changes is the change of seasons and the blooming and fading of flowers. It’s another year when magnolias are in full bloom, and that’s already the fourth time King Quan Yu and I have watched magnolias in Qinchunyuan together. In the past two years, we have been like a real husband and wife, reciting poems and painting together, playing the piano and hunting together, watching Wuer having fun together, watching vulgar paintings and laughing together, and enjoying the most tacit happiness between men and women.Thinking about it later, that was really the happiest time in my life. However, the only fly in the ointment in the past two years is that I did not conceive again as I expected. I wonder if Wu'er's birth is really God's will, and the expectation again has become a luxury. "Oh, slave, you see, this flower is getting more and more brilliant every year, but I am not as good as it is every year..." King Quan Yu sighed. He pulled out a white hair. "How could it be? In my eyes, you are still so heroic and upright. Those girls who have just entered the palace are still full of affection when they see you." King Quan Yu smiled, and gently wrapped his hands around my earlobe, "It's you, slave, who is really well-maintained. You are still as young, beautiful and charming as before. You can even pretend to be a little maid and come quietly to find me..." He likes the surprises I bring him, and likes tossing the dragon and the phoenix on the huge dragon bed in his bedroom, just like the marriage of the dragon and the phoenix embroidered on the bed gauze.But I know that I am also getting old, so my body that is no longer vigorous can't give birth to the second fruit of me and him as I wish.I also envy the youthful brilliance that cannot be concealed under the timid expressions on the faces of those young maids. "Nuxi, you seem to be preoccupied recently. Is there anything else in this harem that makes you uncomfortable?" "Recently, Shanshan's body is worrying. She hasn't got out of bed for several days after the spring and winter changes..." "What disease does she have, so serious?" I shook my head, "It's not a fatal illness. But she has served me for so many years, worrying about me, and worrying about me. Now that I am old, the illnesses are out of control... How could I I'm sorry for her." King Quan Yu comforted me and said: "You want to open up a bit. Shanshan has always been an open-minded person. He is in a good mood. If you add more tonics and conditioning, you may gradually get better." "I hope so. Jiuzhen's child is also... the date of return is delayed year after year, does it really not miss my mother at all? Sigh." "It should be exactly as the letter said, I want to improve my piano skills. You, a mother, should feel relieved that the child is so motivated. Besides, it's time to go to school in a year or two. No matter what excuse she finds, she will return to the palace." Seeing my still worried face, King Quan Yu said half-seriously and half-jokingly: "Wu'er and Jiuzhen are both your children, I see that you put more care into your daughter than your son, so I can't help being a little jealous." gone." I opened my eyes wide, "What are you talking about? Wu'er has Shao He to take care of her, and I can't control it even if I want to, and Jiu Zhen is not by my side, and it's a girl's house, so I naturally have to be more worried Some." "Okay," King Quan Yu flicked my forehead, "I'm just joking, can't you see? Look, the wind is blowing, Shaohe should be waiting in Eryu Palace with Wu'er , let's go back." When he returned to Eryu Palace, Shao He was waiting there with Wu'er.Living in the palace for such a long time, she has adapted to it, with the grace of a court lady.But maybe because of the previous things, she has always been a little afraid of men, and King Quan Yu is no exception.She glanced at me and King Quan Yu, then lowered her head and led Wu'er to me and King Quan Yu, and said, "Wu'er, please greet the Queen Mother and the Emperor." I think although she didn't dare to ask, But she must be very curious about the matter between me and King Quanyu. Every time she sees Wu'er, her doubts will deepen. Wu'er, who was already three years old, wore a bright pink dragonfly-pattern brocade robe today, and said in a childlike voice, "I pay my respects to the Empress Dowager and Father." King Quan Yu loved this son very much, and picked him up, "Come on, let me see my precious son. I heard from your mother and concubine that you have been able to write some words recently. What kind of words are they?" Wu'er was also very close to King Quan Yu, and she was fiddling with the beard on his chin. Hearing King Quan Yu's question, she didn't answer, and only looked back at Shao He. Shao He urged Wu'er and said, "Wu'er, your father asked you something, do you think about what you wrote yesterday?" Wu'er still stared at Shao He, shook her head and said to Shao He in confusion: "My son can't remember." Shao He smiled, and was a little embarrassed to help Wu'er: "Actually, it's the simplest characters like 'wu', 'er' and 'nuo'. The little prince just started to practice calligraphy, and sometimes he still can't hold the pen steadily. " "The prince is still young, so there is no need to rush. Next time you come, bring the words written by the prince to Aijia." I said. King Quan Yu took Wu'er down and told him, "Go and talk to the Queen Mother." Ever since Wu'er became sensible, I couldn't get along with him as close as before, and I couldn't call him son son without scruples in private.I can only make him feel my love for him as much as possible. I fed him the snacks at hand and asked him if he had been working hard on calligraphy recently. At this moment, Nian Huan came in and reported: "The empress dowager, the emperor, and the empress Zhaoyi, the empress dowager brought the third prince outside to ask for an audience." King Quan Yu and I looked at each other for a moment, and couldn't figure out what the empress meant by bringing Ge Min here.It has been a long time since my sister became a monk because of a sin, and Ge Min lived alone in the Qing Chan Palace without any attention. I don’t know why the queen brought him to see me today.So he returned Wu'er to Shao He and told Nian Huan to bring them in. When the Queen led Ge Min in, she didn't expect that King Quan Yu was there, and she looked at me and King Quan Yu who were sitting on it with a strange expression. She greeted King Quanyu and me, and before I could offer the seat, the empress said straight to the point: "This concubine is here to take the third prince to be brought up in the concubine's palace." I was a little surprised, the queen glanced sideways at Shao He who was holding Wu'er, and continued: "There is a saying that children are the happiest when they are with their mothers. Although the third prince's mother is guilty, the fault is not with the children. The concubine had no intention of seeing him on the road today, but the lively and sensible child in the past has now become taciturn, and the concubine can't help but feel distressed. I think he was once the emperor's favorite." The last sentence the queen said secretly accused King Quan Yu of only focusing on Wu'er and ignoring Ge Min. King Quanyu was a little unhappy, so I replied directly before him: "Since the empress has said so, how can the Ai family not allow it? Before the emperor let him live in the Qing Chan Palace, he wanted to exercise his independent character. I don't want his mother and concubine to be left in the cold palace, but he will be left unattended, this is just because Aijia didn't think carefully, fortunately, the queen brought it up today." The queen didn't expect me to agree so readily.I smiled at her, then looked at King Quan Yu and asked, "What does the emperor think?" King Quan Yu coughed and said, "Since both the Queen Mother and the Empress have said so, I have nothing to say." The queen took Gemin to thank him, and the child really became taciturn as the queen said, and kept his head down from beginning to end.When the queen took him away, he couldn't help but look back, his eye circles were a little red.He glanced at Wu'er, who was born chubby and playing casually, and looked at King Quan Yu sitting on it with reluctance. It must be that he hadn't seen his father for a long time. "Queen Mother, what you do is undoubtedly letting the tiger go back to the mountain." Jingming said. "It's not so serious. Ge Min is destined to miss the throne, even if she is raised by the queen in the future. As for the queen, I don't care whether she is out of true feelings or wants to support her own power, I'm afraid it's a wrong bet." "But it's always unsettling." I stared at Jingming for a while, and instead of answering, I teased him and said, "Jingming, you don't look old at all, a shrewd person looks spiritual." Jing Ming scratched his head in embarrassment, put away his big belly and smiled. "You didn't see the scene at that time. The queen brought Gemin together, and she must have the feeling that she is bound to succeed. In front of the child, she spoke clearly and logically. How could I say no. What I am worried about is not Gemin being killed by someone. Adoption, unexpectedly, the queen is already dissatisfied with me, otherwise I would not have behaved today." Jingming thought for a while and said: "The Empress Dowager has always treated empresses with great courtesy... If there is anything, it may be because the power of the harem has always been in the Eryu Palace. After all, she is an empress, and she will inevitably feel unwilling after a long time." "I also thought of this, so I didn't refute her face. But if I were to delegate power to her because of this, I'm afraid I can't do it. If she doesn't move, I don't move; if she moves... I have long wanted to let Shao He be the boss." queen..." I found Ruyi, looked through the account books, and said, "Since you took over Shanshan's position, you have calculated the accounts much more clearly than her." Ruyi was trying to be modest, so I continued, "But if you talk about doing things thoughtfully, I'm afraid. You still have a gap, and you have to continue to grow." Ruyi panicked and said: "Is there anything wrong with this slave girl, please make it clear, Queen Mother." I closed the account book, sighed, stood up and said, "There is nothing wrong with what you did. Is it your fault? Last winter, Hou Cairen of Huanqing Palace wanted more charcoal fire. I heard that you didn't allow……" "The distribution of charcoal fire in each palace is completely in accordance with the standards of each concubine's rank. The slaves ask themselves that they are not selfish and biased. If the Queen Mother doesn't believe it, you can check the records of the Internal Affairs Bureau." Ruyi quickly explained. "That's why I said that you can't find anything wrong. The rules and regulations must be followed to be convincing, but if they are too rigid and strive for perfection, they will appear unreasonable. Just like that Hou Cairen, this year her palace There are two adjacent houses, one is dead and the other is relocated, not only is it empty, but also exposed to the wind on both sides, so it is incomparable to keep warm. I heard that she and her palace servants have suffered from cold symptoms one after another, do you think this method will not attract people's resentment?" Ruyi thought for a while, and hurriedly replied: "Your servant has been taught." "People like this won't blame you, but they want to resent me as the Queen Mother. It's not that I don't trust you, it's just that you don't have the time to do things now, and I can't trust you to do it yet." That's why I say this because although Ruyi has taken over most of Shanshan's work, she has no power to mobilize personnel matters. Ruyi nodded apprehensively and appreciatively. "I just told Jingming that he is no different from before. It seems that there are two kinds of people in this world who are not easy to grow old, one is the one who shows his eyes, and the other is the serious person. Ruyi, you are the latter .” "This... this..." Ruyi was at a loss. I smiled when I saw her like this, "I don't mean to blame you. It seems that I led you to the ground, and I controlled you too tightly before. I hope you can relax now. Hey, I am more compassionate than before. How many?" "The empress dowager is merciful but not angry but mighty, which is exactly what the slaves will learn in the future." Ruyi flattered. "If you are too busy in the future, let Xingdan help you, and see if there are any plastic ones in the young maid, and put them by your side to promote them, so you won't be so tired." After Shan, there is no longer any Someone who I can trust completely, so I don't want to have a situation where Ruyi monopolizes power. "Thank you Queen Mother for your concern." Ruyi replied calmly. After the queen adopted Ge Min, life was peaceful and peaceful.Only one incident happened during this period. A nephew of the empress's natal family was found to have embezzled the court tax money. King Quan Yu was furious when he learned that he would be exiled to the frontier for the crime, and his family members would be slaves and prostitutes.The queen's family is a relative of the state, which is extremely embarrassing, so she looks around for people to do activities. The queen should have pleaded with King Quanyu, but she came to Eryu Palace first to beg me, and it was the same with Ge Min before.I don't know if the queen is deliberately making things difficult for me because of my dissatisfaction, or because she has doubts about my relationship with King Quan Yu and has repeatedly tested her, so I am a little annoyed and wary of her behavior.What's more, King Quan Yu has always had his own ideas and opinions on government affairs, so I don't need to argue with him on this matter, so I just prevaricate it by saying "the harem does not participate in government affairs". Later, her nephew was not granted a pardon, and her family was also implicated.Because of this matter, I also specially called people from the Nangong clan to warn them not to be too arrogant in their actions in the future, and to act cautiously, taking Youshi as a lesson. Originally, this matter had nothing to do with me, but I never thought that I would be burdened by this matter in the future, and I was in a dilemma. In the blink of an eye, it was the Lantern Festival, and as usual, the dinner was to be celebrated with the officials and concubines of the harem, but just after the beginning of the Xu Dynasty, King Quan Yu said he was unwell and pulled the banquet early.When I returned to Eryu Palace, I was secretly worried about his health. I didn't want him to come to me with Wang Quan as a guard, and brought me a set of women's clothes from ordinary people's homes.I looked at him with both surprise and joy, and sure enough he said with a smile: "The programs in the palace are still so boring, would the Empress Dowager want to accompany me to see the festivals of the common people?" I picked up the clothes, and soon I was dressed up. When I came out, I tidied up my hair accessories a little shyly and asked, "It feels weird to wear it like this at first. Is it decent? Will it be ugly?" King Quan Yu looked at me and nodded approvingly, "There was a poem once describing that a woman's jingchai sarong cannot hide her natural beauty. I think it is probably what you look like now? Fortunately, I have prepared a veil for you, otherwise This festive season outside the palace is the time for passionate men to show their love to the woman they like, if you have many suitors, I'm afraid I won't be able to bear it." This time, apart from Wang Quan, there were two other guards waiting near the palace gate.I saw that they were tall and strong, with stern expressions and fixed eyes. They must be well-trained confidants on weekdays. Since Wang Quan was there, it didn't take too much trouble to go out of the palace.On the carriage, I asked King Quan Yu: "Why did you suddenly think of doing such a thing today? It's not your usual style at all." King Quan Yu laughed and said: "In the past, you always surprised me, which is called reciprocity." Wang Quan drove the carriage to the busiest street in Kyoto. I got off the car and looked around. This street is twice as wide as other streets. There are all kinds of small stalls densely lined up on both sides of the road. There is a lantern hanging on them, reflecting the night like day.Some sell candied haws, some sell wontons, some sell rouge gouache, some sell lanterns, and some make colored clay figurines... everything is available for eating, playing, and using. Different from the orderliness in the palace, the crowd here is dense and full of voices.Everyone held all kinds of lanterns in their hands, and talked with the people around them while watching. Some people were lowering their bodies and bargaining with the stall owners.Some people wear brocade clothes with bright colors and patterns, and you can tell that they are rich families at a glance, while the poor people wear heavy cotton-padded jackets, and some people have patches on their bodies, but this does not prevent them from enjoying the Lantern Festival together. joy. While I was watching, King Quan Yu and Wang Quan picked out a red lotus Ruyi lantern for me from the side.I held it in my hand and immediately illuminated the surrounding area redly. I, Xiaobu, and King Quanyu walked in front, and the other three did not dare to get too close, and only followed a little farther behind.我走着走着，忽然低头说：“人人都说，歌舞升平、百姓安居乐业是贤明帝王营造的盛世……看今日街上如此多的人，便知百姓生活富足，衣食无忧，所以……之前的事我一点都不怨恨你了。” 权禹王只笑了笑，没说什么，拉起我的左手，两人十指交叉一起慢慢向前走。 这让我想起了十一岁那年，得了眼疾，因为避方位来到权禹王府，也曾有这样的一天，他牵着我的手走在街上。也许就是从那时开始，权禹王便渐渐在我的心里了吧。那样说的话，此时此景不正是我一直向往的圆满吗？ 我终于得到了我想要的一切。我自小就心仪的人就在我身边，我还拥有了至高无上的权力和财富。如果我愿意，我可以买下整条街的东西，我可以让这些人只供我一个人愉悦，哪怕将这个灯市再开个三天三夜。姊曾说，我这样的人注定是不幸的，这是多么大的错误啊。 我正这样思索着，突然一股食物的香气吸引了我。 我抬头向左望去，只见一个中年男子正从炉里拿出几个大个儿的热腾腾红薯堆在上面。我不由得松开权禹王的手，穿过人群，来到烤红薯的炉前，怔怔地盯着它们看。 那男子见我这般，以为我是在犹豫，遂推销道：“我家的红薯个个儿的保甜，哎，夫人若是买的话算你便宜些……” 权禹王这时跟了过来，看我这般模样，就叫王全掏银子欲买下。最后我摇了摇头，拉回了他。待我们再次回到人流中时，我突然问权禹王：“你知道我最喜欢吃的是什么吗？” 权禹王有些不解，我径直说道：“是烤红薯，是甘甜而又暖人心的烤红薯。” “那么你刚才……” “那确实是我最喜欢的，它永远停留在我记忆中最美味的食物。但是很奇怪，不管以后再怎么吃，无论是宫中精心制作的，抑或是街坊摊主贩卖的，都再也找不回当初的味道。所以我想，还是算了，只是刚才那么看着，勾起一段美好的回忆，就已经觉得很美好了。” “啊，不过走了这么久的路，我确实有些饿了……我要你请我吃那个。”我打起精神，指着另一旁摆着七八个方桌的汤圆摊说道。 “客官，来喽！”胖胖的摊主从乳白色的锅中捞了两碗热气腾腾的汤圆放在我们面前。我想了想，说：“再来三碗给后面那一桌吧。今天是元宵节，吃汤圆象征着团团圆圆，大家都讨个好彩头。” “夫人不只长得好看，这说话也讲究！你们要了五碗，给四碗的钱就行了，夫人那一碗算是我请的！”摊主盯着我看了又看，扯起嗓门高兴地说。 大家都呵呵地笑了起来。我直接夹了一个汤圆，也顾不得烫，就直接咬了小半口，觉得十分滑嫩香甜。权禹王见我吃得手忙脚乱的，自己也不吃，只看着我半好笑半无奈地说：“瞧你，吃得这样急。我担心你吃惯了里面的东西，再吃这街边的，最易腹泻。若真爱吃，回到里面，你想吃多少都可以叫厨子做。” 我一本正经地回道：“里面的汤圆故是花样繁多，又加花瓣又是蜂浆又是坚果，但都不及这些街摊上做得原汁原味。恐怕即便是一样的用料，少了这些气氛，也是大不相同。难得有此机会，即便拉肚子我也不怕。别只看着我吃，你也尝尝吧。” 我将一个汤圆夹给权禹王，权禹王勉为其难地吃了一个，抿了抿嘴回味了一下，点头说：“果然味道大不相同。” 之后我又点了一碗，全然不顾权禹王吃惊的神情，走时我们还是付了六碗的价钱。 我走着，略有不雅地轻拍肚子说：“怎么办呢，觉得吃得好撑。”然后掩嘴轻笑起来，快乐得仿佛喝醉酒一般。 权禹王似乎也被我的情绪感染，两人挽在一起笑作一团。 走着走着，突然权禹王一把将我拉在他的身后。 我正疑惑，就听见隔着权禹王对面有人说话：“皇……” 那人马上顿了一下，权禹王摆手说：“叫我兄长就可以了。” 听声音和称呼，原来是碰到了权禹王舅家的弟弟凌昕凌将军。 我马上在权禹王背后将面纱放了下去，他以前见过我的容颜，希望他不会认出我来。 “兄长今晚早早撤了宴，本以为您身体不适，原来是出来体察民情啊……不过这下面鱼龙混杂，兄长该珍重安危，不宜久留，不如由愚弟就此送您回去……” 刚说到这儿，凌昕便住了口。权禹王的身高应该能完全挡住我，但可能遮不住我下面宽大的群摆。凌昕哑然失笑道：“原来兄长也是风流之人。” 能如此说话，可见凌昕平日里与权禹王的亲密关系，不过再向下的事他便不敢多问了。 “公子，您看我新买的香囊好看吗？”此时一声拿捏得道的娇媚声传了过来。见有其他人在，按照礼节此时她应当是向其他人施了礼，然后又听见她说：“妾女乔娇拜见各位公子。” 这次轮到权禹王笑了一声，“若论风流，我看起来怎么也比不上昕弟，连士大夫争相邀请的爱风楼头魁乔娇小姐也可以在今日独纳怀中。” 爱风楼？听说那是京城里最大的官妓院。爱风这个名字出于唐代吴融《杨花》诗中的“百花长恨风吹落，唯有杨花独爱风”两句。妓院里的女子自比为杨花，以风比喻世间多情善变的男子，多情女子与多情男子的会合正贴合妓院那样的风月场所。 我早就听说世间有一种女子，以身体取悦男子为生，她们穿着花哨丝毫不逊于宫廷贵妇，有些人甚至颇有些才气。听到她是爱风楼头魁，我不由得大感好奇，便从权禹王背后悄悄探出去一点，想看看那个叫乔娇的女人长得什么模样。 她确实长得非常漂亮，容貌精致艳丽，衣服也十分明亮，上面绣着喜鹊梅花的图案。但我觉得她那掩饰不住的风尘味道显得有些媚俗，不过恐怕这也算是吸引男人的特点之一吧。 这时凌昕似乎动了动，我慌忙又回过头去。 他们兄弟调笑了会儿，便各自带着人分开了。权禹王虽然有意识地帮我挡着，但我感觉凌昕似乎回头看了我一眼，但幸好我低着头，又蒙着头纱，应该不会被发现什么。 那之后我在街边兴致勃勃地买了许多小玩意儿，倒是可怜后面的两个侍卫都得捧在怀里，里面有小点心和一些做工稍显粗糙但艳丽的饰品盒等。 我还见到一名老人家，手指冻得通红，还在不停地捏着一个个彩泥人，便问他为何不在这样的晚上与家人们聚在一起。他回答说他的儿子身患残疾，不能劳作，家里只靠他糊口，这样的日子正是多挣钱的时候，哪能歇着呢。然后他劝我买几只小泥人，说小孩子都喜欢这些。我有些怜惜他，便叫权禹王买下了他所有的泥人，又送了他一些小点心，让他早点回家和家人过节。 突然，我身体涌起了一种异样的感觉，那种异样的感觉会似相识。权禹王感觉到了我的不适，见我捂着嘴，担忧地问道：“怎么了，是不是刚才汤圆吃坏了肚子？” 见我还是怔怔的，权禹王更加紧张了，“奴兮，你到底怎么了？” 我想了想露出了一丝笑容，摇了摇头，踮起脚尖在权禹王耳边悄悄说了一声。 “我又怀孕了。” “什么？真的吗？”权禹王连问了两句，他的惊喜并不亚于我。 我点了点头，轻声回道：“应该是。” “我知道一定是，”权禹王高兴得甚是有点手足无措，搓着手道，“怪不得自古说汤圆是多子多福的象征，看来果真吉利，你刚吃了两碗汤圆便得知有孕了。赏，赏啊，王全。你拿锭银子给那家铺子的老板，说朕，我感激他。不，不，好事成双，两锭银子。” 我看着权禹王高兴的样子，丝毫不逊于我有雾儿的时候。 权禹王小心翼翼地环着我，一本正经地跟我商量：“奴兮，我们已经有了儿子，这次再为我生个女儿好不好？儿女成双，幸福美满。你生的女儿一定漂亮，我一定让她成为自古以来最幸福的帝姬。” 可是我却想再生一个儿子……一个比戈敏更像权禹王的儿子。不过无论是儿子还是女儿，都是我们的孩子，都将得天独厚吧。 “那就看上天的旨意吧。” 第二天早上，雾儿在自己的床前发现插满了的鲜艳彩色泥人。 我又要准备到南郊行宫去了，因为前两年我也会去那边小住，因此此番再去依旧不会太令人生疑，即便有风言风语相传，但后宫之中也没有任何可以说得上话的人了。 我拉着善善的手，盯着善善昏睡着的脸庞，古人云面由心生，我总觉得善善长得是那样的慈眉善目，但这并不能掩盖住她的疲惫和老态。这些日子她越发不爱动弹，有时就这么昏睡着。 这次去南郊，我不想让她随行，南郊固然养人，但来回的路上却过于奔波，这次来是想与她道别的。 不一会儿，善善醒了，她看见是我，便露出如慈母般温和的神情，挣扎着欲起来，“呦，小小姐……” 我赶紧拿了枕头让她靠着，责备着说：“你怎么总也记不住，不是说不用跟我行礼了么。” “那哪行啊……主子是主子，奴才是奴才，怎能因为老奴乱了身份等级。”善善有些发喘地固执回道。 我压下心头上的心酸，对善善说：“过几日我就准备起身到南郊去了。善，我不想让你奔波这一趟，你就在宫中养病或者到宫外和家人住一段时间好吗？” 善善瞪大眼睛，因为语气急切而咳起来，“这怎么行？小小姐现在这样的身子，叫老奴如何放心？无论如何老奴一定要跟您一起去，老奴最近的身体已经没什么事了。” “可是善，我希望你能颐养天年，而不是与我在一起为我担惊受怕。” “小小姐，怎么会这么想呢？也许这句话不知轻重，虽然宫外的那些也是老奴的家人，但老奴的亲人却只有小小姐一个啊。一个人不在自己的亲人身边还能在哪儿呢？” 善善执意与我一起，我也有些不放心她一个人，于是五天后我们一同起程去了南郊，路上行进得很缓慢。在南郊一切都是轻车熟路，山脚下的小男孩都已经会和他爷爷一起上山砍柴了。我所做的就是安心养胎，等待生产。可是直到夏末，日子比预产期拖了近半个月却还迟迟没有动静，我不由得心中惶然起来。 那一天天气闷热难耐，屋外的树蝉似乎也十分难受，挣扎般声嘶力竭地叫着。临近晌午，天空突然飘来了一大片乌云，将白日掩盖，仿佛突然进入了黑夜。我挺着圆滚滚的肚子坐在窗前，见到此景，也不免心生一丝恐惧。 善善和苗医女也同时感染到了这样的情绪，善善从窗外探出身张望了一周，忧虑地说：“怎么会突然变天了呢……真是少见的天气，看来是要下大暴雨了。” “小小姐，您到床榻上去躺着吧，小心凉了身体。”善善嘱咐说，又吩咐苗医女点上蜡烛，自己一扇扇地关窗。 我恹恹的，正起身挪动，突然下腹一阵疼痛，我嘶了一声，伸手欲抓善善说：“善，我肚子痛……” 善善一阵慌乱，说：“哎呀，小小姐，您恐怕是要生了。”于是连忙和苗医女将我扶到床上。 我的阵痛一阵强过一阵，虽然我已生过几个孩子，但是觉得此番疼痛比起前几次显得尤为强烈。苗医女有很好的经验，早把一切都准备好，又在一旁轻声安慰我。 我在床上来回滚动，疼到剧烈处不由得大喊出来，冷汗早浸湿了衣服。 我在挣扎中死死抓住苗医女的手，颤声问她：“哀家……听说女人年纪大了，生孩子就不容易，甚至有生命危险，是吗……” 善善见我这副模样，早就吓得哭了出来，在一旁说：“小小姐，您这说得是什么话……” 苗医女脸色发白，神情紧张，却也摇头宽慰我道：“太后怎么会无端想这些……现在要紧的是您要保存体力，这不是头胎，不会有事的，太后您要坚强些……” 疼痛继续袭击而来，我已经顾不上苗医女后面说的是什么，大声喊了起来，如此几番，到最后只觉得自己浑身没有力气，也忘记了该怎样使力气，只能无意识地呻吟着。前几次的生产从来没有让我产生如此恐惧的感觉，我真的觉得也许我将死于这次生产，在这样的天气里，也许这正是上天对我和权禹王罪过的惩罚…… 我知道善善与苗医女在与我说话，我却意识不到她们在说什么，我觉得自己整个人都虚脱了。这样不知过了多久，我听到外面很大的嘈杂声，不知道是雨冲击树叶的声音，抑或是雨冲击屋瓦或者大地的声音。 我睁开迷蒙的眼睛，虽然虚弱却还鬼使神差地问：“外面是下雨了吗……” 耳边传来善善的惊喜声，“小小姐，您总算醒了，刚才您昏死过去，苗医女正在为您针灸……是的，外面正在下着大雨……” “呵……哀家喜欢下雨，喜欢暴雨……”不知道为什么此刻我会说这些。 刚才的昏睡让我恢复了点力气，我想我不该死……宫里还有权禹王和雾儿在等着我，我还要好好过以后的日子，为什么要死呢…… 这时又是一阵产痛，我集中力气按照苗医女的嘱咐使劲……这样努力了数次，就听见苗医女叫道：“已经看见婴儿的头了！太后再加把力气！” 我涌起了希望，再次大大地用力，直到听见婴儿哇哇的嚎哭声。 我整个人松了一口气，终于生下来了…… 善善接过孩子，报喜道：“小小姐，是个男孩，是个男孩！” 是吗……是我期盼的男孩吗。想到这儿，我不由得微微一笑，看来要用我和权禹王商议好的男孩的名字呢。 “等等，似乎还有一个孩子！”苗医女突然说道。 “太后不要放松，您的肚子里还有一个孩子！”我觉得我的身体又被抽扯了一下，然后听到了另一个孩子的啼哭声。 “是个女孩！太后，您生了一对儿龙凤胎！”我用了力气撑起来看，只见苗医女怀中抱着一个孩子兴奋地说。 啊，这么说我生了一个儿子，还有一个女儿吗，这既让我如愿也让权禹王如愿了。想想当初我吃了那家摊主的两碗汤圆，权禹王赏了他一对银元，事情多么凑巧呵。 这时外面的雨已经停了下来，外面有隐隐人声惊喜嚷道：“看，看，天空有一条彩虹！” 彩虹吗？我看着善善怀里的孩子，又看看苗医女怀中的女儿，然后轻轻地说：“我想好他们的名字了，他们叫弘（虹）。恢弘的弘，恢弘如虹的虹。” 我让两个孩子安心地睡在我身边。这次我已经不急着将他们送进宫去，因为生了两个孩子，他们都很弱小，我想再养十天半月再将他们送回去。 不想在第五天的时候，我的女儿虹首次睁开了眼睛，而这也让在场的所有人大吃一惊，她眸子的颜色竟与我一模一样！ 弘儿则没有这样的问题，苗医女为虹儿检查，发现她是可以看见的，暂时还查不出什么大碍。 但是这让我陷入了沉思……这样的虹儿我无法将她带进宫中。 这般明显的相近，会让一切大白天下。所以，这意味着我……无法将虹儿留在身边。 我只能先让苗医女将弘儿带回宫中，又派人暗查南宫氏的妻妾最近是否有人将要生产。 在等待的这段时间里，我经常抱着虹儿，久久地看着她，想把她的样貌深深地记在脑子里。虽然我已经有了两个儿子，又有九珍这个女儿，她显得有些无足轻重，但她毕竟是从我肚子里生出来的，我怎么能不怜惜她爱护她呢。 我抱着虹儿有些哀伤地对善善感慨道：“善，你说人的命运怎么会如此不同呢？看着这个孩子贪婪地吸着我的奶水，有时拿那和我一模一样的眸子盯着我看，我却知道她以后不会记得眼前的这个女人才是她的母亲。她和九珍一样都是我的女儿，她的血统高贵却不能被封为帝姬，她也不能在宫中长大，只能在并不气派的院子里玩耍。而这一切都是因为她长得像我，我对不起这个孩子啊。” 善善叹了一口气，只能宽慰我说：“想必虹帝姬的养父母也不敢亏待她。只是小时候不能在身边养育，待长大些，风头一过，总是有机会接进宫中的。” 我点了点头，心想也只能以后多多补偿这个孩子了。 后来终于查到我的表哥南宫道有一小妾半个月以后便要临盆了，除此之外再没有合适的人选。虽然委屈虹儿沦为小妾之女，但好在不用抛头露面。 之后我让返回来的苗医女带着虹儿去找南宫道，并手书一封，说希望将此儿当成他的孩子养育，对虹儿的身世未提半点，但南宫道看见虹儿的模样想必会猜出与我有关。我又特意嘱咐他不得将此事张扬，甚至连小妾这位养母都不可以，只当成亲生的，并许诺以后不会亏待他家。 我的脸贴了贴虹儿的小脸蛋，一番唏嘘，不舍地将她交给苗医女，又将手上春绿缠璎珞玉手镯撸了下来，将它塞进虹儿的襁褓之中当做信物。这手镯是一道士进奉的，据说可以辟邪，希望它保佑虹儿健康长大。 而此时的虹儿还在酣睡，浑然不知现在发生的事对她意味着什么。我不忍再看，转过头去以袖掩面，对苗医女挥手道：“去吧去吧……” 虹儿被带走后，我一阵感伤和怅然，然而还未等我有时间好好消化这样的情绪，有一日善善突然急急匆匆进屋告诉我说宫中有加急的信送来。 我想不出何事，很快将信展开，浏览完信上的内容我不着痕迹地看了善善一眼，她显然还不知道信上内容。 信上说，善善的一名侄儿，一个叫赵武耀的人，在爱风楼与皇后的弟弟起了冲突，并杀了他，现在正交给刑部处理。 我隐隐觉得这件事并不会有什么好结果，但我不想说出来让善善担心。 善善看我的神色，担心地问我：“小小姐，宫里发生什么事？是不是皇子出了什么事情？”