Chapter 12 Chapter Twelve

I turned around, looked directly at him, and shook my head, "Do you really think I'm so ignorant? No, I'm not... I know it all. I'm just not reconciled, I just can't get over the threshold in my heart. You didn't tell me the truth before because you were concerned about my feelings, I thank you. Now that I know the truth, I shouldn't hate you. " "You really think so?" I nodded, then rested my head on his shoulder, and said, "Do you still remember the stupid things I did when I was a child? When I was only a child, I pulled the hem of your clothes and said that I wanted to marry you. There are so many touching love stories in the book, but I think the best one since I was a child is the setting sun, the afterglow on the heads of two people, walking together hand in hand."

He was moved, hugged me a little tighter, and said: "Okay, I promise you, let us hold hands and grow old together." We had sex all night that night, as if to prove each other's mind.For the first time, I really entrusted my body and mind to him, and let myself gradually melt in his strong embrace. Tears trickled down my face as I wrapped my arms around his thick back.I don't know, is this just the happy feeling of being a woman? The torrential rain in the morning stopped in the afternoon, and the lotus leaves covered with rain and dew appeared more vibrant under the sunshine.

I dismissed the others, placed the piano on the veranda, sat down slowly, and compared it with the music score next to it, I fiddled and revised it over and over again. Until it sounded smooth, I played it coherently, and chanted softly: "Whoever grows day lilies, this county is very quiet. It was originally a thing of forgetting worries, and it will be reborn to worry about..." At that time, raindrops were still dripping under the eaves, and my tulle cover brushed against the body of the piano, and there was a soft touch, and the air was full of the fragrance of flowers and plants after the rain.

The sound of the raindrops, the touch, the breath.How long has it been since I played the piano with such a brisk mood?And how beautiful it all is. I was feeling like this, and suddenly there was a melodious flute sound behind me. My heart moved slightly, how many years have I not played with him? Accompanied by the sound of the flute, I bowed my head and continued to play and sing: "...the dew in the clusters begins to drip, and the butterflies remain. I still think of Du Lingpu, away from the wind and rain..." "I still think of Du Lingpu, away from the wind and rain..." The song ended, and the lingering sound lingered. I didn't speak, and neither did he.

After a while, he came forward and sat beside me, and then there was a faint fragrance of Qinan. "I rarely hear you sing, this is the first time." He said. I smiled and stroked the piano casually, "Yes, I seldom sing." The literacy requirement for a noble woman is to be proficient in piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, while singing and dancing are considered low-level pastimes and entertainment.But it's not that I don't like them, on the contrary I think they are more passionate, but I rarely do so. He said with a smile, "If I were young, even if I didn't know you, when I heard such a singing voice, I would be tempted to find the song. Then I would open the curtain and meet a beautiful and beautiful lady, tell my love, and have a good time with each other. It’s a good story for a lifetime.”

Listening to his interesting imagination, I couldn't help covering my mouth with my sleeve and smiling slightly. King Quan Yu seemed a little obsessed with seeing me, he held me in his arms, looked down to find my lips, the kiss was soft and lingering. After a long time, he let go of me, and said in a deep voice, "I am no longer a young man. I was with you last night, but I kept thinking about you. I couldn't help but come here again this afternoon. What should I do?" Listening to him say those love words nakedly, I was a little happy, but also a little embarrassed, and I didn't know how to deal with it.

He could only change the subject with his head down, and said in a low voice, "Let go of me, Jiuzhen might come over later, it would be bad if someone sees her." He let go of me with a smile, found a stack of music scores I put beside the piano, picked it up, looked at it, and asked, "This is it?" "Oh, this was created by Fu'er during his lifetime. He has always liked to compose music. I want to sort out his music and make it into "Xiaozong Song Collection" for future generations." King Quan Yu nodded, "The song just now is very nice, is it also composed by Xiaozong?"

"Yes. This piece is called "Xuancao"." King Quan Yu thought about it for a while, pointed to a certain part of the music score and said, "I think this part is not smooth enough, you might as well try to lower the key again. You may not feel it when you play the piano just now, but you can feel it if you play the flute." I leaned over, played it for a try, and said clearly: "It really is. Then I will change this section." We looked at each other and smiled. "Queen, I'm here." A brisk voice came from outside the house. Then I saw Jiuzhen walking in with Qin in her arms. She was wearing a lavender brocade robe with a pattern of dragonflies and lotuses, and the silver ornaments she was wearing jingled. Unknowingly, I felt that Jiuzhen had grown taller, and her hair had also grown taller. You can put your hair up in a bun.

Seeing King Quan Yu, Jiuzhen was stunned for a moment, her relaxed expression disappeared, and then she paid her respects in a respectful manner: "Greetings to the empress and the emperor." I subconsciously moved my body away from King Quanyu, and beckoned Jiuzhen to come over, "There are so many etiquettes, daughter, get up quickly." Jiu Zhen didn't move, but fixed her eyes on King Quan Yu, and said, "Queen Mother, did you ask your daughter to come here to teach her how to play the piano?" Under such gazes, King Quan Yu felt uncomfortable, so he said: "I just discussed with the Queen Mother about the banquet, and I will wait for you to set a date. I will go first."

I nodded slightly to him.At the moment when I got up, taking advantage of Jiuzhen not paying attention, he whispered in my ear: "Wait for me at night." My face started to feel hot again. Jiu Zhen sat next to me after King Quan Yu left. Seeing some displeasure on her face, I asked with concern: "Daughter, why are you unhappy?" Jiuzhen pouted and replied, "I don't like him." This answer was beyond my expectation, because King Quan Yu has not had much contact with Jiu Zhen so far, so I don't know why Jiu Zhen has such an idea. "Oh why?" "He is too serious, it seems that everyone has a grudge against him."

It turned out that it was because of this... I smiled and said to her: "I can't laugh and laugh every day like you. Besides, he is the lord of a country after all, and he is much older than you, so naturally he can't talk to you." "Mother, it's not like that. Think about the former emperor's elder brother, he was also the emperor, but he never put on airs, how good our relationship is. Also, the twelve emperor brothers who came last time, although the eldest daughter Many years old, but my daughter likes it very much." "And my daughter still hates him." Finally, Jiuzhen added another sentence. "Hate?" I listened to Jiuzhen's words in surprise. "Mother, do you really have no doubts in your heart? The emperor's brother is so young, why did he die suddenly? There is also the emperor's wife and their children. After that, he ascended the throne soon, so my daughter suspects that he killed the emperor's brother A family..." "Jiuzhen! You can't talk nonsense. The cause of Xiaozong's death has been found out, and he died of a sudden illness." Jiuzhen said disdainfully, "That's what the historians told the common people, who would believe it?" How could Jiuzhen have so many strange thoughts?What Jiuzhen said really surprised me, "Who told you all this?" "No one dares to say that, but my daughter reads that there are many such things recorded in history books. My daughter thinks that there must be something wrong with the emperor's ascension to the throne." Jiuzhen suddenly made me feel strange. In my impression, she was still an ignorant child, but now she suddenly has her own views. I'd rather she was innocent.Although this harem is gloomy and full of blood and rain, I don't want Jiuzhen to learn anything from it, because I believe that I have enough strength to protect her. On the other hand, although I have learned a lot since I was a child, I am not happy; so I hope that my daughter can obtain pure happiness. "Silly Jiuzhen, the queen mother tells you that the truth is not what you think. The new emperor is not a bad person. He is also quite accomplished in folk art, calligraphy and painting. Maybe one day you will fall in love with him." "Oh..." Jiuzhen said sullenly, and then she lay her pillow on my lap with a sad tone, "But my daughter still misses the emperor's brother very much. Such a good emperor's brother, how can you say that you will die when you die... ..." Yes... Jiuzhen's words aroused my sadness again.It's not that when one dies, everything goes with it.The memory and pain of Zhuan Fu will always be indelible in my heart.I have two sons and a daughter, and I lost two sons. The longer I spend with King Quan Yu, the more I can discover qualities in him that I hadn't seen before.In the past, I was simply attracted to such a person, but later I found that he not only made achievements in military politics, but also had his own unique views on rites, music, calligraphy and painting.When I was sorting out Xiaozong's scores, he always found some problems and brought me some surprises, and I could say more and more to him. He has his own hobbies and tastes. For the women in the harem, he distinguishes them by their behavioral style, and rarely evaluates their appearance. Occasionally chatted and mentioned that his evaluation of the characters of the concubines is often sharp, but to him appearance is just beautiful or not, but he rarely pays attention to whether their eyebrows are slender and their cheeks are rosy. When I discovered this, I suddenly felt a little deflated because I had always been so confident about my looks.He came in a hurry in the night, and I had already removed my make-up and hair, and was wearing a nightgown; we were sitting upright during the day, and we just kept our eyes fixed on each other, talking a few words; occasionally when he came suddenly, I was caught off guard, and I must have looked idle and sleepy. But in the face of him like this, I am more and more concerned about my appearance. I carefully put on makeup and choose clothes every day. on his heart. He kissed me a lot, and even leaned over during the day when no one was looking.Sometimes the corners of his mouth will accidentally imprint the red fat on my lips, which makes my heart jump wildly. When I see him during the day, I will think of the tenderness of the night.His heavy body.His thick shoulders.His hot body temperature.His supposedly old body burst out with unstoppable lust. Our secret love affair gradually heats up like this summer, so anxious. Shanshan finally came back. Although King Quan Yu kept quiet about what happened last time, some people still heard about Bi Che's affair with a man outside the palace. After all, King Quan Yu tortured Bi Che and made a big fuss. After that, Bi Che finally died with the fetus in her womb. Shanshan was imprisoned in a remote corner of the palace for a month. However, Yuan Yao was not as lucky as Shanshan. He was demoted a few levels, no longer qualified to go to the palace, and was strictly prohibited from entering the palace.King Quanyu said that he would find a better painter to paint me and Jiuzhen's portraits, and there was no discussion in his words.But I can't say anything, I know that King Quan Yu has always been worried about Yuan Yao because of what he said in the palace before, and not taking Yuan Yao's life is already the greatest tolerance. Worse than this is Yuan Yao's upright and grumpy father. Originally, Yuan Yao, the only son, did not marry a wife, which made him a lot of dissatisfaction. Ashamed, he has already said that he will sever the father-son relationship with Yuan Yao, and no longer recognize him as a son. Hearing this news, my heart was pierced like a knife.All the mistakes in this matter were clearly my fault, but Shan Shan and Yuan Yao suffered.In this palace, if the master does wrong, the slave suffers. King Quan Yu hates Yuan Yao very much. I can't see Yuan Yao, and I don't have a chance to say sorry to Yuan Yao in person.But I gave him the beautiful maid beside me to show him that I can give you everything close to me except myself. And he returned it intact, saying it was unnecessary.I don't know how to make up for Yuan Yao, which caused me a lot of pain, and I just thought that maybe I could find an opportunity to persuade King Quanyu in the future. I was also surprised to see Shanshan again this time. I always thought that Shanshan was just a middle-aged dignified woman, but in front of me was an old woman. Her temples have turned gray. I rushed to Shanshan, touched her temples with trembling hands, and asked in disbelief: "Shan, you..." Shanshan realized something, and explained embarrassingly: "There is no one paying attention there, and I forgot to dye my hair for a while." It turned out that Shanshan had grown old before I knew it. And I have been entrusting so many affairs to her, letting her worry about my affairs, because I only trust her completely in the people around me. I suddenly had a sore nose, I wiped the corners of my eyes, and immediately turned around to call the people outside. "Come here, pass on the decree of the Ai family. The brothers, nephews and nephews of the female officer Shanshan will all be promoted to a higher rank. The sisters and nieces can enter and leave the harem at will. The adult men in the family can be married to noble women by the Ai family. Adult girls in her family can be referred by the Ai family to marry noble children. Officials from all over the country treat her family like the emperor's relatives, and they must not be neglected or despised." "Miss, what is this..." Shanshan asked in a panic. I hugged Shanshan and said sadly: "Shan, I am in this position now, but you have never asked me for anything. So I will fulfill all your family's wishes. I will make your clan a prominent upstart, Make each of them proud of you. You deserve it." Shanshan gently stroked my head as she did when she was a child, shedding tears, "Young lady's heart, I understand." The relationship between King Quan Yu and I gradually deepened. After spending the dazzling summer, the rustling autumn ushered in the blink of an eye. I was almost immersed in that love, enjoying the lighthearted pleasure of having someone to rely on.Different from Fu'er's worries in childhood, now I just have fun every day, choosing new clothes, playing musical instruments, and holding banquets. I also have more time to accompany Jiuzhen and guide her in reading poetry and making fun. When night came, I took off the empress dowager's coat, and I was no different from the most ordinary woman in the world, moaning helplessly, distraught and fascinated. However, without night's cover-up, reality is reality after all, and dreams will always be disturbed one day. He is still the emperor of this empire, and I am his father's woman, the empress dowager. There are not only the two of us in this world, but also his court, his concubines, and his descendants. So when he clearly promised me not to see my sister again, but today he stepped into Ruique Palace again, I couldn't describe my feelings. What else do I have but anger?There is nothing to do.His son is ill. I heard that he came to Ruique Palace in a hurry and brought the best imperial doctor in the palace. I heard that Ge Min held his hand on the sickbed and said childishly to him: "Father, you haven't seen Erchen for a long time...Erchen misses you very much. Mother and concubine also miss you. In the future, you You must visit Erchen more time, please... Erchen can recite "Spring and Autumn" now, and I will recite it for you when Erchen recovers from illness..." Hearing that King Quan Yu was also moved. Their father-son love was vividly conveyed by the people in the palace. When I heard this, I didn't say a word. In the evening, the most personal attendant sent by King Quanyu told me that I wasted too much time during the day and was busy with government affairs at night. I smiled and said to myself, it’s okay, it’s rare to be quiet, so I can sleep alone. I understand King Quan Yu's feelings. I am also a person with children, so I can understand how parents worry about their children. So I don't want to blame anything for his behavior. I heard that Shang Qiuyuan's hibiscus bloomed, so I brought Shanshan to admire it in order to relieve my mood. I put on a relaxed expression and talked and laughed with Shanshan while admiring the flowers and trees.Walking to the depths of the garden, I vaguely saw the figures of other people in front of me, and gradually words came. "...It's nothing serious, so I can rest assured. You see how concerned the emperor is, and even allowed us to enter the palace..." I am somewhat familiar with that voice, but I can't remember it for a while, I just find it annoying. I continued to walk forward, and finally saw who the talking group was. It's my sister... The person who spoke just now is an aunt I haven't seen for many years. After my sister married Queen Quan Yu, she also went to the fiefdom.She is much older. If I hadn't stood beside my sister, I probably wouldn't have recognized her.And there was a man standing behind her. Although I had only seen him a few times before, I still remembered that he was the half-brother of my sister and me, the son of my father's concubine. They saw me too. The aunt was taken aback at first, and her amiable expression just now became fierce again.The atmosphere suddenly became strangely tense. They greeted me reluctantly, and I held my head high. "What a coincidence," the aunt said sarcastically, "you sisters grew up together in the palace when you were young, and you are still in the same palace. But it's different, and your identities are different. One has a good husband and son, and the other is a widow. Another bereavement. I know that this widow's life is hard. Don't look at the beauty on the outside, but she is suffering in her heart. Pheasant, you are an older sister, you should take care of your younger sister." The aunt's words are insidious, this is really her usual style.I think of how much my mother has suffered from her. Still relying on being his wife and elder.Ma'am, don't you know that you can be punished for talking to me so easily? The elder sister is a sensible person, so she pulled the aunt and said, "Mother, don't talk nonsense. You speak with good intentions, and you can't tell what it sounds like in other people's ears." But because of this extreme hatred, I don't want to end it hastily, death is only a moment, and what I want to see is their regretful expressions. So instead of being angry, I smiled and said, "The life of a widow is a bit difficult, but it's better than being a widow." My sister's face suddenly became a little uncomfortable. Obviously, the aunt also knew about this, and she was speechless for a while as if she was choked. Dan Chengsi suddenly stepped out and stood in front of them.He also turned around to comfort his sister and said: "Sister, don't listen to her. She is not from our family at all, otherwise she would not treat us like this. If my father has a spirit, he must also regret giving birth to her." My smile disappeared. The three of them stood on one side, and I stood on the other. It's really strange, even though they are all the general's family members, even though half of the same blood is flowing in the body now. Dan Chengsi is right, we are not a family. When I walked in front of Tan Chengsi, my sister wanted to go forward, but was stopped by Tan Chengsi, what a picture of sister and brother protecting each other. I said word by word: "You are right. I just want to demote your officials. You and her," I pointed to the aunt, "will never come again. Until I enter the palace again to collect my sister's bones." The three of them turned pale with shock. I turned to leave, and I was met with a shocked expression on Shanshan.I know she doesn't want me to say that, she loves everything about her father. But I really have no choice. I abandoned Shanshan and walked faster and faster, I just wanted to leave the three people standing in a group and Shanshan who wanted to say something as soon as possible. Then I ran away. I finally understood why I was so uneasy about expressing my understanding to King Quan Yu. My elder sister and King Quanyu are the only family, and they have a son.King Quan Yu will never abandon his son, which means he will never abandon his sister. And I am nothing, nothing. I came to Qinzheng Hall in a mess, and King Quan Yu raised his head from the memorial and looked at me in surprise. I haven't seen him for a few days. I called back the other people in the room, came to his seat, sat on the ground and cried softly on his knees. "Nu Xi, what's the matter with you?" King Quan Yu asked in panic, stroking my head with his big hand. "Why did you promote Dan Chengsi again? I clearly demoted him a long way before..." I said aggrievedly. "It turned out to be for this matter," King Quan Yu smiled, and said earnestly, "Nuxi, after all, he is your father's only son left in this world. General Dan has made great military exploits, sacrificed his life for the country, and he was marching and fighting He has taught me before, so he can be regarded as my teacher. Whether in public or private, I should treat his descendants generously, shouldn't I?" I shook my head vigorously, "I don't care. I don't want to see him and my aunt again. Seeing them makes me feel bad. Also, you promised me that you would not find a sister, but you still went to Ruique palace……" "That's because Ge Min is ill. I went to see him, not Concubine Shu." King Quan Yu hurriedly explained. "I know, but you will always say a few words when you go to her palace, right? Let Gemin move out of Ruique Palace, so that you are free to see your son whenever you want..." I cried for a while, but King Quanyu couldn't persuade me, and finally he sighed heavily and said: "Okay, okay, everything is up to you. Dan Chengsi was demoted back to Zhaowu Captain, and the relatives of Concubine Shu were not allowed to enter the palace again. Gemin will move out of Ruique Palace in the future, is that okay?" King Quan Yu pulled me up and hugged him on his lap, and reprimanded him, "Look at you crying like a tearful person. You should know that separating mother and child is a cruel thing, and what I promised you is something that cannot be justified logically." Then he couldn't help but Feeling, "I never thought that one day I would do such a thing. Have we disappeared for two or three days? Yesterday, an envoy from the Western Regions presented a gem called 'cat's eye', which looked like the eyes of a Persian cat. I thought you would like something novel, so I kept it and planned to give it to you tonight." He took a delicate little box from the desk, took out the honey-gold cat's eye gemstone and compared it to my finger, and said, "Look, I will embed it on your finger in the future, and match it with late autumn clothes, It must be very bright." I withdrew my hand and wrapped it around his neck, with a girlish coquetry in my words, "I don't want anything...I just want you. Never abandon me..." He hugged me, buried himself on my neck and kissed, and said dotingly: "Who can give up on you...I belong to you." So after Ge Min recovered from his illness, King Quan Yu announced to the harem: "I found that compared with the princes of the Western Regions, the princes of our dynasty are weaker. This may be related to the pampering of the princes. They only leave after the adult ceremony." The biological mother was not able to develop an independent character well before. For Dayin's future, I have now made a decision that princes over the age of eight will not be allowed to live in the same palace with the biological mother, and must live in a separate palace." King Quan Yu glanced at me, and continued: "Now the eldest son and second son of the emperor have grown up and have residences outside the palace. The third prince is also over eight years old, so he moved out of Ruique Palace to live in a place closer to the study hall." Clear the Cicada Palace." My sister was a little shocked when she heard this decision, and then she looked at me.A smug smile appeared on my face. My sister came out and knelt in the middle of the hall. I thought she would pretend to be pitiful and say, "Min'er is still young and cannot be separated from her mother's care. I hope the emperor will understand." But I didn't expect my sister to reply in a calm voice: "The emperor agrees with this decision and the concubine is also afraid that Min'er will develop an overly feminine personality if she follows the concubine." After my sister said this, not only the concubines present, but even King Quan Yu showed unexpected expressions. "But, Your Majesty," the elder sister continued, "after all, Min'er is still young and loves to play, and it doesn't feel right to have no elders around to watch over my concubines. I have always heard that the Empress Dowager has a noble taste and character, so I don't know if it is convenient for my concubines Min'er entrusted to Eryu Palace? This can not only exercise Min'er's independent character, but also be well nurtured, I wonder what the emperor and queen mother mean?" King Quan Yu seemed a little moved, because what he said before was only about moving Gemin out of Ruique Palace, it didn't matter which palace he moved to.If he moves to Eryu Palace, it will be more open and aboveboard for him to come and go in the future. I have to say that my sister really played a good move! The most dangerous place is the safest place. She was afraid that Gemin would be exposed to danger if he moved away from Ruique Palace, which was indeed the case, so she wanted to send Gemin to me.First of all, at least I, Guada Lixia, dare not do anything. Secondly, if Ge Min makes a mistake, I will not escape the responsibility. In the end, I will do my best to protect her son. "In this case……" "The Ai family likes Min'er very much." I took King Quan Yu's words and said, "But the Ai family is also getting old, and his energy is not good, and the prince's education is not sloppy at all. I am afraid that the Ai family will not be able to bear it. Such an important responsibility. If Concubine Shu is really worried, why not ask Miner to move to Fengyi Palace and let the queen take good care of her?" "The concubine is very happy, but..." The queen's tone was a bit awkward, "The concubine usually has to take care of the eldest prince, and their family is enough to worry about. The concubine is afraid that she doesn't have much time." After hearing this, I couldn't help but sneer in my heart. Even though the queen and sister have a good relationship, who would dare to pick up this hot potato? "Look at Aijia," I turned my head and said to King Quan Yu, "It's better to move to Qingchan Palace. Concubine Shu doesn't have to be so nervous, as long as she doesn't disturb the prince's study, Concubine Shu can still visit her son at ordinary times. " King Quan Yu nodded, "Then let's do this." My sister was really a little uneasy at this time, seeing her pale face, I felt the pleasure of revenge in my heart. Sister, don't you have a son?I just want to take your son away from you, let you live in anxiety every day, make you toss and turn every night, let you experience the taste of pain. "Ah, if that's the case, can we make a move?" Namu Duoer said happily. I glanced at her, ignored what she said, looked indifferent, and continued to sip tea. I don't like Namu Duo'er's recklessness, and it is a helpless move to choose her as a companion, just because we have a common enemy. "Isn't it normal for a maid to take care of her poorly, eat bad food, get sick?" Namu Duo'er continued to think. I frowned slightly, put down my teacup, and whispered, "It's not easy to kill a child? But what will you do after you think about it?" "Then what's wrong with it? The worst case is to kill someone and put the blame on the dead." I waved my hand, "Now concubine Shu and the empress have a very good relationship, the emperor has a good impression of concubine Shu, and Ge Min is also loved by the emperor. Do you think the palace will easily end it under such circumstances? At that time It’s not enough to kill one or two people.” Namu Duoer sat down dejectedly, was silent for a while, and said softly: "Then the big deal is that the concubine will die." What?I looked at Namu Duoer in surprise. "If the concubine's son can ascend to the throne, what's the big deal about the concubine's death? Even if the emperor knows that the concubine killed Ge Min, at that time there will only be Han'er, a good-for-nothing son, right? Even if he hates the concubine In the end, don’t you have to let the concubine’s son ascend the throne? Then the concubine’s death is worth it. The concubine has already had such an idea.” I was amazed by Namuduoer's idea, but after thinking about it carefully, although this method is desperate, it is indeed a good method. Use Namu Duo'er to get rid of my sister's son. Wasn't my sister being bullied at that time?And these have nothing to do with me, I don't have to feel guilty about King Quan Yu, and it won't affect our relationship. But…… "No." I denied Namu Duo'er, "Aijia does not agree with you to do this, let Aijia think again and come up with a good solution." Namu Duoer sighed dejectedly. "Then let's talk about something else," Namu Duoer suddenly remembered something, and said mysteriously: "Recently, the concubines in the harem are discussing something secretly." "What's up?" "Discuss the emperor. There are women in the harem who can't sit still." "What's the meaning?" "Hey, I just want a man. It's been half a year since the emperor ascended the throne in spring, right? He hasn't had any luck with any woman in the past six months. Even if the emperor can stand it, can those women stand it? It's not discussed yet. The sky is full." My heart tightened, and I pretended to be nonchalant, "Oh? Then what are they talking about?" "In the beginning, everyone thought that the new emperor was too busy to take care of government affairs, but now everything is on the right track, and the emperor still doesn't go to the backyard, so they can say anything. Some said that the emperor was overworked and sick. Some said The emperor has seen a lot, and he looks down on his former wives and concubines, so he wants to choose a new beautiful woman to enter the palace..." "Then Zhaorong, why did you say these words so easily? You are also one of the emperor's concubines." Namu Duo'er's aggressive aura just now disappeared suddenly, and she turned into a bit coy, and said in a sad tone: "Chenqie? Even if the emperor is in good health, he will not come to Chenqie again... After all, Chenqie has already died. I am no longer young, and I don’t want to have any extravagant hopes when I look at this body that is no longer slender.” In my impression, Namu Duoer has always been not elegant enough, and now she is more arrogant and rude than a middle-aged woman, but only when she mentioned King Quan Yu, what appeared on her no longer young face was Nothing could be more feminine. "Zhaorong, you..." I paused, "Did you ever fall in love with the emperor? Aijia still remembers the first time I met you, when your relationship was so good." "Falling in love?" Namu Duo'er said quietly, and then smiled wryly, "I used to think so too. We did have a very sweet time, but it wasn't love. If it was love, how could it be because of Chen Qie's appearance? How could it be possible for the relationship to fade due to the passage of time... how lucky is a man, what he loves is not the concubine himself, but just the way the concubine was at that time. Seeing this through, the concubine doesn't envy those concubines at all now Young and favored concubines, sooner or later they will suffer the same as me." After listening to Namu Duoer's words, my mood is so complicated.However, there are some things I think Namu Duoer said clearly.Thinking of myself, what does King Quan Yu like about me?Will he be bored with me when my beauty is gone? "However, the emperor is so pure-hearted now, and the concubine really can't understand it. If it was in the past, it would have been absolutely impossible..." Namu Duo'er said to herself. At night, King Quan Yu asked me strangely: "What are you doing looking at me?" I shook my head, and that night when I obediently put myself into his arms, I was selfish and didn't tell him the rumors about my concubine. However, I was overly optimistic.The rumors will only intensify and will not disappear because of my willful neglect. That day, the concubines of the harem greeted Daan, and when I came to the main hall, I heard them whispering something. Seeing me coming in, they kept silent and greeted me in a respectful manner. After I sat down, the queen came out and said in a solemn tone: "The queen mother, the concubines and all the concubines in the harem have something to ask the queen mother." I asked her to continue, the queen hesitated a little, and then continued: "It's like this... all the concubines know that the emperor has everything to do every day, but since the emperor ascended the throne for half a year, the harem has had no luck, which has caused rumors to spread. The head of the government cannot sit idly by. For the stability of the harem and the continuation of the royal heirs, I hope the queen mother will come forward and remind the emperor more." After I heard this, I waved my hand and refused: "This is a private matter in the harem, how can the Ai family open their mouths to mention it to the emperor?" "The concubine doesn't want to bother the queen mother, but the concubine has reported this matter to the emperor, and the emperor is noncommittal, as usual. The concubine is afraid that the emperor will misunderstand that the concubine has selfish intentions by mentioning it again, so I am really embarrassed to speak a second time. It is true that this is a private matter of the harem, but it is not a small matter. If the emperor no longer favors the harem, and the children under his knees are weak, it cannot but be said to be a worry for the community. As the empress dowager, as the elder of the harem, the emperor will definitely consider what you say carefully. " After the empress finished speaking earnestly, the concubines behind knelt down and said in unison: "I hope the empress dowager will persuade the emperor to calm down the rumors." They said it soundingly, and in my capacity, there is no reason to refuse. I stared blankly at the helpless scene in front of me for a long time, and finally said calmly: "Understood. The Ai family will pass on your thoughts to the emperor." "The empress has already mentioned that matter to you, hasn't she?" I said quietly when I saw King Quan Yu again. King Quan Yu was stunned for a moment, he understood what I meant, and then hummed. "Then why are you pretending to be okay?!" "I don't want you to worry about it, just leave them alone." "But you should know better than me what this means! This means that petitions will never stop. This means that in the future, ministers will speak to you, the queen will lead the harem to speak to you, and the queen will lead all the officials to speak to you. If you say something, there will be an imperial physician petitioning to treat you, you know better than me, but you say don't worry about it!" Not sure why I was irritated. No, I'm not angry with King Quan Yu, I know he's trying to withstand the pressure for me.I'm just angry at the helpless situation. I love him, but I can't keep him, and I will be forced by reality to push him away from me against my will. "Nuxi, I don't understand, why are you so angry?" He is the emperor of this country.It was only natural for him to sleep with the women in his harem, and it would be abnormal not to touch them. I know that if I keep occupying him, it will only make things worse. "Because..." I pursed my lips and said with difficulty: "If you don't go to them again, they will become more and more suspicious. Maybe they will suspect me in the end, which will trouble me very much." King Quan Yu's expression changed a little. He whispered incredulously: "Nuxi, I deliberately ignored those rumors and rumors about me for you, but the last thing you think about is yourself?!" I turned my head away from him and didn't say a word. "Okay, okay," King Quan Yu said several times, mocking himself, "It seems that I didn't think carefully about this matter, but I hurt you instead. I know what to do." The next day, I heard that King Quan Yu had flipped Xu Meiren's brand. Xu Meiren...Xu Meiren, I am thinking silently in my heart.许美人，那位年轻的女孩子，那个笑起来眼睛像弯月般，言语间有说有笑的女孩子。 现在这样的局面，不正是我昨天与权禹王吵架的目的吗？ 我在屋里走来走去，心中却怎么也无法安定下来。 善善见了关切地提醒我：“小小姐，您别到门口去，刚下完秋雨，天气凉容易感染上风寒。” 可是我的心在灼烧着，我正需要那样的凉意使我冷静下来。 我想着许美人的一颦一笑，突然觉得她那本来甜美的笑容竟使我那样痛苦。 天色渐渐暗了下来，我早早地宽衣上床，真想一觉睡过去，明早淡然地接受一切。 可是我的心在不自觉地算着时辰。 这时候权禹王应该在勤政殿批阅奏章。 再过一两个时辰他的御驾就会移到许美人的居所了。 许美人会以什么态度去接待他呢？那个时候权禹王又会是什么样的表情呢？ 我翻来覆去，渐渐有了困意，觉得脑子很沉很乱，眼皮也重得睁不开了。 我闭上眼睛，用残留的意识想着，这样未尝不好，这样睡着就再也不用烦忧什么了。 睡梦中觉得口干舌燥，我想睁开眼睛唤人拿些水来，而映入眼帘的却是权禹王关切的表情。 屋子里点着昏黄的烛光，这么说还是晚上，那么权禹王怎么会来？ 我疑惑地看着屋子里的权禹王和善善，权禹王拉着我的手，解释说：“还好你醒了。奴兮，你发了高烧，还好是善善及时通知了朕，朕听了就匆匆赶过来了。” 我摸了摸我的额头，是有些烫，但是我知道自己的身体，没有严重到兴师动众的程度。 我看向善善，她向我微微点了点头。 啊……善善她看透了我的心思，她知道我实际上非常介意此事。所以她找了权禹王，阻止了这个夜晚本该发生的事情。 我顿时觉得心中酸酸的。 “老奴去看看汤药熬好了没有。”善善借机离开，留下我和权禹王两个人。 我感激地望着善善离去的背影，过后我慌忙低下头，因为眼泪已经止不住掉了下来。 我不知道自己为什么竟然走到了一个没有前路也没有退路的境地。 权禹王握紧我的手，低下头说：“看你昨天说得那么坚决，朕以为你真的一点都不在意，甚至对你感到恼火。现在想想，朕真是混账啊。可是，奴兮，你为什么不将自己心里真正的想法说给朕呢？我们之间还有什么不可以说的吗？” 我摇了摇头，“说有什么用呢……即便我跟你说我很介意，那又能改变什么呢？那只会让两个人都感到难受。” “让朕想想办法。”权禹王很坚决地说。 权禹王的这句话让我好受了许多，但是我还是迟疑地问：“许美人……她好吗？” 权禹王笑了，“朕也不过刚到她那儿，没说上几句话善善就过来找朕了。不过朕发现也跟她说不出什么，她泡得茶喝起来味道也差很多，模样嘛，朕还没来得及仔细瞧。朕听说，喝惯了上等好茶就无法接受一般的茶，你把朕的胃口养得如此刁钻，该怎么办？” 原来他也会说好听的话哄女人开心。 我拉过他的手，放在自己的嘴边小口地咬了一下。 “还有一件事……”权禹王有些难于开口，“以后别喝那些药了。善善全都告诉朕了，这对身体不好。” "But……" 权禹王看出了我的担忧，他的声音变得有些低沉，“你不用担心那些事，朕会注意的。而且……”权禹王顿了一下，“也许朕……不会那么容易让女人怀孕。” 我吃惊地看向权禹王。 权禹王带些自嘲地说：“所以你该明白为什么敏儿生病的时候朕很紧张。朕的儿女朕都很关心，哪怕是本不在朕意料之中出生的敏儿，朕都把他们当做是上天的恩赐，是朕生命的延续。奴兮你能明白朕的感受吗？” 我可以感受他说这话时的无力，想不到这个胸怀天下、运筹帷幄的男人内心竟然还有这样的苦楚和无奈。 我低下头，咬了咬嘴唇，下了什么决心，然后我再次抬头看向权禹王，“我懂。以后我想和姊好好相处。” 权禹王很明显没有想到我会说出这样的话。 “既然敏儿是你珍爱的孩子，姊是孩子的母亲也应该受到相应的礼遇，不是吗？我不想让你再为难。” 权禹王握紧了我的手，言语中有着感动，“奴兮，你这样懂事，朕很高兴，真的。你真的很好，朕那么喜欢你，没有一个女人能像你这样。” 我向他温柔地微笑。 在这个我喜欢的男人面前，我愿意表现出我所有的好，而我心中的阴暗他永远不会理解。 我想找善善，而被告知她宫外的亲戚来了。 我想了想，招来如意，吩咐她说：“以后后宫再有什么礼物分发，分给淑妃好的。等级嘛，可与皇后比肩，不能输于庄德妃。” 现在很多不算机密的事我越来越多交给如意去做，是不想让日益衰老的善善太过操劳。 如意非常吃惊，她知道我一向对姊很冷淡，她想不通我为什么突然改变了态度。 “太后，这……于后宫之礼不合呀。” 我冷笑了一下，说：“你错了，这才是最合规矩的。有儿子的和没儿子的怎么能一样呢？再说她还是我的姊，这样的身份后宫其他妃嫔怎么能比呢。你们以后也要像待我一样尊敬她，以后谁找她麻烦就是和哀家作对。” 如意低下了头，“奴婢明白了。” 我来到善善的住所，到了门口听到屋里有话传来，“姑妈，您就让我到宫里来住嘛，我还能伺候您陪您聊聊天。” “跟皇太后说让你住进宫里并不是难事。但是孩子，你太单纯了，你真的以为宫里那么好待吗？我是为了你好，所以才没答应你。” “姑妈，我就是喜欢这里。你看这建筑上的雕纹，你看这衣服的款式宫外永远不会有。这里的一切都让人眼花缭乱。再说了……如果在宫中说不定哪天会被皇上看中，那样我们家岂不真是皇亲国戚了……” 善善笑了声，“你这傻孩子，你没听说皇上已经潜心修养，不再召幸后宫了吗。像你这样做梦的女人我在后宫见到很多很多，但真正如愿的没有几个。你不要再提这件事了，如果在家觉得闷，就多来后宫走走，也告诉告诉我宫外的事。我上次问你武耀的事……” 这时我走了进去，看见了坐在善善旁边说话的女孩子。 那女孩子惶恐地向我请安，我让她站起来抬头说话。 她的年纪虽轻，二十出头的样子，但是可以看出已不是完全不懂世故的少女，虽然她精心打扮过，还是可以看出非宫中人，可能是因为多了一份宫外清新的味道。 善善跟我介绍道：“小小姐，她是老奴最小弟弟的小女儿秀秀，前段时间她的丈夫去世了，现在孀居在家，老奴就让她进宫来陪陪我。” “哦，这样很好。”然后我问秀秀，“最近你的家人都好吗？” 秀秀一副受宠若惊的样子，急忙回道：“都很好，全赖太后您的庇护，我们都过得很好。” “刚才善说武耀怎么了，他遇到什么麻烦了吗？” “小小姐，这都是些老奴家里的琐事，怎么好意思在您面前念叨呢。秀秀，你先回家去吧，以后我再召你进宫。”善善紧忙说。 我觉得善善在刻意回避什么，反而有了好奇，问秀秀：“你尽管说。你姑姑从来不愿意麻烦哀家，但是你们家的事情哀家能帮忙的一定不会不管。” “其实没什么，姑姑就是问我武耀哥怎么样了。最近三叔给他谋了个官职，他高兴坏了，前一段时间还骑着大白马在街上走了一圈，可风光着哩。” 我听了笑了，“善，你是顾忌这件事啊。你们家我本来就是要优待的，只要不做出杀人放火伤天害理的事来，风光风光也没什么。善，你多虑了。” 善善担忧着说：“突如其来的富贵也许会带来灾难，老奴是怕他们消受不起，惹出什么事来，让小小姐您为难。” 我不以为然地说：“现在我母亲家南宫氏、皇上的外祖父家凌氏、皇后父亲家尤氏这些占尽好处的国戚都没事，你们家只是得了些小恩小惠的又能怎么样呢？”