Chapter 36 Section Eleven

In the days that followed, Maizi often thought of that National Day night.She and Li Chenguang walked a long way, talking about their respective past and future, until there was no more street light at the end of the street, they turned and walked back. When he arrived in front of the hospital, he held her hand and whispered in her ear, "Go to my office..." "It's too late, it's not good for others to see. I'd better go home." She refused, but she didn't stop following him. "Don't be afraid, those two lazy nurses went to bed early." Yet when they walked into the surgery building, her body still shuddered involuntarily.

"Are you cold?" He wanted to comfort her.But he glanced around the quiet stairs and corridors, and instinctively let go of her hand. They walked into his office one after the other.He hugged her desperately and began a long and passionate kiss. "You know what? Your lips are so...beautiful." He was about to say "sexy," but hesitated, then changed the word.He felt that it was extremely inappropriate to apply the word "sexy" to her. "Just because of my lips?" "Of course not. The first time I saw you in the entertainment city, I couldn't forget it. I hoped that you would come to me every day. In fact, I said that the hospital wanted to recruit temporary workers. It was just an excuse. Just recruiting, maybe this is the fate that God arranged for us. I love you so much..." He kept whispering, repeating his desire for her.

She blushed, but still held on to the last line of defense.She hopes that she can leave the most precious thing to marriage. Then it was daylight. He takes her home.They walked to the family area of ​​the textile group company and saw an old woman standing by the green belt in front of the building from a distance, soaked in wind and dew.It was Maizi's mother, Maisui, who was waiting for her, her daughter who had not returned all night. Afterwards, he and she often worked the night shift together.Whenever they were alone, they hugged and kissed for a long time, feeling each other's passion and the fragrance of love.

"Recently, a group of nurses in our hospital are going to be regularized. I will get you a recruitment form in a few days." He said to her after the long kiss. "Really?" She pursed her lips that were numb from his kiss. "Will I lie to you? Baby, how can I be willing to lie to you!" When he said these words, he reached into her collar with one hand, and carried out the following series of procedures that he had longed for for a long time like a skilled worker . This time Maizi did not refuse.Her mind went blank... Someone in the corridor was calling Director Li, saying that a critical patient who just had a car accident came to the hospital and needed immediate surgery.He packed his clothes and left the duty room quickly.

It took a long time for Maizi to wake up.Lying on her back on the bed in the duty room, staring at the ceiling above her head, she suddenly understood what had happened.Unprepared, she gave herself to a middle-aged man with a family.He changed her in just an instant.Although this change was not imposed on her by anyone, even the dream of love that had been cherished in the depths of her heart for many years was calling, or it was the magic power that he had just promised her.But when she woke up, she still felt the piercing pain, and she felt that she would say goodbye to her purity forever—even if they really fell in love, they had already become no longer pure because of that non-existent recruitment form .She turned her head, and there was a rectangular mirror with the words "Advanced Collective" on the opposite wall.She saw in the mirror the ivory, crystal-clear nude body of a young woman.Staring at the naked body for a long time, she tremblingly grabbed a cup on the table and slammed it hard at the mirror on the opposite wall.The naked bodies in the mirror became fragmented piece by piece, and fell off the wall with a clatter, leaving behind a series of subtle and dilapidated crisp sounds.Her heart was also broken into pieces.

Maizi cried silently, tears gushing like a fountain.She soaked herself in tears, and the salty and bitter taste burned her, as if she was constantly sprinkling salt on the wound.After the pain, there is a long numbness.She wondered if she should numb herself forever. The next morning, Li Chenguang, the director of surgery, personally swept away the shards of glass on the floor of the duty room, and hung a red velvet pennant sent by the patient's family a few days ago in the place where the mirror was originally hung.The pennant is very important to Li Chenguang.As the number of pennants received by the surgery department increased, his career was in full swing, and there were rumors in the hospital that he would be a candidate for the new dean.But at this time, the pennant concealed something else for him.

But Maizi doesn't care about these.It seems that everything is under his control, and Maizi knows that he cannot escape.Whether she likes it or not, and whether she loves it or not, she is led by him into a mixed and furtive life.Her only hope was that he would get an early divorce as he had promised.If he can't get a divorce, just end this ambiguous relationship.Although Maizi's thinking is relatively open and avant-garde, she is not a woman who is willing to become a vase or trash like the female lecturer at school thought.One of the things she hates the most is that young women are used as vases, relying on their beauty to win the favor of men, and using their beautiful youth to play the role of lover.

But he said he didn't see her as a lover, he was serious about her. However, for a man with a successful career and a bright future, divorce can be difficult.Just like the promise on the recruitment form, he hoped Maizi would give him time.