Chapter 164 Cuimei Anli v. Predecessor

Kneeling in front of the Buddha, clasping his hands together, he was flustered.I don't want the Buddha to see me like this, but I can't be calm, and I can't pretend that nothing happened.There is a strong premonition in my heart, Chunyi is in trouble, Chunyi is really in trouble. Buddha looked at me peacefully, with kind eyes: "Son, don't panic, don't panic." "Tell me, can he get over there? Tell me, Buddha, please tell me." I was so eager that I almost cried in my words. When I was a child, I knew that I didn't need to hide anything in front of the Buddha. He could see everything in my heart clearly.

The Buddha was still peaceful, and said slowly: "Life and death are determined, wealth and honor are in the sky, whether you are an emperor, a general or a commoner, it is the same. Anxiety is of no help. It is better to relax your mind and pray for him calmly." I was dejected: "Since life and death are fateful, what's the point of me praying and blessing him calmly. Buddha, you don't save him, do you? Even if you have the fairy pill, you won't save him. Because you can't Go against the laws of heaven, even if he is the Son of Heaven on earth, you can't." After finishing speaking, I remembered that people in the world were killed and always wanted to pray to gods and worship Buddhas, but in fact it was just psychological comfort. I believe that gods and Buddhas are merciful, but they can't To change those doomed things.But in the three realms of strict laws, there is also the principle of understanding human feelings.That being the case, I am here to pray for Chunyi, I will always think of what Chuyu said to me: Blindness, short life.That's why Chunyi's illness made me so overwhelmed.I don't know if I love him or not, even if I don't, the kindness and infatuation he has shown for me in the past few years are enough to make me worry about him and break my heart.

Seeing my confusion, the Buddha sighed: "If one day you really see through life and death, there will be nothing in the world that can affect you and bind you. Don't you know the oldest Zen saying, life is death, and death is death. It’s life. Everyone in the world knows it, but how many people can see through it and look down on it?” "Life is death, and death is life." I lowered my eyebrows and muttered, feeling a little relieved in my heart.Indeed, when he is born, he lives, and when he dies, he dies. In this world, because there is one less emperor, the people will perish and the people will not be able to survive.And his life and death only made me feel sad, and it would not cause fatal harm.If he leaves, I will no longer be the Empress of Daqi, and from now on, I will never step into that Zijin City again, and all the grievances and hatreds of the past will disappear.

"Stay here, don't be moved by dusty thoughts, don't be disturbed by common things, meditate in meditation, everything will pass, everything will eventually dissipate." The Buddha said slowly, he still wanted to keep me, in front of the Buddha, The sea of ​​dust is flooding, he doesn't want me to be submerged in it, lose myself, and let down my heart. I smiled lightly: "Going or staying is no longer important. Falling into the world of mortals is just a guest, but Buddhism may not be the destination I want. Everything depends on fate, and there is where you pay attention."

"When the heart moves, it will be chaotic, and if the heart is still, it will stop. If you want to pay attention, you must stop your heart, otherwise, no one will be able to stay in your heart." Live in peace. When I looked at the Buddha, I felt some unspeakable pain in my heart. I went around and around, but I still came to his side.I want to ask: "Buddha, do you have love?" After all, I will give up. I know whether the Buddha has love. The Buddha said that he loves all living beings in the world, but it is not the case. The Buddha loves himself.He couldn't afford to love so many people, and in the end, he could only love himself lonely.

The Buddha seemed to see my thoughts, and there was a slight smile on his face: "You have the root of wisdom. I have always thought so. But even if a woman with the root of wisdom understands herself and others, she may not be able to do it. Don't be moved, don't be disturbed. The world says you are cold and indifferent, but in fact you are still an idiot after all." I couldn't help laughing: "Then what the Buddha said is not to be moved or disturbed, that is to be ruthless. Only by being ruthless can one not be disturbed by everything, have no sorrow or joy, and just watch the world with cold eyes." .”

The Buddha smiled: "It's not to look at the world with a cold eye, but to treat everything peacefully, but you are right. Although it is not a cold eye, it is also a cold eye. It just makes people seek peace in a peaceful expression, and a cold eye will make people more happy. cold." "Peace." To achieve peace, there must have been many ups and downs before. Only after the ups and downs can there be true peace.Otherwise, there will be no peace at all.I look at the Buddha, and I know that he is truly peaceful. He has experienced vicissitudes of life and experienced too many ups and downs, so his peace is really peaceful.

The Buddha waved at me: "Go back to the house and wait with peace of mind. Maybe the ending is not the worst. The will will be dark and the flowers will be bright, and the sea and the sky may be brighter." I kowtow, and I no longer have the slightest linger, because I know that it is better to ask for others than to ask for myself, and my heart is not moved, and my heart is not disturbed, and I can let go of everything.Even if I can't let go, praying to Buddha is futile. Walking out of the main hall, there was still heavy snow falling outside the hall. The first snowfall in early winter was so heavy that it seemed to cover up and bury everything in the world.Only a blank memory is left for the bewildered world.

When I got back to the wing, Mrs. Miaochen was waiting for me inside. Walking to the mirror, I saw that my face was haggard and my complexion was very bad.I don't even know that Chunyi has such a great influence on me. Even though I kneel before the Buddha, only I can understand that there is always a faint uneasiness deep in my heart. Master Miaochen got up and held my hand tightly: "It's okay, you can rest assured." I reluctantly gave her a smile: "Well, I'm fine, thank you so much for your concern." "Don't thank me, child." The teacher stroked my head affectionately, with pity in her eyes. I have seen this look before, and it touched the depths of my heart. "Come on, sit down, I have something to tell you." The teacher took my hand and sat down.

I looked at her puzzled. From her eyes, I seemed to be able to read something, but I couldn't tell. "Want to hear my story?" She gently brushed the remaining snow on my hair. I didn't know how to answer, so I just nodded slightly, looking at the snow flying outside the window, I seemed to understand why Mrs. Miaochen chose to tell me her story on such a snowy day. "Actually, there is a relationship between you and me." Master Miaochen said it in a very calm tone, and this sentence seemed to have been planted in my heart. I was also calm, and said slowly: "Master, many times, I feel that there is something between you and me, but I can't explain it clearly. It's just a feeling, a very subtle feeling."

Master Miaochen held my cold hand tightly, and smiled: "I just want to tell you, don't be tired anymore, no matter what kind of identity you once had, and what kind of identity you have now, it's nothing." "Master must have a glorious past." I looked at her, and the woman in front of me was by no means the daughter of an ordinary family. The teacher smiled lightly: "Well, it was brilliant, but it was too short, and it dissipated before it could be grasped. I used to be so painful, and I was full of resentment, but I just struggled for a while. It was the first time I entered this Cuimei Temple, and I never left again.” I exclaimed: "That's really a relationship with Buddha, and your heart has been captured the first time you come here." I wanted to ask the teacher what the past was, but I knew she would tell me, so I didn't need to go ask. "Yes, even though I lived in Cuimei Temple, it still took a long time to let go of the past. At that time, I was broken. It was the Buddha who stitched my wounds. Now I have already healed. No pain at all." Master Miaochen's expression was so calm, I could see that she was really pain free.She shook my hand: "So I can deeply understand your pain. The reason why I have never told you my story is because I know that even if I tell you, it will not help. This is a process. You need to experience it yourself and find your own way to heal your wounds.” "Is the teacher's pain similar to mine?" I looked at her and asked word by word. The teacher nodded slightly: "Yes, similar, because I am also the princess of the Great Yan Kingdom, the former eldest princess." The teacher's words made waves in my heart, and soon, I calmed myself down.I once told myself that no matter what the secret was, it meant nothing to me, and neither did this secret. "You mean, you mean the eldest princess of the Great Yan Kingdom?" I asked emphatically. "Yes, your father is my brother, and I am your great aunt." Mrs. Miaochen told me repeatedly, with a soft and calm smile on her face. I have tears, in the bottom of my heart, can't flow out, just a lot of emotions surging like a tide.Because this person in front of me is my relative, a relative who is related to me by blood. She has personally experienced the destruction of the country and the death of her family, and her scars are deeper than mine.I finally know the relationship between her and Yue Chenghuang. Could it be that Yue Chenghuang brought her with him back then? I was no longer surprised, but asked her calmly: "How did you escape?" I wanted to know the answer. At this time, instead of embracing her passionately, I wanted to know the answer. Mrs. Miaochen seemed to know what I was thinking, and replied in a low voice: "At first I lived outside the palace, in Prince Duan's mansion, and later escaped by chance, of course, it was bought by others with their lives. I did. I came to Cuimei Nunnery when the country was ruined and my family was destroyed, and I had nowhere to go, and I never left after that.” "Then how did you and Yue Chenghuang meet again?" I called Yue Chenghuang by his first name, and I still had resentment towards him in my heart. "He found me here. At the beginning, like you, I was full of resentment towards him. Later, I knew everything, understood everything, and realized everything, so I don't blame him anymore. He is also my real brother, yes Your dear uncle." The teacher's words caught me by surprise. I didn't complain that she told me the truth so late, nor did I blame her for not looking for me when she learned of my survival.Everyone has their own life, and their own path must be walked well after all. I raised my eyebrows and looked at her: "Aren't you planning to keep it a secret, why did you tell me?" The teacher smiled: "I didn't intend to hide it from you, I just feel that there is no need to tell you anything. Because everything in the past is just a cloud to me. In my heart, I have forgotten that I used to be Princess Dayan. What I remember , it’s just that I’m the mistress Miaochen of Cuimei Temple, that’s all, what do you want me to tell you?” "Tell me now to let me understand everything. Tell me that one day I will forget that I used to be Princess Dayan, and I will no longer bear so many grievances and burdens, is that right? All those nightmares, All from the heart, no one in the previous dynasty asked me to take revenge. If they were alive, they only hoped that I could live a happy life, and they would not want me to carry a heavy burden to subvert the hopeless country. Is that so? Is that so?" My tone was agitated, sitting by the fire, I felt very hot. Master Miaochen stroked my eyebrows lightly: "Yes, I know you can understand. Forget it, forget it all, do it according to your own thoughts, if you can't let go of the emperor, go back to the palace, if you want to stay Now, stay here with peace of mind, all choices are up to your heart. Don't tire yourself out of the past, don't have the slightest pressure." "Okay, I understand, thank you, teacher." I wanted to call her aunt, but couldn't.Keep this intimate feeling in your heart, because she told me that she had already forgotten that she was Dayan's princess, so why should I ask her to remember, forget it, forget it all. She understood what I was thinking and smiled at me: "Take a good rest and don't embarrass yourself." "it is good." Looking at Master Miaochen's elegant back, I really wanted to call out to her and hug her, but I finally held back.I didn't know that it would be so peaceful and indifferent to meet relatives who have been separated for more than ten years. Maybe only me and her can do it, my heart is cold, but her calmness. Lying on the chair, watching the snowflakes blowing gently outside the window, I knew that I needed to think quietly about how I would take this step.Whether to go or stay is up to me.