Chapter 145 short-lived like a dream

Facing myself in the mirror, I murmured: "In the Linghua mirror, I don't see the old face." Huafan smiled faintly: "Sister, are you talking about me? It is true that she has lost her old appearance. A woman's blooming season is only a few years old, and her youth has passed away, and everything is gone." I slowly got up, turned around, and looked at her: "No, I'm talking about myself. I've had a few years of wind and rain, and I became like this in an instant." The painting fan gently stroked the hair on my forehead, and said with pity: "Sister, take good care of yourself."

I smiled and looked at her: "I will, sister, no matter what I have done or what will happen in the future, I have no regrets for what I have done." I held her hand tightly: "Sister, regarding my life experience, this I intend to hide it from everyone in the world, but I don’t want to hide it from you.” Hua Fan looked at me puzzled: "Your background? With your bearing, you should have an extraordinary background. Back then, you only mentioned that you lived in a farm outside Jinling City, didn't you?" I shook my head lightly: "No, Chu Yu told me that I am the fallen princess of the former court." I said it without any concealment, what kind of secret is this secret that even Chunyi knows?What's more, the painting fan is also my closest relative.

"Sure enough, she has a legendary life experience, as expected of Shen Meiwan." Hua Fan didn't seem surprised, her peaceful expression reminded me of Chu Yu's words, we are all people who are invulnerable to all poisons. I smiled slightly: "Did sister feel it? These days I have to accompany the emperor and I have no time to talk to my sister." "I have feelings, but I didn't expect my sister to have such a legendary life experience. Now that I hear it, I have to be shocked. These days, I know you are busy and dare not disturb my sister, but I have been worried, so I came to greet you." Lai Huafan is the same as me, the waves are only in the heart, and the surface can be calm.

I held the hand of the painting fan gratefully: "Thank you sister for caring about me so much, I will take good care of everything I do now." Huafan nodded: "I believe my sister can handle it well, but tell me if you need it? I hope I can do something for you, even if it's small, I'm happy." "I already know everything. Originally, I planned to leave Zijin City and wander the world, but the emperor told me that the world belongs to him. No matter where I go, nothing will change. The world belongs to Daqi, and Dayan is just Huang Liang. It’s a dream, so I have nowhere to go. I can’t subvert it, I can’t change it, I can only be content with the status quo, but I can no longer live like before, guarding the Yueyang Palace, and simply being my Mei Zhaoyi.” Said these When I said that, I thought of my family members who used to live in Ziyan City.

Huafan looked at me silently: "Sister, no matter what you do, I will support you, tell my sister, what are you going to do?" I firmly said: "I want to be supreme. Only in this way can I satisfy the loss in my heart. And these are not what I want, but for so many dead people. Sister, do you know? , I am haunted by nightmares every night. They told me before that it is a demon, but it is not a demon. It is their summoning, the summoning of those immortal souls. At the beginning, I didn't know the reason, but now I know, if it is still the same as before, this Nightmares cannot be dispelled. No wonder every time I live in Zijin City, I have constant nightmares. Only by leaving can I get temporary peace. Now I can’t escape, I have to change. Sister, I don’t have the heart to subvert. Without the subversive power, Daqi's power is not yet exhausted, my struggle will be futile. I will not do that futile thing, I just want a peace of mind."

Hua Fan nodded lightly: "I understand, sister, what kind of power do you need? The supremacy is unattainable. Even if the emperor loves you and can give you everything, it still needs a reason." I proudly said: "I don't need any power, sister, do you know? The empress and concubine Wu are the highest-ranking people now, but they, they committed a crime, an unforgivable mistake, what do you think I need to rely on?" power?" Huafan asked: "I know the concubine Wu, the other person is indeed the queen. Many things in this world, many people, have to use reverse thinking to look at it. The so-called wise man is actually a fool. Now that I think about it, I don't know what is going on. Is it Concubine Yun crazy, Concubine Wu crazy, or Queen crazy? It’s just that they fight in different ways, for love, status, and selfish desires. To achieve their own goals, they will always hurt others. In the end, it is themselves who are hurt , after all, it is extremely difficult to be watertight.”

I looked at the painting fan, the painting fan that used to be in Yingxue Building, the painting fan that used to win the oiran for several years, and the painting fan that is now in Yueyang Palace. It will be forever, sister, prosperity must decline, and I will have that day, just wait until after my splendor has passed, just as the concubine Wu said, she will die in splendor, her splendor is like a flash in the pan, before she herself After the aftertaste, it's gone. But she refuses to give up, all of this is a certainty." "Even if it is Epiphyllum, there is also that extreme moment. Sister, why am I not Epiphyllum? In fact, my Shengji was in Yingxue Tower, not in Zijin City. The favor of those few days did not belong to me. It’s just that I will fight for it, and I have no regrets, no matter how short it is, no matter whether it’s real or not, I have no regrets.” After Hua Fan finished speaking, she sighed long, I don’t understand, whether it’s right or wrong for me to call her into the palace , Maybe there is neither right nor wrong, as Master Miaochen said, she is destined to take this road of Qingyun, which cannot be changed. How long is the road ahead?Chunyi's fate flashed in his mind, short life, his short life meant everyone's short life.

I smiled and said, "Sister, let's make epiphyllum together, and I should fight for mine to bloom again." "You just have to wait. I believe that Mr. Chu and the Emperor and Prince Ling will do well for you. Sister, in fact, you are happy. So many hearts have been given to you." Sit down at the table. I also felt that my legs were sore from standing, so I sat down and replied: "Sister, I have some sympathy, I would rather not, it's a burden, they just happened to meet me, in the future there will be many women who will give them a lot of feelings, then At that time, I was just a dream for them."

The painting fan brushed my hair softly: "Not everyone can have the grace intertwined with you. Even if they do, it depends on fate. Your sister's life experience is doomed to your legend, so so many legends happen. With you, I don’t feel like a legend anymore. If I’m lucky, I hope to accompany my sister to the end.” I smiled lightly: "Sister, there will be results soon. I told Chu Yu that what I want is the results. As for the process, I will give them all. They are nothing more than blocking the mouths of the people. The emperor wants to pamper you." Who, why not? Gossip and dissenting voices will be let go after a while, and after that, the ruler will still be the ruler, and the minister will still be the minister."

Huafan shook my hand: "Sister, I know, you can bear this." "I can, among the thousands of people in the world, for me, there are only a few who have feelings, and the rest, let them love and hate, are useless to me. In this life, I only want to be myself, only to be frowning, whether it is Dayan The princess of the dynasty, the singing girl of Miyuedu, Mei Zhaoyi of Zijin City, or even the queen of the Great Qi Dynasty in the future, just be yourself." Such indifferent words, so decisive words, so imposing The words, the last sentence, the queen of the Great Qi Dynasty, also hint at my so-called supremacy.Yes, either leave, stay and just be the Supreme.

"Okay, I only bless my sister, and I will always be with you. No matter what happens, I will bear it with you." "Okay, let's share weal and woe." Three days later, the emperor went to the morning court. This was the first day he went to court after he was blind. Everyone was waiting for his reply, about his eyes, about my punishment, but these courtiers didn't understand. Qi's emperor has the domineering spirit of a king, he doesn't need to answer anyone, he represents the world. Only Huafan and I know what the emperor's early court is for, but I don't know how he will tell his courtiers that he is willing to give up his eyes just for this demon concubine, and how he will suppress them, not only Don't punish me, and maybe promote me.How will he punish the dancing concubine and the queen?Concubine Wu, when I think of her, my heart aches. Sitting quietly in Yueyang Palace with Huafan, I know that someone will come to give me news soon, but I don't know who this person will be. Waiting has become the only thing I can do.In fact, this ending, I know it will be as I thought. It wasn't Chu Yu, it was Xie Ronghua, she hurried over with Gu Wanyi, as soon as she entered the door, Xie Ronghua hurriedly said: "Sister Mei, do you know? Sister Xue is locked up, and there is the queen." I calmly replied: "I don't know." In fact, I really don't know, I only know that this matter will be related to them, but I don't know how Chunyi will punish them, and now I know that they are locked up. Gu Wanyi took over the words: "It turns out that the two poisoning incidents were caused by them. The Queen poisoned Concubine Wu, Concubine Wu poisoned Sister Mei, and Ruyi's death was also caused by the Queen." "I know." I said frankly. Xie Ronghua looked at me puzzled: "Sister Mei, could it be?" "It's me, I know all the truth, and then I wait for the ending, but I don't know what the ending will be, and I already know it now. But in the future, I will continue to wait." I finished my words calmly.But having seen the surprised expressions on the faces of Xie Ronghua and Gu Wanyi, maybe they can't understand. Xie Ronghua sighed: "Last time I came here to tell you that Sister Xue and the Empress jointly wrote a letter to punish you. That time I was angry at Sister Xue, but now that I know the truth, what should I say? Intersection, what is it?” I smiled coldly: "Sister, people are different and will change with life. Fu Chunxue is the one who has changed, my eyebrows have changed, Gu Wanyi has not changed, and you, Ronghua Xie, have not changed." "Some things can be changed, but some things will never change in a lifetime. Just like Sister Mei, you will never change in my heart. No matter how everything is caused today, I only believe in you." Xie Ronghua said this When talking, there is also a smile on his face, it is a very shy smile, and the smile makes people feel a faint pain in the heart. "Why believe me so persistently." I was a little depressed. Huafan walked up to us and said softly: "We won't ask cause and effect, just look at the ending. In any case, Concubine Wu did something wrong this time. Since she made a mistake, there is no need to find reasons to justify it. Whether it is The circumstances are justifiable, and there is more than enough guilt, anyway, a mistake is a mistake, and there is no one to blame." Gu Wanyi shook my hand: "Sister Mei, no matter what, for me, a woman like you is nothing too much." It seems that Gu Wanyi thought that I was going to get rid of the queen and concubine Wu to strengthen my position , because in the harem at this time, apart from them, I have a higher status.In fact, what Gu Wanyi said was wrong?It's just that she doesn't understand the truth behind it. I don't want to argue for myself, talking too much will be cumbersome. A few people sat together, silent, as if no one wanted to say anything more, each of them knew in their hearts what the ending would be, and because they knew, they didn't want to expose it. I don't know whether it is right or wrong for me to do this, but I know that after Lan Zhaorong's death, Huanxia's death, Yunfei's death and Xu Guibin's death all happened because of me.Today's concubines and queens may not be guilty of death, but can they go back to the past?No more, many people, many things, can never go back to the past. Neither can I.