Chapter 128 life is like a big dream

Lying alone on the pear wood chair, imagining that the harem must be very lively at this time, what happened to me on the swing a few days ago, plus the fact that Concubine Xu Gui and Concubine Yun were abolished and sent to Shuangli Garden this time. For the harem, it is really no small matter. I ordered that no one in Yueyang Palace be allowed to participate in the discussion of these matters, and those who violated the order will not be spared lightly.Now that the result is already in place, I don't need to participate in the discussion of the result. It's never my fault to belittle myself.

Although the dust has settled at this time, it makes me feel that there are still many things to do in the back. My seemingly quiet life is more compact, but now that I am blind, I really can’t do much. Using the power of others to achieve my own goals, speaking of the real master hidden behind, is actually me, although I am not dark-hearted, and I can't see the slightest wave in my calm, but I have sharp strength and hurt others.It's just that others hurt me first, Chunyi is right, they are the ones to blame. The harem is in chaos, and I am alone in Yueyang Palace, which is incomparably peaceful. This is what I want. When everyone is chaotic, I am sober alone.I was thinking, if I hadn't been doted on by Chunyi and crowned the harem, but just like Xie Ronghua, maintaining that neither warm nor cold state, getting along with the emperor, I might be happy.It’s just that maybe it’s maybe after all, I’ve reached the point where I can only go on, no matter what I have to face, I can bear it.I didn't miss much at first, now that I take Yan'er away, I won't have much miss in the future.

I have been quiet for a whole day, just waiting for Chunyi's arrival at night. In the past few days, he has stayed in Yueyang Palace every night. Because there are too many messy things recently, I am afraid that he will not worry about me, so I don't persuade him to go elsewhere, I just hope After this period of time, everything slowly returned to calm. During dinner, Chun Yi specially ordered the Imperial Dining Room to cook some country dishes for me, saying that it was for me to change my taste. Sure enough, a bowl of white rice and a few delicious country dishes were delicious, so I specially ordered red paper Eat with me and Qiuxi, reminding me of my childhood life.It's just that the color of the dish cannot be seen, and it tastes simple and simple.

Not long after dinner, Chunyi arrived as scheduled. He helped me to the window sill, put his arms around my waist, and said softly, "Meier, the sky is dark blue tonight, but the moonlight is so hazy." His words reminded me of The words of the day: push the window to look for the bright moon, the moonlight is already hazy.In my mind, I imagined the crescent moon outside the window, hazy in the vast night. "Open the window to look for the bright moon, the moonlight is already hazy." I whispered. "If that's the case, Mei'er is still so exquisite and will not change because of anything." Chunyi stroked my forehead softly, feeling that he was looking at me at this moment, and the moonlight elongated the silhouette of me and him .

"Has everything been dealt with?" I asked directly, because I had something on my mind, and I stopped talking about Qingfengmingyue with him. "Okay, I said I will give you the result, so you don't need to worry about anything." Chun Yi replied slowly. "In fact, I don't know what the outcome will be for the concubines. I just think that some people should be removed or removed. Sometimes, misery can also give people a kind of pleasure. Since they choose to be miserable, they can't blame others." After finishing speaking, I feel a little empty in my heart. These results are really meaningless to me, but they are the results I must see.

"Mei Er, don't think about these things. Today, I have issued an order to search for famous doctors. The famous doctors from nearby Jinling City have been summoned one after another. Only those who have passed the review of the Imperial Hospital can treat you. I think a few people will come to Yueyang tomorrow. Gong, I will arrange everything, you don't have to panic, just wait quietly." Chun Yi gently stroked my head, and I snuggled up to him softly, feeling comfortable and comfortable. I nodded lightly: "Okay, all the courtiers and concubines follow the emperor's order." So obedient, but I wondered in my heart, would there be Chu Yu among these famous doctors?He came to diagnose and treat me as Chu Yu, and my eyesight will definitely heal.He is an extraordinary man, and such an eye disease should be a very simple matter for him.

Snuggling under the moon, the breeze blowing the willows, listening to the singing of birds and insects, I feel that summer is really here.In the summer of last year, we also went to Mingyue Mountain Villa. It was just a short year, as if we had seen everything in the world and experienced vicissitudes. After a while of silence, I asked in a low voice, "Your Majesty, do you still remember the painting fan?" "Remember, she won the oiran every year, and she was tied for the oiran with you that year, didn't she have a good relationship with you?" Chun Yi answered without thinking, and it can be seen that the painting fan still left a deep impression on him.

"Yes, we love sisters, did the emperor know her before?" I asked tentatively. "I know each other. Back then when I was drinking with Yue Chenghuang, the painting fan girl also appeared. It can be regarded as an acquaintance. At that time, I was still Prince Yuan, but she didn't know my identity at the time. Why, why did you ask her?" ?” Chunyi said frankly, and then asked me back. I smiled slightly: "Today, my concubine's adoptive father Yue Chenghuang came to Yueyang Palace to visit my concubine. I asked about Sister Huashan. She is not young now. I can't stay for a long time, and now I am blind, and there are not many people who know me well, so I really need her to take care of me."

"I understand. If you want her to enter the palace, on the one hand, she will have support for the rest of her life, and on the other hand, she can be with you. In the future, sisters will be close, so you won't be lonely." Chunyi said empathetically. "Yes, this is exactly what I think. In the palace, Sister Xue and Sister Shutong are very close to me, but Sister Huashan is my friend outside the palace after all, and I have known each other before. Shen Meiwan, a singing girl at Miyuedu, has turned into Mei Jieyu in the harem, and now she is Mei Zhaoyi, and she will miss the joys and sorrows she shared with her back then. Your Majesty, can you understand my concubine's mind?" My love To say it sincerely, thinking of my own gaining power in the past two years, I really didn't think about painting fans.

Chunyi thought for a moment before asking: "Then what Yimeier meant was that she was only called into the palace to accompany you, or..." I understand Chunyi's words, if I summoned the painting fan into the palace just to accompany me, it would be unavoidable Too selfish, I must not hide her supposedly gorgeous life.But let Chunyi make her a concubine, will he obey? I lowered my eyebrows and meditated, and said softly: "Your Majesty, you know what this concubine wants to say, right?" Chunyi sighed slightly: "Aren't you embarrassing me?" "It's not difficult. Sister Huafan just came here, she can live in Yueyang Palace, and she is known as sister concubine to the outside world. After a little longer, the emperor will love her. She is a very good woman. Year wins the crown of the oiran, the emperor, do you know better than your concubines? There are countless such things in the past, and she has both ability and political integrity. What do you think, your majesty? Concubines do not easily seek each other. For this matter, I even ask the emperor... ..." I felt that I was indeed absurd, and in the end, I couldn't continue.

"I said before that I will agree to your request. This time, I will obey you. You have no jokes, it has always been like this." Chunyi's words were sonorous and powerful, and I could hear the demeanor of being a king. There is a bit of sigh hidden in the room. I gave a little blessing: "The concubine thanked the emperor." He helped me up and said in a low voice: "I still need to discuss this matter with the queen, but I have a sense of proportion and know how to handle it. Just wait for my news. I will finish it as soon as possible and let her enter the palace to accompany you. At this time, you need her." I sighed in my heart, yes, I need her, opened my eyes, looked out of the window, I couldn't see the moon, I couldn't see the pavilion, there was only darkness, everything was based on imagination, breathing, feeling, I Still alive. My body couldn't help shivering, Chunyi hugged me tightly, and said softly: "I will help you to rest early, and the doctor will treat your eyes tomorrow." I really want to tell Chun Yi that Mrs. He can't cure my eyes, and neither can they. I have a hunch that only Chu Yu can save me. After breakfast the next day, not long after, Feng Qingquan, the head of the House of Internal Affairs, brought several famous doctors from Jinling City to Yueyang Palace. Everyone saw Shili one by one, and I couldn't see what they looked like, just listened Based on the feeling of the voice, I feel that no one can beat He Muhan, but the sacred order is hard to break, and I can't delay it, so I can only sit there and let them take a pulse and observe. After a doctor's consultation, a young doctor said confidently: "Caomin thinks that the congested blood pressure in the head of the empress has pressed the optic nerve, causing blindness. You only need to take the prescription of promoting blood circulation and removing stasis passed down by Caomin's ancestors, and you should be able to recover within three months." According to the ancestors, After I heard it, I felt that this person's words were frivolous and unbelievable. I just didn't want to say anything, so I nodded slightly. An old man sighed softly after asking a doctor: "Madam, the grass people think the situation is not very optimistic. If the blindness lasts longer, it is more likely to cause eye diseases, eye membrane necrosis and other things. In fact, this is not only blindness caused by congestion, that time The severe concussion had already hurt the eyes at that time, but I didn't notice it. I can only prescribe a prescription, discuss it with several imperial physicians, and do my best." On the contrary, I felt that the old man spoke to the point, and nodded slightly after hearing it: "Thank you, old man." Followed by three doctors, what they said after the consultation was not pleasant. After they finished their busy work, the whole morning passed like this. Listening to their footsteps leaving in a hurry, I felt extremely bored. So weak again. One afternoon, I was in a bad mood, lying alone on the pear wood chair, feeling the dark world, with my eyes closed, it was darkness, and with my eyes open, it was also darkness. On such a day, after a long time, it will be like a pool of stagnant water. In the end, There can no longer be a trace of waves. Are you just sitting there waiting to die?Life seems to be rushing to a dark and lonely death, and my every day is so heartless.It is said that love needs emotion, but I think hate also needs emotion. It is really difficult for me to hate someone happily.But I can't achieve no love, no hatred, no desire, no desire, I'm not a monster, even if I'm a monster, after thousands of years of practice, I may not be able to achieve such a state.I am not a Buddha, even if I am a Buddha, sitting on a cloud like a lotus, I may not be able to worry about it unintentionally.I am not a fairy, even if I am a fairy, I can't completely detach myself from the Three Realms. I know that tomorrow I will have to face those complicated people again, those so-called famous doctors, they can't save me, they can't heal my injuries, they will only make my heart more disturbed.It's just that it's worth it to annoy yourself in this way?Maybe I should tell Chunyi that none of them can save me, but I am afraid of missing out, if there is Chu Yu among these people, wouldn't I miss it? Chu Yu, can't you predict the past and the future?Don't you know where I am now?Where are you?I won't ask you, if you don't come, I won't ask you, I won't look for you, never. Now what I think about in my heart is Chu Yu who saved me, and the painting fan, what will happen to the painting fan entering the palace?And I let her enter the palace, is it right or wrong? At dusk, it started to rain, and the rain was mixed with the smell of dust, which came to the nostrils.I imagined that the scenery in the rain is unique. If it was in the past, I must have watched the rain from the window sill. Now, I can only listen to the rain quietly. Walking to the piano case alone, I can only express my boundless emotions through the strings. I know that night is coming, what should I tell Chunyi tonight?How will the following story evolve? In the chaos, plucking the strings, a piece of "Golden Thread" flows between the fingers, accompanied by the sound of rain, clear and clear, I don't know how many people can hear it, and how many people can understand it. Everything is silent.Up to now, there is no trace of the past. It is already Liuyun who laughs at me lightly, laughing at my withdrawn heart.No matter how many wishes, it is difficult to satisfy people's wishes. It's the change of those feelings, it's a lifetime, living in Yueyang Palace. Lost all, sorrow and joy. All my life, I have been looking for Yaoqin.What's more, wandering for half a life, it's hard to find a bosom friend. It is only said that floating life is like a big dream, and waking up from the dream is easier said than done.Gone, back then. This scene is similar every year, and so is the plum blossom rain. Sitting alone, under the green window. ...