Chapter 111 The heart of spring is exactly the same as the wind of spring

In the blink of an eye, a few days later, when the spring is full of love, the warbler singing in the warm dock, the smoke powder of apricot blossoms, the colorful wings of butterflies, the golden feathers of mandarin ducks, they are very clear, sitting and talking about spring willows. My illness still doesn't get better, but it doesn't get worse either.Spring sleepiness and autumn fatigue, I feel tired and lazy every day, as if I don’t have enough sleep, but my sleep is so shallow, because the nightmare that has haunted me for several years is still lingering, just like Chunyi’s love for me, Since that day it was planted, and it has never been pulled out.But I believe that time will dilute everything, love and hatred will dissipate, and this nightmare, one day, I will make it disappear completely.What kind of power does this so-called heart demon have to torture me like this? Do you really want to see me thin and thin, waiting for me to disappear?For this reason, I will fight to the end. As I said, even if Shen Meiwan dies, he must kill himself. He will never let anyone or anything fetter me, torture me, or kill me.

Chunyi told me that being bored in the house all day will make you more tired, and that you should go out for a walk more while the spring is bright and enchanting.Even if you don't go to Shanglin Garden, you can take a walk in the back garden of Yueyang Palace. The fresh air can relieve your fatigue and make you no longer sleepy. Chunyi seemed to be really enlightened, he was no longer just obsessed with my Yueyang Palace, he was walking in the palaces of other concubines without getting tired, but he couldn't see any more smiles.He even asked me when he was drunk: "Meier, are you satisfied with me like this? Is everything what you want?"

But I was silent. Faced with his words, I think there is no language better than silence. When I woke up in the morning, I felt a little nauseous, so I ordered Qiuxi to cook me a bowl of sour plum soup with a little snowflake sugar, which made it much more comfortable to drink. I have nothing to do, alone, worrying about the spring window, holding only a book, and dismissing the lazy spring sleepiness. "...I used to go, Yangliu Yiyi. Now I come to think, rain and snow. The road is slow, thirsty and hungry. My heart is sad, I don't know that I am sad..." Thinking that it is spring outside the window Soft, where the warbler starts, there are many weeping willows and green shadows.Although I have the heart of spring, I don't have the intention of enjoying the scenery.I want to tune the strings, but I don’t know who will make the sound, I want to get drunk, but I’m afraid I’ll miss the spring.

Just when I was lazy and bored, there was a sound of laughter coming from outside the warm pavilion. It was clear and sweet, and no one saw it, but I heard Xie Ronghua shouting with a smile: "Sister Mei, come out quickly, such a good spring, don't let it down Woolen cloth." I got up and put down the scroll in my hand, only to see that Xie Ronghua had already walked into the Nuan Pavilion, followed by Concubine Wu and Gu Wanyi.Xie Ronghua's complexion looked much better, his face was pink, as if he was on a happy occasion. I hurriedly said with a smile: "Sister Shutong has a happy event, her complexion is much better than the previous few days."

Xie Ronghua held on to one silk handkerchief, covered her lips and smiled: "Sister, there is no happy event, but I feel much more comfortable, and when I feel better, my illness will naturally recover." She held my hand again and said: "So sister don't Being bored in the house all day long, it's hard to recover from this illness. Today, I'll call Sister Shangxue and Sister Gu, and invite you to enjoy the scenery together in spring." I turned my head to look at Concubine Wu and Gu Wanyi, they were all more charming than Hua, as if I was the only one, haggard in this narrow room, not knowing the coming of spring, but waiting for it to go.

Concubine Wu smiled at me gently: "Sister, I heard that you have been feeling unwell recently, so please take care of yourself." I smiled and nodded: "It doesn't look better, but it doesn't look bad either. It's just like this. It's pretty good. Sister Shutong was right just now. I let Chunguang down." Gu Wanyi stepped forward and held on to my hand: "Who said that my sister failed the spring? With us here, I will not let my sister fail. I came to Yueyang Palace today to call my sister to go out and bask in the sunshine. Under the soft spring breeze, You'll be much more comfortable."

I looked out of the window, the sun was shining on the curtains, and the slender branches were drooping dreams. I felt a spring outing in my heart, and said with great interest: "Okay, if you don't come, I think I will be so deserted again today. I really don't want to be alone." Going out, spring sleepy, spring sleepy, nothing wrong, I feel exhausted every day, without the slightest energy." Xie Ronghua took my hand: "Sister, go out with us now, leave Yueyang Palace, the outside world will be transparent, and you will have strength when you come back." They didn't sit down either, just like this you led me away from Yueyang Palace.

As soon as I leave the palace gate, I realize that the outside world is already bright and beautiful in spring, the tender grass is whispering, the willows are yellowing, and the red pistils are lightly blooming.Occasionally, white butterflies flutter away, chasing the fragrance; Xuanyan lingers obliquely, fighting for the water. Crossing the imperial street, passing through the long corridors, secluded pavilions, waterside pavilions and winding paths, I took a deep breath and said with a smile: "It really is fresh and elegant. This spring scene makes people feel refreshed and happy, so pleasant."

Xie Ronghua nodded and said: "Yes, a few days ago, I was bored in the Lingque Palace every day, and my health didn't get better. That day, the imperial doctor said that everything was caused by a knot in my heart. If you untie your knot, go to Shanglin Garden more often. Go, look at the clear water and green grass, and see the weeping willows and flowers, and the mood will gradually ease, and the disease will naturally be cured." I lifted the weeping willow in front of me and turned my eyebrows to look at her: "Does it really have such a miraculous effect?" Concubine Wu came over here and said: "I also believe what Sister Shutong said. How can I feel relieved when I am bored in the room all day, let alone read those books of poetry and other books. It seems to be relieved, but in fact it has changed my temperament. Instead, I fell into that state. I have a deep understanding, these days, I am much more peaceful."

Gu Wanyi lightly folded a thin willow and said with admiration, "Actually, every day is the same. It mainly depends on the state of mind. Of course, the natural landscape is very important. Today, we all go out for an outing together to enjoy the scenery. I believe that the worries that are pent up in our hearts can be dispelled." Walking to a gazebo, the four of them sat down to rest one after another, looking at the smoke and water of the green lake, and lamenting the magic of nature, how can such ingenious craftsmanship create such a natural hopeless situation. After a long silence, Concubine Wu suddenly looked at me and asked, "Sister Mei, I wonder if the emperor will stay in your Yueyang Palace often?" Delicate style.

I was stunned for a while, then smiled and said: "Recently, I have not been in good health. When the emperor goes to Yueyang Palace, he usually sits for a while, chats with me, or sits there and listens to me playing the piano. He doesn't often stay overnight." Frankly speaking, to be honest, although I don't know what Wufei's intention is. Xie Ronghua looked at Concubine Wu, and said: "Didn't the Emperor often go to Sister Xue's place recently? There is also Concubine Yun's, but he also goes to other concubines, as if he was a different person." Concubine Wu smiled slightly: "Yes, I come here often, but it's not the same as before, it is indeed a different person." She looked at Xie Ronghua and asked: "Sister, don't you feel that the emperor's people have come to us?" , but the heart is still not there?" The concubine Wu's words were hidden, and for a moment, I didn't understand what she meant, the emperor's people were with her, but the heart was not there, what did these words mean?It is inconvenient for me to interrupt, and continue to listen to them. Xie Ronghua smiled and said: "It's my sister who is overthinking. The emperor is still the same as before. It's just that after being together for a long time, it gradually becomes dull. It can't always be the same as it was back then. It's like a beloved item. , After a long time, that liking will become indifferent, although I still like it, but I won’t be so worried about it. And if I can’t get it, I will keep pursuing it, and if I get it, it’s good to be able to cherish it lightly.” Gu Wanyi gave Xie Ronghua an appreciative look: "That's true, Sister Shutong can see clearly, there are so many concubines around the emperor, after a long time, the heart will fade away, it's impossible to be like that every day." I didn't take it seriously: "It's actually related to the state of mind. The emperor's heart should be more tired than ours, so I can understand what he does." Having said that, I deeply feel that Chun Yi's love for me is still the same as before. , I don't feel that he no longer favors me because he went to another bedroom, or even other things.I can feel his love for me, his tiredness, and his helplessness. Concubine Wu said seriously: "There are rumors outside that the last time we went to Cuimei Temple, the emperor stayed in Yunxiao Palace and favored Concubine Yun for a few nights. There is a reason." She told me that Concubine Yun was sick, and she clamored for the emperor to accompany her.I also thought at the time, this is not like the smart Concubine Yun's style, and such a small trick will not be able to keep Chunyi. Xie Ronghua continued: "Sister Xue, you are talking about Concubine Yun's father, Marquis Chang Yi?" Before Xie Ronghua finished speaking, Marquis Chang Yi, could it be related to political affairs? Concubine Wu nodded: "Yes, Chang Yihou is the founding father of the country and holds most of the military power. Although the situation is said to be stable now, the emperor still needs this veteran very much. This time, Chang Yihou made another great contribution to suppressing King Jinyang outside the pass. , Concubine Yun's status will naturally rise accordingly, and us little people who are unknown, we have no choice but to continue to endure." After Concubine Wu finished speaking, I almost understood that for Concubine Yun, Chun Yi was really not too light or too important , I can understand everything he did. Gu Wanyi smiled lightly: "People are different, have different backgrounds, and have different temperaments. Don't make any comparisons. The more you compare, the harder it is to get better. Sister Xue should understand these truths better than us." I think Concubine Wu seems to be more impetuous than before, maybe a woman will be so concerned about gains and losses because of love.The more you care about it, the more you are afraid of losing it, and the more nervous you are. Concubine Wu said with a smile: "Actually, I understand all this, but I feel that Concubine Yun is too arrogant, and always targets me and Sister Mae every time. I didn't want to argue with her, but she seems to be endless. Long If this continues, I will not be at peace." I held the hand of the concubine Wu, and said in relief: "Sister, relax, it's too tiring to worry about her. It's the most beneficial thing for you to stay with the emperor at ease, cherish what you can cherish, and grasp your own opportunities. " Xie Ronghua continued: "Sister Mei, do you still remember that I said a few days ago that Concubine Yun is forming a party? She saw that the empress is in poor health, and she doesn't care about the affairs of the harem. Below the empress are her and Sister Xue. So the one she wants to get rid of the most is Sister Xue, and there is also the most beloved concubine in the emperor's heart, that is, you, sister. Only when the two of you are left out in the cold can she be regarded as the master of the harem. She has the final say?" "If you are strong, you will be humiliated. She is so obvious that she is not a smart person. When I first came here, I thought she was extremely rich, but now it seems that she is nothing more than that." I have long understood.Many people are like this. They don't show mountains and dew, but they really have connotations. I stood up gently, looked at the cherry blossoms and shadows, and the willow was drunk and smoked, and suggested: "Let's continue walking. It makes me feel uncomfortable to mention these things now." "Okay." The princess dance replied. The four of them walked down the long pavilion and walked along the lakeshore to the scenic spot of Shanglin Garden.