Chapter 92 Difficult to continue Luan gum only dream labor

For three days in a row, there was no movement at all. I ordered Xiao Xingzi to go to Xiao Xuanzi to inquire about the news, but found nothing.Chunyi did not come to Yueyang Palace for seven days in a row. I tried my best to calm myself down, but there was an inexplicable worry in my heart. I suddenly became very interested in this river and lake. I wanted to know how many disputes and killings would occur every day and every night in that vast and boundless river and lake.The former Chu Yu told me that he was a cold-blooded and ruthless assassin, and his blood-drinking sword assassinated countless people. Many times, I yearn for such a thrilling side. Many deaths do not necessarily have to be on the battlefield, even if it is just fighting on the rivers and lakes Fighting, the scene of blood flowing into rivers I have seen countless times in my dreams, under the setting sun like blood, so tragic, so shocking, so shocking.

In Chu Yu's bones, there were evil thoughts, but under the enlightenment of the Buddha, he gradually became compassionate.The evil in his heart is entangled with compassion, making him seem evil and not evil, and good and not good, so that there will be all kinds of sins yesterday, and all kinds of mercy in the future, and there will be such demons and non-demons, immortals and immortals. .And I am the same, I am quiet on the outside and calm in my heart, but there is also a kind of evil in my bones and blood, just like in such a peaceful time, I long for a war, long for the feeling of burning flames.I even hope that I can see with my own eyes the scene of blood flowing into rivers and corpses strewn across the field, standing on a desolate high place, looking at the vastness of the world and the tragic scene of the world, I look coldly at all of this.

Facing me like this in a corner deep in my bones, I feel a little cold and cold.So no matter what Chu Yu did, I can understand.Even if I am like this as a mortal, let alone a person like him who knows the past and the future, how can the evil in him be removed so easily.Lonely begets demons, perhaps because he is too lonely, so he needs to be completely released. If he can release all his evils if he dominates the world, then I would rather him be like this.Since there is no way to calm down, why not go crazy once, even if the world is in turmoil and everything changes, so what? I am waiting, waiting for the arrival of all this, waiting for the bloodbath, waiting for the loss of life, but I know that a lot of waiting will be in vain in the end.The extreme of evil is good, and the extreme of good is evil.

This night, I cooked and boiled the tea, brushed the strings and wiped the rhyme. I haven’t chanted a sentence for a long time. I feel that the writing is boring and my mind is empty. The Fang family of later generations commented on the Wei and Jin Dynasties, and their writing was quaint and pure. Qi Ling Peng Zeyuan poetry and wine, paper expensive Luoyang worry pen cents. Wu Yue's talents pushed Erlu, and Jian'an's strength of character gave way to Sancao. There is no trace of the reasoning of the words, and it is difficult to continue Luanjiao. The string rhyme is cool and cold, but the meaning in my heart is still difficult to resolve. I stand up and look at the window sill. There are still green pines standing proudly everywhere, as if in this season, many trees are hidden, only the three friends of Suihan, Linxue, lonely and arrogant, not with the world.

I heard the sound of gentle footsteps, as if they were walking towards me in a rhyme, only Chunyi could walk like this.I didn't look back, but still looked at the snow outside the window. In fact, I had been looking forward to him for seven days, and these seven days felt like a long time. My waiting has nothing to do with love, country, or Chu Yu, but with that strange yet familiar world.I really want to know what happened in the martial arts conference. I don't care if they are against the court or rebellion. I only care about what fights happened between them, what kind of different characters appeared, or other things.

"Mei Qing..." Chun Yi called out from behind. I turned around lightly, with a faint smile: "Your Majesty, when did you come, the concubine did not welcome you." Chunyi approached me, held my hand, and said with a smile: "I was there when you recited Wuyue's talents and Jian'an's strength of character. It's really hard for you. Such a good poem is still lamenting that there are no good sentences. If you talk about talented women in the palace, Mei Qing should be the first." I shyly said: "The emperor has won the award. There are too many talented women in the palace. They seem to be close to the concubines. Concubine Wu, Xie Ronghua, Gu Wanyi, and Xiao Guiren from Jinxiu Palace who used to come and go, Jiang Changzai are all talented. And Concubine Yun and Concubine Xu..."

Chunyi smiled brightly and said: "The three thousand beauties in my harem are all carefully selected, and there are many talented women. But Meiqing's talent is the best in Zijin City, no one can match it, and no one else Comparable." The three thousand beauties in the harem that Chunyi mentioned are actually just an exaggerated number. He first joined the Great Treasure two years ago, and those women were selected from various prefectures and counties. Chunyi has never seen many of them. However, not to mention luck.There must be something amazing and beautiful during this period, maybe I will spend my whole life alone in the palace walls of the deep courtyard, and I will never see Jun Yan in my whole life.

I smiled: "The emperor's praise of the concubines makes the concubines feel ashamed. The women in the harem are all talented and beautiful. There are countless women like concubines who can surpass the concubines. There are many more people. How can it be said that the Zijin City is the best, but it is just guarding the Moon Palace bestowed by the emperor, quietly serving the emperor, not seeking surprises, just peace of mind." Chun Yi hugged my waist tightly, and I instinctively leaned my head on his shoulder, quietly watching the snow scene under the moonlight.Chun Yi said softly: "Mei Qing, I will not argue with you, and I will be rejected by you no matter how much I say, just pretend that all the women in the harem are beautiful and beautiful. I said that the weak water is three thousand, and I will take you alone." ladle."

I cling to him, and I like to lean on him softly, listening to his subtle and rhythmic breathing, smelling the fragrance of the dragon's birth, and the unique mature smell of a man in his prime.Suddenly I was a little intoxicated with Chunyi, as if all the confusion before was just a woman's wayward performance, I am ordinary, since I am ordinary, I should attach to the man I should attach to, instead of blindly quieting myself.Thinking of this, a kind of tenderness grew in my heart, so I said softly: "The concubine has always been grateful to the emperor. I am a firework girl, how did I enter the imperial court? All this is the emperor, and the fate of the concubine is changed by the emperor." Yes, take me away from the Miyue Ferry where the fireworks are messy, and come to the Yueyang Palace, where the rich clothes and fine food are eaten. What about the Phoenix? Sometimes when I stand on the high place of the building, pass through the palaces and pavilions of the harem, and look into the distance, I always feel a lot of boundless feelings. I feel the sadness of my previous life, and I also feel the luck of my present. It’s just that people always seem to be If you can’t satisfy the status quo, everything that has passed away is beautiful and worth remembering, but everything today will make you feel tired. Even if you are well-clothed and well-fed, there will still be unspeakable melancholy and helplessness.” As a concubine, In front of the current emperor, can saying such a thing be considered a kind of betrayal?Are these complaints again?On such a quiet snowy night, I am not afraid that Chunyi will blame me, but at this time I do not regard him as the emperor, I only regard him as a bosom friend, who can confide his heart, maybe Chunyi will have these emotions after living in the palace for a long time, As the Ninth Five-Year Supreme, traveling across the world, there will be unknown fatigue.He will understand my thoughts, because he said that I am elusive, but what I pour out is the truth.

Chunyi turned his eyebrows and looked at me deeply, with surprise and tenderness in his eyes.He stroked my temple hair softly, and said softly: "When I first met Meiqing, I already felt that you were amazing, and then I tuned and tried to tune at Miyuedu. That crescent moon is like your eyebrows, Since then, I have made up my mind to take you away from Fireworks Lane and marry you. It’s just that I am in the emperor’s house, and I cannot give you the happiness of an ordinary family. Form, isn’t it? What Mei Qing wants is definitely not these, and I understand that I will do everything I can to give you what you want. It’s just that the void in your heart still needs to be filled slowly by yourself. As I said, you can do it in Zijin The city guards you all your life, but it is difficult to have the courage to take you away from these things. From now on, you will be proud of the rivers and lakes, or you will disappear into the mountains and forests. I am the Son of Heaven, and I shoulder the people of the world. I..."

I raised my hand to lightly cover his lips, and those lips exuding warm and hot air also warmed me at this moment.I said in a low voice: "Your Majesty, don't say any more, don't say any more, my concubine understands that I am already grateful for what you have given me now, I dare not think about it, and I will never think about it again, my concubine." I promised you that I will accompany you in Zijin City and live my entire life. Regardless of honor or disgrace, rich or poor, this life is the only one, and there will be no next life, right?" Chunyi hugged me even tighter, and said softly: "This kind of Meiqing is my favorite, and I only want to talk to you about my worries, and you will stay with me in this Zijin City. There is only one day for you. Don’t worry, I will definitely sit firmly in the country, and no one can change my itinerary, shake my country, occupy my country, and take away my Mei’er.” I smiled and said: "The emperor is joking again, Meier belongs to the emperor, who can take it away?" When I said this, two figures flashed in my mind, one was Chu Yu, the other was Chun. Zhen, I don't know if this is a kind of betrayal or a lie, but I know that everything is good intentions. Isn't God able to forgive good intentions and lies?I say this just for peace of mind, because I can't tell myself to completely forget about Chu Yu. Chunyi can't give me that kind of shocking and bewildering feeling.I can't tell myself to completely forget Chunzhen, the feeling of desolation he gave me is something that Chunyi can't give me.I have an inexplicable attachment to such an intertwined feeling, but I only want the attachment of my heart, and I can't afford the rest.I can't afford it, I never promise, I can only keep it in my heart, let the time slowly settle, even if the scab is formed, it can only settle.Many stories can never be opened, and the opening means the end, the end is not terrible, the terrible thing is the price to be paid for the end.I know very well that in this life, as long as Chunyi is still the emperor, I will be his concubine. Even if one day he gets tired of me and abandons me, I am just a concubine living in Shuangliyuan. If I want to escape, I will definitely not be able to . Silent, silent to each other in the moonlight. "Mei'er..." Chunyi called me softly. "Yeah." I whispered to him. "Let's sit down and chat in a while. Tonight, I received an urgent letter from Luoyang Kuaima a few days ago. I think you also want to know what happened in that martial arts conference?" He came today for this matter indeed. . I was agitated, but I replied calmly: "Well, my concubine is listening attentively. The emperor will not come to Yueyang Palace these days, so he must have bothered about it. Now that I see you coming, my concubine feels at ease. Even though the dust has not settled, but It should be calmer." Chunyi looked at me with a smile: "Meiqing Bingxue is smart. You understand a lot without me telling you. But I am willing to drink tea and discuss things with you on such a quiet snowy night. You are a female Zhuge, and they always second your opinion." I have a lot, but the actual topic is not introduced, it is better to talk freely with Meiqing." I smiled and said: "The emperor praised the concubine again, always like this, the concubine will be proud." "I don't praise you, but you are also proud, it's just your pride, not domineering, but restrained indifference." I shyly said: "Your Majesty, is this concubine still indifferent? I don't even know how to warm you with tenderness." Chunyi hugged me tightly with a soft smile, and I leaned into his arms, softly and lazily. It's so quiet, so quiet on a snowy night, the cold moonlight falls on the blossoming plum branches, exuding a faint cold fragrance, I take a deep breath, it's the smell of cold frost and snow, I don't know if you have smelled it before No.