Chapter 46 Only life is like a chess game

Before arriving at Cuimei Nunnery, I saw Qiuxi and Yanping waiting in a long pavilion.The pavilion is the pavilion where Yiyi sees her off, and it is also the pavilion where she is waiting eagerly. "Master, you are back, and this servant is very worried." Qiu Xi wiped the rainwater off my body for me. I smiled slightly: "You don't need to call me master here, you are older than me, I respect you, just call me Wanwan, it makes me feel kind." Qiu Xi smiled knowingly: "Okay, Qiu Xi remembered." Cuimei Nunnery in the afternoon looks more Zen-like and leisurely under the long drizzle.The entire nunnery is immersed in dense smoke, as if everything here has nothing to do with the world of mortals, and what has nothing to do with the world of mortals is also the realm pursued by immortals and Buddhas.

I am naturally not a fairy, not a Buddha, not a Buddhist nun who has taken refuge, nor a hermit who has escaped from the world.So, this place has nothing to do with me after all, I count the days with my fingers, three days later, three days is the half-month deadline, at that time I will leave here and return to the prosperous palace.Staying away from the quiet temples and accepting the bustling world, this is the result of my busy life. As soon as he entered the wing room, Master Miaochen followed behind, and said with concern: "It's really worrying to be out for so long." I smiled: "It's because the eyebrows are not well curved. I can't bear the temptation of the spring rain and the mountains, so I stayed outside for a long time."

"You change your clothes first, come to my meditation room, there are distinguished guests waiting." She left after finishing speaking. I mused, sir?Who is the honored guest that the teacher said?Could it be—Chun Yi?He's here, he's come to see me in the nunnery, doesn't he believe me?Don't believe me, I will return to the palace in half a month?Still he misses me, misses me. Sitting in front of the mirror, I am still the same, simple dress, pure and elegant.Every day I stay here, I do the arching eyebrows of Cuimei Temple, even if it is Chun Yi, I still have a clear body and bones.

Walking in the deep corridor, following the ethereal and distant Sanskrit sounds, passing through every open window, letting the wind in the depths of the temple blow my clothes.I told myself that I would not go back with Chunyi before the deadline. I would cherish every day here and be with Zen and Buddha. Before arriving at the Zen room, I could already smell the rich sandalwood, accompanied by the elegant fragrance of green tea, floating in the sparse Zen courtyard through the carved window lattice. "The chessboard is like life. It would be too rash to let the black and white chess pieces decide the outcome of life." A voice came from the meditation room. It seemed to be a familiar voice. It seemed to be heard somewhere, but it was a little vague because of the heavy door.

"You can read the success or failure of chess pieces, and whether you can read the success or failure of life. Every process is a new leap, so why bother to care too much about the density." Mrs. Miao Chen's voice came from the back room It came out that it seemed to be playing chess with someone. I knocked on the door and went in, and saw Mrs. Miaochen and Yue Chenghuang sitting on the futon, playing chess and drinking tea. I was surprised at first, then walked forward and smiled: "It's really a good luck to read life on the chessboard, which is ingenious and profound."

They got up and wanted to salute me, I quickly stopped and saluted Yue Chenghuang: "Daughter has seen Daddy." Then turned to Master Miao Chen: "Meet Master." Zen sits on the futon, sips tea quietly and watches them play the remnant chess game. The chess game looks simple at first glance, but it is extremely profound when you look closely.It's just that they fell together, retracted freely, so smoothly, leaving no trace of fighting. The teacher said with a smile: "We have been playing this game of chess for ten years, but we still have no results." "No result is the best result." Yue Chenghuang raised his hand with graceful movements and a calm demeanor.

Ten years later, it turned out that the teacher and Yue Chenghuang were old friends. They played a game of chess for ten years, and there is still no winner. Maybe they didn't have the heart to win or lose. Even if they play for another ten years, there may not be a result.Playing chess has become a form, and savoring life in chess is their deep meaning. "Is everything alright in the palace?" Yue Chenghuang looked at the chessboard and said lightly. I smiled lightly: "I think Daddy is familiar with all the affairs in the palace, whether the eyebrows are good or not, you must know."

"Whether you are good or not depends on yourself. No matter where you are, whether you are good or not has nothing to do with others." He still looked at the chessboard. "It's not easy to be flattered or humiliated, and it's not unavoidable to forgive your eyebrows. I don't care about many people and many things, but I still can't do not care about myself. If I care about myself, it will inevitably involve others." In fact I feel that what I say is somewhat contradictory. What is the relationship between myself and others? Mistress Miaochen smiled: "Brother Yue, I think we should stop, anyway, we can't tell the winner, why not just sit and chat together, it's rare that the eyebrows are here." Mistress called Yue Chenghuang Brother Yue, it seems The friendship is not shallow.

A pot of tea, a misty window, an unfinished game of chess, three people sitting on the futon, no one wants to change the other, and no one wants to wake up the other. "Are you blaming me?" Yue Chenghuang looked at me. "No, I don't blame you, because it's not up to you to decide." "Yes, sometimes, I can't even decide my own destiny, so how can I decide yours." There was a hint of helplessness in his words, which seemed different from when he was playing chess just now. I chuckled: "Since ancient times, the king's order cannot be disobeyed, not to mention that you accepted me as a righteous daughter and gave me a noble status. How could I blame you?"

"You already have a noble status..." He hesitated to speak. I laughed at myself: "Hehe, Daddy, don't make fun of me. If Miyuedu's oiran is considered a noble status, then there is no need to rely on Yuefu's status to enter the palace." He put down the cup in his hand and said with a smile: "It's just a formality. All of this is given by the emperor. He dotes on you. Even if you don't have this status, the result will be the same as today." "I believe that just entering the palace, there is another result. Either the harem is favored, or it is frozen and silent, or there is even a more straightforward one, which is death. There are many kinds of death, but none of them will be kind." Said. When I said this, I seemed very calm. Once upon a time, I found that I was quietly changing. I lost a little of the gentleness of the past and a little more of the sharpness of this world.

The teacher held the Buddhist beads and moved her lips to silently recite scriptures that I couldn't understand, but I clearly felt that her heart was not completely silent. "Let's be calm. There is no difference between being favored and falling out of favor. Ups and downs have their own definite number. All we can do is to let ourselves face it calmly. Even if everyone in the world is fighting for it, what does it have to do with us?" Yue Chenghuang There is a kind of tiredness that relieves the taste of the world. "Did I say I was going to compete?" I laughed. Yue Chenghuang laughed loudly: "The world belongs to the people of the world, but everyone in the world can fight for it, but I can't." "The world won may not be stable." "What kind of world can be considered stable? Is there really an eternal foundation? Even if there is an eternal foundation, it can be wiped out in one day." As the Nanqing King of the Great Qi Kingdom, it is true that Yue Chenghuang made such an evaluation of Jiangshan. Impressed. The teacher smiled: "You father and daughter, talk about the world. There is no world in the world. It is the people of the world who have settled the world, and then there is competition..." "The harem is the world of women. Unfortunately, I have no intention of fighting for the world, but the world wants to compete with me." I practiced Zen in a serious manner, but I knew that I was really a layman when it came to Zen. The teacher clasped his hands together: "You have a very deep relationship with the imperial palace, you have to go through a lot of calamities before you can be completely liberated." I laughed: "Since you can't escape, then let everything come to an end. I'm not afraid." Yue Chenghuang raised the teacup and said with a smile: "Come, drink this tea, I will bless you." Drinking it all in one gulp, there is not much difference between tasting tea and drinking tea, and the aftertaste is also mellow and long-lasting. The evening drum was beating at dusk, and I didn't even want to say goodbye to him, because I felt that there was no need for this between me and him.Getting together and parting is an ordinary matter, Yue Chenghuang is not an ordinary man, I have long understood. Three days, these three days, I never left Cuimei Temple again.Just meditating in the side room every day, or kneeling before the Buddha, or reading scriptures under the window, I just feel so peaceful, nothing else. In fact, God has given me many opportunities in the past half month.The Buddha asked me to stay, the teacher helped me wash my heart, and Chu Yu told me about my past and future, all of which I refused.Everything I do is for him—Chunyi.I can't lose everything for him, but I can't help but cherish his love, and I can't help fulfilling the promises I made. The only thing left is to cherish. In this life, I am afraid that I will not be able to love. After entering this Buddhist gate, it is really difficult to let myself love. Pack your bags, just like when you came, with a breeze in your sleeves. Kneeling in front of the Buddha, put your hands together, and smiled: "Buddha, I am not here to say goodbye to you, because I am still the same as when I came." The Buddha's eyes were full of compassion: "Fool, go, only those who want to stay here are left here, I will not keep you." I kowtowed: "I will come again, but I am not sure that I will still be the current me at that time." The Buddha smiled: "Three realms can be changed, and the situation will also change. Don't say that you are a mortal, so what if you change it." "That's right, so what if it's changed, it's just a frown." The plum blossoms have withered, and only sparse flowers can be seen on the vigorous twigs. Some people only want to see the flowers bloom, not to see the flowers fall.But I feel that the flowers bloom and fade are too common, so common that there is no emotion. I told my teacher that I just wanted to leave quietly. The painting fan did not come, she said that when I leave, she still wants to say goodbye to me, maybe, saying goodbye is just to add a little bit of sadness, it is better not to come.It doesn't matter if you don't come, she can do it, and so can I. Fortunately, there was a faint sunshine to send me away. When I left Cuimei Temple, I didn't take a single prayer bead with me. On the Yiyi ancient road, riding a horse and raising dust, all the scenery brushes against me. I want to go back to the harem and accept the process of life calmly. As for the result, I don’t care. Please do trust me, I don't care.