Chapter 12 where in life do not hesitate to say goodbye

The passing of time is shocking, and the fleeting time is like water, which makes people sigh.In a blink of an eye, it has gone from hot summer to early autumn.The time of three months has come, and tomorrow is the day of entering the palace for the draft, and the Yue family has been busy making sufficient preparations for me.And I just let them make gorgeous arrangements. In such a noisy and prosperous day, it seems that everything in the past has been forgotten.Forget the days of going to Cuimei Nunnery with Huafan, forget the amazing selection of the first prize, and forget the mysterious fans who lived and died, as well as the handsome young man and the white-clothed youth.I don't know whether these people will be related to me again in the future, and I don't know whether the truth of those unsolved mysteries will be revealed one day.After tomorrow, I will no longer be the eyebrow-browed person I used to be.Maybe, I will guard my own courtyard in the harem, living alone, maybe, I will get involved in some inexplicable palace fights, maybe... who knows, but I believe that I will face everything calmly and firmly .

Strolling in the garden, you can feel the scenery of Qingqiu, the phoenix trees are burning, the begonias are in flames, the cypresses and pines are green, and the osmanthus is fragrant.When I was watching the withered lotus by the pool, I saw Liu Ying hurriedly approaching, calling out: "Miss." I turned around, saw her anxious face, and asked, "What happened?" She walked to my side and breathed a sigh of relief: "Master asked you to go to the hall to receive the decree, the palace has delivered the decree." Following Liu Ying, she turned around the pavilions, walked through the long corridors, and came to the hall.Seeing that everyone was waiting there, I also hurried forward.In front of him stood an inner eunuch in his early forties, holding a yellow cloth scroll inlaid with dragons.Seeing me coming, he shouted in a hoarse and thin voice: "The imperial decree has arrived."

Yue Chenghuang led me and several important family members of Yuefu to kneel down to accept the decree.The inner supervisor preached: "By God's blessing, the emperor said: The sixteen-year-old girl Yue Meiwan of Yue Chenghuang, king of the Southern Qing Dynasty, does not need to participate in the draft tomorrow. She will only enter the palace with the first batch of selected girls after half a month. The seal will be official." The third-rank Jieyu, given the title 'Mei', entered the palace on the fifteenth day of the ninth month in the first year of Xuanqian. Hereby."

I really don't know whether it is joy or sadness in my heart, but I just quietly accept the order to thank you.Thinking in his heart, when did Yue Chenghuang become the king of Nanqing? , I just like to be free and happy in this Jinling City.And I changed my name from Shenmeiwan to Yuemeiwan, which sounds really uncomfortable.Who made me be someone else's daughter for no reason, I can only feel sorry for my biological parents. Yue Chenghuang gave the gold ingot and gifts to the eunuch Xuanzhi, and invited him to drink tea in the guest room. I hold the imperial decree in my hand, but my heart is full of feelings, and I have nowhere to express it for a while.

Only a peaceful and calm voice said: "Take Miss to my Jingwuxuan." I looked up and saw a light and elegant back, with a jade hairpin pinned to her neat bun, shaking with her steps.And I walked behind her with a maidservant, from the hall through another long corridor, and walked through several pavilions before arriving at a secluded place.Walking in hastily, the words "Jingwuxuan" on the plaque flashed by.Sure enough, it is a clean place, clean moss, even fallen flowers are dust-free, a few paths of green bamboos, a few clumps of plantains, and a few ginkgo trees are all so simple and clear, as if no scene is superfluous.Entering "Qinglian Zhai", a faint ray of sandalwood lingers, and faint Buddhist music floats in it. The furnishings here are somewhat similar to the hall of Master Miaochen of Cuimei Temple.Simple and Zen-like, it is quite different from this majestic Yuefu. Although it is located in a corner, it is quiet and compelling.

The woman had turned around and sat on the chair in the main hall, and I just looked at her. She is in her early thirties, she has a good appearance, her skin is snow-like, kind-hearted, and she is wearing a simple and clean green dress, which makes her look elegant and elegant. Be generous.She held a pure white giant clam lotus buddhist bead with a calm expression on her face. She didn't look at me, but said calmly, "Sit down." I know that this person is Yue Chenghuang's wife who chanted scriptures in the Buddhist hall all day long. She also decorated her own courtyard as a Buddhist hall with a Zen charm.I was sitting on the chair next to her, and she was counting lotus beads, closing her eyes and chanting.

She opened her eyes, looked at me, and said in a low voice: "Like, it's so similar..." Then, her eyes lingered on my wrist for a moment, presumably it was my snow-white skin that set off the emerald jade bracelet more eye-catching. I didn't understand what she meant, and I didn't speak.She beckoned, and I walked to her, and she handed over the lotus beads in her hand to my hand, such soft hands, a little cool.He said in a low voice, "Take it with you, and the Buddha will bless you safely." It was such a moment that deeply touched my heart. I actually had tears welling up in my eyes, but I tried my best not to let them fall. I shouldn't be too sentimental for such a plain behavior of a strange woman.

Holding Buddha beads in my hand, white lotus flowers one by one, warm and clean, I raised my head and smiled at her, for a moment, I didn't know what to say.Yue Chenghuang accepted me as a foster daughter, the woman in front of me is my foster mother, I really can't say it out loud.I can't give her anything but a smile. Smiling, without any words, when I walked out of Jingwu Pavilion, she was still sitting there quietly, and she didn't even look at me again. The cool breeze is blowing, seeing the quietness of Biwu, the withered lotus raising eyebrows, and the occasional falling flowers, maybe the state of mind will no longer be like this in the future.

After canonization, the rules are strict, I am already a concubine of the royal family, and many people in Yuefu are not allowed to see me again, only the red letter and smoke screen are the maids I want to bring into the palace, and they can always follow me closely.If Yue Chenghuang wants to see me, he has to talk through the curtain outside the door, except for the Cuiyun Pavilion where I live, I can walk around, so I can't take a step outside. I've been lonely for a long time, even though it's only half a month, I feel lonely.Thinking of entering the palace in the future, I am afraid that there will be no more freedom than this, and no one will tell me what the new emperor looks like, what his temperament is, and how many beauties are hidden in the harem.It is said that there are many disputes in the palace, especially the women in the harem. I don't want to get involved in the chaos of impermanence.Jieyu, the emperor actually gave me the title of the third rank. Presumably, Yue Chenghuang, the king of the Southern Qing Dynasty, allowed me to have such a high title when I first entered the palace.I consider myself an indifferent woman, but I am by no means a cowardly person. As for the past, it has become the past. As for the future, I will wait for the unknown future.

I think of the painting fan, she is my only close friend in recent years.I told Yue Chenghuang that I want to see her only once, after that, I don't know if there is any fate with her.Yue Chenghuang promised me and sent someone to pick up the painting fan. When the painting fan knelt on the soft cushion and called me: "Mei Jieyu is auspicious, may Jieyu's mother live in peace and prosperity." At that moment, I felt very sad, remembering how close I was to her sister and sister in the past, but now because of this identity, Alienated a lot. I lifted her up and sat beside me. I haven't seen her for a long time, but she is still so beautiful.Holding on to her hand, I said in a low voice: "Sister, when I entered Deyue Mansion that day, I didn't have time to say goodbye to you. After that, I lived within this high wall and never went out again. I really failed our sisters." camaraderie."

There seemed to be sadness in her eyes, but she just called me in a low voice: "Sister..." This sound actually made me cry. I knew she had a thousand words to say, but I didn't know where to start.Looking at her, I said: "Sister, I know what you didn't say, and I know what you want to say. I'm going to the deep palace now, and I don't know when we will meet again someday. I hope you take care of yourself. " She nodded and said: "Sister, the deep palace is like the sea, you must stay awake at all times, and don't lose yourself. Even if it is good to spoil the harem, even if you can't, you have to face it calmly. After all, the heights are too cold." A painting fan is a painting fan after all, she has a sophisticated mind, it would be great if she could enter the palace with me.That way I won't be alone and helpless, the sisters have a companion together, and although the deep palace is not good, it is much safer than the brothel.I couldn't help asking: "Sister, if one day I let you leave Yingxue Tower, would you be willing?" Huafan sighed and said: "Sister, don't you know that other people don't know? The brothel is a place to stay, it's just that I have fallen, and I can't get out of my work." Huafan and I chatted like this until the night, and when she got up to say goodbye, I was so reluctant to part with her.But I always believe that this is not the end of my relationship with her, and we will definitely meet again someday.Maybe that day is far away, maybe it's just around the corner, all of this is just a possibility. After being sent to the courtyard, it was already dark at night, walking on the cobblestone path, the cool wind blew.With a sound of "respect", I stopped and stood under the willow tree, and saw her walk across the stone bridge with the hand of the servant girl Xiangqin, until the palace lantern gradually faded away, and there was no more light in sight. I tightened my cloak, and in three days, I will leave here and go to the deep palace covered with gold and jade.