Chapter 68 Bowl

"How can it be considered that I avoid and don't want to take care of it? I didn't say I don't want to take care of it, and I'm not allowed to find a job? I should do it alone. Anyway, I don't have a job, right? After I work, everyone will still share the job rotation together. They don’t want me to work, do I want to escape or they just want me to hide by myself?!” On the seventh day of grandma's hospitalization, another Saturday, my mother went to talk to the doctor. Yu Zhouzhou walked towards the ward by himself. The corridor was very quiet. When he walked to the door, he suddenly heard his aunt's voice inside.

Yu Lingling's mother has been laid off since the year Yu Lingling entered high school. With the idea of ​​taking good care of her daughter who passed the college entrance examination, she has never been in a hurry to find a job. Anyway, Yu Lingling's father can maintain the family's expenses and expenses by working alone. Yu Lingling's re-study fee, although the house assigned by the unit has not been renovated, but she lives in the tough and healthy mother-in-law's house, so there is no need to worry about these for the time being. But now the mother-in-law is not tough anymore.

Yu Zhouzhou heard two days ago that Lingling's mother suddenly found a shift job in the mail room of the dormitory of a private art school. Mom sighed softly and said, look, she was scared. Afraid that the work of caring for the elderly would be all on me who has no work, so I quickly escaped. Hospitalization expenses and other medical expenses come from the pension accumulated by grandma, and the university where grandma used to work will also reimburse part of it.But Yu Zhouzhou still felt a strange atmosphere between mother and uncles and aunts. Money is a very magical thing.Friendship, family affection, love, all kinds of feelings that you think are unbreakable, will eventually be corroded by it.Obviously it is because of profit, but everyone does not admit it, saying "I don't care about money", desperately proving that I "see the quality problems behind it" from the money...

Whenever thinking of the disputes in the family at that time, Yu Zhouzhou felt that he couldn't be very confused. Bring up children for the purpose of being looked after in old age.But no one can stop aging. As for how much time and money groups of children can spend to turn back the tide of time—this is something that all parents are full of expectations, but it is impossible to be sure. Yu Zhouzhou knocked vigorously on the door outside. My aunt's complaints stopped abruptly.Yu Zhouzhou walked in the door expressionlessly, seeing the embarrassed look on his uncle's face, but his aunt immediately changed the subject.

"Zhou Zhou, aren't you going to school today?" "Today is Saturday." My aunt grinned without a smile on her face, picked up her bag and left a sentence "I'm going to buy food" and went out. My uncle told me, "Look carefully, when there is not much medicine left in the bottle, hurry up and call The nurse came to remove the needle." Yu Zhouzhou was used to her grandmother's hanging needles since she was very young, and one of her main interests at that time was to watch nurses insert and pull out needles.Because I really like to watch the process of pulling out the needle, I always run into the house after a while and stare at the infusion bottle, hoping that it will come to an end soon.

After a few instructions, the uncle had nothing to say. His wife's complaints put him in a dilemma. It was difficult for him to behave in front of his brothers and sisters, but he didn't dare to stop his wife. He has always been very weak-tempered. Yu Zhouzhou remembers seeing him and his aunt leading Yu Lingling back from the playground when he was a child. The peaked cap had Donald Duck painted on it, and it was worn so tightly that the ears were pressed down, like a drooping duck. puppy with ears. Yu Tingting smiled and pointed to his ear and said, Second Uncle, your ears are really soft.

Yu Lingling smiled, and Yu Zhouzhou also thought it was very funny, but accidentally saw her aunt's discolored face and grandma's wry smile. "I'll go out to smoke a cigarette first, Zhou Zhou, take a good look at the infusion bottle." He babbled again, then picked up his coat, stood up and went out the door. Zhou Zhou sat by the chair and looked at grandma's peaceful sleeping face, and sighed softly. Grandma, don't be sick for too long, you must get better as soon as possible. Because there is no filial son in front of the bed for a long time. The 14-year-old Yu Zhouzhou has learned to be naive and tactful.

-------------------------------------------------- ---- She kept telling Chen An about her grandmother's illness.From trivial quarrels to every quarrel, the parents have short judgments and challenges.Sometimes she would find it embarrassing to expose her family's faults in front of an "outsider". However, the big family that was quite harmonious during the Chinese New Year showed spots behind it, which made the "adult" who could not look at the "adult" calmly. Yu Zhouzhou was full of worries, she could only describe these in the letter to Chen An, letting all the gloom flow out from the pen.

There are no longer just a few words of emotion in the letter, she wants to sort out the ins and outs in as much detail as possible, as if in this way she can figure out who is right. For example, the third aunt strongly opposes job rotation and insists on hiring a nanny or a nurse to take care of her. However, the uncle thinks that so many children have hands and feet but must be taken care of by outsiders. It is a joke to spread the word. For example, the second aunt was worried that because Yu Qiao of the uncle's family was the only grandson, the ownership of the house would eventually fall to him.

For example, my mother disliked the second aunt's behavior of running away to find a job, thinking that the three of them were permanent residents of the grandmother's house, and the grandmother brought up Yu Lingling single-handedly, and went out to find a job with a salary of several hundred yuan. It would be better not to hire outsiders, but instead It is everyone who pays the second aunt's wages every month; but the second uncle defends his wife, thinking that this is something of a different nature-as for the nature of the difference, they have never argued. for example…… "Chen An, if they keep arguing, I feel like I'll be haggard."

Well, that's the word, even exhaustion is not enough to describe it.It's haggard. Finally, grandma's condition has improved a lot, her mind is clear, but she has limited mobility and still needs to stay in bed.Yu Zhouzhou never knew how much of the suppressed quarrels reached the sleeping grandma's ears, but the grandma's face was always calm. She leaned on the soft cushion at the head of the bed, behind her waist She stuffed a soft pillow and called her children to her, but she didn't say a word about their quarrel. "Please ask a nurse to come over. They are more professional and save your time. I don't want to drag you down." "Mom, how can this be called a burden?" The uncle's face darkened even more, "No matter how professional outsiders are, it is impossible to have their own children to serve them wholeheartedly. What if there is another kind of bullying the elderly who don't work... ..." Seeing the expression on the third aunt's eagerness to refute, Yu Zhouzhou crossed off the uncle's proposal in his heart. "I can still move, my eyes can still see, and I'm not dementia, so how could I be bullied?" Grandma smiled at the uncle, then suppressed her smile and continued, "I'm still a long way from death. What about the day?" The last sentence was very light, but it made everyone present look complicated. "The money left by your father, the money in my own hand, as well as the retirement salary and pension insurance, should be able to last for a long time. You don't need to put money into it. At worst, there is still a house." Grandma didn't say a lot that day, but she looked very tired after she finished speaking.She lay down again, and the adults left the room with different expressions.Yu Zhouzhou always felt that her grandmother's words were full of all kinds of overtones, but she couldn't understand them. "Chen An, but I understand one thing." "I think grandma is holding them back with inheritance." "I have always admired my grandmother." "But now I think she is very pitiful. The children I raised, but in the end they have to use this method to make them calm and obedient. It seems that the majesty of the parents is so powerless in reality. The parents who give the most, but the most Sad. Children owe their parents, and are owed by their own children...Generation after generation of us, this is how we owe debts in circles, endlessly." "So she raised these children, why on earth? If we can know earlier that this road will eventually lead to such a result, then why go on?" Yu Zhouzhou stopped writing, she didn't know what happened to her.It seemed that some seeds of anger and restlessness were sprouting in her always sensible and calm heart, struggling to break through the ground. Growth is such a process of imitation and refusal to imitate. She sees herself at this moment from her peers, and chooses who she wants to be or refuses to be in the future from Chen An and her mother, but in the end, she can only see the same death and love in Grandpa Gu and Grandma. powerless. Grandma's eyelids moved and she woke up. Aunt Li, a part-time worker, was peeling apples. Yu Zhouzhou didn't disturb anyone. He looked up at the infusion bottle on the iron stand and pulled out the needle.When her grandmother was sick when she was a child, she had been practicing as a nurse to pull out needles, and this time she finally had the opportunity to practice. "Is Zhou Zhou here? I forgot that today is Saturday again. Have you finished the midterm exam?" "The exam is over, the final exam is almost here." Yu Zhouzhou smiled. "Look at my memory. I'm getting more and more confused." Yu Zhouzhou shook his head, "No, the distance between the final exam and the midterm exam is too close. In fact, the difference is not more than a few days. You are right." Grandma smiled, and suddenly turned her head to look at Yu Zhouzhou tenderly and lovingly.She could even see her own image in grandma's slightly cloudy eyes. "In a blink of an eye, you are so big. I still remember when you were just taken out of the delivery room by the nurse, because you were born prematurely, you were so small." Grandma raised her hands with some difficulty, stretching out about 20 to 30 centimeters. length. Yu Zhouzhou calculated his size in his heart at that time, and couldn't help wondering how he survived. "At first glance, I knew we Zhou Zhou would be a little beauty." Forget it, people say that newborn babies all look like the same monkey, that's why they are repeatedly hugged wrong.But Yu Zhouzhou still smiled embarrassedly. Yu Zhouzhou will never know what it was like when grandma saw her for the first time, but she will always remember the rainy day when she first came across the word "grandmother". It is not without vague impressions before, grandma's house, an old man, many relatives, brothers and sisters... However, in the child's memory, all of these have no memory and color, like an old black and white silent film. Mom rarely takes her back to her grandmother's house.She didn't even start going to her grandmother's house every year to celebrate New Year's Eve when she was three years old.Until now, Yu Zhouzhou, who has grown up, can understand a little bit of her mother's resistance to the word "go home". Until that rainy afternoon in autumn when I was four years old. They are moving again.From one humble rental to another.She squatted next to a pile of leftover wood and watched her mother and the tricycle driver develop from bargaining to fierce quarrel. Her mother's hoarse and tough tone made her afraid. The gloomy sky, the neighbors and passers-by watching, and the increasingly cold wind . It was getting cold very quickly, but she was only wearing a vest and shorts, and she hadn't showered for several days, so she was dirty all over. The scariest thing is that mom forgot about her. That day, my mother was very haggard and had a bad temper. Yu Zhouzhou spilled the millet porridge in the morning, and my mother scolded her and cried.So when my mother finally changed to a tricycle, and sat on the back of the car and supported the broken furniture to go to the "new home", Yu Zhouzhou was too scared to shout, "Mom, what should I do?" She squatted on the spot and waited. She didn't know how long she waited. She just remembered that when she was finally too cold to stand up and find a place to shelter from the wind, her legs couldn't straighten up at all. Finally, finding that the child was lost, the mother called the uncle anxiously. When the light rain started to pick up, Yu Zhouzhou raised his head, and finally saw the dark-faced uncle and the shabby boy behind him, Yu Qiao . Yu Qiao was playing Tetris, a huge handheld game console, while walking.She wanted to take a closer look, but Yu Qiao frowned and pushed her away, "Don't bother me, my three lives are almost dead." Yu Zhouzhou really wanted to tell him that I only have one life, and now I'm dying too. But what was really embarrassing was when she arrived at her grandmother's house and saw a large table of strange people in the living room.They were eating, the chopsticks were still in their hands, and they looked at her in unison. The conversation stopped abruptly, and the looking pitiful or slightly contemptuous eyes pinned her in place like a spotlight.Yu Zhouzhou lowered her head and tugged at the wrinkled little vest, trying hard to straighten it out—from then on, even in the hottest summer, she never wore the cool shorts and shorts that girls like. Vest. She was afraid of that attire, for no reason. However, grandma stood up, walked in front of her, picked her up and walked towards her room with all her strength, saving her from the spotlight. "Little mud monkey, is it freezing?" "It's not cold...Grandma, I'm not cold." Yu Zhouzhou consciously called out to grandma for the first time.Since then, this word has a real and warm meaning, and it is no longer the meaningless "cousin, happy new year" and "cousin, happy new year" that adults are forced to call out during the Chinese New Year... Yu Zhouzhou came out of the memories, and she gently brushed the white hair around grandma's ears. "grandmother."