Chapter 16 let me say goodbye to my love

As soon as we met, our hands were tightly held together, and we looked at each other greedily. It was just that we hadn't seen each other for two days, but it seemed like a whole century had passed, and we missed each other like crazy. He was thinning at a visible speed, and his eye sockets were sunken, but the light in his eyes was so hot, with desperate pain and enthusiasm, as if he wanted to burn himself and me together. "Tang Shi, I have already decided." He said, "Divorce my wife!" "No!" I exclaimed. He shook his head, stopped me with his eyes, and confessed firmly: "I know you are kind and don't want to hurt anyone. But things have come to this point, and someone is destined to be hurt. My wife is not wrong, she shouldn't do this Sad, but in the same way, she should not be deceived. She is also a highly educated woman and one of the parties involved. She has the right to know the truth. I must put everything in front of her and accept her punishment. At the beginning, I I proposed to her because I love her and nothing else. Now, I met you and fell in love with you. There is no excuse or excuse. I changed my mind. Now that I have changed my mind, I still have to maintain a superficial morality And loyalty, blindly concealing responsibility, to her, is disloyalty, to you, is injustice! Tang Shi, I can no longer continue to be sorry to you two, and I can no longer let my guilt torture you, and confess my pain to you again and again It is a kind of selfishness, it will only bring you double pain, I have no right to do this, but I have the responsibility to end all this, give you an answer as soon as possible, and give you an eternity..."

"No, Zhang Chu, I don't need any answers." I cried, holding his hand, my heart pierced.How could he be so good, so good!He knows everything I think, doesn't shirk, doesn't pretend, takes responsibility with all his strength, faces his feelings openly, and takes due responsibility. I know once again that in this life, it is impossible for me to fall in love with another person as much as I love him. He is a part of my life, and it is the relationship I pursue and maintain with all my heart.He is my heart, my flesh and blood, the other half of myself! I think of Catherine's confession of love for Heathcliff: "Besides myself, there is, or should be, another self. What's the use of creating me if I'm all here." My greatest grief in this world is that of Heathcliff, and we have noticed and felt each other from the beginning. He is my greatest thought in my life, if everything else If everything else is destroyed, and he remains, I can go on living; if everything else remains, and he is destroyed, the world will be a strange place to me, and I will no longer belong to it. Part of it. I am Heathcliff, and he will always be in my heart, not as a pleasure, but as myself. So don't say anything to separate us, it can't be done... ..."

But now, my Heathcliff and I are parting.Without him, I will no longer be complete, and it will hurt me more than cutting out my heart and flesh, but how can I have him? Looking at him, looking at him, my heart is broken, and my tears are like rain, but I have to say desperately: "Zhang Chu, let's break up!" "Zhang Chu, let's break up!" It never occurred to me that this sentence would be uttered by me.Since I saw Zhang Chu for the first time, my greatest wish in this life is to have him and be with him forever.Hold your hand and grow old with you.I can even follow him without asking for any status and without any conditions, as long as he let his eyes linger on me occasionally when he is busy.

However, today, he said that he wants a divorce, he wants to give me a title, and he wants to be with me forever and ever! He finally said yes to me, he finally accepted me, he finally promised me.However, I said to him: Let's break up! God, how cruel is this?How ridiculous?What kind of pain into the heart and lungs? I cried and spoke incoherently, telling the whole story of the old story that happened three hundred and fifty years ago. Oh, that's such an old story. In my narration, Zhang Chu's expression is constantly changing, from surprise, astonishment, shock, to misery, pity, emotion, helplessness, and finally, showing a kind of despondent silence.

My speech was messy and difficult, and my eloquence was a thousand times worse than that of the ghost prince Wu Yingxiong, but he still understood and believed it. After all, he is also a part of Wu Yingxiong, the reincarnation of the other half.There is always a connection between us. Silence, a silence heavier than death. There was a long silence for a cigarette, and finally, Zhang Chu sighed softly in a whisper-like voice: "So, we just broke up?" Then, he stood up, took a step forward, and suddenly hugged me tightly in his arms, exhausting all his strength, as if he wanted to rub me into his body.I felt like my bones were going to be broken, but I held back and kept silent.God knows how much I long for such a hug, how long I long to break up, destroy, break you and me, and reconcile them with water.He and I are one!

When the wedding is held in the church, the bride and groom will make an oath to the priest: "I will follow him, regardless of poverty or disease, and never leave him." For me and Zhang Chu, no matter poverty or disease, it is not enough to separate us. Even the pressure of morality and conscience, we would rather bear it and go to hell together.However, what separates us now is not disease or morality, but life, it is life! Yuan Ge said, I am beautiful, young, rich, and favored by God. She doesn't know that no matter how much I have, without Zhang Chu, I am just a loveless shell, the poorest thief.No, I am not God's darling, but on the contrary, I am the ominous man whom God hunts down with all his might!

I lost Zhang Chu and myself in exchange for world peace.I really can't believe that I have such a greatness. I am just an insignificant little girl, how can I shoulder the responsibility of saving all mankind. "I just want to be an ordinary person", which woman's emotion is it?I always thought they were hypocritical and insincere.But at the moment, this is my strongest desire. I just want to be an ordinary person, free to love! The phone rang sharply at this moment.This time, it was Su Jun: "Miss Tang, can you come to the hospital?" "What? Who was admitted to the hospital?" I was immersed in pain, and I didn't know why for a while.

"It's Song Ci. She had a relapse, fainted during the interrogation, and remained unconscious." I woke up suddenly, and my hands were sweating: "Which hospital are you in? I'll come." Wu Yingxiong warned me not to see Zhang Chu again, as long as we meet, as long as I am emotional, someone will be hurt.However, I forgot. Seeing Zhang Chu’s heart was too hot, when we hugged each other tightly, I had already forgotten the existence of the whole world, and even more Song Ci and Yuan Ge.It was my indifference that caused Song Ci to suffer. I am too selfish and should not do it!

Zhang Chu held me back: "I'll go with you." "Don't." I looked at him, feeling extremely ashamed, "Zhang Chu, don't you understand? We can't meet again. If we meet again, Song Ci will die..." He froze.I saw clear love and pain in his eyes. Love, love is so desolate. If there is such a thing as fair trade in the world, I am willing to exchange everything I have for Zhang Chu's love. However, our predecessor Wu Yingxiong said: If we love each other, it will bring incalculable disasters to mankind, war or plague. At that time, tens of thousands of people will die, far exceeding the three hundred years ago in San Francisco war.

Disaster for all mankind!I have no reason to resist when such a big hat is suppressed, even if I die a thousand times, I have no choice but to resign myself to my fate. Yes, accept fate. Zhang Chu and I have to separate. This is our fate! Gazing for the last time, looking into eternity! Oh Zhang Chu, Zhang Chu, how can I take my eyes off your face?When he came, there was fire burning in his eyes, but it was only for a moment, but it was already burned to ashes. I wiped my tears and turned around resolutely.This farewell, probably never see each other again.But, how can I be greedy for tenderness again?

On the way to the hospital, I kept praying: Song Ci, don't let anything happen to you.If anything happens to you, I will never forgive myself in my life.I promise you, break up with Zhang Chu, never see him again, never see him again.But, you must wake up, you must come alive! It was only when I arrived at the hospital that the police did not allow me to visit her. Su Jun begged hard, and asked people everywhere, and finally got the permission to look through the glass window.He immediately put his whole body on the glass, wishing he could pass through the wall and become one with Song Ci. I walked over and put a hand on his shoulder: "Don't worry, Song Ci will be fine." "I really shouldn't have treated her like that before." Su Jun burst into tears, "Song Ci was seldom happy in his life. If she just left like this, call me, how can I forgive myself..." I cover my face.He said what was in my heart, we all failed Song Ci.If something happens to Song Ci, I will never forgive myself. Wait.There is never an end to the wait. Suddenly I understood why some people grow old overnight.It turns out that waiting is such an anxious and desperate thing. I can almost see the speed at which Su Jun's beard is growing. In order to comfort him, I have to find something to say: "If you love each other like this, why are you still separated?" Such a simple question, but he was obviously confused: "Why? Even I don't know." "Is it because of personality differences?" I asked again.Ninety-nine out of one hundred couples in the world will say this, even if this is not the most critical one, it is at least one of dozens of reasons. "Probably." Su Jun frowned, and organized his thoughts, "Perhaps it should be said that it is because both parties pay too much attention to promoting their own personalities, and are unwilling to accommodate each other." This is a gentleman who refuses to belittle his predecessors casually.But I have already guessed the truth of the matter, just as Wu Yingxiong said, it is the arrogance of Song Ci that hurts the normal communication between husband and wife, and prevents a relationship that should have been beautiful from developing smoothly. "If Song Ci wakes up, will you get back together with her?" "I don't know. If we can reconcile, we don't have to separate at the beginning." "But we were all young at the time. After so many things, maybe our personalities will mature a lot, and we will no longer hurt ourselves for playing with our personalities." I say this, not so much as consolation, but as a blessing. Su Jun suddenly raised his head and stared at me: "Miss Tang, I have always had the feeling that you seem to understand us better than each of us. Seeing that you are younger than us, why are you so mature and wise in your words and deeds?" "This is because I am the reincarnation of the prince. I look young, but I have three hundred years of practice." Su Jun smiled wryly and stopped talking. I knew he thought I was joking and didn't try to correct him.If it were me, if someone suddenly ran over and said he was the Jade Emperor descending to earth, I would think he was crazy. We stopped talking and waited quietly for Song Ci to wake up. Through the glass, Song Ci lying on the hospital bed looked very thin and small, completely unable to see her usual domineering, pale and helpless at this moment, making one want to hold her in his arms like a cat to care for her tenderly. But what about when she wakes up?When she wakes up, will Su Jun still cherish her as much as she does now?I know that some big men like to wait for a woman to be in trouble before showing masculinity, otherwise it is not enough to show a man's self-esteem.Su Jun is this kind of person? At this time, Song Ci on the hospital bed moved, and the doctors and nurses all let out a long breath, and one of them turned around and made a "V" against the glass window. Su Jun and I couldn't help hugging tightly. Who said the police are impersonal?They know exactly how we feel outside the window. Su Jun's tears flowed down again, without any embarrassment, he just said over and over again: "I will treat her well, I will treat her better!" I am deeply comforted, I was tortured once, but I got back a loving husband-in-law, Song Ci is not wronged! But when will the window of glass separating the lovers be removed? Su Jun walked to a corner to cry, and I also climbed to the window of the corridor to take a deep breath of fresh air.Downstairs on the boulevard, there was an old couple walking with each other supporting each other. Looking at their gait, they couldn't tell who was the patient and who was the escort.To be so attached at such an age may have already cracked the mysteries of the world of mortals, knowing that I don't have much time, so I have to seize the last minute and every second to be close to each other. Being able to treat one's own life and love so seriously must also be able to reasonably arrange one's own departure and death, right?Their composure and peace will minimize the accidents of life, and they will definitely not make the mistakes that young people make because of impulsiveness. Before that, I always thought that life was short and fragile, so I refused to cherish it, so I was indifferent to others, so I saw through the red dust, so I played with life.However, Wu Yingxiong made me know that no matter how boundless time is, there is also a connection, and no matter how short life is, there is also an extension. People are not only responsible for this moment and this place, but also for all time and space, for the entire world and the universe, so we must be serious. , so you must be sincere, so you must be righteous, so you must be persistent. The accident of Song Ci is another warning from God, right?Just because I fell in love with Zhang Chu again. Last time, it was Qin Guitian's death; this time, it was Song Ci; next time, who will it be? No, there will be no next time, there will never be a next time.God, I promise you, I will leave Zhang Chu and never see him again, I promise you, do you hear? I closed my eyes and shed tears to my heart's content, but not entirely for Song Ci. When he opened his eyes again, the protagonists on the boulevard downstairs had changed to a pair of young people, whose figures were very familiar. I identified them carefully, and found that they were Dynasty's security guard Ah Qing and Chashui Xiaomei.It hadn't been half a day since Dynasty had parted with them, so soon, did they meet again here? I saw the two of them walking on the corridor, the younger sister seemed very weak and struggling to move, Ah Qing struggled to support her, and kept motioning for her to lie on his back, but the younger sister refused, blushing and struggling in every possible way. I remembered how they borrowed money from me in the morning, guessed what happened, hurriedly greeted Su Jun, hurried downstairs, pretended to meet by chance, and said with a smile: "Is it you? Seeing a doctor in the hospital? Do you want to give me a ride?" When Ah Qing saw me, her face flushed suddenly, and she said in a low voice, "Miss Tang, it's you." "I met you twice a day, so it's fate. Come on, I'll give you a ride." I thought they would ask me to take them back to the dormitory, but the younger sister actually said to go to "Dynasty".I was surprised: "You still have to go to work? No need to rest?" "I just want to go back to the basement of the building to rest. The conditions there are much better than the dormitory." In the same day, she said this for the second time. I felt sorry for him, so I decided to help people to the end: "How about this, I'll take you to the hotel. Anyway, there are two beds in the private room, and I'm the only one to live in. Besides, I can help take care of you." The little girl was shocked: "How can that be?" "What's wrong? Help each other. Didn't you also pour tea for me?" "That's different." "What's the difference?" I couldn't help but start the car, because I felt that I had sinned deeply, and I especially hoped to have the opportunity to make amends, so I was eager to help others, "If you are sorry, when your body recovers, help me wash my clothes. I’m most afraid of washing clothes, especially those silk, and I can’t use washing powder, I really don’t know what to do, I have to send them all to the dry cleaners, but I’m afraid they will be damaged.” "I know that, the silk needs to be washed with shampoo so it won't wrinkle." The little girl smiled shyly, "I can also cook." "That's great! When you recover from illness, I will have a good fortune." But at the entrance of the hotel, the little girl hesitated again: "Miss Tang, I don't want it anymore, it's so expensive." I had to use the most stupid way to convince her: "It's okay, you know, I rented this room, it costs so much to live alone, and so much money to live for two people, I have been living here all this time , it’s actually quite a disadvantage.” "That's right." The little girl wavered. I strike while the iron is hot: "That's right, you are here, and you can still talk to me. I don't know how happy I am. You know, it's my first time in Beijing. I don't know anyone. I'm bored in the hotel every day. Now that I have spoken, I wish someone could accompany me." After a lot of talking, I finally persuaded her to go upstairs with me.During the whole process, Ah Qing has been silently following behind, but when he looked at the younger sister, the focused and concerned eyes are worth a thousand words. Until the younger sister fell asleep, he still held her hand tightly and stared at her with his eyes. After a long time, the eye circles gradually turned red, but his big eyes blinked and blinked, refusing to let tears fall. In just a few hours, this is the third time I have seen a big man cry.What day is today?It seems that men all over the world have suddenly become lovers.But I am the only one who has no choice but to make a heavy oath today and bid farewell to the true love from now on.