That day, the peach blossoms were just blooming, and it had just rained, and the whole place was full of bright red. I walked through the Temple of Heaven and walked the streets of Beijing.Rows of high-rise buildings, passing vehicles, pedestrians with thirst and desire on their faces, men and women jostling each other.The air contains the unique fragrance after the rain, neither the sun nor dust can cover it up. When there is wind, it will be tighter and slower, so the fragrance of flowers will also fade away with each passing moment. Someone hit me, but I didn't feel it, or my body felt it, but my consciousness didn't touch it.My heart is immersed in the dream of last night.The sun was shining brightly overhead, but it was raining in the sky in the dream.

That pattering trance is indescribable. The dream is another world, there are men and women, they are wearing ancient clothes, they are very familiar with me, but I don’t know each other. I can't see their faces clearly.When I was walking on the streets of Beijing, they also walked in a certain time and space, tirelessly, just like Kuafu who is diligently chasing the sun. From childhood to adulthood, such dreams have bewitched me for too long, broken and lingering, with a kind of cold heartache.I often worry that if I fall asleep one day, I will be taken away by the dreamer, and I will never wake up again.

There is a big "demolition" written on the wall of the courtyard by the side of the road. If I pass by here tomorrow, I may not see it anymore, but I will still remember that there was a courtyard here, and then they will reappear in the space of my memory. And still stand in that space. I don't know what kind of emotion pushed me to open the courtyard door and walk in.It is said that there used to be many courtyards like this in Beijing, but now one has been demolished and one is missing. Except for the few buildings left for photography and as cultural relics, the rest will be demolished as illegal buildings.

The yard has been emptied, leaving only a few broken old flowerpots and a pile of discarded furniture.A pictorial poster was glued to a table-like wooden utensil with missing legs as a table top. I glanced at it, and the picture was blurred, but I could still tell it was a photo of the Forbidden City.Strange, I have not visited the Forbidden City, but I can clearly know that this picture is taken of the Hall of Mental Cultivation.I also knew that the oily spot was supposed to be an antler chair. Going around the kang table and walking in, it is an old tree that is thick and thick. It is not known how old it is, but it will be cut down soon to die for the house. A row of three green brick and glazed tile houses are faithfully covered by the green cover.I pushed open the half-covered door of the main room, and I couldn't help being startled—a young man in a white shirt and gray suit pants was standing in the middle of the room, bending over to sort out something. When he saw me, he covered his hands in surprise. The forehead blocked the sudden sunlight, and looked at me from under the palm of my hand in surprise.

I was embarrassed: "I'm sorry, I didn't expect there to be people here." I knew I was wrong after I finished speaking, so I quickly corrected it, "I mean, I thought there were no people here, so I can just look around..." Oh my god, this is so wrong It's even more outrageous, and he explained further, "No, I mean, I was very curious when I walked here, and I just wanted to take a look at it..." The young man smiled, he stood up straight, and politely pulled the high Putting down the sleeves, he said gently: "Please take a look." His gentleness dispelled my nervousness, and I asked, "Is this your home?"

"It used to be." He looked at the four walls with nostalgia, "but it's not anymore. The notice said that it will be demolished tomorrow, so I will check it for the last time today to see if there is anything that can be kept." At this time, I saw clearly that the things he was cleaning up were some old magazine pictorials, some of which were collected half a century ago, and I couldn't help being shocked: "These are treasures, do you want to throw them away?" "It's my grandma's stuff. Grandma passed away for a long time. These things have been piled up in boxes and no one looks at them. Do you want them?"

"May I have it?" My eyes widened, I could hardly believe such good luck. "Of course, it's their luck to meet you." "I'm so lucky." I was overjoyed and immediately hugged them tightly in my arms. The young man smiled again: "Put it in a box and take it away, otherwise it will be difficult to take." I accepted his suggestion, thanked him again and again, then turned around and fled away, for fear that the master would go back on his word and take them back again. When I walked to the side of the road to take a taxi, I realized what a terrible thing had happened: my wallet had been stolen!

I recalled the person who bumped into me on the road just now, maybe the wallet was ripped off at that time?But what now? Just walk back like this?I looked up at the sun at noon, it was impossible, not to mention that the weather was so hot, the box was so heavy, the most important thing was that I had already lost my way and didn't know which direction to go. I lingered in front of the courtyard, hesitating whether to go back and borrow ten yuan from that kind young man for a taxi back home, but it was too greedy to think of disturbing him like this when we first met. At this moment, the courtyard door opened, and the young man was very surprised when he saw me: "What? You haven't left yet? Want to return these old magazines to me?"

"No, of course not." I clasped the suitcase tightly to my chest, only to realize that after being dazed for a long time and sweating all over, I hadn't put the suitcase down. "I thought, can I borrow ten yuan from you to take a taxi, that's it, my wallet was stolen by a thief. You leave me the address, and I will return it to you tomorrow, ten times as much. Or, if you If you don't believe me, you can go back to the hotel with me to get..." The young man once again smiled warmly like the spring breeze in April: "Why do you say it so seriously? Isn't it ten dollars?" He took out his wallet and asked again: "Where are you going? Is ten dollars enough?"

"Enough, I came all the way here, it shouldn't be very far away. Oh, by the way, my name is Tang Shi, I'm from Taiwan, and I live in Jinghua Hotel. Can you leave me your address so that I can pay you back... ..." "No need, I hope you have a good time in Beijing." He handed me ten yuan and hired a car for me. Before I had time to ask his name, he had already simply told the driver "Jinghua Hotel" and closed the car door for me. The car was driving on the wide streets of Beijing, and the ash on the box flew up, giving off a musty smell unique to piles of old paper.But my heart is full of brand-new warm joy, and the melancholy brought to me by the dream last night that has been lingering for the whole morning has already dissipated with the wind because of this adventure.

When I got back to the hotel, I just got out of the car when a young man came up to me: "Miss Tang, where have you been? I have been waiting for you for a long time." I looked up and saw that it was Li Peiliang from the Beijing branch, a handsome young man, how should I say it, to use the most common word, it is called "thick eyebrows and big eyes", which is really good for him. His eyebrows are exaggeratedly thick black, flying straight into the temples, and his eyes are round and bright, and they are too flexible.All the people who have seen his face said that it is a pity that Xiao Li does not sing, because he is born with a face that can be described and painted.He was so angry that he looked in the mirror every day and tried to bend his eyebrows down. I only saw him trimming his eyebrows in the mirror once, and I joked: "Men also trim their eyebrows?" Short eyebrows." That was the sentence describing Wang Xifeng in the book, and his face flushed red immediately, clamoring for a razor to shave off his eyebrows completely.I asked: "What should I do if I shave off?" He replied: "Go to Wenmei." I asked again: "Isn't that more like a woman?" incredible.I bent over laughing. It's like that.Instantly became friends.I completely forgot the relationship between subordinates and subordinates, and I also forgot that I only knew each other for a few minutes. Another reason for getting to know him so quickly is his smile, which is very similar to a childhood playmate of mine named Zhang Guoli.Zhang Guoli, that is the name engraved on my heart.Although we have been separated for seventeen years, there is not a day that I do not miss him.Xiao Li's sunny smile without shadows illuminated the name imprinted on my heart even brighter. Immediately, I stuffed the suitcase in my hand to Xiao Li, and complained with a smile: "If I knew you were here, I would have borrowed the car money from you, and I would have saved myself the embarrassment of begging on the street." "You? Begging in the street?" Xiao Li's eyes widened innocently, and his eyebrows were raised again. "Yes, for ten yuan." I saw the tricycle behind him, "What is this?" "Tricycle." "Of course I know it's a tricycle. I'm just asking what are you doing on a tricycle?" "Take you on a tour of Beijing. When you visit Beijing, you have to visit the alleys, and when you visit the alleys, you have to take a tricycle. Otherwise, you won't be able to experience that flavor." I smiled "hee hee", and proudly showed off: "I have already visited alleys, entered a courtyard house, and picked up a lot of treasures." Xiao Li peeked into the box: "Old pictorials? Do you like these? I'll pull a cart for you tomorrow." I smiled, noncommittal, and the two of them worked together to install the tricycle, and then moved the box into the hotel. After sitting down, Xiao Li told me: "I came early in the morning and wanted to take you out for a stroll. I thought you Taiwanese are all night owls and don't get up early. I didn't expect you to be an exception." "That's not true. When I was in Taiwan, I was also very sleepy, but in Beijing, I always felt that sleeping was too wasteful, so I got up early." I smiled and answered, while looking at the notebook on the coffee table, "Oh, this afternoon The arrangement is... to go to Wang Dynasty to talk about advertising. You contacted Dynasty, right? Do you want to go together?" "No, I really can't stand those two young ladies." "Which two young ladies?" "The manager of their creative department and the manager of their production department. This afternoon, the two of them represent Dynasty to discuss the contract with you and report on the publicity plan." "Are these two ladies difficult?" "It's not as difficult as usual. However, they seem to have a good relationship with you." "Fate? Why? I haven't seen them before." "This..." A secretive smile flashed across Xiao Li's face, "The secret must not be revealed, and then let you experience a surprise for yourself." We went to the rainforest restaurant for a quick lunch and a photo with the electric gorilla. Xiao Li couldn't stop pressing the shutter, I said you are wasting negatives if you don't choose a scene, he replied that I have a camera face, no matter how I shoot it, it looks good on camera. It is always pleasant to hear people praise us. We ordered some red wine and chatted while drinking, and the conversation gradually increased.I told him that I was actually born in Beijing, but my family was deported to the countryside when I was a child because of my father’s overseas relations. It was not until the end of the “Cultural Revolution” at the age of six that my family moved to Taiwan to be reunited with my grandfather. "Tang Ji Zai Yuan Yu Xing" is grandfather's property, it should have been handed over to his uncle, the son born to his wife after he married in Taiwan, but his uncle was disabled in a car accident ten years ago, so the business of jade business had to be handed over to Dad.My father is a layman, he has practiced the basic skills for many years, and he is considered an expert in the industry, but his ability to recognize jade is not as good as mine, so grandpa regards me very highly. This time he came to Beijing to preside over a large auction, which is a test for me by grandpa.Before coming here, my grandfather and father gave thousands of reminders, saying that this jade jewelry exhibition is the first large-scale public auction of our Tang Family Jade Ware in mainland China, and we must not take it lightly.Grandpa also said: "Shi'er, this signing is very important to you personally and to our jade industry. You must cheer up. But on the other hand, I hope you can be on your own, so I don't plan to send Any assistant will negotiate with you, everything depends on your actions. Grandpa bet 10 million on your success, you won’t let grandpa down, right? Haha!” Xiao Li said enviously: "It's full of the spirit of a wealthy family, and the price of a test child is 10 million. For us poor children, it is 12 points of trust for our father to give soy sauce for ten dollars." I am most afraid that others will make a fuss about the rich and the poor, so I immediately counterattack: "Are you a poor kid? Don't put on airs. My father has already told me that you are a Beijing expert. Your family occupies the boss's shop in Liulichang, and you come to work in our company." , It’s just that your father wants to change his son and teach you. I hope you will become a talent soon. You use "Rebirth Fate" as a sharpening stone, thinking I don’t know? Don’t talk about it, when will you take me to Liulichang How about visiting your store?" Xiao Li was very embarrassed when his cards were exposed, and insisted: "Then how can you compare with you? There are two small shops, and you can't control your clothes. What's so good about it?" Seeing that he was so concerned, I quickly changed the subject: "Tell me about the situation of Dynasty Advertising Company." Xiao Li came to his senses: "In order to promote this jade jewelry exhibition auction, our colleagues in the Beijing branch have almost searched the whole of Beijing, and finally selected three as alternative targets. Among them, Dynasty was contacted by me. It is also the most promising one, and I will wait for you to finalize it. You go to Dynasty first this afternoon, and arrange for the other two in the morning and afternoon tomorrow, and then we will have a meeting to decide who to do business with, tens of millions of business, good boy, not yet Be very careful?" I laughed, this Xiao Li just likes to exaggerate, he is either 120% trustworthy or 120% cautious, as if even the adjective ten is not enough. My eyes were wet and sticky, I held my head and said to Xiao Li: "British rules, you are not allowed to drink until five o'clock in the afternoon. We have violated the rules." "It's okay, take a nap and you'll be back full of energy." Xiao Li assured me, "In Beijing, you have to learn to get used to naps. When you wake up, you'll be a good man again." "But I'm afraid of sleeping because I'm afraid of dreaming." "Afraid of going to sleep?" Xiao Li's eyes widened exaggeratedly, "I've heard that there are people who are afraid of being beaten, scolded, cold, heat, hungry, poor, sick, war, plague, marriage, and divorce... But I haven't heard of anyone else. Afraid of sleeping. Do you have scary dreams when you fall asleep?" "That's not true, but it's very tiring." I tried to describe my dream to Xiao Li, "I often see some weird scenes in my dreams, and see some vague acquaintances, but I often forget most of them when I wake up. , It’s just that feeling, vaguely, deeply troubled me.” Xiao Li was even more curious, and asked for another glass of wine with great interest: "Can you be more specific? What kind of people are they?" "There are men and women. They wear ancient costumes. They are entangled with each other. Sometimes they love each other, sometimes they kill each other. The dream is fragmented and incomplete, but the impression is deep..." I tried to recall my dream, and it was very hard. "In the dream, often A man appeared. He turned his back to me, always turned his back, and refused to turn back. I approached him, approached day by day, and called him to turn back, but always the moment he turned back, I woke up. " "Have you never seen his face?" "there has never been." "Maybe, one day when you see him clearly, you won't have such a dream again." "Maybe. But how can I see him clearly?" I was deeply distressed. "Use willpower to control your dreams. From the perspective of dream science, dreams are irregular movements of some brain cells that refuse to rest after the human brain is asleep. It is some dissociative consciousness. If you can Use your willpower to make these unconscious wandering thoughts into conscious thoughts, and you can overcome your dreams and your inner demons." Xiao Li talked eloquently, with a very authoritative look. Devil?I laughed, not appreciating this description.I don't think it's a kind of demon, I see the dream as an old friend from my childhood, the pain is not because of the nightmare, but because I always forget the dream when I wake up.And that forgetting made me feel deeply self-reproached and disappointed. Over time, it became a kind of fear.