Chapter 16 Lotus falls

. The illusory charm in the novel, the dreamy and intoxicating grace, without any scheming, not stained with a trace of red dust, flies up lightly, and returns with the wind. When the lotus flower fades, everyone understands: Shui'er is leaving, and she won't stay in the world for long. And Shui'er hasn't smiled since she woke up again.Also, she started talking about death a lot.One day, she said to Qu Feng, "Qu Feng, I always hope that if I want to die, I can die in your arms..." "Shui'er, don't talk anymore! You will get better..." Qu Feng couldn't continue after speaking halfway.He himself knew how weak these words were.

Shui'er sighed deeply: "Why did God play tricks on me like this? It's not enough to make me a twelve-year-old girl, but also to make me terminally ill. I thought that although I was too young, I would grow up one day. I can wait, ten years later, to marry you. Now, there is nothing left. Qu Feng, we have no hope, I am going to die..." She burst into tears. Qu Feng was heartbroken, he hugged Shui'er tightly, not knowing how to comfort him.It was midsummer, but the girl's eyes were cold and desolate.Yes, that look of hopelessness is exactly the word Xiao Lin said: desolate, so desolate that there is no human habitation for thousands of miles.Even her body was shaking slightly, as if she was extremely cold.

She looked at Qu Feng lingeringly, and after a long while, she asked softly, "Qu Feng, tell me, do you like Xiao Lin?" "Xiao Lin?" Qu Feng was taken aback, looking at Shui'er with tears in his eyes, not knowing why, "She and I are just friends." "She doesn't think so about you." Shui'er smiled bitterly, "She has always regarded me as an opponent, and I have always hated her, but after I die, I will no longer have the ability to compete with her..." "Water..." "Qu Feng, although I hate her, I can see that she really loves you... If... after I die, if you feel lonely... just marry Xiao Lin."

"Shui'er!" Qu Feng gently covered her mouth, "Don't say such meaningless things anymore, I promised you that I will wait for you to grow up. Your illness will definitely recover. I won't marry anyone, just wait for you Grow up. Shui'er, you are my only bride!" Water, you are my only bride.When these words blurted out, Qu Feng suddenly had an idea in his heart - marry, marry her now, and have a wedding with her! "A wedding?" The Lin family seemed to hear the most ridiculous nonsense in the world, so ridiculous that they almost suspected that they had heard it wrong.Mother Lin asked eagerly, "Qu Feng, were you talking about a wedding just now?"

"Yes!" Qu Feng stood firmly in the middle of the Lin family's living room, bearing everyone's astonishing gazes, and nodded heavily, "I know, you must think I'm weird, and there's something abnormal between me and Shui'er. I don't want to explain What, because I don’t understand myself, how can I care so much about a little girl, to the extent that it almost violates my original personality. I’m here, just to ask you to hold a wedding ceremony for me and Shui’er. Shui’er has always said that she hopes to grow up In order to be my bride, I also promised her that I would wait for her to grow up. But now..."

He lowered his head and sighed desolately, "You all understand that that day is impossible, so I hope that before Shui'er leaves, I can fulfill her wish and give her a wedding..." "But Shui'er is not yet of marriageable age." Mother Lin said in a daze. But Xiao Lin understood it, and explained to everyone for Qu Feng: "I think Qu Feng doesn't mean to get married, but to hold a wedding. That is to say, our family will hold a small ceremony to let Shui'er Make this wish come true before you leave." Dalin was the first to understand: "You mean, let's play a play with Shui'er?"

Dalin's husband frowned and said, "This is ridiculous. How is it different from playing house? A group of adults, playing some children's games, thank you for thinking of it!" "Why is it ridiculous? As long as there is true love between them, why can't they get married?" It was Xiao Lin who spoke. She looked at her family and said sincerely and eagerly: "Modern people don't talk about love anymore. Stories that only exist in novels and movies. In real life, when we talk about 'marriage', we mainly talk about 'conditions'. I think they are in love; if they don't match well, they will be regarded as resentful spouses. But Qu Feng and Shui Er, they have no conditions, even at the very least, they are not even the same age, let alone 'conditions', they don't even have 'qualifications' at all Let’s talk about love. However, they are still in love, and the love is deep and true. Dad, Mom, if you have tried to pay attention to the eyes they stared at each other, you will find out what is true love and what is two people Affection, what is heart-to-heart bond. Before this, I always thought that I love music, but after seeing Shui'er, I realized that my love is so vulgar, worldly, and worthless. So, I I will lose to a little girl, a 12-year-old girl who is not even qualified to be in love. However, I am convinced to lose. Because I really can't achieve the kind of mutual understanding between her and Qu Feng. So , if they get married, I will raise my hands in favor, and, moreover, give my most sincere blessings."

These words moved everyone, and Qu Feng was even more overjoyed. He couldn't help saying: "Xiao Lin! You are really my confidant!" Xiao Lin's heart couldn't help a tingle, oh, he finally admitted that she was his confidant, because she approved of his wedding with another person.The title of "confidant" is not easy to come by, but it is just a "consolation prize". Dalin finally made the conclusion for this discussion. She looked at her family pleadingly and said with emotion: "My sister is right, we should bless them. Besides, even if it is absurd, as long as Shui'er is happy, I am willing to accompany you." She played house. This child has been sick since she was a child, and she has never had a few days of happy life. Now, her life is only a few days left. The mother is willing to do anything for her, and she still cares about being with her. Does she play house once?"

Da Lin's words made Lin's mother burst into tears, and Da Lin's husband also lowered his head and said, "In this case, let's prepare a wedding for her." Unexpectedly, when the news of the wedding was announced, the person who opposed it the most was Shui'er. She looked at everyone seriously, her little face was tense, and she said word by word: "I don't want to play this game, it's meaningless. Since I don't have the chance to grow up, to be the real wife of Qu Feng, holding a ceremony is not enough." What's the use? What's more, it's Shui'er's identity in exchange for this title."

Her words were beyond everyone's expectations, and she couldn't help asking: "Didn't you always want to marry Qu Feng? Why didn't you agree to get married?" The familiar desolation appeared on Shui'er's face again, and he sighed and said, "You won't understand. If I have a future, I don't care about everything, whether I am me or not, as long as I can really stay by Qu Feng's side, I will be fine. That's enough. But since it's a game, this title doesn't mean anything to me anymore." No one could understand what she said, but everyone thought with pity: This child's days are numbered, she is already talking nonsense, she probably doesn't understand what she is talking about, right?

Shui'er raised his head and looked at Dalin: "Mom, no matter what, you agreed to this wedding, I am very grateful to you. You are the greatest mother in the world. I really hope, I really hope to be your mother for a few more years. Daughter, unfortunately, I don't have this blessing..." Dalin couldn't help crying again, hugged his daughter and said, "Shui'er, as long as you are happy, mom will do anything, as long as you don't leave mom..." Shui'er stretched out her hand, gently wiped away her mother's tears, and said sadly: "Mom, I'm sorry, I have to leave you, I can't let you see me growing up, going to college, graduating, working, getting married, I'm so happy I can only accompany you for such a short time, and let you worry about me so much..." "I don't regret it, son, really, mom doesn't blame you at all, mom is very happy to have a daughter like you, and to be with you for more than ten years, really!" The daughter hugged her more and more tightly, as if she was afraid that someone would snatch her from her arms. Shui'er broke away from her mother's arms and asked: "Really? Mom, if you are really happy to have me, please smile, okay? Let me see your smile." Dalin looked at his daughter, who longed for her with such eager eyes, she couldn't help it, the tears flowed more fiercely, but she smiled bitterly in the tears. "Mom, your smile is so beautiful." Shui'er said sincerely, "Promise me that you will always smile like this in the future, okay? If I die, don't cry for me, don't be sad for me, otherwise, I will be very sad too .” Dalin nodded heavily, but her tears still flowed endlessly.Everyone looked at her tearful smile in shock, as if seeing the suffering Virgin Mary. Shui'er couldn't bear to watch anymore, she turned her head and said weakly: "Mom, I beg you for one thing, I want Qu Feng to accompany me to see the lotus again, will you agree?" Dalin was in a dilemma: "You are so weak, if the wind blows again..." But then she thought that this might be the last time she saw the lotus in this life, so she couldn't say any more if she refused, bowed her head for a while, and finally said, "Okay Come on, Qu Feng, you can go around with her, but you have to come back soon." Qu Feng agreed, and carried Shui'er to the wheelchair.He found that her body became very light, not like a twelve-year-old girl, but like a bird—the swan released to fly. Pushing the wheelchair, he walked with her by the lotus pond, and pointed out to her the most beautiful and straight jade-colored lotus among the lotus leaves. The breeze was blowing, and the fragrance of the lotus and lotus leaves came bursts, which was refreshing.Shui'er said: "Look at the lotus dancing in the wind." Qu Feng smiled and said regretfully: "It's a pity that I didn't bring the flute, otherwise I would accompany the lotus fairy." He recited poems about lotus for her: "The lotus leaves are boundless in the sky, and the lotus flowers are farewell to the sun. It looks red." "The little lotus just showed its sharp horns, and a dragonfly stood on it long ago." "The fragrance of the stalks sells the remnants of the green leaves" "Leave the remnants of the lotus to listen to the sound of the rain" "Who will feel ruthless and hateful"... When reciting this sentence, Shui'er stopped, thoughtfully, and recited over and over again: "Who knows if there is ruthlessness or hatred..." She suddenly held Qu Feng's hand, with sudden frenzy and pain in her eyes, and said hoarsely Said: "Qu Feng, you still don't know who I am?" Qu Feng was stunned: "Of course I know who you are. You are Shui'er, what's the matter?" But then he thought he understood, "Shui'er, are you afraid that I will forget you? No way , I will never forget you. I will never forget the days when you were by my side. Everyone thinks that I am with you and take care of you. In fact, they don't know that it is you who are with me during these days , take care of me, comfort me, help me. Shui'er, I really can't lose you." He suddenly thought of the swan, and the feeling the swan gave him was the same. , In fact, he has been relying on this feeling of being dependent.At this moment, he looked at Shui'er, and could no longer tell whether she was a girl or a swan. "If you knew who I am, maybe you wouldn't treat me like this, and you wouldn't say love to me." Shui'er shook her head sadly and slowly, still persisting over and over again. Qu Feng squatted down beside her wheelchair, held her hand, and swore patiently, seriously, and solemnly: "No matter who you are, Shui'er, no matter what you become, as long as you are Shui'er, I will love you deeply." "If I told you that I was changed from that swan, would you still love me?" "The swan changed?" Qu Feng was moved in his heart, but then he answered with certainty: "Yes." "And what if I'm another person's incarnation?" "Another person? Who is it?" "Don't ask, just tell me, will you continue to love me?" "Yes. No matter who you are, as long as you are Shui'er, I will love you the same." Qu Feng replied more firmly. Shui'er seemed relieved, but at the same time seemed a little disappointed, she frowned and said in confusion: "But, do you love Shui'er, or me?" "What? Aren't you just Shui'er? Isn't Shui'er just you?" "No, it's not, Qu Feng, you don't understand." Shui'er seemed very irritable, she looked at Qu Feng with pained eyes, as if she had a lot to say but hesitated.Finally, she gave up and sighed: "I really hate this body, so young, so weak, so what if I get your love through her? My time is running out, I have no chance Love you with all my heart." "You have given me a lot of love, a lot." Qu Feng suddenly revealed his true feelings. At this moment, he no longer cared about the age difference, he didn't care about the repression of ethics, and clearly said what he was thinking, "Shui'er, although You are only twelve years old, but you know how to love better than any mature woman, and you are more worthy of love. I will not think you are young, let alone sick, Shui'er, I am waiting for you, waiting for you to recover, When you grow up, when you are twenty-one years old, if you don't think Brother Qu is too old at that time, then you..." Before he finished speaking, he suddenly yelled, "Shui'er, Shui'er, how are you?" Shui'er fell into the wheelchair and was unconscious. Outside the emergency room, the Xiaolin sisters wandered anxiously, crying uncontrollably.Shui'er's relapse undoubtedly announced the date of her death. They all knew that from now on, Shui'er's time would be counted in minutes. Qu Feng pulled his hair, almost going crazy, he couldn't bear the emptiness of waiting, ran to the street and bought all the lotus flowers from all the flower shops in the street, took them back to the hospital and waited for Shui'er to wake up. When Shui'er woke up, it was already afternoon.After eating some liquid food given by the doctor, I fell asleep again.Xiao Lin stayed by the hospital bed with his sister, silently in a daze, rarely exchanging a word.What is there to say?Time passed bit by bit, as if Shui'er's life was passing bit by bit in an hourglass. Qu Feng inserted lotus flowers in every corner of the ward.In this way, when Shui'er wakes up, he will see the whole lotus pond. Xiao Lin watched him busy, and felt that he was so close and far away from him at this moment, as if he was beyond reach.Her heart was filled with powerlessness.For life, for love, equally powerless and helpless. At dusk, Shui'er woke up, and seemed to be in better spirits again. She saw the lotus flowers covering the ward, showed a weak smile, and asked Qu Feng: "Is it from you?" Qu Feng nodded, feeling his throat choked up, unable to speak for a moment. Shui'er looked around again, nodded gently to everyone, smiled, and finally fixed his eyes on Dalin's face, and called softly: "Mom..." Dalin burst into tears immediately, rushed up to hug Shui'er and cried loudly.Shui'er shook his head dissatisfied, and begged: "Mom, you promised me not to cry anymore, you have to laugh, laugh a lot, okay?" After a pause, he said: "Mom, let me and Big Brother Qu be alone. Just a minute? I want to have a few words with him." Dalin looked at his daughter reluctantly, then at Qufeng, but in the end he couldn't see the imploring look in his daughter's eyes, nodded and walked out with Xiaolin's support. There were only Qu Feng and Shui'er left in the ward, Qu Feng held her hand, he felt that he had ten thousand things to say in his heart, but he didn't know where to start.This is just a twelve-year-old child, but her departure is as painful as tearing out his heart.In these short months, it seemed that he was not taking care of a dying sick child, but rather that he had experienced the most thrilling love in his life. He didn't know that this was indeed an unforgettable love, and that Dan Binghun was tossed and wandered, repeating the love of which life and life! Dan Bing's soul stares at Qu Feng through Shui'er's eyes.Oh, it's another life. For the first time, she turned into a swan to accompany him, but she died again in the fire to save him; this time, she borrowed the girl's body to reincarnate, but this body was too weak to hold such a powerful love .Moreover, life and death have their own definite date, even if her spirit can delay her death, it cannot reverse the number of days after all.She just borrowed the girl's body to make another life, and the girl just borrowed her soul to live for a few more days. Between them, they don't know who helped whom and who owed whom. I don't know how many times, she wanted to boldly tell him about her past life, her real body, but when the words came to her lips, she felt timid after all.Can he believe in such absurd resurrection theory?Moreover, her time is not long, even if he is convinced that she is Ruan Danbing, will she have time to fall in love with him again?He promised to wait for her to recover and grow up, but she knew that Shui'er would never have the chance to grow up again, her lifespan was only twelve years old, and her fate with Qu Feng was only as long as one summer , One more day is impossible.Such a life-and-death parting, why let him know that she is not only Shui'er, but also Ruan Danbing at the same time, adding another layer of grief? However, she couldn't let him know her true love after all, but it made her so unwilling!A mature heart wrapped in the little girl's sickly body, she didn't know how hard she was struggling with herself.Now, this struggle is coming to an end, this short reunion is coming to an end, I don’t know if there is a chance to come back again after leaving this time, to see him again, hear him, and confess myself to him Love. She prayed to God: If God takes pity on me, please help me, extend my life, let me see him again, tell him, my love! She looked at him, looking at him with such nostalgia and infinite sorrow, that gaze pierced into his heart, and she could never pull it out for the rest of her life.Her voice was as thin as a gossamer, and she sighed softly: "Qu Feng, what will you do after I die?" Qu Feng couldn't help crying: "Shui'er, don't leave me, I don't know what should I do without you? I can't lose you..." He cried, and when no one was watching, he He couldn't hide his pain and helplessness. Shui'er shook his head, smiled miserably, and told him clearly word by word with difficulty: "Qu Feng, don't be afraid of my death. It's only the body that dies. What's there to cry about? This body is too much of a hindrance. , it blocks my soul from loving you to my heart's content. When my body dies, my soul is free. At that time, I will come back to you again." Qu Feng was crying, and the tears flowed more freely. He couldn't understand her words at all, but he deeply remembered the phrase "When my body dies, my soul is free".This is the code between them, right?She said she would come back to him, and he waited, believing that she would keep the promise. In his grasp, Shui'er seemed so weak, so petite, and so ethereal, as if it would melt into smoke at any time.He looked at her with infinite sadness: "Shui'er, listen to me, if people are reincarnated in the next life, when they meet you in the next life, don't be so young and make me wait. I want you to be about the same age as me, and we want I met earlier, when I was in the kindergarten class, and then we went to school together, after school, after work, after get off work, until, I marry you as a bride." "Be a bride." She smiled, a strange blush suddenly flashed across her pale face, her eyes were bright, "Qu Feng, did you hear that?" "what?" "The sound of the piano." Shui'er focused, "There is the sound of the piano, so beautiful, just like the organ in the church when the wedding is held. The style of music, how I want to wear a white wedding dress and be your bride one day. Qu Feng, you have to wait for me, I will come back... to find you..." Her voice weakened, her eyes gradually became dizzy, but she still insisted on finishing her unfulfilled wish - to find you... to be you The... bride..." Her hand dropped from his palm, with such a poignant smile, it turned into the most beautiful frame in the world. Qu Feng hugged her, only felt that his mind was empty, without thoughts or pain, there was only boundless confusion.He hugged her, hugged her tightly, felt that her small body was getting colder in his arms, and he himself had turned into a pillar of salt, without saying a word or moving, with one heart, Just follow her away, floating in the air together... When Xiaolin helped his sister open the door and walked in again, what they saw was such a sculpture-like posture. Immediately, they realized that the terrible thing had finally happened, and they couldn't help crying.Miserable cries filled the ward where lotus flowers were in full bloom, and Lian Hua lowered her head in an instant...