Chapter 9 moonlight box

The rain kept falling, and every time Xiaolin came to Qufeng, he borrowed an umbrella under the pretext of not bringing it with him. Gradually, those green umbrellas lined with greenery have disappeared.In the cupboard, there are two more oilcloth umbrellas, one black and one red, which are so big that they can cover the sky and the earth—they were bought by Xiaolin and put there. She is on purpose. For some reason, so many identical green umbrellas made her feel uneasy. She smelled Danbing in those green umbrellas; She smelled Danbing in the white gardenia fragrance; She smelled the taste of Danbing in the swan's gaze;

She even smelled Dan Bing in the blooming skirt of her niece Shui'er. For her, Danbing is "dead" but still alive, everywhere. Qu Feng still plays the piano for Dan Bing twice a week.She also accompanied him once or twice.Every time she stood in front of Dan Bing's bed, she felt suffocated. She doesn't like her.Whether it was her "before she was alive" or she was sick.Because she took up too much of his time and thoughts. Moreover, almost every time after seeing Dan Bing, Qu Feng's mood will be surprisingly unstable, and he often uses alcohol to anesthetize himself in order to vent.

She doesn't believe it's just about guilt. In fact, as early as when she first entered the troupe as an intern, she had been vaguely aware of the unusual relationship between Dan Bing and Qu Feng through her sensitivity as a woman: they were ordinary on the surface, without any special conversations or interactions, but as long as they When two people appear at the same time, there will be a different feeling in the air, as if an electric current is moving, and there is an indescribably ambiguous and imperceptible connection between them. Perhaps, it’s because they are alike—not in shape, but in god—both of them have a stern appearance, an indifferent expression, a cold attitude towards life, and glamorous hobbies: one who loves to dance becomes crazy, An Aegean.When they played the piano and danced together, it was as if Apollo was traveling with Chang'e in the sky, which was so beautiful.No one doubts whether it is possible for Apollo in Western mythology to date Chang'e in Eastern legend.Anyway, they do not belong to the world. People on the earth are different, but people in the sky are always the same.

As for why the two of them never got together, Kobayashi guessed it was because of pride. Both Dan Bing and Qu Feng are too self-respecting. It is hard to imagine that such two people can continue to join hands in the world after they come down from the sky.The world is not a stage, and the world is not prepared for people like them.Turn off the overhead lights on the stage, and the light and warmth of the world will be released flatly. There are many living beings in the audience, and they are the masters of the world. Among them, she, Xiao Lin, is also included. It was because of this self-knowledge and self-confidence that he dared to challenge Dan Bing.

But I didn't expect to win in this way-Dan Bing died in order to save Qu Feng, and Xiao Lin's chance of winning was only because he was alive.Is this a win? According to her, Qu Feng still doesn't know Dan Bing's sincerity, and only regards her as a benefactor.However, she always felt that in Qu Feng's subconscious mind, she was waiting for Dan Bing to wake up. This made her uneasy and unwilling - fighting with a living person is exciting, but it is possible to win; fighting with a spirit, but it is only able to parry and has no power to fight back.Sometimes she looks at Dan Bing and really wants to yell at her: wake up if you have the ability!Wake up and compete with me for the style of music!What is it to sleep here and influence him with kindness?

Grandma poured out coffee, called Qu Feng and Xiao Lin to rest for a while, and said with emotion: "Xiao Qu, you are such a good person. I come to see Bing Bing every week. She is really lucky to have a colleague like you." Qu Feng was ashamed, and quickly said: "She saved me, and she became what she is now, and it's all because of me." Grandma nodded, and continued following her own train of thought: "When Bingbing just fell ill, people came to see her every day. The boys who pursued her before gave flowers and fruits, but after a while After a period of time, they disappeared. Those who said they would die and live for Bingbing were just talking about it..."

Xiaolin couldn't help laughing. Modern people fall in love, of course they just talk about it, or how can we call it "talking" about love?If everyone played a life-and-death promise and remained loyal, would it be okay?China's population has been reduced by at least half. "Even the reporters stopped coming..." Kobayashi laughed again.reporter?Where do journalists have such free time, journalists are busy catching news.Ruan Danbing is old. Grandma still complained: "No wonder those people, Bingbing has not woken up. It seems that there is really no hope, and I can't greet people. What's the point of sitting here for nothing? But I can't figure it out. When they came before, Bingbing didn't wake up. They don’t say hello, they often leave people downstairs and then go upstairs, leaving people there for half a day, those people don’t get bored..."

Qu Feng understood that grandma wasn't really angry, she was just lonely and looking for something to talk about.In the past, when Dan Bing was around, there were many suitors, and the grandma probably had to stand in her way, I don't know how much to worry about, but now she stopped suddenly, but I'm not used to it. After drinking coffee, he still sat in front of the piano, playing the familiar tune of "Giselle" from his fingers. Grandma leaned against the window and listened, her mind flying far away.When Dan Bing was a child, this song was his favorite. The child knew no taboos when speaking, and often said that after his death, he would become the dancing soul Wei Lisi.Thinking about it now, it's really embarrassing.

She stood for a while, then walked out silently, her back suddenly bent a lot. Xiao Lin sat on the flower basket hanging chair on the balcony, swaying comfortably, squinting his eyes and looking at the complete set of Ming-style hardwood furniture, ancient calligraphy and paintings, and French piano in the room, suddenly felt aggrieved and inexplicably angry--this kind of anger was familiar to her, Living in such a flamboyant city like Shanghai, there are colorful and prosperous temptations in the eyes, but there is not much to grasp in the hands. She muttered to herself: "Girls who grow up in such an environment drink coffee and eat afternoon tea every day, no wonder their eyes are higher than the top."

Qu Feng said in a daze: "Dan Bing is a bit noble." Xiao Lin disdained, hummed, and said through her nose: "The nobles of the rich." She thought about her home, even if she stood on the highest place, she couldn't see the round sky and the vast land, they were all surrounded by alleys. Cut into long and narrow strips, like dried pickled radish and shredded mop strips. Dan Bing's figure of Linxi Zhaoying on the stage suddenly rushed in front of his eyes, admiring himself alone, without any dust left in his eyes, such a delicate and beautiful beauty, no wonder it didn't last long.She never even looked her opponent in the eye.She loves Qu Feng alone, and when she finds out that he has a new lover by his side, she will be hurt and sigh, but she doesn't care who the rival is.Or, in her mind, she only regards those women who appear around Qufeng like a revolving lantern as new "stains" of Qufeng, instead of treating them as rivals in love.Pride is her personality, but also her Achilles heel.

At this moment, Xiao Lin felt that she knew Ruan Danbing better than Ruan Danbing herself.And Ruan Danbing, whether awake or asleep, will never understand Xiao Lin.Because she is too ordinary, and Dan Bing is too extraordinary, people who think they are extraordinary never see the people below them, but the biggest homework for ordinary people is to study those extraordinary people. This is the shrewdness of mortals. She stood at the front of Dan Bing's bed and looked at her. Dan Bing fell asleep, lonely like a tree flower blooming in no one's land. Her anger suddenly calmed down, and she said softly: I am ordinary, so I am alive, this is the greatest victory!I hope you'll wake up, but when you do, I've got the wind! Qu Feng came home very late, and the swan spread its wings to welcome him. He sat down and patted the sofa: "Come up." He opened the can and poured beer down his throat like water. Swan glanced at him, she didn't want him to drink, but she knew that he drank for her own body that slept in grandma's house.He didn't know that the real Ruan Danbing was by his side and accompanied him. These days, she no longer cares about being intimate with him, everyone wants to pat and hug her when they see her, and treat her as nothing, so she has no choice but to be easy-going.He opened his arms, and she jumped into his arms, hugging him and watching TV.He gently combed the feathers under her neck with one hand, and said to her: "Do you believe that there is such a love? I don't believe it. It's all made up by novelists." Swan watched TV, looked at him again, changed to a more comfortable position and fell down on his knees, unable to tell whether it was sweet or sad.She has watched "Moonlight Treasure Box" countless times, but every time she still has a new heartbeat.Unfortunately, he clearly disagrees.This cold, heartless man! The audience of "Moonlight Treasure Box" are mostly obsessed with Supreme Treasure's declaration of love, but Dan Bing has another favorite, what she likes is Zixia's dialogue: "He will appear at a moment that everyone is looking forward to, wearing a golden armor and holy clothes, feet Step on the seven-color cloud to marry me..." Her sister asked her, "Aren't you crazy?" She said: "This is not a neurosis, it is an ideal." Zixia spoke out for herself.Zhizunbao is not a good man, but when she falls in love with him, she regards him as a god, with gold and silver armor, flying through the clouds and riding the fog, omnipotent, and she will do everything for him.In her previous life, she was a heart in the lamp, tormented in the oil day and night, which prompted her to go to the world to find the light, not love itself, but the ideal of love. Dan Bing's ideal is music style. She looked at his profile, with a stern outline and gentle eyes, even if he was drunk, he was so drunk. He was drunk, she was drunk. To love someone, you can't choose to love like the nose, eyes and eyebrows are separated. You love him as a whole, with all his shortcomings and advantages, because those wholes constitute him and make him appear vividly in front of her. Getting along day and night during these days made her understand him better than before, and love him even more.But how should she express her love so as to win his? Zixia said: "My ideal person is an unrivaled hero. One day he will step on the seven-color cloud to marry me. I guessed the first half of the story, but I can't guess the ending of the story..." The swan thought: I don't know what my end will be? Qu Feng has stated more than once that he will choose a sunny day to release her.He said: She is a bird, and he is a human being, they cannot live together forever.Her destination should be blue sky and green water. "Go back to your own sky," he said.He doesn't know, where he can't see him, the blue sky and green water are meaningless to her, her sky is just him.She died because of loving him, and she was born because of loving him, from a dancer to a swan, just for him, for love. When he was a man, he refused to be with her forever; now that he is a swan, he still refuses to be with her. He would rather accompany a sleeping Ruan Danbing, play the piano and sing for her, but he would not leave the real Danbing soul by his side, loving each other. Whether it's a dancer or a bird, she can't always share the same world with him. Supreme Treasure holds Zixia in his arms and falls slowly in the world of mortals. Sensational music sounds, and the magic spell takes effect. Supreme Treasure has a splitting headache, and finally lets go, watching Zixia leave his embrace and slowly fall, With an unrepentant smile... The swan cried. Qu Feng's tongue gradually hardened, "I don't believe in love".He is still muttering, "Love is described too much in novels and movies, and it's too magical, so I don't believe it anymore. Because it can't be seen in real life. There are many people around me, men and women, but no love..." When Zhizunbao helped the couple in the city, Qufeng fell asleep. The blue TV screen is the only enchanting thing in the dark night, and the swan weeps alone in his hearty voice. The theme song sounded, sad and desolate, soul-stirring, with indescribable lingering sadness. Zixia disappeared forever, but she left a tear in Zhizunbao's heart. What did you leave behind in Qu Feng's life? If Qu Feng insisted on letting himself go, he would have no reason to stay.The green umbrellas have already been taken away by Xiaolin one by one, and the gardenias will eventually wither. By then, I wonder if Qufeng will forget himself. One day, Kobayashi will remove traces of himself from his life little by little until he disappears completely.It was as if she had never been there.Where was she by then?Where is her love? At this time, the swan smelled a strange smell, and heard something "cracking" at the same time. She turned her head and saw red light seeping from the crack of the door, accompanied by thicker and thicker smoke, fluttering. The ground, the flickering ground, and the blue TV screen light reflect each other, it is very beautiful, so beautiful that it is coquettish and evil. The swan couldn't figure out what it was for a moment, but felt fear instinctively, and then he understood the analysis, and then became alarmed—it was fire!on fire!Probably Qu Feng had smoked a cigarette in the bedroom just now, but he didn't put out the cigarette butt - the flame was beating on the door of the living room, desperately trying to get out, burning more fiercely, and wanting to dominate the whole world. The raging fire fanned by the Bull Demon King really started burning!From TV to the real world! And Qu Feng is still sleeping. The swan rushed to the bedroom, trying to cut off the fire.But no, the doorknob was too high, she couldn't reach it at all, besides, even if she could reach it, could she use her wings to twist the handle to open the door? She rushed to the bathroom again, but finally the door of the bathroom was not closed tightly, she immediately jumped into the bathtub to wet herself, then jumped back on Qu Feng, covered him with her wings, and kept fanning him, fearing that the smoke would suffocate him . Since she saved him once, she must be able to save him a second time.She shook him, slapped him, pecked him fiercely with her beak, and screamed hoarsely, trying to rescue him from danger.He just fell asleep, and impatiently waved a hand beside his face, not wanting her to disturb his dream. She flapped her wings in despair, this is the person she loves.Is he dying?She traded his life for hers, how could he throw it away so lightly?Qu Feng, Qu Feng, wake up, do you really want me to accompany you to die in the sea of ​​fire?I'm not afraid of death, it's not the first time I face it, but you, your life is so precious, how can you just throw it away like this? There is a noise outside, mixed with harsh, oh no, it is the sound of a siren-the fire truck is coming!But why didn't the water dragon rush up?Will they have time to rescue Qu Feng before the fire demon swallows him?She must persist, and she must persist until the firefighters come up.When they came, he would be saved! She rushed into the bathroom again and again and then back to the living room, using her feathers as a lifebuoy, the smoke became thicker and thicker, the sofa rose up, she couldn't move left and right, the fire was approaching, the fire was approaching, she couldn't Let him be tricked, she can die a thousand times or ten thousand times, but she can't just watch him die in front of her.The fire has already licked her feathers, the window is wide open, and she can easily fly out of the house and away from the flames at any time.But how could she abandon him?Wherever he is, there is where she is, and she will not leave him in danger alone. She lives in his life, even though she can leave him nothing, she can still let him leave his own life.She saved his life, and his life is already the best reward for her, so what else do you need? The bathroom was also on fire, except for Qu Feng who was wet with her feathers, there were clusters of flames everywhere, the gardenias moaned desperately in the fire, and the satin dancing shoes had been reduced to ashes. It will disappear completely even before tomorrow.But she doesn't care anymore.Apart from his life, she didn't care about anything, she just wanted to die 11 million times, as long as he was saved. In a sea of ​​flames, the swan was flying wildly and was about to turn into a firebird. At this time, the water dragon finally shot in through the window and rained flowers all over the sky, bringing hope and rebirth to the survivors in the disaster. When the first gust of sweet spring rushed towards the swan, she was suddenly exhausted physically and mentally from the great ecstasy. She lowered her head to look at the music wind covered under her wings, and he probably fainted from the smoke, without making any sound.In the firelight, his handsome face was surprisingly peaceful, like a god. She finally saved him, just like when she danced hard on the stage to complete the closing act of "The Death of the Swan", she gracefully spread her wings to cover the wind, vented her energy, and passed out...