Chapter 7 nutcracker

The room was so quiet that the angel's heartbeat could be heard. The playing has stopped long ago, but the lingering sound is still there, lingering over and over again. The room is too quiet.The sun is rushing in suddenly, the summer wind is warm and slightly intoxicating, and there is a noisy smell rushing into the window, gardenias are sighing, dragging their dancing shoes with long straps eager to try. Everything is waiting, waiting for a secret to be revealed. Qu Feng and the swan stare at each other, their eyes penetrate time and space, penetrate the different packaging of living beings, and point directly to the essence of life.How much is a swan with feathers similar to a Ruan Danbing wearing feathers, and what is the difference?

What is the difference between life and death?As long as true love lasts forever. Qu Feng felt that he was intimidated by a mysterious force, and a sleeping consciousness in his heart was quietly awakened, but he couldn't understand it for a while. He hesitated to speak, his voice was very soft, as if he was afraid of disturbing something, he said: "You The way she dances really looks like Ruan Danbing..." The door was pushed open at this moment, and Xiao Lin's voice came: "Qu Feng, I left my lipstick here yesterday, did you see..." Before he finished speaking, he had already seen the red marks on the wall and the bald lipstick falling on the corner of the wall.

The evidence is overwhelming.She glared at Qu Feng: "Why do you spoil my things like this?" Qu Fengxiao: "I didn't do it, it was the swan." "You're talking nonsense." Xiao Lin didn't believe it at all, "You don't like me, just tell me clearly, why do you bully people like this?" She ran away crying. The room became quiet again, but the mysterious feeling just now was gone.The sun becomes lazy again, the wind comes and goes, the gardenias and dancing shoes are lonely, the piano cover is open, but there is no music—the music is so vivid, but the keys that make the music are cold and hard.

Swan walked to the window and looked out, suddenly regretted.She thought of herself "before she was alive".They are also infatuated and fragile girls, so why rush each other?Besides, Xiao Lin is actually pretty good, at least she can take care of Qu Feng. What you can't get doesn't mean you don't want others to get it.Swan walked to the phone, saw a small light blue caller ID on it, and suddenly had an idea—— Xiao Lin walked on the road in a daze, with his hands clenched together in front of his chest, as if a wound had been opened there, and fresh blood was gushing out.

Unexplainable failure, unconsolable pain. She felt ashamed, depressed, and extremely depressed, and didn't know how to deceive herself. The girls in the alleys of Shanghai are all natural liars. They tell harmless little lies almost from morning to night. The truth is the untouchable nucleus in the real world, and lies are the truth of daily life. . However, this time, there is almost no room for maneuver. It is not enough to deceive oneself, let alone deceive others? But, what did she do wrong?It's just falling in love with a man who refuses to reciprocate his love.Just because of this, does he have the right to spare no effort to hurt himself like this?

Falling in love is already embarrassing, but it will be even more embarrassing if the mistake is judged by everyone. By tomorrow, everyone in the troupe will notice the sudden estrangement between her and Qu Feng. No one wants to believe that she decided to give up on him, and will only talk about her defeat to him.Too bad!Too unwilling! As strong as a girl's vanity is, so is her self-esteem.Too fragile. When he went upstairs, Xiao Lin's thoughts had shifted from the depth of the injury to the difficulty of the transfer. He bit his lip and thought about whether he should find a way to leave the troupe and find another internship unit.But how to quickly transfer away?

Just as he pressed the doorbell, the phone in the room rang. It was her mother who opened the door for her, nagging: "You are back, just in time, to answer the phone, it rang a few times, but no one spoke... It's busy this morning, and the phone is still making trouble. It's hot outside Do you see the sweat on your head..." She asked, but without waiting for her daughter to answer, she turned back to the kitchen with her hands clasped. Xiao Lin walked in to answer the phone without taking off his shoes, but the opposite was completely empty.She thought that maybe someone was playing a prank, so she was so angry that she didn't speak, and listlessly nestled herself on the sofa, kicked off her shoes, and looked at the furnishings in the house - she wanted to move a long time ago, and she was so tired of bowing her head every time she went home Through the long and narrow alley and the eyes of the people in the alley—the old small sofa, the old small coffee table, and the small vase standing on the small TV cabinet with sparse plastic flowers in it.Sometimes small is not cute, but a kind of shabby, clean and simple shabby, which is also the common feature of Shanghai alley families, the more vanity, the shabby, thin pride and toughness.

Shanghai has subways and trams. Shanghai is an unrepeatable city, but the alley families in Shanghai are terribly repetitive. So the girls in the alleys are eager to get married and to change their lives. Even if they marry from one alley to another, at least there will be a little change. Most of them will not marry poorly, and will not be worse than their own family.But of course it's not much better, the sky in the alley is as narrow as the road, no matter how high the sky is, it's also narrow.There are only so many worlds they can see, so many people they can meet, and even fewer people they can catch.

My sister is married well, and my brother-in-law works in a bank, and has been assigned a dormitory in Pudong, so I no longer need to live in an alley house. Both husband and wife have a decent salary and are well-off, but the child has an incurable disease... My mother stuck her head out of the kitchen and said, "Is there no one talking? I said, several times, it rang and answered, but no one answered." Only then did Xiaolin remember that he was still holding the phone, so he urged a few times: "Hey, who? Talk!" After urging twice, his voice was full of impatience, and gradually became stricter, and the other party simply hung up with a "click". .

She became curious, and pressed the button to check the caller ID. The number was very familiar, it was in the style of music!genre?How could he call himself? As if a gust of wind was blowing, her expression suddenly became vivid, she was quiet, but her heart beat faster.The weather had just warmed up, and the shutters had already been hung up early, reflecting her face brightly and darkly.Sitting in the bright and dark shadow of the window, she had a trance-like beauty.But gradually, bursts of joy rose up, and she began to understand Qu Feng's phone call. He regretted it, showed weakness, and wanted to apologize, but he didn't know where to start.His temper is like that of a self-willed big boy who knows he's wrong, wants to correct it, and wants to bow his head, but he just doesn't want to speak out, so he has to hint in every possible way, hesitant to speak.He was saying sorry to her in this wordless way. How many times he called, that is, how many times he begged for forgiveness. He was sincere. This kind of silence was more sincere than saying "I'm sorry".

The mother stretched out her head again: "Come here and help me tighten this apron... Yes, that's it. Then roll up my sleeves... I have been busy all morning, and I can't spare my hands. Your sister and brother-in-law are coming over tonight Eat..." She didn't notice her daughter's trance and absent-mindedness, but just babbled, "Did you say yesterday that you would bring water to the park to play? She called to ask, I said you went out, why so fast Come back... I bought watermelon and put it in the refrigerator, you have to cut it yourself..." The phone rang again, interrupting the mother's nagging.Xiao Lin rushed over, not in a hurry to answer the call, but first looked at the caller ID, it was indeed a song style. She picked up the microphone and said softly, "Hello?" Still no answer. "Is that you? Qu Feng." This "Is that you?" can be described as ecstasy, but the other party hung up again with a "click".He used such a subtle way to express his feelings and respect for himself, testing again and again to see if he could forgive him. The mother was still talking: "Your sister said that Shui'er is not well recently, and the doctor said that if she gets sick again, she is afraid of danger. This child is so pitiful. If you have time, you should spend more time with her. I don't know how much more you can go shopping. Second park..." Xiao Lin couldn't hear it anymore, she was holding the receiver, full of joy and warmth, Qu Feng cared about her, Qu Feng was waiting for her forgiveness, which made her feel a kind of newborn joy.Yes, she forgave him and was not angry with him anymore. She wanted to let him know that she was a gentle, magnanimous, forgiving woman.Isn't such a woman exactly his ideal? She picked up the phone, bravely pressed "OK", and then "Dialed"... It was Qu Feng himself who answered the phone.He heard Xiao Lin ask softly: "Shui'er really wants to see the swan, can I bring her?" He was a little surprised, wasn't she angry just now?Dissipated so quickly?He was also a little moved, how could he bear to hurt her again and again for such a permissive girl? So, there was a rare tenderness in his voice: "Of course, I welcome you anytime." In order to reward Xiao Lin's generosity, he even dialed a phone call to Dan Bing's house, and apologized to his grandma tactfully, saying that he had other arrangements this afternoon, and he would play the piano for Dan Bing another day. When Qu Feng exhaled "Grandma", Dan Bing almost jumped up, oh, grandma, grandma!How long has she not seen grandma?How is grandma?What kind of sadness did her own disaster bring to her? !When will we be able to see grandma again? On the other hand, she also had mixed feelings when she saw that Qu Feng was rarely determined to clean the living room.She knew her plan had worked, and neither of those who answered the phone would have guessed that a swan had dialed those silent calls.Therefore, one successfully finds a reason to forgive the other party's unreasonableness and thus forgives his own failure; the other is surprised at the other party's tolerance and redoubles his tolerance.But when she borrowed a phone call to reconnect the two emotionally, her own was left in the cold.What kind of account is this? Qu Feng said to Swan: "Xiao Lin praised her niece to be the best in the world. Let's see how beautiful she is." It is indeed amazing. Xiao Lin is not exaggerating, Shui'er is indeed a surprisingly beautiful girl. Those delicate eyebrows, those flowing eye waves, how beautiful a twelve-year-old girl can be, how beautiful Shui'er is.Impeccably beautiful, dazzlingly beautiful. When Qu Feng saw her for the first time, he was almost stunned, he couldn't mistake his eyes, and murmured: "What is a natural beauty, I have seen it today." However, such excessive beauty will be condemned by God, right?It's so perfect, it's so perfect that it's unreal, so that the corners of the eyebrows and eyes have a faint chill of "every time it turns red, it turns gray". It's the maple leaves in autumn and the sunset in the evening. It's so gorgeous that it makes one's heart palpitate. Thinking of such a beautiful girl who is terminally ill and will soon die, I felt a pang of sorrow, almost cursing the injustice of the heavens.From the girl's overly glamorous face, he could almost clearly read four words: "Young beauty is unlucky." Dan Bing shared his heart with him, and was full of pity for this girl who had the same disease. He couldn't help leaning on her, showing infinite tenderness. The girl was overjoyed, with a rare smile on her pale face, she stroked the feathers on the injured part of the swan and said softly, "What a poor swan!" "Poor Shui'er!" Dan Bing said in his heart, spread his wings, and gently hugged the girl. Kobayashi watched a man and a goose pat each other affectionately, it was a spectacle.She couldn't figure it out, this swan seemed to be friendly and kind to everyone, why did she look like she had a blood feud when she saw her alone, making enemies everywhere? She clapped her hands to the swan: "Come here, let me hug you." Unexpectedly, the swan turned around and aimed its tail at her.Then buried his head in the jelly box and sucked wildly. Xiao Lin was annoyed and laughed again, and said, "Hey, such a glutton for food and sweets, it didn't take long for me to become a fat goose." Qu Feng answered for her: "The swan is not a dancer, why do you want to be so slim?" Hey, what a heartfelt voice, the swan is even more chomping and unscrupulous. Xiao Lin waved his arms to intimidate her: "Have you ever heard of the phrase "burning pianos and boiling cranes?" Qu Fengxiao: "That's not okay, I don't need anything here, there are only two treasures, one is my piano, and the other is this swan!" The swan was overjoyed, and laughed "ga". Xiao Lin made a face: "Smile so hard!" Finally, he was tired from fighting and tried to bribe him, "If you are willing to change your attitude, I can buy you Coke every day." It's not rare for the swan to be disdainful. It's too cheap to buy friendship as soon as you hear Coke.What's more, Qu Feng asked her to buy those cola chips, so she dared not buy them! Xiao Lin said again: "Do you like to play with lipstick? I have a lot of old cosmetics, and I give them to you." "I'm going to take Shui'er to the park later, will you go with me?" "You can understand human speech, how about I read the newspaper to you?" This little girl's thoughts are extremely brilliant.The swan grinned and stretched its neck "quack". Qu Feng brought Shui'er into the house to find a fairy tale book, came out and heard it, and shook his head: "Are you laughing? What an ugly sound." Dan Bing was a little discouraged when he was called "disgusting" twice in a row. In the past, although his voice was not necessarily very sweet, at least it could be called pleasant. How could he be ridiculed again and again like now.Secretly lost in thought, missing his physical body.But after not thinking for a long time, he turned around and dealt with the bag of chocolates. Xiao Lin resentfully said, "I've never seen anyone keep a swan as a pet." Qu Feng is serious: "It's not a pet, it's... a friend." Swan immediately burst into tears.Qufeng does have true love and spirituality, knows how to respect life, and all living beings are equal.She found that she loved him even more, and she didn't regret at all that she had sacrificed herself for him. The fairy tale book was not found, and Shui'er softly begged Qu Feng to tell a story.Qu Feng scratched his head: "Tell a story? What kind of story do you want to tell?" The swan danced "Little Snowflake Dance" lightly again, and the song had an idea, and he remembered: "Let me play a piece of music for you, and I will talk about it while playing." He opened the cover of the piano, played "The Nutcracker", and said : "Here's a Christmas present—an early Christmas present to you." Shui'er didn't understand and looked at Xiao Lin.Kobayashi also didn't understand. Qu Feng explained: "This is a fairy tale, the protagonist is a beautiful and lovely little girl named Shui'er..." Shui'er exclaimed, "Same as me." Qu Feng smiled: "Yes, the same as you..." It was indeed a beautiful gift--the wind strummed and spoke slowly, and the swans danced all the while he spoke.There are still spots of blood on the pure white feathers, like petaled plum blossoms in the heavy snow, fluttering, erratic and blurred. Shui'er held his breath, his eyes dazzled, and he couldn't help but slowly walked forward and danced with the swan.Her haggard sick face was blushed with excitement and dancing, and she was so charming.Her dance was awkward, simply opening her arms, turning in circles, staggering a little, the look of a person who rarely moves. Dan Bing sighed a little, this girl is twelve years old, her age is just about the same as her dancing age.When I was twelve years old, I was already able to hit a dozen or twenty spinners with my toes on the ground without taking a breath. "The story happened not so long ago, perhaps, just yesterday, or tomorrow, one thing is for sure, that day was Christmas Eve, many children flocked under a splendid Christmas tree to unwrap presents, and the gift Shui'er got was the strangest. , is a very ugly nutcracker. The children laugh at her, but she cherishes it very much, because all the gifts represent kindness and friendship. She accepts this strange gift. She likes this nutcracker and sleeps at night. Hold it to your chest at all times. When the moon rises, the Nutcracker opens, revealing a beautiful fairyland, with flowers, swans, and beautiful lakes reflecting the blue sky and white clouds..." "There's also the sound of the piano and Uncle Qu!" Shui'er interjected. Qu Fengxiao: "Yes, there is also the sound of the zither and Uncle Qu. Uncle Qu is playing the zither, while swans and water are dancing. At this moment, crazy mice appear, and they want to destroy this beauty and tranquility..." Shui'er stopped and said, "Oh!" Qufeng ignored it, and continued: "Shui'er's dance was interrupted, and she said: Oops. The Nutcracker said: Don't be afraid. He commanded the toy soldiers to fight with the mouse country and won a big victory. Then the Nutcracker became Became a handsome prince..." Shui'er smiled: "It became Uncle Qu." Qu Feng also laughed: "...Prince Walnut took Shui'er's hand to roam the candy kingdom together, and was welcomed by the fairy. With the fairy stick waving, all the candies in the kingdom came alive and became chocolate people, candied haws people , lollipop man, marshmallow man, fruit candy man, white rabbit toffee man..." "And the Popping Candy Man!" "...there are also popping sugar figures. Many sugar figures wake up laughing, as if they have slept for a hundred years, because it is the water that wakes them up, they are very happy, thank you very much for the water, they all come over one after another Salute her and invite her to their round dance. The water sings and dances with the candy men, and the air becomes joyful and sweet..." After the story was told, Shui'er stopped dancing, stared at the music and asked longingly: "Is it true? Is there really such a sweet fairyland?" "Yes, just like now." Qu Feng was still playing the piano, and gestured to the swan with his eyes. The swan has folded its wings and is leaning peacefully beside Shui'er.When she raised her head high, she was just as high as Shui'er.Shui'er hugged her, her face was still red, her eyes were shining brightly, the poor child hadn't been this happy for a long time. Xiao Lin applauded excitedly, and said to the swan: "From now on, I will never fight against you again! I will buy you a lot of Coke as a reward." Shui'er was surprised: "Do swans also drink Coke?" Xiao Lin asked the swan to perform for her, and the swan became displeased again. She is a dancer, and dancing is her job, but she drinks Coke and eats potato chips when performing?Hmph, I don't know what is going on in this woman's empty head! Qu Feng blocked: "Xiao Lin, you always treat her like an ordinary bird!" "But it was a bird after all." "I don't think so. I told you that I consider her a friend. Xiao Lin, I hope you can respect my friend." Xiao Lin was slightly dazed, she rarely saw Qu Feng speak so seriously, for a swan. Still immersed in the fairy tale, Shui'er said softly, "I really wish I had a nutcracker like that." Qu Feng looked into her eyes: "When you close your eyes and listen to music, enjoy it quietly, think quietly, and imagine that you already have such a magical nutcracker, then, in tonight's dream, you would really have it." "Are you sure?" Shui'er also looked into Qu Feng's eyes and asked. "I promise." Qu Feng replied. A strange friendship quickly developed between them.Xiao Lin looked at this beautiful music, this beautiful swan dance, the sincerity of the music style and the sparkling eyes of Shui'er. Suddenly, a peaceful religious and holy emotion rose in her heart, and she was deeply moved by this scene. moved...