Chapter 7 silence is a knife

Su Mu was walking on the street and among the crowd, but he felt that he was walking in the desert and beside the big river. There was a kind of sadness of "the wind is rustling, and the water is cold", and his heart was both empty and full. Feeling empty and hopeless, but also full of inexplicable sadness and depression. Not only because Xue Bingchan rejected her, but also because the more he remembered the evil fate of his previous life, the more depressed he felt.That unrivaled kindness and appalling disappointment are beyond the reach of a normal modern person, and even unbelievable.

It's so against humanity! The sky was overcast and hot, and from time to time there would be a faint rumble of thunder that would stop halfway through the hoarse sound, as if the heavens were coughing.The cicadas hissed and sang among the branches, working hard like painstaking efforts. "It's going to rain!" Pedestrians shouted, hurrying on their way, a scene of chaos.Suddenly a gust of wind blew up on the ground, which didn't bring even the slightest bit of coolness, but instead made it gray and sticky. The cramped and chaotic world outside and the coolness and cleanliness of the Bingchan Building are two completely different worlds.

So, why bother to force Xue Bingchan to think of it again?Why pull Xue Bingchan from her world into her own world? The people in the square had already dispersed, and the sound of the flute seemed to be cut off suddenly by someone. The snake man Zhuyeqing saw Su Mu coming out of the building from a distance, and immediately cleaned up the mess, twisting his waist to meet him, "Hey, seeing Xue Bing Are there cicadas?" Su Mu looked at her angrily: "Now you recognize me again?" He still remembered the embarrassment of the star card. "Did she remember?" The snake man didn't think he was disobedient, and smiled seductively, "You look good today. At least she is willing to see you, which is a big improvement."

"Progress? I said it's the end." Su Mu spread his hands. "Hey, Brother Snake, stop worrying about my affairs, forget it." "Are you planning to give up?" "I give up." Su Mu looked at her in frustration. It was strange that no matter how delicately Zhuyeqing dressed up and how tactfully she was, he couldn't treat her as a woman. He looked at her like looking at a transparent wall. The glass wall, the eyes go straight through, looking far away.And the tone of his speech did not seem to be talking to her at all, but more like talking to himself: "She doesn't remember me, not at all. I admit defeat. No matter how many disasters and sufferings I have to endure in the rest of my life, I will never forget me." I admit it, and I don’t want to make any more efforts. Since I owe her all this, and since suffering is my mission this time in this world, then let’s suffer. No matter how much suffering, there will always be a day when it will come to me If you die, everything will be over."

"I can't even die!" The snake man said sadly, "Drinking Mengpo soup is the rule of hell, and mortals have no right to decide whether to remember or forget. But you acted against the sky and let Xue Bingchan do it while alive." Things that can only be done after death, violate the cycle of heaven, and must be punished! Your debts will be repaid from generation to generation, unless she can remember everything in the previous life, and forgive you, forgive you, Reconcile with you again, only in this way can the disaster end and your reincarnation truly stop." Reincarnation?Su Mu closed his eyes, as if he saw an endless secret passage, extending endlessly, with thorns all over the way, but he was staggering and hurting on the road, but he could never reach the end.

What is reincarnation?Reincarnation is endless, it goes round and round, and even death cannot be self-determination. There was thunder rolling across the sky, and Su Mu couldn't bear it any longer, and yelled: "God is deciding this game of chess, what about upholding justice, and what about retribution is unpleasant, but who asked me to hurt Xue Bingchan? Who asked me to hurt Xue Bingchan? Xue Bingchan drank Wangqing powder? Since everything is predestined by heaven, isn’t it also God’s fault for all this? Why do you use the excuse of making a mistake to punish me? If it should be punished, it should be punished first! sky!"

Zhuyeqing turned pale with shock: "It's the opposite! How dare you scold the sky? How dare you blame the sky?" "So what if I scold you?" Su Mu didn't care, and simply put his hands on his hips, pointing at the sky and began to curse, "God, listen: what kind of cycle of heaven and earth is playing all day long, and what is right and proper is simply nonsense! You put Men and women in the world treat you like nothing, and you control them, let them kill each other, let them suffer from cold, hunger and disease, let them obey you out of despair, beg you, let them live in your shadow for generations, You are struggling to live, why do you do all this? It’s just a game, a game of chess! Why are you pretending to be serious and moral? Stop giving yourself money! You just want us to be afraid of you! I’m not afraid So what? You have sent me to the 18th level of hell, and you have made me uneasy in the cycle of life and death. What else can you do? Come on! What tricks do you have! You make me a pig, a dog, Let me be a lonely ghost, never to be reincarnated, whatever you want! You do it! You play it! I don’t care! I’m not afraid of you! Come here, come here!”

He yelled and cursed, beat his chest and stamped his feet, as if he was crazy.The snake man has long been frightened, she has never seen a person with such courage, a person who is not afraid of the sky, not even afraid of death, not even afraid of being transformed into a pig into a dog and never being reborn, what can you do with him What about?Even God has nothing to do with him, right? Layers of dark clouds piled up, getting lower and lower, the snake man looked at the sky and thought, it's going to thunder, it's going to rain, it's going to be lightning and thunder, the sky is about to strike with thunder!This arrogant Su Mu is about to be burned into a zombie by electric fire, and he will die in an ugly way.The snake man even backed back involuntarily, not only because he was afraid of this madman who was full of foul words and curses, but also because he was afraid that when God punished him, Chi Yu would be hurt.

However, at this moment, a ray of light suddenly penetrated through the gaps in the clouds, and then, it became brighter and brighter, the clouds parted, the sun shone on the earth again, and there were more people on the street, a little girl with a ribbon on her head The girl came over and said with a sweet smile: "Today is the first day of our ice shop opening, guests are welcome for free, please taste!" She brought out a delicate glass plate, and there were two ice creams in the plate, which you can feel at a glance. Refreshing lemon ice balls. In such a humid and oppressive weather, two ice hockey pucks are like fairy fruits, which is really very eager.Su Mu was scolding so dryly that when he saw the ice puck, he immediately took the plate, swallowed it into his mouth, and said hastily, "It's delicious, but it's a pity it's too little. It would be more satisfying if there were two glasses of ice water!"

The snake man squeezed over jealously: "Hey, don't be so dishonest, let me have one, let me taste one. Little sister, can you give me a plate?" "But there's only this plate." Without looking at her, the little girl took out a glass of frozen watermelon juice from the ice bucket, and asked Su Mu sweetly, "Would you like some water, sir? This is also for free." !" "I want to drink, I want to drink! Okay, great!" Su Mu grabbed the cup, drank it down, and asked, "What else do you have that you can taste for free, bring it out." "There are also desserts. This is the newly baked Hibiscus Egg Tart. This is the Cherry Cake. This is the Mango Egg Pancake. This is the Sydney..."

"All good, all good, come on, let me taste a piece of each." Su Mu smiled from ear to ear, and praised repeatedly while eating heartily.When in my life have I tasted so many delicacies all at once? As for the snake man, he was stunned to watch, this Su Mu, who has been unlucky for eight lifetimes, shouldn't have choked on drinking water, fell while walking, lost money in business, and hit him with a car?Why did he suddenly have such good luck that he could even meet such a good thing as a free lunch? Could it be that when a person is fearless and not even afraid of the sky, the sky should be afraid of him? Facts have proved that the snake man's guess is extremely correct. After that, Su Mu's luck suddenly improved, and it was extremely good. Not only was he promoted three times in a month to sit in the position of sales manager again, but also the treatment was better than before, the salary was twice as high, and there was Private car use. No matter when you go to a restaurant, you can always meet discounts; when you drive on the street, you always get a green light all the way, and when you park, there is always an empty parking space as if you are waiting for a seat; when you walk on the road, you can pick it up by lowering your head casually. Money; negotiating with customers, a few words can become a life-threatening friendship, and even the most favorable terms can be obtained; the most enviable thing is that any woman who has had acquaintance with him will fall in love with him immediately , winking at him frequently, as if just nodding his head, the other party would jump on him. However, Su Mu was not happy. He could no longer see any fat and pink in his eyes. He only had Xue Bingchan in his heart. No matter how unfeeling she was and how much she hated him, he just thought of her and hoped to see her again. On the one hand, even being scolded by her is good.However, it was promised by himself: From now on, I will not bother her.How can I break my promise? Su Mu suffered from lovesickness, and only thought of Xue Bingchan in his sleep and dreams. Her indifference and unfeeling were all a great attraction to him, and he could never forget her.If you can't see her again, what is the use of more material and good luck?When he was struggling to survive, there were still many things that could involve his energy, but now everything is going well, there is nothing to distract him, the shadow of Xue Bingchan jumps in front of his eyes more clearly, and the pain of lovesickness becomes more and more serious.That is a blow that is harder to bear than walking, wrestling, drinking water and belching.Su Mu was almost driven crazy by this longing. He finally went to ask Zhuyeqing again. "Zhuyeqing, I beg you." Su Mu looked through Zhuyeqing's eyes, talking to himself like a person with a high fever, and the burning desire made him look like he was talking nonsense, "Yes What method can I get Xue Bingchan's heart? I am willing to pay any price, and it doesn't matter if I cut my head and bones." Zhuyeqing laughed victoriously, clenched his fists in front of his chest, made a gesture of praying, and looked at God adoringly: "Oh my God, my supreme God, I saw your endless magic power once again, and saw your infinite magic power. Impossible decree, are you punishing this sinner? Are you making a verdict on his disrespect? People, small, shallow, self-righteous people, get carried away with a little bit, and cry when they lose a little bit , How ignorant and mediocre they are, how can they understand that your magical power is boundless and irresistible? How can they realize that your supernatural power is boundless and far-reaching?" As soon as she grabbed it, she grabbed two snakes out of nowhere and played with them as she pleased.She kissed the two snakes, and the human tongue was entangled with the snakes, which made Su Mu suddenly feel his heart tumbling and almost vomit. However, the more Su Mu felt uncomfortable, the more proud Zhuyeqing seemed to be. She lowered her head and pretended to be looking down, as if she was looking down at a dog. She twisted her water snake's waist, stared at her triangular eyes, and spat out words like a letter: "Su Mu, you finally Are you begging me again? You don’t scold the sky anymore. Didn’t you say that you don’t care and are not afraid? Didn’t you say that it doesn’t matter if you can’t be reborn forever? Why, after a few days of easy life, you’re greedy for tenderness again? Human , humble and insignificant person, who is so aggressive and does not know how to repent!" Su Mu sat down and suddenly understood, no wonder the luck was so unbelievable these days, but it turned out that it was just another move of God, a game, just a trick. Isn't the world always like this, sometimes people despair because of suffering, and sometimes they become cowardly and trivial because they have tasted a little sweetness. God and all the bosses in the world know how to use this kind of gesture: a little bitterness, a little sweetness, will make people lose their morale. Human's seven emotions and six desires are actually under the control of heaven! However, since this is the case, there is a huge gap between the power of God and man, so why bother to treat man as an opponent and spend so much trouble?If the sky can decide whether he is in love, then the sky should also be able to decide whether he is betrayed, so how can there be a scene where he asks the sky with his halberd hand?How can you allow yourself to be angry, resist, and question the sky? No, God is not omnipotent!People are not completely powerless, and they can be caught with nothing! Su Mu stood up and said solemnly: "Okay, I don't ask you! I don't believe that your innocence is supernatural and omnipotent. Otherwise, why would he force me to admit his omnipotence? He It’s okay to directly control my thoughts and beliefs, why is it so troublesome? If you ask me, the sky is the most boring and redundant thing in the world! I just don’t fear him! My love and hate, I have to decide for myself!” After speaking, Su Mu strode out without looking back. "You will regret it, and you will be punished twice for your frivolity!" The snake man cursed, "Su Mu, you want to compete with the sky? You are delusional! Unless you also drink Wangqingsan, otherwise, as long as you have a little Human nature is different, as long as you still have feelings, you will suffer, you will beg me, you will be afraid of the sky, you will, and you will definitely come to me again!" However, Su Mu only left her a resolute back. The snake man ran after him for a few steps in frustration, but stopped helplessly, raised his hands trembling to the sky and shouted: "God, God, look, look at how abominable this sinner is, please punish him!" !" As she prayed, the sky suddenly darkened, and the dark clouds merged, completely covering the sun.Could it be that the sky is also ashamed? The sky was gloomy, and it was an old quilt that stretched far and wide. Is it because too many emperors have been buried under the loess, or is it because of the deep resentment brought about by the killings over the years? The sky in Chang'an was overcast and cloudy, and it would not clear up in time. The house was damp and moldy, the walls were wet all around, and mushrooms grew on the carved window rails. Su Muzhe felt annoyed because of Xue Bingchan. Xue Bingchan, who had never bothered him "before he was alive", has now become his biggest daily "work". He has to bathe her and help her dry.He couldn't let a moldy body be a weapon matchmaker. However, he has never done these mundane tasks. How to keep a person who can't take care of himself clean and dry?It’s okay to say that the days are sunny, just push out more to bask in the sun; what about the rainy Huangmei days? And this matter cannot be done by others.Because she is his exclusive, his secret weapon.Even if she died at his hands, she couldn't live beside others.If someone steals Xue Bingchan's body by spying on the secret, it is equivalent to controlling Su Muzhe's soul, which is called giving someone a handle. Therefore, Su Muzhe hid Xue Bingchan in her deep boudoir and did not allow anyone to approach her. In those days, the heavy rain sealed everyone in the house, and the world seemed to be narrowed, only condensed to the size of the courtyard of Su Mansion; people in the world suddenly disappeared, leaving only Su Muzhe and Xue Bingchan. In the eyes of Su Muzhe, servants are never regarded as human beings. Even if they walk around in front of him, he will turn a blind eye and treat them as moving scenery; while the sleeping Xue Bingchan is always alive in his heart Shengxiang, because she brought him martial arts, that is, brought him success.The sleeping Xue Bingchan is more important to him than when he is awake, it is simply his second self. He drew a lotus flower with splashed ink and hung it in the house. Because of the tide, the ink has not dried for a long time. The lotus blooms gracefully on the wall, as if there is a faint fragrance floating. It didn't occur to him why he did it. Maybe subconsciously, he wanted Xue Bingchan to sleep in the lotus fragrance? He hugged Xue Bingchan and silently waited for the sun.He somewhat misses Jingcui Lake in the sun, and wants to take a walk by the lake, with Xue Bingchan. Not only Jingcui Lake, but also Rose Garden, Leifeng Pagoda in Hangzhou, Hanshan Temple in Suzhou, Cangshan Erhai Lake in Dali, Linhaixueyuan in Northeast...these places where he left his successful footprints, in the past he only cared about holding them there Which bets he has played, which opponents he has won, but now, he misses those beautiful or bleak scenery. He didn't know whether this longing, this never-before-seen interest came from his own consciousness, or the subtle influence of Xue Bingchan in his arms... Su Mu stood in front of the Bingchan Building, seeing that the sky was getting darker and darker, and it was going to rain.But he didn't care, he didn't believe that lightning and thunder would kill him, and even if he really died, he would have nothing to fear.Back then, Xue Bingchan drank it knowing that it was poison, which made him remember several lives; now, knowing that it was death, he must stick to his faith and die in front of her, letting lightning illuminate everything, including her body. memories and feelings.In that way, maybe she will be like him and remember him from now on! Thunder rang, rain fell, and lightning flew past.Xue Bingchan stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows of the building, opened a corner of the curtain, and stared at Su Mu downstairs for a long time.This strange young man, he said he would stop bothering her, so he really never came to her again, and suddenly reappeared today, but in order to keep his promise, he never went upstairs to bother her, and he was willing to stand in the rain and get wet. Is he really crazy?But it's not like, she has seen his gambling skills, it is still very good, a thoughtful and organized person.However, why is he so inexplicably infatuated with himself?They were clearly two people who had nothing to do with each other. Why did his eyes burn with such deep pain every time he saw her?And why do I loathe him like that and avoid him for no reason? When thinking of the loathing, Xue Bingchan suddenly realized that at some point, her loathing towards Su Mu had disappeared, replaced by an inexplicable deep concern and curiosity.Part of her wanted to get to know this young man again, to get close to him, to get to know him, to listen carefully to his story.Yes, didn't he say that he would tell her a very sad story?Why did I keep rejecting him and not letting him speak out? Xue Bingchan finally turned around and said to the secretary: "Please ask that person to come in to shelter from the rain and drink a glass of water, and tell him that if he doesn't have a cold, I want to talk to him." "A grain of sand makes a world, and a flower makes a heaven. Then, wouldn't a garden full of roses become a gathering of heaven?" In the rose garden, Xue Bingchan accompanied Su Muzhe, who was rarely interested in visiting the garden, while walking and chatting, picking flowers into baskets at any time. "The flowers bloom on the branches, but they fall into the mud. What is the meaning of wealth and glory?" "But the flower always has to open and wither to become a whole flower, and we haven't tried to experience real victory." "You'd rather win before you lose?" She looked up at him. "It's rotten in the mud." He laughed, with a carefree expression on his face. She felt helpless, and at the same time fell in love with his smile as always. After coming to the mansion for half a year, she already knew him very well. He has a mind, but no soul.The words kindness, sympathy, tenderness and love have no meaning to him, all he needs is victory, honor, betting and winning. But it was too late when she realized this, she loved him hopelessly and was devoted to him. In her eyes and heart, there is only him, not herself.Her feelings, life, and will can all be dedicated to him.She was even willing to give him her soul if he wanted it. Soul, however, was something he never recognized. But what does it matter?Even if he humiliated her in every way and whipped her thousands of times, but as long as once in a while, at such a critical moment, he smiled at her, she would have no complaints and be satisfied. "My lord, look." She pointed out to him that among the red roses in the garden, there was a snow-white flower blooming miraculously, as bright and clear as the moon.She exclaimed, "How beautiful!" "I'll pick it for you." He walked over, picked off the flower, and put a hairpin in her hair. Her eyes suddenly shone brighter than flowers. In the hand of a rose, there is still a lingering fragrance after a long time.The person who sent the flowers remembered, but the person who received the flowers forgot? Su Mu and Xue Bingchan finally sat down face to face, just like a pair of old friends reunited after a long absence. Even a blind man can smell the familiar smell that cannot be concealed.However, it was clearly the first time for them to really talk calmly. "Tell your story." Xue Bingchan said, trying to keep her voice calm and reserved, but she couldn't help but soften her tone. Inexplicably, I wanted to cry. Su Mu had mixed feelings, how familiar this situation was.Back then, Xue Bingchan cooked many cups of tea for him and spent many good nights with him, but how did he cherish it?In this life, how many times has he dreamed of such a scene, and now it has finally become a reality, but how can he know what the next step will be after the story is told?He fights against the sky and his life, will it bring Xue Bingchan a blessing or a curse? Thinking of the word "Doutian", Su Mu was terrified. He was already a dead pig and was not afraid of boiling water. He didn't care what God did to him, but what about Xue Bingchan?Bingchan is innocent, she was kept in the dark.She doesn't know him, doesn't care about him, doesn't remember him, so she won't suffer, won't be sad, and won't suffer the same fate as him.However, once he tells the truth about fate, can her peaceful life continue? Moreover, how could he bear to repeat to her the final ending of Xue Bingchan in his previous life?How to tell her personally about the inhumane fire, the tragedy of butterflies in the fire? He suddenly thought that in this life, Xue Bingchan had all the smooth sailing and everything she wanted, and it was all because he failed her too much in the previous life.However, when she remembered those tragic past events, when she said forgiveness to him, rewriting his history, would her own destiny also change from now on, and go astray?Will she also share half of his disaster because of angering the sky? No, in his previous life he had already done too much to Bing Chan, how could he continue to be sorry to her in this life?No matter what kind of unfair treatment he endured, what reason does he have to drag Bingchan into the water and let her suffer with him? Let him rot to death in the muddy pond alone, suffering from fire and water, the snow and ice cicada should always be pure and clear, high above the ground. You can't say it, you can't say it, it's wrong to say it! Su Mu looked at Xue Bingchan and decided to stay silent.