Chapter 8 Eight, poor life pity me willing to be a concubine

If I could have known that Yizhong's proposal for divorce would bring about such a terrible disaster, I would never have agreed with him to negotiate with Xiao Lizi, and would rather be his eternal lonely lover. But the human heart is insatiable. When the love between me and Yizhong grows like grass, we seem to have returned to our childhood, forgetting or remembering but unwilling to think about all the constraints and obstacles, and only longing for time. Always together, never apart. That kind of glue is like paint, that kind of passion is like fire, and I can no longer bear the slightest bit of hypocrisy and perfunctory.The hands that hold each other are unwilling to part for a minute; the eyes that look at each other can't see anyone but each other.

Even if I am willing to ignore the fact that he is still married, he himself, my dear Yizhong, can no longer bear to feel sorry for me. He said: "I have been a romantic person all my life, and I am merciful everywhere. But today, I know that to truly love someone is to wholeheartedly and without distractions." Such a strong love will be condemned by God. Anything too perfect is unbelievable, or unattainable.But we, blinded by love, think we have the courage to bear the fire of purgatory.I want to try everything.including filing for divorce. For this reckless mistake, I will live in repentance for the rest of my life.

Regret and longing flowed in my life like blood, and when I died, they turned into bats and flew away. The omen had been revealed that morning when I walked into "Flower Rhyme". Opening the trap door, I smell a rotting plant.It was the petals I had saved, which my assistant didn't seal properly when I got off work last night, and withered alone in the dark night. But conventionally there is no reason to rot so quickly, and it is so rich that it casts an ominous shadow on this cold morning. Turning on the air conditioner, I rolled up my sleeves and started cleaning, sweating profusely in the winter.After finally cleaning up the smell, I sat down and made myself a cup of tea.However, as soon as the boiling water was poured into the cup, the fragile crystal glass burst.

I was taken aback, and held my hand that was injured by the boiling water, feeling uneasy. The girls came one after another, and when they saw me, they greeted me happily, complained repeatedly about the cold weather, the crowded bus, and criticized each other's makeup and clothes.Usually I dislike their noise, but today, this trivial voice gave me a sense of reality, and I felt a little calm in my heart. At this moment, the door of the clinic was knocked open, it was knocked open, not pushed open. When the door opened, four or five angry men and women poured in. The leader was Mrs. Song Yizhong, who had been on my heart like a needle for nearly ten years—Xiao Lizi!

"Sister-in-law." I went up to meet her, then turned my head to the side to avoid her sudden slap on the face. Xiao Lizi lost his hand, let alone gossip, glanced around, swept away the dazzling array of bottles and cans on the table with his first palm, and shouted like a play: "Hit me!" The accompanying ones were probably the brothers and sisters-in-law of the natal family. After getting the order, they immediately punched and kicked, and fought violently, overturning the tables, chairs, beds, and smashing vases and tea cans.And those two sisters-in-law were even more quick-witted. While smashing, they didn't forget to check the label on the cosmetic bottle, and just put a few famous brand cosmetic oils in their pockets.

The girls yelled and dodged, unwilling to argue, I stopped: "Let them smash, smash things, register clearly and let Mr. Song pay. If they touch me, report to 110 immediately!" Xiao Lizi was stunned for a moment, and suddenly sat on the ground and burst into tears: "You little fairy, you know how to seduce men when you are 12 years old. I have defended you day and night for more than ten years. What enmity do I have with you? What do you do?" Fang'er robbed me of my husband, and my ghosts linger! You also know how to marry, so don't pat your conscience and think about it, there are so many men in the world, why do you only want to rob my husband! Rabbits don't eat grass beside the nest , Song Yizhong said that he is also your senior brother, and you are ten years old, why don't you let him go..."

Although the girls in the store were already familiar with Yizhong, it was the first time they heard about the deep relationship between me and him. They all stared at him like watching a play, and listened with interest. with. I sat down, poured a cup of tea, held it to Xiao Lizi with both hands, and called again: "Sister-in-law, you are Mrs. Song every day, and I will always call you sister-in-law. The divorce was mentioned to you by Yizhong. You should talk to him Talk about it. Come to me to make trouble, I am already a divorced person anyway, what do I care? If you want to smash, just smash, if you want to scold, just scold, if you are tired, there are refreshments here, I am not afraid anyway."

Xiao Lizi stared blankly at him, helped himself to get up from the chair, sat still, and looked at his elder brother and sister-in-law for help. The natal brother took a step forward and slapped the table in a pretentious manner: "You are not afraid, I don't believe that Song Yizhong is not afraid either! Just wait, we are going to smash his shop too! Sister, go!" "Brother, wait a minute." Xiao Lizi hesitated, "It's broken, is it useful?" After all, it is her husband's shop. She is Mrs. Song Yizhong one day, and one day she is the owner of Yizhong Clinic. Why not just smash my shop, or her own shop?She couldn't bear it.

The sister-in-law of the Li family suggested: "It doesn't matter if you don't smash it. You take the child and sit in his hospital, and you go wherever he goes. If he wants to divorce, you will ruin his reputation. I don't believe it. Song Yizhong is now at least one Now that you're a little celebrity, don't you care about your image?" Xiao Lizi got the trick, and turned to me again, a cunning flashed in his eyes: "Bai Shu, do you care?" I didn't expect her to come to this trick.I can't do this kung fu of crying, making trouble and hanging myself, but it still works for some people.

Confidence was reinfused into Xiao Lizi's dull eyes, and he frothed at me: "Song Yizhong is your senior brother. You have liked and worshiped him since you were a child, right? If his image is destroyed by me, go to Where, others are pointing at his spine and scolding him, not treating him as a man, so that he can never be a doctor again, do you care?" I am defeated. I care, of course I care.Song Yijung is my idol, my pillar, my life.How can I not care?If Yizhong isn't a doctor, why is he still Song Yizhong? Little Lizi got a little chance of winning, stood up with difficulty while supporting the table, and pointed at me to teach me a lesson: "Smashing your store today is the first step, be smart, you should immediately sever ties with Song Yi. If you pester him again, don't worry , I have a lot of time to spend with you. My husband, my family, you want to break up, you are dreaming! You want me to live a bad life, so don’t even think about a good day! The husband will give it to you!"

After the stormy attack, Xiao Lizi's family disappeared in a flash, leaving behind the jittery Miss Hua Zhiyun, who were cleaning the battlefield with sad faces and whispering to each other. I suddenly felt hopeless, grabbed my coat and walked out, walking aimlessly, not knowing where to go. Suddenly I remembered that rainy evening in the third year of high school. I skipped school and walked in such a dazed manner until I reached Yizhong’s clinic. I threw myself into his arms and cried, and asked him, “Do you want me?” ten years.In the past ten years, I have worked so hard and so earnestly to look forward to the love of Yizhong. Now, I have finally got it, but I can't hold it. Seeing that I will lose it again, how can I be willing?How can you give up? The phone rang, and it was Yizhong: "Bai Zhu, where are you?" His voice was full of anxiety and concern. My tears suddenly fell down: "Yizhong, Yizhong, I want to see you." "I'm coming, where are you?" Yizhong, Yizhong, as long as I have your love, what kind of suffering will I care about?Just have your love. We all expected that divorce would be a battle, but we still didn't expect it to be fought so hard. On the second day, Xiao Lizi really brought his family to the Yizhong Clinic and made a big fuss.Although they didn't smash the store, but just sat in and demonstrated, it was quite powerful.At least, every employee in the hospital knew that their boss was a playboy who wanted to abandon his wife and son for a vixen, and his wife was so weak and innocent. Then the baby went to the hospital.Although it was just a cold, Xiao Lizi wanted to take the opportunity to make a fuss and deliberately make a big fuss.I notified all the relatives, especially Yizhong's parents, who were specially picked up from Hanzhong, and they all lived in Song's house in the name of taking care of their grandson, fully feeling the virtuousness of their daughter-in-law and the fragility of their grandson. How could Song Yizhong ignore such a wife and children? Xiao Lizi launched a comprehensive battle to defend her marriage. The participants included her family, Yizhong's family, all the staff of the hospital, and even my family. My mother and sister took turns preaching to me, and specially called me to a family meeting, and even my brother-in-law joined in. My mother said: "Why did I agree to divorce you and the surnamed Ye? Isn't it because that woman has his child? A man and a woman are just two people, but with a child, it is a family. The child is the only one in the world. Constant blood relationship. Song Yizhong and Xiao Lizi are no longer in love, and they have lived together for almost ten years. The baby is Yizhong's heart, is he willing to let it go? Even if you don't care about Xiao Lizi's hatred, can you not care about that child's hatred? When the child grows up, he will hate you and Song Yizhong for the rest of his life. Yizhong will not be happy with you, have you ever thought about this?" My sister said: "Don't say that Song Yizhong won't get married in all likelihood. Even if he divorces, his reputation will be ruined. It is absolutely impossible for Xiao Lizi to let him go without exposing his skin. Even if you get Song Yizhong, you are just a disgraced man." Poor bastard, what's the point?" Even the brother-in-law said: "It's natural for a man to eat from the pot and look into the pot, but it's too stupid to cause such a serious divorce. Take me and your sister as an example. It's impossible for a husband and wife to not quarrel for so many years. Yes, but if one day I divorce your sister and marry another one, I don't think I can completely forget about your sister and compare the two of them endlessly. What is Ye Zizhen doing now? So? Didn’t you call you every day? You gave him to Hu Sirong without making a fuss, are they happy?” I feel ashamed.Such private feelings were analyzed and judged by them like cutting melons and vegetables, which made me feel humiliated. The forehead of the divorced woman has already been branded with scarlet letters, not to mention that this divorced woman is still encouraging other men to divorce. I am no longer a pure and innocent little Baishu in their eyes, but a poisonous poppy. On the other hand, the bombing that Yizhong faced was more rigorous and intense than mine. We have to not see each other for now. Every night, he would find an opportunity to call me, but the words were so weak and too evasive.I dare not ask about his family, he dare not talk about commitment and love lightly.All I can say is "How are you" and "Take care". However, it was a waste of time to ask. Of course he knew that I was not good.How can I be okay if I can't see him? But what else can we say and do? After suffering for more than ten days, Yizhong finally found a chance to sneak out to meet me. "Let's elope." This sentence has been repeated countless times by me.But this time, Yizhong said it. "Baishu, let's go, go anywhere. Regardless of whether the law recognizes it or not, no matter what people say, we leave Xi'an, go far away, go to a place where no one knows us, and start from scratch." What a tempting proposition, as beautiful as a dream. I'm almost heartbroken.No, I'm already heartbroken.What Yizhong said was actually what I had thought a long time ago.Ten years ago, I had dreamed like this: to stay and fly with him, to a place where no one knew us, where men farmed and women weaved, and lived the simplest life, just like Weaver Girl and Cowherd, being a couple of gods and gods. However, myths are myths after all, and dreams are dreams after all.How could I have the heart to let the talented Song Yijun end his bright future because of me.He is his father's favorite student and one of the best medical experts in China today.His disappearance is equivalent to the disappearance of dozens of new special medicines that have not yet been born. Not to mention I can't bear it, even if my father is under the nine springs, he will die with regret. I took a deep breath and made a decision in my mind. "Yizhong, if you can say that, I'm satisfied. But we don't want to leave Xi'an unless we have to. My mother and sister are still in this city, and I don't want to leave them." Yizhong hugged me tightly and said, "Bai Zhu, you really make my heart ache." I looked up and looked at him. He said: "Since you were twelve years old, you have always been able to make my heart hurt. I said to myself, this is a little girl, the purest in the world, Song Yizhong, you must not desecrate her feelings. I forced myself to stay away from You, indifferent to you. I thought I could forget my feelings. I made many girlfriends and thought I was very chic. But in the end, I still can’t forget you, a little girl. Bai Zhu, if you are only twelve years old forever, never When I grow up, then I will be able to control myself and stop loving you." My tears flow down.I feel bitter, but also happy.The newborn mermaid who donated her tail stepped on the tip of the knife and danced with her bare feet, smiling while bleeding, perhaps this is the state of mind. Then one day, Yizhong called me and said that he had signed up for a volunteer medical team to go deep into the mountainous areas to do free medical tours for three months. I sigh.This is Yizhong, who looks stable and firm, but whenever there is something that cannot be handled, he will think of running away.I understand very well that his so-called free clinic is the same as the sudden acceptance of the invitation from the Beijing Research Institute back then, all because of cowardice. But I can't bear to complain about him.I should have known that my lover was never a brave lover, much less a perfect saint.He has the shortcomings of men in the whole world, passionate and cowardly.This is the first time he wants to love exclusively, but love is so difficult. I'm only afraid that the love I've been waiting for for ten years will be lost again. Yizhong's departure makes people suddenly lose their target and calm down.His parents soon returned to Hanzhong.Xiao Lizi took her baby back to her mother's house for a few days, but somehow she had an awkward fight with her elder brother and sister-in-law, and became unfamiliar instead.They lost their common enemy and became enemies themselves.There are endless quarrels between sisters-in-law every day.In the eyes of his elder brother and sister-in-law, Xiao Lizi seems to have become an abandoned wife of the Song family, and his words and expressions often reveal contempt.Xiao Lizi felt chilled, seeing clearly the water thrown by the married girl, her father and mother were not as close as her husband and children, and she was even more afraid of divorce.Since the in-laws, brother-in-law and sister-in-law are not enough to rely on for a long time, I have to find a way by myself. These are all my sister Bai Shao told me.Bai Shao had a talk with Xiao Lizi, one was to reconcile the conflict, and the other was because he didn't want the other party to see that there was no one in our family, and he wanted to stand up for me. With my sister's diplomatic ability, the meeting was actually a success.Xiao Lizi made an exception and didn't utter a bad word, but kept crying, asked the waiter for tissues again and again, and finally said aggrievedly that as long as Yizhong didn't mention divorce again, she would turn a blind eye to our affairs One eye, and promise not to come to my shop again. Bai Shao said: "As far as I'm concerned, this is also an expedient measure. You don't have to marry Song Yizhong, and even if you want to marry, you don't have to hurry. The marriage certificate is just a piece of paper, you tear it up You can't tear up the marriage they once had if you took away that piece of paper; you snatched that piece of paper, it doesn't mean that he can really say goodbye to everything in the past. The baby is still his child, and Xiao Lizi is still the child's mother. Their relationship is fundamentally unresolved and chaotic. Why not just keep their piece of paper, we can attack when we advance, we can defend when we retreat, take a step and watch, maybe you will be the first to change your mind in the future." Let her talk like a lotus flower, I just don't open my mouth. The relationship between the sisters, who have talked about everything since childhood, suddenly drifted away in an inexplicable extramarital affair. My sister is explaining right and wrong for me, but she is also looking for programs for herself.Like those neighbors who watched the Bai family move furniture out back then, there was an indescribable excitement and schadenfreude hidden in the seemingly sympathetic comments.This kind of psychology, maybe even she herself refuses to admit it. I feel alone. When a woman decides to take her lover as her duty, she is doomed to be alone. But I still followed my sister's wishes, and the next afternoon I brought a cup of peach blossom and winter melon to my door to insult Mrs. Song and Xiao Lizi. I know that I have been subdued this time, I am afraid that I will never be able to hold my head up again in the future.The pattern of one wife and one concubine is thus determined. But so what? It was I who fell in love with Yizhong first, he lost me, Xiao Lizi and Bao Bao, and without him, I lost even the hope of living. The relationship between him and me is like water and fish, while Xiao Li and Bao Bao are like fishing nets. It's better to work together than die. Xiao Lizi and I are actually equally helpless.Rather than continue to fight and force Song Yizhong to leave, it is better to coexist peacefully and let Yizhong come back. Xiao Lizi opened the door for me, quite embarrassingly. I rushed to call my sister-in-law, and took out desserts, spices, new high-quality essential oils and silver incense burners from the store, and a complete set of imported cosmetics from the handbag. As long as it is a woman, seeing these things will not be tempted. Xiao Lizi is a woman, so she is very happy, playing with those small bottles and cans, and asking me about the use and usage of each one.The two women in Song Yizhong don't have to worry about having nothing in common.The odd thing is that we didn't mention Yizhong in the whole afternoon. It’s not entirely true that he didn’t mention it at all, because Xiao Lizi’s topic centered on the baby: “Baby stayed at his grandma’s house for the past few days. His grandma kissed the baby very well, and said several times that he would transfer the baby to let him Live at grandma's house. Usually his father is reluctant, but as long as his father is not at home, his grandma will quickly take the baby. In those days, his grandma lived here, and when she left, she joked that she would take the baby to Hanzhong for a while. His grandma was terrified..." I couldn't put in a word other than to smile. His grandma, his grandma, and his father are such a tight-knit family that no needle can get in, and no one can get in. "His father", this title is more intimate and more realistic than "Our Jiayizhong". My silence finally made Xiao Lizi a little satisfied. She expected enough prestige, took a long breath, changed a sad face, and sighed: "These days, I haven't been able to sleep well. I rely on sleeping pills to help me sleep. It's really a headache." . " As I spoke, I unscrewed the bottle of sleeping pills in front of me, poured four tablets into my palm and ate them. I had to pick up some ready-made work to comfort me: "Always taking sleeping pills is not a good thing. In fact, you can try other methods, such as aromatherapy. I brought you a scented lamp and several kinds of flower essential oils. A few drops of lavender before going to bed every night can help you Soothes the nerves and aids sleep." Xiao Lizi was probably waiting for this sentence, and immediately said: "That's right, you are an expert in beauty clinics, and the time I went to your shop, it looked very high-end. I have known you for so many years, and I have never tried your craft Well, I've had a terrible headache these two days, Bai Zhu, why don't you give me a massage." I gasped.Come here to give her a massage, isn't that confirming her status as a concubine?However, if he left in a huff, wouldn't today be in vain? If you lower your head, maybe Yizhong can come back tomorrow; if you don't lower your head, you may let Yizhong live in struggle forever, and eventually lose him. What kind of bitter fruit can't be enjoyed in order to be in the right place? Once, when I was Mrs. Ye Zizhen, I did beauty treatment for his mistress Hu Sirong; now, as Song Yizhong's mistress, I have to massage for his ex-wife. Could it be that this is life? The fragrance lamp was lit, and in the melancholy fragrance of lavender, I evenly applied the massage cream to Xiao Lizi's face, and started the first door-to-door service in my life—not without humiliation. But I said to myself: Every time I make a circle with my hands, it is equivalent to taking a step forward with my feet, and I am walking towards Yizhong.Yizhong, he is waiting for me at the other end. For him, I am willing to bear all grievances and humiliations, as long as I can be with him...