Chapter 6 Chapter 6 Yangjian: The Snow Child and the Maiden Cloud

Ling Zheng was walking in the subway station.Is the subway passage the closest to Huangquan? At this moment, he thought of Wuyan. He didn't know the reason, but he just thought of her.In a daze, at this moment, she was also thinking about him, calling him, he clearly felt her breath, felt so close to her, as if he would call out her name, and when he called out, She will appear in front of him immediately.It's like, "I looked for her thousands of times in the crowd, and suddenly I looked back, but that person was there, in a dimly lit place." He vaguely remembered that winter, he had already graduated, Rachel and Wuyan were seniors, and they went to Beijing for an internship during the winter vacation, so he took advantage of the weekend to visit them.It was a snowy day, and Shanghai students had never seen real snow. They were so excited that they forgot the cold, and huddled together on the playground to build snowmen and have snowball fights.He and Rachel were among them.Watching the battle without face, no, or it should be said to be "listening" to the battle.She stood far away in the corner of the playground, listening to the boys and girls running around, laughing and cursing.She smiled too, sharing their joy and freedom.

She stood alone on the edge of the playground, lingering with each other, but she didn't hurt herself, her smile was as warm as spring.He turned his head by chance, saw her smile, was moved and admired, couldn't help walking over, stuffed a rolled snowball into her hand, and shouted: "Come, hit me!" Then he turned and ran, Waving his hand, he shouted: "See if you can hit it?" Before the words finished, Wuyan raised his hand, the snowball drew an arc in the air, and hit his chest accurately, and he was shot, exaggerating He yelled: "Wow, I'm dead." He fell on his back.

Wuyan smiled and clapped her hands, ran over to pull him up, and shouted: "I hit you! Did it hurt?" She smiled so freely and brilliantly.He looked at her, delighted and dazzled by that smile.Thinking about it now, at that moment, did he really only have sympathy and admiration for her in his heart?Is there no trace of intimacy and love? That day, he taught Wuyan to make a snowman, first make the body, then the head.Wuyan hugged the snowball, smiled, and said, "It's so ice." Lingzheng also smiled, and said, "It's very ice, clean and clean." Wuyan said, "Ice and snow are smart." Lingzheng said, "Ice muscle Jade bone." Wuyan continued: "It's as cold as ice." Lingzheng continued: "Ice soul cold light." Wuyan said: "A piece of ice is in the jade pot." Lingzheng then said: "I don't care about ice and snow." Wuyan said: "Ice knives, frost and swords are pressing against each other." Ling Zheng then said: "Ice is crushed to make soil and jade is used as a basin."

The two of you talked very lively, from idioms to Tang poems, from Nalan Ci to Nalan Ci, the content was talking about ice and snow, but the tone was in full swing, Wuyan had a lot of fun, and Lingzheng was very happy in his heart. Happiness, it seems to be back when I was a child, in the countryside, digging crickets and catching frogs in the fields with my friends, my heart is warm and warm, my whole body seems to have endless energy, my witty words are like pearls, my articulation and brain are more flexible and convenient than before , I can't wait for the joy of rolling and running wild on the snow.He is also happy when he is with Rachel, but it is different from this kind. When he is with Rachel, he has to carefully guess what she likes and think of ways to make her happy, but when he is with Wuyan, he only needs to be happy. Just be himself and completely liberate yourself, and you can be very happy, and it makes Wuyan very happy.To him, Wuyan is a bit like an old acquaintance or even a fellow countryman, a bit like a girl next door or even a younger sister, a bit like an old friend or even a bosom friend for many years, a bit like a childhood playmate or even a buddy, a bit like a life-and-death acquaintance or even a friend. --he himself.

In Lingzheng's life, he has never encountered such a person. She seems to be another self, or his other half. When talking to her, there is no slightest pressure or barrier, and there is no time when boys and girls interact. Inevitably jerky and apprehensive, there are only gentle happiness, light smiles, and full youth.If Lingzheng could calm down and think about it at that time, and analyze his emotions rationally, maybe he would understand that Wuyan is his most suitable lover, and in his heart, her shadow has already been imprinted on him.However, Ling Zheng was born to be such an optimistic and simple person. He took Rachel preconceivedly, and he only believed in the feelings he knew, and never thought about digging into the subconscious.As for the unusual happiness he felt with Wuyan, Ling Zheng explained to himself that "helping others is fun".

Building a snowman, Lingzheng told Wuyan a story about a snow child, saying that the snow child saw the fireplace in the house through the window and the warm and bright flame in the furnace, and felt extremely happy and envious.She fell in love with the flame and just wanted to be closer to him, closer.So Snow Child walked into the house, she felt that she was completely melted, became very soft, very weak, but her heart was full of joy, she desperately wanted to hug the stove, she turned into water, on the wall of the stove Dried and turned into a puff of vapor rising.However, her soul will be reborn in the jumping flames to complete a love story.

Wuyan listened, her big eyes filled with tears, and after a while, she said: Another girly cloud.Puzzled, Zheng asked: What is Maiden Cloud?Therefore, Wuyan also told Ling Zheng a story. She said that once upon a time there was a young girl who lived with her mother on an island. It was an isolated island, and only her mother and daughter lived there.But one day, a boat sailed from the sea, carrying a handsome boy.The girl looked at the boy mooring the shore, her heart was fascinated, she just thought it was very good and beautiful, and she was stunned to see it.The boy saw the beautiful girl and thought she was beautiful too. He held her hand, picked up shells together, listened to the waves, and watched the moon rise.But the mother's cry sounded, it was the sound that would sound every evening, telling the girl to go back to dinner.The girl returned home and stayed up all night, thinking about that boy, thinking that she could meet him again tomorrow, listening to the tide and watching the moon together.However, when she woke up, she found that her mother had locked the door tightly and put her under house arrest.Mother said outside the door, you can't fall in love with a man, you can't give your heart, otherwise, you will end badly.The girl cried and cried, begged and begged, but the mother was not moved.The girl guards the window every day, watching the clouds drifting in the sky, thinking: If I can become a cloud, it will be great, if I can become a cloud, I can fly out freely to find that handsome girl. Teenager.After a long time like this, the girl woke up one night, only to find that the door was open.Has the mother no longer detained her?The girl gathered all her strength, stumbled and ran down the mountain, and came to the beach, only to find that the boy's boat had already left.The sea is vast, where can we see the shadow of sailing boats?The girl was very sad, she cried and cried, cried and cried, the tears dried up, blood came from her eyes, and the blood also drained away, she suddenly became very light, turned into a cloud, and flew up in the sky.The young girl was wandering in the clouds, searching alone, looking forward eagerly, looking for the boy who caught a glimpse...

Wuyan stopped here, silently stroking the snowman's face, Lingzheng was fascinated by the sound, and asked anxiously: "Did Girl Yun find the boy?" Wuyan said: "I found it, but the boy has already disappeared Don't recognize her." When Maiden Yun passed over a prairie, she saw the boy walking alone on the prairie.She was so happy that her heart was going to explode, but she couldn't meet the boy.The girl Yun cried, so it turned into a shower of rain and flew down, gently hugging the boy, hugging him gently, kissing him, calling him, telling him: Do you know?I found you so hard, so hard, now I finally found you, we will never be separated again, okay?But the young man couldn't understand the language of the clouds, so he hurried to a tree, shook his clothes and said, "It's so nasty rain, my clothes are all wet."Yun's heart was broken again. In her life, she had been crushed twice by the boy, once from a girl to cloud, and once from cloud to rain, but the boy failed her twice.So, for the third time, her body was smashed to pieces, she fell into the dust, and disappeared into nothingness...

"She disappeared?" Ling Zheng was a little shocked, this was a purely girly and overly soft story, soft and sentimental, very unmanly, but it shocked him deeply.He is really concerned about the protagonist of the story, the infatuated girl cloud.He asked eagerly like a child who believed in fairy tales, "What happened later? The girl cloud just disappeared?" Wuyan sighed softly: "Maybe it's not disappearing, but turning into gas like your snow child to complete the cycle of love." After the story was told, the snowman was also piled up, with a head, a body, a nose and eyes. Ling Zheng generously lent his hat to the snowman to wear.Wuyan stroked the snowman's face and said, "Is she pretty? Does she have a name?" Lingzheng said, "Of course, she is a beautiful snowman, so she should have a beautiful name." Wuyan smiled, thinking What to say, but Rachel interjected: "Then, what should her name be? Rachel? Or Wuyan?" Her voice was cheerful, but her face was cold, her eyes were fixed on Wuyan. Almost spiteful.

Lingzheng suddenly felt shuddering. From that moment on, he realized that Rachel's friendship with Wuyan was not as simple as she showed, and there should be a deeper and more complicated meaning.But there is an almost stubborn kindness in his heart. As long as he recognizes someone or something, he will wish her to be perfect. Maintain her perfect image and supreme status in my mind.Rachel is always the most important person in his heart, and his accommodating and tolerant towards her has almost become a customary habit like a life guide.Although Rachel's mean sneer on the corner of his mouth made him uneasy when he saw the snowman, he thought it might be the instinct of girls, no matter how friendly a friend is, they are not willing to share the love from lovers, right?He thought it was his fault, he shouldn't have ignored Rachel while accompanying Wuyan, his attention should be on Rachel all the time.

After that, Rachel began to consciously avoid the three-person situation, and Lingzheng naturally would not take the initiative to fight for it. In addition to his busy work, Rachel had already moved out of the dormitory to live with him, so he rarely saw no face.After graduating, there was no chance to meet each other until we ran into each other at the alumni association two years later... Ling Zheng sighed.A subway came into the station, people got on the train one by one, and he stared blankly, for some reason, he just couldn't move his feet, watching the train stop and start again, just passing by in front of him like that.He missed the car. He looked at the subway, but what he thought of was the number of No. 19 buses that he had missed in his life. On that day of the year, he chased him out of the hotel and chased him to the stop sign of No. 19 Road. Living with Wuyan, hugging Wuyan, that reckless hug opened the prelude to a life-and-death love of sorrow and obsession.Wuyan told him: "Today is Friday, and it is five o'clock. This is the Nineteenth Road station. From now on, every Friday at this time, I will wait for you here." Since then, Friday has become the most important day in his life.Endless waiting, endless troubles, his reason and emotions are entangled, even he himself has not noticed, in this entanglement and struggle, he has fallen in love with Wuyan deeply. The more he troubled her, the stronger his love for her became.However, he deceived himself and told himself that this was just an episode, a misunderstanding, and he ordered himself to solve it quickly and end it, and thus directed the tragic moment when he and Rachel appeared in front of Wuyan at the same time.When Wuyan ran towards the wheel without hesitation, his heart was also smashed to pieces at the same time.Holding Wuyan in his arms, he could feel her life draining away in his arms, and he would not be able to catch her figure or keep her voice.She said to him: "I hate this useless body, if it can't bring me close to you... So, I am willing to continue to love you with my soul." However, how could she fall in love with him again?Where is her soul wandering?Did she turn into a girlish cloud, walking above his destiny? The scene of faceless running and falling was repeated in his mind again and again, and every time he repeated it, it was another stab in his scarred heart. Friday after Friday, he stayed in the "Sweet Dream", waiting in the "Sweet Dream", longing to see Wuyan again.If life could be restarted and he was given another chance to choose, what would he do?Will he walk out of "Qimeng", walk up to Wuyan, hold her hand, face her face to face, and tell her clearly: "Wuyan, I love you the same, let us love each other until The sea is dry and the rocks are rotten." Is it possible to let him see Wuyan again, let him fall in love with her without complaint or regret?If so, wouldn't he turn into a puff of gas like the snow boy approaching the fireplace?And Wuyan, who has already run towards the wheel for him and turned into a girly cloud, will she, again, change from cloud to rain for him? Every time he came home from "Yimeng", he felt guilty and felt that he was a sinner.When his heart is calling for Wuyan so strongly, how can his body blend in with Rachel again?He thought of her so hard that he hugged another person tightly to help forget.However, instead of healing the scars, it was a double guilt—he failed Wuyan, and Rachel was also sorry. I am willing to continue to love you with my soul.May I?Can the soul love Wuyan and keep the body with Rachel? But before he figured out how to separate his body and soul, Rachel had already made a decision before him.Once again, she broke up with him seriously and clearly. It was a Friday night, he came back from "Sweet Dreams", tired and lonely, and Rachel just came back from Zhong's Garden, inexplicably excited, full of plans and longings, planning to break up, longing for Switzerland.Rachel stood in front of the window without turning on the light, and the moonlight reflected on her face horizontally through the cut-out window screen. Rachel said with great foresight: "After breaking up, you can continue to live here, and I plan to live here first." At Zhong’s house until he went abroad. Grandpa Zhong always treated me like a granddaughter. He said that after Wuyan left, the house was empty and he was very lonely. He hoped that I could move there to accompany him; Yes, they still have my room. Grandpa Zhong said that after returning from Switzerland, I can still live in Zhong's house until I get married. " She has already planned everything, well-organized, reasonable, living in a gentle and rich town, yearning for a prosperous place with a bright future and unlimited scenery.When she said "they still keep my room," she spoke with an almost high-spirited tone, rather self-satisfied.Obviously she was not sad about the breakup. On the contrary, the breakup seemed to be out of control for her, and it meant giving her back her freedom. She almost couldn't wait to fly out of this house, into Zhong's house, and fly to Switzerland. Ling Zheng listened to Rachel's plan indifferently, as if he was listening to an irrelevant person talking about irrelevant things. He only felt strange and distant, and couldn't understand what these had to do with him for a moment.He is full of Wuyan in his heart, and the Rachel in front of him is Wuyan's friend in his mind at the moment, he thinks that Wuyan is gone, but Wuyan's friend will live in her home to take her place, How strange this is.Then after a long time, he suddenly realized that this friend had another identity, which was his lover.And now, this lover is negotiating a breakup with himself. Oddly enough, he didn't feel sad, but felt a sense of relief.He even admired Rachel a little, because she was so decisive, sober, and methodical.From her body, he revealed his hesitation, weakness, and indecision. It was his fault.If he could recognize his own heart earlier and decide where his heart is going, maybe nothing would have happened.A tragedy, three sad people, but he was the only one who was wrong.He cleared his mind and told her calmly: "Then, I wish you a smooth journey. I will quickly transfer the house payment you have paid into your account. As for everything in this house, you can take away everything you need .” A breakup was like a divorce, but they handled it very rationally and peacefully.Rachel is a selfish woman, but she will not make trouble unreasonably. She has her own measure and method in everything she does, so that no one can make mistakes, and she can't suffer from losses.Regarding the property handling of the breakup, she herself did not come forward, but authorized her younger brother to bring the moving company to a time when she and Ling Zheng were not at home. Well, she herself is going to live with Zhong's house anyway, so she doesn't want these old furniture anymore.In the end, the younger brother's decision was very straightforward: keep nothing. very fair.Ling Zheng thought, anyway, Rachel bought those things, even if it wasn't her money, it was her idea, her vision.For this house, he has never had a position, the only principle is to listen to Rachel.Because, he once thought she would become his wife, the mistress of the house.Now that she has moved away, she has given up her identity as the hostess, but she has taken away the vision of the hostess, of course she is right. To say that Rachel has indeed contributed a lot to the house.Like most shrewd, thoughtful Shanghai girls, she has been silently preparing a dowry for herself since she was sensible. The groom has not been selected yet, and the wedding style has been rehearsed many times in her mind. The layout of the new house also has the answer early in the morning, with a well-thought-out plan, just waiting for the right time, place and people to complete it.The location of the house was chosen by Rachel. Lingzheng only came once on the day the contract was signed, and paid the deposit. The rest was ignored. Even the decoration was handled by Rachel. The table and chairs in the room were all Rachel's thoughts. Now that Rachel is leaving, she only took the furniture but did not move the house together, which is already very tolerant. Ling Zheng thought, maybe this house will be lonely, and it will remember Rachel longer than himself.The roses rot quietly in the bottle, and the lavender automatically and consciously blooms into dried flowers.Ling Zheng was standing in the empty room, missing him like weeds growing wildly, and his missing him became more and more shameless.He thinks how different a woman is from a woman. Some people don't care about the six-year relationship when they break up but only want to take away everything they share; while the other loves him regardless of the result or the price, etc with him until he gave his life.However, he missed the one who truly loved him, and joined hands with another for six years.Is there anyone more stupid than him in this world? From that moment on, he was looking for Wuyan everywhere. Rachel went abroad, and Zhong Ziming also went abroad. Not only did he completely lose the news of Wuyan, he even lost the news of all the people related to Wuyan.However, it is precisely because of this that he can think about Wuyan, fantasize about Wuyan, and experience Wuyan without any scruples, and he no longer has to feel that he is sorry for anyone.His heart is completely his own, it belongs to Wuyan. Another train came into the station, and the crowd slowly gathered towards the door, waiting to stop.Suddenly, a heart-piercing scream resounded through the tunnel: "Someone jumped down!" The subway roared like a volcanic eruption, almost piercing people's eardrums.The crowd quickly gathered and flocked to the accident site, Ling Zheng was pushed forward in a daze by the crowd, suddenly, a strange thought flashed: the person who jumped the track may be shameless! No face?Lingzheng was startled, as if caught in ice and snow, he squeezed forward like crazy, countless distracting thoughts flooded his mind, the moment of faceless collision was repeated in front of his eyes again and again like the overlapping of shots in a movie, overlapping , no, he can't let Wuyan die again, he's going to save her! This is not the first time I have had such hallucinations.Since Wuyan disappeared, he has been living in a half-dream and half-awake state. Every time he sees a car passing by, he will feel uncontrollable heart palpitations, fearing that Wuyan will suddenly rush out from the opposite side and fall under the wheel.As long as he saw the lemon yellow clothes in the crowd, he would think that it was shameless, and he had to run up to the front and have a look at each other before giving up.Walking on the street, I can't help but look back again and again, look again and again, feeling that Wuyan will appear at any time.Sometimes when sleeping in a dream, she would feel that Wuyan had come to him and sighed softly to him. He has almost decided that Wuyan is dead, so he can enter the dream.He even secretly burned papers for Wuyan at night.The gray butterflies flew up in the firelight, he looked at them, and felt that his heart also flew up like the paper butterfly, turning into smoke and ashes. When is this hatred?He couldn't help but sighed a long time, and said a few words softly: "When did this hate end? Empty steps, cold and rainy weather, burying flowers. Three years of long-lasting dreams, it is a dream that should be awakened after a long time. It is expected that the world is tasteless, not as good as the night terrace separated by dust, deserted and buried. Sorrowful. Chai tin made an appointment, but abandoned it. If there is Pisces in Chongquan, I will know who he is, who he leans on for years of suffering and joy.I have turned around since the end of the night, and listened to Xiangxian's heavy reasoning.When we get to be confidantes from another life, I'm afraid that both of them will suffer bad fate, and the fate will be poor, and the moon will be left in the wind.The tears are gone, and the paper is ashes. " He chanted it over and over again, full of sorrow.Then he suddenly realized that this was Nalan Xingde's "Witch Hazel Song" in mourning for his deceased wife.Could it be that deep down in his heart, he actually regards Wuyan as his lover? "The appointment with hairpins and tins, but they abandoned it." He and Wuyan did not have an agreement with hairpins and tinsel, nor a husband and wife.All they have is the hopeless Friday waiting, which is always a date alone. "When we make a confidant in another life, I'm afraid that both of them will die, and then the fate will be in the wind." Wuyan, Wuyan, since you can't be destined in this life, do you have the intention to form an alliance in the next life? That night he dreamed of Wuyan, with vague features and fluttering clothes, but it was indeed Wuyan, and she was calling him softly: Lingzheng, Lingzheng.One after another.Ling Zheng fell asleep and woke up, woke up and fell asleep again, and he could always hear soft sighs in his ears, the sorrow was so lingering that it was hard to describe. When I woke up the next day, I was a little dizzy, and when I walked out the door, it was a sunny day, and the bright sun shone down. In such an early morning, it made people feel a strong sense of unreality.There used to be a few gray and white pigeons perched on the balcony of the neighbor's house. Seeing him coming, they all fluttered and whistled for a day.The ethereal whistle sounded across the building, causing Ling Zheng to look up and look into the distance, he thought: If Wuyan has a spirit in the sky, maybe she will really turn into a cloud of maidens, then you will hear the whistle of the pigeons, right?If so, at this moment, they were listening to the pigeons flying together, and finally they had some communication. He looked at the clouds in the sky, not knowing which cloud carried the colorless and sentimental soul.If a cloud turns into rain at this moment, he will definitely not hide, will not avoid the rain, but will stand willingly in the rain, and love Wuyan deeply. Thinking wildly all the way to the subway station on foot, the working hours are not fixed, and he doesn't have to be in a hurry, so he looks a little bored and a little dumbfounded, inevitably colliding with the crowd.The streets are crowded and deserted, and the alleys are lined up in a desperate mess.This means that without Wuyan and Rachel, what is the meaning of Shanghai to him?This city, which I have lived in for seven years, suddenly became strange, and it became extraordinarily large, large and empty.This was not his place in the first place, neither his roots nor his veins. He seemed to have returned to the unaccompanied situation when he first came to Shanghai seven years ago. However, at that time he was a brand new college student, full of longing and excitement.Now it is different, he has a stable job in Shanghai, and a small apartment, but he has become a stranger, a leaf falling with the wind, unable to return to the roots, but Fell into another country by mistake. It was the season when magnolias were blooming, and there was a faint scent of flowers in the air, but it was diluted by the hot sun and the bustling crowd, and there was some peculiar smell.He misses the magnolia tree in his hometown, the small river flowing in front of his door, and the singing of frogs in the river. Maybe he should go back to his hometown once to find his lost soul there. Turning a corner, the entrance of the subway station appeared in front of him. There were two people arguing there, a man and a woman, crying and cursing. Guilt guilty, but his tone was firm, he said: "You have no right to interfere with my relationship, you don't care who I'm with." The woman cried, and seemed to pounce on her and beat her a few times, and said: "You have no conscience. If you are sorry for me, I will die for you." The man said, "If you die, stay away, who are you scaring?" The woman said, "I want to die in front of you. After I die, I will be a ghost Follow you, so that you will not be at peace." Speaking in Hokkien dialect, it is obvious that they are a young couple who came to Shanghai from a foreign land to find a living. Many people gathered around to watch, but the man suddenly gave up his native language and said a Shanghainese dialect: "Don't get confused." The onlookers burst into laughter, and the man clearly showed that he was actually I have been in Shanghai for a long time, and I am not a newcomer here. This made Ling Zheng think of Rachel, who also likes to mix slang in her speech and show off her old Shanghai qualifications.He ignored the pair of idiotic men and women, just walked over in one direction, followed the inertia to climb down the stairs, still circling in his mind the words and phrases of "Golden Hazel Song", "It's a dream that should wake up after a long time. I also feel that the world is tasteless, so it's not as good as it is." The night stage is separated by dust and deserted, a place to bury sorrows... If there is a Pisces in the heavy spring, I will know him, who will lean on him for years of bitterness and joy." It seems like it was written for him and Wuyan. Suddenly, a thin sigh was heard in his ear, which seemed to be a shameless voice. "Wuyan." Ling Zheng blurted out, looking around in a daze, the figure was vague, but how could there be Wuyan's beauty?No face, no face, where were you when Siri Si was here?Why do people always know it is rare after they lose it?Why can't God forgive and give repentant people another chance? "Someone jumped off the track!" A scream resounded across the platform, the subway neighed crazily, and the crowd rushed towards the accident site like a tide. "I'm afraid that both of them will be unlucky." Who is that unlucky girl who jumped off the subway track just to die?His whole body tensed up, his heart felt cold, and he tried hard to push away the people standing in front of him. He struggled and stumbled to the ground. In just a few short steps, it seemed that thousands of mountains and rivers blocked him, and he seemed to never be able to squeeze people in front of him.At this moment, someone behind him called him: "Lingzheng! Pei Lingzheng!" He turned his head and saw a lemon-yellow figure waving to him outside the crowd—it was Wuyan, and the one who called out to him was the pretty Wuyan, Zhong Wuyan whose life and death had been unknown for a long time!