Chapter 2 Chapter Two Yangjian: Coffee and Memory

Pei Lingzheng knew that he would never forget Wuyan in this lifetime. I will never forget the scene of Wuyan falling under the wheel and in a pool of blood, and I will never forget the words Wuyan said on his deathbed-I hate this useless body, if she can't approach you... So, I will use my soul come to love you. Love with your soul.So, what is it like? He never thought that a person would love another person so deeply, never thought that Wuyan would love him so deeply. Memories of meeting Wuyan for the first time came to mind. That night the school had a power outage and the night was hazy. He looked faceless under the moonlight, and he could vaguely see that this was a girl with delicate features and elegant temperament wearing a moon-colored yellow dress. At that time, he was not disliked.When I went to the study room of the History Department to deliver flowers the next day, Yuan was also ready for a love affair.

What he sent was carnations, because he was not sure yet, so he had to leave a little room for himself. When he found out that Wuyan was a blind woman, he was so shocked, the shock occupied his whole mind, so that he forgot his original intention, that vague expectation, so he didn't care about disappointment. He asked Wuyan and Rachel to go to the off-campus drink shop to eat ice cream, and Wuyan ordered coffee, which surprised him a little, because he felt that drinking coffee should not be a habit of a student.But Wuyan said that I have been drinking coffee since I was very young. My grandfather is an overseas student in the UK, and he has the habit of drinking English afternoon tea. When I heard that black coffee also has the same blind color as night, I fell in love with it. It's rich and mellow, sour and bitter, like my life, but after drinking it for a long time, it will naturally be as sweet as it is.Rachel added with a smile, saying that she is really addicted to coffee. She hardly drinks water from morning to night, only drinks coffee, and can hardly stop drinking one cup after another. Her hands will shake when she is empty stomach.

Ling Zheng had never seen a girl like Wuyan before. She spoke quickly and a lot, but she was not garrulous, but had something to say and was quite insightful.Her eyes are invisible, but her heart is full of curiosity, mystery, vivid associations, and an extremely rich and exaggerated imagination. The world seen by the eyes is limited, but the vision of the mind is infinite.When people can see it, they will aim high and make some mistakes of drawing cakes to satisfy their hunger and seeking fish, but they have worked hard for half a life, but they run counter to the facts; Everything is gorgeous and straight to the origin, touching the core of life.

People see rain and they are rain, doves are doves, roses are roses.However, Wuyan thinks that when it rains, the sky is humid, the ground is cool, the people are damp, and even his heart is hung with a water curtain; when he thinks of the pigeons, he will fly up with the pigeons, fly to the highest place to feel the breeze and pigeon whistle, and overlook the whole The city, and it’s a real bird’s-eye view; when you think of a rose, you smell its fragrance and touch its thorns at the same time, so you can appreciate the origin of love and pain more deeply. What the naked eye sees is often the illusion of things, but what the mind sees is the truth without the false. The trace is gone, the lonely boat and the old man with the hat, fishing alone in the cold river and snow" is such a clear, firm and empty state.

Listening to Wuyan's conversation, Ling Zheng felt as if a whole new world had opened up in front of him. He was so in awe of her erudition that he could almost ignore that she was a blind woman.But her eyes were not focused. When he was talking to her, he couldn't catch her eyes, so he could only look at Rachel. When Rachel and Wuyan are together, they are as harmonious and harmonious as a perfect match, and they complement each other so well.It is said that women are made of water, but there are several types of water. If Wuyan is coffee, Rachel is tea; if Wuyan is waves, Rachel is lake water; if Wuyan It is Yangchun Baixue, Ruiqiu is rain, not torrential rain, but continuous drizzle, which is unique to Huangmei weather, pattering, penetrating into the heart and lungs, the sky is soaked, the ground is soaked, and the houses are wet. Wawa is her mood, and people can't help but feel unable to hold her.

When Lingzheng and Wuyan were talking, they kept staring at Rachel.Rachel's expression is very quiet, with gentle eyes and a gentle smile, very ladylike; but her hands are extremely restless, with endless small movements, stroking her hair, biting her fingers, and the most common thing she does is to wring the handkerchief—— There are very few girls who use handkerchiefs nowadays, and I have to suspect that Rachel's inseparable handkerchief is just a prop. And when Rachel speaks, she is even more lively and fragrant, besides the mouth is talking, the eyes are also talking, the eyebrows are also talking, the nose is also talking, and the ten fingers twisting the handkerchief are also talking, even her hands are talking. The twisted handkerchief is eager to speak—if the handkerchief could speak, the first thing it would say would be "Hey——"

Ling Zheng couldn't help laughing, couldn't help staring at Rachel more and more, and after returning to the dormitory, couldn't help thinking over and over again what they had said today, but he just couldn't remember.Maybe Rachel's every word is meaningless, but so what, she is a beautiful and lovely girl, girls don't need to speak with their mouths, her eyebrows and eyes have already spoken a thousand words for her, and He heard and understood every word. So, before Wuyan had time to tell Rachel that she had fallen in love with Lingzheng when she took the bouquet of yellow carnations; Rachel had already told Wuyan that Lingzheng had given her flowers, which were red. Rose.

Wuyan doesn't know what color "red" is, but she knows the flower language represented by carnations and red roses.She wished Rachel sincerely and said: Ling Zheng is a good boy, you have chosen well. Rachel laughed and said: I know I made a good choice. Ling Zheng also felt that he had made the right choice: a girl who can accompany a blind friend for more than ten years will also be able to accompany her lover for a lifetime, no matter how rich or poor he is, she will never leave him.Isn't it said that when you look at a person, you have to look at her friends first? Through Wuyan's testimony, Ling Zheng believed that he was lucky to find Rachel.

If there is no Wuyan, Rachel might be a very ordinary girl. The female student on the bus who is holding her schoolbag tightly and looking out the window, and the one who occasionally gives up a seat to the old woman and is praised as a good child is Rachel; When I come back from class, I will help my mother do some simple housework, and then sit at the table alone and do my homework without supervision. The neighbors praise her for being sensible. It is Rachel; she rarely misses classes in school, and there are not many of her in the class. Not quite as many as her, inconspicuous and unobtrusive in the crowd, the playground is full of white shirts, blue skirts and school uniforms, all of them are Rachel; the most common two girls in the mall are holding hands, eating ice cream and picking up cosmetics There were two Rachels pointing at the counter.

Girls like Rachel are born to be submerged in the crowd, but because of her company and help to Wuyan, she has become a striking and vivid girl who stands out from the crowd, and all the advantages of her body are doubled. , she is gentle, she is kind, she is easy-going, she is friendly, she is almost a collection of female virtues, I really don't know if she accompanied Wuyan or Wuyan accompanied her. Naturally, Rachel can also find other companions. Girls like Rachel have never had a hard time making friends. Because they are ordinary, they are gregarious. There are many people who can go to and from school, go shopping hand in hand, watch movies, and play games with her. She, all the things she did with Wuyan, would definitely be easier and more lively with other female companions, but that would only be two Rachels, not Rachel and Wuyan.

Perhaps the most unusual thing about Rachel is that she didn't find another Rachel to be friends with, but chose No Face. Lingzheng and Rachel's love story is very ordinary and normal, just like all college lovers, nothing more than those programs and dialogues, nothing extraordinary. But both of them are satisfied, and this satisfaction is more or less related to Wuyan——Ling is precisely because of Wuyan's evidence to prove the value of a lover, and Rachel is because of Wuyan's failure. own charm. Wuyan never complained.Since she was sensible, she has also understood the principles of life, that is, if one has to carry out a matter by herself, it is impossible to make others feel the same.Everything in this world can be shared with others, only pain, it will only grow more and more painful, sharing weal and woe is definitely a lie, deceiving the weak can't bear it, shouting out to let everyone know, so that they can make fun of her and despise her. She never told anyone about the pain and grievance of her crush on Lingzheng, even her good friend Rachel kept it secret. However, Rachel understands that Wuyan's intentions are actually ahead of Wuyan's own. ——Perhaps she has always understood Wuyan better than Wuyan herself.It was she who taught Wuyan to choose the right clothes, helped Wuyan find shortcuts to study, and even decided for her which middle school, university, and major to apply for.She has controlled Wuyan for so many years, Wuyan is almost like a work of hers, how could she not know Wuyan's thoughts? But she didn't tell the truth. She kept all three of them in the dark, including herself, and remained good friends until they graduated and parted ways. After graduating, she followed her ideal model and was successfully admitted to a foreign company as a public relations officer; while Wuyan went to teach in a school for the blind.The two of them finally took two paths and were no longer inseparable.So she thought the story was over a long time ago. Wuyan and Lingzheng were two completely unrelated people. They only had a little connection because of her. She even forgot that it was because of Wuyan that she met Lingzheng. They are my lover and friend respectively, they are the South Pole and North Pole of the earth, and I am the equator. It was because of this negligence that she made a fatal mistake, a mistake she would never have made in school—she gave Wuyan and Ling Zheng a chance to meet alone. It was two years after graduation, the university celebration, both she and Ling Zheng received the post, but Ling Zheng went to Guangdong on a business trip, and she called in advance to say sorry because her natal family had something to deal with.But Lingzheng's errands went well, and he rushed back on the morning of the school anniversary, and when he saw the post, he happily went there.So, logically, he saw Wuyan. Wuyan "sees" that Ling Zheng is not there, and she "hears" that neither Rachel nor Ling Zheng will come today, maybe it is because of their absence that she dares to come to the celebration alone.However, when she picked up a glass of cocktail, Ling Zheng's voice sounded behind her: "Wuyan, you are here too." Wuyan turned around abruptly, and the whole glass of wine was poured on Lingzheng's white jacket, like blood. She lost her mind, lost her color, lost her composure, her lips trembled violently, unable to say a word of apology, tears rolled out of her invisible eyes, then, she covered her face, rushed out of the crowd, before going out, the suppressed Live whimpers had been scattered along the way. Ling Zheng was stunned, standing there like a clay sculpture or stone sculpture, at a loss, someone who said: "Hurry up, Wuyan loves you." He was suddenly awakened, and chased after him desperately, Seeing Wuyan walking quickly on the street, she no longer had the composure she used to. She stumbled and stumbled all the way, which completely exposed her embarrassment and helplessness as a blind person.Ling Zheng felt his heart ache, he chased after her, grabbed Wuyan abruptly, held her in his arms, and hugged her tightly. Wuyan likes him, Wuyan loves him.At this moment, Ling Zheng's heart was in a rush, and he had no thinking ability at all.He didn't know why he chased her out, why he hugged her.When he held her, when she was trembling in his arms, he only felt that he was hugging the most precious thing in the world, he just wanted to hold her, don't think about anything, don't ask anything, just I want to hold her and never lose her. It was Friday.Five o'clock in the afternoon.Get off at the 19th Road station sign. Lingzheng and Wuyan embraced for a long time under the No. 19 license plate at five o'clock on Friday afternoon, hugging so tightly, as if they were in love with each other. Wuyan shed tears, her tears soaked his jacket and melted into the wine she spilled, she choked up and said: "Lingzheng, today is Friday, it is five o'clock, and it is ten o'clock here. Nine Road Station, from now on, every Friday at this time, I will wait for you here." Startled, he snapped back to reality.She wants to wait for him, what does that mean?Will a hug become a promise?What about Rachel?He already has Rachel, if he accepts Wuyan, it is a betrayal and a deception, not only deceiving Rachel, but also deceiving Wuyan. His back jerked, stiffly, and then he pushed her hand away. He pushed her hand away. Resolutely, cruelly, like cutting off the sleeves of his robe, he let go of his hand, thus pushing her hand away. He did it so firmly and cruelly, because he thought he had to be cruel to her, and cruelty is kindness.He can no longer harm her, no longer let her have fantasies about him.He thought he wanted to treat her better, so he had to choose to be cruel, let go, and pushed her away. But now he knows he was wrong.He didn't just push her hand away, he basically pushed her into a car. It was he who killed her. Wuyan does what she says, and she will wait alone at the 19th Road station sign every Friday at five o'clock in the afternoon. Cars came and went, so many people got off and got on again, there was no order. If Lingzheng doesn't come, he won't leave without face, and wait and wait until the sun goes down, until the sea is dry and the rocks are rotten, until the end of time. If Ling Zheng hadn't come, she would have waited like this forever, until she was old, until she died.Then, waiting is her whole life. However, Lingzheng actually came, and sat on the seat facing the window of the "Qimeng" cafe opposite, looking out of the window, looking at the number plate of No. 19 Road opposite, and looking at the lemon-yellow Wuyan under the stop sign. Sweet dream.The name of the cafe is Qimeng.However, it caused Ling Zheng to have the biggest nightmare in his life. He looked at the poetic and dreamy blind girl outside the window, with a beautiful appearance, a clear temperament, and a stern makeup waiting under the stop sign, waiting for one car after another, from afternoon to dusk, from dusk to dark , the situation is quite compelling, but also quite heartbreaking. Ling Zheng was sitting in "Qimeng", drinking coffee cup after cup. The black coffee was free of sugar and milk, and had a tasteless taste.He hardly knew when he became obsessed with black coffee, and when he became obsessed with Wuyan.He found that he actually had her in his heart. When he sat in the cafe and looked at Wuyan under the opposite stop sign, every bit of the university campus came to mind. Yan's shadow. Wuyan Four Seasons wears lemon yellow clothes. Wuyan has been using Shiseido rose-flavored hair conditioner to manage her long hair. Wuyan can’t see the color, but she likes to use color pens to take notes. The blue one is used to record the teacher’s words, and the green one It's my own feelings... It turned out that he remembered every detail and every word of Wuyan.It turned out that he had already fallen in love with Wuyan, but he didn't know it. However, the more he remembered all this, the more distressed and shameless he waited, the more he told himself that all this must end immediately, and this waiting must be stopped.He couldn't be sorry to Rachel, what was wrong with Rachel, they had been together for so many years, and they were about to get married, and both parents met and expressed their satisfaction.Lingzheng's ancestral home was in Anhui, and his family's ancestors were farmers for generations, and they had never even entered the city gate. It was in his father's generation that he finally graduated from the middle school in the town and returned to his hometown to become a primary school teacher. up.Lingzheng also finished his middle school in the town, lived a boarding life early, developed an independent and cheerful personality, coupled with intelligence and hard work, and finally became the first college student in their village to be admitted to Shanghai. From the day he entered the university, Ling Zheng never asked his family for a dime, and all the expenses were earned from part-time jobs. It was because he was busy that he had never even heard of the name Zhong Wuyan. .Later, she fell in love with Rachel, and Rachel implying that many of his classmates are renting houses off-campus, Ling Zheng just pretended not to understand.One is that he has no spare money, and the other is that he has a simple and honest nature, and he has reservations about the matter of students living together.Until he graduated a year before Rachel, with excellent grades and experience working outside the school, he was admitted to a foreign-funded company in Shanghai.He felt that the overall situation was settled, so he rented the house, and finally took that substantive step with Rachel. Lingzheng's characteristic is that once everything belongs to him, it is the best and most precious. After getting Rachel as a girlfriend, he sees that she is good in everything, and thinks that she is gentle and kind and can manage the house. She is an ideal wife.Now that she has a physical relationship again, she is even more regarded as a goddess, and she is accommodated in everything, even if she has some minor problems and tempers, she doesn't mind.It has almost become a habit for him to accommodate Rachel to please Rachel. It has almost become a habit for him to focus on Rachel. What's wrong with Qiu, and I never thought that there would be anyone better than her. They have already started to jointly finance the house, and even paid the down payment.Even if he was ruthless, his parents would not agree. No, before you feel sorry for Rachel, you have to be sorry for Wuyan first.Ling Zheng thought of a way, a way that he later regretted, the most stupid way in the world - he wanted Wuyan to see him and Rachel together, so he could tell Wuyan not to wait any longer. He offered to go shopping with Rachel, bought her a new leather bag as a gift, and then pretended to improvise and suggested that it would be better to sit in a coffee shop for a while and have a drink, then he pointed out the window and said in surprise that it was not Zhong Wu. Yan? How could she be here? Then they checked out together and walked out, then Rachel called Wuyan's name and said Wuyan, don't touch us, we will come right away, and then he saw Wuyan rushing to the middle of the road desperately, a car came, knocked her far away, and somehow he was already beside her and she was already in his arms: she said to him, I hate this useless body, if she can't come near you, so, I will use My soul comes to love you... Ling Zheng has been unable to let go of his mind: Was Wuyan's car crash an accident or intentional?Was it accidental injury or suicide? Wuyan was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment, and she was unconscious for several days. Her parents rushed back from abroad, and they told him to take Wuyan abroad for treatment, and refused to visit him.They didn't blame him, although their expressions were serious and sad, they were not angry, even gentle, they just asked him not to disturb Wuyan again. He never saw her again, Wuyan's life and death became a mystery. He didn't believe that she was dead until he saw Wuyan's tomb, but he began to dream of Wuyan. In the dream, Wuyan's eyes could be seen. She came to say goodbye to him, saying that she didn't want to forget him. . So he decided that Wuyan was probably dead, and he was the one who killed her. He couldn't get rid of this thought, the concept of the murderer was entangled in his consciousness, torturing him like being tortured in purgatory.He has no days of rest, no nights of sleep. ——The poor sleep is not all because of thinking too much, but also because of too much coffee.He began to be addicted to coffee. He couldn't stop drinking one cup after another from morning to night. He hardly drank water and only drank black coffee until his hands trembled. The dialogue between him and Rachel has become less and less distant.Because he was afraid that he would mention Wuyan as soon as he opened his mouth, and his mind was full of Wuyan: Wuyan's coffee, Wuyan's carnations, Wuyan's waiting at five o'clock on Friday afternoon... He began to understand the meaning of that waiting.That was actually a date with Wuyan alone.She didn't actually expect to wait for him.She is just waiting for "waiting" itself. He is also used to sitting in the Dream Cafe opposite the 19th Road Station at 5 o'clock every Friday afternoon and looking around.He knew that he would see nothing, but he couldn't stop his hope. He saw one after another No. 19 bus stop and drive away, and saw countless people get on or off the bus, but none of them was shameless; occasionally, one or two yellow figures emerged from the crowd It passed by and made his heart beat faster, but in the end he was disappointed after all; he waited for Friday after Friday, knowing that he couldn't wait for anything, but he still waited for the most important date in his life. At four o'clock in the afternoon, I dressed myself up, turned off all the affairs, and rushed to "Yimeng" in a grand manner, sat in the fixed seat at five o'clock, and looked across. Friday appointment.A date for one person.If you can wait like this forever, until you are old, until you die.Then, waiting is his whole life. He did not count on waiting for any results. If there is, it's just that the sun is setting in the west, or the sea is dry and the rocks are rotten, or even the end of time. However, he waited for Rachel.Rachel got off the No. 19 bus, crossed the road, walked into the cafe, sat down opposite him, and said, "Ling Zheng, let's break up."