Chapter 5 Fourteen Years Old: Farewell and First Kiss

Kefan came down from upstairs, and Xinai immediately raised his face and gave him a sunny smile. The boys and girls in the hall cheered, applauded boisterously, and shouted in a hurry: "The leading actor is on the stage!" "Mr. Lu Kefan, the new actor of the Academy Awards!" Kefan style!" It's another year, another party.It's at Kevan's house.The layout of the two is similar, but the decoration is very different.Zhen's house has a European style and everything is new; Lu's house is classical and nostalgic, full of furniture from Ming and Qing Dynasties, and there is even a peony pavilion inlaid with tortoise shell and a green screen in the garden.

"What's the sky for the beautiful scenery on a good day, who's home is the place to enjoy the pleasure. Clouds and clouds, emerald pavilions, misty waves and painted boats, Jinping people really think this time is cheap." Inside and outside the screen, there are ordinary red lips and green temples, a splendid time. Kefan had no intention of studying, and failed to pass the entrance examination of a key high school, but secretly applied for the performance department of the art school without telling his parents.When the admission notice was mailed home, the conservative but open-minded Professor Lu and his wife had to face the reality.The two couples have been rigorous all their lives, and they are good teachers. After giving birth to their son, they are not at all like themselves. They are frivolous and active, and they can't be quiet for a minute.Lu’s mother said to her good sister more than once: “It would be great if our Kefan could be half like your beloved. Don’t look at your beloved who hasn’t attended a regular school for a day. I bet that if she takes the exam, she will be accepted by Bike. Fan is ten times stronger. Kefan is simply not a seed for reading, he only knows how to play, and if he is asked to do homework, he will feel sleepy."

Mother Zhen disagreed: "What's wrong with being fun? At least he is a normal and healthy person. My beloved is too quiet to worry about." Mother Lu sighed full of pity: "It's a pity for my beloved. She is smart and beautiful. If she can speak, she would be perfect." She then comforted her sister, "This is also the reason why the way of heaven does not allow a person to be too perfect. If a girl is too beautiful, she will easily cause trouble; if she is smart enough, the sky will be jealous of her beauty. So she will not be able to speak when she was born, and she will be blessed with a long life."

This idea has been in Mother Zhen's mind for a long time, so she naturally obeyed and nodded.She watched her daughter grow up day by day, and her appearance became more and more beautiful, and she always had mixed feelings in her heart.One beauty hides one hundred ugliness, not to mention that her daughter's paintings are getting better and better, and she has a small family. It shouldn't be difficult to find a matching family, right?After the birth of his daughter, the family situation improved day by day. Mr. Zhen went into business and did what he did to make money. He was so happy that his daughter was really a lucky star for his parents.However, the more I cherish this daughter, the more I worry that she will be wronged in the future.I hate the saying that the blind matches the lame, and the deaf matches the dumb.How can such a lovely person be married to a disabled person?Alas, I just said that I hate people who look down on my beloved disabled, but I despise the disabled again.Thinking about it, he stammered and probed: "Oh, it's easy for you to say, if you let my beloved be your daughter, would you be willing?"

"Of course I would. I said earlier that I would swap Xinai with Kefan. If I had a daughter like Xinai, I could worry less." "Then I'll give you my love to be your daughter-in-law." Mother Zhen hit the snake with a stick, "I have a son-in-law like Kefan, and you have a goddaughter like Love, so let's switch, how about it? " Lu's mother was not in a hurry, and the soldiers came to stop her: "I can't ask for it, I'm afraid we Kefan don't have this blessing. If the two of them are willing, I can't wait for it." Mama Zhen, who is a supermarket proprietress, is not as eloquent as Mama Lu, who is a college language teacher. After talking for a long time, she couldn't get a word right, so she just smiled casually, as if she was just joking and couldn't take it seriously.Although she is partial to her daughter, she still feels guilty if she asks her beloved to marry Kefan: that child Kefan, a ghost, has countless girlfriends at such a young age, how could he like his dumb daughter? Woolen cloth?When he heard that Ke Fan was admitted to an art school and planned to become a movie star, he gave up even more and never thought of getting married again.

Xinai also knew in her heart that it would be even more difficult to meet Kefan after leaving.The road between the two of them is getting farther and farther, and it is already so close to each other to meet every day, let alone the world is far apart, why can't he forget her? He had just passed the exam and hadn't had time to report yet. Kefan's face was already full of glory, full of pride and confidence as a future star.And beloved also sincerely believes that Kefan will succeed.If he wants to be an actor, he will definitely become a leading actor, a big star, a heavenly king, and an actor.Kefan will be popular, and he will definitely be popular, big red and purple, red and purple.By then, what chance did she have of winning his heart?

Seeing those girls like flowers and butterflies gathered around Kefan to say goodbye, she bit her lip bitterly, unable to express her wish. However, all the secret loves in the world are suffering in the heart but can't be expressed in the mouth? Accompanying her is still her good friend Li Yuanzheng. He was admitted to a key high school with the second place in the school. High salary and good difference to be the working emperor. Some people are born to be good children, good students, good friends and good husbands, and they will not make big mistakes no matter how out of line, Li Yuanzheng is such a person.

He told his beloved his vacation plan in a hurry: "Tomorrow I will go to my uncle's house in Dalian, and I will not come back after staying for a month. I can finally swim in the real sea. I am excited to think about it. My uncle also said that he would take me to Xiaoping. Fishing on the island, staying with real fishermen for a few days. My uncle said that the people over there eat raw seafood while catching the sea. It is real seafood. I have to make up lessons every winter and summer vacation, and I am finally going to have a real vacation..." Lovely smiles, Li Yuanzheng is a "true" simple, "true" kind person, because his world is full of so many and easy "truths".

There was a commotion in the crowd. It turned out that it was Xiaohui who came, wearing a princess dress with puff sleeves and lace, and hugging a snow-white Persian cat—she and Kefan had finally reconciled.They walked together again where their beloved could not go. I like to imagine how Xiaohui used to be awkward, crying and pear blossoms raining; and how Kefan was careful, telling jokes, and swearing, just like brother Bao to sister Lin. Brother Bao.Sister Lin.She is his sister.I was the one who grew up with his childhood sweetheart, childhood sweetheart.However, he couldn't see himself, and he didn't want to pay attention to himself. He only regarded himself as a dispensable decoration in the house, and like all decorations, he had no sound.

Lovely lowered her head in a lonely way, unwilling to see Xiaohui taking all the glory.However, Xiaohui did not let her go, and even left the crowd and went straight to her. The silk scarf tied behind the ponytail pine fluttered like a butterfly's wings, and asked happily, "Hey, you have such a lively chat, what are you whispering?" ?” The tone was full of teasing and sarcasm, and the word “whisper” was deliberately emphasized, and someone beside him laughed jokingly. Li Yuanzheng glared at Xiaohui sullenly, pulled up his beloved and said, "Let's sit over there."

"Li Yuanzheng, don't leave." Xiaohui took a step forward, "Come play truth or dare with us." "Truth or Dare?" Li Yuanzheng hesitated, "Isn't there enough of you?" "The more people there are, the more lively it is." Xiaohui pulled Li Yuanzheng away involuntarily, then suddenly remembered something, turned her head and looked down at her beloved, "Hey, help me watch Mimi." Tuck the cat into her arms.Beloved was caught off guard, the cat's claws slashed across her hand sharply, she couldn't help but let out a soft cry of pain, pushed the kitten away, and widened her eyes in astonishment. Her stupidity made Xiaohui laugh exaggeratedly, and the people next to her laughed again.Xinai's face was flushed, and she turned to leave, but was held back by Kefan, who still picked up the kitten and put it in her arms: "Xiaoai, you are fine anyway, let the kitten play with you for a while, Xiaohui and I want to play games." He wanted to play games with other girls, but asked her to come and see the cat, and even called the kitten to play with her.Oh, this cruel and cold beautiful boy. Heart tingles, looking at the kitten, snow-white and beautiful, with two eyes, one blue and one green, slightly open and closed, as proud as its owner.She picked up the kitten, like hugging a warm and wriggling heart, and walked silently across the living room to the balcony. The balcony of Lu’s house is very quiet and unique, filled with evergreen plants such as plantains and rubber trees, twigs and wisterias are intertwined with each other, gracefully climbing over the railings, and thousands of drooping flower heads protrude from the branches and leaves. , It's like a small botanical garden. Xinai sits quietly behind this natural barrier with the kitten in her arms. The bustle in the living room does not belong to her, this is where she should be. People are playing games in the living room.Talking game.She cannot intervene. She can't get involved in her cousin's world.His world, closed the door on her, leaving her with the cat. Lovely is a little sad, what is Lu Kefan in this life like the young master in the previous life?The young master is deep, dignified, and personable, but has he ever been so frivolous and flamboyant? At that time, the young master went to school in Beiping, and only came back every year during the two holidays, one winter and one summer. That was her holiday, and every day was worth writing about; once the holidays were over, the young master went to school, The days seem to be a bit long, and you can't wait for dawn at night, and you can't wait for dark in the day. In fact, even during the days when the young master was in the mansion, it was rare for them to see each other.He is always unhappy most of the time, but it is not because of any specific things, and it is not seen that he has quarreled with his family.Only once she heard him arguing quietly with the master, as if he had secretly joined some kind of gang, and the master refused to allow it. Occasionally he would meet friends at home and talk about the current situation and politics and other irrelevant things. There are often words such as "Three People's Principles", "Communism", and "freedom and progress", "freedom and progress", etc. Science to save the country", or, he recited aloud: "A specter, a specter of communism is wandering in Europe..." Whenever this happens, his expression is very excited, his eyes are full of burning and enthusiasm that frightens her, and at the same time, they are full of deep sadness that she can't understand. So she also felt melancholy, and didn't understand what troubles he had. For a person like him, noble, knowledgeable, healthy, rich, everything he needed, and omnipotent, what trouble did he have? What about the unsolvable? His depth and tolerance were not something she could understand and experience.But it doesn't matter, it doesn't affect her admiration for him in the slightest.In fact, she has already deified him, so noble and holy that he has no flaws, and also cut off the relationship between men and women. Love between men and women.My beloved was startled, cold sweat broke out on my back.How can I complain about you?Isn't the reason why she came to this world for the sake of the young master and her belated love between men and women?In her previous life, she lived in ignorance, and she knew the true meaning of love until she died.So, she came to the world through life and death through yin and yang, just to reunite with her in Nankemeng and renew the fate of the previous life. She loves him.No matter whether he is the young master or cousin Kefan, as long as he is still him, she will love him without hesitation. Loving him is her mission, goal, and the whole meaning of existence. The beloved shed tears, and the tears fell in the wind, and before they were blown dry, new tears fell.At this time, she heard talking and laughing behind her, it seemed to be her cousin and Xiaohui.She instinctively hid behind a clump of green plants. She didn't know why she did this, maybe she didn't want to let her frustration fall in Xiaohui's eyes? It was clearly her cousin's footsteps—even if she was surrounded by thousands of troops, she could tell where he was—but when they stopped, there was no more sound.Xinai felt strange, and gently pushed aside the banana leaves to look out.God, what did she see?Cousin and Xiaohui are actually kissing!This is their first kiss, right?Warm, clumsy, shy, and exploratory. "Oh, Kefan..." She heard Xiaohui calling her cousin's name like this.And the cousin responded: "Hui..." The latter words were replaced by a new kiss.A pair of young lovers kissed together again like fish. Xinai only felt a fishy throat, and the blood all over his body was churning up.The sadness of parting had already overwhelmed her, but he still wanted to give her such a fresh stimulus.It was as if a sharp knife had pierced through the air, piercing her chest, and he was still holding the handle of the knife with a smile, pushing the tip of the knife deeper. It was so painful that I couldn't cry.She smelled the strong smell of blood coming around the tree, and clasped her hands involuntarily. "Meow——" With a sharp cry, the sharp teeth of the Persian cat angrily stuck into the back of her beloved's hand, and when she let go, the cat escaped from her embrace again in panic. "Beloved?" It was my cousin's surprised and shy voice. "Mimi—" was Xiaohui's exasperated cry. However, the beloved can't hear it at all.She witnessed the most direct betrayal of the young master. She came back from life to death, death, for him, just to be with him.But he wants to kiss another woman bloody in front of her! The innocence of a fourteen-year-old girl and the jealousy of a forty-year-old woman intertwined and erupted in her body at the same time. That kind of painful power made her feel so uncomfortable that she could never die.She really wished to die at this moment, not to see this scene.Although I always knew that my cousin was playful, and he was a romantic at a young age, but after all, when he was young, he was just a child, so he didn't care about it.But now, he actually kissed someone else.That was clearly a big man. She saw the soft fluff on his lips, oh he is about to grow into a big man, he kisses other women, falls in love, will marry and have children, and grow old together. So, what should she do?what to do?what to do? "You bullied my cat!" Xiaohui went back and forth, pointed at her beloved and questioned, "Get my cat back!" The blush on Kefan's face did not fade, he was still intoxicated by his first kiss, not seeing his little girlfriend suffer a little bit of grievance, he hurriedly hugged her shoulder and asked warmly: "Xiaohui, what's the matter? Don't worry, speak slowly, what's wrong?" gone?" "She bullied my Mimi." Acting like a baby is a woman's nature, and the little girl exclaimed coquettishly, "She beat Mimi away. I can't even chase her back. I don't care, you have to pay for my cat." "Okay, I'll pay. If Mimi can't be found, I'll find ten Persian cats to pay you back, okay?" Kefan comforted him with a wry smile, clearly enjoying the game. "I don't want other cats. A hundred cats can't compare to my Mimi." Xiaohui acted coquettishly, twisting her body in Kefan's arms, "I want her to pay. You ask She, what did she do to my cat? You ask her." "My dear, why are you bullying Xiaohui's cat?" Kefan repeated like a parrot. Xinai pursed her lips tightly, for fear that she would spit out blood when she opened it.What a humiliation—to question a mute.How does he want her to answer him? She looked at her cousin, wanting to see his heart all the time.In his heart, does she have any weight?He is the reincarnation of the young master, how could he not have the slightest memory of pity for her? But Kefan didn't look at her at all.Kefan's questioning was just a gesture, a show for Xiaohui.He knew that his cousin couldn't speak, and it was impossible for him to answer him, so he felt at ease wronging her and confirming her crime.When he questioned her, he was blaming her and scolding her—in order to please Xiaohui. He hugged Xiaohui, coaxed, persuaded, and teased, but he couldn't see other people at all.He has never considered that beloved is a normal person with flesh and blood, she can't speak, she is disabled, so she shouldn't be respected and fair, right? The beloved's heart has been split into thousands of pieces, and the blood is flowing like a river.However, he couldn't see it. He can't see can't see can't see. If she is dumb, then he is blind. Kefan chased Xiaohui and ran away, biting his purple lips, his eyes turned black with distress.She just felt that her whole body was up in the air, swinging with the wind, ethereal and helpless.When she saw the angels and devils, she was suddenly very angry. They watched her humiliation, but they stood by and showed no mercy. However, before she complained, the angel had already explained: "If you have studied ancient Chinese, you will definitely memorize that article, 'Heaven wants to descend to a great man and a human being, you must first work hard and work hard...' You must know , everything is temporary, everything is experience.” The devil also chimed in: "When they wrong you, their sins will deepen and they will be one step closer to me. When they die, their souls will be taken in by me. You don't have to be sad for their sins, but you should be happy for yourself right." My heart can't laugh or cry, angels and devils are both guides, they either guide people to do good, or guide people to sin, regardless of the result, their methods are similar, so their eloquence is also comparable.If you want to debate with them, wouldn't it be like a mantis is like a cart, and he is overwhelmed? What's more, she didn't have the ability to argue at all—they didn't give her this chance, and confiscated her right to speak before she was born, and they kept it temporarily in the name of euphemism.But what a long time this is?When on earth are they going to give her back the glib tongue? She watched them with persistent eyes. The angel understood the question in those eyes, and comforted: "Hurry up, hurry up, you will be able to speak soon." "When you come of age, you will have a new life." The devil also promised. Adult day?Beloved is puzzled. The devil giggled: "The birth of a person is a disaster of blood and light, and the rebirth is naturally the same. You are so smart, don't I need to explain it?" But Xinai still doesn't understand, but the angel and the devil have ignored her, turned around and left.Let her shake her hands desperately behind her, they just couldn't see.Just like Kefan, as long as you turn your back, you will never see her again. A mute, unless she is face to face, or high above, is there any way to draw attention to her? Love stops being futile, if you realize something. "A specter, a specter of communism..." The voice itself was already like a ghost, bewitching her, seducing her, she tossed and turned, unbelievably restless.A heart, a heart that has just begun to fall in love, has unspeakable turmoil in the rainy night, entangled and struggling like a startled snake, almost convulsed. She was crying, full of reluctance, not reconciled, not giving up is not enough.The rain is falling between the curtains, tears are falling on the pillow, and the same gurgling is endless. I don't know if this cry came from Aunt Xing or Zhen Xin'ai? The rains have triggered years of floods and displaced refugees.The Lu Mansion was not flooded, but the master was afraid of being harassed by starving people, so he decided to take his family south.Tickets are very expensive, so you must choose your followers carefully.Needless to say, wives and young masters and ladies, but the servants always have to bring a few, so that they can take care of them along the way-this is very troublesome, which one to take and which one to take, nodding or shaking the head, it is a certain person life.Also, do you want to take Butler Li with you?If you don't bring it, you have to rely on him for many things, and it would be very inconvenient without him by your side; if you take it, who will take care of the Dalu Mansion?Besides Steward Li, who else has such ability to make decisions? All are troubled by whether to go or stay.Those who couldn’t leave lamented their fate, and thought about what else they could do to try again; those who left were worried about what to bring with them, and they didn’t know when they would come back after leaving.The master and wife chose two servants, a man and a woman, to accompany them. Miss Ke Yan and Master Ke Jing also asked each to take one. Girl, in the end it was the young master Kefan who said: "Just let them go. Anyway, I don't need anyone to serve me, so I just leave alone." That's when the quarrel stopped. In the chaos of war, only Xingren'er doesn't care and is not nervous.She didn't think about whether to leave or stay, she just waited for others to arrange for her; when the master said he would take her away and told her to pack up, she had no idea, and felt that there was nothing particularly important, and there was nothing to keep, so she Demonstrated astonishing calmness. Then hit the road.The young master Kefan took the lead, and Steward Li still stayed, so the responsibility for contacting and entertaining all fell on the young master.The corners of his mouth were blistered quickly, blood scabs formed on his lips, and his chin was green with stubble.Xing Ren'er looked at it, feeling very distressed, wishing to share the burden for him.Abandoning the car and boarding the boat, the young master shouted: "One to follow, everyone be careful not to get separated." She looked for his figure in the crowd, followed his footsteps, savored his breath, and felt his leading.From time to time they were cut off by crowds, but she always found him in the end, almost unreasonably, instinctively. Although it is the upper class, but because there are too many guests and too few sailors, there is no way to maintain order, and there is no way to distinguish between classes. Anyone who boards the ship is a guest. At this time, whoever has more or less money There is no difference in one point, as long as you hold a ticket in your hand, all living beings are equal. Everyone has only a small space, and they sit in random places, which is a little better than the lower class cabin, but they can still lay down a mattress for themselves to lie on.Some of the more elegant ones found places to hang curtains to separate their own group from other families.Not many people spoke, except for the crying children, but there was still an inexplicable noise in the crowded cabin.Everyone was dejected and exhausted, even Kejing was exhausted by his endless complaints, he closed his mouth tiredly, and refused to even open his eyes; Keyan was crying silently, using her The wide-brimmed gauze hats covered their faces; many people were seasick, vomiting and vomiting, even the wife and Master Kevan were no exception.On the contrary, Xing Ren'er had nothing to do, she helped take care of the patients all the way, served tea and water, and walked in the cabin like walking on the ground. The eldest young master didn't bring his servants out, so it seemed natural for Xing Ren'er to take care of him—even if it wasn't so natural, she persuaded herself that it was very legitimate and there was nothing out of order.He couldn't even vomit, his face turned pale, and he looked at her weakly, neither thanking nor refusing.She wiped his face and fed him water. She didn't feel nauseous at all, but her heart was filled with unprecedented happiness and peace.She smelled his scent, so familiar and familiar, in the sour vomit, she could smell the aroma of peach blossoms, just like what she smelled when she danced with him in the peach blossom forest. She finally got close to him again.She hadn't been this close to him for a long time.She could look at him so closely, take care of him, hold his head, wipe the saliva from the corner of his mouth, and feed water and antiemetics into his mouth spoon by spoon.Then all the people and things around do not exist, and the whole world also does not exist.She only sees him, she only owns him, and she can own the whole world - if she can really own him, what's so special about the whole world? She didn't have too many extravagant expectations, she just wanted to take care of him so closely, watch him all the time, serve him, and do something for him.His suit was wrinkled, he looked haggard, and his whole body gave off a bad smell, but in her eyes, he was still that handsome, tall, well-dressed, elegant and graceful young man.No, it should be deeper and more attractive than when she was dressed brightly, because she was able to get close to him. Then the boat arrived at the port. ——This journey is so short, and we arrived so soon.Others were so embarrassed as if they had experienced a whole life, but Xing Ren'er felt that it was just a moment, and she felt lost. The ship docked at Wusongkou, Shanghai.For some reason, the pier was so crowded and messy that before they got off the boat, many people rushed onto the boat.As a result, those who went down rushed down, and those who went up rushed up. The flow of people came and went, and many houses were washed away.Only her, her heart was still immersed in the aftertaste and reluctance, she was very anxious, so her face showed an unusual and extraordinary calm. She has no concept of the future, and she has no regrets about the past. She only misses the journey of sailing. It turned out that she and her family had separated at some point, and she lost him and their traces.In a panic, she shouted loudly: "Eldest Young Master——"