Chapter 52 Extra Story

My name is Su Tong. ... 26 years old, married, has a daughter, and works as a designer in an advertising company. ... Accidentally met the deceased around 1993. ... I picked up her handbag. ... The last contact was four years ago. ... Met at school. ... Yes, we are in the same school. ... Wei Rufeng? ... not very familiar... It was already dark when I walked out from the Haiping Public Security Bureau. The sea breeze in the early autumn is cooler than the cheeks, even if you wrap your coat tightly, you still feel cold. A few female students walked over with a smile. They were wearing skirts and carrying drawing boards, showing no sign of being cold at all.Probably when I was young, I had enough heat to ignore the temperature. Wasn’t it the same when I met Wei Rufeng when I was in college?

I can’t help but think back to the policeman’s interrogation. He must not know that I saw him in the coffee shop across from Haida. That’s when I inadvertently broke into the lives of those two people, then made a noise, and then left. .I thought that from the day I said goodbye to them, I would never pay attention to what happened at that time again.But today, during the interrogation by the police, I peeled off the limited time layer by layer, feeling like a world away. It turned out that the goodbye that day has become a farewell. It turned out that he had been dead for so long. It turned out that I was married as a woman.

It turned out that Xia Ruhua was also dead. It turned out that none of us could escape... I tightened my collar, turned my back to the police badge hanging in front of the Public Security Bureau building, and walked slowly away step by step. Xia Ruhua's death, I read the news from the newspaper where Lu Yuan worked. The headline on the front page reported the news that the fugitive Cheng Hao was shot dead by the police on the street. There was a sentence in it: "According to the police's confirmation, the other deceased was Cheng Hao's mistress Xia. According to insiders, This time, the two are planning to leave the country secretly, and the case is currently under further investigation, and the 10.29 West Street Wharf case has been fully successful."

The black printed photos greatly compromised Xia Ruhua's beauty, and her sad eyes seemed to see directly into my heart through the paper. The slightly sad face in my memory doesn't match this photo at all. I remember that when I met Xia Ruhua for the first time in that cafe, she was obviously not like this.Although she always frowned, her eyes were very clean, and she could faintly see unshakable firmness in the deep darkness.It may be too beautiful, so beautiful that it has a seductive color, which makes people want to invade unconsciously.So when the fat girl praised her, I chose to mock her.Come to think of it, I'm actually jealous, especially after seeing Wei Rufeng.

The time I made it clear to her was not because I had much confidence, but on the contrary, it was because I was desperate.I saw the person I liked go down a road of no return, but I couldn't persuade him.No matter how unwilling I am, I can only turn to Xia Ruhua for help. Only her words can change Wei Rufeng's decision. I still remember her expression at that time, like a wounded little animal, foolishly protecting its precious food with soft fur, even if the strength is so small, she will never give up.At that time, I felt that for such a woman, some people would naturally want to capture her, while others would want to protect her.

Later, fate became entangled with those two people.They always do things that I don't expect, indirectly making my life unsatisfactory.And in this process, almost consumed most of my life's emotions... At the Haiping Theater, I had already thought out all the lines.I want Wei Rufeng to tell me his decision in person, clearly knowing that he has reversed the direction of the future, and then express his mind carefully. But still proud first love. As a result, he fell into my arms covered in blood.I swear, I've never had a fear like that.If I could exchange my life for my life, I would probably choose to die without hesitation.Until now, when I raise my left hand, I can vaguely see the blood, which is bright red, flowing warmly through my fingers.It hit my heart drop by drop, declaring indomitable and loyal.I really feel sad, love and death, how far is the distance between these two words, and how close is it!

It was at that time that I resignedly gave up my love aesthetics.It is definitely not a fulfillment, nor an acknowledgment, nor is it to highlight the steadfastness of the hero and heroine.I am wronged, my love is like being coerced by them, with tears and blood, I abdicate awkwardly. In fact, Wei Rufeng didn't treat me badly. He can tease me and make wild jokes; he can eat a lot of chocolate in front of me unabashedly, and then sleep with his eyes closed like a satisfied cat; he can tolerate my non-stop complaining about advanced mathematics, differential , Points, drove me to a big meal; he could not trust anyone, but he told me the secret words in his heart.

He can do a lot for me. However, for the sake of Xia Ruhua, he could risk his life. There is always such a gap between me and him, I stretch out my hand, but I can't catch it. It may also be because of this that even if they disappear completely from my world, I can still live a decent life. And her? died. I lowered my head to look at the cold Song typeface of the newspaper in my hand, the prints on it slowly blurred, and before I knew it, tears were streaming down my face... Putting down the newspaper, I called Lu Yuan, but no one answered his cell phone. I was in a hurry, so I took half a day off to go to his newspaper office.

It's sad to say that I got to know this now-famous journalist because of that chance encounter in school.That day we sent them on a long journey together, experienced the taste of farewell together, and kept their secrets together. Watching them slowly disappear at the end of the darkness, I am still a little bit reconciled, and I think Lu Yuan should be the same. "Don't look, there are no shadows." Lu Yuan said with a smile, he had a pretty smile. "Aren't you watching too?" I really couldn't laugh. "I'm used to it." Another resigned person, I shook the drawing board on my shoulder, stretched out my hand, and said solemnly, "Shake hands, I'm used to it too."

He looked at me in surprise, then laughed. "My name is Lu Yuan. Lu is a capital six, and Yuan is one yuan. You can call me six." "Su Tong." I nodded generously. "For the common habit, I suggest that we can have a small meal!" Lu Yuan pointed to the school restaurant and said.I snapped my fingers and readily agreed. So we turned around together and walked in the opposite direction to those two people. Life is more or less a reminder of fate. In short, they disappeared in the dark, and we walked under the light. But at that time, I would not have imagined that many years later, we would still see their backs to see them off.Only this time, it turned out to be Yin and Yang.

When I arrived at the newspaper office, there was chaos there, and I heard Lu Yuan's roar in the editorial room from a long distance: "Who wrote that she was Cheng Hao's mistress? Who the hell wrote it! Did you interview the police? Do you understand?" Her? Do you know what kind of person she is! She was kidnapped! She was killed!" I hurried into the room, grabbed Lu Yuan who was making a fuss and said, "Lu Yuan! Calm down!" "I can't calm down! I tell you, you can't calm down either! Wei Rufeng died too! They didn't escape that day at all! Wei Rufeng was burned to death at the West Street Wharf, Xia Ruhua was kidnapped by Cheng Hao! They, they all died It's gone!" Lu Yuan screamed in despair with red eyes. I froze in place for a moment. After seeing the news of Xia Ruhua's death, I had a bad premonition, but I didn't expect that this premonition had already been fulfilled a few years ago. That person was just like his name. It has disappeared like the wind. "Lu Yuan, let's go." I tugged on his arm and whispered. "them……" Lu Yuan pointed at the newspaper and wanted to say something, I raised my head suddenly, and said with tears, "What do you care about them! Xia Ruhua died on the street, are you waiting for the police to collect her body and cremate her? " Lu Yuan turned his head and stared at me blankly. I was very confused. I wiped my face and turned around to go out. Lu Yuan threw the newspaper down and followed me downstairs. Lu Yuan drove me to the Haiping City Public Security Bureau. On the way, we had a random discussion, because I was afraid that he would lose control of his emotions when he saw Xia Ruhua, so I would claim Xia Ruhua's body, and he would go to the police to find out the details. I accepted Ye Xiangrong's routine questioning, and when I asked about Wei Rufeng, I lied to him.How could I not be familiar with Wei Rufeng?The corners of his eyes and brows, and his few words are imprinted in my heart, but this is a beautiful secret between us, I will not tell anyone, and reality does not allow me to tell anyone, even if he is dead, but he still I am still guilty, but I want to continue to live in this world. In order to avoid unnecessary troubles, I can only choose to be indifferent. This may be the sadness of an adult. Lu Yuan failed to tell me exactly how Wei Rufeng died that day. After he asked Ye Xiangrong the whole story of the bombing, he went to the cold room with the police.I stood aside and watched him lift up the blood-stained white cover sheet inch by inch. Xia Ruhua was completely different from before. She was very thin, with a protruding collarbone, as thin as a child.Lu Yuan's hands were shaking all the time, he gently wiped away the blood left on Xia Ruhua's face, carefully stroked her completely cold skin, and gently called her name. However, no one could respond to him in this cold room. He knelt there, hugging his beloved woman tightly and crying loudly. I didn't accompany him to the end that day. I was going home, cooking for my husband, and telling stories to my daughter.A man can not marry, but a woman cannot.As Xia Ruhua said to me, I live the same life and do the same things as most people. Looking at her quiet body, I think she was really thinking of me at the beginning. In the end, we buried them together tacitly. Lu Yuan stubbornly refused all the help Ye Xiangrong offered. I can understand him. Although I know that the policeman tried his best and the grief in his eyes is no less than that of Lu Yuan, I still can't help complaining.Death is the greatest limit, and the doomed ending leaves no chance for the living. According to the police, DNA is not a panacea, and at that kind of scene, they couldn't extract anything.When Xia Ruhua died, she was wearing Wei Rufeng's shirt, so it could barely be regarded as a well-dressed one.Lu Yuan and I chose the cemetery together. We were the only two of us on the day of the burial. I couldn't help crying when I saw the urn wrapped in a shirt buried deep in the ground.I thought of that sentence in the Bible: Where we came from, we will return, ashes to ashes, dust to dust. They literally turned to dust. Lu Yuan prepared a large bouquet of white roses, and he personally covered the soil and erected a monument.He also drew the inscription on the inscription, with that careful and affectionate look, it doesn't look like drawing calligraphy for the dead, but like drawing eyebrows for a lover.I stayed until the evening, but Lu Yuan refused to leave. His lonely figure made me feel very sad. "Let's go." I said to Lu Yuan who was silently squatting in front of the grave. "Did you say they were ever happy?" Lu Yuan asked in a daze, "In such a short life, have they ever been truly happy?" For a moment, I thought of Wei Rufeng's eyes, there was always a hint of tenderness in his deep eyes, I thought it was his only waiting and hope in his dark days. "They were happy once, and they should have been happy forever." "Then have they regretted it?" Lu Yuan put away his pen and ink, and stood up with red eyes.I looked at the names of those two people and said, "They haven't had time to regret it yet." "When they said goodbye to us, they didn't expect it to be like this." Lu Yuan sighed and said, "At that time, they might have thought about living a good life, but now no one knows what they thought in the end. Ye Xiangrong said, they Neither of them left any last words, Ruhua was already unconscious at that time, she only called Wei Rufeng's name..." I patted Lu Yuan on the shoulder, he wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, smiled at me and said, "I made you laugh. I feel uncomfortable when I think of her. She has suffered so much these past few years. Ye Xiangrong said that they kept her locked up. Give her LSD, which is a hallucinogen, and her mind has been deranged in the end. I will go to Gannan with them in a few days, and picturesque has been there before returning to Haiping, and there should be some relics." "You want to drive a little bit, don't be too sad when you get there," I said. "Well, let's go, I'll take you back, the child is coming back from kindergarten soon, right?" Lu Yuan said, dusting the dirt off his hands. I looked at my watch and said, "My husband should have brought her back." "I think you are fine now, really." Lu Yuan looked at me and said earnestly, "At least you can let go and live your own life." I smiled and didn't answer. We walked out of the cemetery together side by side. The clouds in the sky reflected the rays of the sun, as if plated with old gold. I secretly thought about Lu Yuan's words. I let go? Even let it go. Lu Yuan drove me all the way to the gate of my community, said goodbye to him, and I bought some vegetables along the way. It may be that there was a lot of rumors about toxic pesticides a while ago, and the inspection in the vegetable market has been more careful recently.Some vegetables were simply not allowed to be bought again, so those vegetable farmers raised their prices, and the prices of ordinary vegetables also increased for no reason. When I went, an acquainted housewife next to me was arguing with the hawker, making a lot of noise.Seeing me coming, he stopped Zhuang Momo and complained even more vigorously.The hawker finally lost and gave up a small amount. She paid the money happily, and taught me their southerners' trading experience along the way: "They are thieves, you think it is because there are few vegetables that you increase the price? I saw the dog in the morning, and all his cars were brought in. The back basket There are plenty of them! Heh, I really thought that everything can go up? Water, electricity, gas, white flour, gasoline...the prices have all been raised! Salary is not increased, and my family’s household is less. Ouch, women just have to calculate. " I answered absent-mindedly, and hurriedly got rid of her when I passed by a bakery and said I wanted to buy something.I always feel that if I stay with someone like her for a long time, I will really be addicted to daily necessities.There were a few female high school students in that store, talking and laughing about celebrities. I looked at the price and production date of the bread next to them. This comparison made me feel that the struggle just now was ridiculous. An art girl who draws pictures, her dreams are fleeting, and the plastic bags in her hands are life. I took out the worn-out key, opened the door, smelled the familiar smell, and watched my daughter running towards me happily. I finally felt at ease.Life is like a dream, whether it is ordinary or trivial, the one you can hold tightly is your true self. My daughter was very happy today. She took my hand and said in a nasal voice, "Mom, mom! I'll show you something good! Close your eyes!" I obediently closed my eyes, smiling and waiting for her to perform a cute trick. "Look!" She grabbed a handful of colorful things and shook them in front of me. "What?" I asked, hugging her. "Candy!" She spread her hands contentedly and said, "Is it pretty?" In fact, they are just some cheap fruit candies, without any nice wrappers, they are wrapped in transparent plastic, and they smell of strong essence. "Who gave it to you?" I asked her. "Uncle at the hardware store next door." "Oh." I thought about it but never remembered such a person, playing in the street, the neighborhood kids are more familiar than the adults, "Did you thank uncle?" "Thanks!" She said as she peeled off one and ate it. "Don't eat it. If you eat too many teeth, you will grow worms. Mom will keep it for you, okay?" I grabbed her and said, there must be a lot of pigment in those candies, so I think it's better not to eat them. "Mom, I don't want to eat, but I want to keep it by myself." She looked at me a little wronged and said, "Because it was a gift from my uncle. I know you don't like it, but uncle has no money. This It’s the best that can be given to me.” I looked at my daughter in amazement, comforted by her sensibility and kindness. It seems that even cheap candies may have different meanings. Seeing that I didn't say anything, my daughter shook my arm coquettishly and said, "How about it, Mom, I promise I won't steal it!" "Okay." I smiled and returned the candy to her and said, "Then you have to keep it safe!" "Yeah!" She happily nodded vigorously, and walked away carefully holding the candy.Looking at the small figure of my daughter, I vaguely remembered that I had done such a thing before. A piece of paper, a piece of clothing, and a trace of that person are all cherished by me.Even the piece of tiramisu that he knocked off, I kept putting it on my hair. Because there are too few available, and the gap in the heart needs to be made up, so it has the meaning of cherishing and commemorating. Thinking about it now, those things are probably the best he can give me...