Chapter 4 Chapter 4 Lost

When he opened his eyes again, he found himself lying in Huo Qubing's arms. In the dark night, the vast desert, only the rumble of horseshoes can be heard.I looked at the sparse and dim two or three stars in the sky, and my heart felt empty.Naughty Xiao Tao, Xiao Tao who often breaks things, Xiao Tao who always likes to get angry with me, gentle Xiao Qian, Xiao Qian who takes care of Xiao Tao everywhere... "Are you awake?" Huo Qubing looked down at me. After a long silence, I asked: "Where are you? Little Yueshi?" He raised his head and looked into the distance: "You have been in a coma for a day and a night, Xiaoyue has passed away, and now we are almost at Qilian Mountain, are you familiar with Qilian Mountain?"

I gave a soft "hmm", my body was still a little weak, and I sat up with the back of the horse: "I want to ride a horse by myself." Huo Qubing said softly: "At that time, you were in a strong mood, so the dose of the drug was heavy. Although you are awake, I'm afraid you still can't exert your strength. I will take you for another ride." I was silent for a while, then nodded slightly. The mountain shadow standing in the darkness was getting closer and closer, and a few howling wolves could be heard in the distance, which could be faintly heard amidst the sound of horseshoes. My heart moved, I held Huo Qubing's arm tightly, and I turned my head and said, "Hurry up, please? I heard..." I bit my lower lip, swallowed the words on my lips, and turned my head to look at Qi Lianshan.

Huo Qubing rode his horse to speed up, passed the crowd all the way, and ran straight forward, gradually leaving everyone behind.I looked at him in surprise, and he lowered his head and smiled: "I hope it's your wolf." A few wolves stood at the corner of the hillside and looked down at us. I was so emotional that I let out a long howl at Qilian Mountain. Huo Qubing's horse suddenly arched its back and tried to throw me off. The howling roared in the mountains, and the horse became more and more out of control. Huo Qubing had no choice but to abandon the reins and jumped to the ground with me.

I immediately broke free from him, but he didn't pull me, allowing me to rush towards the wolves on the hillside while roaring.Unexpectedly, when they saw me, they whined a few times, and fled away in a hurry with a flick of their tails.I was full of emotions, completely lost, and cried out angrily: "Wolf Bajiu, why are you avoiding me? Don't you recognize me?" A few little wolves looked at me from the woods, and I called them over in a low voice. Just as they were about to approach, they suddenly heard their mother's cry, and they all hid back. I stomped my feet and screamed: "I won't force you to warm up by the fire."

Huo Qubing shook his head and laughed, "Yu'er, I thought you were the princess of the wolves, and you should be greeted by the wolves. No one seems to want to see you." I glared at him, and listened carefully to the howling of wolves that were getting closer and closer. There was a long howl that shook the mountains and forests. A silver wolf leaped out of the forest and rushed straight at me. I jumped up to meet him, hugging him. His neck rolled to the grass together, Brother Wolf sniffed my face and neck, I hugged his neck, my nose was astringent, and my eyes were full of tears.

Brother Wolf and I quarreled for a while before we calmed down. Brother Wolf yelled at the woods. A snow-white she-wolf led a silver-white wolf cub slowly to me. I laughed and hugged the little wolf. Wolf turned his head and said happily to Huo Qubing: "I have a little niece, this is our little princess, isn't she beautiful?" Huo Qubing smiled and wanted to approach, Snow Wolf stared at Huo Qubing vigilantly, and neighed in warning, I made a proud face at Huo Qubing: "I don't like you, I don't think you are a good person!" Huo Qubing stopped helplessly. The little princess has a small face and is fluffy all over, rolling around on my body like a snowball. Brother Wolf teased it with his big tail. I stuck my tongue out at my father, I couldn't help laughing and laughing, the cheerful voices of man and wolf echoed in the mountains, Huo Qubing stood aside and stared at us quietly, a little self-blame and a little thoughtful.

The sound of horseshoes at the foot of the mountain gradually became quieter, and the brigade should have arrived.Huo Qubing glanced at the foot of the mountain and then at me: "Yu'er." I turned my head to look at him, and he stared at me for a while without blinking and said, "I'm going back, you... You haven't seen each other for a long time, you should stay with them first!" I stared at him in disbelief that he was willing to let me go?He smiled warmly: "Don't leave Qilian Mountain yet, okay?" The reluctance in his eyes turned into a smile that wanted me to be happy.

I nodded silently, and he looked at Brother Lang with a smile: "Yu'er, please leave it to you first." Turn around and run quickly down the mountain. The little princess followed Brother Wolf and me and clumsily splashed in the water, while our Princess Xuelang lay on the boulder by the lake and watched us play in the water tenderly. I kicked brother wolf, where did you abduct such a beautiful wolf, brother wolf let out a long cry and raised his claws to sweep towards my face, I immediately hit him on the neck, the snow wolf jumped from the stone in shock He stood up, watched us fighting together for a while, and then sat down quietly.

The poor little princess was affected by the water splashed by us, choked on the water, and struggled to sink. I didn't care about playing with brother wolf, so I grabbed her in a hurry, brother wolf was about to hit my paw Immediately stop, the little princess has two round eyes on her furry face, she is looking at me pitifully at this moment, her four little paws are waving weakly in the air, and there is a low whine from her mouth, I smile and kiss Touching her little nose, he carried her ashore. The snow wolf immediately came to lick the water drops on the little princess. The little princess stretched out comfortably under her mother, with her belly facing the sky, waving her paws to scratch her mother's face and purring happily. straight smile.

After Brother Wolf came ashore, he arched his body, and I jumped away alertly, but he chased me and kept shaking his hair beside me. Drops of water splashed on my face, and I kicked him again helplessly. A bonfire was lit to dry the clothes, but Brother Wolf was not by my side as usual.Because the snow wolf is still not used to the fire, so he lies with the snow wolf in the distance, and from time to time they will rub each other's heads intimately and lick each other's fur. I looked at them, and suddenly realized that from now on, Brother Wolf would not be accompanied by me, but Snow Wolf, and I could only sit by the fire alone.

My mind slowly drifted away, it has been two days, what happened to Huo Qubing and the others?As I was thinking about it, the wolves in the forest howled a few times, and after I responded a few times, they left separately. Lots and lots of people fighting?I sat silently lost in thought, life and death on the battlefield is uncertain, even if he is Huo Qubing. I stood up suddenly and put on my coat. Brother Wolf looked at me suspiciously.I took the meat off the grill and put it next to Brother Wolf.It's only three mature, but Brother Wolf shouldn't care. "I'm leaving for a while." I patted Brother Wolf's head and whimpered.Brother Wolf screamed a few times in dissatisfaction. I patted him on the back apologetically and was about to leave. Brother Wolf jumped up and wanted to go with me. Brother Wolf roared violently, Snow Wolf whined a few times, Brother Wolf immediately quieted down, and Bailian Steel finally turned into soft fingers, and sneered at Brother Wolf, before he got angry, hurriedly Skip forward.Looking back, the three wolves stand under the night, their shadows overlapping each other, warm and harmonious.I was smiling, but my heart was sour. Brother Wolf already has his own family, but I only have memories that I don’t want to recall. Sneaking all the way, it was only at dawn that they approached the battle place of the army. I hid in the tree and looked up. Day and night of fierce fighting, the war is coming to an end, corpses are scattered all over the field, the vegetation has turned blood red, and the sound of weapons clashing echoes in the morning sun, all these make the sun that should be warm become chilly. I jumped off the tree and walked among the corpses. How many Li Chengs from the Han Dynasty and how many Li Chengs from the Huns are there?How many Li Chengs will these corpses create?Will they take up arms and put on armor for the hatred of their father and brother and rush into the next battle? How many corpses are there?Are 40,000 to 50,000 beings just lying here silently?I have long been prepared to enter hell on earth, but my heart is still chilling uncontrollably. I have walked for so long, but there is still an endless corpse. The hem of the robe has long been soaked in blood. It's corpses and blood. Judging from the clothes, it should be a disastrous defeat for the Huns, and the number of corpses of the Huns is far greater than that of the Han.Seeing me, several scattered Hun soldiers immediately raised their broken weapons in panic. With a wave of gold beads, I knocked down the weapons in their hands and walked straight past them. A young man took out a close-fitting dagger I stared at him coldly, and said in the Hun language: "Leave quickly, run as fast as you can, your mother is still waiting for you at home." They were stunned for a moment, although they hesitated, finally But they chose to support each other and leave quickly. The summer sun is shining at the foot of Qilian Mountain, making the trees bright green.Among the colorful mountain flowers, Huo Qubing stood majestically in black robe and silver armor, holding a long knife, overlooking the entire battlefield from a condescending height. The silver light reflected from the silver armor and the long knife made it impossible to look directly at him. The bloody wind blew his robe and fluttered, and the black hair that had lost the restraint of the hair crown flew fiercely in the wind. The lower part is hideous and ugly with the blood of the corpse, and the higher part is the warmth and brilliance of green trees and red flowers. The contrast is stark. These two images never blend together. However, because of his posture and imposing manner, they are miraculously merged and unified under his feet. A breathtaking beauty. The figure of the God of War in the legend is nothing more than that! He was fine, I let out a breath slowly, turned around and wanted to leave. "Gold—jade—" the joyful cry echoed in the mountain stream, breaking the coldness that gathered on the ground. I look back.He quickly flew among the red flowers and green grass, his jet-black hair fluttering in the wind, colorful petals fluttering around his body, bloody and pervasive, there was an almost monstrous beauty: "Are you here to find me? Don't worry about me?" I looked at him: "What happened to your hair?" He smiled nonchalantly: "Accidentally hit an arrow, and the hair crown was shot off." I looked at the soldiers who were clearing the battlefield: "Have the Huns been defeated?" Huo Qubing nodded with a smile: "It's not a big defeat, it's a disastrous defeat. We captured King Tu and five young kings of the Huns alive. We are more than one. Their army is almost wiped out, but our army's loss is only two or three out of ten." Zhao Ponu stepped forward to salute, and said respectfully: "General, I have counted the number of Huns dead, and they killed a total of 30,200." Huo Qubing nodded, and Zhao Ponu smiled and said: "The Huns will definitely die again." Yu Li gathered the army around Qilian Mountain, we can have a good rest tonight, the general can enjoy the scenery of Qilian Mountain that the Huns are proud of." Huo Qubing looked at me sideways, and waved Zhao Ponu to go down, Zhao Ponu glanced at me Then bowed his head and stepped back. "You don't seem happy at all?" Huo Qubing asked, staring into my eyes. "This war is fought by Your Majesty to fight for the control of Hexi, and to open the way to the countries of the Western Regions. What does it have to do with me? Maybe it's a way to avenge Li Cheng, but such hatred is simply Unable to report." Huo Qubing frowned slightly: "It's rare to meet a Han who doesn't hate the Huns." I waved away other thoughts in my mind, and pointed to his hair: "Let's wash it first! I also want to change my clothes." He came to shake my hand with a smile, I avoided him, and said as I walked, "You may not be able to beat me now, you'd better behave yourself." He followed me and said with a smile: "We have more intimate actions than this, do you mind shaking hands now?" I glared at him angrily, he quickly waved his hands, and said with a smile: "It's fine if you don't want to, you look much more angry now than before." I was startled for a moment, and when I realized it, I fell into his good intentions and bad deeds again. Turning my head and walking silently, Huo Qubing quietly accompanied me, as I got farther away from the battlefield, the fragrance of flowers and plants in the wind became stronger, and my mood eased a lot. In the shadows of the mottled trees, my shadow and his shadow overlapped each other. My mind flashed the shadows of Brother Wolf's family of three under the moonlit night. The bonfire in the mountain was blazing, everyone was laughing and talking, and the aroma of wine and meat permeated the surroundings. Huo Qubing and I were the only ones by the bonfire, and occasionally a few soldiers would come over to toast a bowl of wine and then leave quickly.Huo Qubing handed me the wine pouch, and I was about to shake my head when I smelled it, and immediately asked, "Is this kumiss?" Huo Qubing nodded: "The taste of today's spoils is incomparable to our wine." I reached out to take it, brought it to my mouth and took a small mouthful, and swallowed it slowly, feeling the taste of a long absence. Huo Qubing took a few sips and handed it to me. I shook my head.He smiled, took back the wine bag, and drank by himself.Zhao Puonu came towards us with two bowls of wine, Huo Qubing scolded with a smile: "Are you trying to get me drunk? Why did you come again after the toast?" Zhao Puonu smiled and handed the wine bowl to me: "This wine is not for the general, but for Brother Jin. I was very rude to Brother Jin in the previous incident. I have never seen a pigeon that dared to fight a falcon. I never thought that Xiongtai’s pigeons would be so strong, we can’t afford to pay for such pigeons, please forgive me for my previous words.” Although he had a smile on his face, his eyes were full of guilt. I still didn't take the bowl for a long time, his smile was a little stiff: "Brother won't forgive, I also understand." After finishing speaking, he downed his bowl of wine in one go, bowed his knees slightly and bowed to me, ready to leave, I reached out and took the bowl in his hand, raised my head and closed my eyes and drank it all, then turned sideways and coughed. Huo Qubing smiled and said to Zhao Puonu: "It's very good for you! She can't hold alcohol very well, and her wine quality is not good. When she gets drunk, she loses control, so she usually doesn't want to drink." At this time, Zhao Ponu's smile really reached his eyes, and he clasped his fists to salute me: "Thank you!" He saluted Huo Qubing again, turned and left. After sitting for a while, I felt my head was a little heavy, so I quickly stood up: "I'll go back before the wine is strong." Huo Qubing immediately stood up, held the wine bag and said, "Let's go together!" Huo Qubing's tent was set up in the shade, and out of consideration for me, he deliberately ordered other people's tents to keep a certain distance away. Before I reached the tent, my steps had already started to weaken. Huo Qubing wanted to help me, but I pushed his hand away, but I was staggering. Regardless of my struggle, he forcibly picked me up and entered the tent. In the darkness, my mind seemed to be clear, and the past events slowly emerged clearly, but it seemed to be very confused, and I couldn't control my thoughts at all. Very uncomfortable. Huo Qubing fumbled to turn on the lamp, leaned close to me to look at me, sighed heavily, and wiped my tears with a handkerchief: "Are you still feeling bad for Xiaoqian and Li Cheng?" I tugged at his sleeve and just shed tears: "My daddy is gone, Master Jiu would never want me, and now Xiaotao Xiaoqian is gone too, Brother Wolf already has his own wife and daughter, and I am the only one left gone." Huo Qubing's hands froze for a moment, he picked up the wine bag and drank a few swigs, and wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes with the other: "Nonsense! Why are you the only one left? I will accompany you." I murmured, pulled up his sleeve and blew my nose, looked at him and asked, "Why do you spend so much time on me?" Huo Qubing looked at his sleeve, shook his head helplessly, pulled my hand away, put the handkerchief into my hand, and took off his robe: "Are you really stupid? Although I didn't say it clearly, don't you Do you understand that I want to marry you?" I reached out to grab the wine bag, but Huo Qubing snatched it away: "Don't drink any more." He drank several sips while talking. I reached out to grab it, and he held my hand: "Answer me a question, and I'll give you a drink. Do you like me a little bit?" Huo Qubing stared at me without blinking. I tilted my head and thought for a while: "I don't know." Huo Qubing sighed: "Then did you feel sad when you saw me sad before? Did you worry about me today?" I nodded desperately: "I still don't want to see Sophora japonica, and I feel sad when I see it. I am afraid that you will be hurt by the Huns, and you will rush all night." He smiled bitterly: "You have me in your heart." He picked up the wine bag and just poured wine: "You have gone far by the Crescent Lake, why do you turn back? When you look back and see me, you know I don’t know if you are blushing? Why are you blushing? If you don’t think about me, why did you reserve a seat for me in the song and dance hall? When you are unhappy, I think of ways to make you laugh, but whenever I don’t When you are happy, don’t you think of a way to distract me? When I was unhappy because of the comments of Sima Qian and those literati, you, who have never quarreled with me, did not hesitate to talk to me by my sleeve. Obviously it was to tease me, but in fact But it was just to make me laugh. A few days ago, you were forced to keep you because of me, and you were full of ghost ideas. When you talked about your father, you realized that I was unhappy, but you immediately focused on changing the topic. I just gossip. Yu'er, I just made a mistake once, and I was a step too late. If Chang'an city..." I smiled and pointed to his face and said, "You're going to be drunk, your face is so red, like a monkey's butt." He smiled and shook his head: "You are the one who is really drunk, how can you cry and laugh when you are not drunk?" I shook my head and waved my hands: "I'm not drunk, I'm sober." I looked at the wine sac in his hand: "I want to drink it. I haven't drunk kumiss for a long time. I secretly drank it once when I was a child. I thought it was really bad." "Doesn't it feel bad to drink now?" I said with a mournful face, "It's unpalatable now, but it smells like Dad." He handed the wine bag to me, I held his hand and took a big sip, he retracted his hand and drank the rest in one gulp, then threw the wine bag away casually. "Yu'er, don't go back to the wolves, marry me!" Huo Qubing lay on his side on the carpet, staring at me drunkenly. I smiled and didn't speak.He continued: "Meng Jiu is not bad, standing like an orchid and jade tree, smiling like a bright moon in his arms, he is indeed a rare man in the world, but I am not bad, and I will definitely treat you very well, just forget about him! " Before I could speak, he suddenly laughed loudly: "I'm drunk, I wouldn't be able to say these words anyway if I'm not drunk, but I know it very well in my heart." I frowned, that warm figure under the lamp, that gentle figure, that always calm and calm figure... Huo Qubing's face suddenly appeared in front of my eyes: "Now I am in front of your eyes, you are not allowed to think about others." I looked at him, tears welled up again, Huo Qubing wiped my tears for me, stroked my cheek with his fingers, hesitated, and put them on my lips, his fingers immediately became hot and his body became stiff.I stared blankly at him, he suddenly let out a long breath, and suddenly kissed me, my heart seemed to be confused, my body became light and soft, as if about to fly up, but also seemed to fall, only his lips, he His hands, his body, are burning like fire, but my heart is so cold, I want this hot... I woke up from the faint howling of wolves, feeling my head was heavy and my body was limp. I opened my eyes in pain, and when I saw the lingering posture of Huo Qubing and me, I immediately closed them in disbelief. Filled with shock, scenes from last night slipped past my heart clearly and sometimes indistinctly.I lay motionless, my mind numb, and another howl of a wolf came faintly.I slid out of Huo Qubing's arms with my eyes closed, and put on my clothes quickly with my back on my back. There was still a small half of the candle left, and I couldn't face such a bright room. I blew out the candle and stood silently in the dark. Huo Qubing behind me turned over, and I was surprised and jumped out of the tent in a few steps. Soldiers patrolling in the distance came in formation, and I hurriedly hid among the rocks, following the intermittent howling of wolves. The half crescent moon hangs obliquely in the sky, reflecting a pool of blue waves in the mountain stream.Brother Wolf was standing on the stone by the lake, with his head half held up and howling, Snow Wolf also howled from time to time. forward. I bit my lip and bent over to hug her: "My smell has changed?" I went to sit next to Brother Wolf, who sniffed me a few times and whimpered twice suspiciously, seeing that I didn't pay attention, Lie down on the boulder boredly. My smell has changed?Because I am no longer a girl, I am already a woman from today.I poured several handfuls of cold spring water on my face, trying to wake myself up, but so what? Looking at the pool silently, I can't think of a thousand thoughts. The little princess writhed in my arms, but I didn't tease her as usual. She jumped out of my arms impatiently and bit her father's tail. The snow wolf turned around abruptly, and screamed at the forest full of warning attacks. I turned around in surprise. Although I didn't see anything, there must be something in the dark that made the snow wolf uneasy.Brother Wolf, who was always the most vigilant, still teased the little princess happily, and only gave a low whine to Snow Wolf.I immediately turned my head and sat stiffly all over.Snow Wolf heard Brother Wolf's humming, and stopped attacking, but still guarded the little princess cautiously. After a while, I heard a soft and worrying voice behind me: "Yu... Yu'er, I... I..." The voice gradually died down, and the surroundings fell into silence again. Stand still, not daring to move. The little princess stopped playing, stared at me curiously with black eyes, and then looked at Huo Qubing. Brother Wolf let out a long growl impatiently, slapped me with his paw, then yelled at Huo Qubing, and led Snow Wolf and the little princess away. Huo Qubing walked up behind me: "I'm sorry, I...I..." A person like him would be so nervous that he couldn't even finish his sentence.I hugged my knees and looked at the lake: "I'm sorry, if you make a mistake, it's only one person, and you didn't force me." My voice was very calm, but my heart was extremely flustered. Huo Qubing wanted to sit down, but hesitated for a while, walked away a few steps, sat on a rock at a distance, and watched the lake silently, neither of them said a word for a long time.He casually picked up a stone at his feet and threw it into the lake. It happened to hit the shadow of the moon, and the moonlight shattered.He suddenly stood up and sat next to me, holding my shoulder firmly and making me look at him, his eyes were extremely firm: "Yu'er, marry me." My heart was in a mess, and I didn't dare to look at him. My eyes drifted to the other side of the lake, only to find that Brother Wolf and Snow Wolf were squatting side by side in front of us, looking at us intently. The little princess also imitated her parents, squatting on the ground , tilting his head, staring at us with black eyes. I was full of thoughts that I couldn't clear up, so I couldn't help but burst into a smile, picked up a stone, and threw it at Brother Wolf: "Is it pretty?" Brother Wolf didn't move, his eyes didn't blink, the stone fell right in front of his feet, but the little princess was startled, and jumped onto her father's back with a "woooo". Although Brother Wolf can't speak, his eyes are full of worry, hope and encouragement. They are looking forward to my happiness and happiness, exactly the same as Father looked at me when he was parting. I stared into Brother Wolf's eyes and smiled slightly: "Okay." Huo Qubing grabbed my arm: "Did you say it? Did you say it to me?" I looked around, looked at him with a smile and asked, "Is there anyone else here? Then I have to think about it." Huo Qubing stared at me for a while, then suddenly yelled, jumped up from the rock with me in his arms, and danced and danced.Brother Wolf roared joyfully towards the sky, and the little princess followed suit, whining in a childlike voice. For a time, all the people floating in the mountain stream were happy.I look at the moon that is about to set in the west, does this moon also shine on that person in Chang'an City? I lowered my head to look at Huo Qubing, and met his eyes full of joy. My heart was a little moved, I pursed my lips and smiled, stretched out my arms to hug him, and leaned my head on his shoulder. Huo Qubing embraced me quietly, and after a while he shook me: "Say it again, have you really agreed?" I was both happy and sad, looked up at him and said, "Jin Yu agreed to marry Huo Qubing." He laughed loudly: "This is the best thing I've heard in my life, say it again." I tapped him on the shoulder: "Stop talking." His forehead was against mine, with a smile on his lips, staring at me with star-like eyes, begging softly: "Say it again, just one more time." I gave him an angry look, but followed his words and said softly, "I promise to marry you." Huo Qubing kissed me on the cheek: "Good lady." I was stunned, Huo Qubing smiled slightly, and looked at me suspiciously. The three words "good lady" lingered in my heart, and only now did I truly understand that my identity was about to change. My face gradually burned up, and the corners of my mouth slowly rose. Huo Qubing already understood what I was thinking. He stared at me tenderly, without saying a word, just hugged me tightly in his arms. The sky in the east has already turned white, and the early birds in the mountains and forests begin to sing tactfully. As the night ends, a new day begins, just like my life.