Chapter 46 Chapter Forty-Six: Flowing Days

As the days passed, Wu Xiaotian began to feel that life should be like this. If they hadn't gone abroad in the first place, they might have had a stable home long ago.As he grew older, although his sense of dependence on his family began to weaken, and he felt that the unfettered celibate life seemed to be more suitable for his personality, but the concept of starting a family, which was taken for granted, never disappeared in his heart.He was brought up by his mother alone since he was a child, so in life, he has an inescapable sense of dependence on women. Unknowingly, after living with Chen Qiudi for a period of time, especially after moving into a new home, Wu Xiaotian felt that everything was logical.He believes that there can be many understandings of love, not limited to romance, love and sorrow, misery and misery.

For example, even though the grievance between him and He Ru didn't come to fruition in the end, he did love her with all his heart at that time. This kind of true love can only be buried deep in his heart, and will not fade away with the passage of time. obliterate. The two-year cohabitation between him and Chen Qiudi in school was not based on the intentional pursuit of the classic love connotation when he fell in love with He Ru from the very beginning, but was based on the reflection of the self that had been shaped for many years. dial. After experiencing the grief of He Ru, his concept of love began to blur.He believes that love is not a supreme idea, but a supplement to one's personality and soul, and a lubricant for a moist and helpless life.This requires both parties involved to actively contribute, to make up for each other's emotional defects, and to maximize their own potential.

So during that period of time, he almost regarded Chen Qiudi as his willful sister. While loving her, he also discovered the delicate and mature side of his feelings.And he also draws inspiration from Chen Qiudi's unrestrained, lively and willful passion to face life when his emotions are at a low point. Now he feels that the most realistic thing is how to separate the heavy psychology caused by the loss of love in the past from the life he must face in the future when dealing with the relationship of living with a woman.Not only does he have to learn to forget the past, although this is unlikely, he also has to learn to adjust his personality and lifestyle, adapt and coordinate the world that two people share.After a period of time, he felt that the word "pass" in the so-called life was really chewy.The sweetness and bitterness in it may not be fermented by harmonious feelings.

But he soon discovered that when he really wanted to live a life, reality and wish were two different things. Let's just say work and rest time.He used to go to bed late and wake up late, because in the laboratory, there is no accurate regulation on the working time, so he usually arrives at the laboratory after ten o'clock in the morning.At night, he stayed in the laboratory until about eleven o'clock before returning to his residence.Now that he lives with Chen Qiudi, his schedule has to be changed.Chen Qiudi has to rush to the company at 8:30 in the morning, so she will get up around 7:30 in the morning, and this is the time when Wu Xiaotian sleeps. One day his energy may have to be compromised.Chen Qiudi left the company before five o'clock in the evening and went home. After returning, he was in a hurry to make meals, and at this time Wu Xiaotian was busy in the laboratory.Although he lived with Chen Qiudi and tried his best to get home before nine o'clock in the evening, Chen Qiudi inevitably had to say something to him because the food she cooked had long since gone cold.

After such a week, Wu Xiaotian not only did less experiments, but also had to share with Chen Qiudi the time that should belong to him when he came back.Every time before he falls asleep, he has to read a book for a while, which has been a habit formed over the years.But now when he wanted to sleep, Chen Qiudi was already immersed in dreamland. Wu Xiaotian was a little annoyed because of this, in the dead of night, with the hazy white light coming in from the window, he looked at Chen Qiudi who was sleeping soundly, and couldn't help but sigh inwardly.At this time, he felt that he was simply the loneliest person in the world.

As for Chen Qiudi, she is a person with strong adaptability.Women's thinking is generally not as crooked as men's, and they are more directly related to the purpose, so their ability to adapt to the environment is relatively higher than that of men.With Wu Xiaotian returning to her side, her mentality seems to have returned to the cute and naive when she was with Wu Xiaotian a few years ago, instead of the sophisticated and old-fashioned one Wu Xiaotian saw after he came to LA. From her recent happy expression, it can be seen that for more than three years, she seemed to be waiting for Wu Xiaotian's arrival at all.

From this point of view, Wu Xiaotian discovered that Chen Qiudi's love for him has never stopped.Therefore, he tried his best to conceal the undercurrent of unhappiness in his heart that was gradually heating up due to the friction of life. In dealing with Wu Xiaotian's emotions, Chen Qiudi is particularly considerate, which is one of the main reasons why Wu Xiaotian likes her.She knows how to handle a man, and every time she senses that Wu Xiaotian is in a mood, she will cleverly speak out to dissolve the suffocation in his heart. Wu Xiaotian found that compared with three years ago, Chen Qiudi seemed to have changed a lot. Three years ago, she was like a raw material, but now she began to reveal a charming luster.

But for a woman like Chen Qiudi, since she is determined to love a man, she can't wait to have his whole world, including the inner one.However, Wu Xiaotian is particularly stubborn in this aspect. He does not allow anyone to peek into and interfere with the most secret part of his heart. Even his loved ones cannot easily penetrate into his corner of himself. Chen Qiudi has already seen this point, she knows that Wu Xiaotian has a strong self-esteem and cannot bear the stimulation of others to his corner of his self, so she usually tries to tolerate him as much as possible, trying not to touch some of his weird thoughts and actions in her opinion.She understands that in a world of two people, one of the tentacles must be blunted.