Chapter 35 Chapter 34 I am willing

Luo Zhi didn't help much throughout the wedding.She woke up early, visited her uncle's house with her mother, and then set off with the convoy as a family member in the south, crossing half of the city to Chen Jingjia. Activities such as stuffing red envelopes, smashing doors, and begging bridesmaids to let people go are naturally helped by a group of good high school buddies in Luoyang. She stood halfway down the stairs and looked up at the crowded best man group at the door. The festive atmosphere was infectious. Chen Jing's house is not big, and such a group of people suddenly rushed in, and soon there was no place to stand.Luo Zhi lingered in the corridor and listened. Luo Yang led the groomsmen to stand outside Chen Jing's room and begged the bride to open the door. You have to show your salary card to get in.

Luo Zhi smiled and listened to the elder brother in the distance racking his brains to say more and more unimaginable combinations of idioms amidst the booing. I don't know how long it took to complete a series of processes such as filming and serving tea. Finally, Chen Jing was carried out of the door by her cousin in a princess hug. Under the command of the camera, the next section stopped and the filming Close-up, walking very slowly. According to tradition, the bride should wear red high heels, and her feet are not allowed to touch the ground until she gets in the wedding car and drives downstairs to her husband's house.

People walked behind the bride's brother one after another, Luo Zhi finally saw Luo Yang standing at the back of the crowd, wearing a black suit with an ugly red corsage pinned to his chest. Seeing Luo Zhi's eyes fall on his chest, Luo Yang put on a sad face. "Don't make such a fuss when you get married in the future, it's simply desperate." "The old man likes to be lively. Be more traditional, the more complicated the better." "Come on," Luoyang smiled, picked up the mineral water bottle in his hand and tapped her on the head, "The two families just want to save face."

She thought of Zhu Yan again.The fairy tale ends and life begins. The wedding in fairy tales only has "I do" on the altar.In daily life, you have to rush to book a hotel, discuss the banquet menu, repeatedly confirm the number of guests with guests, and consider who will be at the table with whom; the emcee talks too much and is annoying, and the scene is cold when he talks too little; the team is too ostentatious to waste money , too simple, the bride and groom lose face; all listening to the camera is boring, and if you don’t listen to the camera, you can’t leave a good memory...

Luo Zhi patted Luo Yang's back sympathetically. Since Luoyang did not arrange a new house in his hometown, the convoy drove back to the groom's house. Similar steps were repeated at Luoyang's home. Luo Zhi escaped from the chaotic crowd, and suddenly received a call from an unfamiliar number. . "I'm Ding Shuijing." According to the customs in my hometown, the official ceremony must end before twelve noon, so they arrived at the hotel before half past ten.The guests were sparsely seated, Luo Zhi stood up and said to her mother, "I'm going to take a breath."

McDonald's is diagonally opposite the hotel, with a small facade and only a low-key M mark.Luo Zhi walked in, and immediately saw Ding Shuijing wearing a large dark blue hooded T-shirt, sitting on the seat by the window with her chin resting on her back, with colorfully dyed nails, watching the children grabbing the slide in the children's play area intently , with a slight dimple on the corner of his mouth. "Hair is so long." Luo Zhi didn't know why she said such an opening remark, she couldn't help but laugh, and sat opposite Ding Shuijing, and put the bag on the window sill.

Ding Shuijing smiled brightly: "Are you scared? Think I'm going to ruin their wedding?" She then pushed the glass of orange juice in front of her to Luo Zhi: "I ordered it for you." "Thank you...how was the art class exam?" Luo Zhi took a sip of orange juice, and was not in a hurry to answer her opening remarks. Ding Shuijing was taken aback, but she didn't chase after the wedding: "It's okay, but it's darker than I imagined, and it doesn't necessarily mean that you need to spend money to find relationships, but there are too many people who can't afford to work hard." gone."

Luo Zhi smiled understandingly. "It may also be that I often do graffiti, and I am used to it, so I can't draw well-behaved things. Anyway, the schools in Beijing are out of business, and I am afraid I will go to Shanghai or Dalian. There is a school in each of these two places. Ten, as long as you don’t shake your hands during the college entrance examination, you’ll probably be fine.” Ding Shuijing's tone is very free and easy, which is very different from when we met at school last winter. Luo Zhi doesn't know the reason behind it—perhaps there is no reason at all. Just time, distance and circumstances.

"Then congratulations in advance, please do your best." Ding Shuijing no longer satirizes Luo Zhi's hypocrisy. "Okay! I will." Luo Zhi's phone buzzed and vibrated on the table, and the screen displayed "Mom", she picked it up, lied that she was uncomfortable, and walked around outside. "I'll be back when the ceremony starts." "It's about to start." "Okay, okay, I see." She simply turned off the phone. "Don't directly set her mobile phone number as 'Mom' in the contacts," Ding Shuijing reminded, "Otherwise, if you lose your mobile phone, others will follow this clue to scam."

Luo Zhi was thoughtful: "Indeed, I should change those who are clearly relatives to their real names." "My boyfriend should also change his real name, don't just call him 'husband'." Luo Zhi almost choked: "There's nothing so gross." Ding Shuijing tapped her fingers on the table: "Are you with Sheng Huainan again?" Luo Zhi nodded. "In winter, I asked you if you have someone you like, but you are still stubborn." "Yeah, at that time I didn't know that you were the one holding the blame, and I didn't have the obligation to tell the truth. Speaking of which, should you return my diary?"

"How do you know it's in my hands?" "Otherwise that matter." Luo Zhi felt that the story was so clumsy that she didn't want to repeat it, so she had to use "that matter" instead, "How did you plan it? You told Sheng Huainan that I had a crush on him for many years." Ding Shuijing raised her eyebrows: "It seems that you are not very angry. I don't think I will be able to understand people like you in this life." She continued her efforts, leaned forward, and seriously emphasized, "We framed you." Luo Zhi shook her head: "Since the result is good, I don't want to argue with you about the process. So what can I do?" "Your words really hurt people." Ding Shuijing's voice was flat, and after a while, she laughed with Luo Zhi. "Actually, the whole thing is because in October of this year, after I dropped out of school, I was very bored in school. I met Ye Zhanyan on the Internet. She told me to talk, and I said yes—and then, we complained to each other. She Tell me about the legendary Zheng Wenrui who came to stimulate her, saying that Sheng Huainan and you are about to get together." Ding Shuijing paused, then looked at Luo Zhi: "Doesn't this Zheng Wenrui like Sheng Huainan? What is she doing? Is she a psychopath?" Luo Zhi suddenly felt that everything that happened confuses her.When she met Zheng Wenrui for the first time, she was dragged to drink, and heard her drunkenly immersed in the past of her unrequited love, viciously calling Ye Zhanyan a liar, and before leaving, she said to her, who is he who I want to see most I don't like it either. Like a broken prophet. Luo Zhi smiled wryly: "Actually, I think each of us has different degrees of psychopathy." Ding Shuijing also agreed with a smile. "That day Ye Zhanyan cried like a mess, and told me that she broke up with Sheng Huainan because she had reasons for breaking up. It was broken up by Sheng Huainan's mother, but because it involved Sheng Huainan's family, she took it all by herself. bitter." Luo Zhi smiled and did not correct Ding Shuijing. The breakup itself has nothing to do with this matter, but if they get back together, they can take advantage of this difficulty. "At that time, I didn't know why I hated you so much. Maybe because you didn't make friends with me and didn't give me face, maybe because I knew your girlfriend with Luoyang, oh, wife." She stopped for a few seconds and laughed Xiao continued, "The relationship is very good. Anyway, I can't tell, but you still dare to pretend in front of me. I can't stand it." "You horrible voyeurism? Don't say that about yourself." "I didn't say that, it was Luoyang who said it." Ding Shuijing's smile was filled with the satisfaction and pride that can only be achieved when talking about a confidant. Luo Zhi was taken aback.Would Luoyang also say something like this? Ding Shuijing waved her hand, "Anyway, I told Ye Zhanyan that you liked Sheng Huainan in high school, and Ye Zhanyan was furious. I wanted to remind her that although the handsome guy was her boyfriend in high school, there is no law that others cannot like him. Especially since others haven't done anything, you don't care what other people think, can you?" Luo Zhi didn't know whether Ding Shuijing was talking about her or herself. "But at that time, I felt that she scolded you, which made me feel really comfortable, so I fanned the flames and asked her to go out and snatch that handsome guy back. After she heard this, she turned around and left. I guess, she should run to contact him afterwards. Has Sheng Huainan gone?" "It should be." Luo Zhi nodded, "I saw her contact him." The loosened hand of the playground faded away together with the sadness at that time.She and Sheng Huainan had never dug out every story at that time, so she never thought about how many hidden secrets there were. "But it probably didn't work. I know a little about Sheng Huainan. After all, I had a good relationship with Ye Zhanyan in high school. This boy is a master of Tai Chi. Ye Zhanyan was about to explode, but there was nothing he could do. She told me that there was another thing she didn't tell me at the time, because it involved you, and she thought I was friends with you." "That's it?" "That's it." "Ye Zhanyan told me at the time that those things that were not handed over were made up by you and then taught to her." "Why should I care about this shit?" "But you still sent the text message to Sheng Huainan." "I asked her on QQ if the story was fake. She insisted that it was true, and she hoped that I would send a text message to Sheng Huainan as an insider, so it would be more credible." Ding Shuijing started laughing as she spoke: "Believe it or not, I have chat records anyway. I just thought it would be good to punish you once, so that you can take the initiative to come to me to ask questions. When the time comes, I will Throw the diary in your face and avenge you and Luoyang." When Luo Zhi heard this, she couldn't get angry at all. Ye Zhanyan looked like a kid who was proud of playing pranks. "Really," she took a sip of Coke, her cheeks sunken, "I also took a Xinhua dictionary and practiced the action of dropping a diary many times." She gestured and said, even a little excited , "By the way, your diary is really interesting." Luo Zhi just looked at her and shook her head tolerantly. "Anyone with a healthy heart should throw the orange juice in my face when they hear this," Ding Shuijing looked at her, "What about you, are you really a psychopath?" "I've lost my temper because of you. The villain will sue first." Ding Shuijing chuckled: "As a result, Sheng Huainan still ignored Ye Zhanyan after the text message was sent. Even when you met me at school, you looked peaceful and didn't mention it. I felt that I was too excited at that time." "Later," she stared at Luo Zhi closely, "I sort of saved it later. If I remember correctly, it should be midnight on Christmas Day. Sheng Huainan called me to ask me what was going on, and I asked him back. , What do you think? Everything I want to say is in the text message, what else do you want to know?" However, Sheng Huainan kept repeating on the other end of the phone, it's impossible, you were lying from the beginning. After all, there was only one sentence, and he could only run to bully Ding Shuijing. As Ding Shuijing talked, she seemed to recall the scene at that time, and he said, "At that time, I thought, Luo Zhi has the ability, what a boy, he was tossed like a fool." Luo Zhi's heart warmed up. She suddenly didn't want to go back to the wedding scene.From the day she knew Sheng Huainan, she seldom had the opportunity to mention him to others. Zhu Yan may be one of them, but she couldn't provide the same happiness as she is now——Ding Shuijing knew Sheng Huainan, she was the same age as her, and had a carefree Talking about Sheng Huainan on the other side, it was like a best friend talking about her boyfriend in an upright manner. Sometimes, talking about someone you like with irrelevant people, listening to their comments and gossip, and concentrating on collecting everything you already know or never know can bring you great happiness. Please tell me about him. I know him well, but I just want to mention it, and I want to hear you talk about him. Tell me about this person I like. "Then, I showed kindness and told him the truth." Ding Shuijing stopped and looked at Luo Zhi.Luo Zhi suppressed a smile: "Why, are you waiting for me to say thank you? You provoked it in the first place, right?" She "tssed" and continued reluctantly: "After a while, Ye Zhanyan told me again on the Internet that she finally met Sheng Huainan and had a polite date without mentioning anything. The other party told her, let’s be friends.” Ding Shuijing flicked the packaging bag of the chicken wings: "So, I didn't tell Ye Zhanyan, I've already recruited the matter." Facing her convincing eyes, Luo Zhi thought over and over again, and finally surrendered. "Although... well, thank you." Ding Shuijing bit her straw in a daze for a while, then suddenly raised her head and said softly, "Could you take me to see the wedding in a while?" In Luo Zhi's impression, Ding Shuijing was always very smart, and she had never looked at anyone with such straight eyes. That look made me sad for no reason. "I told you everything you want to know, and I didn't hide a word. Now can you take me to see it? I won't let them find out. Just take a look." But Luo Zhi still held back, it was Shen Jing and Luo Yang's wedding after all. "I'm afraid not." It seemed to be the answer she expected.Ding Shuijing nodded and didn't insist anymore. "You know everything, right? Did Luoyang tell you?" Luo Zhi shook her head: "I guessed it myself. Actually...it's not very clear." It was only because I felt it that I went back to look for clues. Ding Shuijing bent her eyes, pursed her mouth, and smiled with embarrassment. I don't know if it's because he was shy to ask these things bluntly, or because Luo Yang didn't mention her in front of Luo Zhi again. "Are you in a hurry to go back and attend the wedding? I'm really sorry, but I asked you to come out, I just hope you can help me with this thing..." She took out a thick doodle book from her bag as she spoke. It's a photo of the Eiffel Tower, worn down to the point where half a foot is missing. She flicked to a certain page, and tore it off in front of Luo Zhi without hesitation. "Help me to your sister-in-law." On that piece of paper was a portrait of two people standing side by side, with only a few strokes, but it was very vivid. Ding Shuijing and Luoyang. Below is a line of handsome pen writing: "It's too late to meet each other." It is written in Luoyang. Luo Zhi frowned: "What do you want to do?" But Ding Shuijing patted her head and said, "I'm sorry, I forgot to show you the demonstration." She took out a pen and wrote the words "See you later" smoothly next to it. It is exactly the same as Luoyang's handwriting. "I used to go to your sister-in-law with this forged painting and handwriting, and told her not to be stupid. Luo Zhi liked me a long time ago, but she never dared to tell her out of responsibility. I asked her if she had already done this. It's so old, and it's so boring for a woman to bear the humiliation when encountering this kind of thing." Luo Zhi was surprised. "I thought she would at least make trouble with Luoyang for a while. In the end, she gritted her teeth and endured it, and didn't even frown in front of Luoyang." Ding Shuijing looked out of the window at a weather that was so brilliant that it was not suitable for telling these stories, and said flatly: "She is really kind." Luo Zhi let out a long sigh, not knowing what to say at all. "The only sentence that irritated her was probably when I asked her why Luoyang made her so obsessed, chasing her all the way from high school to now." "It turns out that except me, no one knows that your sister-in-law is after Luoyang," Ding Shuijing laughed, "I just realized that Luoyang told me everything." Said everything, except I love you. Ding Shuijing leaned on the table, from the very beginning she sang a one-man show hastily, not letting Luo Zhi intervene, but she was afraid of stopping, and she would not be able to continue freely. Holding the thin piece of paper in her hand, Luo Zhi wondered how many times Ding Shuijing had practiced before she could write those four characters smoothly and easily, so realistically. How many stories have there been between them-or not stories, but more unforgettable than stories. Luo Zhi could suddenly imagine what Luo Yang looked like in front of Ding Shuijing. As if right in front of you.It was something she and Chen Jing had never seen before, but it was as clear as if it was right in front of them. He must be in high spirits, must love to tell jokes, must be a little out of touch, a little stunned, will laugh with Ding Shuijing, and do a lot of bold and reckless things. I will definitely lower my head at some point and light a cigarette, skilled and unfamiliar, with content that others have never understood in my eyes. Without warning, she was able to feel that feeling, that kind of uncontrollable overwhelming love for someone who knew she shouldn't, and it rolled out, but she could only press her heart on the flames. Put it out. That was the feeling that she would never have when she was with Chen Jing. However, Luoyang must know that if it wasn't for being with Chen Jing, he might not even be there forever. Can a person love two people at the same time? Luo Zhi didn't dare to think about it anymore. Sorry for the delay due to illness. "This, actually, you don't need to show Chen Jing. She is different from you, and she doesn't demand clear results for everything. Since she is buried in my heart, I don't need to use this to talk to her anymore. real." She returned the paper to Ding Shuijing with a gentle voice—it was probably the first and only time she was so honest with Ding Shuijing. "Believe it or not, I suddenly felt that I understood you," she said. Ding Shuijing looked at her, and Luo Zhi thought of Xu Riqing for a moment, it seemed to be the same sky, the same time, the same bright lights, the same girl with eyes full of pain. One day Ding Shuijing will jump off the back seat of someone's bicycle and stand on tiptoe to smell the smell of cloves, right? "Do you think it's disgusting for me to be a third party?" "If I'm telling you the truth, just don't think I'm hateful." Ding Shuijing was silent for a while, nodded, and said, "Tell me, I haven't heard you tell the truth yet." Luo Zhi laughed. "Actually, deep down in my heart, I hate such things as responsibility, morality, blood relationship, family and rules. I have seen too many people who are crushed to death by these things. It is wasteful to dwell on these things all my life." She paused, took a sip of orange juice, as if she had the courage to continue deviant. "What's the point of being loyal? What people should really do is to be loyal to their own feelings and emotions. How you think and feel is what you choose. Success or failure, gains and losses are all the results of choices, but you should not It's the time of choice." Ding Shuijing's eyes filled with tears. "You're trying to help me justify myself." Luo Zhi smiled: "What can I do for you? This is the truth." I'm just convincing myself. When Luo Zhi ran all the way to the entrance of the hall, she just heard Chen Jing say, "I am willing." Luo Zhi realized that she was wrong.At any time, the three words "I do" are so touching, even in a wedding that is not so touching, the master of ceremonies is too noisy, most of the guests are strangers, and the children cry too loudly during the wedding—— But the sentence "I am willing" always contains either happiness or tragic courage. People's hearts are unpredictable, and things are impermanent. But I don't want to surrender all of myself to these uncertainties.There are always some things that I don't care about the consequences, follow my heart, and be willing. Before Ding Shuijing left, Luo Zhi asked her why she dropped out of school. There are many college girls who are not loved by others, and not all of them will end up dropping out of school, let alone she has no compelling reason. "It's actually quite simple." Ding Shuijing provokes Luoyang, saying that he is a coward and dare not follow her true heart.Luoyang, on the other hand, said calmly with the lenient attitude that made Ding Shuijing love and hate: "You also said that you love painting, and you still sit here in the class of the Foreign Affairs University, writing incomprehensible Thesis? Because you heard that it is easier to go abroad for this major. As for why you want to go abroad, do you really know in your heart? You are so talented, so unwilling, why don’t you go to the Academy of Fine Arts? Because there are not so many impulsive and adventurous things in the world , everyone is mutual." "Then you drop out of school and retake the exam?" "Going through the formalities, the school counselors took turns talking to me, my mother and father threatened me to jump off the building, and I survived. At that time, it was not that I was not afraid, or that I didn't want to repent, but I didn't know how I survived. I really I don't know. Maybe crazy." She just wanted to prove it to Luoyang. Now Luoyang is married. "But I don't regret it." Ding Shuijing laughed while crying. "Luoyang didn't tell me anything. He never even held hands with me. There was no ambiguous behavior or excessive words, so in the end, he said that I misunderstood, and he only regarded me as a good friend. At that time, I had nothing to refute his words, and even to quarrel with his girlfriend, I had to forge evidence myself." When Ding Shuijing said the last thing, she actually laughed. "But he doesn't know. If he really said something, even if it's these four words, it's too late to meet - I will even step aside contentedly, fulfill him, and his wedding. He just thinks that there is no evidence I’m not going to do anything, in fact, I never want to do anything.” I just want him to admit that he likes me. That's all. Luo Zhi picked up the wine glass and stood up.Chen Jing, who had already taken off her wedding dress and put on a red cheongsam, took Luo Yang's arm and walked to the table where she was sitting to toast, winking at her. In fact, Chen Jing is brave. Swallow everything, grab what you want, never complain and pursue. Luo Zhi was dizzy from the banquet.She shook her head, let go of thousands of thoughts, laughed wholeheartedly, said auspicious words, and drained the red wine in the glass.