Chapter 12 Chapter Eleven

Luo Zhi gently raised her sleeves, smelled it, and as expected, it really smelled like oily smoke from the third canteen. However, the boy next to him, after taking off the down jacket he had been wearing in the cafeteria, revealed the dark gray shirt inside. When he sat down, there was a slight breeze, and he still smelled of the fragrant Ariel washing powder. Why. His silver-white pen was brushing on the paper, making a nice rustling sound.The rustling sound is mind-blowing. She lowered her head and pursed her lips for a smile, then took out her earphones and put them on. The combination of Mozart and Marx had a strong hypnotic effect. Luo Zhi stared at the Ma Yuan textbook in her hand, her gaze was only glued to one word, and the surrounding words began to revolve around this word, slowly forming a vortex.

Sleepy. Even though she knew that lying on the table just after eating would make her belly bloated, she bent over and took out a beige elephant pillow from the schoolbag on the ground and threw it on the table.The other three were taken aback by the throw pillow that appeared on the table like magic.Luo Zhi habitually took two deep breaths, rubbed her stomach, then fell down comfortably with her eyes slightly closed. She hit the table directly, and there was a loud noise when her cheekbones touched the table, and half of the people in the study room turned to look in her direction.Luo Zhi didn't cry out, but pressed her cheeks hard with her hand, the pain caused tears to swirl in her eye sockets.

She raised her head and glared fiercely at Zhang Mingrui who was sitting across the table. Zhang Mingrui was looking at her with his mouth in an O shape pretending to be surprised, and the elephant pillow that had been taken away was in his arms.Luo Zhi didn't speak for a long time, so she could only lower her head and press her cheekbones to relieve the pain. When the tears slowly settled down, she slowly raised her head again, gritted her teeth and asked softly, "You, do you want to die?" Zhang Mingrui smiled like a seven or eight-year-old child who had succeeded in playing a prank.

Seven or eight years old, even a dog would hate it. Luo Zhi stood up quickly, leaned forward and pulled the pillow back, pressed it on the table, bared her teeth fiercely at the person opposite, and then buried herself face down in the beige dream. When she sleeps, she likes to wrap her arms around the pillow and face to the right.In less than two seconds after I closed my eyes, I felt a fever on my face. He sits on the right. Even though he might not be looking at her at all, she could feel the gaze on her through her eyelids.She frowned, and quickly turned her face to the left, leaving only the back of her head.

Luo Zhi gradually fell into a dream, and in a trance, she heard the sound of the opposite chair being removed, as if someone had left the desk. When she woke up sleepily, there was no one in the opposite seat, Zhang Mingrui and Xu Riqing were gone, and there were only two piles of books, a few pieces of draft paper, and seven or eight pens in a mess on the table. She glanced to the right, and Sheng Huainan was not there. The silver-white pen had not been capped, and the reflected sunlight hit her eyes. She turned her head to avoid it, and the clothes on her shoulders slipped off. Only then did she realize that she was wearing Sheng Huainan's black, white and gray down jacket, which took most of the heat away when it slipped off. She shivered, pulled the jacket up quickly, and carefully stretched her arms into the sleeves dress well.The large down jacket surrounded her with indescribable warmth.

As if suddenly remembering something, Luo Zhi cautiously raised her sleeve, sniffed it, and then smiled contentedly.Sure enough, it also smells of oily smoke. Actually they are all the same. She pressed her cheek to the pillow, wrapped her arms around herself, and warmed herself with the warmth of the down jacket.A corner of his chest became soft, but it was only for a moment. Luo Zhi reached out to help Sheng Huainan cover the pen cap, then stood up, grabbed the mobile phone wallet on the table, and planned to go to a place with fresh air to sober up.When she put her hand into the pocket of the down jacket, she accidentally touched something hard inside, and when she took it out, it was a brown leather wallet.Luo Zhi tapped the leather surface twice with her fingertips, remembering the photo of Chen Mohan in Jiang Baili's wallet, she couldn't help guessing, could there be a photo of someone else in it?

She didn't open it and put it back. Hands in pockets.On New Year's Day, Ye Zhanyan put his hands in this pocket to keep warm. Rubbing her numb cheeks, she felt that there was a lot of air in her stomach, and she wanted to hiccup but couldn't.The cold breath in the corridor made her shiver slightly. Outside the window is a gray and white landscape.In Luo Zhi's impression of Beijing, there are no red walls and green tiles, nor is it square, grand and heavy. This city is covered with a gray coat, carrying a gray air.The dull colors seem to be painted with dead branches with fallen leaves. Occasionally, a gust of cold wind will roll dust and waste paper, bringing such a poor sense of movement to the picture.

Luo Zhi looked up and found that she had circled several times and reached the science and technology library on the second floor.She knew that she could not understand much of this kind of works, unless there was "One Hundred Thousand Whys" in it, and was about to move away when she heard a slight sob. The corridor was empty, except for a dozing staff member lying on the lacquered wooden desk at the entrance of the library.She looked around and saw a red figure at the stairs on the right.Luo Zhi moved a little over, and raised her head——Xu Riqing was sitting on the stairs leading from the second floor to the third floor, with her head buried in her knees, unable to see her face clearly.Through the railing, she could still see a pair of shoes standing on the steps leading to the third floor, with a big white check mark on the side.

Zhang Mingrui and Xu Riqing. Xu Riqing tried his best to suppress it, but there was still a faint cry coming over.Luo Zhi took a step back and walked away gently. Suddenly, a hoarse and nasal question came from behind: "You are revenge on me. I want to apologize to you, but I feel embarrassed to bring up that matter again, so I get along with you as if nothing happened. .You're taking revenge on me, aren't you?" "I really haven't." "You have!" "Listen to my explanation..." "I won't listen!" Luo Zhi almost laughed inappropriately, and couldn't help but stop.

"Actually, I know," Xu Riqing's voice echoed faintly in the corridor, "On Christmas day, we went to 798 together. Your dormitory is old...Anyway, someone told me that you were escorted by a few of them as soon as you went back. Entering the house, they forced you to talk about the progress with me, but you said we were just friends." "You said you liked someone else." Xu Riqing said slowly. Zhang Mingrui was silent, Luo Zhi waited for a long time, but did not hear his response. "I've wanted to ask you for a long time, but I always feel that it's really embarrassing to ask. What if, what if you're talking nonsense out of embarrassment, what if... that hurts so much."

Most of the mistakes in the world, in fact, can always be explained clearly at the beginning, and they are not inevitable, nor are they caused by luck.What stands in the way is each other's self-esteem and so-called understanding.Luo Zhi sighed lightly. "Actually, I guessed it all," Xu Riqing sneered, "Actually, you like—" "I thought you could learn a lot from a fall. You should stop in moderation." Zhang Mingrui's cold and crisp voice surprised Luo Zhi, who was leaning against the wall with her arms folded and eavesdropping.She knew that she had actually underestimated Zhang Mingrui all along.Sheng Huainan was a ray of light that literally cast shadows on everything around him, like Zhang Mingrui.As soon as he appeared in Luo Zhi's life, he appeared as a simple big boy who loves to smirk and blushes, always fights but is often clumsy.However, at the gate of the newsstand today, he responded with a very natural attitude to ease the embarrassment of the three of them, and Luo Zhi began to look at him squarely. Faced with the result, she felt uneasy. "Why don't I know when enough is enough? If I don't know when enough is enough, why should I turn my head back? If I really love someone, I don't even have the patience for a few months, and I can't even wait? Well, it is true that I am not qualified to make you wait, but you Why are you with me every day? Why don't you refuse when I ask you to study for dinner? How dare you say that you are not revenge or giving me an illusion by being so ambiguous? What is the difference between you and him?" Xu Riqing's voice was hollow and desolate, so loud that he hardly needed to eavesdrop.Before Luo Zhi's eyes, the beautiful face that was crying so helplessly in the cafe that day appeared.She looked around with some worry, and the administrator of the library actually snored, one after another, the fat on her face drooped, and it piled up on the table in two layers. She thought she would never forget this funny and sad scene in her life. Zhang Mingrui laughed, as if Xu Riqing had said something very cold.But even after seeing his smile so many times, Luo Zhi couldn't figure out what his expression was like at the moment. "It was you who came here to tell me the old things, we are still good friends - when you liked Sheng Huainan, you and I often studied and ate together as often as now, so it seems that I am not flirting with you now. As for you saying wait...then let me ask you, if Sheng Huainan turns around now, will you accept him?" "No, I won't. I will wait for some people to turn around, and I won't for some people. I'm not a person who doesn't have a long memory." "Yes, I'm not someone with a short memory." Zhang Mingrui chuckled softly. Luo Zhi lowered her head, the shadow cast by her long bangs covered her eyes. "You hate me so much? You can't even be friends? You have to take revenge on me?" "It's totally acceptable to be friends. In fact, I'm already doing it. I didn't retaliate against you. I just rejected someone I don't like very normally. You think too much." Luo Zhi sighed, Xu Riqing was no match at all.Regardless of eloquence or sharpness, liking someone who doesn't like you, and even discussing love with him, is simply courting death. She walked away, and finally heard Zhang Mingrui's gentle and indifferent sentence: "I don't flirt with you. From today on, let's pretend we don't know each other." Luo Zhi closed her eyes and could still recall the scene in front of the magazine kiosk: Zhang Mingrui helped Xu Riqing hold the magazine, Xu Riqing put his hands in his pockets, shyly lowered his head and smiled in front of Luo Zhi, Qi Liuhai was blown up and down by the cold winter wind, like The ostentatious skirt. Can Zhang Mingrui really not see it? At that time, Xu Riqing took a long time to thank you, and whispered: "You are always so kind to me." And he said with a smile: "Tsk tsk, your reaction is really slow." A joke, but missed thousands of mountains and rivers. "If you shed tears when you miss the sun, you will also miss the stars." Tagore always said something that seemed warm but cruel. The most cruel smiles, such as Zhang Mingrui, such as Sheng Huainan.