Chapter 6 Chapter 5: What Does the Truth Matter?

His words were cut off in the middle, and the girl in front of him screamed. It was the first time he saw her lose her composure.However, after she yelled, she stopped talking and just looked at him fixedly, like Mrs. Xianglin, only her eyes rolled occasionally, barely proving that she was a living thing. "I..." She uttered a single word, paused, and laughed again, "Don't worry, I'll just pretend that I didn't hear anything. I just pretended nothing happened." "what?" "You, you think about it slowly for a month. If you haven't changed your mind, come and tell me... Say what you wanted to say just now, think twice."

This seemed to be the result of what she had considered for a long time just now. "I don't have to think about it." "No, no, classmate, classmate, calm down, you have to think about it, you have to think about it," she pulled out her hand vigorously, and stepped back while waving her hand, "I did the math just now, you basically change your mind once a month, I don't I know if you have such special days every month, but I think you should think about it, I'm afraid of you..." "You only have such a special few days every month..." Sheng Huainan blushed from her anger.

"I do have such a special few days every month." She continued to laugh, but he could clearly see that her smile was stuck on, trembling, and about to fall off.He could even see the sadness and fear beneath the smile. Sheng Huainan took a step forward to pull her, and she stepped back even more.He saw the obvious panic in her eyes - she should be really afraid of him. He lowered his hands and forced a smile: "I'm sorry." Luo Zhi no longer hid, nor did she tease or taunt him with "I'm sorry" as before, but just stood there and lowered her head, her toes gently rubbed against the snow, drawing scars one after another.

"I'm not someone who heals my scars and forgets the pain." Her voice was very soft, unlike anything she had said before, even when he was driven into anger, she could calmly joke and irony him Yes, but never showed weakness to him like now. "You can be enthusiastic one second, not even send a text message the next second, disappear for days, reject people thousands of miles away, and still look like you haven't seen each other for a long time when you meet again. I can't stand it. She smiled wryly, "But I knew a long time ago, you are sure that I like you, if you hook your hands, I will ignore the past and cooperate with you to play a good friend."

It also performed flawlessly, and it was as sweet as it was. "You're too self-righteous, Sheng Huainan." The voice is soft, but every word seems to be an accusation. I don't know if it's because the enthusiasm was poured down by a bucket of cold water, the words that she interrupted but didn't utter, were stuck in his chest like steamed buns that couldn't be swallowed, making Sheng Huainan even more uncomfortable.He also stopped smirking, and said with a little displeasure, "You don't think that my previous behavior was insanity, do you?" Sensing the emotion in his words, Luo Zhi put away her sad expression, raised her face and retorted: "Do you think that I have been extrajudicial and let go of my past, and I should shout long live now?"

He was getting more and more embarrassed, and he couldn't hold back his face. "Let's make it clear today. You have been hiding it from me before, and you have talked to that point when you came back from the train station. Can you tell me why-the excuse is that I am afraid that I will be embarrassed because I have to give a low-profile explanation. Hurt. I guess, maybe you're thinking, in case I'm innocent, it's very hurtful. But, regardless of your ability to find the truth - at least in this case, I have to Said, we have already hurt our relationship, so we should just break the can, please make it clear."

She looked at him with her hands behind her back. A trace of fatigue suddenly flashed across Sheng Huainan's face.The helplessness and exhaustion that never appeared on his face when he was talking about the mess of the student union just now. He paused for a long time before looking into her eyes and saying, "Okay, I'll tell you everything." "Someone told me that you like me and have had a crush on me since high school. Is this true?" Luo Zhi's shoulders trembled slightly, she lowered her head and stopped looking at him, her eyes flickered. "You get to the point."

"You answer me first...is this true?" Sheng Huainan blushed a little. "So what?" "You even admitted that you like me, why are you dragging your feet on this issue?" Luo Zhi smiled wryly, stretched out her hand and tightened her collar: "No. This is different." "Because I have a girlfriend in high school?" Sheng Huainan had a clear look on his face. When Luo Zhi heard this, she couldn't help laughing: "What's the relationship between these two things?" "Then why didn't you answer?" She fell silent again, her eyes sparkling.Sheng Huainan was about to speak when he saw Luo Zhi turn his face away, as if a tear was falling.He was very surprised, and subconsciously stretched out his hand to help her wipe it off, but as soon as his hand touched her face, he was pushed away.

"Get to the point." Her voice suddenly became cold. He withdrew his hand and smiled wryly: "Then are you always... jealous of Ye Zhanyan because... because you have a crush on me?" Luo Zhi didn't panic or stare innocently as he imagined.Ever since he started asking that question about his secret love, her answering speed became very slow, and she had to think for a long time every time she said a word, as if she was thinking about the countermeasures to answer, Sheng Huainan's disappointment was beyond words. "I didn't." She still lowered her head, slowly and calmly speaking.

"you have not?" "I don't." "So... what about envy? If you think jealousy is malicious, then envy—" "Maybe there is a little bit of envy," she suddenly looked up at the misty lights of the communication center in the distance, "but it's not because she is your girlfriend." Her slow answer was not an attempt to invent a lie, but an effort to be honest.Sheng Huainan seemed to understand this, so he lightened his business question, as if coaxing a child: "Then what do you envy?" Luo Zhi really smiled like a willful child, and said: "The crystal lamp is very bright because it refracts the light. I envy the spotlight behind it."

Seeing Sheng Huainan's eyes full of suspicion, Luo Zhi was a little understanding.She didn't know why he was so interested in these minutiae, was it procrastinating not to speak out about the accusations, or was he drifting off track without knowing it, suddenly interested in getting to know her? learn?Luo Zhi smiled bleakly.In fact, there seemed to be thousands of mountains and rivers between them, but he never looked at it carefully, but Luo Zhi clearly saw it in his eyes. When he made a serious promise on that small shaking three-wheeler, She turned her face away, and while she was moved, it seemed that a sad premonition had already arisen. The only use for promises is to slap someone in the face someday. "It's so cold, tell me quickly." "I'm sorry, I was dawdling, but I suddenly feel... embarrassed to be honest with you." "Even I have the nerve to ask you if I have a crush on you, what's there to be embarrassed about?" Sheng Huainan was startled. "After I... broke up with Ye Zhanyan," he said with some difficulty, "did she find you at the end of the winter vacation of the freshman year, that is, before school started, and told you the reason for our breakup, and then asked you to send a letter to you?" The important letter and a white crystal swan pendant were brought to me after school started? And you didn’t. Instead, you told her that I didn’t even read the letter and threw it in the trash with the pendant. Is that right?” It took Luo Zhi a while to remember that she should have raised her head suddenly and looked at him with a surprised and innocent expression and even extremely angry expression.However, her posture and expression remained motionless, she lowered her head quietly, and her mood became more and more calm. "Could it be...really?" Luo Zhi raised her head, "Is that the case?" "What else is it" "You mean to say that I got in the way and ruined both of you?" "yes." "When did you know?" "...in the middle of the night on the day we skated." "Strange." "I was told so by a witness." "Who?" "Luo Zhi, I just want to hear from you, whether there is or not." "Who?" "I can't tell you..." "Who?" She smiled calmly. Sheng Huainan tried his best to say to her in a calm tone: "Actually, you don't need to know who said it..." "Let me ask you one last question, who?" "Okay," Sheng Huainan shrugged, "She said her name is Ding Shuijing." Luo Zhi's eyes were like the surface of a calm lake, so deep that he could not see the bottom. "I see. Then you have already asked Ye Zhanyan for proof?" Luo Zhi nodded to herself, then turned around and was about to leave.Sheng Huainan took a few steps forward and grabbed her, "That's it?" "What should I do? I should say with a surprised face and tears streaming down my face, you listen to my explanation, it's not like this, it's really not like this, you must believe me... huh?" The corners of her mouth turned up in a sarcastic smile. "But why should I explain? Don't you know the presumption of innocence?" She said while gesticulating, "Whoever accuses, whoever proves. Whether it's text messages or call records, there is no evidence that can be produced. I Why do I want to talk nonsense with you on this matter? Open and close your mouth, any kind of story can be made up, how can you refute the non-existent things? Let me ask you, there is someone like me in Ye Zhanyan’s friend list in high school Why? Why did I take the trouble to hand over such an important thing? Does she have my mobile phone number? She is your girlfriend. Several boys in your class who were admitted to P University together have a good relationship with her. Why don’t you hand it over? Give it to your good buddy, but you want to give the letter to me?" Luo Zhi's every word was resounding, she shook off his hand and continued to walk forward. "May I know why you refused to answer me about... about your secret love at first?" Luo Zhi had already walked a certain distance, and turned around after hearing his question.This question seemed to be a dead spot that she couldn't bring up. The anger gathered around her because of the rebuttal just now dissipated in an instant, and the turbulent emotions began to flow in her eyes again. "Ding Shuijing also said about the secret love?" "Yes... they all said that." Luo Zhi half-closed her eyes, her eyes were blurred, and drifted past him to a far away place. "Then... when you heard about it, were you happy?" Sheng Huainan moved his lips.is he happy The real "important" part was ignored by them from the very beginning, going around, he was obsessed with an answer about secret love, but she was actually concerned about this matter. "If I didn't hear that you did the following things because of your crush, I think I would be happy." "So, the next day you made the promise with Jake that you let me go, and you used the fact that I like you to test me, and you picked me up with Ye Zhanyan's raincoat?" "You really know Ye Zhanyan's raincoat." "Many people know that pink raincoat. Ye Zhanyan likes to talk about you in class, every detail." Luo Zhi raised her chin, the corners of her mouth curved slightly upwards, and there was a hint of provocation in her eyes, "I know a raincoat is also guilty?" Sheng Huainan was stunned: "Does she like to talk?" "Don't you know?" Luo Zhi smiled, and didn't continue the topic, "So you used Ye Zhanyan's raincoat to take revenge on me? It's really indiscriminate revenge." "I...too impulsive..." "However, there is nothing wrong with your actions. You should believe it immediately. It seems strange to be suspicious. There is no need for Ye Zhanyan to frame me. Besides, she is the person you love." Luo Zhi said lightly, Sheng Huainan felt extremely embarrassed by the fact that the matter had nothing to do with him. "So you did nothing wrong, I understand. If my boyfriend or my mother told me such a thing, I would believe what they said unconditionally. You can come and ask me, I appreciate you .” "Luo Zhi, this has nothing to do with closeness." "The matter of death without proof has nothing to do with closeness." She waved her hand, leaving a very understanding smile. When Luo Zhi walked forward, every step left creaks on the snow, and her furry coat made her back look like a small animal in a fairy tale looking for its way home. Sheng Huainan's mind suddenly went blank. "Luo Zhi!" He blurted out, "Actually, if you say that you haven't done anything, maybe I... maybe I can trust you." "I haven't done anything." Luo Zhi turned around, and said calmly, Sheng Huainan was caught off guard, and her passionate attempt to persuade her to stay was extinguished by her words. "So do you believe it? I said it now." She laughed, "You don't believe it. If you trust me, you don't need me to say anything, and you don't need to bother to prove it. Because your heart will tell you that this kind of thing, I don't bother to do it." Sheng Huainan moved his lips but said nothing. "You don't have to do this. I don't even blame you. Why should you?" Sheng Huainan suddenly hated himself. He was obviously the one who attacked and questioned, but now he looks like a child who is rambunctious and talking nonsense? He suddenly went all out, grabbed the question he wanted to know, and kept pestering him endlessly. "How did you fall in love with me in high school?" He no longer cared about the truth.He just really wanted to ask her, if she really liked him for so many years-then why did she like him? None of them knew each other.Why does she like him?And if she really likes him, why does she hold her own memories tightly, but resists the real him so much?It seems that this relationship is known to him, and it is not a joy for her, but a great humiliation and sorrow. She just paused for a moment, didn't look back, didn't answer, just walked forward. "You said, if none of this happened, you didn't escape in front of the window sill back then, wouldn't we..." Sheng Huainan hadn't finished speaking when suddenly his eyes went dark and his forehead became cold.Startled, he supported the dwarf pine next to him, and brushed off the snowball in the middle of his forehead for no apparent reason. In the blurred field of vision, Luo Zhi still maintained her throwing posture, as if she had used a lot of strength, but unfortunately the new snow was soft and could not express her anger at all. "you……" "...Sometimes," Luo Zhi lowered her head, her voice was very low, trembling slightly, restraining her turbulent emotions. "Sometimes, I feel that it's useless to say anything to you, and I really want to beat you up." She felt as if she was about to cry, so she quickly restrained her expression, turned her head and strode away. Sheng Huainan's mood calmed down a little bit, his stiff back muscles slowly relaxed, he shook his head to shake off the snow from his hair, and gently inserted the frozen hands hanging on both sides of his body back into the pockets of his down jacket. The back of the girl in front of her was no longer thin and lonely as before. She raised her head slightly, and took every step steadily and vigorously, and her steps were stretched and bright.When Sheng Huainan lowered his head, he suddenly found a long hair hanging from the zipper of the down jacket, half of it was twisted in the chain, and the other half was gently blowing with the wind.He reached out to pull, but couldn't pull it out.