Chapter 85 Chapter 28 New Year's Eve

"Give me a reason!" I don't know how long it took, it seemed that the charcoal in the stove had been burned out, and when the room started to get cold, Hegan Chengji glanced at my pale face, and finally opened his mouth again, trying to use a flat voice With suppressed resentment and restlessness in his tone, he said helplessly: "Give me a reason why you hurt me. Because I once opposed you and Qingyao? Because I belong to the prince? Or because I have a relationship with the King of Han? What do you say?" , You speak out! As long as you give me a reasonable reason, I will let you go!"

The tears in my eyes have slowly dried up, and I seem to have shrunk back, continuing to choke in my heart.Looking up at those eager and sad deep black eyes, I squirmed my lips several times, and finally uttered the words slowly: "I want to save Qingyao!" Hegan Chengji's eyes were full of waves, but he still tried his best to restrain himself, and forced out the words from his throat: "What does it have to do with me if you save Qingyao?" "You said it yourself, you belong to the prince, and you have contacts with the king of Han! Anyone who harmed Qingyao deserves to die!" I raised my face and gritted my teeth: "I will not let go of anyone who brings down the prince and the king of Han!" Chance!"

"You, want, save, Qing, Yao!" Hegan Chengji sneered, and could no longer suppress the burning anger and pain in his eyes. The pain actually penetrated his eyes and penetrated to my heart, making me I couldn't help the pain in my heart, so I couldn't tell whether I was sad for Qingyao or ashamed for the man in front of me. "You want to save Qingyao, what about me?" Hegan Chengji yelled at me, "Aww..." He yelled in pain, and punched me hard on the head. I screamed and leaned back with my head in my arms, only to hear a "bang", but the punch only hit the quilt beside me.Hegan Chengji, who had lost his center of gravity, also leaned down, maintaining the posture of a fist on the quilt, and pressed me under him. Those indescribably painful eyes appeared in front of my eyes without any concealment, and they were with me. The eyes are less than half a foot long.

"What about me?" Those painful eyes were so painful that they were red in the black, as if they were about to bleed. I could hear his irregular heartbeat, I could hear his grievances from being neglected, and I could hear his choked breathing.I choked up hoarsely: "I'm sorry, Seung Gi!" "In your heart, what am I? You say, I am just like your brother, but you, do you think about how to put your brother to death?" Hegan Chengji sneered, but couldn't say suffering. "I'm sorry!" I burst into tears, shook my head and said, "I know I've been unfair to you, it's my fault!"

"Injustice! Then how do you give me justice?" He Gan Chengji grabbed my hand and pressed it on the brocade quilt. He suddenly groaned, his body was already pressed down, and his thin lips blocked me. On her lips, there was ice and coolness, with the chill of snowflakes. I shivered and struggled to push him away. But Hegan Chengji's hands were like iron hoops, they held me so tight, so tight that I couldn't breathe.The lips touched me so domineeringly and resolutely, the heavy breath rushed to my face, the tongue had already invaded my mouth, entangled with mine, I felt the love and hate on the tip of his tongue, and his call to me The excitement of fear.

"Chengji, you, uh...you can't do this..." I struggled, tried not to face his attack, and slapped his chest and abdomen with both hands. Hegan Chengji didn't realize it, and kissed my chest Lips, my forehead, my cheeks and neck, while stroking my body. "Let me go!" I yelled, but I couldn't hold back, my body began to tremble and heat up under his gentle and powerful touch, I couldn't help being startled and scared, tears welled up.Hegan Chengji, are you really willing to hurt me like this?Am I wrong?I always thought that no matter what I do, you will protect me, cherish me, love me, and never hurt me.Do I trust myself too much or do I trust you too much?

"Do you hate me? Do you always regard me as a first-class person of Hanwang? Then you will hate me to the end!" Hegan Chengji seemed to know what I was thinking, and slightly relaxed his lips, but still pressed tightly Holding my body, the cheek is facing me directly, the black eyes are as deep as a well, but it is not difficult to see the love and hatred at the bottom of the well. King of Han!I seemed to see the scene of the King of Han pounced on me like a devil that day again, and I had a splitting headache and wanted to vomit. Hegan Chengji only looked at me deeply and coldly, and freed up one hand to untie my belt, his slightly cool fingers slipped through the shirt to my chest, which made me stiffen all over, and my skin bulged countless times. of chestnut grains.

"No, Seung Gi!" I whimpered vaguely.I know what he wants to do.What I gave him, besides hopeless love, was hurt again and again.That kind of endless harm made him rage between love and hatred, and he didn't want to control his youthful desires at all.It was my fault first, it was I who wanted to put him to death first, I might not have the right to refuse him, but even though Hegan Chengji is many times more gentle than the King of Han, I don't want to be forced to bow by the overlord again !That kind of heart-piercing pain has lingered in my heart and dreams for so many years, and it is still dripping with blood, as if it will never go away.

When the skins touched, I seemed to see Hanwang's plump and dazzling white body pressing towards me with a ferocious face.Hegan Chengji's gradually warm touch could not bring me the slightest pleasure, only waves of deeper and deeper terror came.I tried my best to reach out and reach for everything that could protect me, when my fingertips touched something cold, I quickly grasped it, and pulled it out with a "Ding", it was Hegan Chengji's sword that looked like autumn water. Hegan Chengji felt the coldness of his sword, let go of me with some palpitations, took a step back, looked at me coldly, and sneered: "You, do you want to kill me? Do you think you can kill me? I Let me tell you, even ten or twenty Rong Shu'er can't hurt a hair of my hair!"

My posture of holding the sword on guard obviously angered him, his black eyes were so dark, and there was an indescribable pain and hatred in his anger, he ignored my sword and forced him forward again. I swung the sword, not at Hegan Chengji, but at my own neck! Hegan Chengji, do you have the heart to force me to death?Do you have the heart? I bet you can't bear it! As soon as the sword was released, my hand was lightly held by Hegan Chengji and wrapped tightly, and the sword had quietly returned to his hand. "Rong Shu'er! You are the most cruel woman I've ever seen!" He Gan Chengji had calmed down, and slowly backed away until his waist reached the edge of the table. Actually paler than me.

The illusory shadow of the King of Han in my heart disappeared, and I only saw that heartbroken young man, the infatuated swordsman who was so angry that I lost his mind, he drew his sword, bowed his head, and his black hair The powerlessness fell on the forehead, revealing a kind of heart-wrenching sadness, the burning desire just now has disappeared. I stood up, covered my clothes indiscriminately, and said, "Yes, I am the most cruel woman in the world. You can hate me, beat me, kill me, and I won't blame you. I know I owe you too much." Too much, I am willing to make up! But, please give me time, don't force me!" "Owing?" He Gan Chengji tried to let out a haha ​​laugh with a hoarse voice, but it was choked in his throat, and he said awkwardly: "You don't owe me. The person you owe the most is yourself. You are cruel to others, Be more cruel to yourself. Rong Shuer, do you really know what you are doing?" I said perplexedly: "I, how can I not know what I'm doing?" I want to save Qingyao, I want to take revenge, the goal is single and clear, enough for me to fight for it. Hegan Chengji just stared at me with his flaming eyes, and smiled coldly: "You know, you know that you want to save people, and you want to take revenge. But what about after saving people? What about after taking revenge?" After that, what happened after that?If I succeed, Qingyao will be rescued and continue to live.If I still have life, I should continue to live, live...until the day I die! Suddenly infinite depression.Survival has become a meaningless thing, it is indeed terrible to think about it.I don't know how this seemingly indifferent swordsman can think so far-reaching? But I have already lost the desire to live a simple and happy life, so why think too much? I gritted my teeth and smiled softly: "After revenge, I will be happy!" "Happy?" He Gan Chengji pursed cold smile lines on his lips, and said word by word: "Okay, I will let you go, I hope you can wait for your happiness!" He pointed to the outside of the house, and said in a cold voice: "There are horses outside the house, you can go away by yourself. From now on, you will not owe me, and I will never owe you. We will return to the bridge, and the road will return to the road. After all, we will never be involved again." to one place!" Our bridge returns to the bridge, and the road returns to the road. After all, we will never be involved in one place again!Is this a decisive separation? It was as if a knife had been cut in my heart, and it was hot and painful.Tears flowed up without control for a moment, and swallowed desperately, but finally couldn't swallow, one drop, two drops, fell on the ground, splashing sad flowers. He had already turned his back, took a small wooden stick to poke the fire in the stove, then stood up, his back facing me, stiff as hell, and his voice became colder and more ruthless: "Aren't you leaving? Wait for me Sorry, you can't leave!" I silently wiped away my tears, and slammed the door open.The cold air blowing on my face was blowing straight through my chest with the icy new wind, which made me almost breathless, but there was also a kind of hearty joy. I am not only cruel, but also a bad woman.I didn't deserve happiness, I only deserved to belong to this cold winter. When he turned around and closed the door as lightly as possible, only a slight "click" sound was heard, and Hegan Chengji's shoulders shrugged slightly, as if trembling helplessly and desolately.Something fell from his hand, and the moment he closed the door, I saw that it was the poker stick, which had been broken in half and fell to the ground. It was as if someone's heart suddenly fell and split into two pieces, bleeding from Lingling, bright red and emitting warm smoke. Suddenly, I felt that I deserved to die. When I climbed on the horse and rushed to the plum garden, I couldn't feel the cold around me, I just lay on the horse's back and shivered constantly. The sky is full of stars twinkling, but they are also like countless eyes, tearful eyes, mocking eyes, sad eyes, tearful eyes, like Qingyao, like Chengji, like Su Xu, like a painting, and you can't distinguish them when you look closely. Not sure who it belongs to. Could it be that we are all sad people? Rich people are setting off firecrackers, one after another, someone’s happy laughter floats from time to time, clear and joyful, but very far away from me, it sounds like a dream that is far away.