Chapter 57 Chapter 57: Recluse

Later, I slowly learned some of the situation after my accident from Luoluokou. After my sudden disappearance, Dongfang Qingyao went crazy and searched many places, including Luoluo.Luoluo was both surprised and scared. When she heard that it was the maid in Su Xu's mansion who had lured me out, she left the mansion in disguise, regardless of her identity, and went to see Su Xu hand in hand with Dongfang Qingyao. Who would have thought that Su Xu was even more shocked than they were when he found out about it. The maid of his family, Xiaoxi, disappeared that day, and he was also looking for her.This elegant young man, in order to hide his panic, poured all the tea on his sleeve when he held up a cup of tea.If Su Xu knew about this and had prepared himself, he would definitely not lose his composure like this.What's more, Dongfang Qingyao and Luoluo also had a little understanding of Su Xu's indistinct feelings for me, so they guessed that he really didn't know my whereabouts.

Dongfang Qingyao continued to investigate, and finally found out that the carriage I was riding in had appeared at the back door of King Han's Mansion. He suspected that I had fallen into the hands of King Han, but what kind of mansion is King Han Mansion? I had no choice but to find a lot of friends who were familiar with the King of Han's Mansion and promised me a lot of money to find out my whereabouts. But for many days, there was no clue.The carriage, the coachman, and the confident and beautiful Rong Shu'er disappeared overnight, with no one alive or dead. Because of my affairs, Luoluo also didn't think about food and tea. When she was having a headache at noon, Hegan Chengji suddenly jumped in and told her all about me. Although Luoluo felt sorry for me, she still felt sorry for me Live in the world, but also rejoice.

Luoluo held on to my hand and said, "You know what? As long as you are alive, there is hope. You don't have to be afraid of anything. As long as I hear the word "You are safe," I won't think about anything." She hesitated for a while, and said: "I think Dongfang Qingyao thinks the same way. I sent someone to ask about you the day before yesterday. He lost a lot of weight and is very haggard." There was a throbbing pain in my heart, and it took me a long time to say slowly: "I don't want to have anything to do with Dongfang Qingyao anymore. Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, so let's stop here."

Luo Luo hesitated and said: "I don't understand. I think Dongfang Qingyao won't mind that matter too much. He will take pity on you even more." I sighed: "You don't understand. Even if a man has slept with hundreds of women, he still hopes that his wife will be with him for the first time. This kind of virginity will not change for thousands of years." Luo Luo asked blankly: "Will it not change for thousands of years?" I smile wryly.How should I tell her that even after more than a thousand years, there are still people who abandon their wives after being raped, let alone unmarried couples.In this Tang Dynasty, the only thing that makes me nostalgic is this seemingly perfect marriage.However, being branded with such a heavy stain, how can I expect that I can still happily have a perfect love?

Now I just hope that my time travel is just a dream. When I wake up, I will still be that delicate girl with bright eyes and white teeth who lives under the care of my relatives and lovers, as pure as the snow on Shambhala Mountain. I admit that I am a pessimist. I don't have the courage to stay in Datang any longer, and take the risk of guarding a love that may be unsatisfactory.So, if you lose Qingyao, you lose Qingyao.With his family status, if he is sad for a while, he will naturally find a better woman. I held Luoluo's hand and said tiredly: "Luoluo, if you are really good for me, take me to Tubo. Only there can I find my happiness."

Luoluo murmured: "Why? Why?" I slowly closed my eyes on the couch, and said, "I'll tell you the reason when we get to Tubo." Luoluo is a little fool. Seeing the sadness on my face, she nodded and said: "Okay, Qingyao will let him go. I just care about you. I will tell my father when I have time, and I will definitely take it with me." up to you." King Jiangxia has been busy with official business for several days, and has never been to the small building. He still doesn't know that I have arrived at his palace. But in the evening of this day, I just took the medicine, asked someone to move the soft couch to the window, spread a thin quilt, and lay quietly watching the Luoluo dance sword outside the window, when I heard the voice of Jiangxia King Li Daozong.

Li Daozong sighed far away: "Luoluo, have you heard about Shu'er?" Luo Luo held the sword, looked in my direction, and said, "What's wrong?" Li Daozong hesitated and said: "I heard that someone found her in the moat. Mr. Dongfang has already recognized her." Dongfang Qingyao, you must think I'm dead now?I should be happy, I finally achieved my goal.But why can't I laugh, but my eyes are hot again?And why is my heart suddenly empty? Luo Luo was silent, and then said: "Daddy, Shu'er is not dead. It's just that he has suffered a lot of misfortune and doesn't want to stay in Datang anymore."

Li Daozong lost his voice: "What did you say?" Luo Luo pointed to the window and said, "Shu'er, it's in the room." Li Daozong rushed into the room without saying a word. I hurriedly struggled to get up, Li Daozong had already come in front of me, pressed my hand and said: "Shu'er, you, why are you so thin? You, are you okay?" I said softly: "I'm getting better soon. As long as the prince is willing to fulfill my wish, I will get better soon." Li Daozong was startled. Luo Luo said: "Daddy, Shu'er doesn't want to stay in Datang anymore, she wants to go to Tubo with me."

Li Daozong asked in surprise, "Why?" I stared at Li Daozong's frowning brows, and quickly replied: "Because in Datang, my own belief in life has been lost. If I stay, I will die." Li Daozong was at a loss, and Luo Luo's big black and white eyes flashed, but unfortunately she was also at a loss, she couldn't help at all, and didn't know what to say. I slowly chanted: Li Daozong retreated a few steps as if under a heavy hammer, and said in a broken voice, "You, how do you know?" I took off the chi jade that had been worn around my neck for many days, and said: "This, and the poem-inscribed handkerchief, are my mother's most cherished things. But in the end she put these two Things are hidden, and then, die. I stay in Datang, and she married into the Rong family, it is the same meaningless. She died at last, lord, I think you will not see me die again!"

Li Daozong took the jade and looked at it deeply. Although it was close by, his eyes were hazy, like a layer of fog, and he couldn't see anything except faint pain and loss. I forced myself to stand up, but my footing was unstable. Luoluo supported me and patted my shoulder, revealing the tenderness of her daughter's family rarely.Tears welled up in my eyes, I propped myself up on my knees and said: "My lord, Shu'er begs you!" Luo Luo couldn't help but shed tears and said: "Father, when I go to Tubo, I will bring a group of servants and servants, I don't care about bringing one more person."

Li Daozong caressed Chiyu, said "oh" in a daze, and was stunned for a while. Suddenly he pulled me up as if waking up from a dream, and said, "Get up quickly, isn't it just going to Tubo? As long as you want to go, what's the matter?" Can't go? It's just that you have to take care of yourself first." I let go of the big stone in my heart, slowly burst into a quiet smile, and said: "I will naturally take care of myself, and I must go to Tubo." From now on, the matter is a foregone conclusion.Luoluo is already a princess, and I have been living in her room, which is inconvenient. I saw that there is a Buddhist hall not far from the small building, which is very secluded, so I told Luoluo that I want to live there.Although Luoluo felt that it was too quiet, she couldn't resist me, so she had to let me move in. The golden Buddha in the Buddhist hall has been covered with a layer of dust. I asked the maids to clean it, and the smiling face of the Buddha was revealed. He lowered his eyebrows and looked at the common people with compassion, looking at me, and also looking at my sadness. I slowly knelt down in front of the Buddha, praying silently, praying, I would like to be an ordinary woman with no desire, no desire, no hatred, no hatred, just let me go back, return to my world, and find my cleanliness and happiness. The Buddha just smiled, listened to my prayers, smiled and watched me linger under the Buddha for longer and longer, looked at me in plain clothes and cloth robes, with thorn hairpins and hairpins, reading ancient books and copying scriptures under the Buddha , Slowly killing the time of my life. Luoluo took time to visit me every day, and at the beginning, he would mention Qingyao, saying that he liked drinking, and especially liked to drink in front of what he thought was Shu'er's grave.Her clear and handsome features were stained with melancholy and impatience, she seemed to want to persuade me, but in the end she didn't dare to persuade me. I was just blindly quiet, so quiet that I was flustered, and I was so flustered that I didn't dare to touch the many happy or painful past events. In front of the Buddhist hall, the autumn wind blows, the sweet-scented osmanthus blooms, and the fallen leaves spread out in layers, and are blown away by the north wind, covered with white snow, as pure and flawless as the Shambhala Snow Mountain that day. My tears dripped quietly into the snow, seeping in silently, leaving only a few small white pits in the shape of teardrops. When spring comes, Luoluo and I will go to Tibet. If winter comes, can spring be far behind?