Chapter 16 Chapter Sixteen

It is impossible for you to forget the night when I came to your house with a book. Your old servant came to answer the door, and she said you haven't come back yet.I smiled at her almost obsequiously, and told her that I have a book to return to you, and I want to wait for you here. She let me into the house. Leaving me alone, she went to bed. How many girls have been waiting for you to come home like this?Your maid may have stopped making a fuss. This night, I did not spy on your secret.I'm so nervous and just want to see you soon. How I can't bear to return that "Portrait of Gray" to you.I hope you forget that I borrowed this book, so I can keep it.

However, that book was my excuse to see you, so I had to bring it. Maybe, when you see me, you will send me home like you did that night.Maybe this time, you will never forget me again, and you will have a lot to say to me. I am restless waiting for you. It's late and you haven't come back yet. While waiting, I couldn't help thinking wildly.I was suddenly afraid, if I return the book to you, what excuse will I have to find you in the future? However, I couldn't escape with the book either.I want to see you, I want you so much. I realize this may be the last time I see you.

At this time, I looked towards your bedroom, and the door of the room was ajar.I glanced across the kitchen to make sure your servant didn't come out suddenly. I went quietly into your bedroom. I turned on the lamp by the bed, sat on the edge of the bed, caressed your sheets, and flipped through the few books you put beside the bed. I put my slender feet into a pair of black slippers you put beside the bed, feel your residual warmth, and feel a burst of happiness in my heart. When none of these can satisfy me, I put my face on your pillow and imagine you are asleep. Suddenly, I don't know where the courage came from, I took off my clothes one by one, and got into your bed naked.

Xia Xia often said that men cannot withstand temptation. If you take her to bed so casually, why can't I?What's more, what I have, she doesn't have. I have precious innocence, and no man has ever touched me. I turn off the little lamp beside the bed, pull up the quilt, and lie on the bed with my arms bare, waiting for you. Even if it's the last night, I have no regrets. I wait for you in the dark, every moment is longer than the day. When will you come back? Finally, I heard the sound of the key turning. My heart beat suddenly like a drum. Looking out from the bedroom, there is no way to see the door.

I can't see your face, but I know you're back. I heard the sound of the door closing softly. I hear your soft footsteps. I hear you sigh comfortably as you sink into that armchair. Then, I heard the rustling sound of you flipping through the newspaper. Then all the sounds fell silent. I heard your footsteps walking towards the bedroom, getting closer to me step by step. I closed my eyes, trembling all over, and waited for you without shame. You came in, sat on the edge of the bed, reached out and turned on the small lamp by the bed. The light illuminated my face for an instant, and it also illuminated your face.

I stare at you with a trembling face. For a moment, you don't say anything. You don't have the look on your face that I expected.You stood up abruptly and asked me coldly: "What are you doing here?" My nose was sore, my lips trembled and I couldn't answer. Suddenly, I felt ashamed. You grabbed the clothes I put beside the bed and threw them to me, turned your face away, and said: "Put your clothes back on and get out of here! Go!" I couldn't hold back my tears any longer, I curled up on the bed and kept crying, hoping for your mercy. You say angrily:

"If you don't leave, I'll throw you out!" I have never been humiliated like this. I hurried back into my clothes and ran out of your apartment crying. I ran down the stairs, down the quiet hillside without looking back. The way home is too long, too long, as if walking for thirty years. Xinsheng, I have never mentioned this night to anyone. Over the years, it has become the most poignant memory in my heart. I didn't even say it when I was with Dooling.