Chapter 46 Chapter Ten

After the Spring Festival, Xiao Qianguang resigned as Minister of Land and Resources and announced his early retirement.Both Xiao Yuan and Wu Yue were also transferred from our bureau. It is said that they went to a certain ministry. I have no intention of inquiring about the details. I worked overtime until late at night, and I was exhausted physically and mentally when I came home.Make a cup of tea, sit on the bamboo chair on the balcony and watch the flickering lights in the distance. It is God's favor to keep the candlelight in this small room and enjoy this purity alone. Downstairs, the dim street lamps against the sparse tree shadows make it look desolate and deserted.If you look closely, there is actually someone in the shadow of the tree, looking up at the window of a certain house in this building.

I smiled lightly, maybe I was waiting for someone?But waited so late. Say goodnight to my mom's picture and climb into bed. After drinking too much tea, I can't sleep well and dream constantly. In the dream, there was Xiao Yuan's figure over and over again, and he kept saying the same sentence to me: "But, wait for me, I will come to you!" "No!" I woke up and went to the balcony. Downstairs, amidst the flickering fireworks, that figure was still there. The man lit another cigarette, and the cluster of light from the lighter suddenly illuminated that lonely face.It was clearly Xiao Yuan's slightly sad face.

He was looking up at my bedroom window. What can he see?Not a ray of light, not even a gleam of hope. Xiao Yuan, how did we get here? From falling in love to parting, from sweet to bitter, from joy to pain... Now that we have reached the present, why bother to regret it? I stood in front of the window, staring at Xiao Yuan's figure.He stood all night, and I cried all night too! For several nights in a row, I used to look out the window.Xiao Yuan was there all the time, and I couldn't stand it anymore. In the end, I took the sandalwood piano model he gave me and ran downstairs.

When Xiao Yuan saw me, his melancholy eyes flashed with astonishment, "But, why did you come out?" "Xiao Yuan, don't think I don't know you stand here every night!" I cried, "Why do you wait so stubbornly? Don't you know that the ruthless fate has separated us?" "I want to wait for a few more days while I can still protect you." Xiao Yuan smiled, his paleness made people feel distressed. Xiao Yuan's words made my heart ache for no reason, but I still said the words against my will, "You should go and wait for the person you should be waiting for, not me!"

Xiao Yuan lowered his head and looked at his toes.After being stunned for a long time, he spit out a few words softly, "But, I'm sorry!" Why do so many people say these three words to me?Didn't know that much of the damage done was irreparable with words?If an apology works, why are there so many tragedies in the world? If you make a mistake, you will make a mistake, and there is no way to do it all over again. "Xiao Yuan, I don't accept your apology..." I choked up.Xiao Yuan didn't feel sorry for me, if he was wrong, he could only blame his parents for blocking him, and blame this ruthless fate for playing tricks.

We were in love, what's wrong? Xiao Yuan put his palm on his eyes, and I saw the liquid slipping from his fingers. I took his hand, "Xiao Yuan, everything is over. As long as we grit our teeth, everything will pass!" "It may have passed for you, but for me, this life will never pass." "Go back, Xiao Yuan. You'll wear down your body if you don't sleep like this." I advised him. "You still care about me, don't you? It's not that you don't love me, right?" Xiao Yuan's eyes lit up with new hope, and he grabbed my shoulder desperately.

For Xiao Yuan like this, I feel more distressed than ever, and I shook my head suddenly, "Xiao Yuan, don't do this!" He finally stopped, with ashes burning in his eyes, "Perhaps, you don't love me anymore, it's just that I deceive myself and don't want to believe it." Whatever he says, I won't refute, and I can't refute, I just want to let the past pass. "Xiao Yuan, this is the gift you gave me when you left that year. I kept it all the time, and now I will return it to you." Return what you should, and let yourself be relieved. I put the piano model in Xiao Yuan's hands, just like putting a heart of love into his hands. This heart has become silent support and silent blessings with the passage of time.

"I will not take back what I gave away." Xiao Yuan returned the model to me. "No, Xiao Yuan, this is yours." Return what should be paid back, even if you cut off a longing. I insisted on sending this gift back to dissolve and lighten this once sweet feeling, so that when I relish it later, it will not have such a strong taste. "this is yours!" "your!" The two shied away from each other, and neither of them wanted to leave the strings of that memory, for fear that one person would play the lonely and sad movement for the rest of his life. The model accidentally dropped on the hard concrete floor with a dull "ding dong".The spring of the qin base stretched, and a piece of yellowed paper fell out from inside.

I picked up the page, opened it curiously, and saw Xiao Yuanqiu's vigorous strokes on it, with only two words: Wait for me! My tears came surging, "Why, you never say these two words yourself?" Xiao Yuan pursed his lips and looked at me, "Because I'm afraid I'll break my promise!" It turns out that in the final analysis, our love is not persistent enough! A few days later, playing with Zhang Yu and the others, Zhang Yu looked at my serious dark circles and said, "You are almost catching up with the national treasure!" I can't laugh. "Is it too much work pressure recently? Take a few days off and just go to Japan with us to see the cherry blossoms!" He suggested.

Very tempting, very attractive. "Who is going?" I asked. "It's not just those brothers, you know them well anyway," he said. "Okay, when will you be back?" "Before May Day." "Can I stay a few more days?" "No, Zhang Cheng and Tian Lang have to rush back to be Xiao Yuan's best man." I don't know if Zhang Yu did it on purpose or not, but anyway, he still mentioned Xiao Yuan. Zhang Yu kept telling me not to bring anything, trouble!But I still brought big and small bags of clothes and snacks. Zhang Yu looked at me helplessly and sighed, "I said for a long time that I was playing the piano against the cow!"

"I bring it myself, and I won't let you take it, so leave me alone!" He took my luggage and left, while I followed behind him empty-handed. The others arrived at the airport earlier than us, and they all met the men. Zhang Cheng seemed a little surprised to see me coming. "Who can invite you, Coke?" I pointed to Zhang Yu, he smiled knowingly and didn't say anything more.I can understand his complicated eyes, it should be a misunderstanding, but I don't need to explain, sometimes the more I explain, the worse it gets. The girl became acquainted immediately after being introduced by everyone. They are all family members, and Sun Zhuo’s sister, Sun Qian, looked at me and smiled, "It seems that Sun Zhuo is still unlucky!" I couldn't understand what she said at all, so I kept saying, "Professor Sun is very nice!" Zhang Yu pulled me to his side, and then said to Kun Shao: "Take care of your wife, don't let her fool us careless people!" "Dead octopus, who do you think is heartless?" "You're not short-sighted, you're short-sighted!" I grabbed the flesh on his arm and twisted it, and he frowned in pain, "Be gentle, why do you still have violent tendencies?" When I got on the plane, the flight attendant covered me with a thin blanket, and I fell asleep. When he woke up, he was leaning on Zhang Yu's body.I said, "Is it okay for you? Why don't you push me away?" He smiled, and said lewdly, "It's my wish that you take the initiative to come over. How can I push you?" "In a while, the whole body will lean on you and crush you to death!" I frightened him. He laughed out loud, "If you want, we can try it at the hotel later?" God, how can this person think of everything! "Zhang Yu!" I called him angrily, "Can you be more pure in your thinking?" Cheng Tianlang and his girlfriend sat behind me and Zhang Yu, and laughed too. Cheng Tianlang said, "Zhang Yu is not a casual person!" "He's not human when he gets up casually!" I whispered. The rooms are reserved for five sets of suites, exactly five men.The other four brought their female companions into the room, leaving Zhang Yu and I staring awkwardly at the door. "I thought it was an ordinary single room, one for each person." He smiled, "This is the usual practice, if you need, I can tell them to add another set." "Forget it!" I didn't want to make trouble for him, it cost him a lot to bring me out. Fortunately, there are separate rooms in the suite, at most one person's bedroom and one person's bedroom. Zhang Yu was on the phone in the room, his voice was very low, and he didn't want me to hear it.Bored, I went out to see the environment of the hotel, and met Zhang Cheng at the elevator entrance. Zhang Cheng saw me and smiled, "I didn't expect it to be like this!" what kind?I knew he was referring to me and Zhang Yu, "It's not what you think," I whispered, "We're just friends!" Zhang Cheng said: "You don't understand Zhang Yu at all!" "I know what he does? I don't plan to stay with him forever and grow old together!" Zhang Cheng smiled reluctantly, and said solemnly: "Coke, I don't want you to be hurt!" I laughed, "I am invulnerable now, who can hurt me?" I made a defensive posture of military boxing, which was also taught by Zhang Cheng when I was in college. Zhang Cheng also laughed, "I really miss the days when I was in college and followed you crazy!" "Come on, practice!" I put on a posture and asked the monitor to come along. He was really as brave as he was back then, with a catch, he threw me to the ground, "I lost, I lost!" I laughed, "I am ashamed of my master!" Zhang Cheng pulled me up with too much force, I jumped on him and gave him a big hug. "What are you two doing?" I don't know when Zhang Yu stood there, he was staring at me and Zhang Cheng coldly. I hurriedly dodged from Zhang Cheng, "Let's practice punching and kicking, ha ha." "Zhang Cheng, stay away from her!" Zhang Yu angrily pulled me back to the room. "Why are you angry?" Why do you always act like a child in front of me?Isn't it all good in front of others, calm, steady and generous, and imposing. "Didn't you reject Zhang Cheng?" he said. "But we're still good friends. We can't just refuse him and we'll never see each other, right?" "A good friend should have a limit." "You said, what is the limit?" I didn't want to argue with him, but I was angry. He doesn't talk, and I don't talk anymore, so as not to talk too much and make noise.Besides, why am I arguing with him?He can't control me, and I can't control him. Everyone has their own way of life and perspective. During dinner, Sun Qian came to ask me to eat.I have no appetite, I ate most of the snacks I brought, and I am no longer hungry. Looking at the gorgeous and peaceful street scene outside the window alone, many melancholy surges in my heart for no reason. The phone rang, and I thought it was Zhang Yu calling me to eat, but I said "Hello", but I didn't hear any sound. The hand holding the phone did not know when it was sweating, it was wet and cool.Listening to the breathing and the chaotic heartbeat. Xiao Yuan's hoarse and almost inaudible sigh came from the other end, "I bought a plane ticket to England, let's go!" I was already in tears, "Xiao Yuan, it's too late!"