Chapter 8 Chapter Eight

The Swedish band was tuning when the two of them entered.The fans below were so excited that they shouted their names with thick necks. Sun Wan followed Zhuo Lincheng and sat down in the booth, glanced at the group of people, then at Zhuo Lincheng, and finally couldn't help but said: "If I didn't know you, I wouldn't believe that you are one of these passionate young people. " Sun Wan heard that he had formed a band in college earlier, but she only took it as a joke. It was not until she saw his room dedicated to storing vinyl records at his home that she believed that he was indeed a music enthusiast.

Zhuo Lincheng didn't answer her, and directly ordered the waiter to take out the wine he saved last time, ordered fruit plate snacks for Sun Wan, and finally ordered a glass of soda for her on his own initiative. While he was ordering, Sun Wan pulled out Li Ya's phone and called it. Unexpectedly, after calling twice in a row, there was no answer.Sun Wan had no choice but to give up temporarily, Shen Xin watched the performance. The atmosphere of the performance that day was so good, the intense music and the boiling crowd almost exploded the bar. At first, Zhuo Lincheng held the glass and sipped the amber wine in it while listening to the music intently. Gradually, his emotions were lifted by the atmosphere.

He couldn't help but got up and walked to Sun Wan, leaned closer to her in the hustle and bustle and said, "I'll go ahead and have a look, and I'll be back soon. You sit here and wait for me, don't go to other places alone, don't talk to strangers. " Sun Wan opened her eyes innocently, and said empathetically, "Go." After Zhuo Lincheng left, Sun Wan was bored eating popcorn and drinking soda.She has a quirk, whenever she is in a strange and uneasy environment, she likes to relieve her psychological discomfort by eating and drinking non-stop. When she got tired of eating popcorn, Sun Wan took out her phone and saw that Li Ya hadn't called back yet.She guessed that she must be busy, so she had to send the address of the bar to her, and asked her to come over as soon as she saw the letter.

After sending the text message, she propped her chin with both hands, staring at the sea of ​​grotesque lights in the distance with blurred eyes.Red smoke rose from the stage, and in the corner of the smoke, a blonde beauty with a blurry face was playing the cello. Her expression was bleak and stern, like a sea witch.Although Sun Wan didn't like rock music, but the strange and interesting senses in front of her made her feel that the trip was worthwhile. Sun Wan was in a trance when someone behind him called politely: "Miss..." Sun Wan looked back and saw the previous waiter holding the wine list and looking at her politely, "Our bar has a full drink delivery event recently, and your table is full, please see what you need."

Sun Wan took the dark red wine list, flipped through it and asked, "Anything is fine." The waiter pointed to several large areas, "These pages can be given away for free." Sun Wan felt that the soda water was too weak, so she pointed to the "Long Island Iced Tea" and said, "Then have two cups of this tea." The waiter said with a strange expression, "Are you...are you sure you want two glasses of Long Island iced tea?" After receiving Sun Wan's affirmative answer, he politely left with his notebook in his arms. Soon, two cups of rosy and transparent drinks were placed on the table.

Seeing its mellow color, Sun Wan couldn't help but grabbed it and took a sip. The drink was very moist in the throat, tasted a little sour, a little sweet, and a bit bitter like black tea. There is a faint smell of alcohol. Although Sun Wan likes this rich taste, but because she tasted alcohol in it, she didn't dare to be greedy, so she took a few sips and put it aside. The band's performance ended soon, and after the band left the stage, the heat in the crowd gradually receded, and Zhuo Lincheng also returned to the booth. He seemed a little tired, with sweat on his forehead.Sun Wan sympathetically handed him a tissue.

Zhuo Lincheng pointed to the red drink in front of him and asked: "What is this?" "Black tea, delivered by the bar." Zhuo Lincheng nodded, picked up the glass of drink and drank it down. "Are you tired? Should we withdraw?" Zhuo Lincheng gently wiped the sweat off his forehead, and was about to nod his head, when his expression suddenly turned serious, "Are you sure I drank black tea just now." Sun Wan asked doubtfully, "Isn't it?" Zhuo Lincheng smiled wryly, "I may not be able to drive a car anymore." "Why?" Sun Wan was even more puzzled.

"I was too eager to drink just now, and now I taste it. This is a blend of vodka, rum, agave, juniper berries, and black tea." Sun Wan stared dumbfounded at the "black tea" in front of her. If the above four kinds of wine are mixed together, how much stamina will there be, she knows it without him reminding her.Reminiscent of the waiter's expression just now, she knew that she might have mistaken a strong cocktail for tea. Seeing her self-reproach, Zhuo Lincheng said softly, "It doesn't matter, I can't drink this little wine. Let's go." When Zhuo Lincheng got up, his feet wobbled a bit, and he almost fell back to the sofa.Sun Wan looked at him nervously, and saw that the part above his neck was gradually showing the blush from alcohol burn.

Zhuo Lincheng picked up the soda water that Sun Wan hadn't finished drinking, and drank a few swigs.After regaining his composure, he picked up his coat and led Sun Wan towards the door. After leaving the bar, Zhuo Lincheng's footsteps became even more unsteady as the night wind blew outside. Seeing that Zhuo Lincheng's face turned pale and his expression was painful, Sun Wan knew that it was because of his drunkenness, so he hurriedly ran to the road to hail a taxi. A moment later, a taxi waiting for business stopped in front of Sun Wan.Sun Wan stepped forward to support Zhuo Lincheng, who was almost unsteady, and dragged him into the taxi by mopping the belt.

Sun Wan got into the co-pilot, took a long breath and asked Zhuo Lincheng where he was going. Zhuo Lincheng leaned his head against the car window, announced the name of the place in a muffled voice, then remained silent, turned his back to her, and seemed to have fallen asleep. Upon hearing the name of the place, Sun Wan knew that he was going to the hotel last time, so she told the master the detailed address.In the end, Sun Wan took out her mobile phone and was about to call Li Ya again.As soon as the call was made, she suddenly remembered that Li Ya was filming recently, maybe it was a night scene, so there was no news from her.She pressed the phone decisively, and wrote a text message asking her to bring some hangover hangover supplies to the hotel to take care of Zhuo Lincheng.

The taxi stopped and went on the South Second Ring Road covered with thin snow, and it took more than half an hour to drive downstairs to the hotel. Sun Wan called Zhuo Lincheng a few times, seeing that he didn't answer, she jumped over the back of the chair and pushed him.Seeing that he was still motionless, Sun Wan had no choice but to get out of the car, opened the door on his side, and shook his arm, "Zhuo Lincheng, we're here, get out of the car." It was only then that Zhuo Lincheng felt something, gently took Sun Wan's hand away, sat up without saying a word, was stunned for a while, then slowly got out of the car, closed his eyes, stood in the snow and took a deep breath. Sun Wan asked worriedly: "You are like this... do you want me to take you upstairs?" Zhuo Lincheng opened his eyes, looked back at her, a star of light flashed in his translucent eyes, his lips moved, and after a long time he said with difficulty: "No need. You go back." Sun Wan hesitated for a moment, but didn't get in the car immediately.At this time, the taxi driver poked his head out and asked, "Can I go? My watch is still running!" Zhuo Lincheng turned his back to Sun Wan, waved his hand lightly, and walked towards the steps. Only then did Sun Wan open the car door and sit on it. Just as Sun Wan finished talking about her place name, Zhuo Lincheng, who was going up the steps, staggered and fell down on the steps unexpectedly.Sun Wan looked out the car window nervously, and saw him lying quietly on the snow, seemingly not intending to get up, so she hurriedly took out the money from her bag, "Master, stop the car, I want to get off." After paying for the car, she opened the car door, quickly ran to Zhuo Lincheng's side, knelt down and pulled him while saying, "Get up, don't fall asleep here." Zhuo Lincheng moved his body, opened his misty eyes, and stared fixedly at Sun Wan who had gone and returned, without making a sound for a long while. Sun Wan took a look under the light, only to find that his palm had been smashed and blood was seeping out.Seeing this, Sun Wan frowned, quickly took out a wet wipe from her bag, and gently wiped it on his palm.The wound was wiped suddenly, and Zhuo Lincheng gasped in pain.Sun Wan grabbed his hand reflexively, blew a few breaths on his wound, and asked sympathetically, "It hurts." She didn't realize that most of the drunkenness in Zhuo Lincheng's eyes had disappeared at this time, and she was staring at her in a hurry with her lips pursed.Seeing that he didn't speak, Sun Wan couldn't help looking up at his face, almost at the same time, his warm lips gently pressed her lower lip. There was a bang in Sun Wan's mind, and she instinctively stretched out her hand to push him, but his hands were tightly held by him.He took her hands to his chest with one hand, held her waist with the other, and locked her tightly in his arms.With a slight gasp, his fiery lips moved to the tip of her nose, eyes, browbones, forehead, and finally fell into her thick hair. Sun Wan was trembling because of his passionate kiss, and the hands on his chest gradually lost their strength. His lips and chin rubbed repeatedly in her long hair, the scent that belonged to him became stronger and stronger like a snake, entangled her and dragged her into the darkness and suffocation, she breathed heavily like drowning Struggling, but that struggle gradually weakened. His lips stayed on her forehead for a few seconds, and then fell on her lips again.He stared deeply at her blurred eyes in the darkness, increased his strength, rubbed and bit her lips with his lips and tongue. Sun Wan breathed his breath, the heart under her chest was beating frantically in his breath, her body was burned limp by his heat.She leaned her neck back in embarrassment to resist, and he put her down in his arms, hugged her tightly with one hand, and rubbed her wet red lips repeatedly with his index finger with the other hand. Sun Wan's mind was dizzy because of his overly gentle actions, her rationality made her want to cry, scold, and scream, but the strange tide of emotion surging from deep in her body swept her to the deepest depth of sinking.He lowered his head and bewitched her with a very soft and soft voice, "Relax, open your mouth." She seemed to be drunk by his alcoholic breath, her eyes were tightly closed, and she hid away with a blushing face.He gently turned her face, tentatively put his index finger between her lips and teeth, and touched the tip of her tongue lightly. The itchy and numb feeling made Sun Wan's whole body tense, and she bit his fingertips in retaliation.He trembled, withdrew his finger, and found her lips to kiss again.The tip of his tongue slipped into her mouth, licked her lips and tongue, and whispered emotionally: "Hold me, hold me." His shortness of breath was like a storm, and her heart fluctuated sharply in the turbulent waves he created. She wished she could give birth to countless hands and find something to hold tightly.After receiving his instruction, she eagerly reached out and grabbed the belt on his coat, as if it was not secure, she stretched out her ten fingers again, and tightly grabbed his waist.He hugged her even tighter, as if wanting to become one with her, he said in a hoarse voice, "Kiss me, like this..." He entangled her tongue and sucked down, as if to swallow her whole.Sun Wan wrapped her hands around his neck as if possessed, and kissed him back jerky.Their lips were tightly stuck together, and their tongues were tightly entangled, and then entangled again... However, the kiss finally ended with the harsh sound of heavy objects falling to the ground. They suddenly opened their eyes, looked back down the steps, and saw Li Ya, who was still wearing a Republic of China costume and had not even taken off her make-up, was looking at them in disbelief, shaking her head mechanically, shaking violently all over her body, It was as if they were naked at the moment. After a long time, a heart-piercing scream escaped from her mouth, and she squatted on the ground with a distorted face. Under her feet, a thermos cup rolled towards the road. Sun Wan was terrified by her scream, and just realized what she and Zhuo Lincheng had done, her face suddenly turned pale.Her shoulders collapsed in an instant, like invisible shackles on the back frame.She bit her lip in embarrassment, and dug her fingers heavily into the snow on the ground. Zhuo Lincheng pulled Sun Wan up from the ground, looked at Li Ya from afar, and said after a long time: "Li Ya, I'm sorry." His voice was very soft, but it hit Li Ya like a whip.Li Ya shook violently, got up with tears in her eyes, ran up the steps quickly, stood two steps below them, raised her head and said: "I don't want to hear this, you know, I was afraid of hearing what you said from the beginning this." Zhuo Lincheng stretched out his hand towards her cheek, and finally put it down slowly.He looked at her quietly and said guiltily, "I'm sorry, the person I love is not you." Li Ya's tears washed the powder on her face out of the ditch, she knew she was in a mess, and she didn't even have the confidence to be angry, so she asked sadly: "Then why are you still with me?" Without waiting for his answer, she found the answer in a flash, pointed at Sun Wan, and asked loudly: "Because of her, right? You like her...you actually like her." Seeing that Zhuo Lincheng did not deny it, she sobbed heavily, and raised her hand to wipe away the tears on her face, "I'm so stupid, I should have guessed it on my birthday..." She suddenly stood there for a long time, and suddenly screamed sharply: "But why is it her? What's so good about her? Why would you rather like a stupid woman who didn't even know how to wear a bra in high school than me." On the side, Sun Wan seemed to have been slapped heavily, staring at Li Ya dumbfounded, her calf trembling with shame.On the lip she bit tightly, a trace of blood came out.She suddenly didn't want to stand here anymore, and felt that what happened tonight must be a nightmare, and the best way to wake up from the nightmare was to leave. She numbly broke free from Zhuo Lincheng's hand, and staggered down the stairs. As soon as she reached the road, Zhuo Lincheng's voice called her nervously from behind. She stopped and said sharply without looking back, "Don't call me!" She covered her ears, and a line of hot tears rolled down silently. A taxi stopped in her hazy line of sight, she opened the door in embarrassment, and fled. Sun Wan turned off her mobile phone and was bored in the room for a few days, until her eye sockets were sunken and her face was pale. She buried her head in the sand like an ostrich, she didn't dare to face Li Ya, nor did she have the face to face Xiao Xun.She blamed alcohol for her promiscuity that night.After reading the comments on Baidu about Long Island Iced Tea, which seems mild and has great stamina, her heart that has been curled up is slightly relieved. Li Meijing saw her huddled at home every day, looking sickly, and pointed out viciously and meanly, "Did something happen to you after you hurried out that day? I see that something is wrong with you recently, saying that you are sick, But I didn’t see you coughing, stuffy nose and fever, saying that you were not sick, and you looked distraught. In the whole twelfth lunar month, I only saw you going out early and returning late, so it’s not like walking too much at night and hitting evil spirits.” Thinking about Zhuo Lincheng's face, Sun Wan gritted her teeth and said, "Yeah, I've hit the devil!" Besides, she couldn't find a more reasonable reason to explain why she pushed herself into the abyss of betrayal of friendship and love. After seven days of suffering at home, Sun Wan finally couldn't help turning on the phone. The ringing of text messages continued for more than a minute. Seeing "Xiao Xun" and "Li Ya" alternately, her heart was almost twisted by guilt. bleeding. Before the text message rang, she nervously threw her phone far away on the corner of the bed, and buried her head in the quilt pillow.After hundreds of rounds of fighting between heaven and man in her brain, she hesitated to open the latest text message from Li Ya, and what she saw was a very short line: When do you not want to be an ostrich anymore, call me, let's talk. Sun Wan held the phone in her hands, tears welled up in her dry eye sockets. She didn't dare to call Li Ya, so she sent a text message in a compromise, asking her to meet at a Starbucks near University A. Sun Wan went to the appointed Starbucks on time with a heart that was splashed with coffee and slapped.She thought she had gone early enough, but Li Ya went earlier than her. She sat quietly under the large window pane in the corner, wearing a white fur coat.Fur is something that can easily be worn out of nouveau riche temperament, but Li Ya handles it well.Different from that night, she put on light and delicate makeup today, making her whole person look bright and luxurious. Sun Wan pulled away the chair opposite her and sat down anxiously. Although she was used to her beauty, she still felt ashamed under her radiance. Li Ya squinted her eyes and stared at Sun Wan for a long time, a specious wry smile gradually appeared on the corner of her mouth, "You are in love with him." The "he" in Li Ya's mouth made Sun Wan's tail twitch lightly, she lowered her head, held her breath and shook her head. Without waiting for Li Ya to speak again, Sun Wan quickly told all about Zhuo Lincheng's invitation to her for an exclusive interview, emphasizing again and again that they were all drunk that night. Li Ya stared straight at her, "There is no such thing as an exclusive interview with a character. He was just playing Pygmalion with you, and you actually fell headfirst." Sun Wan was taken aback for a moment, opened her mouth slightly, and looked at Li Ya in disbelief. "Have you seen Hepburn's "My Fair Lady"? The noble linguist fell in love with the poor and vulgar flower girl, just like King Pygmalion of Cyprus fell in love with the maiden statue he carved-too sentimental and innocent It’s easy to fall in love with the works that I have poured my heart and soul into.” Li Ya put all the sugar cubes into her coffee cup expressionlessly, picked it up and took a sip, and said quietly: “Stay away from him, otherwise , and even the belt bone will be swallowed by him in the future, you still don't know what happened." Sun Wan's nose suddenly turned red.Under the table, her hands were tightly curled up, and she didn't even notice that her nails had pierced the skin of her palms. "Old Sun, I don't blame you for this matter, and don't blame me for saying something wrong that night. Lift your head up, take a good look at me, and let me take a good look at you. In the future, it may be difficult for us to sit face to face like this gone." Hearing her abrupt and desolate words, Sun Wan suddenly raised her head and looked at her in a daze. Li Ya sighed softly, and pushed a glass of lemonade in front of Sun Wan, "Do you still remember my dream? The Department of Performance at New York University. I'm going there soon. One movie, three letters of recommendation, one An international credit card, and that's how he sent me off." Her voice trembled slightly, "In all accounts, I actually made money, but I'm not happy at all. These days, I've thought everything through. He's eyeing you, but he used me as a springboard By your side, you thought that you could get together and get together by paying me a sum of money afterwards, but you never thought that even if it is a springboard, it will hurt if you step on it for a long time." Sun Wan felt that the lemonade in her mouth was so sour that it was almost hard to swallow. After a long silence, the coffee spoon in Li Ya's hand fell into the coffee cup with a bang, and a line of tears rolled down from the corner of her eyes silently. She raised her hand to wipe away her tears, and sobbed, "Have you heard the story of peeling onions? This year, I have been peeling onions every day, just to see where his sincerity is. But until now, I have believed that People like him have no intentions. After I leave, I will completely forget this person and everything here. But, I want to remind you, don’t make the same mistakes I made. You can’t mess with me. pick him up." Sun Wan's heart was in pain, she kept shaking her head with a pale face, "No, I will never see him again." "It's up to you. Do you think he will give up halfway after putting in so much effort? The reason why he took away my springboard at this time is because he has reached the position he wants to reach. You must be very careful." Li Ya's description made Sun Wan shudder. Zhuo Lincheng's image of a perfect person and a noble person in her mind was smashed by Li Ya's words. Subconsciously, she felt a great fear of Zhuo Lincheng . Ever since she broke up with Li Ya at Starbucks, Sun Wan felt very empty in her heart.Standing on the streets of Beijing extending in all directions, she didn't know where to go. After wandering for a long time, she stopped a taxi with a disheartened expression and went straight to Gulou Hospital. When she arrived at the downstairs of the hospital, she bought a few catties of fresh fruit in the canteen, and walked towards the inpatient department with a heavy heart. Along the way, she was worried about how to explain to her uncles and aunts that there was no news recently, and she didn't have the courage to face Xiao Xun, for fear that he would see any clues about that night. She dawdled for twenty minutes in just a few hundred meters.When Shishi was standing outside Xiao's mother's ward, she leaned against the wall anxiously, took a few deep breaths, and then mustered up the courage to force a smile and open the door. However, when her eyes fell on Mother Xiao's hospital bed, the smile at the corner of her mouth froze instantly.She looked at the strange man lying on the bed in surprise, suspected that she had gone to the wrong room, and was about to exit to check, but other familiar faces in the ward reminded her that she did not read the wrong room number, but something else wrong. She panicked immediately, walked mechanically to the hospital bed, and asked in a hissy voice, "Where's my aunt... Has my aunt changed wards?" The strange male patient looked at her in bewilderment. Seeing her frightening expression, he quickly turned his innocent eyes to the old patient on the opposite bed. As soon as Sun Wan was reminded by his gaze, she immediately turned her head and asked the person on the opposite bed: "Uncle Yu, where is my aunt? Where has my aunt gone?" The old patient's eyes flickered a few times, and he stammered, "She... she... went away the night before yesterday." "Where did you go." Sun Wan seemed to be sap, her brain selectively skipped the most common meaning of "gone". The old patient said in embarrassment: "She passed away the night before yesterday. She passed away very suddenly, and we don't know why. Your boyfriend and your uncle sent the body home early in the morning the day before yesterday." Sun Wan still refused to believe it, tears tremblingly hung in her eyes and refused to fall.Trembling, she looked through her mobile phone, found Xiao Xun's number and pressed the dial button, then walked out the door without thinking. As she walked, she breathed heavily against the cold night wind, and all the noises from the outside world disappeared far away, leaving only the sound of her heavy breathing and messy footsteps in the world. The moment the phone was connected, she cried loudly: "Xiao Xun...I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I didn't mean not to answer the phone...Auntie..." Xiao Xun was calmer than her, "Wan Wan, mom won't have to suffer anymore. Don't cry, mom was always strong during her lifetime, she doesn't like to see others cry." Sun Wan choked with sobs and shook her head desperately, tears fell like broken beads, and said intermittently: "I will buy a plane ticket to Xi'an right away." Xiao Xun said quietly: "No, no, don't come, I will return to Beijing after the first seven days." Sun Wan stopped and stood in the warm hall of the hospital, holding the phone tightly, unable to speak for a while. There was a whistling cold wind from the other end of the phone, as if a cold wind from a distant place in the void and darkness had penetrated into Sun Wan's collar, "Aren't you going to stay with Auntie for a while longer?" "No. The company's vacation is only so long, and I have to come back to deal with a very important matter." "But..." Sun Wan couldn't understand him more and more, "What is more important than keeping filial piety." "There are many. For example, I have to do things, I want to live, and live better. The dead are gone, and nothing is more important than the living." Sun Wan blinked her eyes, his voice was clearly in her ears, but why did she have an illusion that he left her who was standing still in a vast snowstorm, walking farther and farther away, farther and farther away up. On the fifth day of the Lunar New Year, Sun Wan went back to Xiao Xun, but sent Li Ya away. Sun Wan stood in front of the french windows of the terminal building, staring blankly at the Boeing 747 roaring up to the bright white sky, but couldn't see anything in the end. She sat in the terminal building all afternoon, with never-ending traffic in front of her.She suddenly envied that these people had a place to go, envied that they could be taken in by one person.Of the only two people in her life who would take her in, one had already gone.Her intuition told her that the only one left was also withdrawing from her life in a calm manner. Sun Wan's intuition did not lie to her. As Murphy's Law reminds you, if you're worried about something happening, it probably has already happened - and she waited for Xiao Xun's farewell soon. The day Xiao Xun had a showdown with Sun Wan was a rainy Sunday in April.In the beautiful music of the western restaurant, he told her that he had received an appointment from the company and was about to go to the United States with the company's elite team to expand the subsidiary's business. Sun Wan tried her best to calm herself, "This is the 'important thing' you have to deal with." Xiao Xun didn't answer, just sighed inaudibly. "How long will it take?" "At least three years, or longer." Xiao Xun didn't dare to look her in the eyes, and stared down at the cocktail glass in front of him. Sun Wan asked in a strange tone that was unfamiliar to her: "It was appointed by Zhao Yiting." "No—" Xiao Xun categorically denied it sensitively, "it was decided by Mr. Zhuo and the board of directors." "President Zhuo? Zhuo Lincheng?" Sun Wan's voice started to cry. Xiao Xun was a little surprised to hear Zhuo Lincheng's name from her mouth, and soon, his expression returned to his usual calmness. "Do you have to go?" Xiao Xun's throat moved, his expression darkened, "We must go." "What if I don't let you go? I definitely won't let you go?" Sun Wan stared at him with tears in his eyes. "Wanwan, don't do this." Sun Wan reached out and grabbed his right hand that was placed on the table, and said with a choked voice, "Because Auntie has gone, you no longer care about me here, so you have to leave me and go find your original future, right? Xiao Xun, aren't you being too selfish like this?" Xiao Xun's eyes were calm and sad, "Yes. I used to think that there are many roads to walk in life, but now I understand that among so many roads, there is only one way to survive. Wan Wan, I have already made too many choices. , you can’t go wrong again in the future.” The tears in Sun Wan's eyes could no longer be held back, rolling down like broken beads, she raised her hand to wipe away the tears, sarcastically, "It sounds like I just made a wrong choice, one that will hinder your progress It’s a constraint. I remember wrongly, the person who said he loves me and wants to be with me forever is not you!” Xiao Xun gently shook his head amidst her censure, and said desolately: "A long time ago, I felt that I was omnipotent, that I could shade everyone I loved. But what is the reality? The reality is that I can only let myself My mother lived in the worst ward, let her use the cheapest medicine to maintain her life, and finally watched her suffer from a little bit of pain to death. A long time ago, I thought that my mind could buy everything for me. But the reality told me, When I have nowhere to go, my mind is not worth as much as 400CC blood. Wanwan, I am very afraid that one day in the future, I can’t even protect you, and I am especially afraid that one day in the future, you will look down on me. Forgive me for choosing this way, I can’t be ashamed Love you." Sun Wan covered her mouth, her shoulders kept shaking.She understood and didn't hate him anymore.But for a woman who is about to lose her love, what is more painful than being unable to hate? She slowly let go of the hand that was holding him. For the first time in her life, she found that her strength was actually very weak, so weak that she couldn't grasp or hold anything. They finished the supper very peacefully.When we went out, the rain had stopped.Because they were going in different directions, they parted ways at the door in a tacit understanding. Facing the night wind, Sun Wan walked forward like a wandering soul.She repeatedly told herself to hold on, to hold on, but before her eyes flashed the bits and pieces of their being together like a movie clip.She knew it very well, but she didn't understand how they became what they are today.She often imagined their future in her mind, thought of marrying him, shamelessly imagined their honeymoon, and even chose their child's name... But everything in front of her has just turned into nothing . The more she thought about it, the colder she felt, so cold that even her teeth began to chatter. When the cold was extreme, she stopped unwillingly and shouted loudly at the back that was fading away: "Xiao Xun!" He stopped when he heard the sound, but didn't look back. Sun Wan ran towards him recklessly, hugged him all at once, and burst into tears. When she was exhausted from crying and could only let out a whimper like a gossamer, he gently opened her hands that were clasped in front of him, "Don't send me off, and don't wait for me. Just pretend that you have never met before." Been to me." Sun Wan nodded vigorously. She can give him the last love, only fulfillment is left. On the day Xiao Xun left, Sun Wan didn't go to see him off.But in the few days after he left, the sound of planes roaring and taking off could be heard in her ears from time to time.That voice made her restless and confused, like the end of the world. She quickly withered away.Soon, 403 moved in a new roommate.The arrival of a new roommate filled the void left by Liya's departure. Sun Wan hated that new roommate like an intruder, but Sun Wan couldn't stop her from gradually becoming one with Ma Rui and Jiang Mingzhu, nor could she stop her from using Her traces and smell slowly wiped away Li Ya's shadow. That semester ended on a dismal note. In the summer vacation of her junior year, Sun Wan stayed at home and watched the smoky Hong Kong-style nonsensical comedies. She almost vomited, and then switched to Hollywood youth romance movies.Between watching movies, she ate potato chips and chocolate while laughing with tears in her eyes. Li Meijing, who is as shrewd as a scout, saw some clues, and asked her several times on the sidelines. Although she didn't get an accurate answer, she also had a bottom line in her heart.Probably because she was worried about her, during that time, Li Meijing stopped going out to play cards, and when she came back from work at night, she held the laptop she had asked Sun Wan to buy to watch stocks.In between looking at the stocks, she either asked Sun Wan to ask questions, or deliberately argued with her. According to the past, Sun Wan must fight her.But the tempering she has experienced in the past two years has made her grow into a person who knows good and evil. She understands that Li Meijing is caring for her and caring for her in her own way. Because of mutual understanding and tolerance, the mother and daughter did not have a single quarrel for the first time in July. At the beginning of August, Li Meijing took over a running water mat from a neighbor, and was busy buying and packing ingredients day and night. Sun Wan saw it, so she couldn't stay at home and be an idler, so she went to the store to help Li Meijing when she had time .After finally helping Li Meijing finish the banquet, Li Meijing, who was free, somehow came up with a wish - to pass on the shop to Sun Wan.For some reason, she insisted on forcing Sun Wan to learn how to cook big dishes from her. Sun Wan felt that she was pushing an inch, and her face turned black on the spot.Li Meijing didn't seem to think that there was anything wrong with letting a pair of plain hands who were supposed to "cut new oranges" kill chickens and fishes, and said like a cannonball: "Don't look down on my shop, so what about your outstanding students in A University? Isn’t it a poor job after graduation? Let me teach you to be a good boy—I’d rather sleep on the floor than be a boss. I’ve thought so thoroughly about you, yet you don’t…” Before she could finish her sentence, the costume movie that was playing on the TV had a fitting sentence, "Thank you, Lord Ron". Li Meijing pointed to the TV, "Did you hear that? Learn!" Sun Wan couldn't laugh or cry. After all, Sun Wan's slender arms couldn't touch Li Meijing's fat thighs, and she was forced out of the kitchen. After staying in the kitchen for a long time and watching too much, Sun Wan gradually got a new understanding of Li Meijing. For example, although she is a philistine, when she cooks, her movements are sharp and stretched, and her attitude is rigorous, which is quite awe-inspiring. Respect; although she is vulgar, no matter how complicated the dishes are in her hands, she can prepare them smoothly in a short period of time, which adds a bit of mastery to her looks. A week later, Sun Wan started as a pure spectator.Soon, she found joy in cooking, and spent all her time in the kitchen thinking about how to use different ingredients and seasonings to create new flavors.She was willing to spend a few hours taking out the river prawns and chopping them finely, kneading them into balls, putting them in the holes of the lotus root slices and steaming them, and she was also willing to spend a day guarding a pot of Buddha jumping over the wall.While guarding the soup, she recalled the past in the subtle tumbling sound of the soup, thinking about the hatred, grievance, pain and unwillingness lingering in her heart, as if softened by the hot soup in the pot. Melted, boiled away. She thought that although she and Xiao Xun were over, her love was not over yet.She still loves Xiao Xun, but that kind of love is no longer anxious and hot, but has become quiet and long-lasting.She didn't know how long her love for him would last, but it must be a long, long time.