Chapter 3 Chapter 3 In my lifetime, we meet on a narrow road

Zhuo Lincheng gasped, let go of her, and turned his head aside, as if he had been slapped. When Sun Wan woke up, she was so light-headed that she could barely get out of bed.She let herself sink deep in the big bed, closed her eyes and recalled the chaotic and long dream last night. She didn't want to admit it but she had to admit that she dreamed about Xiao Xun again, they were sitting in the cabin of a plane, they were relatively silent, the plane carrying only the two of them ended up taking them to different destinations.Standing on the wall of the ancient city of Xi'an in her dream, she watched the plane fly into the clouds like a white bird and fly to the distant United States.

She woke up in a great sense of loss, thinking sadly that even in the dream, they still had nothing to say to each other.After thinking about it, she fell into another dream, still in Chang'an, an empty city where Xiao Xun was no longer there, and walked into a palace aimlessly, but saw a big snake swimming towards her. The moment she was cornered, the raised snake's head suddenly turned into the appearance of Zhuo Lincheng. She was not woken up by the snake, but was scared out of the dream by Zhuo Lincheng's sudden appearance. Lying in the noon sun at this time, the coolness brought out from her dream on her body was still so clear and lasting, it couldn't dissipate.

She didn't want to be trapped in this tedious anxiety, she jumped off the bed, and walked lazily outside the door with bare feet. When passing by the dining room, she caught a glimpse of three bowls of vegetables on the dining table, but didn't take it seriously. She didn't realize something was wrong until the toothbrush was stuffed into her mouth. She returned to the dining room with the toothbrush in her mouth and saw that the table was sealed with plastic wrap. One meat, one vegetable and one soup, the big bowl in the center is filled with a bowl of green dried shrimps and beans.

With a slight movement in her mind, she raised her head and looked upstairs. After a while, she numbly withdrew her eyes and returned to the sink to continue brushing her teeth. Sun Wan has always felt that she is a person who does not stand firm. When she was in college, she followed the trend and read a few romance novels. If the heroine in it hates a man, no matter whether the man treats them with spring breeze or enthusiasm, they will never accept that man. Affection.Compared with those women, Sun Wan felt that she was vulgar.She could resist the BMW Zhuo Lincheng gave her, but she couldn't resist the small favors he gave, such as today's shrimp beans.She should have flushed them into the toilet with integrity, but at the end of the day, she thought distressedly how innocent the beans were?

When she was eating those beans, she was very pessimistic.As someone said, sometimes, love is nothing more than small favors. Many people who think they can stick to themselves and be alone are eventually moved by these small favors and disarm a man who doesn't love them. After lunch, she opened MSN, found Li Ya's profile picture, after some hesitation, typed a line and sent it: I plan to divorce Zhuo Lincheng. All these years, if it wasn't for Zhuo Lincheng's insistence, she and him would not have such a cold marriage. She is a very realistic person polished by life, knows what she needs, and never envies Cinderella in fairy tales. Who can guarantee that Cinderella who marries a prince is happy?Who can guarantee that before marrying the prince, Cinderella didn't love Zhang Xiaosan next door who can change light bulbs and cook twice-cooked pork?

At the beginning, she married him with the heart of torturing him all her life, but now, she is the one who really feels tortured.This kind of marriage is nothing but a long street of snowdrifts: it seems to be inseparable and inseparable, but in fact, as soon as the sun rises, it will turn the illusion of pink makeup and jade into embarrassing mud all over the ground.Instead of waiting for such an ugly situation, it is better to let her raise the knife and let each other face each other. Sun Wan didn't expect Li Ya to be online at one o'clock in the morning in the United States, and stared blankly at Li Ya's profile picture in a daze. The profile picture was still a photo of her life that she took five years ago.

In the past five years, Li Ya has had so many beautiful photos: stills of her first supporting role in a movie; photos of her first photobook; big posters of her first advertising endorsement; many wonderful photos in the United States... Zhang Du is more dazzling and representative than this one, but she chose this one and used it for five years. Sun Wan looked at her photo, a little dazed, the bright white world in front of her eyes had ripples due to reminiscence.In the past five years, they have penetrated too closely in each other's lives, one prospered and the other suffered, and they never assumed what life would be like without each other.

But at this moment, Sun Wan was making useless assumptions, what would happen to her if she had never known Li Ya?She may never meet Zhuo Lincheng, let alone sit here and think hypocritically about "what if" as Mrs. Zhuo. To Sun Wan, Li Ya is like a raging sea, always sweeping Sun Wan to the top of the violent waves with an irresistible momentum, stirring up her life with ups and downs, and finally When withdrawing from her life, he pushed her to a shore that could never be reached... When Sun Wan was seven years old, Li Meijing took her to have a fortune-telling.The fortune-teller pinched her for a long time, saying that she had died in the past and that she had little relationship with her parents.With a lollipop in her mouth, Sun Wan stared at a pair of black and white eyes, as if she wanted to look into the fortune teller's heart.For some unknown reason, the gentleman added another sentence, but she was empty in years and months, but she could be rich.

Sun Wan has forgotten everything else, except for the phrase that her parents are not related. Sun Wan was born in Zhuocheng, near Beijing. His father, Sun Dacheng, is a middle school Chinese teacher. He is obsessed with literary creation, and he is arrogant and cynical.Mother Li Meijing is an abandoned baby picked up by a chef from a garbage dump. She didn't even finish high school and worked as a waiter in her adoptive father's restaurant. She is a gaudy philistine.Such a pair of men and women who seemed to have no intersection were finally bound together by Yuelao with a red thread.

At first, Sun Dacheng liked Li Meijing's youthful beauty, but Li Meijing loved her husband who ate the country's grain, and at the moment they were deeply in love with each other. However, the initial love was still due to firewood, rice, oil, salt and their different views. With the tide of reform and opening up in the 1990s, Li Meijing, who had seen too many small traders and became rich overnight, began to dislike Sun Dacheng for being poor and dull-minded. will make money.Sun Dacheng is also tired of her philistine vulgarity. For some reason, Sun Wan's childhood was almost spent in quarrels between her parents.

In order to prove to each other that their values ​​are correct, the couple adopted extremely different methods on the issue of educating Sun Wan.Sun Dacheng's ambition is to train his beautiful and lovely daughter into a learned lady. He either teaches her Tang poetry and Song Ci, or tells her stories from various classics.Li Meijing instilled in Sun Wan the theory that money is paramount, forcing the little Sun Wan to do odd jobs in her grandfather's shop, and sent her around, hoping that her daughter would become her "golden hand" as soon as possible. Although Sun Wan inherited her mother's appearance, her temperament followed her father's, so she was not close to Lai Mei Jing. When Sun Wan was nine years old, Sun Dacheng was transferred to Beijing to teach in a middle school in Tongzhou.Sun Wan also went to Beijing with her father.Since then, Sun Dacheng and Li Meijing, who were incompatible with each other, began a veritable separated life. The days of living with her father are the most romantic time in Sun Wan's memory.Sun Dacheng, who seems dull and dull, would take Sun Wan out every weekend to experience the cultural heritage of Beijing. He would either take her to the first expo to see exhibitions, or take her to go boating in Beihai to see lotus flowers, or take Sun Wan to learn about Tanzhe Temple The bell is ringing to see what is the Xiaoyue of Lugou Bridge.Although the father and daughter are poor, they are also happy. The two like-minded people have saved up a lot of good places with high cost performance: the Xu Beihong Memorial Hall in Jishuitan does not charge money, many paintings can be seen casually, and the ink and wash treasures are even gone; the Beijing Academy of Fine Arts You can see Qi Baishi's original work, five yuan, and the air-conditioning is extremely strong; there are cheap small theaters near the Chinese opera, but they are pioneers! Sun Dacheng's precepts and deeds made Sun Wan truly realize what happiness has nothing to do with money. The closer she gets to her father, the more estranged Sun Wan and her mother are, so that every Spring Festival, when the family gets together, Sun Wan and Li Meijing have nothing to say. It's a pity that Sun Wan and Sun Dacheng's father-daughter relationship came to an abrupt end when she was fourteen years old. Sun Dacheng died suddenly of a heart attack. Li Meijing inherited Sun Dacheng's two-bedroom apartment in Beijing.After dealing with Sun Dacheng's funeral, she moved her adoptive father's restaurant to Beijing and took on the responsibility of raising her daughter by herself. However, the five-year estrangement has made the mother and daughter who were not very congenial to each other even more estranged. Living up to the expectations of the late Sun Dacheng, Sun Wan, who has entered puberty, has transformed into an upgraded version of Sun Dacheng 2.0, and has become Li Meijing's most hated literary girl. In the eyes of others, Sun Wan is eager to learn, clean and quiet. Although she is a bit indifferent, she never loses etiquette.But Li Meijing couldn't see these advantages of Sun Wan at all, and only felt that her daughter's too deep and calm eyes were aggressive, even hostile, as if she was provoking her authority at any time.She didn't like, and even hated such a proud daughter, so she used a series of scheming methods to destroy her daughter's pride. She first forced Sun Wan to go to the barber shop to have a men's cut on the grounds that washing her long hair wasted water and shampoo, and then excused her family's financial constraints and stopped buying Sun Wan a new dress. In order to make the excuse of "family poverty" more real, Li Meijing set an example and no longer bought any clothes for herself.From the second year of junior high school to the third year of high school, Sun Wan wore her mother's old clothes and trousers. Because of the big difference in body size, those clothes were either too bulky for Sun Wan, or the styles were outdated and ridiculous.The classmates often make fun of her clothes, whether her flowered vest looks like a Xinjiang girl's jacket, or that she can dance hip-hop. What makes Sun Wan even more embarrassed is that she only has a pair of "Spider" brand men's black sneakers, which she wears endlessly throughout the year. When holes are worn out on the uppers, she uses black thread to fill them up and wear them again.So much so that when she was talking to boys, her eyes were always wandering, her expression was reserved, and she wished she hadn't finished speaking, and disappeared completely before his eyes noticed her shoes. Sun Wan, who was generous and demure when she was young, gradually died in these trivial details. Sun Wan has a spirit of resistance since the first year of high school. A normal girl's physical development tends to mature by the high school stage, and she must wear a bra to avoid the embarrassment of bumps.Li Meijing has never bought a bra for Sun Wan, and let her go into battle in a vacuum without hesitation—what are you afraid of, anyway, she either wears a school uniform all year round or wears those clothes that are big enough to cover the ups and downs of her chest. The ignorant Sun Wan didn't realize that she should wear a bra until the end of the first semester of high school. Because the weather was too hot, she found a pink short-sleeved T-shirt with a strawberry pattern that her father bought for her back then, and put it on. It goes to school. As a result, men and women with strange expressions stared at her along the way. At first, she thought that she was dirty somewhere, so she lowered her head in embarrassment.After finally getting to the classroom, many male and female students also looked at her with that kind of evasive and weird eyes. After one class, her Chinese teacher, a mild-tempered middle-aged man finally couldn't bear to call his "love general" out of the door, he hesitated several times before saying: "Sun Wan, will you A little underdressed? I mean, a little cold." Confused, Sun Wan quickly waved her hands and said it was not cold, but the male teacher couldn't point it out, so after hesitating for a while, she said vaguely: "It's better for students to dress plainly, it's good for you to dress like you used to, these overly flamboyant clothes, or Don't wear it anymore. Besides, it's too small... Go back and ask your mother to buy you some big clothes, and remember to tell her that I told you." In the end, a female classmate in Sun Wan's class couldn't bear it, so she went to a market near the school at noon to buy a cheap cotton bra, and took Sun Wan to the women's restroom to ask her to change it.This female classmate is Li Ya, Sun Wan's best friend from now on. Knowing how much she lost, Sun Wan's pride and self-confidence were completely torn apart.From then on, she never dared to raise her head to look at any boy. Whenever it came to Chinese class, she felt like she was sitting on pins and needles.Her eyes no longer have the same longing for beauty, the future, and freedom in her eyes, and she no longer dares to examine and criticize vulgarity, falsehood, and ugliness. After finally making it to the second division of high school, she was outstanding in arts and sciences and resolutely chose liberal arts, because then she could stay away from her male classmates and the humiliating memories of her first year in high school. She finally realized the horror of poverty, and began to envy her classmates' walkmans, envying that they could wear the "famous brand" Metersbonwe, and envying that they could take off their shoes and weigh themselves during the physical examination, because every time she She has to rack her brains to escape the medical examination, and she can't show her socks with different colors and several holes in front of all the teachers and students! She began to ask her mother for new socks and new clothes, but without exception, all she got was Li Meijing's crying and complaining.After Sun Wan accepted this statement, she no longer made any material demands on her. However, an accident before the college entrance examination completely overturned Sun Wan's cognition and completely destroyed her little trust and dependence on Li Meijing. Before the college entrance examination, the school requires candidates to apply for an ID card.Sun Wan mentioned this matter to Li Meijing several times, but was forgotten by Li Meijing, who was busy with the restaurant business.When the teacher issued an ultimatum to Sun Wan, it happened that Li Meijing was away from Beijing due to business. In desperation, Sun Wan decided to take her household registration book to the police station to apply for an ID card. She went into her mother's bedroom, and started searching for the household registration book without thinking, but no matter how hard she searched, she couldn't find the dark red book.In desperation, she had no choice but to clear out all the clothes in her mother's closet, only then did she discover that there was a hidden compartment in the back of the closet.She got into the closet, opened the secret compartment, and finally found the household registration book, all the family documents, passbooks, and... ten gold bars. The eighteen-year-old Sun Wan is no longer an ignorant child. She knows the market value of those gold bars, and even more knows what the numbers on the passbook are. She maintained a half-kneeling posture, with her hands hanging stiffly at her sides, staring blankly at the world in the dark grid, staring until her eyes were swollen and astringent, and then she turned her head to look at the balcony outside the bedroom dumbly. On the balcony, she could barely open her eyes under the bright white summer sun, and two pairs of her red underwear with holes were hung on a long rusted wire. Such blazing white sunlight, such dazzling red, seemed to be baked into her brain, as long as she closed her eyes, that scene would appear in front of her eyes, never fading. Sun Wan never exposes the truth of the so-called family poverty, but only adds a little coldness in her heart. The fortune-teller was also tongue-in-cheek, and it was an understatement that he had lost her parental relationship. After graduating from high school, Sun Wan was unsurprisingly admitted to University A, one of the top universities in China. During the summer vacation after the college entrance examination, Sun Wan worked several jobs and earned two thousand yuan before the university started. Then she took the money to the zoo wholesale market and bought a lot of forty or fifty yuan. The clothes that I have entered the school. University A is only a two-hour drive away from her home in Tongzhou, but Sun Wan, who lives on campus, tries to avoid going home and devotes all her energy to studying and working to earn money. She was fed up with poverty, fed up with dusty clothes, and fed up with her youth of inferiority and cringe.She vowed that she would live a new life on her own, and be her true self. From the age of nineteen to twenty-four, she fulfilled her promise to herself step by step, she had a decent life and a decent social status, and she was never timid and miserable because of anything, and she grew into what her father expected.It's just that she doesn't know when she started hoarding socks and underwear-only by piling up dozens of high-end socks and underwear can she get a kind of weird peace in her heart. Sun Wan and Li Ya's friendship began with a cotton bra worth ten yuan seven years ago.The real connection came after college. Sun Wan and Li Ya were admitted to University A with tied first scores.The two of them are not in the same department, and the reasoning is that they should never meet each other since then. Unexpectedly, in the reform of A major that year, a cross-faculty and cross-professional "mix-and-match" arrangement was adopted for freshmen's dormitory. Degree and complementary students are arranged in the same dormitory, so that freshmen can get in touch with students from different majors and expand their social circle.Because of this arrangement, Sun Wan from the Journalism Department and Li Ya from the Psychology Department were in the same dormitory. After registering at the university, Sun Wan saw Li Ya, whom she had not seen for a long time, at the door of the dormitory.When Li Ya saw her, she was taken aback for a moment, then turned her eyes slightly, and showed her a coquettish smile. Behind Li Ya, a slightly fat, rough-looking fat boy was making the bed for her.When Sun Wan was in high school, she heard that Li Ya had a loyal second-generation rich boyfriend who not only served her as her servant, but also took over all her expenses.Seeing this scene this time, that fat boy should be the legendary boyfriend of Li Ya. Except for Li Ya, Sun Wan's other two roommates are from Jiangxi, one is Ma Rui and the other is Jiang Mingzhu.After everyone in the room had stopped tossing and tossing, Sun Wan slowly crawled to the only remaining upper bunk and packed it up. On the first night of freshman year, the four girls show deliberate politeness to each other. Everyone had polite smiles on their faces, but privately they speculated about each other's background and temperament with their eyes.Soon, Ma Rui and Jiang Mingzhu formed a united front due to similar life backgrounds, and they were so familiar that they wished to call each other sisters.Out of women's instincts, they unanimously called Li Ya, who is charming and charming, and who has had ambiguous phone conversations with different people since nightfall, as a different kind.At the same time, they felt that the taciturn Sun Wan was a good master to win over, and they unanimously showed her hospitality, hoping to turn the four-point world into a pattern of ruling across the river, with many bullies and widows. It is reasonable for them to dislike Li Ya. Compared with their disheveled face, Li Ya, who always wears a gorgeous dark red nightgown in the dormitory and sprays the small nest with real self perfume like a Sephora counter, looks like a flower. Plump and attractive Chilean red cherries.They can't look down on Li Ya's pretentious appearance of wearing an expensive facial mask every day and listening to Kunqu opera in the dormitory; they can't look down on her pretentious gesture of playing the tea ceremony with orchid fingers in the dormitory when she is free; Not knowing which pair to wear is insolent. But women are a kind of strange animal, the more you can't see it, the more you can't help but want to see it. In the end, the two of them simply called Li Ya "Bitch" behind their backs. Sun Wan is a person who is good at summarizing. She summed up all their criticisms of Li Ya in two sentences: 1. Li Ya is really a bitch who even asks men for facial cleanser!2. Just such a Bitch who always reads the English version of Hegel in the dormitory. They felt that Li Ya had not only insulted the women in University A, but also insulted Hegel. Unlike Ma Rui and Jiang Mingzhu, Sun Wan didn't bother to criticize others at all.Being deeply constrained by Li Meijing's economy, she understands better than her pampered peers what is meant by "the economic base determines the superstructure".In order to realize those lofty pursuits in her heart as soon as possible, she plunged into the eyes of money with the body of a younger sister Lin, and started her own entrepreneurial road. She used the money she saved from working in the summer vacation of her third year of high school and the living expenses of the first month to wholesale silk stockings, quick warmers, plastic basins, etc., and set up a street stall outside the school while it was dark.Since the items catered to freshmen, they quickly sold out, bringing her a tidy profit. Next, the quick-witted Sun Wan discovered a new business opportunity.Sushi was very popular in those two years. Sun Wan taught herself how to make various kinds of sushi online. Every day, she secretly cooked a pot of rice with a small rice cooker, made sushi in the dormitory, and sold it at the breakfast stand outside the school the next morning. superior.In addition, she also worked part-time as a mobile campus agent, running around in various phone businesses every day. Three months of hard work bought her four second-hand computers. After the computer arrived, Sun Wan firmly treated the three roommates to a big meal, and asked them to allow her to open a small Internet cafe in the dormitory, and promised again and again that the business would be closed an hour before the lights were turned off.What she offered in return was that the three of them could use her computer at will when there were no guests. When Sun Wan was in college, computers were still a luxury.For Ma Rui and the others, it is quite cost-effective to sacrifice a little quietness for free access to the Internet at any time, so Sun Wan's small Internet cafe was secretly opened in Building 5. However, the four girls of the same age use the Internet in very different ways.Qian Chuan Zisun Wan mainly uses the Internet to learn how to speculate in stocks, Ma Rui and Jiang Mingzhu are keen on online chatting and audition dance troupe, Li Ya has registered a website for marriage and dating, and posts beautiful photos of herself on it, attracting the attention of the website. Men fall under her alluring looks like crucian carp crossing the river. As a result, her weekly appointments suddenly increased, and the phone number in the dormitory was turned into a hotline by various men looking for her. One day, as soon as Li Ya's front feet were blown out by a gust of fragrant wind, Jiang Mingzhu ran to the corridor with her back feet to keep an eye on her. A few minutes later, Jiang Mingzhu came back with an angry expression on her face, "Get in a Daben! Sooner or later you'll be trapped, mistress!" Ma Rui immediately answered in a strange way: "What do you mean playing with a man? That's it! You see, she is so flamboyant outside, and her boyfriend is so determined, she wants to give her his heart. And her C The big brother-in-law clearly knows that she has a boyfriend, and he still has a face of unswerving love! This pair of god-brothers are just in love with each other under everyone's noses, and that's it, her rich second-generation benefactor is not jealous, Smiling and following behind to serve! What is this called?" Everyone in the dormitory knew that there were two boys beside Li Ya, one was her short, rich and ugly boyfriend Mo Kun, and the other was her tall, poor, handsome, godfather Ji Feng.The weird relationship that anyone with a discerning eye would know at a glance, was handled by Li Ya in a seamless manner. Sun Wan, who was writing a part-time resume, was so noisy that she glanced at them several times, and finally bit her lip, pretending not to hear. Sun Wan originally thought that the next four years would be spent in their relentless attacks on Li Ya, but after more than a month, she suddenly found that the wind direction in the dormitory had changed!Not only did Ma Rui and Jiang Mingzhu no longer reject Li Ya, but they became her loyal followers. As long as Li Ya was in the dormitory, they would always talk and laugh around her. If Li Ya didn't go back to the dormitory one night, she would look disappointed , seems to have lost the focus of life. Sun Wan was a little confused about the situation, and thus became curious about Li Ya like never before. What kind of charm does she have? Not only does she make the men around her docile, but even two people who hate her so much can be taken under her command. ? So, Sun Wan began to study Li Ya calmly. She does not deny that Li Ya is a great beauty, but in all fairness, Li Ya's appearance is not without flaws: her eyes are too wide, long and soft, if you don't put on serious eye makeup, it will give people a feeling of blurred eyes Godless feeling.In addition, the tip of her nose is extremely thin and pointed, which makes that face even more seductive like a fox.With such a face, she pretended to be pure and innocent.It can be said that her face is the passport to any man's heart. Li Ya is very good at using small favors when dealing with women.Whenever she has a meal outside, she will bring back a snack for her roommate when she comes back that night, sometimes it is a box of pastries, sometimes it is a packed KFC family bucket, and sometimes it is some prunes.Although these small favors are nothing, but she insisted on giving them for many years, and slowly they finally touched the hearts of Ma Rui and the others.Although women are all jealous of beautiful men of the same sex, subconsciously they have a kind of slavishness towards those overly dazzling beauties.If this beauty is willing to show an approachable side, the same sex around her will be very grateful. At the same time, Li Ya is a gossip queen full of wit and wit.She is familiar with the hobbies and scandals of the leaders and mentors in the school.There is also a database of celebrities from A University in her mind. No matter what topic is talked about, she is familiar with it, and she can say a lot of witty words.May I ask which woman does not like to listen to gossip?Who would refuse to be a Jiang Hu Bai Xiaosheng? After winning the hearts of people of the same sex, Li Ya will use a killer trick - to assimilate the people around her silently.She always seems to have infinite enthusiasm to help people around her improve their image. Whenever she is free, she is busy helping Ma Rui with eyebrow trimming and making facial masks, or teaching Jiang Mingzhu how to dress.She has countless theories that are crooked in Sun Wan's opinion, such as "women are not bad and men don't love", "women who can't make up have no future", "women who are not smart can't get a man's sincerity" and so on.Ma Rui and Jiang Mingzhu were gradually brainwashed by her, and they tried their best to get close to her in dressing, talking and doing things, and finally developed to make her a spiritual godmother, wishing to worship her. After seeing through Li Ya's methods, Sun Wan labeled her as a dangerous person and always reminded herself to stay away from this woman.However, no matter how much she resisted, Li Ya still extended her "devil's claws" to her. One night in mid-December, as soon as Sun Wan, who had just returned from self-study, entered the dormitory gate, she saw Jiang Mingzhu standing on tiptoe against the wall with a book on her head. On the side, Li Ya, who was wearing a scarlet nightdress, said while eating oranges: "This is the best way to lose weight, and it also improves your posture. You listen to me, if you persist like this for a month, you will definitely be in better shape than me." Seeing Sun Wan coming in, Li Ya stretched out her hand and handed the orange to her with a smile, and pouted her mouth to signal her to eat. Sun Wan shook her head and smiled, then turned and went to the balcony to wash up.As soon as the facial cleanser was applied on her face, Li Ya pushed the door in, stood behind her and said, "My dear, washing your face like this is too rough, and you will get wrinkles. Look at your face, it's almost dry into a desert Alright, I'll make you a moisturizing mask later." Sun Wan pursed her lips and said lightly, "No need, I'm used to it." After all, she simply avoided her and walked into the bathroom. When she came out of the bathroom lingeringly, she thought that Li Ya's attention was no longer on her, but as soon as she stepped into the bedroom, she saw Li Ya handing her a can of mask in front of her, with a graceful smile, her eyes brightened. He said deeply: "This sleeping mask was brought by my little Kunkun from Hong Kong. It is especially moisturizing. Take it and use it." Sun Wan was overwhelmed by the disturbance, with a cold face, she said patiently: "Thank you for your kindness, I am not used to using cosmetics." After finishing speaking, she quickly climbed to the upper bunk, took the phone, found Li Ya's name, and sent a text message: I'm not interested in losing weight, I don't have time to listen to gossip, I'm not used to eating late at night, and I don't like being manipulated.So please respect my personality and don't force me to like you too. After the lights were turned off, Sun Wan received a reply from Li Ya: Honey, did you send the wrong message? Comes with an extremely cute smiley icon. Due to equal emotional intelligence, the relationship between Sun Wan and Li Ya has been fighting and unbreakable. However, the two of them finally tore their faces because of a trivial matter, and a tit-for-tat "hot war" took place. That Christmas, Sun Wan studied alone until the library was closed.On the way back to the dormitory, Sun Wan was infected by the sporadic neon lights, fireworks, and lively atmosphere on campus.She looked at the passing couples wearing Santa hats with bright eyes, envious of them because of their loneliness and coldness. She had just walked to the back of the dormitory when she suddenly heard an ambiguous moan coming from a corner not far away.Sun Wan, who was in a trance, was startled, and subconsciously followed the sound. Behind her, a car light happened to follow her gaze. Sun Wan took a breath and froze: in the corner, Li Ya was with Her godbrother kissed affectionately, they were very close, Li Ya closed her eyes tightly, her face was blushing. Sun Wan tried to escape, but Li Ya felt something and opened her eyes.When she found that Sun Wan was looking at them, she pushed away the person in front of her in extreme embarrassment, and looked at Sun Wan with dodge eyes. The two looked at each other, but Sun Wan calmed down and stared at Li Ya with contempt, as if she saw something extremely dirty. Sun Wan didn't go back to the dormitory directly, but went around to the school's artificial lake, where the cold wind blew for a long time. Although she knew that she had no position to criticize Li Ya's behavior, her moral sense made it impossible for her to ignore such ugly things. When Sun Wan returned to the dormitory, the three of them had already returned to the dormitory, sitting at the table and eating melon seeds. Seeing Sun Wan coming in, Li Ya greeted with a smile: "Cream watermelon seeds, I remember someone's favorite, come quickly." It's hard for her to act like nothing happened just now. Sun Wan glared at her coldly, did not speak, and turned back to the corridor. Outside the guardrail of the corridor is the night view of most of the campus.It was snowing outside. Li Ya also came out, she laughed, "What a beautiful snow." As usual, Sun Wan just looked outside. "Sun Wan, you can't do this to me!" Li Ya was inexplicably angry. Sun Wan turned her head and glanced at her, "I can't do it, and you can't even say anything to me." "But you have 'Li Ya is an adulteress' written on your face! I feel uncomfortable seeing your face!" Li Ya drank a little too much, her tone was drunk.After a night of carnival, the makeup on her face was worn away, but she was still young and beautiful, just like a white magnolia flower that fell into the gutter, it was still white and flawless after washing. "It's your own guilty conscience." Sun Wan was not polite at all. "What do you know! Ji Feng is my boyfriend who has been in love for three years!" Li Ya's jaw twitched slightly, and Sun Wan was startled by her resentful eyes. "Ji Feng and I grew up together. We have been together since the first year of high school. But who told him that he was too poor? Mo Kun chased me for three years, and he paid all my high school tuition fees for three years. But I can't help it." Loyal to him, I don't love him, he's too ugly." There was silence in the corridor, occasionally a girl's laughter could be faintly heard. Li Ya stared straight at Sun Wan, "I know you have always looked down on me and disliked me, but I really like you. To a certain extent, you and I are very similar, and we both know what we want better than others. What do you want. Why can't you face me up and accept me like Ruirui and the others? Why can't we be friends. " Sun Wan looked into her eyes coldly and said, "Li Ya, you can't get everything." After that, she turned around and walked to the dormitory.Li Ya's mocking voice suddenly came from behind, "If I tell you, I'm still a virgin now, would you believe it or not?" Sun Wan's footsteps stopped for a moment, without turning her head, she said, "I'm not interested in this." "I often sleep with Mo Kun, but he never touches me. I said I was afraid of pain, felt that it was disgusting, and didn't want to, so he didn't force me, and endured it by myself." Sun Wan didn't move.Although she didn't understand how depressing it meant to a grown man, she still felt that Mo Kun was quite remarkable.She turned her head, looked at her fixedly, and murmured: "Li Ya, no one in this world is really stupid than anyone else. Isn't it interesting that you ruin other people's sincerity like this?" Li Ya's expression froze, and a trace of worry slipped through her eyes, so fast that Sun Wan thought she was dazzled. "Let me tell you a story." Li Ya put her hands together and sat on the railing, "There was a girl, her family was very good when she was young, her father was an official, and her mother had her own clothing store. The girl is not only beautiful, And she was good at studying, and she was the pride of heaven in everyone's eyes. But when that little girl entered junior high school, everything changed. Her father raised a mistress outside, kicked off his wife, and married that mistress. Maybe it's retribution. Ever since he married his mistress, that man has been unlucky. Not to mention his official career, he even got terminally ill. That mistress will definitely not follow him again and run away with his money. " Li Ya smiled wryly, shaking her calves pretending to be relaxed, "There are always some women in this world who are so stupid to bubbly, such as the man's original partner, who turned around when they heard that he was terminally ill and the money was stolen. Take care of him. First sold the house, then sold the clothing store, just to help the man survive. Without the clothing store, the woman went to set up a street stall, selling fruits in the market during the day, and going to lively places at night Rubbing clothes. How beautiful she used to be, with a slender figure and fair skin, she was a flower in the government compound, but after two or three years, she was as rough as any vegetable seller you saw in the vegetable market!" At this point, Li Ya's voice choked up. Sun Wan knew from the very beginning that Li Ya was telling her own story. Although she spoke plainly, Sun Wan still grasped the deep pain beneath her words very sensitively. "It's so stupid! If I didn't hit someone, I would have to set off firecrackers to celebrate." Li Ya said with a sneer, but her tone was a little sad. Sun Wan looked at Li Ya with a complicated expression. After a long time, Li Ya said softly: "Sun Wan, I need money, a lot of money, I want to buy Sk-II for my mother, let her remarry beautifully, I want to replace the kidney of that stinky man... I want Many, many things, but I can't live like you. My lifelong dream is to appear on the big screen and let people see my beauty and my artistic talent. Beauty and art need to be nourished by a refined life...you understand. " The way she speaks is like performing a stage play, full of emotions and tension, and it is easy to empathize with her.Sun Wan admitted that she was moved by her.She disagrees with her values, but she doesn't intend to judge her from any moral height.Li Meijing often said a word to her: cats have cat ways, dogs have dog ways.Sun Wan didn't like Li Meijing, so she only agreed with her words. “孙菀，与其说我们很像，不如说，你和我妈很像。每次看见你忙着赚钱摆地摊，我都会想起我妈。你可不可以试着相信，我对你没有恶意，我是真的真的想对你好一点。” 孙菀想了半天，不置可否地哦了一声。 所谓不破不立，那个晚上后，孙菀和厉娅势成水火的关系开始有所缓解。孙菀是个善于对别人的遭遇感同身受的人，虽然厉娅左右逢源是很可耻，但她的人生也有自己的特色。每个人都有自己的路要走，也有自己走路的方式，她没有立场因价值观不合就敌视厉娅。 几次集体活动接触下来，孙菀渐渐对厉娅有所改观。厉娅此人虽功利又做作，却从无伤人之心；她虽比较强势，但委实是个古道热肠的人；她虽看似懒散，却又目光长远，步步为营。 有天，孙菀好奇地问她，既然想做大明星，为什么不去考中戏、北电，反而去学临床心理学。 厉娅神秘一笑，她自认表演天赋超过一般演员，之所以学习心理学，就是想以后能够更深入地了解角色的内心，知道怎样更深刻地诠释角色。她的目标可不是当花瓶，而是纽约大学的表演系，以及好莱坞的星光大道。 日后，等孙菀看到80后女星娜塔莉·波特曼在最当红时急流勇退，去哈佛大学心理学系进修，然后凭心理惊悚片《黑天鹅》勇夺奥斯卡影后时，不禁更加钦服厉娅的高瞻远瞩。 她二人正式结下深刻友情源于大一寒假。 那年寒假，孙菀和黎美静总为鸡毛蒜皮的事情吵架。吵到大年初一晚上，孙菀终于忍不住摔门而出。 走在空荡荡的北京街头，孙菀忽然倍觉孤单，特别想找个人说说话。她掏出手机，把通讯录看了一遍，鬼使神差地拨通了厉娅的电话。因为放假前，她隐约听说厉娅一个人住在外面。 厉娅听她幽幽抱怨完，只说了一句话：“赶紧打车到我家来，有饺子吃，有沙发睡！” 孙菀居然也就去了，一去就是十几天。那十几天里，两人没事儿就去压马路、找美食、逛庙会，渐渐无话不说起来。 与厉娅成为闺蜜之后，孙菀经常有意无意地流露出对厉娅脚踩两条船的介怀，每逢这时，厉娅都只是云淡风轻地说，上帝给了女人两只脚，除了用来走路，就是用来劈腿的。气得孙菀恨不得当场和她断交。 然而这世间有条颠扑不破的真理——脚踩两条船的人最终都会掉进水里，哪怕那个人是滴水不漏的厉娅。 莫昆终究还是撞见了她与季枫热吻的情景，盛怒之下和季枫打了一架，之后还甩了厉娅一个耳光。厉娅万没有想到，一向把她奉若女神的莫昆居然敢打她，于是平静地提出了分手。而厉娅也寒心于季枫竟缩在一旁，完全不敢上前帮她，好像他们的感情真的是见不得光的偷欢。 厉娅很潇洒地对孙菀她们说：“也好，两个一起甩，下次我去钓个真正的高富帅，就什么都有了！”走出那段三角恋后，厉娅将全部精力都投进高富帅资源的挖掘中。 四月的一天，厉娅神神秘秘地拿着一本小册子在孙菀面前一晃。 孙菀问是什么，她小声说是通过特殊渠道弄来名校“二代”名册。孙菀拿来一看，小册子做得还很专业，每个“二代”照片旁都有详尽的资料，家里是干什么的，身价保守估计有多少，开什么车，喜好什么，经常出没的地方有哪些。 没到一个礼拜，厉娅就春风满面地对孙菀说，她和册子上排名前三的某只“金龟”接上头了。 “赵瀚啊！居然被我钓上了！他爹当年是靠卖治皮肤病的软膏发家的，现在年年上福布斯，神话里的神话！”厉娅说得两眼放光，“他就是一绝对的金龟，这回我得下血本钓上他。” 孙菀正在搓衣服，头也不抬地说：“是个女人都能在一个礼拜里勾搭得上的男人，我觉得不怎么靠谱。” 厉娅睨了她一眼，“什么叫是个女人？你会不会说话。” 孙菀没有接茬，将搓好的衣服丢在脸盆里。 厉娅拿涂着鲜红蔻丹的食指戳了戳她，“别洗衣服了，晚上陪我去参加一个Party吧，衣服我给你准备好了。” 孙菀恹恹地说：“不去。” “不去你一定会后悔！开Party的地方在万乘，超牛的一家私人会所，里面的会员全是名校在读的二代们，金字塔尖尖上那一小撮精英男，你不想去见识见识？”见孙菀还是不为所动，她有些急了，撒娇说：“跟你说实话吧，我和赵瀚还没熟到可以单独约会见面的地步，所以他才选了一个朋友办生日派对的契机，叫我去万乘玩。说真心话，让我一个人和他去那种地方，我有些发怵。他那个人阴阳怪气的……老孙啊，你就陪陪我嘛！” 话说到这个份儿上，孙菀没了推拒的余地，擦干净手，“衣服呢。” 厉娅放下心来，将她推进宿舍，找了自己的一条中长礼服给她。孙菀正欲拿衣服去换，却被厉娅按坐在椅子上，“仔细一看，你是一点打扮都不会，眉都不修一下。” 她从化妆包里拿出一把剃眉刀，飞快地在孙菀眉上修剪起来。片刻后，她望着孙菀的脸怔了一下，孙菀顺着她的眼睛往镜子里看去，不禁也有些愣神，虽然只是眉目间的修整，却有种拨云见月的效果，使她整个人透出焕然一新的清丽。 厉娅拿着剃眉刀，左右端详了她一下说：“老孙，其实你比我漂亮，只是不收拾，看着糙一点、涩一点而已。” 孙菀知道她在拿自己开涮，但没往心里去，抱着那中式礼服去卫生间换了。临镜自照了一会儿，再看看正在描眉的、盛装华服的厉娅，觉得自己惨淡得像一抹青烟。 入夜时分，她二人等到了金龟赵瀚的法拉利。 车门刚一打开，一大捧猩红的玫瑰先持花人一步递到了厉娅面前，继而，一双冰冷如蛇的眼睛从花下抬了起来。 孙菀头一次见这个赵瀚就吓了一跳，无怪厉娅说怕他，这人长着一张粗糙的国字脸，不管怎么笑，一双三角眼里都透着阴鸷。 孙菀有些底气不足，瞟了一眼厉娅，见她眉眼含情，笑意盈盈，两只梨涡甜得醉人，却在眼神里透着点骄矜。她一向都很懂得怎么拿捏分寸，控制关系的进展。 及至上车，孙菀与那捧玫瑰坐在后排，总觉得心神不宁。 耳畔时不时传来厉娅甜糯的低语声，以及赵瀚的大笑声。堵车的间隙，孙菀瞥见赵瀚将右手放在了厉娅光裸的腿上，试探性地往里游走了一下，却被厉娅挡了开去。 孙菀一张脸刷地黑了下来，对赵瀚的厌恶又多了几分。 进了万乘的大门，孙菀暗暗在心里想，单从门脸和内里的气派来说，这个会所倒也当得起“万乘之尊”的名。360度的环形落地长窗将京城夜景尽收眼底，窗外幽蓝的夜幕被璀璨的灯光映得发白，站在其间，犹如置身半空星海。仰头再去看那金碧辉煌的欧式穹顶，又如置身西方的宫廷。至于其他一应奢华设施，不过是这胜景上的锦上添花。 他们来的时间尚早，这偌大的奢华会所里，只寥寥坐着十几人，有的三五成群玩着桌游，有的在玩台球，还有一撮人坐在三壁全是书的中式会客厅里聊天。 赵瀚携着厉娅走到那会客厅里，跟那撮人打了个招呼，环着厉娅在他们附近的沙发上坐下。 孙菀只得在他们对面坐下，怎么看都觉得自己像个冒冒失失的跟班，陷在那沙发里，手不是手，脚不是脚。 很快便有侍者端来了红酒、雪茄，赵瀚接过，揽着厉娅的肩膀，凑近她的耳朵说：“知道我为什么带你们来这里坐着吗。” 厉娅不动声色地远离了他一点，笑望着他说：“不知道，有什么特别的。” “带你来开开眼呗！别看这个会客厅不大，最顶级的东西都在里面了。”赵瀚拍了拍沙发扶手，用无比优越的口吻说：“看到对面那四扇紫檀雕木门了吗？是从一个王爷家搬来的，贵啊！看看脚下这地毯，是一小块一小块杂色兽皮拼成的花开富贵，你再看看那边的古代灯、香炉、桌子椅子，架子上的瓶瓶罐罐，不怕告诉你，都是以前皇家的摆件。” 孙菀眼皮一抬，瞄了他一眼，心里冷冷地嗤了一声。这些男人，见惯了眼皮子浅的女人，以为开辆好点的车，带女人吃一次龙虾，就可以为所欲为，一个个忙不迭地用钱砸女人。孙菀倒是在电视上见过摆阔泡妞的，但是像他这样连泡妞都要借花献佛的人，也算是朵奇葩了。 说到天花乱坠处，赵瀚又旁若无人地将手伸进了厉娅的大腿内侧，得寸进尺地轻轻拧了一把。 这一次，非但孙菀，连厉娅都蹙起了眉头。这样俗不可耐、臭不可闻的男人——不愧祖上是卖狗皮膏药的！ 厉娅暂时不愿意和他撕破脸，故意站起身避开他的手，貌似天真地问：“这里哪一件东西最贵。” 赵瀚一愣，没想到她会这么问。像他这种出生穷街陋巷，吃包谷面长大，一朝得势，鸡犬升天的暴发户子弟，哪里会分什么好坏东西？厉娅这样问，摆明了是要给他点难堪。他黑了脸，指着一处架子上的翡翠摆件说：“那个翡翠盘子最贵，黄金有价玉无价，那么大一个满翠的盘子，它不贵谁贵。” 这时，一直默不作声地喝着红酒的孙菀放下酒杯，不冷不热地打断他，“我看也不一定。那个一看就是新玉洗出来的满翠，仿的古款，你要喜欢，几万块也能让人洗一个出来。” 她这话一出，整个会客厅顿时静了下来，连附近那几个正在聊天的年轻人都朝她这边看了过来。 孙菀起身走到那个翡翠盘子前，有心杀他威风，目光炯炯地说：“还有，作为一个略微见过点世面的人，我想说这不是个装菜的盘子，这是个翠桃式洗，是古代人用来洗笔的。” 赵瀚被她抢白了一顿，一张脸黑得快滴出毒血来，眼睛狠戾地盯着她看。 一旁的厉娅偷笑了一下，朝孙菀比了一个胜利的手势。 年少气盛的孙菀乘胜追击，指着架子上的一幅画说：“要说最贵的，我看既轮不到什么兽皮地毯，也轮不到什么紫檀木门，而是这幅宋徽宗的真迹，如果我没记错，这是前年天价拍出去的，没想到居然在这里。” 说完，孙菀不禁在心里感谢天上的孙大成，若非他当年的悉心教养，她未必能有今天的扬眉吐气。 闻言，附近那几个年轻人纷纷议论了起来，有两个走到那个翠桃式洗前把玩，其中一个翻来覆去看了几遍，转头朝沙发上一个居主位的年轻男子说：“我说卓少，你这儿怎么还摆假货啊。” 这时，一个漫不经心的清缓男声传来，“刚学玩翡翠那年买的，以为捡了宝，送去专家那里一看，专家送了我一句话'粗制滥造，假得不能再假'。生平第一次被骗，当然要摆在这里，引以为戒。” 说完，他略略侧过头，斜了孙菀一眼，自言自语似的呢喃道：“这个小妹妹倒挺有眼力。” 孙菀回头朝他看去，惊鸿一瞥的一个照面，看见这人长着一张不动声色的冷峻容颜。 他话音刚落，几个年轻男人都笑了起来。 那笑声犹如打在赵瀚脸上，他一口喝净杯子里的红酒，闷闷地坐在沙发上。 厉娅因对他还有最后一丝希望，见他这样，心里有些过意不去，挨着他坐下，小声安抚。 她越安抚，赵瀚的火气反倒越大，胸口的起伏越见剧烈。他恼羞成怒地转过身，一把扳起厉娅的脸，狠狠朝她唇上咬去，一边咬一边将她从沙发上挟起来，往外面拖。 厉娅吓得连连惊叫，一边挣一边压着声音喊：“你干什么？放开我！” 赵瀚想借侮辱她来洗清自己所受的侮辱，骂骂咧咧道：“干什么，你不知道？你TM装什么纯。” 孙菀眼明手快地端起茶几上的红酒朝赵瀚泼去，厉声说：“先生，这是公共场合，请你放尊重些！” 孙菀虽然长得柔弱，一旦发起怒来，却自有一股慑人的凛然正气，竟顿时将赵瀚震慑住了。 赵瀚红着眼盯着孙菀那双黑白分明的冷眸，缓缓松开厉娅，继而抬手重重抹去脸上的红酒。他活动了一下下颌，忽然笑了起来。他鄙视地看了看厉娅，又看了看孙菀，“装什么装啊？女人我见多了，肯跟男人出来玩，不就是想卖个好价钱吗。” 他财大气粗地在沙发上坐下，掏出钱夹丢在茶几上，“说吧，要多少钱才肯让爷上，价钱随你们报！” 厉娅气得浑身发抖，恨不得再泼他一脸红酒。她纵横情场这么多年，虽然知道那些男人私底下都是这样的龌龊心思，但明面上，谁不把她当公主捧着、宠着，散尽千金博她一笑？ 如今受到这样的侮辱，她仿佛外衣被扒，羞愤得红了眼圈。 赵瀚得意地跷着二郎腿，吊儿郎当地说：“你以为自己多漂亮？爷我玩明星的时候，你还不知道在哪里呢。不过看你像个雏儿，耐着性子逗你玩玩而已。别演戏了，赶紧报价！六位数、七位数，随你喊！我就不信，全中国还有我上不了的妞！” 一串眼泪倏地从厉娅眼中滚落，她掩住嘴，哭着往外跑去。 孙菀刚迈开步子欲追，像想到什么，停下脚步，回头看住赵瀚，无比轻蔑地说：“也只有上辈子做过卫生巾的男人才有自信说这样的话！算你赢了！” 说着，她头也不回地朝厉娅追去。 会客厅里，看了一场精彩大戏的男人们忍了又忍，终于爆出一阵放肆的大笑。 厉娅是一路哭回寝室的。孙菀不知怎么安慰她，一路默然相陪，不时给她递上纸巾。 回到寝室，厉娅匆匆洗了个脸，倒头便缩进被子里。直到次日午后，她才红肿着两只眼睛起床。刚起床，回过神来的她就发现自己昨天走得太匆忙，竟然把包包落在了万乘的会客厅里。 她急忙让孙菀拨她的手机，手机是通的，却无人接听。她连打了几遍，见还是无人接听，只得暂时作罢。 被赵瀚重重打击了一番后，厉娅整个人都委顿了下去。她逃课缩在宿舍，无心梳妆，更加无心和别的男人约会。宅了几天后，魂不守舍的厉娅请了个长假，匆匆飞去云南丽江旅游散心。 厉娅走后，孙菀的世界顿时安静了不少。 这天周六，孙菀独自在教室为一本女性杂志做头条策划，主题叫“缘分的天空”，驾轻就熟的孙菀只花一个下午就把几个故事和相关资料准备好了，不料却卡在了一句导读语上。 她在这个阴霾欲雨的午后绞尽脑汁地想着那句导读语，口里不断喃喃念着：“缘分……缘分……缘分是……” 毫无灵感的她在纸上拼着各种有关“缘分”的妙语，却是写一句划掉一句。直到窗外大雨连连，她才停了笔，不忍卒睹地将稿纸揉成团丢进垃圾桶里，携了伞出门。 在这样一个下着大雨的周末，学区里几乎见不到学生，偌大的校园像一座沦陷了的灰色空城。 孙菀撑着伞，垂头戴上MP3的耳机，一面听歌，一面缓缓走在雨幕里。此时，全世界的喧嚣都在雨声、乐声里遁形，唯有她的脚步，仿佛踏着歌声走在琴键上。 为了多享受这一刻的宁静，她刻意选了一条回寝室最曲折的路，磨磨蹭蹭走在植满松柏的狭长小路上。在这样的雷雨天气里，路边的松柏发出极清冽的香气，她自觉怡然，便闭上了双目，悠然地边走边和着耳机里的乐声唱着歌。 How long has it been?她在心里暗想，自己有多久没有像这样舒展地享受过生活了？这么多年来，她将自己的灵魂蜷缩在冷漠、理智、坚强的外壳下，唯有在这无人之境，才敢从那个壳里探出头来，洒脱地活一回。 她正在出神地低吟浅唱着，一只手忽然拍在了她的肩膀上。 她吓得尖叫一声，如撞鬼般倏然回过头，一张异常醒目的脸隔着雨帘撞进她的视线里。她愣愣盯着那张过分英俊的脸，那不速之客蹙眉站在雨帘里，大雨从他的额头沿着眉骨、眼帘滴落，又从他高直的鼻梁滑落到他紧抿着的、刀裁般的双唇上。 见是她，那人也愣住了，片刻后，他鸦翼般的长睫毛闪了一下，唇角不自禁地勾起点笑意，“是你啊！” 他倒先一步认出她来。 孙菀惶恐而戒备地盯着他，好半天才恍惚想起，这是那天晚上在万乘有过一面之缘的卓姓男人。 她张了张嘴，指指他又指指自己，“你……我……” 他兀自伸手将她的耳机摘了下来，“你挡着我的路了，按了几次喇叭，都没听到。” 孙菀往他身后一看，果然见他身后泊着一辆还未熄火的车。她的脸骤然红了，不知道这脸红是因为被他窥见了隐私一面，还是为自己的自闭视听。她连忙退让到一边，小声说：“对不起，害你淋雨了。” 他低头轻轻笑了笑，“没事。” 说罢，他返身朝自己车里走去。 孙菀目送他发动车子从自己身边开过，默默抬手戴上耳机，继续缓步朝前走。刚走出几步，只见那辆车又停了下来，那个人再度躬身从车里出来，指着耳朵，朝她大声喊了句：“雷雨天不要听音乐，小心雷击！” 孙菀被他一语惊醒，连忙扒掉耳机，目光复杂地盯着他，连一句简单的“谢谢”都忘了。 他似笑了一下，坐回车里，绝尘而去。 孙菀恍然若梦般地站在铺天盖地的大雨里，他从闯入到离去，不过区区数十秒时间，却像一阵风般将她世界里的晦暗荡涤了去。她忽然开始相信了些什么，比如缘分。如有一道白光从她漆黑的脑海中闪过，拼凑了一下午的词汇仿佛有了生命，自动自发地在她眼前拼成了一句话：有的人，你以为不会再见，却总在山重水复后猝然相逢，算来便是有缘。 哪怕多年后他们势成水火、针锋相对，孙菀都未否认过她和卓临城有缘。只可惜这种缘，并不是“郎有情，妾有意”的正缘，而是一种没有结局的相遇。否则，她就不会在遇见他后，又遇到萧寻——那个居住在她灵魂深处，挥不去、忘不掉，却也无法重拾的人。