Chapter 63 1. Who's Who's Choice

(one) Liu Yun met Su Weiming when she was twenty-three, and she was only twenty-four when she married him. Not many people found it strange that she was "filling in a house" for a widowed man who was fourteen years older than her and had a three-year-old son.Because Su Weiming's excellence is too obvious, while Liu Yun's youth and beauty are not dazzling in comparison. Thirty-eight years old, he comes from a prominent family, has a successful career, is personable, and exudes the charm of a mature man in every move. The slightly gloomy color between his eyebrows fascinates the girl whose emotional life is close to blank. Love is inevitably mixed with adoration.

But marrying such a man is actually not romantic at all.There is a father-in-law in an important position and a picky mother-in-law to serve; there is a naughty boy who just went to kindergarten to take care of, and she has no chance to breathe, so she has to learn to be a mother, and even be more careful than the mother. If there is a little carelessness, there will be comments like "after all, she is a stepmother". And that excellent husband, with a deep personality, is really obsessed with work and takes everything she does for granted. Liu Yun never regretted her choice, especially when her stepson Su Jie was eight years old, she became pregnant.After five years of lovingly caring for a boy who kept calling her Auntie, she finally had her chance to be a real mother.

Su Weiming was not excited when he heard the news, he only frowned slightly: "Do you have to give birth?" Liu Yun was irritated for the first time: "Don't you want this child?" "Since you have one, let's give birth, I hope it will be a girl." Su Weiming said reassuringly, not wanting to provoke a quarrel. In fact, they had never quarreled since they got married.Liu Yun never violated his will, he was satisfied with his docile wife. If she had a choice, Liu Yun would be willing to follow her husband's will and have a daughter, but God obviously doesn't take Su Weiming's will for granted like she does.

Su Zhe was born, and Su Jie glanced at his younger brother, but he didn't feel any disgust.Su Weiming became a father again after the age of 40. He was not as excited as he was the first time. Looking at his crying little son, he smiled at Su Jie: "I wanted to add a younger sister to you, but a younger brother is also good." Even the grandparents commented "it's okay."Liu Yun hugged the little baby tightly, thinking, no, he is not "okay", for me, he is the only one and the best. Su Zhe grew up slowly and was not close to his father Su Weiming at all.Su Weiming was a bit ironic, and asked his wife: "Does this kid have any grudges against me? If I say east, he will go west without saying a word; if I say south, he will go north without looking back. It's not like your character at all." .”

Liu Yun smiled, not intending to restrain her son, even though restraining herself has become a long-standing habit: "Why do boys have to be like me, isn't it better to be like you?" Su Weiming could only admit that it made sense.The eldest son Su Jie has a flamboyant personality and looks more like his biological mother.The second son, Su Zhe, combined the advantages of both parents' appearance and was an eye-catching child.As for personality, at present, he only thinks that this child is already too assertive at such a young age, and sometimes he looks at people quietly and coldly, which really resembles him.

Only Liu Yun knew that Su Zhe didn't intend to oppose his father, he just felt that everything his mother did was worthless. In this family, her son probably only noticed her grievance, hard work and loneliness.He didn't think her dedication was worthwhile, so he chose to be indifferent to his father and everyone in the family. When Su Zhe grew up, he once asked his mother, "Do you regret your choice back then?" Liu Yun smiled and shook her head: "Azhe, you still don't understand mom. After seeing your father, I have no other choice." No choice?Su Zhe sneered slightly at this statement, and he immediately decided that he would refuse to let himself fall into a life without choices in the future.

When he was in high school, his father was unwilling to be restricted by his grandfather, so he decided to move the company to Shenzhen.His mother had already started the transfer procedures for him, but he said plainly: "I want to finish high school here." He studied in a key middle school in the province, with good teachers and conditions.His father thought for a while, and felt that it was a good thing for boys to become independent earlier, so he agreed. Liu Yun thought, instead of letting their father and son get bored with each other, it would be better to let his son study here. He has always come here with his own ideas, and there is his sister and family here to help take care of him, so there is nothing to worry about.

Su Zhe began to live the life he wanted to live, and almost every step was carried out according to his own choice.He did not take the university exam his father wanted him to fill in, but stayed in the local area for further studies; he did not go to study in the UK according to his father's wish, but went to the United States; he did not work in his father's company after graduation, but chose a job in his My father seems to be working for others in an idle, life-wasting errand. He became an outsider of the family, only staying there during the holidays. It seems that his half-brother Su Jie, who is more self-willed and troublesome than him, is walking the road of satisfying his father all the way.Su Jie studied management at university and joined his father's company after graduation. He quickly showed his talents and became his right-hand man.In terms of private life, he had a period of absurd indulgence, and then he restrained his body and mind at the right time, worked hard, went to study EMBA, played golf in his spare time, and married a girl of the right family. From every point of view, he was standard. eligible heirs.

With such a comparison, Su Weiming became more and more disappointed with Su Zhe, and the occasional phone calls and meetings would cause the two of them to break up unhappy.What made him even more displeased was that Liu Yun stood quietly by Su Zhe's side.Regarding his admonition of "a loving mother and a loser", she only said: "I have already been like this in my life, and he has the right to live the life he likes." After all, the words of his wife who had never complained expressed his feelings. He could only sneer: "Have you had a bad life?" "It's my own choice." His wife smiled, and he was dumbfounded by one sentence.

This year, Liu Yun felt unwell. After getting the medical report, she looked at it for a long time, and then called Su Zhe: "Come back, Ah Zhe, you are almost twenty-eight years old, you should have already enjoyed the medical examination report." After long enough freedom, a man still has to have a career after all, mom begs you for the first time." To her surprise, Su Zhe quickly agreed, with a desolate tone: "I'm tired of staying here, so I'll just resign and come here." (two) Since junior high school, Su Zhe's books on the desk will be filled with words or childish or literary love letters from time to time. He will not show off, but he will not take it seriously either.The teacher in charge had nothing to do with the girl's madness, so he could only half-jokingly ask him to stop discharging.

He also disdains to "discharge", because there is really no need for that. He is well aware of the influence he has on girls, and he doesn't need him to actively pursue, smile, frown, or lose his mind, and the girl will show an intoxicated expression. One girl after another said to him with tears: "I love you, Su Zhe, even if you don't love me." He can only shrug. When he was in college, he finally had a serious girlfriend: Xiao Hui. There are very few girls in polytechnic universities, and girls who are so beautiful and cheerful are even rarer animals.She was not in the same department as him, and was a class lower than him. One day, she suddenly stopped him and said to him with a smile: "I like you, Su Zhe, let's try to date." At that moment, her bravery and special Impressed him. She was a lively girl, smart enough and funny enough that they dated until their senior year.He was going to study in the United States, and she watched him go through the procedures to prepare for the visa, and suddenly grabbed his hand tightly uncharacteristically: "Can you stay for me?" He laughed: "We are still too young, it's still too early to make decisions for each other." "Then I will marry you and go to America together, where I will continue my studies." He was surprised: "You have a good learning talent. I have no objection to you going to the United States for further study, but now when it comes to getting married, I'm not ready at all." "You don't care about me at all." She let go of her hand and sneered, "Su Zhe, you only think about yourself, never about my feelings." "It's not fair to talk like that." Su Zhe also laughed, and didn't intend to remind her that she said she would go abroad from the very beginning, but she said she didn't care about it. "I thought we've been dating for more than a year, and the relationship is already so good. At least I should have a place in your future plan. Since I didn't do this when we were together, I didn't have confidence after the two places. We broke up. Bar." She was the first girl who took the initiative to break up with him, but he admired her decisiveness: "I respect your decision, Huihui." Su Zhe went to the United States, first studied engineering, then transferred to business, traveled around the world in his spare time, and continued to live a free life.After studying and returning to China, he stayed in Beijing for a while, and was introduced to join a foreign-funded insurance company that was quietly listing to enter the domestic market. Then he was ordered to return to the city where he was born, and took charge of the representative office in the central region. He was well paid and lived a leisurely life. Until I met Shao Yimin. It's a whole new experience dating a calm girl who doesn't seem to be curious.She never inquired about anything about him, and she never took the initiative to talk about herself.His curiosity just wasn't strong, but he guessed that she didn't have a normal family, nor a happy childhood, so she developed such a strong self-control ability, trying to put her life on the track of her own control, and refused to take it easy. Influenced by people. From this point of view, they are similar. When she was with him, she acted gentle and sweet, no different from ordinary girls, the difference was that she was very frank, would not hesitate to talk, would not dodge temptation, so readily admitted: she likes him, but he knows She knew that it was not love, and she didn't even care about his emotions, and she had no intention of catering to him at all.After so long of self-restraint, she enjoyed the indulgence he brought, but still retained her sanity. The first time she lost control of her emotions in front of him was after answering a phone call.He changed clothes in the bedroom, only vaguely heard her tone suddenly change from calm to tough, he thought, just like answering his father's phone call the first day, it was really not a pleasant conversation, but he had to be perfunctory. Walking into the living room, he saw her sitting on the window sill of the bay window, looking very calm, but when he looked closely, she was holding one hand tightly to the other, but her body couldn't help but tense up to the point of trembling.No sooner had he tried to comfort her than she exploded, shrugging him off like that, saying that she had had enough. His judgment was confirmed, he hugged the desperately struggling girl tightly, let her calm down in his arms, and suddenly remembered that when he was young, he had such a moment when he was so angry but couldn't get vent, grandparents and His father's long-term neglect, his mother's unprincipled forbearance, his elder brother's disdain... He chose to leave them and live alone.And this girl also chose to be alone, hoping that the whole world would forget her when she was sad. He tried to comfort her, using the way of life he summed up, hoping that she would not go further and further in loneliness. She seemed to be more attached to him, and gave him all the time outside of study. He thought he had finally begun to conquer such a rational heart, but suddenly learned that she planned to take the TOEFL test and go to Canada after graduation. When it was his turn to lose control, he was even more irritated when he pointedly accused her and she didn't defend herself. He suddenly realized that he had no choice in this relationship, and it was all controlled by the twenty-year-old girl in front of him.She chose when to start being with him, she chose to have a deadline for this relationship, she chose the path she would take in the future, and he had no place in that plan at all. Well then, break up. Without any objection, she still strode away without looking back, disappearing from his sight. (three) Su Zhe participated in the trip to Daocheng Yading organized by the outdoor club alone, and Xiang Anni, who works in the same office building, was also in the group.She greeted him warmly, but he was not interested.Of course he knew what Xiang Annie meant for him, but he had no mood to respond at all. In Yading, Daocheng in summer, the snow-white holy mountain is looming in the fog. The scenery along the way is both magnificent and beautiful, and the people who go there are amazed.But he couldn't cheer up, he originally planned to bring Yi Min with him, but when he thought of this name, he felt frustrated. At night, he smokes outside alone, the deep blue sky on the plateau is so bright and vast, it seems like he can pick it up with his hands.Realizing that he was facing the starry sky and thinking of her again, he threw down the cigarette butt, turned around, and saw Xiang Annie standing behind him, with that yearning look in his eyes, he was so familiar. He said lightly: "The temperature is low at night, go back, be careful of catching a cold." She suddenly hugged him tightly: "Su Zhe, I have always loved you." From someone else's mouth, love is always so easy.He said, "Sorry, Anne, I don't think I feel the same way about you." "It's okay, I know you don't love me at the moment, and I take full responsibility for my actions." Now the girls all claimed to be responsible for their actions, he sneered, his face under the starlight became more and more seductive, and he offered his lips to Annie. So try to see if you can forget the other in one's arms, just like before. Back in the hot city, Su Zhe was still tired and bored. He thought about it every day, but he didn't want to let himself think deeply about what made him difficult to calm down.At this moment, his mother called and asked him to come over for the first time.He didn't know what made his mother make this decision, maybe his father put pressure on her again, and he just happened to be tired of staying here, maybe a distance would be able to forget more effectively.He agreed to his mother's request and began to go through the resignation procedures. As expected, Xiang Anni refused to let go. He pretended not to know, and planned to take her to the mall to buy a gift for her, which was a complete farewell. In the underground garage, he saw that familiar figure pushing a bicycle.He honked the horn, but she didn't look back, she just moved the car a little to the side of the road.Still nothing could disturb her, but her working attire and obvious thinness suddenly touched him. He got out of the car and wanted to ask her if she was in financial difficulties, but the beautiful face in front of her was so thin, her eyes grew bigger and deeper, but her expression was still calm. Looking at Annie, the corners of her mouth curled up into a smile, as if everything in front of her was in her expectation. At that moment, he understood that there was no way, at least for now, he couldn't forget her, even if he was about to leave.He suddenly made a decision, determined not to let this unforgettable memory become his one-sided memory. He sent to Annie, and then back to the mall.The dreary summer weather finally turned into thunderstorms and strong winds. After finishing her work, she went down to the underground garage. She looked tired and smelled of oily smoke. Unexpectedly, she is willing to accept the same unreasonable beginning and end. This relationship is not a game for her, but since she said goodbye, she is willing to choose not to meet again. She put on her raincoat and rode her bicycle away.After losing his mind for a moment, he chased him out by car. In the storm, that figure was so delicate, but she didn't look back at all, and just kept her head on the bike.He decided to rush up to stop her, even if she refused, he would carry her into the car, so as not to let her be so brave. But just as he accelerated to turn an intersection, the Jetta broke down on the rapidly accumulating water.He watched the figure disappear into the wind and rain, so he could only call the repair shop to ask them to tow the car.He got out of the car, and the torrential rain hit his face in an instant, and his whole body was soaked, but he didn't realize it, and only missed her who was also in the rain. After all, against her wishes, he prolongs a farewell and prolongs it.But she accepted it calmly, indulged his willfulness, allowed him to impose his memories on her, and at the same time promised that she would not forget him before he forgot her. What he didn't expect was that his memory would last so long. Was it his choice? (Four) The running-in between Su Zhe and his father and elder brother was not smooth, and there were many people in the company who wanted to see his jokes with Hongdingbai, and he had never experienced that pressure.The only one who stood by his side was his mother, and his mother never interfered with the company's affairs. Since he chose to come back to work, he could only rely on himself. After work, he would go to the bar to relax.The city is full of feasting and feasting, and temptation is everywhere.In the hustle and bustle of the world of mortals, he missed that quiet girl in another place, getting along so quietly, it felt unreal like a dream. Xiang Annie also quietly came over and quietly applied for the job again.He was a little surprised to see her in the company, but she was very frank, saying that she wanted to change her environment and it had nothing to do with him.He also let her go and ignored her.When she asked him out again, he just smiled and said, "No, I don't plan to go out with company employees, it's inconvenient, and I have a girlfriend, so I don't plan to date other girls." He cared about her and rushed back to celebrate her birthday.She promised softly that she would come to Shenzhen after graduation.At that moment, his joy surprised himself.This girl who had always been cautious and refused to ask him to promise, and also refused to give him a promise, finally chose to run towards him. In this way, in winter, his mother finally told him that she had breast cancer and decided to go to the hospital for an operation.He was shocked, and when he asked again, his mother admitted that she had been unwell last summer, and she had been lucky enough to go to several hospitals for examination, but neither he nor his father knew anything about it.He felt guilty and angry. He didn't know why his mother was so forbearing, but seeing that his father was still calm, he only called a doctor for a detailed consultation.He thought, yes, if he expected his husband to react in this way, it would make no difference whether he said it or not. He checked information everywhere to understand the risks of the operation and the postoperative situation.Xiang Anni appeared. She was a medical student. She used to sell anti-cancer drugs in a US-funded pharmaceutical company. Her father was a surgical expert.She helped him collect and translate the latest foreign materials, select the most suitable hospital for surgery, and volunteered to accompany her to the surgery. His mother breathed a sigh of relief and let him stay in the country to concentrate on his work. He angrily refused, and went to America together without even asking his father for leave.In a foreign country, cumbersome preoperative examinations, waiting for the operation arrangement in fear.His father came over and only checked the timetable. He said he would rush to Hong Kong to attend a meeting without waiting for the operation to proceed.The father and son quarreled again.They are always polite and quiet to other people, but they always succeed in irritating each other. During this difficult time, Xiang Anni accompanied him considerately. She acted rationally, tenderly and tolerantly, comforting him and his mother.Although he intends to pay her handsomely, he admits that he deserves what she does, because he can't give her what she wants. But she said: "This is my own choice, there is no need for you to be upset." The operation was a success, and he was greatly relieved.As happy as Anne is, suggest going out for a drink and relaxing.When she was drunk, she kissed him, but he avoided, and said gently: "Annie, I am very grateful for your company during this time, but I'm sorry, I..." She interrupted him: "We are in another hemisphere, tonight you are just you and I am just me, I don't want to know anything else about you, just treat you and me as complete strangers, I need you, I know you need me too. If you don't feel this way after tonight, I won't pester you." This invitation sounded reasonable and tempting, but after finishing it, he didn't feel good, not as relaxed as before, but felt heavy instead.He put on his clothes and was about to leave, Xiang Annie hugged him tightly from behind, he could only say seriously: "I feel sorry, I will definitely restrain myself in the future, I will never let this happen again, and I hope you will never mention this again thing." She looked at him with wide eyes, as if she couldn't believe her ears: "but it was so good last night." "It's not good, Anne, it's just a vent, it's meaningless, let's forget about it." After receiving a call from Yi Min from China, he suddenly felt uneasy. He had never felt such guilt before, so he could only tell himself that it was over, and he didn't need to think about it anymore.He wanted to selectively forget, but he couldn't treat this kind of thing as a sexual dream so calmly as before and let it go without a trace, and Xiang Anni, who claimed to be responsible for him, did not forget it. (Fives) Su Zhe saw her stride away again, disappearing into the night.She chose to break up, and that decision was irreversible. His mother is slowly recovering, his job is getting better, his relationship with his father and brother is improving day by day, and he even has a new girlfriend. He told himself that he would still be able to organize his life the way he chose. But it was too late, a figure occupied his heart, making his choice meaningless. He was on a business trip, and one winter day he came to a city in the north, and the sky was covered with heavy snow that could not be seen in the southern countries. He was eating with someone, and a place name floated on the table next to him, which suddenly touched him. The girl who seldom talked about herself called him in the United States during the New Year, saying that there was a little rain and snow here, but it was snowing heavily in his hometown.That was the first time she mentioned the city where she was born. Her voice was weak and weak like never before, but she laughed softly, and he was full of inexplicable emotions at that time, and there was no comfort to stay alone in his empty space. in the house. He borrowed a car from a friend, set up the GPS, and drove to the place alone.The nearly four-hour drive had a purpose, but no purpose at all. What unfolded in front of his eyes was a medium-sized industrial city common in the north, neat and orderly streets, dusty buildings, with a bit of decay, without any characteristics and scenery at all, and she never revealed other information to him .He only knew that she lived here before the age of eighteen, a good student in a key middle school, and a silent girl from an unhappy family. He got out of the car and asked passers-by, and then went to the best middle school in the area.Looking in through the courtyard wall, the snow-covered playground was empty, and the teaching building in the distance was the same gray color as the main color of the city. In the heavy snow, he didn't know what he wanted to see. Did she ever come out of here with her schoolbag on her back and walk through the narrow street ahead? Was she just going in such a stride back then? He knows so little about her life, but is content with a simple judgment, is this the way he loves her? He started looking for her, went to Vancouver, and returned to the city where they left memories. He had eaten with her boss, he had met her roommate at a restaurant, and she had met his eldest brother. The only thing they didn't meet was each other until nearly three years later, in a club in Beijing. Seeing her again, he thought wearily, maybe there is indeed a destiny stronger than human will. Would he have made the same choice if he could start over? He remembered what she had said: If possible, I would not choose to have that kind of beginning with you, but without that kind of beginning, we might not have any possibility. Sometimes, choice means destiny. He never regretted that fate gave him such an unforgettable time.