Chapter 55 Section 3

Su Zhe started the car, and both of them remained silent.Soon Shao Yimin discovered that Su Zhe didn't intend to stop at the roadside cafe, but was driving out of the city at a really fast speed.All she had to do was put on her seat belt, resigned to her fate, and didn't bother to make a sound.She has always had a good sense of direction, and she has been driving frequently for more than a year. Looking out the window, she realized that she was driving to the suburban wetland reserve where they stayed for the first Valentine's Day, and couldn't help smiling wryly. She thought that she could feel relieved facing Ink Lake, but she wondered if she could keep calm facing this place.

The CD in the car is playing Bon Jovi's song. Shao Yimin hasn't let go of English in the past few years, and she listens to English songs more in her spare time. It just so happens that she has heard this song, "It's My Life", and she listened intently to the song that she sang repeatedly. Those few sentences: …I did it my way I just wanna live while I'm alive It's my life... She couldn't help thinking that it seemed that from this very lake, her life became out of her control. The car stopped, Shao Yimin opened the door and went down, and the cool wind with the smell of green grass and lake water was blowing head-on, which was quite cool.She was only wearing a thin sportswear, and she couldn't help but wince, Su Zhe took off her suit jacket and put it on her shoulders.

She couldn't help but look up at the sky, half of the bright moon was hanging over the lake that could not be seen at a glance, there were not many stars, the gray-white floating clouds flowed slowly, and the moonlight was sometimes bright and sometimes dim. She turned around and looked at Su Zhe standing in front of her, and tried to smile: "Finally we are old enough to be pregnant, that's great. If you miss every ex-girlfriend who broke up like this, your schedule will be very tight." Su Zhe grabbed her shoulder, leaned close to her face, gritted his teeth and said, "Are you happy to see me in such a mess now?"

"If only I hated you as much as you think, then I'm really happy now." Shao Yimin was silent for a while, and finally said, "But I'm not happy, believe it or not." Su Zhe stared at her for a while, then let go, took out the cigarette case from his pocket, put it back without opening it, leaned against the car, and sighed: "Are you and him in love, Yimin?" Shao Yimin said frankly: "He proposed to me, and I promised him to think it over." In an instant, Su Zhe's face was filled with astonishment, shock, anger, despair... all kinds of expressions were mixed together.He tried his best to calm down, and after a while he said in a hoarse voice: "I don't know what to say, Yimin, if it's because my entanglement makes you tired and want to escape, I apologize, and I will keep with you what you can accept distance, but don’t agree to him easily just because of this reason.”

She was silent for a while, leaned on the car, and said after a while: "I will think twice about any decision I make, and I respect his sincerity to me, and I won't just walk into a marriage just because of evasion, so don't worry about me. .” "You really never make decisions casually, so I will always remember that you once said 'yes' to me so seriously and so simply, and promised to go to Shenzhen with me. But I was so stupid that I failed to cherish and keep your promise .” "Do we have to keep revisiting the past?" "The other day you said it took you a long time to get out, I was so sad."

"No, no, forget what I said that day. I was just emotional for a while. I don't hold grudges against you, and I don't want to make you feel guilty by acting as a bitter wife." "Don't tell me you've forgiven me, because I don't intend to forgive myself." "Then why bother, although your life is your business, but self-torture like that is meaningless to me." Su Zhe turned his head and smiled at her.At this moment, the clouds were passing by, and under the bright moonlight, his smile was so gentle that she suffocated: "Have you ever heard a poem by Du Fu: We don't meet each other in life, but we move like participating in business."

Shao Yimin shook her head, her understanding of poetry was only limited to texts. "Participating Shang is the name of the astrology in ancient China. According to the current astronomical constellation division, Shen Xing is Orion and Shang Xing is Scorpio. Shen Xing is in the west and Shang Xing is in the east. When one rises, the other will sink, and there will be no relationship forever. It is possible to see. I live on the top floor of a high-rise in Shenzhen. Every time I look at the stars with an astronomical telescope, I will think of this poem. Now I don’t know which one is easier for me to accept: I will never see you again, I still see you but can't get close to you again."

"Maybe I'm cold and thin. I always feel that it's better not to see each other like this." Su Zhe smiled shortly: "Yes, I ruined your trust in me myself, no wonder you. With your determination, I think my chance is very small. If you decide your life, I won't I’ll bother you again. But when I can see you, I’d still like to stay here and watch you.” Shao Yimin was stunned.In an instant, the flowing clouds covered the moonlight, and his face was plunged into darkness.She didn't know what to say at all. If Su Zhe kept the tough attitude when they first met, she wouldn't be moved at all, but she couldn't bear the confession before her.

Little by little memories of the past flowed before Shao Yimin's eyes, and all the memories she thought she had reached a compromise and kept well in her heart suddenly turned upside down.She gritted her teeth and suppressed a sigh that she wanted to blurt out, such an effort made her eyes feel a little dry.She could only look up at the dark sky, trying hard to let this wave of emotions pass. Su Zhe stretched out his hand to hold her in his arms. She struggled slightly, but found with horror that she did not resist the hug.She thought that the blank love life in the past few years really left her with a lot of trouble, and she was so eager for all the warm contact.She hesitated for a moment, and stretched out her arms to hug his waist, that solid body exuded such strange warmth, tempting her to get closer.She tried to press her face against his chest, listening to his heartbeat, and breathing the breath she was once familiar with.Su Zhe lowered his head and kissed her hair lightly, his lips slowly moved to her forehead, burning it hotly.She took a step back suddenly, breaking away from him.

When Shao Yimin was able to speak again, her voice was already hoarse: "Su Zhe, this will only make me despise myself. To this day, I still can't control my little body reaction." "So even today, do you still think that all I want is your body?" "If all we want is each other's bodies, there's no need to struggle like this." She leaned back on the car and said bitterly, "I don't doubt your sincerity, Su Zhe. But I think you want to keep It's just that simple girl in your memory. She lived a monotonous life at that time, was greedy and naive, and just wanted to blindly grab a little warmth, and she didn't care if that warmth belonged to her."

"If I have given you warmth, you have also warmed me, Yimin. In my heart, you are still that girl, forever." "No one can always be as pure as before, but one thing has not changed. Su Zhe, I have never had unprincipled trust in people, and I have never been sure about feelings. And now, I am no longer the same as before. I will not gamble with my body and life. So sorry, I can't give you the answer you want." The wind slowly passed by with the flowing clouds, and the bright moon and Qinghui slowly sprinkled down again.Su Zhe looked down at her, his handsome face was gloomy at this moment: "I should be the one who said sorry to you, knowing that you don't like it, I won't let go and fight for it, but I promise you, what will you give me in the end?" I will accept any answer unconditionally." "You are asking me a difficult question, do you want to see how stubborn I will be?" Shao Yimin smiled bitterly, "But there is no way, we can only make the choice we have to make. Go back, and never have another We met like this. The man proposed to me during the day, and although I haven't agreed to him yet, I must be worthy of his trust and love for me." She stopped looking at him, opened the door and got into the car first.After a while, Su Zhe got into the car.The two returned to the city in silence all the way, and the car was parked outside the dormitory courtyard.She jumped out of the car and entered the yard without looking back. Su Zhe watched her back, lowered the car window, took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it, only feeling the exhaustion from heart to body slowly hit. Haotian Group is planning to list on the main board of the Hong Kong Stock Exchange. Su Zhe has been doing preparations in Hong Kong for days, communicating with the sponsors selected by the group in the early stage, and meeting the intermediary agency team organized by the sponsors.The work was complicated and time-consuming, and he had to stay longer than expected, working overtime almost every day until late at night. But all the fatigue of work seemed to be unable to overcome the oppressive feeling of complete powerlessness at this time. He rested his left hand on the car window, watched the smoke rising from the dark red cigarette butt, and flicked the ash for a long time. Zhang Xin drove Luo Yin back, and his car was parked behind Su Zhe's car.He studied mechanics and worked in advertising, but he is an out-and-out car fan. He has an extraordinary interest in the performance characteristics of various cars. Although he can only afford an economical car for transportation, he is not It does not prevent him from subscribing to various car magazines and going to Beijing and Shanghai auto shows every year.At this time, the Volvo XC90 parked in front was relatively rare in the local area, so he naturally had to take a few more glances when he got out of the car. Luo Yin knew his hobbies and teased him: "Seeing a nice car is much stronger than seeing a beautiful woman. I'll go up first, bye." Zhang Xin quickly said, "I'll take you up." Luo Yin stopped suddenly.The Volvo driver's door opened, and Su Zhe got off. He walked around to the back seat, opened the door, and took out the badminton bag left there, hesitating for a moment, whether to call her to get it down.Luo Yin hesitated, and said, "Hi, are you looking for Shao Yimin?" Su Zhe looked back at her in surprise.Luo Yin thought to himself mockingly, as expected, he didn't have any impression at all, so he just smiled generously: "I'm Shao Yimin's classmate, Luo Yin, we've met more than once before, and now I share the apartment with her." Su Zhe nodded: "Hello, thank you for helping me bring this up to her. I'll go first, goodbye." He handed the bag to Luo Yin, then nodded politely to Zhang Xin, turned around and opened the car door, suddenly Stopped, looked back at Luo Yin, "We seem to have met in a restaurant last year, right?" Luo Yin didn't expect that he didn't remember the direct conversations at school before, but he remembered the hasty side at the restaurant last fall, recalling her nympho staring at that time, he couldn't help but blush a little: "Yes, the place where you eat duck stew, My boyfriend was there at the time." Su Zhe didn't look at Zhang Xin at all, but only stared at Luo Yin: "Have you been renting here with Yi Min?" "Yes, we rented together after graduation and never moved." His expression instantly became complicated and unspeakable, but he didn't say anything, just nodded, turned around suddenly, got into the car, started the car and drove away. Zhang Xin is still pondering over the golf bag: "Hey, isn't that MIT candidate who is going to America soon sent Shao Yimin back? Why is the golf bag in this person's hands?" "You gossip man." Luo Yin withdrew his gaze and glared at him. Zhang Xin was a little embarrassed: "I don't mean to gossip, but I only see Lao Dai's complicated plot, I didn't expect Shao Yimin...hehe." Luo Yin thought, yes, with regard to Shao Yimin, no one could imagine what kind of waves had surged beneath her still-like calmness.