Chapter 18 Section 7

Shao Yimin went downstairs and said to Su Zhe who was sitting on the sofa reading the newspaper: "Yueqing Leping helps Sun Jie pack her things. I won't play games today, so I'm leaving first." "I'll see you off." Su Zhe got up, folded the newspaper and put it on the coffee table.The two walked out of Sun's house, entered the elevator, and went directly down to the underground parking lot.Shao Yimin got into the car, leaned on the back of the seat and let out a long sigh of relief, feeling a little tired. "Why don't you look very happy? Is my request just too reluctant for you?"

She shook her head: "It's just a feeling. If the future can be foreseen, no matter how strong the relationship is, there will be such a day of breaking up, then is there any need to get married?" "It's my fault, I shouldn't ask you to persuade my sister-in-law. Do you know? You asked almost the same question as Yueqing. I forgot, no matter how sensible you look, you are only five years older than him. Okay Well, my answer to him is almost like this: Marriage is still good, you can share your life with the person you are closest to. No one can guarantee that your thoughts will remain the same throughout your life. The important thing is to know what you cherish the most .”

"Sure enough, it's words to coax children. But, I can only think so, otherwise human beings don't have to reproduce." She looked into the distance and smiled slightly. "I have another word to coax children, marriage is not just for reproduction." "Let's not talk about the meaning and purpose of life, it's a topic that makes me so powerless." Su Zhe laughed silently: "Why don't we find a place to eat first, it's almost five o'clock." "I want to drink, can I?" Seeing Su Zhe's unexpected expression, she laughed at herself, "Don't worry, I won't harass you when I'm drunk, I just feel a little depressed."

Su Zhe nodded with a smile: "Actually, I welcome your harassment. Let's go eat Japanese food. Sake can relieve worries without getting drunk." There is a Kabuki painting on the entrance of the Japanese restaurant. The interior is decorated quietly and elegantly, and Kitaro's music is playing.Although it is a weekend, there are not many local people who like Japanese food, and the inside is not full.Small portions of sashimi, tempura, sushi, etc. were served on delicate plates, which did not suit Yi Min's taste, and the sake served in small white porcelain cups was even more bland.

"Don't like Japanese food?" "Very trivial." "It's the first time I've heard someone comment on a dish like this." "This wine is really not intoxicating." Yi Min drank another glass of slightly hot sake, which didn't feel like alcohol, but felt a little hot. "We're only drinking the third bottle, and the sake still has stamina, and I don't want to get you drunk again, and let you say that I have ulterior motives." Su Zhe filled her glass up. "You never got me drunk. If you seriously talk about it, it seems that I have ulterior motives."

"My honor." Su Zhe raised his glass to her and drank it all in one gulp. "Can I ask a question?" "Ask, it's rare that you are curious about me, I will try to answer as frankly as possible." "You said that the important thing is to know what you cherish. Have you ever had someone you want to cherish?" Su Zhe thought about it seriously: "I want to be honest, maybe you will think that I am a philanderer, but the psychology of people at different stages cannot be the same. I have always cherished it, at least I have not experienced it until now. In the afternoon The call I received in the garage was from my girlfriend before I went abroad. At that time, I went to the United States, and she stayed in school. The two of us had different plans for the future. Before leaving, she suddenly told me that she wanted to marry me and then we Go to the United States. I like her, but I can’t agree to marriage so early. So she said that I don’t cherish her enough. Instead of going to the United States, it’s better to break up. We are not sure about the future, and we are not sure that the relationship can withstand time , the test of space, so we are willing to give each other freedom, our breakup is very friendly."

"But she still seems to love you." Shao Yimin remembered the conversation she heard last time at the back of the University of Science and Technology. "She has a boyfriend and is going to get married soon. She knows what she should do, and I know what I shouldn't do." Su Zhe smiled, took out another bottle of sake warmed in hot water, and poured most of it for himself Cup, "I cherish the memories she gave me. As for love, I'm sorry, I don't have the same feelings for her. In the past, I couldn't refuse her love because of the possibility of separation, and now I can't just because she still has the old feelings." Feeling still in love with her."

In fact, he had always been frank, but it was the first time he spoke in such a sincere tone.Under the dim light, his smile looked warm, as if the temperature of the sake had been conveyed there. "So, do you like me?" Shao Yimin raised her head and asked him, without any intention of being coquettish, as if it was just a simple verification. "It's more than one question, but I'm still willing to answer it. Yes, I like you, otherwise why do you think I pester you, generally speaking, it's someone else pestering me." He regained his mocking expression. Shao Yimin nodded, finished drinking the wine in his hand, and suddenly looked up at him: "Take me to the hotel while I have no regrets." The sake steamed her face into a blush, her eyes were bright, and her expression was as calm as just now All it said was "take me back to school".

Su Zhe was slightly surprised: "I like this proposal very much, but if you think you will definitely regret it, then why do you have to do it?" "Then just pretend I didn't say anything." She picked up her schoolbag and coat and got up to leave. Su Zhe held her back and called the waiter over to pay the bill.Then he led her out of the restaurant. At the door, he stopped and wanted to put clothes on her, but she shook off and turned around to leave. Su Zhe caught up with her and said, "You really drank too much, hurry up and go to the restaurant." Car, be careful of catching a cold."

"None of your business!" she said irritably. Su Zhe grabbed her hand and pulled her to the side of the car, opened the door and stuffed her in, then got into the car himself, started the car: "Have you figured it out? I don't like that we had sex, you can tell me later Me, you pretended to be crazy with alcohol, lost your morals after drinking, and then told me to forget to pull it off." "I'm not drunk at all today. It's fine if you don't want to, just treat me as bored and harass you. Send me back to school, but don't expect me to say that again in the future, by the way, don't appear in front of me again .”

"Well, I just want to know, you still just want to avoid me this afternoon, why did you suddenly change your mind?" "Maybe I'm tired of struggling with myself." She said wearily, leaning back on the chair, "I admit that I like you too, I want to see what happens if I don't fight this idea." Su Zhe kept silent and drove the car silently. After a while, Shao Yimin realized that this was not the way back to school. She lowered her eyes and said in a low voice: "One more thing, I don't want to take the after-event pill anymore. " Su Zhe drove for a while, then suddenly parked the car on the side of the road, got out of the car and walked into the pharmacy, got back into the car after a while, and drove without saying a word, the speed was obviously much faster.He turned into a residential complex, parked the car, then went around and opened the passenger door, took Shao Yimin's hand and pulled her out of the car, locked the car, led her into a unit, and quickly walked up to the fourth floor , she could barely keep up with him. He took out the key to open the door, threw the key on the porch, turned around and pulled Shao Yimin in, almost roughly.She lost her balance and slammed into his arms. He picked her up, without turning on the light, walked into the bedroom, kissed her, and began to take off her clothes.There seemed to be central heating in the room, and it was quite warm, but when she was completely naked in front of him, she still shrank.In a blink of an eye, he covered her, and one after another, fiery kisses fell heavily on her somewhat cold skin. This time I have no excuses.In the chaos, this idea came to her mind clearly again.She refused to think about it, and hugged him tightly. Su Zhe broke away from her slightly, and reached out to take out the condom from his pocket. She stared at him almost unconsciously, as if her soul had floated out of her body, and she was coldly watching herself give up struggling in the dark.In a blink of an eye, Su Zhe hugged her tightly again, his face occupied her sight, blocking the self-gazing that made her uneasy. He entered her while calling her name in her ear. Yimin, Yimin... No one had ever called her with such a lingering voice, and her body met his impact, like a beach washed by the tide, and pure sensual pleasure swept over like the tide. At dawn, Shao Yimin woke up suddenly, her eyes gradually adapted to the darkness, a strange room, a strange bed, and a man who was neither strange nor familiar. He slept very peacefully, his handsome face did not have the usual indifference, nor did he often show her the irony.She was almost jealous of his relaxed and thoughtless sleeping state, and she guessed that she might have to have iron-clad nerves to continue to fall asleep. She got up and fumbled for her clothes on the floor. The first thing she found was Su Zhe's shirt. She picked it up and put it on, and walked to the living room. The room was well heated and dimly lit. She walked to the living room with bare feet on the slightly cool floor. The window used the space covered by the radiator to create a bay window sill with a linen blanket and cushions on it. She sat on it. , looking outside.It was the darkest night before the sky was about to light up. Through the street lights, one could see a car parked neatly downstairs. There were tall trees on both sides of the black driveway, and the bare branches swayed gently with the wind. A little farther away is an open space with a lush and lush tree in the middle, covering the boss with a shadow. She wrapped her arms around her legs, put her face on her knees, and stared out the window.The whole neighborhood was so quiet that for some reason, the article written by Zhao Qizhi suddenly came to her mind. She couldn't remember the content clearly, but the title seemed very suitable for the situation in front of her: the color of loneliness. If loneliness really has color, it should be this endless darkness with a little faint light.When she read that article, she was slightly dumbfounded, because since she was a child, loneliness has been with her everywhere, she just got used to, accepts and is content with the existence of loneliness, and never thinks it is interesting to take the initiative to taste loneliness thing.One who has already ignored loneliness certainly cannot understand the exclamation of enjoyment from someone who is occasionally lonely. She has never been afraid of loneliness, and now of course she can't lie to herself that she fell into this embrace because of loneliness. In fact, waking up like this after a fiery embrace, entanglement of the body, and handover of lips and tongues will only make you feel more lonely. But she doesn't regret it.Such an intimate experience, such ecstatic joy, really smoothed out the tumultuous struggles that tormented the body. It was worth it, she thought. A little light gradually appeared in the sky, Su Zhe came out of the bedroom, walked behind her and hugged her: "I like the way you wear my shirt." His fingers gently rubbed her neck, parted her hair, kissed her Her neck, "I'm sorry, Yi Min, I think I probably ruined your possibility of having a naive school romance." "I'm already in my junior year, it's too late to think naive." Zhao Qizhi's shocked face flashed across Shao Yimin's mind, he laughed at himself, turned and fell on his chest.He looks thin, but his body is still strong.She put her face on his neck, "It doesn't seem like a big loss." She did doubt her ability to talk about childish love. Su Zhe also smiled, and stroked her black hair: "You made me lose control. I originally wanted to take my time with you. Starting from watching the stars, I will experience the joy of love a little bit, and give you a perfect experience." "It's not bad to try to lose control once in a while." She murmured, breathing softly on the skin of his chest, "As for perfection, I don't know, it's pretty close." He picked her up a little and kissed her lips, which were as soft as her breath, and her hair fell down the sides and fell over his face.He pinched a strand of her hair and wrapped it around his fingers, which was also soft and smooth. With a slight tug of his fingers, the strands of hair would come loose from his fingers and fall down one after another.He kissed down her neck, sucked hard, and then bit her collarbone. She flinched slightly in pain, but his arms were firmly around her, so she couldn't retreat.The tip of his tongue lightly licked the place he had just bitten, and slowly moved down, gnawing at her bit by bit.She ran her fingers through his thick hair, groaning and shattering, grabbing at the hair, letting go, and grabbing again. It turns out that sinking is so easy.