Chapter 36 Chapter Thirty-Six

The cold wind beat against the window lattice, looking through the window, there were several damaged buildings, withered grass luxuriant, a gust of wind squeezed into the room through the window gap, and a piece of snow fell outside the window lattice, crystal clear like glass.Shen Zhenzhu looked at it and smiled slightly, stretched out her hand to look at the snowflake, but the lattice of the window lattice was nailed from the outside to the inside, she withdrew her hand sadly. "As long as you want, you can not only get out of this house, but also this great river and mountain, and thousands of people, all belong to you." An Qingxu walked in at some time, and said behind her.

Shen Zhenzhu ignored him, walked a few steps, sat next to the table, raised her head and asked: "What is this place, what do you want?" "You still don't give up?" An Qingxu sat down opposite her and said, "No one in this world knows you are here except me. Even if I let you know where this is, it's useless." Shen Zhenzhu thought in her heart Wei Liang, she had been in this room since she woke up that day, and she didn't know how long she had been unconscious, and where she was.The two maidservants stood in front of the door with their hands down, not even looking at An Qingxu and Shen Zhenzhu from the corners of their eyes, like two silent dead people—just think they were dead people, they had been poisoned by An Qingxu for a long time, and every day In addition to routinely forcing her to drink medicine and eat, serve her to dress and bathe, even her eyes are straight, dull, and lifeless.

The room is very warm, the felt on the floor seems to be hot, all the living facilities are excellent and complete, but Shen Zhenzhu just feels suffocated and unable to breathe, although her body is gradually recovering, the feeling of oppression in her heart is gone. It is getting heavier and heavier. "There are many good women in the world. I have already married someone else. I don't understand why you are still so paranoid." Shen Zhenzhu looked at the long and falling snowflakes outside the window and said. "It's a pity that the world is so big, but there is only one Shen Zhenzhu." An Qingxu picked up the wine cup on the table and drank it by himself.He would come to this room every day, regardless of Shen Zhenzhu's persuasion and scolding, he would drink, enjoy himself and get drunk.

"Do you really think you can lock me for the rest of your life?" Today, Shen Zhenzhu changed her normal routine and snatched the wine cup from An Qingxu's hand, poured a full glass, and brought it to her lips while speaking. An Qingxu's expression changed slightly, and he quickly grabbed her wrist: "You are still injured, don't drink!" Shen Zhenzhu stubbornly gave away her hand, opened her lips and swallowed the whole wine, she drank too fast and choked, coughing again and again, clutching her chest in pain, pain appeared on her face. An Qingxu looked at her coldly, and said, "Why do you bother with your own body? I am so unbearable. In the past, you would rather die by my sword, but today you treat me like nothing?"

Shen Zhenzhu coughed twice, and said: "You already know that my heart is full and I can't be beaten. If you don't want to let me go, you might as well give me a clean and happy life. What's the use of tormenting me like this!" An Qingxu's complexion suddenly changed, he raised his head and drank the wine in the glass, squeezed his palm slightly, heard the crisp sound of "chuck", the wine glass shattered, An Qingxu raised his hand and threw it back casually, hitting a person behind him The maidservant's face, where the fragments passed, the maidservant's blood was flowing, but she didn't dare to wipe it, she knelt down and yelled, kowtowing unceasingly.

An Qingxu only pretended that nothing happened, and rose up against the case, and said to Shen Zhenzhu: "You don't want to escape from my control again. My patience is limited. Even if I can't win your heart, I will fix your person! Don't you Force me to use force, don't force me to destroy you!" While speaking, he seemed to glance at the maidservant unintentionally, and walked away in a huff. Shen Zhenzhu stood on the spot blankly, unable to move for a while. He is An Qingxu, not the Second Brother An back then.As early as the day when the pearl was returned, the only warmth remaining in his heart had all faded away.She was the one who forced him. For the sake of her own reputation and innocence, she forced him to cut him down with a single sword. From then on, her heart was like steel, she regarded everything as worthless, and abandoned all affection.

She couldn't predict what else he would do. Although he abandoned all affection, only for her, because of killing her personally, because of the sudden loss, he knew that he would never let go, and he decided to take it back at all costs.On the day of the wedding, he was so close to her, and he missed her, but it aroused his desire even more.The wedding was not completed, or in his heart, he had already regarded her as his destined wife. He backed down step by step, and even followed her wishes, intentionally letting Mo Yan Chuo and the others go, but he was determined to keep her heart.

He came to see her every day, and when she was bedridden, he even personally served soup and medicine, which made her body improve day by day. Perhaps, he has been waiting, waiting for her to change her mind, waiting for her to get to know the person in front of her again, will she be the one who can be trusted for life? If one day, when he finds out that no matter what, she can no longer keep her heart by his side, what will he do? Does he love her now, or is he unwilling?Do you want to hold back the only deep love in this world, or do you want to hold back the beautiful years of youth in the past?Is it because he is so attached to her that he is inseparable, or is he unwilling to let her fall in love elsewhere, and is bent on turning around?

Now that she can't ask for death, what else will he do? "Even if you can't win your heart, you have to fix your people!" There was a chill on the soles of her feet, and she staggered, and a maid had rushed forward to support her coldly.She stabilized her figure and yelled at them, "Get out! Get out!" The two maidservants acted as if they were unknown, they only stared at her cautiously and cautiously, guarding against her for any unusual movements. Shen Zhenzhu sat down on the bed slumped. An Qingxu came and went for several days in a row. It was getting late that day, Shen Zhenzhu was about to take a rest, when An Qingxu pushed the door in, her face suddenly changed, and she was about to chase away the guest.But An Qingxu took out something from his bosom, put it on the table and said: "Today is your birthday, finally found this thing, it can be regarded as a congratulatory gift."

Shen Zhenzhu was stunned and asked, "Is it already December nineteenth?" An Qingxu changed his cold and lonely expression in the past, and nodded with a smile, unfolded the roll, and bursts of fragrance came to his nostrils.Shen Zhenzhu stepped forward and looked, it turned out to be a bag of luohan beans, it should be boiled with fennel, cinnamon and salt, the aroma is really attractive. An Qingxu said: "I always remember that you loved this thing the most. That year when you celebrated your eighth birthday, the table was full of fish and meat just to make a show with your chopsticks. As soon as you left the table, you pestered me to sneak out of the house to buy arhat beans eat."

"It's a pity that it's too late. When you arrived at the shop, it was already closed. In the end, you returned empty-handed..." Shen Zhenzhu casually picked up a piece and put it in her mouth to chew. What I loved when I was young was often such simple food. When I married Li Chu, I could not finish eating delicacies from mountains and seas. I would often recall that handful of luohan beans. vision.Even the sorrow at that time, the sorrow at that time, it was really nothing to go up the stairs, and the eyes were full of rivers and mountains to talk about sorrow, it seemed that after getting old, I always wanted to talk about it.However, today, when I really tasted this long-awaited thing, I found that it is different, the fragrance and crispness are always different from the memory.It turns out that it has grown up all the way, with mixed tastes, and what is reluctant to part is only the beautiful feeling of poetry.The best things should only be kept deep in the memory, not to be broken, and to remain silent forever. An Qingxu was obviously in a good mood, and he was still talking about how he got this bag of Luo Handou by chance. Shen Zhenzhu called out: "An Qingxu..." An Qingxu stopped talking and became alert, "Don't you like it?" Shen Zhenzhu wanted to speak, but heard a light knock on the door, An Qingxu said impatiently: "What can be the matter?" While talking, he walked out. After this trip, An Qingxu will not come here for more than ten days. It was almost New Year's Eve at this time, Shen Zhenzhu listened carefully to the surroundings, but there was no festive joy, no noisy people, thinking about it, she couldn't figure out where she was now.However, judging from the weather, temperature and humidity, this place does not seem to be Chang'an. The terrain of Chang'an is high in the south and low in the north, so water comes from the south and pours into Qujiang Pond. It rains and snows in winter and is very cold.Compared with Chang'an, the climate here is obviously much warmer. Since the beginning of winter, there has been a moderate snowfall more than ten days ago. The door was slammed open, and a guard dressed as a guard walked in.Seeing him, the two dumb servants respectfully backed away. It was obvious that they were An Qingxu's trusted servants, and the dumb servants were in awe of him.Shen Zhenzhu and her clothes were not asleep, she immediately turned over and got up, the guard took two steps forward, and said in a deep voice: "Under the order of King Jin, please go to a place." Shen Zhenzhu looked at him suspiciously, remained still, and said : "It's late at night, sorry I can't make the trip." The guard grabbed her wrist and said: "Prince Jin's order, Miss must go." As he spoke, he dragged Shen Zhenzhu to go out, the two dumb maidservants retreated repeatedly without any hindrance. As soon as she stepped out of the room, a gust of cold wind hit her face, Shen Zhenzhu couldn't help shivering, the guard looked back and frowned slightly at the dumb maid, a dumb maid hurriedly took a big iron red fur coat and put it on Shen Zhenzhu. Shen Zhenzhu only felt that today's situation was very bad, but she couldn't tell where it was.If An Qingxu really intended to have unreasonable thoughts about him, why bother to take him out of the room?If there is no unreasonable thought, it is already late at night, why would someone take him away? But after many days, she was able to step out of the cage door for the first time, Shen Zhenzhu opened her mouth to breathe out, her throat congealed, she had already been hit by the guard's Ya acupuncture point.Shen Zhenzhu glared at the person in front of her, but that person ignored her and only held her back. I stumbled and followed him, the vast sky was devoid of stars and moons, the surroundings were pitch black, and I could vaguely see a few houses near and far away, dilapidated and dilapidated, without lights or candles, extremely lonely, with constant footsteps Stuck by miscellaneous stones and broken grass, there is a faint sound of crying and choking, it seems to be a ghost in the world, Chen Zhenzhu's body is cold all over. Going round and round, a very long, very long road, suddenly opened up in front of my eyes. Shen Zhenzhu involuntarily stopped her steps, her eyes sparkled a little, she couldn't believe what she saw. The palace with flying eaves and brackets can't be seen at a glance. Under the illumination of the lanterns, it looks like a fairy palace of Yuyu. The huge red palace lanterns, the neatly arranged street lamps, and the lanterns held by the maids in the palace reflect the colorful world. Shen Zhenzhu had already realized, she turned her head and looked back at the archway she had just walked out of, in the dimness, she wrote two large characters in seal script - "Yeting". If I was not mistaken, this place is actually the inner palace of the Eastern Capital Luoyang! Princes and nobles often traveled between Chang'an and Luoyang, but Shen Zhenzhu had many troubles after marriage, and Li Chu was busy with affairs and had no time for a separate body, so she never came to Luoyang with her.Even so, Luoyang's imperial palace is completely different from Chang'an, Shen Zhenzhu compares it a bit, and knows that this place should be Luoyang.Surprised in my heart, I didn't expect An Qingxu to detain himself in the Yeting of the palace city. What he saw along the way, the place of detention, or the most remote place in the Yeting where there are few people, no wonder he is so confident, who would Notice a dilapidated house in a small garden?What's more, he will also send more people to secretly guard and keep people from approaching. However, what is his intention for what he did today? Before she had time to think about it, the guard had already dragged her towards the nearest palace. Outside the palace, at the gate of the palace, several guards with knives stood guard, and the inner servants guarded their places. When they saw the guard and Shen Zhenzhu, if they didn't see each other, they let them enter the hall straight away. Shen Zhenzhu was horrified and inexplicable, this palace was huge in scale, it was definitely not only the residence of King An Qingxu of Jin, it was probably the emperor's empress dorm.In the past few months, she only imagined that An Qingxu had gradually taken full control of the military power of the rebel army, but she had not expected that it would be so arrogant that all the palace guards in sight seemed to obey him.At this moment, even his father An Lushan, the emperor of "Dayan", might not be taken seriously by him. Stepping into the palace, ear-piercing snores could be heard from the inner palace, and the sporadic maids standing sideways were expressionless.The guard waved his hand, and all the maids in the palace left the palace. Shen Zhenzhu just glanced at the guard, but felt her whole body went numb, her acupuncture points had been hit, and she couldn't move.The guard picked her up and walked towards the inner hall. The fear in Shen Zhenzhu's heart has reached the extreme, she really doesn't know what this guard is going to do to her, who is this person in the inner palace. The guard tiptoed into the inner hall softly, Shen Zhenzhu looked up and saw the huge transparent gauze curtain in the middle of the hall, with bright yellow tassels as the curtain, and huge candles shining brightly, like daytime.A person in the tent stood tall with a strong belly, covering his face, snoring loudly, and there was a strange smell coming from him. Hearing the very soft sound of opening the cabinet, she loosened her body, and was sent into a wardrobe by the guard. This wardrobe was taller than a person, and the inside was very large. The guard straightened her body, and she was sitting in it against the wall. .Then it was dark again, and the guard had already closed the wardrobe door. Although it is closed, the door of the wardrobe is not made of a whole piece of wood to seal it, but has sparse gaps across it. Sitting and standing like this, Shen Zhenzhu can see the outside through the gaps, although she can't get a glimpse of the whole thing. , can be seen clearly.There was a slight movement in her heart. An Qingxu wanted her here deliberately. What exactly did he want her to see? She looked outside, and saw that the wardrobe was standing opposite the big bed, and the person on the bed was still soundly asleep. After waiting for a while, he heard footsteps coming in, and vaguely saw a person in a blue brocade robe and leather boots approaching the bed curtains, but she was sitting in a low position, and only below the neck could be seen, and the face of this person could not be seen , but it is certain that it is not the guard just now. The man stood by the bed for a long time without speaking. After a long time, the man finally opened his mouth and called out in a deep voice: "Royal Father." It was An Qingxu's voice. He also called the person on the bed "Father Emperor".The person on the bed must be An Lushan.