Chapter 29 Chapter Seventy-Five

Shen Zhenzhu drove his horse across the vast wilderness like lightning. Her mind was in a daze, she just drove the horse and galloped wildly, regardless of whether it was turning around repeatedly or lost its way. How ridiculous, she thought she could really save him?She thought she came back to help him?It turned out that everything was planned by others, how ridiculous she is, such a clever person, if he hadn't seen the opportunity and made a decisive decision, from the moment Chen Zhou assassinated, it would have been irreversible. She still hurt him. It turned out that she was really tiring, and she was useless.

She has been so smart all her life, how clumsy and ridiculous! He should hate her, what is she doing back and forth?Come to make trouble?To harm him? He has long lost her in his heart, so why can't she forget and let go? She bit her lip hard, a little blood oozing from between her lips and teeth. How much she wanted to cry up to the sky, but she couldn't cry. She swung the whip to urge the horse to run fast, but after crossing the desert today, the horse had been driven to run for so long by her, its legs had long been exhausted, after being whipped a few times by her, its front hooves gave up and it rolled down on the ground.

Shen Zhenzhu was thrown off the horse, Gululu rolled a few times before stopping, her vest was pinched by a stone, and her mind was a little clear. The setting sun was already dark, the sky was gloomy, and there was a sudden wind. There was thin grass under her feet, and she looked the same in all directions. There were no trees, no grass, no mountains, and she couldn't tell the direction. She doesn't need to know the direction.She got up, left the horse rashly, and walked forward aimlessly. The wind is getting stronger and stronger, dark clouds are slowly accumulating in the sky, "cracking", a flash of lightning flashes across the sky, and heavy rain pours down.Since entering Huihe, I have never seen a single inch of rain in the grasslands and deserts. Is it a coincidence of heaven that gave such a good rain today?

The rain hit her body mercilessly, she was drenched all over, and the rain kept flowing along her clothes, and she had become a rain man.She didn't stop and continued to walk in the rain. She slipped and fell from time to time, and was covered in mud. She got up and walked again. She suddenly remembered what Murong Linzhi said after being rescued after being humiliated: "You know, the night I was rescued by senior brother, it was also such a heavy rain... I seemed to escape from a nightmare... I seemed to be desperately going Running forward, the rain hit me in the face like crazy, but I didn't care."

Even if she left the Luoyang Palace more than two years ago and was drenched in the rain and had a high fever, it was far from being worth the pain she is suffering today. Only then did she fully understand Lin Zhi's grief and despair back then. She only hoped that the rain would be bigger and more intense, and let her release all her pain in this rain. If there is a kind of love, there is a kind of pain, which can never be obtained, and can never be let go, can this rain help her release, help her escape.Dreams, reality, fantasy, all cleaned up, completely clean. She burst into tears in the rain.

The heavy rain poured down, washing away all the traces of her tears and the traces of her walking. She heard the faint sound of horseshoes and calling in the distance, mixed with the sound of thunder and rain, coordinated with the sound of thunder and rain, and submerged in it in a trance. Everything fell into the rain. Gradually, the thunder became quieter and disappeared.The sound of hoofbeats and the voice calling to her became more and more clear. A small forest appeared in front of her.She walked slowly into the forest, dodged behind a big tree, and closed her eyes. Sure enough, the sound of horseshoes was approaching, many people were calling her name, and there was a faint voice of silent sips, just separated by a few trees, so close.

She stood still behind the tree until the sounds faded away. Sip silently, I disappear without a trace, you must be very anxious, and you will definitely send people to look for it.Don't worry, I won't commit suicide or let anything happen to me.Tomorrow, I will go back, okay, if you want, I will always be with you from now on.Just tonight, I just want to be here and not be disturbed by anyone.I just want to be in this rain, in this independent and lonely world.And let me be willful for a while. She slipped slowly and sat down under the tree with her head buried deep in her knees.Listen to the heavy rain passing through the forest, making crackling noises.

After an unknown amount of time, she finally raised her head, startled: through the curtain woven by dense rain, a light and shadow stood less than five steps away from her. He shouldn't be here; how could he be here? She was a little confused for a moment, then smiled faintly in her heart, lowered her head, pretending that she didn't see anyone or anything. "Everyone is looking for you, go back!" Li Yu said in a calm voice, as if trying to persuade irrelevant passers-by. "I will go back, but not now." Shen Zhenzhu replied lightly, still sitting in the same place without moving.

"Let's go!" Li Yu suddenly took two big steps and pulled her up with a hint of anger. Shen Zhenzhu shook off his hand, stumbled out of the woods, surrounded by rain, this is very good, walking in any direction is not bad.She was a little confused, didn't choose the way, and walked forward at will. She tripped and fell to the ground. She suddenly lightened and was pulled up from the ground. She looked at him perplexedly: "Why are you still following me?" She tried to push him away, but her whole body was exhausted. She vaguely remembered that it had been nearly a day and a night without water, so it was no wonder her whole body was weak. She laughed to herself, so Give up pushing and shoving, turn around and walk in the other direction.His legs went limp, and he slipped and fell again.This time, he exhausted all his strength, but he still couldn't get up.

"Pearl—" he started suddenly, then stopped abruptly.She looked up at him sideways, the rain was so heavy, the rain hit her face and eyes, it hurt so much, she couldn't open her eyes, let alone see his face clearly.She smiled sadly, feeling that he was covering her properly, her consciousness was no longer clear, she slapped him indiscriminately and feebly, she just yelled, "Get out of the way, get out of the way..." until she lost all consciousness little by little . ... cold, so cold. Why is she so cold? Where is she, fetching ice from the ice cellar of the palace and making a pot of good tea for him?

where is he? After three o'clock at night, even if he is busy with business, he should come back, right? Where are you, are you back? Chu, Chu—— She called out loudly. Someone was embracing her indistinctly, holding her cold hand tightly, and the warmth came over her. She opened her eyes in a daze, raised her head, and really saw him, she caressed his thin cheek with her slender hand, Yiyi said: "I'm back." He didn't say a word, just looked at her deeply. A sudden gust of wind came, she shivered, curled up, unconsciously got closer to him, and murmured: "It's cold, I'm so cold—" He hesitated for a moment, then exerted more strength to hold her tightly in his arms, but he didn't speak, his eyes were dark, and he looked at her deeply and deeply. She felt her mind wandering, everything was blurred like an illusion, she lightly opened her red lips, "You—" Her appearance was very seductive, he suddenly covered his lips and teeth, biting her cheeks lightly, she suddenly Feeling more warmth all over his body, he hugged his body back.Her slender fingers touched his bare back, and for a moment his body trembled suddenly as if struck by electricity, then he lowered his head again and slowly put her down, his breath was hot and scorching, but she was so attached and intoxicated. "Ding", something fell to the ground softly, she couldn't care less, and he didn't seem to hear it either.She blended with his lips and teeth, indulging in the blazing passion... Dream, dream again! Shen Zhenzhu's first consciousness after waking up was that she was dreaming, and she felt ashamed: it was such an absurd dream. She opened her eyes and sat up, looked left and right, and couldn't help being stunned: she was actually sitting in a pile of soft grass, this was a small cave, outside the cave there was the sound of rain, and a ray of dawn shone through the cave. Why is she here?Her memory came back—yesterday, she rode wildly, it rained heavily, she cried, and... Li Yu... Far away, a small pile of firewood was burning. Li Yu half-opened his clothes, dazed, and was adding dead branches into the fire. When he heard the sound, he raised his head to look at her—— Shen Zhenzhu was startled, looked back at herself, she was only wearing a thin coat, moreover, the clothes were dry and smelled of drying firewood.Isn't she soaked all over?How come, how come? She said in a trembling voice: "Last night, us?—" She was just asking him for confirmation with her last fantasy, but she already understood in her heart: last night she was extremely hurt and desperate, confused, confused, Blunder. Although the wound on Li Yu's abdomen had been re-applied with medicine, it was still horrifying.He covered the front of his clothes, walked over, put the clothes beside her, and said, "I've already dried them, so put them on, after a while the rain will clear, and they will definitely find them." Turning his head, "Last night It's my fault." At this point, the words in her mouth seemed to froze suddenly, Shen Zhenzhu was in pain and embarrassment, at this moment, she had clearly decided to sever everything with him, but she was so unable to hold herself, who can blame her ?She picked up the clothes, turned her back, and slowly got dressed, but saw the dagger that Mo Yan sips as a gift fell aside, her heart skipped a beat, she bent down to gently pick it up, and put it in her arms. Li Yu let out a long breath, still facing her with his hands behind his back, silent for a long time, finally as if making up his mind, he said: "Come back with me, Shi'er, he is always clamoring for a mother." Shen Zhenzhu smiled wryly: "Is Shi'er alright?" "Of course it's good, but, even though Suci takes care of her, a child without a mother will be pitiful." Tears welled up in Shen Zhenzhu's eyes: "I know, and I don't worry—you promised me that you will treat Shi'er well." Qiang suppressed her tears, and asked again: "Sister Hanruo, how about you? " Li Yu turned to look at her, his eyes were as deep as the sea, and after a while he replied, "Very good." Shen Zhenzhu nodded, stood up, and forced a smile: "This is very good, so I feel relieved. I have also promised to silently sip, and I will live in Huihe forever and be with him." "You!" Li Yu's eyes narrowed, and a ray of anger floated up. Before Shen Zhenzhu could react, he wrapped his hands tightly around her shoulders and said angrily: "I know you blame me for annoying me, and hate me for wanting you to die that day, blame me If I didn't save you from Yecheng, I blamed me for being indifferent to you yesterday. But you know how much I hate you, how much I hate you—" He shook her frail body violently and out of control, making her dizzy, She closed her eyes and replied intermittently: "Yes, I should hate, and now I should hate even more - I empathize with others, abandon my husband and son, I am the most hateful and shameful woman in the world, I—" "No!" Li Yu stopped her from continuing. His hands squeezed her shoulders and clavicles as if they were about to shatter. His eyes seemed to burst into flames, and he said word by word: "It's not the reason. : I know, I have always known: you, you have never empathized with anyone." Shen Zhenzhu's whole body was awe-inspiring, she stopped struggling, and listened to him, "I hate you: you don't believe me so much, and you let go so easily." Me, leave me alone like this! Once upon a time I told you: As long as you believe in me, I will take care of everything. Why don't you believe in me, why? Why is this, why?—” Why, why?The suffocating despair bit into Shen Zhenzhu's heart again. The matter of Chen Zhou's assassination was only God's will, there was no room for maneuver, she could only leave him far away, and must not tire him any longer!What's more, there is already Zhang Hanruo who is more beautiful than before. Zhang Hanruo's beauty, intelligence and ability are not comparable to her. Zhang Hanruo is the best person to accompany him. Why, why?How can there be so many reasons in this world, she only wants him to have the most satisfactory ending, fulfill her long-cherished wish, and rule the world. She slowly closed her eyes and shook her head, intending to break free from his restraint: "Yes, I don't believe you. Despite all kinds of affection, you always make me sad. I would rather be alone than be by your side." "So these two years, you would rather live so hard in Wu Xing than come back again!" He drove in and glared at her, his fiery stare forced her to open her eyes. It turned out that he knew everything, so he already knew it! "No, I'm not bitter at all, I'm very happy." She didn't lie, Wu Xing has been in two years, a rare tranquility.So she raised her head, looked at him seriously and calmly, and answered him clearly and clearly. He stopped talking. Facing this answer, the hands holding her shoulders gradually loosened. He took two steps back, panting lightly, and looked at her in pain and helplessness. His eyes seemed to have lost the most precious treasure in the world. Shen Zhenzhu's heart ached, she turned her head away, not daring to meet his gaze.There are so many things in life that can be thought of in one thought, if she fits into his arms right now, it will be a different story. However, she still retreated step by step, turning her head to look at him again, seemingly firm and decisive, retreating step by step.He took a step forward, and stretched out a hand behind him, holding her tightly.When she turned her head, it was silently sipping. Cheng Yuanzhen and several others rushed in at the same time, Cheng Yuanzhen supported Li Yu, and asked anxiously: "Your Highness, your injury?" Li Yu waved his hand weakly: "It's okay." Your wound is open, and this subordinate will re-apply the medicine to bandage you." Li Yu sat down on the ground slumped, looking indifferently at the pile of firewood that was about to perish, without making a sound, and let Cheng Yuanzhen bandage him Prescription. Mo Yan Chuo is so smart, seeing the situation before him, there must be a huge storm between Li Yu and Shen Zhenzhu, and judging from the situation, both sides will suffer. Shen Zhenzhu held his arm and said in a low voice: "Let's go. I'm hungry and thirsty. If you want me to stay in Huihe for a long time, you can't let me starve to death today." She tried her best to smile , but the voice was hoarse and there was no smile, silently looking at her eyes, he felt a dull pain in his heart, without saying a word, he took her hand and left. "Sip in silence," Shen Zhenzhu said softly after walking out of the cave, "What I said to you yesterday was completely out of my heart. However, last night, I did another wrong thing. I... I really can't bear it anymore. No face to you. What you said before, just let it go." Mo Yan's grip on her hand suddenly tightened, she said "ah" softly, seeing Mo Yan's lips pursed and staring straight ahead, her face suddenly twitched Next, the expression seemed to be trying to suppress the pain, but also seemed to hold back some words. She was filled with guilt, and said: "It's my fault, please scold me a few words, and it will make me feel better." Slowly withdrew her hand, stretched out her arm silently, grabbed her wrist, and stared at her After a long time, Fang Ruo came back to his senses and said, "You misunderstood. I was just thinking: Huihe, you have no relatives, are you afraid?" Shen Zhenzhu tried to smile and said: "With you here, what else is there to be afraid of?" Moyan Chuo also slowly laughed to himself, walked forward and said: "Yeah, I am so happy that I am dizzy, um, I mean, if one day I die and am gone, you are in Huihe What should I do if I have no relatives?" Shen Zhenzhu felt as if someone had knocked on her chest with a big chime, she jumped wildly with a bang, she raised her head and said, "What did you say?!" Mo Yan sneered and laughed loudly: "Look at you, I just joked a few words casually, and then I took it seriously! Will I die so easily?" Seeing his hearty smile, Shen Zhenzhu settled down, and said with a smile, "Isn't that true? You are a great hero of Huihe, a glorious Khan, how could it be so easy to disappear!" Mo Yanchu even laughed loudly: "Then you should spend more time with me, the glorious khan of ancient and modern times, and be careful that I suddenly disappear one day, so don't regret it for the rest of your life!" The rain gradually stopped, and Moyan helped her get on the horse, and handed her the water bag that came with the horse to quench her thirst.This cave is located in the northwest of the oasis, and it is very hidden.Last night, Shen Zhenzhu went ahead alone on horseback, silently sipping away, she didn't pay much attention to it, and later when the group returned to the house, they realized that Shen Zhenzhu had not returned, so they became anxious and searched separately.After discovering the horse that Shen Zhenzhu had discarded, Mo Yanchu became even more flustered, fearing that Shen Zhenzhu would not be able to think about it for a while, and something big would happen.Because the heavy rain washed away Shen Zhenzhu's footprints, and the western field is very large, everyone wandered around but separated.Although Mo Yanchuo knew about this cave, but thinking that Shen Zhenzhu wanted to avoid it on purpose, and the cave entrance was hidden, she probably wouldn't go to the cave entrance. Today, after dawn, it rained a little less, and he found that Li Yu's horse was outside the cave. Just searched in. After Shen Zhenzhu finished drinking the water, Mo Yan smirked and said: "There is another piece of good news - Zhe Miyi has arrived!" Shen Zhenzhu had been forced to laugh all the time, and only now did she really show off her face: "So fast? Didn't you say there are still more than ten days?" Mo Yan smirked and said: "This silly girl, as soon as she received the letter I sent, she was so anxious, she brought her husband with her, and rushed here day and night." Although Zhe Miyi has been married for many years and has given birth A girl, but in Mo Yanchu's eyes and mouth, she will always be that little girl back then.