Chapter 15 Chapter 61: What’s Sad in the World

The night is endless. Shen Zhenzhu walked in the damp and dark corridor, there were no candles or lights, and the surroundings were as dark as a nether world.She walked aimlessly. The road is long and long, and it seems to have no end. She didn't feel scared or tired, and kept walking, as if she was used to walking in the dark. Vaguely, the four walls collided, and the voice calling her was intermittent.That voice was very familiar, but for some reason, her heart shuddered, and she just wanted to stay away from it.As if feeling her resistance, gradually, the voice finally stopped calling her, and she continued to walk forward.

The corridor became narrower and narrower, she pushed open the stone doors, and the gloomy music slowly moved towards her, as if to greet her. She walked towards the music as a matter of course, and seemed to see hands welcoming her in the dark, she laughed inexplicably, and stretched out her hand to hand herself over—— Suddenly, she heard a soft scolding, and a white light flashed in front of her. She screamed and took two steps back, the sky became bright before her eyes, and the music suddenly stopped. "Wake up, wake up!" There was a cry of joy in my ears.In front of him was a blurred face.She blinked and looked carefully, and Li Yu's ecstatic delicate face became clearer and clearer.

"Thank God, sister-in-law, you finally woke up from a coma for seven days and seven nights!" Li Ruo clasped her hands together and murmured. Everything that happened before the coma came back at this moment, Shen Zhenzhu smiled wryly: she is not dead yet.In the past few years, she has had countless adventures, and every time she survived the danger, did God bless her extraordinarily, or punish her extraordinarily? This is still the inner room where she lived in Zhuang Jingdian, she tried to raise her hands to sit up, but she had no strength in her body.Li Ruo saw her intentions, leaned forward and held her down and said, "Don't move around, your life was picked up by sister Lin Zhi with great difficulty. If you don't look at it... it depends on sister Lin Zhi's face and hard work." .”

Shen Zhenzhu murmured: "Lin Zhi..." Her voice was hoarse, and her chest ached even more, the pain was unspeakable.Li Ruo listened closely to understand what she meant, and said with a smile: "It's Sister Lin Zhi, she just came to Luoyang to visit her mother, Mrs. Murong. She cured your illness and went to Chang'an again, leaving a prescription , Said to take the medicine according to the prescription, and you will be cured within three months." For the next few days, Li Ruo accompanied Shen Zhenzhu's bed every day. Shen Zhenzhu had difficulty speaking for a while, so she talked nonsense with Shen Zhenzhu every day.According to what Li Ruo said, it turned out that the eldest grandson E had passed away for more than half a year, and Murong Linzhi studied medical science diligently, and he was able to cure Shen Zhenzhu's disease.

Li Ruo talked about everything, except for the occasional gleam of melancholy between her brows, compared to her innocence back then, she didn't seem to have changed much.But Shen Zhenzhu could tell that she was trying her best to accompany and take care of herself. Once she passed through the years and experienced growth, her frivolous and willful youth would never go back. Li Yu seemed to have a tacit understanding with Shen Zhenzhu, and never mentioned Li Chu to her, as if there was no such person at all.And Li Chu also seems to have disappeared, and he has never been seen for several days.

Not seeing him, Shen Zhenzhu's mood was peaceful and serene, and no one came to visit her except Li Ruo. She took various medicines every day, and the time of sleeping was much longer than the time of waking up, and her body recovered even more it is good. On the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, the Lantern Festival, there was a report from a court lady early in the morning: Murong Lin asked to see her. Murong Linzhi entered the room in plain clothes and simple makeup.Shen Zhenzhu forced the maid to sit up with the embroidered pillow behind her, and greeted her with a smile.After a year, Murong Linzhi's appearance and complexion have changed again. When I saw her in Fengxiang last year, I felt that her temperament was like a plum like a bamboo. When I saw her again today, I felt that there was more handsome and free-spirited in the brows, the delicate and delicate air of the daughter of the aristocratic family back then. It has completely disappeared, and every gesture is full of everyone's demeanor of being alone.

Murong Linzhi has shown the demeanor of a generation of famous doctors and national hands. Murong Linzhi sat down and said, "Sister Shen, do you know where your illness is?" Shen Zhenzhu knew that what she said had a deep meaning, at this time she was no longer as difficult to speak as before, she thought for a while and smiled and replied: "You are a goddess doctor, and I am a patient, just let me be lazy for a while, and listen to your diagnosis and treatment. road." Murong Linzhi looked at her and said softly: "Your illness is that you pursue perfection too much."

"Perfect?" Shen Zhenzhu repeated softly, feeling incredible, and asked, "How do you say that?" "This is what I have only realized in the past two years. In this world, everything has flaws, no matter whether it is a person or a thing, there is never a perfect one. But you always hope for yourself, for Li Chu, for a perfect relationship between you and him. No blemishes. In order to maintain this superficial perfection, tell me, have you had a comfortable day for so many years? You have to plan everywhere, you have to be sad and troublesome, and you have to try your best to cover up your disagreements. Even so, You are still capable, you will not be able to satisfy everyone, and you are not a god-man, Li Chu is different from Tan, he has his ambition in the community, and he will never abandon the ancestral temple because of indulgence in love."

Shen Zhenzhu lowered her head and thought for a while, before she said: "I didn't expect you to come to comfort me today. Lin Zhi, you have detached views now, which makes me feel ashamed." Murong Linzhi said: "Actually, I was the same as you back then. I thought that being with you was the happiest and most perfect thing in the world. Unexpectedly, disasters would follow one after another. I lost my memory and recovered. I was in pain and felt that since the perfection of life had been broken What's the point of life if it's broken? But when I heard the news of Tan's death, I realized that there is no perfect thing that is reliable. If it is torn, it can be thrown away. Life must go on, right? If this life is only Diligent pursuit of perfection like a mirage is like drinking poison to quench thirst, and you can't live a lifetime of cheating for a while."

"Are you the one I want to throw away?" Shen Zhenzhu murmured. Murong Linzhi smiled: "That depends on yourself. If you still can't leave him, then forgive him, let him do everything, don't be attached to your own emotions, only in this way can he be fulfilled." "You said it was giving up and compromising," Shen Zhenzhu closed her eyes and said softly, "Apart from these two paths, is there no other path to choose?" "I know you can't bear it, you can't bear to choose whichever you choose," Murong Linzhi gently put his hand on the back of Shen Zhenzhu's hand, "I can only think of these two ways, Pearl, with your understanding of everything in the world, or We can find a better solution."

After saying this, she was amazed to see Shen Zhenzhu's eyes filled with tears suddenly, Shen Zhenzhu's eyes sparkled, and she said in a choked voice: "Maybe, I can't think of a better way. It's just that what you said today is right , Introspecting myself, I realized that I used to be too persistent, too selfish, and self-righteous in many things, and eventually exhausted myself. No matter what, I finally know what to do in the future." Murong Linzhi saw that her expression was sad yet somewhat resolute, although he didn't know how she would choose, he felt very relieved.She told Shen Zhenzhu some stories before and after Changsun E's death. Changsun E died at an advanced age. Murong Linzhi said again: "I have visited my lord mother this time, and I will travel around in two days to treat illnesses and save lives." Shen Zhenzhu was a little worried: "The world is in chaos now, you have to protect yourself well." Murong Linzhi smiled confidently: "You don't have to worry about this. I am familiar with medical techniques and pharmacology, so I naturally have a unique way to protect myself. But in the palace, it seems that there are guards everywhere, but in fact, you can hurt people everywhere. Be cautious." Shen Zhenzhu slept very early that night, the outside was quiet and the snow was falling silently, the incense was elegant and pleasant, and someone vaguely stroked her forehead gently, standing in front of her bed for a long time.After a long time, she quietly opened her eyes, and saw the back of the purple shirt slowly disappearing from her eyes, and a tear finally slipped from the corner of her eyes. After the first lunar month, Li Shi was sent from Chang'an to Luoyang by the nuns. With Li Shi Chenghuan at his knees, Shen Zhenzhu's recovery seemed to be faster. On the evening of March 16th, when Shen Zhenzhu was talking to Li Yu, the court lady hurried inside to report: the emperor and concubine Shu have arrived.It turned out that the recent counter-insurgency went unexpectedly smoothly. Cangzhou, Yingzhou, Anzhou, Shenzhou, Dezhou, and Dizhou all surrendered. Most of Hebei has been recovered. Now the spring is warm and flowers are blooming. Suzong’s health is not good after the year. Then he and concubine Shu came to Luoyang to travel and recuperate for a few days. Shen Zhenzhu and Li Wei came out of the palace in full makeup to meet them, and then they went to the outer corridor, and there was an order from the servants in front, saying that the emperor is tired, so he doesn't need to see him today.That's all for the two of them, just about to turn around and go back, Shen Zhenzhu suddenly felt the figure in front of her flicker, caught off guard, someone had already thrown her head into her arms, and made her take a few steps back again and again, the person who came was already knelt on the ground, Grabbing her skirt with both hands, she cried out, "Miss!—" Shen Zhenzhu came back to her senses, looked at the person in front of her carefully, she couldn't help being both surprised and happy, and helped her up: "Suci, what are you, what are you..." Looking closely, she saw that her appearance had worn out a lot, but she could From being unconscious to standing in front of him alive is really a happy event from heaven. Su Ci cried and shook her head and refused to get up, wiped her tears and said: "Princess Jianning, oh no, Miss Murong cured me." Shen Zhenzhu had asked Murong Linzhi earlier, and she knew that she had specially gone to Chang'an to treat Su Ci. .It's just that Su Ci's injury is also serious, and she must not fully recover now, so it's really not easy to come to Luoyang to see her.Together with Li Ruo, Suci was lifted up, and they went back to the room to talk. As soon as Su Ci entered the room, she knelt down and kowtowed again: "Miss, I am the one who is sorry for you. Your Highness thought you had been killed by An Qingxu that day, so I missed you too much and drank too much alcohol. Who knows... His Highness mistakenly took me for a young lady... Su Ci is really shameless in the world, please let me die!" Shen Zhenzhu heard the whole story of this matter for the first time, and she felt deeply saddened by Su Ci and helped her. She said: "What are you guilty of? All the crimes were caused by me, don't worry... No matter what happens from now on, I have already told His Highness that he will definitely give you and the child." Su Ci hurriedly shook her head and said, "No, Miss, I don't want anything. I don't want to stay in this palace, and I don't want a title." Shen Zhenzhu sighed: "If you have no title, how will you and your child get along with each other in the future? Right now, the world is chaotic, so don't think about it." But Su Ci seemed to be crying anxiously, and said: "Miss, I really, really...don't!" Shen Zhenzhu sees her appearance is extremely pitiful, thinks that she really cares about Feng Shengyi, and she insists on refusing to be named because of this, how can she force it?Furthermore... While thinking about it, he said: "Okay, I'll talk about this matter later, you have to travel hundreds of miles, you should rest earlier." Call the maid to arrange a place for Su Ci, and lead her to rest. After she left the inner room, Li Ruo smiled and said: "Look at Su Ci's appearance, my sister-in-law said that she would give her a title, but she is so scared like a scourge." Say no more. Shen Zhenzhu didn't seem to notice her small movements, and said softly: "You don't know Suci's mind." Li Ruo raised her eyebrows, stood up and walked a few steps casually in the room, and stood a few times before moving the utensils on the plaything. After a long time, she said, "Then what's on your mind, sister-in-law? Why am I getting more and more tired?" Can't figure it out." Shen Zhenzhu smiled at her and said, "Why can't you figure it out? Tell me about it?" "In the few days when my sister-in-law just woke up, she seemed to be hopeless, sad and hopeless, but these few days, she was extremely free and easy. I don't know what Murong Linzhi said to you, I only know that this time it must be the emperor Brother made you heartbroken. With the current appearance, have you figured it out and planned to forgive Brother Huang, or...do you not want Brother Huang any more?" She finished speaking in one breath, and turned her head to look at Shen Zhenzhu's face. Her eyes seemed to want to see her true inner thoughts. However, Li Ruo still sighed and said, "Your eyes are too deep. If you don't want to tell me, I can't see it either. You don't know, I'm very scared. I've been very confused these days. I've never been this way. .Is there a storm coming? Not only I am afraid, but also he..." "Baby," Shen Zhenzhu gently hugged Li Ruo's shoulders, "You don't have to be afraid. No matter what happens in the future, I hope you can help him. It's gone. You are very important to him." Li Yu was startled, grabbed Shen Zhenzhu's hand, and said in a loud voice: "Why do you say such things, you are the most important thing to the emperor, do you want to leave him? No, no! I'm going Tell him!" While speaking, she was about to rush out, but Shen Zhenzhu grabbed her sleeve and dragged her back. Shen Zhenzhu smiled lightly: "You girl, you are so crazy, you don't look like a princess. I just said if, when Did you say you were leaving? Well, if you don’t believe me, from tonight onwards, you will rest with me and take good care of me for your brother, so you can rest assured!” After listening to Shen Zhenzhu's words, Li Ruo was skeptical, and really washed and washed in Zhuang Jingdian, and slept with Shen Zhenzhu.