Chapter 13 Chapter Fifty-ninth Jinjiang Wind Shakes Clouds and Clouds

In a blink of an eye, Shen Zhenzhu and Li Shi had already stayed in Luoyang Palace for seven or eight days.On that day, as soon as she arrived in Luoyang and was settled in the Zhuangjing Hall in the palace, she wrote a letter to Li Chu, but Li Chu didn't say a word to her except for sending an imperial physician to Luoyang.She knew he was really angry, but what else could she do?She was in a corner, deceiving herself and others, but she just kept herself from obstructing his journey. The only thing that hurts her heart is that she can't stop it. The imperial physician often feels her pulse and shakes her head, saying: "My concubine's depression is too deep, and her spleen and soil are stagnant. There are hundreds of harms but no benefits."

She smiled calmly until she sent the imperial physician away.She wandered through the unfamiliar streets and alleys of Luoyang, watched the snow scene and stared at the stars in the cold winter, or cooked a pot of tea and waited for the dawn. She had never been so free, never so lost, never so empty. This world is so close to Chang'an, yet so far away. There is no Li Chu and no imperial power. However, it seems that there is him everywhere, that invisible world. On the nineteenth day of the twelfth lunar month, all the maids in the palace greeted him early in the morning to congratulate him on his birthday.Knowing that it was Yan Minglu's tone, Shen Zhenzhu saw that everyone was showing affection but was disrespectful, so she ordered to buy more dishes and drinks, and serve everyone well for dinner.

It was the first day after the snow, and it was a rare fine weather, so Shen Zhenzhu took Li Shi and Li Shi to Zhemiyi Mansion to play.Li Chengyi and Zhe Miyi did not live in the palace, but lived in King Bin's residence in Tongtuofang. Jianyu walked in a leisurely manner, Li Shi was embraced by the palace maid, opened the curtain yelling, poked his head out to look around.The New Year's Eve is approaching, and the weather is fine, the streets are full of goods and goods, and the city is bustling with people and women. Children like to be lively, and Li Shi has lived in the palace for a long time. Naturally, he loves such scenes, and his mouth is squeaking. Yeah, talking to the maid.Shen Zhenzhu looked at her son with a smile, she felt happy for a while, but also lost for a while.

Zhe Miyi's complexion was much rosier than the previous few days, when he saw Shen Zhenzhu, he laughed and sent Li Chengchen to take Li Shi to play.Although the two uncles and nephews have known each other not long ago, they are very compatible. Zhe Miyi said: "Li Chengchen has recovered from his injuries, we are going to Chang'an tomorrow." Shen Zhenzhu was faintly disappointed: "So fast?" "One is to pay homage to the Supreme Emperor, and the other is," she smiled generously, "The New Year's Eve is approaching, I heard from Cheng Chen that we still have a lot of etiquette to show to all uncles and kings!" Although she and Li Chengyi It has been a year since they got married, but due to the fall of Chang'an, they have not formally met the princes and clan kings, so this ceremony has to be seriously made up no matter what.

Zhe Miyi seemed helpless and said: "You Han people have so many etiquettes, I am really exhausted!" She said so, her expression was relaxed and natural, she was open-minded by nature, and she didn't take things that others would be cautious about. A big mistake in etiquette is not a big deal in her mind. Shen Zhenzhu really admired her temperament, and said: "The grassland, desert, and Gobi are really beautiful!" A gleam of light flashed in Zhemiyi's eyes: "Yes, after Chengcheng and I have fulfilled the etiquette in Chang'an, we will return to Dunhuang. There is freedom there, we can ride horses, hunt, watch the stars and the moon..." The language is infinite Longing, holding Shen Zhenzhu's hand, said: "It's a pity that you were in Huihe in the bitter cold back then, and you couldn't appreciate the beautiful scenery of the north and south of the desert."

Shen Zhenzhu smiled slightly: "There are so many beauties in the world, I am indeed too persistent." Zhe Miyi was overjoyed when he heard the words, looked left and right, and saw Li Chengyi leading Li Shi to play away, grabbed Shen Zhenzhu's hand, and said in a low voice: "If you change your mind and are willing to go to the desert, Khan can't do it anytime. waiting for you!" Only then did Shen Zhenzhu realize that she had misunderstood her meaning, her face flushed, and she said in embarrassment: "You are talking nonsense!" Zhe Miyi sighed and said: "I see your expression recently, although you don't want to tell me, you are very sad. I have told you a lot before to persuade you. You always have your own plans, never Be willing to listen to me, after Cheng Cheng and I leave, you will be very lonely in Luoyang, which is really worrying."

After having a simple dinner in King Bin's residence, he was dragged by Zhe Miyi to talk until very late before heading back to the palace. According to the calculations, this is actually her sixth birthday after marrying Li Chu. In the first year of her birthday, she was designed by Concubine Zhang Shu and Dugu Jing, and then captured by Mo Yanchuo. She spent it unknowingly in the bitter cold and blindness outside the Great Wall. In the second year's birthday, Li Chu had already agreed to celebrate her, but the day before the civil uprising occurred in Shan County, he was ordered to travel temporarily.

On the third birthday, An Lushan rebelled, and she was pregnant, so Li Chu went to Tongguan to guard. On the fourth birthday, she was imprisoned in Yeting, Luoyang Palace for An Qingxu. On the fifth birthday, Li Chu led an army to recover Chang'an and Luoyang, but she was not by her side either. It turns out that time flies, and there is no trace in an instant. How many six years can there be in life? The maid stripped off the palace lantern and led the way slowly. The light in the interior room was cold, and the wind blew past, but the heavy curtains and curtains fluttered around. In a trance, I saw his figure sitting upright a few years ago.She walked a few steps, but the heavy curtains and curtains were still dancing in all directions, making the huge inner room even more empty and lonely.

nothing. Such a big world, endless affairs, and desires. If she wants to wait, if she wants to wait, she will only be endlessly disappointed. Just like her, she originally wanted to hold the heart of "I would rather die together than split the clouds", but it might not be that important to him. Yet she still had no other choice. Women, do you want to sink for love all your life? The only choice is to continue to love and continue this kind of life. There are many beauties in the world, but she is indeed too persistent. The pain is clear and clear, so the pain is more thorough.

On December 20, Emperor Suzong issued an edict: the king of Guangping County, Chu, was named Taiwei, and he was granted the title of King of Chu; The king of the county is the king of Jing; Feng Zizhen is the king of Xiang, the king of Qiqi, the king of Sizhao, the king of Xingxing, and the king of Dongding.On the 21st, an edict was issued to confer the title of several princesses, among whom Li Ruo was canonized as Princess Hening.Suzong has not canonized the princes and princesses since he ascended to the throne, in order to wait for Xuanzong to return to the government. However, the military power is already in the hands of Suzong, how could Xuanzong ascend the throne without knowing the current affairs?After welcoming Xuanzong back from the middle of Shu and obtaining various seals and ribbons for passing on the throne, Suzong's name was justified, and he granted the titles to all his children one by one.

As of December 27th, no one in Chang'an came to welcome Shen Zhenzhu back, and Shen Zhenzhu seemed to have no plan to return to Chang'an, and rumors arose in the Luoyang Palace.Or it is said that the king of Chu and the princess are out of harmony, and the princess will fall out of favor; People in Luoyang Palace originally served Shen Zhenzhu as the future princess and empress, after such a rumor, everyone looked at Shen Zhenzhu differently. Yan Ming accidentally heard a few rumors, he was furious, and responded to Shen Zhenzhu indignantly.Before he finished listening to his words, Shen Zhenzhu interrupted: "Since you also know that it is a rumor, why bother to keep it in your heart to increase your annoyance." My son is the eldest grandson of the emperor, and he must go back to Chang'an to serve the emperor, and the emperor will observe the rules of the year, so you can escort him back!" Yan Ming agreed, knowing that Shen Zhenzhu would not go back, but worried about Shen Zhenzhu's safety.Shen Zhenzhu said with a smile: "there are many guards in the palace, you can only go back and forth for three or two days, so it shouldn't be a big problem." On New Year's Eve, Luoyang Palace was very lonely and desolate. In addition to Shen Zhenzhu, there are many concubines, princesses and princesses from the former dynasty who were captured by Anlu Mountain and brought to Yeting.At that time, An Lushan transported all the good-looking concubines, princesses, princesses, wives, court ladies, etc. who had not escaped in time to Luoyang for his pleasure. After Luoyang recovered, many concubines and wives returned to Chang'an or their own mansions. In the story, the court ladies were pardoned and released by Emperor Suzong, but there were still some women who were afraid of facing humiliation and did not want to return to Chang'an. Luoyang stayed behind and temporarily placed them in the palace. At that time, the restoration of the two capitals and the coming of the festive season, it was time for the whole world to celebrate together. However, these women in the Luoyang Palace felt sorry for their lives and made them feel even more mournful. Apart from the maids, how many people thought about putting up lanterns and festoons to celebrate this festive night ?More often, several people gather in one place, remembering the joys of the past, thinking about the pains of today, covering their faces and sobbing, or crying loudly. Shen Zhenzhu dismissed the accompanying maids and walked slowly in the palace confinement. Tonight, there were few stars and rivers. Only the people's houses outside the palace confinement set off firecrackers, "cracking" and "cracking", which can be heard endlessly.Prosperity and loneliness, joy and sorrow are often separated by a thin line.People in the world love the former and avoid the latter, but they don't know that in this process of flattering and escaping, half a lifetime just slips by like this. In a person's life, what can be grasped in the palm of the hand? Shen Zhenzhu gazed at the starry sky, and in the gap between joy and sorrow, she moved her skirt lightly and walked to the entrance of the Forbidden Garden unknowingly. There were guards guarding the entrance of the Forbidden Garden, but the Forbidden Garden is so small that it is difficult to compare with the Chang'an Diyuan. Now that the trees are withered and few people visit it, and the Forbidden Garden is not connected to the outer gate, it is not the focus of defense. The guards on duty tonight do not know where to hide Where did I go to be lazy and drink. Shen Zhenzhu walked to the forbidden garden alone.Sure enough, the trees were sparse, occasionally one or two leaves fell to the ground, and there was no sound. Shen Zhenzhu took a deep breath, and suddenly felt refreshed and much more comfortable.Especially in the past, there were always several people serving behind him, and he had to pay attention to every move and not lose his composure, which was really exhausting.Today is New Year's Eve, so you can always be free. She walked deeper and deeper, but she didn't feel afraid.Tired from walking, there are rockery and flowing springs, stone tables and stools in front of you, which are just for recreation and rest.I picked up fallen branches from the ground and gathered them in one place. Fortunately, the weather has been good these days, and those branches are easy to ignite.The fire was slowly ignited, she squatted on the ground slowly, leaning on the stone bench, her heart was extremely quiet, she looked up at the changes in the galaxy, and fell asleep. At first, the surroundings were warm and warm, and she slept very comfortably and peacefully. Gradually, the cold air hit her, and her limbs became colder and colder. After waking up from this sleep, she knew that it was no small matter.The sun was pouring down at noon, and he had slept for so many hours without realizing it.Sure enough, when I listened carefully, there was a faint voice of court ladies and guards calling for "Princess" in the distance. Hastily walked out of the Forbidden Garden, and was facing several maids stretching their necks to look around, when they saw her, they were much happier than picking up gold, they stepped forward to help, and each said: "Where is the princess going?" Yes, the servants have been looking for it all night, it is really scary!" One said: "His Highness has arrived, and he is furious in a hurry!" Entering the hall, he saw a large group of people knelt down from the inside to the outside, all of them held their breath and dared not speak, Li Chu's outer robe was not removed, he thought he had lost his temper, his complexion was ashen, but his anger was still burning.Looking up and seeing her coming in, her expression relaxed a lot. She stepped forward to meet her, grabbed her wrist tightly, and angrily said: "Where have you been? Luoyang is not a safe place. If there is any mistake, you call I--" Shen Zhenzhu saw that his face was full of dust, he must have just arrived, before he had time to rest, he found out that she had disappeared, he was too anxious.My heart is both grateful and sad.He lowered his head and gently withdrew his hand, and said in a low voice, "I made His Highness worry—" Li Chu's complexion changed suddenly, his brows were furrowed, and he waved impatiently at the kneeling maids, and the group of people walked away cleanly as if they had been pardoned. Shen Zhenzhu remained silent, she took two steps forward to untie the robe belt for him personally.Li Chu looked down and saw that her face was thin, her face was as white as porcelain, and there was no trace of blood. In the remaining anger, she felt guilty and pity, and forced herself to stabilize her inner breath, and said in a deep voice, "If I had known that it was like this in Luoyang Palace. In any case, I will take you back to Chang'an." Holding her shoulders, he paused, and said: "This period of time... I am really too busy, your birthday... In short, I am very sorry for you. live." Shen Zhenzhu pulled the outer robe into her arms, walked slowly to the inner room, looked around and said to him: "Shi'er is alright..." Smiling lightly, she finally couldn't help but said: "You and I have been married for five years, compared to five years ago and today, there is still no difference." Hearing her strange words, Li Chu couldn't help frowning: "What do you mean by that?" Shen Zhenzhu turned around and looked at him with a smile: "Five years as one day, wouldn't it be great!" Li Chu stared at her with gloomy eyes, pursed his lips without saying a word, quite sullen.After a while, he went up to help her to the couch and said, "I know you have a lot of resentment towards me. You have been in poor health recently, and today is a good day for the New Year. I don't want to argue with you. Just drink Yao Haosheng sleeps again, I will accompany you to watch the lanterns at night, and tomorrow we will pack up and go back to Chang'an." He spoke without doubt, simply ate a little food, and watched her drink the medicine.The medicine prescribed by the imperial physician has always contained the ingredients of calming the mind and improving sleep. Although she just fell asleep, she fell asleep soon after drinking the medicine. When he woke up, it was already dark and Li Chu was not by his side.I asked the maid, and said that His Highness went to Feixiang Hall alone.She wondered to herself, Feixiang Hall was always vacant, why did he go there?Feixiang Hall is very close to here, so she dressed up and walked slowly there. Feixiang Hall is a grand building, and Princess Taiping of the former dynasty must live here every time she comes to Luoyang.Even though it was vacant at this time, every time Shen Zhenzhu passed by, she always made a detour.Stepping up the jade steps step by step, approaching the main hall, Shen Zhenzhu felt very uncomfortable, as if there was a foreign object stuck in her throat, she waved to the maid of honor, turned around and was about to leave. However, the indistinct voices in the hall reached her ears at this moment. "...You and I..., let's put it aside..." The woman's soft voice was extremely familiar, and there was a bit of complaint in her tone. "You have to speak slowly." Li Chu's voice was very low. The woman sighed faintly, and said: "Your Highness really cares about Sister Shen, I really envy you..." When she said the word "Sister Shen", her voice raised slightly by half a degree, Shen Zhenzhu's heart clenched in horror, and her left hand unconsciously supported her. Live at the side hall door.This woman turned out to be Zhang Hanruo. But Li Chu was silent for a moment, and still said in a low voice: "The imperial physician has already said...she is too weak, I must never make her sad again..." Shen Zhenzhu heard something "here" in his chest, it was clear and ear-piercing, as if the strings of a piano had just been broken, and he couldn't hear the following words clearly. See you at the beginning of the new year, the palace lanterns are flickering, and the carved eaves are picturesque. However, it is no longer the bright moon of the old days, nor the scenery of the past. She slowly stretched out her hand to caress her chest - no pain, no pain at all, no pain like a thousand arrows. What was that noise?Is the heart broken, or is the heart torn apart? It feels good to be dull. Well, well, everything can be torn apart, everything can be smashed, well, well. Five years ago he kept hiding from her and avoiding her everywhere, and he still hides from her everywhere now. It turned out that she was so completely wrong - she was just his hindrance. Since he already has a beautiful woman by his side, why should she beg for his mercy. He accommodated her everywhere, just because of guilt, pity, and because she was Shi'er's mother. What is she still doing here?Since there is nothing left, why not leave quietly. Even if she persists until now, she has nothing left, and she has to leave with dignity. She turned sideways, raised her eyes, and with a smile on her face, she gestured to the two maids to go.She saw the horrified maid on her face, as if she wanted to step forward to help her.She secretly smiled: Could it be that my complexion is so bad that it scares them? She pushed away the maid, and walked down the jade steps by herself, one step, two steps... You are all too worried, I am fine, nothing is wrong. A fishy sweetness welled up in her throat, she stopped and opened her lips, spit out... "Ah! Princess, it's terrible!—" The maid screamed behind her. She turned around and looked blankly at the maid—what are you yelling at!Feeling dizzy, she leaned on the jade-step railing and stood firmly.Raising the sleeve and gently wiping the corner of the mouth, the sleeve was instantly stained with a small piece of bright red. It's just spitting out a mouthful of blood, what's the fuss about? As if nothing had happened, she slowly wiped away the scarlet from her lips. "Boom—" the door of the palace opened wide, and she saw Li Chu and Zhang Hanruo appearing at the door. She even smiled at Li Chu.Li Chu's eyes were deep, looking at him from a distance like this, I really don't know what he was thinking.hi?Is it anger?Is it sullen?Is it worry? So how close?How about holding your hand and sleeping with you? The result is generally indistinguishable. Zhang Hanruo's complexion changed, and he blurted out: "Sister Shen..." However, Li Chu pulled Zhang Hanruo's arm, and said in a broken voice, "Hurry up!" Zhang Hanruo was a little startled, took a few steps back to the back of the hall, and then disappeared without a trace. "Pearl," Li Chu walked towards her quickly, with a little panic in his words, even though it was dark, he could still see her pale face.He said anxiously: "Don't misunderstand!" Shen Zhenzhu shook her head with a smile, and wobbled back two steps towards the jade steps.The blood in his chest surged up, he supported the railing with one hand, and patted his chest with the other, and spit out two mouthfuls of blood with a "wow". What else can she do?She can finally give up completely! Li Chu's expression changed dramatically. He yelled her name wildly, and felt that his heart and lungs would burst instantly. His figure was as swift as lightning, and he rushed towards her, and at the moment she was about to fall, he lifted her into his arms middle. "It's my fault, it's my fault!" He had never been so frightened and panicked in his life, his mind was blank and unable to choose words, he just said repeatedly: "Don't do this, you can't be fine!" But her body was so slender and cold, she met his eyes, and she looked at him indifferently, as if looking at a stranger.Then, he saw that her eyes were gradually dimmed and slowly closed.He was so terrified that he could only call her name repeatedly. Suddenly, she opened her eyes, the light in her eyes was like water, and the waves reflected people, and she regained her spirit.This made him have an illusion, Ping Zeng hoped, bowed his head to touch her face, and said in a trembling voice: "I know, I know... Pearl, you scare me, you won't..." Shen Zhenzhu exhausted the last of her remaining strength, whispered into his ear, and said word by word: "Remember, what I told you once - if I leave one day, you must treat yourself well... With a sound of "uh", a big mouthful of blood spurted out from the side of the head, the world was dark, like falling into hell...