Chapter 27 5. Difficult love

I watched Feng Xiansu lead the cavalry out of the room unwillingly, and a subtle pleasure suddenly rose in my heart. However, in an instant, this euphoria made me feel worse about myself in the depths of my heart. She just said some things that I didn't want to hear and didn't dare to hear, but that doesn't mean those words didn't make sense... I knew it, but I still couldn't help but feel angry at her... It's not me, it's not Like me, I should at least have the courage to face the facts... But, where is my courage? I couldn't even look at the man who broke my heart right in front of me.

There are so many things I want to say to him, so many questions I have to ask him, but I dare not even raise my head right now. I'm afraid, I'm afraid that seeing that handsome face again will make my eyelashes filled with tears; I am afraid, I am afraid that if I touch that clear eyes again, I will lose my mind again. The room fell into a dead silence, as if the thrilling dispute not long ago had never happened, but... He killed Baili Chenfeng! He has been lying to me! He has ulterior motives! He is a traitor! The conclusions that popped out of Feng Xiansu's mouth took advantage of the silence at the moment, struggling to break out of my heart, no matter how hard I tried to suppress them, I couldn't prevent them from roaring and chilling my heart.

"Don't you have something to tell me?" He asked suddenly, still in that flat tone, but at this moment, it sounded so indifferent and alienated. I stood with cold hands and feet, and my body began to tremble slightly. Before waiting for my answer, he asked again indifferently: "What else can we say now?" ——The light tone, as if asking a stranger. Unable to bear it any longer, I suddenly raised my head and looked at him. He greeted me calmly with indifferent eyes, the expression on his face was not at ease, but careless and disdainful. ——Disdain to explain, disdain to beg, disdain to forgive.

Him, why is he doing this?How can he do this? So far, is he not even willing to say a comforting word to me? Things have come to this, is he even stingy with giving me a white lie? Once a man's heart is hardened, how can it be so terrifying! His expression, like a needle, suddenly pierced my heart. The tingling pain spread from a small point, and soon spread to the whole body, limbs and bones... I tried my best to straighten my spine, not wanting to be seen by him in a pitiful way of sagging and retreating. I couldn't bear the pain in my heart, so I suddenly chuckled. How can you not laugh?

If he really explained and begged me at this time, maybe I would not even be interested in listening, but he just made such a repulsive appearance... Heh, what Feng Xiansu said is absolutely correct—he, Xiao Zuo, knows better than anyone how to attract me and how to make me hard to part with him. Gong Fei Cui, Gong Fei Cui, admit it!This man is your nemesis, the nightmare that will never be eradicated in your life, you lose, lose completely! I raised my hands and covered my face with my fingers, shaking from laughing harder. I don't know if it's because laughing is sometimes more unbearable than crying, but I heard Xiao Zuo suddenly let out a slight sigh.

This sigh, with his unique softness, was like a gust of spring breeze, which suddenly warmed my cold heart. With the indifference just now, I finally saw him showing his normal state at this moment. I couldn't control myself at all. I immediately took my hands off my face and looked at him in surprise and joy... although he didn't say anything , but it has made me seem to see the turning point and light of the situation. Xiao Zuo, do you know that you have completely controlled my emotions? Xiao Zuo, do you know that you have firmly occupied my heart? If you really lied to me, even if I won't be heartbroken, I'm afraid it will be difficult for me to open my face again in this life.

If you really betray me, even though I won't give up on you, I'm afraid I won't be able to trust you again for the rest of my life. Xiao Zuo, this is the end of the matter, even if you really have ulterior motives, please give me a little final mercy and give me that knife! say!Xiao Zuo!say something! I stared at him with painful, urgent and apprehensive eyes, and only hoped that he would speak a word to relieve the haze in my heart because I had never lost my composure. After a while, he suddenly smiled at me, finally opened his mouth and said a word. "I am leaving, bye."

It was as if I was thrown into the bottomless river, a heart full of hope was still hanging there, but I was already sinking in the river... I watched Xiao Zuo smile, speak, turn around, and pull the door open, But I couldn't even say a word, I just felt that I was sinking deeper and deeper in the river... until the door of the room was closed with a "bang", and the river finally completely submerged me. I slowly closed my eyes, and at this moment, the past that I have experienced with him since we met, flashed through my mind bit by bit. ——The gentle eyes of the first time riding together among the green mountains and green waters, the tacit understanding of the heart when they embraced and jumped at the moment of the explosion, the relieved smile on the oasis of the Yellow River, the sad misunderstandings in the streets of the city, and the groves in the wilderness The language of love whispers in...

All of this, all of this, dissipated with a "bang" as he closed the door, and could never be reproduced, never found again. Eye sockets were slightly hot, but tears never flowed... Did I grow up, or did I have no more tears to shed? I don't know, but I'd rather be the former. Because, that at least shows that - I have not been destroyed by him yet. I still have the centuries-old reputation of the Gong family on my body, and my heart still bears the promise to my father. I can't, I can't just be ruined by a man like this. cannot! I took a deep breath, pinched my cheeks to make them look as rosy as possible, and walked out of the room quickly.

Standing on the stairs on the second floor, I looked down at the hall from a high position—as expected, Feng Xiansu did not let Xiao Zuo leave easily. The cavalry group surrounded Xiao Zuo in the center. Although Feng Xiansu stood aside, the sense of threat she exuded was stronger than that of the thirty-five cavalry. I was slightly surprised, although I had long heard that the name "Ziyuxiangman" was well-known in the world, but it was the first time she showed her sharpness in front of me. "Miss!" She also saw me, raised her head and said to me, "This person's identity is unknown, if we let him go at this moment, it will be at our disadvantage. Therefore, this subordinate made the decision without authorization and ordered the cavalry to stop him, and waited Missy, don’t blame me.”

As I walked downstairs slowly, I smiled at her and said, "Sister Xian Su handled this matter very well, how can I blame you?" As soon as these words came out, it wasn't Feng Xiansu who reacted first, but... the person Shi Shiran was standing in the encirclement. I saw Xiao Zuo turn around quickly, and I immediately felt his sharp blade-like eyes moving up and down my face slowly, almost cutting my face. I met his gaze, expressionless, but not flinching. After a while, he suddenly burst out laughing. Fortunately, I have had an experience before, and I know that sometimes laughing is not because I am happy, nor is it necessarily because I saw something funny, so I can still maintain an indifferent attitude, and ask coldly: "Why is Xiao Gongzi doing this?" Are you happy? Why don’t you say it so that everyone can have fun together?” Although his tone was cold, his heart was still sour. After knowing him for so long, this was the first time I called him "Mr. Xiao". Xiao Zuo suddenly stopped laughing, staring at me with burning eyes, and said word by word: "Miss Gong must force me to take action?" This time, it was me who laughed. "Young master Xiao has superb swordsmanship, but he doesn't bother fighting with iron cavalry?" I smiled lightly, and said lightly, "Then, with the addition of my Gong family's Tianxiang finger and Ziyu Xiangman, it's worth your shot, right?" As soon as the words fell, Xiao Zuo's whole body shook, as if someone had punched his chest hard. He stared at me deeply for a moment, smiled shyly, and said, "You...you think I will Are you pointing the Jinghong sword at you?" Shocking Sword?My breath was suddenly suffocated, and my heart suddenly and violently... Shocked!Hong!sword! I still remember that the first time Xiao Zuo pulled out the sword was to protect me; the second time, it was because of a misunderstanding with me... Ever since I knew the existence of this sword, every time it was drawn out, it was to protect me. I. So, this third time, could it be... actually, to fight against me? God!God!Why do you tease me like this?Why bother! My heart was full of sourness and embarrassment, my eyes gradually blurred, I stared blankly at Xiao Zuo, I felt that my eyes were full of him smiling at me, and it kept magnifying and magnifying, and I was unable to speak for a long time. When he was in a trance, Feng Xiansu suddenly said: "This man's swordsmanship is vicious. It is really worthless to let the cavalry fight with him, and it will only hurt his life. I have a plan. I wonder if the eldest lady would like to hear it?" I looked at her subconsciously, and said with my jaw: "Speak." I saw Feng Xiansu's eyes turned cold, and a ambiguous smile slowly emerged from the corner of his mouth, and his whole person suddenly felt a sense of gloom... My heart sank, and I suddenly realized—— Unless there is a miracle, otherwise, Xiao Zuo will definitely not escape this time!