Chapter 20 Chapter 20 Still Must Face

Gambo's operation was scheduled at nine o'clock in the morning, but Gan Lu was afraid that he would be nervous, so she decided to go to the hospital early to accompany him.She got up very early, washed up in a hurry, and still had some headaches, maybe it was the aftereffect of a hangover, but while she was rubbing her skin care products in front of the mirror, she made up her mind that she couldn't touch alcohol anymore.After tidying up, she opened the bedroom door and was surprised to find Shang Xiuwen sitting on the sofa in the living room. The light in the room was not very bright, and he leaned back slightly, as if he was closing his eyes to rest his mind. Looking from her, it was a clear and lonely silhouette.He opened his eyes and turned his head to look at her. For a moment, she couldn't see the expression on his face clearly, and stood there blankly.

Shang Xiuwen stood up. He was dressed very formally, with a white shirt, a navy blue suit, and a tie, making his figure even more slender: "Good morning." "Good morning." Gan Lu thought, it was a bit funny for a couple to greet each other so politely in the morning. Without waiting for her to think about it, Shang Xiuwen pointed to the coffee table: "I brought some books for you. Dad's operation today may take a long time. You can take a book to pass the time." Gan Lu had to thank him for his thoughtfulness, and walked over to take a book and put it in the bag: "I'm leaving."

"I'll take you to pick up the car." Of course Gan Lu remembered being picked up by Shang Xiuwen yesterday, and Baolai was still at his father's side: "Don't bother you, don't you have a meeting today?" Shang Xiuwen just smiled at her politeness. In the morning light, the corners of his mouth were raised and his eyes were slightly narrowed. This expression was a bit distressed, but there was a bit of resignation that seemed unsurprising and helpless: "Lulu, it's time for the meeting." It's not so early, after picking up the car, I'll accompany you to the hospital to see Dad first."

Gan Lu quickly looked away: "Okay, let's go." The two went downstairs and got into the Lexus.It was still early, and as far as the eye could see, there was a thin layer of mist flowing in the air, there were few vehicles on the road, and the cleaners were sweeping the floor. It seemed that the city hadn't fully woken up yet. Going downstairs to pick up the car from Gambo, Gan Lu drove Bora and followed Shang Xiuwen's car. Only then did she notice that the black Lexus LS460 he was driving had a J city license plate, and the mantissa was three very eye-catching 8s. It was Wu Changzhi's previous car.Could it be that he took over his uncle's position as the chairman, and even the car?She immediately felt that she was still in the mood to start this curiosity, which was a bit boring.

The two drove into the hospital one after the other, parked the car, and when they arrived at the ward, Gamble and Aunt Wang had also gotten up early.Gambo was obviously very nervous, and was sending Aunt Wang around. Seeing the two of them coming, Aunt Wang breathed a sigh of relief as if she had a savior. Shang Xiuwen sat down and started chatting with Gamble to divert his attention. Gan Lu went out for breakfast with Aunt Wang: "Don't blame my dad, his temper is really unbearable." Aunt Wang was used to it a long time ago: "Your father is just weird and selfish, but he is not a bad person."

Gan Lu had to admit that this evaluation couldn't be more objective. Of course Gambo is not a bad person, at least he has no malice towards others, let alone plotting against anyone. Most of the time, he is even bullied and plotting against others.It's just that he never learned to get along well with others, let alone put himself in other people's shoes. Fortunately, Aunt Wang can tolerate him. "When he is discharged from the hospital this time, I'll hire you a part-time job to do housework. Don't be too tired." Aunt Wang waved her hands again and again: "No need, Lulu, there are two people in the family, how many things can make me tired. Besides, I am also a hard worker, and it doesn't matter if I am a little bit tired."

Gan Lu smiled wryly: "I feel sorry for making you suffer so much." "What are you talking about?" Aunt Wang scolded, "I have been with your dad for so many years, no matter what, we have developed feelings for each other. It is right to take care of him at this time. No matter how bad-tempered he is, I hope he can be calm." An'an has a long life, it's better to walk behind me, I don't want to see who walks in front of me anymore." Gan Lu was moved by these words, and her eyes couldn't help getting moist: "Don't say that, I feel very uncomfortable after hearing that, from now on, you and my dad have to take good care of your health and live healthily, I will definitely Take care of you."

"You are a conscientious child. With your words, I am relieved." Gan Lu brought Shang Xiuwen some breakfast, walked to the door, and heard Gan Bo talking about the glory days of the textile factory that he never tired of talking about: "At that time, 70% of the workers in the factory could be allocated houses. When you work in a textile factory, others will envy you. When the order meeting is held in the factory, only an approximate delivery date is written. When the date comes, those who want the goods have to live in the guest house next to them, lest the goods will be taken away by others. .”

Shang Xiuwen smiled and said, "You must have been very busy at work then." "Yes, I am in charge of the maintenance and debugging of the machinery and equipment in the whole factory. Although I don't have to work three shifts with the front-line workers, it is common to work overtime. Alas, I didn't take good care of Lulu at that time. She is only a little tall, so she has to work on her own. Cook." "She's always been very capable." "I'm very happy to see her live so well after marrying you. Xiuwen, I know I won't be mistaken. When I leave the hospital, I can take care of your children with Aunt Wang. You can go to work with confidence." .”

Gan Lu stood stiffly at the door, only to hear Shang Xiuwen's voice calmly say: "The most important thing is to take good care of your health, don't worry about us." "Xiuwen is really patient." Aunt Wang smiled, and Gan Lu walked in with her. "Dad, hurry up and take a good rest, it's almost time for the operation." "I'm hungry, Lulu." Gamble looked eagerly at the lunch box in her hand. Aunt Wang said: "It's for Xiuwen, you can't eat it, you must strictly keep an empty stomach before the operation. Xiuwen, go out and eat, so that he won't be greedy."

Gan Lu and Shang Xiuwen sat on the bench in the corridor, and she opened the lunch box and handed it to Shang Xiuwen, which contained steaming steamed buns: "Eat it, I have to go to a meeting later." The hospital gradually became busy. The doctors and nurses began their routine rounds in the morning. The inpatients and their family members kept walking around in front of their eyes. This is really not a place where people can eat breakfast with peace of mind. A few buns stopped. Gan Lu looked at his profile, he looked a lot thinner, she hesitated, and said, "Thank you, Dad looks much more relaxed." Shang Xiuwen looked back at her, his eyes were as calm and gentle as before, this was the first time the two of them looked at each other without avoiding each other, "Lulu, if you do the same thing for me, I won't keep thanking you .Because you are my wife, I know I can trust you, rely on you, and face our lives with you." Gan Lu smiled shyly, and didn't question his trust again: "Yesterday, I'm sorry..." "Let's stop apologizing to each other, too, shall we?" She nodded.Of course, life goes on, and an apology doesn't do much to mend their relationship.It is already a great comfort to have someone sitting here to share her burden. The nurse came over to prepare Gambo before the operation. Shang Xiuwen looked at his watch: "Today's meeting is Yuanwang's next investment in Xusheng. I have to go. I don't know how long it will take. If there is any problem, You call me right away, and I'll come over." "it is good." Gamble's spleen removal operation was performed by Dr. Wu, a young surgeon from the Central Hospital.He came to the ward the day before and communicated with Gambo, Gan Lu and his daughter.He has a friendly attitude and explains the necessity and possible risks of the operation in concise language. Although he has a slightly childish round face, he looks competent and has the temperament of a professional. After Dr. Wu left, Aunt Wang was a little worried: "So young, can you do the surgery well?" Gan Lu reassured her: "This is just a minor operation. Professor Qiu also said that Dr. Wu looks young, but he is a Ph. D. and is a business elite in surgery. Don't worry about it." That being said, after signing the operation notice and sitting outside the operating room with Aunt Wang, Gan Lu was still uneasy and in no mood to read to pass the time. Aunt Wang suddenly pushed her and motioned her to look to the left. Gan Lu turned her head and saw a group of nearly 20 people walking over there, accompanied by reporters to take pictures and videotape, and her mother-in-law Wu Lijun was among them.The man walking in the center was in his fifties, he looked extraordinary, he was obviously a leader, and beside him was a middle-aged man in a white robe who was talking non-stop. As they got closer, the man could be heard saying: "Now there are 3,000 open hospital beds, more than 2 million outpatient visits each year, more than 70,000 hospital visits, and nearly 50,000 operating tables. Young doctors are growing rapidly. Hurry up, many of them are already able to take care of themselves, and the few operations performed today are performed by doctors trained by our hospital." Wu Lijun also saw Gan Lu, but she only glanced over, and continued with a smile: "The Central Hospital has achieved very good results in the past two years. Our next step is to strengthen the communication between hospitals in the province and make full use of the city's medical resources. The central hospital's first-level and second-level discipline doctoral programs and post-doctoral mobile stations drive the talent training work of relatively weak hospitals." The man who looked like a leader nodded slightly: "Director Wu's idea is good. Promoting the rational allocation of medical resources is an urgent task for the health systems in various places..." The group gradually walked away, and Aunt Wang whispered, "Your mother-in-law is really magnificent." Gan Lu admits that Wu Lijun's overly rigorous manner seems to be a bit of inhuman indifference at home, but on this occasion, she is indeed dignified and dignified. The operation did not last long, but it took more time for Gamble to wake up from general anesthesia than the average person. He was not pushed out of the observation room until around 1:00 in the afternoon. Dr. Wu told Gan Lu that the operation was a success. After passing the monitoring period, the next thing to do is to eliminate ascites treatment. Gamble was on ECG monitoring, fell asleep while infusing fluids, and looked quite peaceful.Both Gan Lu and Aunt Wang breathed a sigh of relief.This fashion Xiuwen called again to ask about the situation: "Lulu, I'm sorry, my meeting here hasn't finished yet, I'll come over as soon as it's over." "Don't worry, Dad should be fine now." Putting down the phone, Gan Lu asked Aunt Wang to go back first: "You go home and have a rest. You have been in the hospital for so many days, so go back to see your grandson. I took a day off today anyway. You can replace me tomorrow morning." Aunt Wang smiled and said, "No need, I'll come over at night. You are pregnant, so you can't stay in the hospital for so long." Gan Lu didn't say anything else, and sent Aunt Wang out, then moved the chair to the window to read.She has been upset recently and has not read novels for many days.I took out the book I put in this morning from my bag and saw that it was a novel by Keigo Higashino, a best-selling author in Japan. When she reads mystery novels, what she likes is the progressive and meticulous reasoning process. In fact, she doesn't like the violent, paranoid and bloody side that Japanese mystery novels like to exaggerate.I bought this book purely because of the high reviews online.But after buying it, just before the Spring Festival, she was worried about Shang Xiuwen who was far away in Brazil, and she was not in good spirits. She picked it up and read about ten pages, then put it aside. There is nothing left and right now, she opened it again and looked at it.The ward was very quiet except for the nurse who came in regularly to check the infusion and observe the drainage tube. Gan Lu only saw less than a third of the place, and the murderer had already been arrested, confessed to the crime, and the case had been solved, and the rest was all deduction of the motive of the crime.She couldn't help but feel less interested, and had to admit that, in her current state of mind, it might be better to read less such heavy and gloomy words. She put down her book, went to the window and looked outside. There were many sycamores planted in the hospital, and the branches were just covered with a little light yellow. Not realistic enough.Unknowingly, the cold winter has truly passed, and spring comes quietly and inadvertently. She was in a trance when she heard a light knock on the door behind her. Looking back, she saw Wu Lijun standing at the door. "Mom, why are you here?" Wu Lijun walked in, stood at the end of the bed to look at Gambo, and then took a look at the nursing registration form hanging at the end of the bed: "I accompanied the leaders of the department to check the work. I just sent them away, so I stopped by to have a look. Is everything okay?" "The doctor said the operation was a success." Gan Lu paused, "Thank you mom for your trouble." Wu Lijun was not polite, and looked at her: "Your complexion is still not good, you should pay attention to nutrition and rest." "Thank you mom, I'll keep an eye on it." "It's inconvenient to live in Yian's place, so let's move back." With Wu Lijun's personality, status, and way of doing things, Gan Lu immediately felt that she couldn't refuse such words, so she could only say, "Mom, I want to wait until Dad is well taken care of for a while." Wu Lijun nodded: "Xiuwen will be very busy during this period, don't blame him for not having time to take care of you. And because of your miscarriage this time, he is in a very bad mood, so you should be considerate of him." Gan Lu glanced nervously at Gambo, and was relieved when she saw him lying motionless, and whispered, "Mom, I know." "Xiuwen has always been serious about you. I hope you don't care too much about his shares in Xusheng. After all, it's not that he deliberately concealed anything from you, and it's not a matter of principle." Gan Lu could only say "hmm". "I have received the embryo histopathological examination and chromosomal examination reports, and the fetus has no pathological or genetic defects." Gan Lu looked straight at her mother-in-law, not understanding the meaning of the words: "What inspection?" Wu Lijun continued: "I asked the hospital to take your aborted embryo for testing, that is to say, the child's miscarriage was not due to congenital factors, I guess it should have something to do with you worrying about your father and running back and forth emotionally. You are still young, you can rest assured that as long as you pay attention to your body and get pregnant after a suitable period of time, you will definitely have a healthy child with Xiuwen." Gan Lu's face was pale and she was completely speechless.At this time, Shang Xiuwen strode in and said in a deep voice, "Mom, stop talking." Before Gan Lu could say anything, Gambo, who was lying on the bed, suddenly spoke weakly: "Lulu, did you have a miscarriage? What's going on?" Gan Lu was startled, hurried to the head of the bed, forced a smile and said, "I'm fine, Dad." "When did you have a miscarriage? Did you miscarry because of my illness?" Gamble looked very emotional and struggled to sit up. Shang Xiuwen stepped over and held him down: "Dad, don't get excited, Lulu is fine, don't think about it." Wu Lijun said in a deep voice, "Be careful not to press him on the drainage tube." However, Gamble seemed to be irritable and just stared at his daughter: "Lulu, tell me, what's wrong with you?" Gan Lu's eyes were red, and she held back her tears and said, "Dad, you lie still and don't move, and be careful of the wound, I'm really fine." Gambo completely ignored her words and just struggled. Shang Xiuwen didn't dare to press too tightly because he was afraid that he would push harder.Gan Lu saw the drainage tube in his abdomen fall off, and the bloody drainage fluid flowed out. She cried out in fright. Wu Lijun walked over quickly, pushed her away, pressed the call button on the bedside, and stabilized the infusion fluid at the same time. shelf. After a while, the doctor and nurse on duty hurried in and immediately asked the family members to leave.After a while, Professor Qiu Mingde also came over. Gan Lu stared nervously at the door of the ward, and Wu Lijun frowned and said, "It's not difficult to deal with the drainage tube falling off, as long as there is no extensive abdominal bleeding, it doesn't matter." For the first time, Shang Xiuwen felt helpless about his mother's professionalism and calmness, as well as her indifference to other people's emotions. He said in a deep voice, "Mom, you should go back first." Before Wu Lijun could say anything, Gan Lu shook off Shang Xiuwen's hand: "Please go back." Wu Lijun was a little surprised: "What's your attitude?" Gan Lu was so angry that her body couldn't help shaking, she tried to control her emotions: "I'm sorry, Mom, my father was hospitalized for surgery this time, I want to thank you for your care, but why do you have to say those words in the ward to provoke him? ?” "How do I know that you didn't tell him about the miscarriage. Patients with liver cirrhosis are prone to irritable and suspicious emotions, especially your father's liver cirrhosis caused by alcoholism. It is normal to have manic reactions after the effects of anesthesia... ..." "Mom—" Shang Xiuwen interrupted Wu Lijun, "Stop talking." At this time, Professor Qiu came out and said to Wu Lijun: "Director Wu, the drainage tube has been inserted again. Judging by the color of the drainage fluid, there should be no extensive abdominal bleeding. We gave the patient a little sedative, and he has calmed down. Yes. Originally, the first-level nursing care was enough for this operation, but considering the patient’s current condition, I think it would be better to transfer him to the intensive care unit for a few days of 24-hour special care.” Wu Lijun nodded: "Yes." The nurse immediately pushed the cart to transfer Gan Bo, Gan Lu looked at the busy process blankly, and couldn't help but be anxious: "Professor Qiu, can't I go in and accompany me?" Professor Qiu comforted her: "Don't worry, there are experienced nurses in the intensive care unit to provide uninterrupted care, who can observe the patient's condition more carefully and take targeted measures. If you are worried, you can stay in the hospital at night. In the ward, I will let you know at any time if there is any situation." Gan Lu could only nod her head and say, "Thank you." "Secretary Li, you should also pay attention to the psychological care of the patient during the treatment process. It's not just a brief talk before the operation." Wu Lijun said lightly to Secretary Li of the hospital who came later. Secretary Li smiled and said: "Director Wu, I will discuss with experts to see if we can arrange professional psychological counseling to facilitate the patient's recovery and next step of treatment." After Wu Lijun left, Shang Xiuwen looked at the pale Gan Lu, and held her hand again: "Go in and rest for a while." This time Gan Lu did not resist, and followed him into the ward, lying on the accompanying bed, Shang Xiuwen sat down beside the bed: "I apologize on behalf of my mother, she didn't mean it." "Please also apologize to my mother on my behalf. My attitude just now...was a little too much." They realize at the same time that they had just promised to never apologize to each other again this morning.However, they now look at each other with pain and helplessness in their eyes. Gan Lu looked away, looked at the ceiling, and said in a low voice: "Xiuwen, no matter what you and your mother think, I have to make one thing clear. I never thought that the purpose of my existence as your wife is to give you life. A healthy child." "I've never thought about it that way. I have to say one more thing. I want to live with you, so I want a child that belongs to us." Shang Xiuwen's voice was hoarse and deep. However, that child is gone, and it has become a group of embryonic tissues for laboratory examination, quietly staying in test tubes for human analysis. Thinking of what Wu Lijun said, Gan Lu had no choice but to close her eyes to keep the tears from coming out again. Gambo spent three days in the intensive care unit, and when Gan Lu was allowed to visit, she found that the so-called special care was not just talk.Needless to say, the doctor made many rounds, and the nurses took 2-hour shifts to regularly measure Gambo’s body temperature, pulse, respiration, and blood pressure, closely observe and record the drainage tube, evaluate his skin, abdominal circumference, abdominal distension, and mental changes, and help him turn over , Massage, maintaining body and oral hygiene, etc., are things that family members cannot do no matter how careful they are. Moreover, the hospital specially sent a psychiatrist over to have a certain amount of time of dialogue and counseling with Gambo every day. His mood gradually calmed down. Although he still couldn't help but sigh and blame himself when he saw Gan Lu, he was no longer irritable and agitated. He finally survived the special monitoring period and was transferred back to the ward for first-level care.Gan Lu breathed a sigh of relief, but Aunt Wang suddenly caught a cold, and she was still holding on. When the doctor found out, he immediately advised her to go back to rest: "After the splenectomy, the patient will have postoperative fever, and the immune function will be weakened, so it must not be infected. .” Recently, Gan Lu has transferred too many classes, and she can no longer ask for leave.After receiving the call, she took her lunch break and rushed to the hospital to hire a nurse to take care of Gamble, and then hurried back to school, but she was still worried.She knew very well that Gamble was too strict with Aunt Wang, but he was always too courteous and courteous to strangers, and he would not casually raise reasonable demands.She got off work and drove to the hospital in a hurry.Walking to the front of the ward, I heard Shang Xiuwen's voice. "I like to eat the mixed casserole made by Lulu." Gamble talked about her daughter's pride: "She knows how to cook without a teacher, and no one has taught her at all. My favorite is the tomato beef brisket she made, and I haven't eaten it for a long time." Shang Xiuwen stayed with her in the hospital for a day and a night. He went to City J the day before yesterday, and he didn't call her before returning today. She was a little surprised, but she was somewhat relieved, and she couldn't help feeling a little dazed. She has no choice but to learn how to cook. She only knows the basic dishes, and she has no interest in studying them, nor does she have much enthusiasm for cooking.After marriage, apart from doing early business every day, she didn't take the part-time job to take the initiative to cook and show off.She only cooks when she goes back to her father's house and Aunt Wang is away. Of course she was impressed with the assorted casserole that Shang Xiuwen mentioned, because that was almost the only meal she cooked for him, and it was also the beginning of their inseparable love that day. In a blink of an eye, they had been married for more than two years. She once thought that they had found the right way to get along, but now, their relationship seemed to be back to the starting point of their acquaintance, and even further apart.If there is a little uncertainty in love, it may increase the sweetness, but after marriage, it will only erode mutual trust.Thinking of this, she couldn't help but feel sad, she forced herself to go in, and said with a smile: "It's very easy to eat tomato and beef brisket. As long as the doctor says you can eat it, I will make it for you." "Lulu, why are you running over here again? You need to rest well now and get your body back on track." Seeing that Shang Xiuwen and Gan Lu looked a little sad, he couldn't help being anxious, "You are still young, and there will be opportunities in the future. That day Didn't your mother-in-law also say that? There will definitely be a healthy child. I will definitely not drag you down in the future. " "Dad, it's fine, what are you talking about?" Gan Lu had to admit that she was partial to her father. She would be angry if her mother-in-law said the same thing, but facing her father, she could only feel sad and helpless. "If you hadn't been busy for my hospitalization, you would definitely not have a miscarriage." Gamble complained to himself, "Xiuwen, I am really sorry for you." "Dad, don't say that. It was just an accident. I will take good care of Lulu in the future. Don't worry." Shang Xiuwen's voice remained steady, but Gan Lu could see the pain in his eyes, and quickly changed the subject: "Have you ordered dinner for today?" According to the doctor's suggestion, after Gambo resumed eating, he ate a nutritious meal prepared by the hospital suitable for postoperative patients. According to him, it was definitely not delicious.He didn't complain about the food today: "It's ordered, Xiao Li went to get it, I asked him to order all the three meals for tomorrow's morning, lunch and dinner by the way, you don't have to worry about it." While talking, the nurse Xiao Li brought back the nutritious meal, and Gambo asked the two of them to go back: "Xiu Wen didn't come back until this afternoon, so he came to see me. He will be on a business trip tomorrow, so he must be very tired. With Xiao Li here By the way, you two don't need to stay with me here, go back to eat and rest quickly." Xiao Li is a very simple and honest rural boy, Gan Lu told him a few more words, and was about to come out with the monk Xiuwen, when he accidentally saw a colorful fruit basket and some American ginseng supplements placed by the window : "Hey, Dad, who sent this?" "Looking at my memory, I almost forgot to tell you. Many people came to see me today. First, Jiaxi came over, carried a lot of things, and sat for a while before leaving." "Who else?" "That fruit basket was brought by another friend of yours. She came here not long after Jiaxi left." "Friend?" Gan Lu didn't tell anyone about her father's hospitalization, but Qian Jiaxi asked her to have a meal and talk with her in the morning, and she really didn't have time, so she told her. "Did you say what your last name is and what you look like?" Gamble frowned and thought about it, but couldn't figure it out, "Xiao Li, what did she say her last name was?" Xiao Li said with a smile: "My surname is He, she is tall and pretty." "Yes, yes, it's Miss He. After all, young people have a good memory. She said that she is your friend. She heard that I was hospitalized, so she came to see me and asked if you are feeling better now." Gan Lu looked at Shang Xiuwen in astonishment, Shang Xiuwen was sullen and expressionless.She originally wanted to ask what her father had said to the other party, but after thinking about it again, with Gamble's personality, how could he stop his superficial sympathy and concern, she probably said everything that should be said and what should not be said, so she simply kept her mouth shut I don't ask anymore. Gamble continued: "Lulu, remember to call her to thank her." Gan Lu reluctantly agreed, "I see." "That classmate of yours, Nie Qian, came to see me again just now. This time, he has already troubled him a lot. Xiuwen thanked him again and again, and you should also remember to call him." Gan Lu nodded: "Okay." The two left the ward and walked out of the inpatient building together. "Lulu, I didn't know she was here." "Of course, she won't specifically inform you that she is coming to visit your father-in-law." Gan Lu said indifferently. Shang Xiuwen knew clearly that He Jingyi's behavior had offended her.However, he has no position to apologize on behalf of He Jingyi, and he knows that at this moment, he can't solve his wife by saying anything, he can only talk about other things. "At present, the third sister-in-law has filed for divorce and has applied to freeze Xusheng's shares under Wu Wei's name. It is no longer possible for him to do business with Yixin." "Are you reassuring me that you won't have the possibility of sitting with He Jingyi for a meeting or even working together?" Gan Lu stared straight ahead with a cold expression, "Xiuwen, you think I'm too narrow and suspicious. Listen now After your experience like that, I never thought about rekindling your old relationship, not to mention that Yi Xin has always had schemes against Xu Sheng. Even if Ms. He has an iron nerve and yearns to have a meeting with you, you probably I wouldn’t be so happy to accompany you.” Shang Xiuwen had to smile wryly: "You have always seen the problem clearly. I just want you to know that I have already rejected the one-on-one meeting with He Jingyi in J City. The purpose of her coming here is nothing but to anger you. You don't need to satisfy her. .” Gan Lu didn't speak, and walked all the way to the empty parking lot, then took out her mobile phone, trying to find He Jingyi's number, but they only talked once, and she didn't save that number.Shang Xiuwen knew what she wanted to do, and said, "I'll call her, and I'll tell her not to harass Dad anymore." Gan Lu sneered: "I'll thank you personally, after all, she came to see my father." Shang Xiuwen was silent, took out his mobile phone, dialed a number and handed it to her. "Xiuwen, hello." He Jingyi's voice came out. "Sorry, Miss He, it's me." He Jingyi was taken aback for a moment: "Oh, what a surprise—Mrs. Shang, hello." "Accident? I think you should be waiting for my call after being an uninvited guest this afternoon." "That's right, let's make an appointment to meet." Gan Lu said bluntly: "There is no need for that. What I want to say is very simple: we have never been friends, please don't use this name to disturb my father in the future." He Jingyi chuckled: "Be polite, be polite, Mrs. Shang, pay attention to your manners, your father is very polite and honest." Gan Lu said coldly: "If your behavior is aboveboard, even if I hate you, I will naturally be polite. But why should I be polite to a stranger who behaves suspiciously and has ulterior motives." "Then what do you think my motives are?" "Do you still want me to guess riddles? I'm sorry, Miss He, I'm not that cruel. Basically, you are neither mysterious nor suspenseful now. I don't need to analyze your poor intentions." He Jingyi was irritated by this sentence: "You can still put on the posture of a winner, Mrs. Shang, I have to admire you. You must have a strong ability to deceive yourself and others, right?" Gan Lu smiled slightly: "No, I may have many shortcomings, but I dare say, I never deceive myself." "Okay then, since you are so brave to face the facts, let's analyze it. You married a man with a past you don't understand at all, and your marriage has problems that you can't imagine. Didn't keep..." "Shut up, you don't deserve to mention my child at all." Gan Lu's face turned pale, and she interrupted sharply.Shang Xiuwen's complexion also changed drastically, and he looked at her worriedly: "Lulu, let me tell her." Gan Lu ignored him and only held the phone tightly. "Is Xiuwen here? You shouldn't have called me in front of him. Do you think this can prove your importance? It's too stupid. Your child is not as precious and unique as you think, Mrs. Shang. Don’t be surprised to hear the news. I was pregnant with Xiuwen once. If it weren’t for some irreparable things, I would be the mother of Xiuwen’s child. He must be very sad now. I feel sorry for him. He shouldn’t be pregnant again. Go through this pain once." "Unfortunately, your news is not as shocking as you imagined. It's really touching to be so thoughtful and considerate to your old lover. But for the nostalgic part, I'm afraid you have found the wrong person to confide in." Gan Lu regained her composure and said coldly Said, "Don't just pay attention to listing other people's lives, Miss He, I was surprised by your enthusiasm from the very beginning. I suddenly found that if I wasn't a little cruel, you would be endless and very unwilling. Okay, let me tell you what I understand." "I'm all ears." "You have very good and deep memories with Xiuwen, and you even have a child who was not born." "Lulu—" Shang Xiuwen called her name in a deep voice, holding her shoulders tightly with his hands, causing her shoulder blades to ache. Said in a business-like tone without any emotion: "Perhaps since then, no other man has loved you like that, or in other words, you have never loved another man like that." "Interesting reasoning." "Even if you know that there is no possibility of a new start with him, you can't bear that he has a marriage, a normal family, and maybe even another child, and lives a life that has nothing to do with you. I'm right Pretty much right?" He Jingyi was silent for a while, then spoke again, her voice was hoarse and angry: "Why do you presume on me like this?" "Because you speculate on others first, Miss He, I'm afraid you have to accept the same treatment from others. And I don't need to speculate at all. Your behavior has clearly expressed your psychology." He Jingyi suddenly laughed loudly: "You are right about one thing, Xiuwen and I used to love each other very much, I can't love another man the way I love him, and likewise, he can't love another man the way he loves me A woman. You may have married him, and if you tolerated it enough, you could live with him forever. But his passion, the love of his youth, will always be mine, and you will never have the chance to experience it." Gan Lu remained calm, and said with a slight sarcasm: "Such a passion that burns for so many years is really admirable. But don't you think it will damage the sanctity of your relationship if you show it off so often?" To what extent? It’s better to keep it alone, don’t share it with me anymore.” He Jingyi retorted: "Then you don't have to show off your so-called normal family to me. What you get is a man who compromised with life. He married you when it was time to get married, and had a baby with you when it was time to have children." Child. Do you think this step-by-step life is worthy of my envy?" "That's true. But why are you so concerned with a life you're scornful of? And can't wait to see if it doesn't go on?" This question seemed to be difficult for He Jingyi at last, she was silent for a while, and suddenly said quietly: "Yes, I can't let go of Xiuwen." Gan Lu was not surprised by this frankness, but she didn't know what to say for a while, no matter how angry she was, she couldn't help feeling a little in awe of other people's deep feelings. However, He Jingyi immediately sneered, and continued: "Of course I can't bear to see a man who used to be so energetic become so content with a mediocre life." Gan Lu also sneered: "Do you want to save Xiuwen from this mediocre life? It's such a great feeling, I don't understand it, but I have no objection—" "Lulu," Shang Xiuwen interrupted her again, put his hands on her shoulders together, hugged her into his arms, stared into her eyes, and said in a low but clear voice, "You don't have to waste time with irrelevant people discuss our lives." 甘璐看他一眼，冷冷地移开视线，继续对着手机说：“如果他也想被你拯救，我更不会挡在你们前面。可是想必刚才他说什么你听到了吧？贺小姐。也许你没想到，他居然会觉得平庸的生活似乎也有平庸的可贵之处，既不急于逃离，也不想跟不相干的人分享。” 贺静宜的声音森然：“你相信你愿意相信的好了，尚太太。” “我们之间，只有一个人是在一厢情愿相信她愿意相信的，那个人肯定不是我。坦白讲，我认为你目前的心理来得有点儿变态，如果去看看心理医生矫正一下，对你会比较好，不过这跟我不相干。总之，你爱怎么样跟他没完没了，随便你了。我只再说一次，别再来纠缠我，更别来打扰我父亲。” 甘璐将微微发烫的手机交还给尚修文，挣脱他的手，转身向停在一边的宝来走去，尚修文一把拉住了她：“你已经对她的行为和目的看得很清楚了，何必还要这么愤怒。” “我看得清的不只是她的行为和目的，修文，有很多事，我发现我都不得不看清了。不过看得清是一回事，想得透、放得下恐怕就是另一回事了。” 她试图挣脱他的手，然而他反而将她拉回怀中圈得更紧：“我知道她跟你说了什么，璐璐，我不否认，我爱过她，可那是过去的事了。” 甘璐挣扎一下，没法脱身，就在他怀里安静下来，定定看着他：“修文，现在还来讲这些，我只能认为你是在装傻了。你真的认为我仅仅是在计较往事吗？” 尚修文一手搂住她，一手抬起，手指将她最近因为没有时间修剪而长得接近遮住眼睛的刘海向后掠去：“我知道，你并不是计较。只是我让你失望了，不光有一个复杂的过去没跟你交代清楚，更要命的是，还让这个过去伤害到我们的现在。我知道我说什么，也不能让你满意。” 甘璐沉默一会儿才开口：“看来你也并不是什么都清楚。那么，请你先去处理好你的过去，别让她再来骚扰我，不然我们没什么好谈的。” “我会去处理。可是越是这种时候，你越应该和我在一起，而不是摆出一个与你无关的神态在旁边看着。” “你想要我怎么做？在她面前和你表现得恩爱吗？不过，”甘璐牵起嘴角笑了，“什么样的恩爱敌得过她回忆里与你的相处？那样的激情让她一直怀念到今天。就算我突然找到了演戏的天赋，能够克服跟你的疏远，去她面前演真人秀，她大概都会品评说：'修文以前抱我更用力一些。'”说完这句话，她似乎也有些厌弃加受惊了，不知道是对着自己还是想象中的另一个人，做出一个恶心欲吐的表情，“对不起，我可真不能配合你了。” “你这么介意她说的那些话吗？” “我没你这么淡定。是的，我很介意。” 尚修文的手指在她发间僵住，停了好一会儿，他苦涩地说：“你现在能理解我为什么一直避而不谈那些往事了吧，我知道，只要一说，你就会质疑我的一切。” 甘璐蓦地盯住他：“到了现在，你居然还觉得对我的隐瞒是一个善意、理智的举动，甚至是为了我好吗？”她无声地笑了，“谢谢你对我智商的评价，真的很恰如其分。顺便问你一句，你娶我，大概就是看中了我并没有刨根问底的习惯这一点吧？” 尚修文没想到谈话急转直下到了这里：“如果你认为我的表白是有意义的，我愿意再说一次，我和你结婚，是因为我爱你。” “请问，你是跟从前爱贺静宜一样爱我吗？”甘璐冷冷地问。 “别拿我对你的爱去跟一段过去的感情做比较，那是不一样的。” “当然，那是不一样的。”甘璐重复着他的这句话，表情再度漠然，“至少在结束以后，我不大可能有一个激情似火的回忆。可是修文，你是不是觉得我该认命，安心领受你这个不一样的爱？” “你一定要这样曲解我的意思，我们还怎么交流。” “你没试过跟我坦诚以待，就不要再谈什么交流。恐怕我没法回到从前那个茫然无知，等你来赏赐真相的状态中去了。” “璐璐，从刚一认识你起，我就知道你的聪明与敏锐。就算我对你有所隐瞒，也只是因为我认为那些事与我们的生活没有什么关系。如果我只是把结婚当成人生一件必须完成的事，娶一个不麻烦的太太给我生孩子，那么显然，有很多人比你更合适。” “尚修文—”甘璐声音沙哑地叫他的名字，停了一会儿，她轻声说，“我们没法沟通了，你和我说的始终不是同一件事。” “我们可以坐下来好好谈，你想说的是什么，我一定认真听。” “没必要了。就算是从前，你表现得懒散、没事业心、冷淡，也一直是很有吸引力的男人，不然我不会在没百分之百确定你爱我时，就答应和你结婚。以你现在公开的条件，更可以找到大把的女孩子争相嫁给你，为你生孩子。我不会占据这个位置，耽搁你的家庭大计，我们……” 尚修文的手蓦地收紧，她重重地撞到他胸前，身体突如其来地与他挤压在了一起，这个力度强烈得她的呼吸都有些窘迫了，她被动地抬起头，他的脸离她很近，昏暗的光线下，他的眼神锋利地盯着她，然后开了口，清晰地说：“璐璐，永远不要跟我说那两个字，我不同意。”他再逼近她一点儿，一字一句仿佛要直接烙在她的意识之中，“请你也稍微尊重一下我们的婚姻，别总做出你能轻易放弃一切的洒脱姿态。” 甘璐徒劳地用手抵住他的身体，试图撑开一点距离，让自己能正常呼吸，然而手按在他的胸前，根本无法推动他分毫，她只觉得隔了薄薄一件衬衫，他胸口的位置跳动得猛烈强劲，与自己的脉搏同样不规则。她因为呼吸急促而有些头晕了，竟然没法回应他的这个指责。 当他终于放开她一些时，她深深呼吸着，好一会儿说不出话。 "I'll walk you home."